— r u mine?
song ; r u mine? by arctic monkeys.
character(s) ; pantalone
genre ; songfic, hurt no comfort, angst, modern au
word count ; 1415
cw/tw ; cheating, breakup??, moody/soft pantalone, not proofread
a/n ; IM SORRY ILL MAKE Y/N THE GOOD GUY NEXT TIME
i also have a very small insert from this fic which i didn't include so if yall would like to read it then let me know !!
i'm a puppet on a string
“leaving so soon to mondstadt, dear?”
pantalone’s velvety voice echoed throughout the room. you turn your head around, meeting his twinkling eyes. you put your hands in your pockets as he looked at you keenly.
“aha… yeah. there are places where i need to be, unfortunately. oh, and there has been a slight change in venue; i'm going to liyue instead.”
before you could leave the room, pantalone stood up and made his way towards you. he admired every single feature of your face dearly, his hands cupping your cheeks. he gently pressed his lips on your forehead, and gave you a warm smile.
you swiftly placed your hands over his, attempting to remove them from your cheeks. his smile faltered as you averted his gaze. you sighed, as you took your phone from your pocket.
“...i’m sorry. but, i really need to get going. see you, pantalone.”
you gave him a stiff smile and left the room without another word. pantalone stared at you as you made your way out of the room, climbing down the marble staircase. ‘they’ve never called me by my name…’ he thought. what has gotten into you over the past weeks?
tracy island, time-travelling
diamond cutter-shaped heartaches
you didn’t usually act like this. pantalone took a seat next to the window, staring at the velvet, morning sky. he traced every moment that might’ve led to your strange behaviour towards him, but he was unable to find anything that wasn’t justified.
did he do anything wrong? he had given you everything you had ever asked for; diamonds, the finest wine from angel’s share, pristine jewels, antique machines from fontaine - you name it, he could get it for you. and he would seize it by any means necessary, as it was worth something not even money could buy - your tender smile.
come to find you four in some velvet morning
years too late, she's a silver lining
whatever might be the reason for your sudden loss of interest towards him over the past few weeks, he would find a way to make it right. to him, you were the silver lining to his cloud, the rainbow after the rain. you lit up his world like nobody else, and if anyone were to quench the light, he would forever remain in the darkness.
he had already ruled out any part from his side to contribute to your mood, but was there something going on from your point of view? his darkest suspicions confirmed, his eyes widened at the thought of your waist held by somebody else other than him.
lone ranger riding through an open space
in my mind when she's not right there beside me
‘now to think of it, they keep tilting their phone towards themselves whenever i come around…’
‘no, you should never lose faith in your lover,’ he thought. ‘there has to be some concrete explanation for this.’ but his thoughts alone couldn’t assure himself. he paced around the bedroom, attempting to calm himself down.
hands in his pocket, he couldn’t stop himself from reminiscing the times he had with you. he thought of the time when he was flipping through pages of ‘the pale princess and the six pygmies’ as you laid your head upon his chest and slept soundly, and the time when you played with his wavy hair as he told you about his day.
he knew that thinking of him and you being together was the only hope that he held on to.
i go crazy 'cause here isn't where i wanna be
it had been a week since you had left off to liyue, and pantalone was free as ever, quite unusual for a harbinger. he couldn’t stop to bring himself away from the thought of your enchanting presence. if only you were right next to him, so that he could spend these countless hours with you.
so, why not utilise his time in visiting mondstadt’s goth grand hotel? he definitely needed a break and some time to distract himself from you. besides, it was definitely a pleasant visit to the hotel the last time he had been there.
and satisfaction feels like a distant memory
once he set foot in mondstadt city, he couldn’t stop thinking of you. he didn’t know how, but somehow going to the hotel made his heart ache for you even more. the happy, little moments of you and him in mondstadt reeled in his mind; the time when he surprised you with a bouquet of cecilias brought back sweet memories.
oh, and he could not ever seem to forget the time when the both of you had a date under the moonlight. a relaxed pantalone enjoyed the breathtaking scenery, red wine swirling in his cup, while you laid your head on his shoulder under the star-strewn sky.
and i can't help myself, all i
pantalone sighed as he walked towards the statue of the anemo archon, eyes searching for a sign of the goth grand hotel. it had been a while since he had been to mondstadt, and so he was searching through the bustling crowds for any signs of luke, that arrogant fatui guard.
“you know, you’re really something else.”
pantalone’s eyes widened - was that really you? he brushed it off, thinking that it was just a figment of his imagination. he kept searching through the city for luke.
“it’s fine, he’ll never know.”
and there it was again. a cold shudder tingled down his spine. what were you doing here in mondstadt? wasn’t the venue of your business meeting shifted to liyue? with his questions unanswered, he swiftly turned towards the direction of the sound.
“...[name]?”
wanna hear her say is "are you mine?"
and there you were, your waist being held by another. only a string of saliva was separating you and your new-found lover beside you. hearing the sound of pantalone’s velvety voice, you turned around, your glassy eyes meeting his.
“p-pantalone? what are you doing her-”
“it’s me who should be asking that question, [name].”
the one who held you close had let go, and you felt a tear trickle down your cheek. pantalone was filled with emotions by what he had just witnessed – he was sad, shaken and most definitely furious with you. after all you both had been through, he would’ve never imagined you, out of everybody else in the world, to double cross his heart.
secretly, he hoped that the one tear that trickled down your cheek was for him.
well, are you mine?
pantalone never showed his emotions to anybody except you. but now, he found himself frozen in front of you, his eyes welling up with tears. he straightened his glasses and tried to speak, but his quivering lips couldn’t bring themselves to move. did everything he’d do for you mean nothing?
“i’m sorry, i was going to tell you but i-”
“save it, [name]. there’s no point in apologizing and promising not to ever do it again because i know that you won’t keep it. besides, promises are meant to be broken, and you are notorious for breaking them.”
are you mine?
“pantalone…”
that was enough to make pantalone snap. after all he’s witnessed, he simply couldn’t forgive you anymore. if there was someone else, then that meant that he wasn’t ‘good enough’ for you, didn’t it? even after the countless, expensive gifts he had gotten for you, the unconditional love he had shown for you, and all of the seconds he had to spare were all spent for you.
plus, if this was just one incident that he had witnessed, he couldn’t bring himself to imagine all the incidents that were unseen.
“oh, and one more thing – keep my pretty name out of your mouth.”
are you mine?
on normal days, he would never hurt you to this extent, as he believed that you would never do the same thing to him. but now his cold, stern expression that he wore only when he was on duty was now displayed on his pale features.
he strode out of the scene, leaving you and your new-found lover all alone, just like you wanted. he was never like this to others, usually keeping himself calm and composed, no matter what happened inside. but what happened with you and him, this time was different.
because, after a painstakingly long time, the one whom you held close to yourself had finally let go.
fic by @/mxmentos on tumblr.
note: i do not own any of the lyrics in this story, they belong to the original creators of the song. please support the artist(s) by listening to the song linked above, thank you <33
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