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redbean-nom · 4 days

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Cadets

(aka trash children, chaos children, and children who understand 98 is getting graded on this)

Inspired by @thefoundationproject! Closeups under the cut:

jesse got this pic from jangotat:

#star wars #tcw #soft wars #doodling in the soft wars sandbox #i think that'll be my tag for these things #alpha 6 #commander fox #commander neyo #alpha 17 #captain rex #commander wolffe #jangotat #commander doom #commander davijaan #(probably?)#shebse #edee #chekar #i may have messed up the ages oops #but hey we can pretend that the shebse found rex when he was a baby/toddler but he didn't officially join the squad until he was older!#hopefully i did 6's expression justice #against his better instincts he loves his trash children but he is also so so tired of fishing them out of the garbage #6 is grumpy as always; 98 is smug as always; and 17 is too busy getting bitten by a baby to have any other concerns at the moment #(he is about to have many more concerns)#wolffe climbed up 17s back to bite him while he was distracted with the tubie gnawing on his arm #specifically to bite 17s neck because he saw a video of an actual wolf taking down a space-deer and wanted to try it out #i just realized the alphas were still in training for most of the cadet-raising #poor 17 had to write strategy essays or whatever with four 10 yr olds competing to see who can provoke him the most #and a 6 yr old chomping on his ankles #not to mention 16 in the soft wars eu dealing with half of 44's squad on top of his own cadets and probably assorted shebse too

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r0semultiverse · 7 months

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Digital Circus AMA Notes

Digital Circus is getting a season 1 at some point!!!!

#webcore aesthetic board for the series design

Pomni was going to be a frog originally. 🐸

90s toys Zooble inspo

Caine is an antagonist, but not by active choice, he doesn't know he's not helping. He doesn't feel a whole spectrum of human emotions (he's an AI).

"Caine canonically just lets things happen if he thinks it's funny."

Characters eat like Chao in Chao garden in Sonic. The characters can eat the food, but they can't digest it.

Jax's favorite food is spaghetti.

Pomni likes salmon.

Q "Was the ending a 'Last Supper' reference?" A "in a very superficial kinda way yeah." Religious stuff is sometimes just used for the funny.

Gooseworx tumblr sketches MAY or MAY NOT be canon to the series, so it's up in the air for every single one.

People can abstract from feeling too much pain if it breaks their mind from it being too much. Characters feel pain from things, but not as intensely as they would in real life.

Zooble is gonna swap parts every episode (implying they have spare parts) except their body & head.

Jax chose his own name & gooseworx likes to think he chose Gangle's name.

Ragatha was named "Emmy" originally.

They (the cast of characters trapped in the circus) can't change their clothes but Caine can. It's part of their skin sorta kinda.

There's empty space under Pomni's hat because video game model physics.

Spamton was partially inspo for Caine, Caine's VA did Spamton dubs.

Gangle only has 2 masks. Why's it (her hapiness mask) break all the time? Mental state, but the "real her" is "harder to break."

Kaumfo was gonna be part of the main cast originally before Jax.

Kaufmo's model has nothing below the waist at this time, but was made for that promotional image on twitter.

Q "What kinda person was Kaufmo?" A "He was the same as Ragatha in a sense, goofy & cheery, sometimes toxic levels of positivity."

I'm paraphrasing for the sake of note taking in real time, go watch the stream playback for more context & details if you want.

#these are all from GLITCHX 2023 on the glitch productions youtube channel btw #for anyone curious as to where I got the screenshots & details #theory crafters pop off with this #someone else can reblog this with time stamps if you want I'm pretty tired #I'm not going back through that stream right now; I'm sure someone else will put timestamps in the comments maybe #but yeah consider the amazing digital circus officially greenlit for a first season I guess! :D #tadc season 1 eventually baybeee!!#I'm hyped! I wonder if the pilot will remain canon into season 1 or if we'll get a new introduction into the series.#Wonder why Jax called Gangle... well Gangle 👀 maybe he just thought it sounded silly or something i'm curious as to what gooseworx thought #Caine's AI really thought Pomni running around looking for him & Kaufmo abstracted in his room was funny 😐 or his AI is glitchy #(we saw him glitching out already in the pilot) alternatively I think Bubble could be distracting Caine on purpose but idk just yet #imagine how much pain Ragatha was in since they can all actually feel that though like being body slammed & thrown against walls & stuff 😬#also excited to see some Gangle-centric content in the future based on that comment about the 'real her' 👀#Kaufmo would probably make jokes at really dark moments when it wasn't appropriate because that was a coping mechanism for him poor guy 😭#mine #op #the amazing digital circus #tadc

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xenomorphicdna · 4 months

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Flames,, blanket boy, my beloved

I gotta draw more art like this of him, he's such an odd creature I love him so much

There's so much to his character that I never talk about aaa I'll make a lore post eventually

#i have thoughts about this guy #he's so hungry for affection and that social and physical contact he see's all the people in his city get #he's takes up so much after them in so many ways #maintenance on this guy... mechanics working on checking all the wires and circuits and touching all the sensitive nerves and neuron flies #its nice that his entire structure is well taken care of but he also wouldnt be able to focus on anything else #he's so used to working in perfect undisturbed conitions..must be so distracting when something changes #he'd have his overseers watching as they plug things in and test stuff and poke around in his guts #and maybe he'll enjoy it a too much and he'll beep when a cable is pushed in.. its not like the sounds are unusual #the structure is alway whirling and buzzing.. whats a few extra clicks and hums when a particularly sensitive component is touched #its not like they would know unless they were really paying attention to the sounds and looking for a reaction #trying to please their beloved supercomputer #he longs for the same love they're capable of but it does quite work out. They can't hug him in a way that feels the same #does affection mean anything to him when its so little. They cant love him in a way that properly means something #i guess flames eventually getting into a relationship fills that affection hole #someone who speaks the same language. someone who he can relate to and understand #someone capable of touching all his systems in just the right way #ajfjsj went off i the tags here uh im so tired im kinda losing consciousness as i was typing oops #rain world #iterator #rain world oc #iterator oc #oc four blue flames #drawins #suggestive

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i-eat-worlds · 5 months

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Alex & Friends Part 25-Ambulance

Thanks to @jaydiann and @whumpy-daydreams for helping with the medical stuff in this! Aaron belongs to @pigeonwhumps

cw: medical whump, near drowning, broken bones, needles, painful healing, medicinal drug use

At least the back of the ambulance was warm and dry, because as far as Alex could tell, that was its only plus side. Three sets of hands were busily scrambling over her, cutting her clothes off, and sticking stuff to her chest. She heard the sound of velcro as a blood pressure cuff was wrapped around her arm, then another pair of hands prodded her legs, asking her to move them and checking for injuries.

It was more than she could handle. She tried to listen to the instructions, but she really just wanted to scream at them to stop. All she could manage was a tired groan. Talking had gotten harder, as had breathing.

Somebody leaned over her, looping an oxygen mask around her face as they spoke. “Hey, Alex. I’m Aaron. I’m a doctor, we’re gonna help you, okay?”

She nodded, trying to distract herself from the hands patting down her legs and arms.

“You said your neck hurt. Is there anywhere else that hurts?” Aaron said, quickly flashing a bright light in and out of her field of vision.

“Foot, chest.” She said, pausing for a breath. “Breathing’s hard.”

They nodded, then looked up to check her vitals. “Tell me if it gets harder, yeah?”

The doctor's attention was drawn away by Joseph’s voice. “I think she’s got a broken calcaneus.”

Aaron disappeared from her vision, and there were suddenly hands poking at her heel. It hurt, and tears welled up in her eyes. “I’d say it's broken,” Aaron agreed, finally pulling his hands away from her ankle. He stepped back. “Get some blankets on her and get a line in.”

The two paramedics wrapped her in blankets, covering up her cold, damp skin. They left her injured foot uncovered, but other than that, her body was blessedly insulated from the air.

“Can you make a fist for me?” Joseph asked as he started to pat her arm. Her vein popped up quickly-she’d always been an easy stick-and he wiped her skin clean. “Sharp scratch,” He warned, then sunk the needle in.

“Alex, I’m going to heal your ankle now, okay?” Aaron said. She swallowed. It was going to hurt, healing always did. “It’ll be painful, but it'll be quick, alright?”

She hummed in the affirmative, since the c-collar prevented her from nodding her head. The sooner it was over, the better.

Aaron carefully took her heel in his hands, handling it more gently than she was used to. Zorland’s people certainly hadn’t been this nice. His touch wasn’t too horrible either, the texture of his hands hidden by the gloves.

Heat started to emanate from his hands. At first, the warmth was pleasant, but it quickly grew into a hot, searing pain. Inside her foot, her bones were shifting and fusing. A weird tingling sensation took over her foot, pain shimmering and pulsing. She gasped, clawing at the side of the stretcher, and Aaron had to tighten his grip on her foot to keep it still.

It’d been nearly a year since she was healed like this, but it brought her right back to the cold metal table. The phantom sensation of straps pinning her down pricked at her wrists. A pained groan escaped her lips, followed by a round of ragged, panting breaths.

“You’re going great.” Aaron said, voice to calm for the amount of pain she was in. “We’re nearly done.”

Joseph appeared in her vision. “You can scream if you need to, I know it hurts.”

She’d never been allowed to scream before, not in that damn back room, and a screeching, high pitched wine filled the ambulance. It quickly devolved into another round of fast, panicky breaths.

Aaron removed his hands, and the pain slowly faded away. “I’m done with your heel now,’ he said. It must’ve been a small break, since he didn’t look too tired. He reassessed it, smiling a little. “Does it still hurt?”

Alex mumbled a quiet no. Once the pain from the healing had faded, it’d felt like nothing had ever happened to it.

“That’s good, swelling’s gone down and it looks a lot better.” Aaron pulled the blanket over her foot, then maneuvered around Joseph and the two paramedics so he was by her head. He sat down behind her, and the butterflies in her stomach multiplied.

“I’m going to heal your neck, next, okay?” His voice was gentle, but it did very little to calm the panic that rose in her chest.

“Please…please no.” It would hurt. Healing places close to nerves like that were agony. She tried to shake her head no, but the brace prevented her from moving.

“Remember to keep still,” Aaron said, and she whimpered, waiting for him to cup his hands around her head. “We’re going to give you some meds that’ll help with pain and prevent you remembering the healing, yeah?”

Alex murmured a quiet thank you, and Arron smiled before turning away to prepare the meds. There was a quiet exchange between Aaron and Joseph as he cross-checked the medications before he prepared the syringe.

“Drug’s are in,” Aaron confirmed.

Alex’s consciousness waned, and she let herself slip away.

Taglist: @/pigeonwhumps @rainydaywhump

#worlds babbles #whump #medical whump #injury whump #whump writing #aaron not my oc #is any one is curious:#it’s easier for Aaron to get her body to help him when it’s not distracted #it tires him out more and he wants to focus the most of his energy on her neck injury #and at some point #the need for pain control surpasses the need to converse healing energy #this isn’t perfect but it’s fun #and that’s why we’re here

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figureofdismay · 2 months

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G-d it's really 3 different times that mulder has almost certainly had to launch protracted 'getting scully to eat' campaigns, after her abduction when she was 'maintained' who knows how for 3 months and had to get back on her feet, with the cancer and treatments and recovery 2 years later and again with the gut shot 2 years after that. How many times do you think he sat by her bed and tried to distract her while she struggled through a protein drink? Did the 'oh I just accidentally made too many sandwiches or pieces of toast or they put in extra fries or "free" dumplings maybe you'll take these off my hands' or planted them in a diner until she ate some soup and crackers or a plate of scrambled eggs or a milkshake while trying not to seem to insist too much, ie enough to trigger an "I'm fine" and a stalking off. No wonder he's hung up on the non-fat yogurt cups and salads with a teaspoon of dressing after multiple times of joining in to will her back from half starvation in order to get her strong enough to recover from near death experiences. Like, we have done this when it was unavoidable due to miserable circumstances, why are you doing it yourself on purpose?? 😥

Though perhaps that's a reason for her, the familiarity of completely utilitarian food that's always 'safe.'

#txf #msr #tw disordered eating #character theory: scully #i have both sensory issues with food and history with an eating disorder so it's an aspect that stands out for me #but it's interesting #and I would love to see more of mulder being there for her and trying to help manage her sub clinical medically induced food issues #like I do appreciate seeing it show up in fics but I mostly see the dramatic signs of failing health version #instead of them dealing with the background noise of the long slow slog of recovery #the oh g-d i just don't want to I'm tired of dealing with food again mulder/cmon just take half my sandwich you can't live on peanut m&ms #of it all #i bet he's also good at the hey let's sit up and watch this movie together (with snacks)(the distraction makes digesting easier) maneuver #because eating and sleeping are both easier when they aren't on purpose for some reason #and he would very much know that

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physicaltale · 4 months

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Adivina quién convenció a alguien de tomar un descanso.

̶S̶i̶n̶ ̶d̶e̶c̶i̶r̶l̶e̶ ̶a̶ ̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶a̶ú̶n̶ ̶q̶u̶e̶ ̶l̶a̶ ̶p̶r̶i̶m̶e̶r̶a̶ ̶f̶a̶s̶e̶ ̶d̶e̶l̶ ̶e̶x̶p̶e̶r̶i̶m̶e̶n̶t̶o̶ ̶y̶a̶ ̶e̶s̶t̶a̶b̶a̶ ̶c̶o̶m̶p̶l̶e̶t̶a̶d̶o̶.̶

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¿Guess who convinced someone to take a break?

Without yet telling ink that the first phase of the experiment was over.

#mi dibujo #my art #I had no idea for the background #so let's just say Ink worked his magic.#Also my headcannon is that Ink lies down on Xgaster when he is very enthusiastic #but more like a show-off himself.#Here I take advantage of the fact that Xgaster finally let his guard down #noticing him happy but tired at the same time.#And he got distracted talking more for the two of them #I don't know how platonic this can be #Because they just don't say out loud a romantic “I love you” to each other #xvials #ink sans #underverse au #xgaster #Ink does not know the canon fact #I've been doing a lot of sketches of these two xd

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actual-changeling · 6 months

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#alex gets personal #i'm just so fucking tired of this #nothing works it never actually gets better it never stops being fucking excruciating work every single day #ive been stringing myself along with empty promises and 'it'll get better'#but it's just. not. getting better #do you know how exhausted i am? because i am not exaggerating or lying when i say that i have been trying not to kill myself since i was #three years old and alone and lonely and hated and disliked and reduced to my mother's puppet #and my father hated from the moment he got informed of my potential existence #and then it just got WORSE #all of it just kept getting worse and worse and it never stopped and i was never not alone and i'm so fucking tired #and did i already mention nothing works anymore #cause you can give me the best fucking pep talk ever and my response will be i dont care i just want it to stop #im just gonna keep distracting myself until i either die or get better #whatever happens first and we all know it won't be getting better so therapy's gonna be fun on wednesday

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roadkill-dreaming · 23 days

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tswwwit · 2 years

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I know Ford and Bill hate each other. It's just that Dipper really looks up to his great uncle and if anything fatal ever happened to him he'd be devastated, and I love to think Bill would get his head out of his own ass enough to comfort his grieving husband over it (in his usual Bill style)

He does his best!

(Dipper stays out of the Mindscape for a while on Bill's advice. Which is wise, because Bill absolutely throws a huge damn party)

#Honestly that whole image is basically Bill trying to comfort Dipper any time #Except he doesn't say the words out loud #But it's never ever not awkward #His go-to is distractions #Now that Cuddling™ has been unlocked that's also an option and much more effective most times #Bill's great at many things but his EQ is still very much bottom of the barrel #He's off having a raging party and breaks off because Dipper just sent him a question mark through text #Dipper's not great at communicating emotions either but they're working on it #Time to go cuddle the mortal and awkwardly pat his back #Bill very :| close mouthed about the whole thing which is frankly him doing his Absolute Best #Dipper appreciates that he hasn't heard one word of bragging #That's pretty great for Bill #He's gonna ignore the obvious Party Shenanigans because Bill is still.... Bill #answers #When Stan kicks it Bill's going to be more effective at the grief stuff #Not by much but at least a little #i am very tired #writing is hard

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cloud-somersault · 8 months

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constellations chapter 3 is SO GOOD idk what the fuck happened there, but go OFF!!!

#i know everyone's in chapter 4 land but 3 is SOO GOOD #bro the stone forest alone....HELP #ugh it was so hard writing wukong's rage form but HOLY SHIT!! reading it after is so hype #do u ever just sit in a pavilion as the rain gently falls...with your ex-husband and mentee....and it's quiet and peaceful but #there's a strong turbulence going on deep inside you :3 #the way wukong always dusts MK off and wipes his tears away and makes sure he's clean faced and ready to go #speaks to how much wukong cares about vanity #i mean he also is expressing comfort and compassion but. he also cares about appearances a lot #but anyway -- do you also ever have a conversation with your ex-husband through eye contact alone?#i think they've done that four times in this fic...#mk the entire journey: every day i get a little more homophobic #HE'S SO TIRED!!!!#MK after talking to wukong and macaque at the inn: yeah haha! i seriously wanna go home now! 🙃#MK on the phone: DADSY /PLEASE/ COME PICK ME UP!!!!#macaque seeing Wukong's eyes for the first time and actually stopping everything that he was doing #and just looking at wukong and being like “haha...heeyyy what the fuck?? did they do to you??” chef's kiss #wukong and macaque just talking while macaque captures that random man's shadow...please #as they reminisce about how things used to be...how easily they talk to each other when they're not guided by hate #that's the thing it's how easily they fall into step with one another #that's shadowpeach. they'll be off balance or one will be running and the other walking. they'll get distracted or whatever. but #they'll always fall back into step with one another #and that's why they've got to walk with each other. step by step...so they can stop being afraid 😌

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eterniityblooms · 12 days

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i Apologize for the wait on replies and whatnot, yesterday and today were busy again

i'll try my best to knock some out later today though! in the meantime, mutuals feel free to add me on discord since that's where i lurk when i'm not here

#『 from the rumblings comes a song: ooc. 』#if you Do add me pls let me know who u are/that u did! i'm always open to talk or rp or whatever over on discord too and that's usually #where i tend to lurk at idly when i'm too busy/distracted/etc for other places/things #had to get up super early this morning to go to the hospital my grandpa's been staying at since he had surgery (it went well!)#so i'm kind of tired rn but i dont think i have much else planned for today so i'll start working on some of the stuff i owe once i'm #a bit less tired!

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citrine-elephant · 1 month

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thinkin about the maria vs leon scene in death island, but if it lasted longer, and if it was a brutal as two wild beast duking it out until death.

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-maria gets more and more infected like,

-leon gets bruised and bloody-

#leon defeating a bow with his bare hands is just so sexy ahh #sbhfnhdn im just as bad as the rumors that the writers wanted leon to get tossed around by a beautiful woman agshyfjhbhjdn #in my defense uhhhh leon got bonked too many times to walk away without bruises #jesse pinkman style yknow baghsbdfvghjbHYASGH help #when rebecca said he'd still be weak what tf would that fight have been at full capacity #leon is a bow in my headcanon and he's just too himbo to realize #genius but stupoid #thinkin too deep in the puzzles and physics but walks right into a door cuz he's distracted #where am i going wth this i am tired i want to beat up the pretty blond man

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vanibear · 11 months

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jack and crow are an underrated duo imo

#I have words to say abt them but Im too tired remind me tmrw #yea the jack imposter episode made me kinda emotional.how upset crow was thinking that what he said when he was mad couldve been his last #words to jack :(#also how half a recap episode was spent with them lying on the ground bc the scrap table jack built collapsed #and they got too distracted reminiscing to get up 💀#yugioh #yugioh 5ds #kat post

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scaredofmyocs · 7 months

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I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror)#seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy”#but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff)#walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

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running-in-the-dark · 6 months

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as someone who has always had issues with sleeping, it's so strange to see how my husband can just fall asleep whenever he wants, wherever he wants. he could lie down on the ground and sleep for 8 hours, no problem.

he just goes to bed, lies down, and falls asleep. and then stays asleep until his alarm wakes him, then he gets up and is just. awake. just like that. he never remembers any of his dreams, he just sleeps. all night. uninterrupted.

it's just. very weird. I mean, I had a lot of sleepovers with friends when I was a kid, so I guess I already knew other people can just. sleep. but still, I guess I always figured it must be a coincidence that everyone else just happened to fall asleep and stay asleep on those occasions. but damn it's been 10 years of seeing this dude just sleep like it's no big deal, and I suppose that's just. how it's meant to be?! how unfair is that.

#he also snores like crazy #so he sleeps peacefully and I can absolutely not fall asleep when he's in the same room 😭#even when we're in adjacent rooms. I still hear him snoring #yes I've been trying to fall asleep and it is not going great! so I'm trying to distract myself enough until I feel just tired enough to #try again #(and: I can also fall asleep anytime anywhere! just not on purpose 🙃 never ever on purpose.)#ugh why does it have to be so hard 😭 like life must be just. so much easier when you can just sleep?? and also feel rested when you wake up #I still think that's not a real thing. like. people just. wake up? and feel? better and less tired? nah that's made up 😬#trying to sleep without my antidepressant and. I honestly forgot just how bad it used to be #I can *fall asleep* now thanks to melatonin #it only takes like 30 minutes usually #but I keep waking up. and not being able to get back to sleep #and I don't hear like. 4 out of 5 alarms.#and I feel so exhausted when I wake up that I physically can't make myself get up #ugh I just hate this shit so much 😭#personal

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arthur-r · 8 months

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how to not text somebody when you can’t talk but also. Not just not text somebody

i ran out of tags at the end i just content warning not feeling well not speaking well and also stressed out vent content warning but i will fine in the morning if somebody wants to not listen everything is okay im just having trouble and im not speaking well

for ending is just i don’t know i just am stressed out i want to know how to do it right and not being other people have to fix everything for me isn’t fair. and i just want to feel normal good not have complicated on top of everything. and i want to anpolkgize not while being making it worse from not speaking good i don’t know what to do. i hope everybody is doing okay bottom tags is just same but not for from the beginning. i hope everyone is doing well and please be just stay away if makes you not feel safe im not good at when somebody doesn’t say good and it’s not anybody’s fault. i just dont know where for who to tell to i just hope for everyone is okay and sorry for bothering

#i am not feeling well i had to my friend called an Uber and stuff for going home #and then we hungout stayed in my dorm for a little and then i fell asleep when he was leaving #and I want to say hey thanks for everywhere going coming home with me and finding walking me home and stuff #but for when i try to text that it doesn’t make sense and i don’t wa t to. be im tired of being not making sense #tired of texting people making them confused or like im not doing so it right #but i need to say something for thank you or goodbye case i wasn’t good before #and i was being so. im sorry was being so boring i was just not being good or interesting #i was distracted for being not feeling well and i want to explain but i don’t want to. be made it worse #and i really likethis guy and #don’t want to be distrsctimg weird and okay my room mate is yo #home now. so that is more stuff interesting now i know i can’t call on the phone #which is probably good but im just i can’t type article #articulate with typing im not i just don’t know how to talk #i know how to talk for having speaking real life #real life speaking. but it’s also weird for calling somebody isn’t normal you don’t call somebody #so #im texting on herrbjnstead of for texting #somebody so im sorry actually but. people who understand is different from if somebody doesn’t understand #but also im sorry and ask to tag and i know i would be so much upset if i saw and im not trying to hurt somebody #i just need advice for being talking to somebody but i promise im fine and just not feeling well in normal way it’s not special bad #anyways i hope everybody is doing okay and for if somebody knows and i just man i am not feeling well #heart isn’t too bad is 110 or 140 between for the long time staying between. but right now in just 110 while im lying down #I don’t know i think i should go back to sleep but my friend i was gonna talk to friend different friend today #for calling watching tv i might have slept past though and im not feeling well #but we needed for our for seeing each other we haven’t seen each other we were going to have watch tv #but im not feeling well i don’t like being sick i don’t like not being able to i just did walking today i did too far i dont like being sick #and it’s not fair for not doing anything i didn’t do anything shouldn’t count shouldn’t make me sick #i didn’t mean to be too much not being it’s not fair where im sick and turns so everything is cause of im sick it’s not fair i don’t want to #make it everything be it’s when im sick it’s not fair nobody can think about their self any more it’s not fair i didn’t mean to #and he wasn’t mad but it’s nkt j don’t want to be turned everything fkr where j just need help k want to be somebody on my own

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