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st-ivangeline · 22 days
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i’m going inactive on this account for awhile on here i’ll be deleting app off my phone, i’ve come to a place in my life where i don’t really feel like i have anything else to add to the conversation around being aromantic, i’m just really content at the moment with being aromantic and that’s expressing itself by not having much to say about it, i’ve tried branching out and talking about my BPD but i’m really in a place in my life where i’m the in the healthiest mindset i’ve ever been in in my whole life and while i relate related to the symptoms people talk about on here but i’m doing better right now, my meds are working atm and i’m just more at peace (which is crazy because i wouldn’t generally label my life as peaceful)
i guess the tldr is that i’m just in a really different place than i have been and it’s a good place and for me that expresses itself in not having much to talk about or add to my page, i’m not deleting my account at least right now, about i’ll be going inactive immediately
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st-ivangeline · 22 days
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Things friends can't do according to allos!
(these are all things I have been told with 100% sincerity, and not stuff that I myself believe.)
Give each other meaningful gifts
Pay attention to the others likes and dislikes
Look at one another in a 'certain way' (???)
Match clothes or accessories
Hold hands for 'too long' (???)
Hug for 'too long' or hug 'too close' (???)
Cuddle because it's 'too intimate'
Not want to pull away during a hug or holding hands
Lean onto the other emotionally and physically
Smile in one another's presence
Laugh at each others jokes
Give genuine advice
Text each other 'good morning' 'good evening' 'good night' 'happy birthday' 'happy new years' 'merry Christmas' etc, etc
Ask how the others doing
I'll add more once I think of things I've forgotten
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st-ivangeline · 23 days
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peace and aromanticism on planet earth
peace and aromanticism on planet earth!!!!!! :D
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st-ivangeline · 29 days
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Reblog to let your followers know that they’re safe from jumpscares/screamers/etc from you on April 1st but they are NOT safe from getting boop’d like an idiot amen
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st-ivangeline · 29 days
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fyi: you can be fat and hairy and still be a pretty boy.
Pretty boy shouldn't only be for thin, hairless guys. Pretty boy is a damn mindset and you too can be a pretty boy.
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st-ivangeline · 29 days
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st-ivangeline · 1 month
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i wish you still liked me the way you liked me back then .
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st-ivangeline · 1 month
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1hr ago me was wrong btw
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st-ivangeline · 1 month
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st-ivangeline · 1 month
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does anyone else who’s bpd or other cluster b just overuse the word “hate”?
“i hate him” for no other reason than existing
i do this all the time on pinterest or instagram. i use it a lot when someone would usually say “that’s cringe” or “that was a silly thing to do”
nope i hate that guy and think he should die
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st-ivangeline · 1 month
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if you have violent intrusive thoughts I love you. if you have sexual intrusive thoughts I love you. if you have bigoted intrusive thoughts I love you. you are not your thoughts and you are worthy of love and care and help and affection. you are not a monster you’re a person going through it and that’s okay
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st-ivangeline · 2 months
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i put my binder on for the first time in awhile since i have just been wearing my sports bra and i immediately felt so much gender euphoria, it doesn’t flatten that much, or at least in my mind, but i just felt affirmed even if it was just me affirming myself
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st-ivangeline · 2 months
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Aromantic topic
okay so i had a Big Aro moment yesterday, so i’m reading 1984 by George Orwell for school right now and i’ve become friends with one of my classmates
so at the beginning of part 2 in the book Winston, the main character, and a woman named Julia start a romantic relationship and i’ve been SO frustrated cause every other page they’re swapping slobber and calling each other “dear” and it’s just miserable to read and feels unnecessary from a writing perspective, i told my classmate about it and how annoyed i am and she was literally like “i thought it was kind of sweet when he started to like her back”
she and i had a good laugh about it but i can’t even describe to you how baffled i am by how she came to that conclusion
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st-ivangeline · 2 months
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aromantic talking:
one way i think i know now especially looking back that shows that i’m aromantic is “my type” is something i carefully curated down to the very smallest details only to change whatever that type is three more times that week,
once it was a blonde curly haired girl who was fit and was smart (i was really into the percy jackson books *cough cough*)
in some instances it was a red haired girl with freckles all over
other times someone with deep skin, someone else a goth or punk personality
but even now i’m not sure if these “types” really happened cause they never really were archetypes i was attracted to
it felt like most the time i was creating storybook characters rather than people (i’m been writing stories since i was little)
when i was presenting as a guy i would say i was attracted to men but i couldn’t ever come up with a guy i liked or thought was hot—i couldn’t even make one up in my head—sometimes i would say i was attracted to troye sivan cause i really liked his music at the time
all this to say every moment in my life where someone asked me my type i’d conjure up this image of a character i liked or an image of someone i knew was considered beautiful
now i can’t even begin to make someone up—there’s no one i want be attracted to, i don’t want a crush, i don’t want someone to hang on to me, and i’m really lucky to have friends and family who i don’t have to pretend for at this point in my life
and i honestly don’t think i realized i was making these images up i thought of someone who was considered beautiful and i said “okay that one”
i’m aroallo so my sexual attraction is different, more random, but when it comes to “ooo do you think he’s cuute!?” or “OMG what’s your type??” or “don’t you have a celebrity crush?” these don’t process in my head it’s like they’re teasing me and poking me and laughing at me for something that’s foreign, as a teen and kid i had to make up something
and i know that this is generally a pretty normal experience within the broader aromantic community but i’m just now getting there myself lol
Do not tag as ace
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st-ivangeline · 2 months
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Me 80% of the time: I hate myself and everything around me.
Me the other 20%: I am a fucking god
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st-ivangeline · 2 months
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There are only two mental illnesses according to people on the internet:
Innocent bean syndrome: You can never do wrong and got no agency. You will be infantilized on every occasion and are treated as a quirk.
Bad person syndrome: You are bad and an abuser. Your presence kills people.
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st-ivangeline · 2 months
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aromantic person talking:
it’s so weird to be romance repulsed and still long for some type of partnership, honestly it’s only occasionally, i think i still have weird expectations about what a successful life looks like which includes settling down with someone (for me that would include a platonic partnership) but ultimately i want to live alone with a dog with a little yard i can garden in and that i can pretend to do witchcraft.
i can’t imagine holding hands or kissing whether romantic or platonic, i get so much anxiety just thinking about it, it feels like i’m going to throw up
do not tag as ace
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