i’m here to help you understand that what that was before, wasn’t love . love is nurture. love is kind. love is rewarding. love is doing anything to make your partner happy because it makes you happy. and i love you.
synopsis- you and your girlfriend were on the outs but you had hoped something would change, and only one person was stopping you from finding your true happiness.
“baby. i had a great time with you tonight.” your feet burned from ice skating across the rink, something your partner knew you loved to do ever since you were ten years old. but you didn’t care because you got to spend time with a beautiful girl that was all yours. “all mine.” she said, taking your hand, cupping your face and kissing you ever so gently, guiding you back into the apartment that you guys invested all your money in after highschool. life was perfect. you finished school, and lived together. you woke up every morning greeted by the same girl with pretty brown eyes and beautiful white teeth. she did the same smile everytime she saw you, and it made you feel like no one else could.
“so did i.” it was perfect. you sat on the couch beside her, and turned on your favorite movie. you sighed happily. “my feet still hurt, those skates were tight as hell on my feet.” she laughed, picking up the remote.
“i think we should watch home alone since it’s a classic.” she said.
whatever she wanted that was fine with you, because as long as you got to watch her do those cute little squeals and giggles , laughing at the same parts over and over. she cuddled closer to you every time something happened.
and that was enough.
until it wasn’t.
present day.
“seriously, y/n? what is wrong with you? all you can muster up to tell me is that you were “out?” she started pacing.. and you watched as her feet rotated everytime she took five steps forward, and so on and so on.
“you tweaking out right now bro. i was out. i told you that. i had to work. just stop pacing and sit down. chill.” you said, sitting up on the couch.
“how am i supposed to chill, y/n? it smells like you had another bitch in our car. that perfume fucking stink, and i don’t wear that. and you wear cologne. so again.. who is that?”
“you know i would never cheat on you mama. calm down, cmere.” you take her hands and rub them with the pads of your thumbs. “relax.”
“look at me.” you took your index finger and guided her chin to raise her head up , making eye contact. she looked at you. with those same pretty brown eyes. but this time they weren’t full of lust, longing, or happiness but now.. she was hurt.
you couldn’t tell her what really happened. your mom came back from Georgia and told you she wanted to enroll you in some homophobic school for Christians who “lost their way.” the truth is.. you told your mom that you were living by yourself.
even though you were old enough to make your own decisions, your mom made sure she could control everything that was ever good in your life because she hated the fact your found love and it was with a woman.
thursday, 7:45pm. in your car. flashback.
your mom walked up to your car window knocking lightly on the glass, signaling you to let her in. she sat in the drivers seat.
“so, y/n, how have you been sweetheart?” your mom said, looking over at you in the passenger seat.
you sat in the seat, posture poor, looking out the window so intently.
“fine.” you said, monotone and flat.
you sat there in silence for a bit, rubbing your hands down your dirty work uniform, not sure what to even say at a time like this. the tension was so thick you could cut it with a knife.
“so i’ll be back soon to take you-“ your mom started.
you turned to her in the passenger seat, impatient.
“i’m NOT going. i have a life here. i’m loved. my friends are incredible people. my girlfri-“ you stopped. your eyes darted down so quickly, looking at the dashboard and all the contents in the cup holder, hoping she didn’t hear you.
your mom sighed. “your.. girlfriend? this is why you need to go, i thought you left that way back in the past. it’s a phase, no child of mine is gay.”
you felt tears well up in your eyes, so you shifted slowly back to looking out the window. you sighed.
“mom- look. i love her. so much. she’s so beautiful. she takes care of me. looks out for me. supports me. she-“
“NO. if you want to live your life like the rest of those faggots you should probably stay.” your mom said, completely and utterly disappointed. “i won’t support this, i wanted children. you failed me. no woman will ever love you like i do.” she kept going on and on.
“get out.” you whispered, tears about to flow. “i have to go home mom.”
“why so you can go be with your girlfriend?” she mocked. you didn’t like that. so you repeated louder.
“leave.” you turned to face her. she looked at you with such hatred, like you were a stranger.
and you thought…
”those aren’t the eyes i remember.”
once upon a time, my mom looked at me with her pretty brown eyes.