february 14, 2022 | day 5 of 100 days of productivity

ap lang homework + a self care night to recharge: i’ve been having a rough time lately with my mental health and with burnout, and i needed to have some “me time” in order to recharge a little.

i’m grateful today for all the lovely people in my inbox/messages for the past few days, especially @tumbly-blur and @randomstudyblr- thank you both for the kindness you’ve given me! i love each and every one of you on this little corner of studyblr. 🤍

currently listening to: the theory of everything soundtrack

you have not met everyone who will love you yet. you haven’t been to all the places that will always be a part of you. you haven’t done all the incredible things that you will. there is so much yet to come.

january 22, 2022 | day 4 of 100 days of productivity

there are few things like a self care monday off school post-finals: doing yoga by candelight, reading afterwards on the mat to feel connected to yourself even more than you already are, painting your nails wine red to feel like an adult, and watching jenny slate’s stage fright(2019) to smile again before the new day ahead.

i’m thankful today for every person who’s made who i am today- i’ve been rather lonely and emotionally worn down lately, and i smile when i think about you. 🤍

📖 currently reading: gone girl - gillian flynn

🎧 currently listening to: forever winter- taylor swift

I have so much love and respect for women who are honest about their own loneliness but also find the good in it like when audrey hepburn said “I have to be alone very often. I’d be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That’s how I refuel” and when charlotte bronte said “I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself” and when jenny slate said “I think I’ve come to terms with the fact that there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who I am. But that’s why I want to do comedy, and why I want to connect with people. You can use that ribbon to be a part of a finer tapestry, or you can choke yourself out with it! Your choice!” and when mary oliver said “whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh & exciting - over & over announcing your place in the family of things”

Michael Cunningham, The Hours

i think the thing that makes me the most emotional in life is the realization that everything i have and everything i see has been touched by other people. someone designed the logo of my favorite tea bags and someone decided which paintings should go in the calendar hanging on my wall. someone built the roof above my head and someone paved the street outside my house. someone made this pair of glasses specific for me, someone picked the pear i ate with my lunch and someone designed my favorite sweater. every book i read, every song i listen to, every film i watch, tens, if not hundreds of people had to be there to make it happen. even if i am alone, i am always surrounded by other human beings - a fact that makes my heart squeeze in on itself everytime i remember it.

happy 2022 ♡

having a ‘late’ start on the new year traditions - journal set ups, goal settings, etc

you are not a machine. you are more like a garden. you need different things on different days. a little sun today, a little less water tomorrow. you have fallow and fruitful seasons. it is not a design flaw. it is wiser than perpetual sameness. what does your garden need today?

january 12, 2021 | day 3 of 100 days of productivity

today’s cozy library studying spot by the window that opens(cold, but fresh air for me!), and part of the library itself.

i’m thankful for moments like this: where i’m in a nice spot, finding moments of peace in a chaotic week, half-listening to an ap research lecture in a study break while eating lunch.

currently reading: gone girl - gillian flynn

currently listening to: nothing new - taylor swift + phoebe bridgers

hi rylie!! glad to see you on my feed again🤍

kat!! my angel!! hello!! it's so nice to see you again too and i'm overjoyed to see that you're back! i hope you're taking care of yourself and that the new year has started off well for you. good luck with everything you've got going on! 🤍

january 9, 2021 | day 2 of 100 days of productivity

today’s work meal + what i spent my break with(my current read and my journal.)

i’m grateful for having my journal as an outlet to express how i feel.

currently reading: out with it - katherine preston

currently listening to: the very first night - taylor swift

friday, january 7, 2022 | day 1 of 100 days of productivity

starting off the weekend after a really busy(and upsetting) week rereading one of my favorite books, out with it, after a 10-minute yoga and meditation session before i get ready for work.

today i am grateful for my heartbeat. my breathing, the fact that i am a living, breathing, human being worthy of love, respect, and empathy despite me not always viewing myself in that way.

currently reading: out with it - katherine preston

currently listening to: surface pressure - jessica darrow