"․․․you have to go the way your blood beats. If you don't live the only life you have, you won't live some other life, you won't live any life at all. That's the only advice you can give anybody. And it's not advice, it's an observation."

  — James Baldwin

Matthis Coleman [x;y;z]

Taters the cat video sent to Earth via Deep Space Laser

tag index 🗃️ «work in progress» 🤷‍♀️

people → (all) • torso • back • butt • chest • neck • arms • legs • hands • mouth • kissing • face • skin • ear • eyes-minor • eyes-major • vasculature • hair • side profiles • likely a difficult to draw perspective • the body intertwined in some way (e.g. hands, legs) • self-portraits//selfies -with a small mirror • portraits • the body in an unique/odd pose ☆ 

spatiotemporal → inside|indoors⁄outside|outdoors • in a bathroom • washing themself • washing each other • on a bed • sunrise⁄sunset • morning/day -night • shadows, tenebrism, or golden hour lighting • obscured and/or heavy shadow • foggy/milky ☆

Assorted moods → sexy water • I’m a real messy bitch… • head cheerleader, homecoming queen… • off the rails • mirrors & reflections • fashion • women • things for sale and/or I’d like to purchase • humorous • 👁👄👁✨ • ✨i hate this✨ • stuck in my head • it’s a secret • exhibiting carnal knowledge • crying • retribution • idk • a classic • ☆ ‘

topics → anime • technology • heteronormativity • life is random • lower depths • relationships: crush; lovers; exes; boyfriend; in love • mis-/communication • y2k & vaporwave • LGBTQ–related /🏳️‍🌈 • “gay jokes;“ posts top–/bottom–specific; • asexuality • word acronym wordplay • some random: info; explanation; recipe; general thing I wanted to save to easily re-find later • a shortlist of jokes to show others ☆

focus on a specific color → (all) • blue: indigo; cyan • red: crimson • green: emerald • yellow: gold • brown: ochre; beige • holographic • purple: violet • ☆ 

initial publishing source → Tumblr • YouTube|Vimeo • Instagram • Flickr • Bēhance • Miscellaneous Website • TikTok • unknown: source (earliest); creator; either/or ☆

media type → text • image+gif • video • audio • Q&A ☆ category → photography • music /-video • movie • tv • art: illustration; digital ☆

creation time, month → January; February; March; April; May; June (Pride); July; August; September; October (Halloween); November; December ☆ creation time, year → 2023; 2022; 2021; 2020; 2019; 2018; 2017; 2016; 2015; 2014; 2013; 2012; 2011; 2010; 2009; 2008; 2007; 2006; 2005; 2004; 2003; 2002; 2001; 2000 ☆

attribution problems → tumblr removed its notes feature • it’s like impossible to find the source of any image that’s circa ≤2013~14 • unclear, but only appears on tumblr ☆

posts that → I’ve made • I’ve made additions to • are of me ☆

archival → the full and/or hi-res version of a posted image ☆

• ◊ [WIP; additional tag/organizational categories TBA] ◊ •  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ☆

𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙨 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙖 𝙨𝙘𝙧𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙘 𝙫𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙤 artist/model: Gussy photography: Joe Brennan

Julio Torres – "My Favorite Shapes"

Rosa Walton (of Let's Eat Grandma) – I Really Want to Stay at Your House

"and I'm aware that you were lying in the gutter, 'cause I did everything to be there by your side. so when you tell me I'm the reason, I just can't believe the lies. and why do I so want to call you?" [x]

"Friendship After Love"

After the fierce midsummer all ablaze  Has burned itself to ashes, and expires  In the intensity of its own fires, There come the mellow, mild, St. Martin days Crowned with the calm of peace, but sad with haze.  So after Love has led us, till he tires  Of his own throes, and torments, and desires, Comes large-eyed friendship: with a restful gaze, He beckons us to follow, and across  Cool verdant vales we wander free from care.  Is it a touch of frost lies in the air? Why are we haunted with a sense of loss? We do not wish the pain back, or the heat; And yet, and yet, these days are incomplete.

— Ella Wheeler Wilcox 

shutterstock – Gay man touching leg of boyfriend

@mrgryphon - The thrill, the fear, the hope, oil on paper, 2021

Hako no Naka 「箱の中」 ("In the Box")

author: Narise Konohara cover artist: Sakae Kusama

[PDF source] [archived]

“I think white gay people feel cheated because they were born, in principle, into a society in which they were supposed to be safe. The anomaly of their sexuality puts them in danger, unexpectedly. Their reaction seems to me in direct proportion to the sense of feeling cheated of the advantages which accrue to white people in a white society. There’s an element, it has always seemed to me, of bewilderment and complaint. Now that may sound very harsh, but the gay world as such is no more prepared to accept black people than anywhere else in society. It’s a very hermetically sealed world with very unattractive features, including racism.”

— James Baldwin, from a 1984 interview given with Richard Goldstein, in the Village Voice

... it feels as if pronoun culture has contributed to nonbinary becoming just the third gender after male and female, more static and concrete than its original fluid intentions. ... We all became nonbinary to escape gendered expectations, and now we're stuck again. I can't help but think that the walking-on-eggshells battle for pronouns is turning my gender into a human-resources-approved corporate product, more neutered than neutral, and, maybe above all else, profoundly unromantic. Next time, just call me by my name.

— Colyar, Brock. "They, Then and Now : Asking for Pronouns Has Become a Social Standard. Who Is It Serving?" The Cut, 22 June 2022. [archived]

Someone said I should post this here

sky meets soil – boy's a K.K. (pt. 2) [pinkpantheress/ice spice cover]

Plush – random samplings from their sksksks DJ set

"As time goes by, the more I realize how young and immature we were. We were so naive back then— so reckless...and foolish... We were stumbling around in a juvenile haze. Unsure of what we wanted to say to each other— and oblivious to our own feelings... So there are times, now, when I question my memory. You and I…did all that really happen? What was it that we had between us— was it love? Images have faded—details have been lost. The only tangible reminder I have of you is this one grainy photo... Sometimes, I feel as though I'm trapped in a dream. That I met you—that I got to know you— that I grew to like you... All of that feels like a web of illusions that's holding me captive. So I'm...frustrated... in pain... and lonely."

  — Our Youth (미성년), ch.53

"It's been a good year on Tumblr for me"

This year, definitely, was the first year I got into Tumblr, and I’m grateful because through Tumblr, I met my boyfriend. It’s been a good year on Tumblr for me. Back when I was not actively looking for a boyfriend but kind of just searching the web for guys and stuff like that, every time I would wake up and have new followers, I would just go through them. I don’t know if you know, but you can find pictures of the people who run the blogs if you do forward-slash “tagged,” forward-slash “me” because a lot of people will tag photos of themselves with the tag “me.” It was always a good way to tell if you already loved their content whether you wanted to take it further and, like, Skype them. I can probably tell immediately from somebody’s blog if I would like them that way. It’s like skipping the first date because you already know what the other person is into. The way I met my boyfriend, he had this blog which was essentially all these old rave flyers and all these obscure techno and house songs that I didn’t know that anybody else really listened to. So I started following it, reblogging it all, really obsessed with what this guy was posting. And then we just started talking a bit, and he kind of knew who I was—he was like a fan, or whatever. And then I just kind of asked for his Skype and we met up in New York last month and started dating. It was weird, he just happened to be this super cute gay guy and I didn’t even know that. You can follow people who are aggregating content that you love, and if one of them happens to be super cute, you can work through that. We were flirting through our posts. As soon as I hooked him and we started dating, I think my posting has probably gone down like 75%. Even still, though, he’ll post a song if it reminds him of me. We were just communicating through videos and images. He lives in New York so now we mostly talk through G-chat actually, Just use the video chat through that. We don’t really use Tumblr anymore, that was just the initial hookup. We met on Tumblr, but now we’re dating on G-chat.

via the Fader [web archive]

The xx - "Islands"