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drainxx · 19 days

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April 9th 2024

IMPORTANT UPDATE!

I made a new account, I just needed a fresh start.

I’ll be posting over there if you still want to see my posts/ progress, go follow me at @ladybugsinspace

I just started a new diet plan and I’ve been killing it so far and I’d love and appreciate your support! I’m so happy to have you all and I don’t wanna dich ya so visit my new account if you want :)

(Apple & ice only, 20hr intermittent fasting most days and 10k steps a day)

Thanks for all your support! ^-^ luv you guys!

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 13th

Idk if this is bloat or water or idek but I'm back up to 127 overnight from 118?? You can falsely gain up to 5lbs from water/ 5lbs from bloat but it's still so hard seeing this go back up 😭

Something I know about myself is that sucks is, my weight fluctuates constantly and dramatically and I don’t know why. I’ll wake up -8lbs, the next morning +9, next day -4???

Its just so discouraging not ever REALLY knowing where I’m at or if it’s working or anything. I feel like I’m loosing my patience moe than my we¡ght and I NEED results now.

17hrs into a fast, 6k steps so far.

I need results.

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 12th 2024

Im still on track, not the best cal day. burned 426, net: 635 not including my bmr, well over 10k steps and I’m on a two day streak of having my shit together.

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 12th

As far as calories, I want to stay around/under 700 as a max and aim for lower/ always have a lower net.

And I'd probably prefer logging before I eat but unfortunately I don't live alone so most meals I eat I only know about at the last minute and have to figure out the cals on the spot.

Dropped from 121 to 118 this morning!

Got back on track and right off the bat that’s -9lbs from start!

I want to do 8-10k steps every single day unless I do some other kind of workout.

Today’s gonna be great I’m losing again!

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 11th

Burned 472cals today, net cals: 496 total. A whole lot of running today and over 8k steps. Weighed in at 121lbs (-6lb from yesterday, probably water)

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 11th

Hit around net limit yesterday, I racked up well over 10 thousand steps and burned 429 cals. (I've been in the 127lbs+ and rising for a while now previously to me getting back on track), but I weighed in this morning, with an eight pound drop? A lot of it could be bloat or other factors but regardless, I haven't been able to break the 120s for a long time so whatever it was I'm stoked.

Unfortunately I didn't start my next fast until late at night because I stayed up, so l'm only 10hrs in right now and I'm going for a little 16hr possibly because I'm trying out intermittent fasting.

I'm going to try to get 10k steps everyday this week aswell as my main form of exercise and If for any reason go over limit, will account for it accordingly with losing cals to still hit my net goal. I'll keep you updated.

(Wrote this earlier, forgot to post. More updates soon)

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 10th

Heres me at my all time highest weight, relaxed vs sucking in

(Today)

Ending this b¡nge cycle one day at a time. I will reach my goals this year.

I’m back.

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 10th

Th¡np0 I found! ^-^

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drainxx · 2 months

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A new year, a new start

Abandon the body your hate and strive for the body you should have

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drainxx · 2 months

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Can someone please coach me? I’m doing bad and it’s showing a lot, I wanna be good for 4 months and see where that takes me. Please someone.

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drainxx · 2 months

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hi everyone i’m looking for a really strict / mean ana coach please dm me if you’re interested^^

and if you’re weirdo don’t dm me, im not stupid i can tell

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drainxx · 2 months

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March 7th

Its been a damn minute guys.

To be completely honest, I’ve been struggling so bad this year so far and fell into the worst case of my b¡nge 3@ting d¡s0rder I think I have ever experienced. All I wanted to do was loose this w3ight and I ended up in a vicious destructive cycle and destroyed my b0dy.

I hit a new all time highest weight, and last night I didn’t even believe the number I saw. I’ve been feeling so indescribably sh¡tty and hopeless lately and just so lost.

I can’t keep on like this, if I don’t loose every last p0und by next year I will 3nd it all. That’s my deal with myself.

I’ve been trying to come back on here periodically but I just felt so guilty and detached. I’d fast and get back on track and then b¡nge harder than ever. I’ve developed the nastiest set of habits in this time and I’ve turned fo0d into a w3pon to hürt myself and ruin my body.

Last nights weigh in was a wake up call like no other before and this is me turning this around for good.

I don’t do anything in life because I’m so uncomfortable with my b0dy. I hate when clothes touch my skin and I see my own outline. I want to wear so many things that I just can’t stand seeing on myself in this state. I don’t talk to people because my confidence doesn’t exist. I have so much potential but it just sits around under layers of self inflicted f4t never to be seen.

I know that if I was as th¡n as I want to be, I would feel better, more comfortable, more confident and be able to allow myself to experience so so much more. I can’t wait around and watch my life go by dreaming of something I won’t fight for.

This is me taking my life back.

My older sister was telling me about her “normal person diet” and how she lost 15lbs one month by decreasing from 2000cals to like 1800 or something.

My metabolism is fvcked. And when I really get motivated I don’t want to eat anything at all, but when I’m in the thick of my BED like this, long fasts can end in binging. So I’m thinking I should go into highish deficit so I’ll lose without r3stricting until I’m out of my bad habits and can amp it back up to a faster deficit.

I can do this. It really is so simple. I’m going to take back everything I never let myself have.

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drainxx · 2 months

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Feb 15th 2024

I love an@ math.

There are 3,500 cals in a pound of fat

There are 105,000 cals in 30 pounds

There are 250 cals in a bagel

Me eating one bagel is like me eating 500bagels

I have 500 bagels worth of fat on my body

Why the hell would I eat a bagel? I’ve got have 500 bagels to finish already

That’s so ridiculous and disgusting hah- I am carrying around 500 bagels on my body?!

Ew.

I’ve got some work to do.

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drainxx · 3 months

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Feb 11th 2024

Something that motivates the sh¡t out of me is as any given moment in the day asking myself “am I trying my best?”

Because I always know I could do better.

If I’m laying around or sitting, I’m not. I could be standing or even better walking. I should be moving. So I’ll get up and move.

If I’m about to eat when I’m alone and not being forced to or offered food, I’m not. I could be enjoying the freedom and opportunity to fast longer. I am safe to fast in this moment so that’s what I should do.

If I’m mindlessly scrolling through random stuff I really don’t care about, I’m not. I could be reading inspiration on tumblr to strengthen my mindset.

Are you trying your best?

(This is for me, ignore if you so please)

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drainxx · 3 months

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Feb 11th 2024

Important reminder to myself!

$t@rv¡ng makes you skinny.

E@ting keeps you fat.

Binging makes you fatter.

⭐️rve as much as you can but remember, eating isn’t the enemy. Eating makes your progress slower, eating keeps you where you are. Binging is the enemy, binging makes you fatter.

As long as you aren’t binging, your safe.

If you panic and freak out because you ate, it can lead to a binge which is the real problem.

Do not freak out if you eat. Do not binge. As long as your under limit, or you get right back on track, you are safe. Do. Not. Binge.

⭐️ve= sk¡nny

Eat= stay f4t

Binge= get f4tter

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drainxx · 3 months

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Feb 11th 2024

I’ve been gone because I’ve been binging.

But I’ve also been keeping up with my month long 10k steps a day challenge and most days going well over 10k.

Im back on track and after seeing a post about your guys’s daily cal limits, I’ve figured out that the binging is probably because I set my cal limit way too low to jump right into.

I was previously trying to aim for 0-300 cals to sustain each day but was often pushed over by family meals and the guilt made me binge from shame.

It’s scary as it seems, I’m upping my cal limit. I’m going to try out around 750 max, never over 1000, and aiming as low as I can each day and fasting whenever I can/ intermittent fasting.

Im going to keep myself on track by writing down my inspiration daily, continuing to track my intake, keeping up with my 10k a day, and posting/ scrolling on here for inspiration.

I have so so much potential and in reality, I’m the only one that’s truly holding me back.

0 cals today. ^-^

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drainxx · 3 months

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food is gross.

food makes you feel bad,,

so why do you keep putting it in your body?

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