Happy Imbolc

Seems appropriate for me to celebrate since the drag name "Brigid" (Aucoin) is directly named after this Celtic Goddess

The Goddess is associated with wisdom, poetry, healing, protection, smithing and domesticated animals.

I choose this name for what made me start, protest, political action, art, and expression. When I started making the Bible Dress (and even when making the Pamphlet Dress) and my entire time being an activist (and in life in general), I wanted to be someone people could come to for wisdom, healing, and protection, and while I'm not perfect, I try my best. I also wanted to add art to this, poetry being apart of songs (so writing songs, and playing the guitar & singing). Smithing is 3 parts (kinda of a stretch): 1) smithing is the act of treating metal by lots of heat and hammering, if we keep fighting (hammer & heat) to change the system (metal) we can have a better world. 2) My body certainly *feels* like its being put through the smithing process. 3) Smithing is creating something, the first 2 outfits are created by unconventional materials. Finally, domesticated animals, animals are cute as heck, love them.

Later, I would learn another connection. Brigid is celebrated during Imbolc (today) traditionally to celebrate the first day of Spring (as she is also the Goddess of Fertility, Spring, and Life), the rebirth of the world. In part of doing the 2 dresses, I discovered more of my identity, through doing this, the beginning of me being Non-Binary and doing Drag, something if you would have asked me 2 years ago I wouldn't have thought.

Finally, I choose Brigid for the fact that this pre-Christian Celtic Goddess was Christianizatied when the Catholic Church "made" Saint Brigid, the church calming the Goddess as a saint of theirs (even renaming today as Saint Brigid Day). Between the Celtic connection with where I'm from and the political action I take part in seems to be against religious bigotry, it seem fitting to use.

Welcome Spring! Welcome rebrith and new beginnings! Welcome Brigid! Happy Imbolc!

I'm an Non-Binary Alien that thought they knew and understood emotions, feelings, psychology, and themselves very well

I do not, however, at all, a broken and damaged and I wish I actually knew sooner, much much sooner

Im Non-Binary lol

Its a tiktok displaying my Bible Page Drag Queen Dress called "Breaking Free"

"Breaking Free"

So, this is not a normal post, normally I post my photography, this is not the case.

I made this dress seen here (with progress photos), the process was long and "ahhhhhh", it was worth it.

So, this dress was made by using a base dress found, sewing a super strong zipper and the rainbow leg slit (thank you Lucky 97 Tailor), and then cutting 2 nerf soccer balls to shape the chest, I also added a bluetooth speaker in the the chest for extra (its quiet enough to have conservations with people), them I took the Old Testament out of a King James Bible (the bible that bigots seem to use) and layered and fabric glue all over.

This dress is to symbolize the story that those under the thumb of religious rule (at home, community, or even society), and the struggle to break out of it, how many 2SLGBTQIA+ people are hidden because of this, how those who are battle no matter what, either its internally by hiding, or externally when coming out. (It's not my story, but I heard this one A LOT)

Also, while I did make (with help in both design and creation) a pamphlet dress last year, I wanted to do more, after being given the KJV Bible, I was hit with an idea.

Also, while last year I wore the pamphlet dress, I really like this one, and considering the attempts to target, dehumanize, limit, hide, push away, and ban the 2SLGBTQIA+ community and Drag in the world, (including Alberta), I felt it was important to show that 1) the world is more beautiful when folks dont have to hide, and 2) that Drag is an art, and nothing more, I mean afterall, I am an Straight, Cis, White, Male that just loves exploring different art forms, nothing sexual about this, everything about this has an purpose relating to art and protest (and Im VERY covered up)

My friend Sissy Thiessen Kootenayoo of @wasesabaexperiences is the first Indigenous person and feminine person to host the City of Edmonton’s New Years Eve celebrations. I got to be there to see history being made. They did great and I'm glad that, even for a moment, was able to witness it. Taken with Canon T6I Location: Churchill Square, Edmonton, Alberta, Canada Taken: New Years Eve, 2022 Taken and edited by David William Paturel (Dis & Dat Media) Edited with the software PhotoScape All rights of photo(s) reserved to Dis & Dat Media (David Paturel) #disanddatmedia #photography #photo #churchillsquare #edmonton #yeg #alberta #canada #indigenous #newyearseve #edmontonhistory #yeghistory #night #nighttime #nightphotography #nighttimephotography #winter #2022 #winter2022 #newyearseve2022 #history #edmontonphotography #yegphotography #2spirit #twospirit #goodbye2022 #hello2023 #event #party #cold (at Churchill Square, Edmonton, Alberta, Canada) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm60KQPJO0I/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

TONIGHT IS DE NIGHT B'YS! Listen along, play me in the background duing your plans tonight, watch, you name it! Come join my stream and take a listen as I "busk" like I would on Whyte Ave in the summer! Christmas songs (not ones played on radio/in stores), Original songs, and Covers! Just go to my personal Facebook page at the time (or a few minutes before it starts) and click on the live stream (info in photo) :) Will love to have you all tune in tonight :) (also we are going to see what goes first, my "set" list, camera batteries, or my vocals, LET'S GOOOO!) #tibbseve #xmas #xmaseve #christmas #christmaseve #yule #wintersolstice #live #livemusic #music #acoustic #acousticguitar #acousticcover #acousticoriginal #yeg #yeglocal #edmonton #edmontonlocal #yegmusic #edmontonmusic #busking #onlinebusking https://www.instagram.com/p/CmhC2l9rqrE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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(Woody the Mic Mac Mall Christmas Tree in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada, as it's true self, a sleep paralysis demon)

perfect summary of my life

how to clear the table in a hurry.

🥺😭

Happy duck

Butcher and Cutter 💀

Yeah something about a name fitting someones profession is just perfect. Makes me sad my name won’t work for that.

"We're trying to reach you about your csrs extended warranty"

“A woman from Edinburgh was left astonished and stunned when she discovered a 135-year-old note buried under the floorboards of her house.”   

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Can you believe that my Dad once saw one at the bottom of our driveway and kicked snow into the face of one of these, without explaining to us kids why he did? Cause he did. I wonder what that baby seal lied about?

Can you believe it? This thing 👇 just told a lie.

TIBB'S EVE LIVE STREAM! DECEMBER 23RD AT 6PM MST I will be doing a live stream of playing some original songs, covers, and a few Christmas tunes (don't worry, they're not ones played on radio or in stores continuously) while I have live streamed playing guitar around the holidays in the past, this is the first year its planned ahead and an attempt to do as good quality as possible, not just me with a phone this time (hopefully no technical issues) Come! Put me on and listen along, have other people around ya? Fantastic! Alone? All good! Watch or put me on in the background! Tibb's Eve is a, typically Newfie, tradition of speanding time with your friends and partying before spending a bunch of time with your family. Other names for this day is "Christmas Eve... Eve", and "oh crap, Christmas is about here". if it cancels, this is why: -terribly sick -power goes out -taken by aliens -horrific technical issues -3 ghost came to me, but realized its the wrong person, just will take a bit to clear up said confusion I hope to have you all tune in! (it's a free and public live stream, just look up my name on Facebook "David William Paturel" and find the active live stream, if not one refresh and look again :) ) #disanddatmedia #music #tibbseve #holidays #christmas #wintersolstice #yeg #edmonton #acousticguitar #acoustic https://www.instagram.com/p/ClebUXTvqsF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I feel like loneliness will shorten my life span more than anything else.

I remember when I had friends that I could go out for drives with, blasting the mysic loud, talk about life, do stupid shit. I remember when I was able to hit up people and be like "hey wanna ride bikes stoned?" and it be a summer night, or "hey we should all go out for supper", or even "let's all go to (insert persons name) house and party/play board games/watch horror movies". I remember when if I was alone one night, it would feel like boredom, not what it is now for me, the norm of me being pulled deeper and deeper into the darkness of what is loneliness.

I also miss being in a healthy relationship, a relationship that you can be like "hey honey did you want to do something?" and it could be literally just the 2 of yous cuddling doing nothing, just happy to be around. I miss having that person that I feel so deeply connected to, falling asleep and waking up to a person you care so much and deeply about.

I feel like an outsider, the friends I have I feel like I'm just on the outside looking in, it's hard to make friends as an adult already but when you live in an area where you're an outsider to the norm , you look for the more outcast, weirder, and damaged people, but when you're an outsider to those groups as well, where do you go?

And here's the thing, sometimes I can logic my brain out of this, sometimes I can't, seems like it's happening more and more.

Depression, anxiety, trauma, nerodivergatiness, and poverty are just a recipe for loneliness. Funny however that things about me contradict itself. I work mostly alone, making absolute minimum (which in this case, it is not enough for survival), with this, the social spaces and activities are limited cause, well, money.

I do have some empathy for the men who experience loneliness, I do not approve of how some of these men behave and react and view the world because of it, no excuse for that, but being a man feeling isolation, it fucking sucks, and I talk about this because I am a lonely man, I don't hate people, I don't hate progressives (I am a progressive afterall), I don't hate feminism (I am one afterall), and so on. I am just lonely as hell, living in a capitalistic hellscape, stuck, and seeing less and less hope.

I'm scared to write about this online, I don't want to be attacked, or made fun of, or even dismissed. Loneliness is extremely horrible for mental health, I am trying, I am not going to stop trying to escape this loneliness, but it is so hard.

And all of this, is written on a day depression and loneliness day, which seems to be happening more, which I hate. I worry I'm annoying, or needy, or a bother, and so on, these are the thoughts of depression but it's hard to stop these thoughts.

This is just a ramble, a rant I wanted off my chest, as I lay alone in my room, on my bed, watching youtube, no really sure what the hell to do. Maybe Ill think of something, but with winter coming, this is going to be more limited.

If you read this, check in on your friends, this includes your male friends, as they are not as likely to express the true feelings they have, if you dont have something nice to say, all I ask is you don't say it here or to me, my mental health is kinda crap no gonna lie. Of you know me personally and didn't know this, know 3 things: 1) sorry you find out like this, 2) I didnt say anything to you probably because I didn't want to be a burden, 3) My physical health and safety is fine, nothing to worry about there.

I think I will figure it out, just wanted to vent about whats going on. Hopefully it makes sense

Hey! It's me! I have turned into the undead! (help) Why? Water Warriors @waterwarriors.yeg is an local non-profit that goes out, on foot, to the unhouse community to pass out food, water, clothing, harm reduction, and other needed supplies. go donate money and/or supplies, winter is coming and things are needed (at Edmonton, Alberta) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjMWXyxuJpa/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=