seeing all the lovely people on my feed, all these hardworking, motivated individuals who are trying to do better, to do their best, really make my heart happy.

just know that I'm really grateful and hope you get wherever you want <3

there's so much about the human experience that seems absurd as a little kid. like when you're parents just sit, talking and holding hands and you think man adults are so boring. or like when your mom goes through home decor magazines. or like when your mom buys clothes and really likes even just browsing through them.

and then you grow up and you move out or you fall in love or you just grow up and you're like man i get it now.

i still don't understand why adults don't watch cartoons though, cartoons slap.

we know existing is hard, but that little whisper of hope that tells you to keep going? to keep living because maybe things will improve? maybe it will get easier? maybe you’ll experience joy and love? maybe the next season resembles the relief of spring following a grueling winter? whatever it is that hope is telling you, listen to it.

what I haven't talked about when talking about the magnus archives is that everytime---EVERY SINGLE TIME---I listened to even one podcast I would wake up in the middle of the night in sweats from nightmares, in february. I stopped listening to them thrice and gave in later every single time. after episode 37, the one with the forest I dreamt that I was lost in the forest even when I was just taking a power nap.

now, it's not like I've never had nightmares, but I hadn't had them in over a decade. not this bad anyway.

after I joined Tumblr (very recently, a couple weeks ago) it has changed how I looked at TMA. it has become fiction again and I don't get nightmares anymore.

"i don't know what this means. i don't know what any of this means. i'm... so tired."

yeah, same man

i don't draw real well but ive been trying to draw "real" bodies (modelled after my own before you come for me) so yeah

it's been really hard to love every part of myself but ive been trying and I think it'll pay off someday

go drink water y'all your body does so much for you, take care of it !!

i have 2 higher dimensions and 1 new prime number due midnight. not that you give a crap.

"Culinary students will literally have a spaghetti due at 8" "Art students will literally turn in some shapes at the end of the week" Well I have 40 insects due next month. If you even care.

I'm barely even bog water sometimes I'm just the dregs left after pouring out bog water into the sink I'm sorry I love you

they'll be like I'm a girl's girl anyway can I have your boyfriend's number he's single right? no? he wasn't that cute anyways

Fr, they’ll even put you in harm’s way for a man lol it’s scary out there

i know now why they call the cute people pukis... pookies? how do they? spell? that?

woke agenda killed my son. They came down and killed him with rocks. They bashed him with rocks.

Use those nice things you're saving up to make Now more enjoyable, instead of trying to falsely nurture some hypothetical Later. It's okay to save things but never do it out of the fact that you don't think the moment is good enough for them now. Save them because you want to. And then use them because you want to. You can already enjoy things now

FUCK YES

day 1

i don't think I am (or could ever be) the kind of person who takes nice notes or has nice notebooks for each subject. i end up scrawling all over and tearing pages out and stapling them together.

i've been trying to fight the urge to not eat. i've been drinking a lot of coffee. i'm really scared but i think that's a good thing because you're only scared when you give a shit and i want to give a shit.

anyone wanna study together rn over discord?

Reblog if you want a shitty summary of your blog in your inbox.

Always

and when you're ready you will find someone else, who is wonderful and loves you and says your eyes look pretty in the sun. and you will be grateful and happy.

you’ll get over them. you’ll cry it out, delete the photos, have trouble falling asleep, ask their friends how they’re doing, stalk their social media, miss them when that one song comes on. but then you’ll get over them.