I’m not old enough to feel at all like this

i figured it out when i realised

that your pain felt like a bullet to the chest,

yet i looked around

and no one else was bleeding with me

– love

This may sound obvious but, it’s easy to be positive when you feel positive, and it’s easy to be negative when you feel negative.

I’m all for venting and talking about things that bother you but, if you want to get better you need to stop reading depression posts at 2am.

They say I’m too young to feel these things. That I’ve barely lived. But it feels like it’s been an eternity, and my soul is tired.

Hey, chill, it’s going to be okay.

You feel this way right now and that’s completely fine. You’re allowed to feel like shit, like everything is awful and there’s no way of stopping it. You’re allowed to want to die.

But please also keep in mind that these negative thoughts and emotions are only a result of the mindset you’re in at this moment, and are probably not a reflection of reality. Your brain isn’t doing well right now and it’s making you think and feel things that aren’t actually true. And that’s not your fault. I mean, you’re ill after all, right?

But here’s the thing. Look, I know you’ve heard this a thousand times, but this will pass. They’ll be days when you’re so fucking tired of this that you’ll want to stop existing, and maybe this will last a long time. I can’t tell you how long it’ll be, I’m sorry . Either way, between these days - or months, or even years - there’ll be times when it doesn’t feel so bad and you’ll remember why you stuck around. As exhausting as the unpredictable shitstorm of bad days and good days is, and the fact that you always go back to feeling like shit again makes you wonder what the point of trying is, one day there’ll be more good ones than bad ones. That’s the point.

You probably don’t believe that because what do I know, right? and that’s okay.

You’re still here and that means something. Good things are coming, honestly. I hope something nice happens real soon.

Peace x

I do not make good art.

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