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myfakeplasticlove13 · 7 months

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I don’t know man :/ i think I’m just tired of being me

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dollkisses05 · 16 days

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When is it my turn

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girlyteengirl16 · 4 months

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life is starting to feel like praying to god to kill me again

#i want to die #it’s getting bad again #i want to relapse #i want to bleed out #i’m not okay #i want to die so bad #pls kill me #trauma #i wanna kms #im still traumatized #tw depressing stuff #mentally unstable #god why am i being punished #god please let me feel okay for once #mental abuse #tw depressing thoughts #mentally tired

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endlessmidnights · 2 months

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I want someone to notice so badly but I know what would probably happen if they did so I just stay in constant conflict with myself

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borderlinebelle · 1 month

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“happy hellion healing”,

a photo series, 3/31/2024

I did these all by myself outside of a lovely little holiday gathering.

I am learning to love my skin again.

I held on to these for so long because I kept wanting it to be an intimate moment between myself and … myself… 😂 but I am ready to share.

and yeah .. I look pretty conventionally unconventionally …

and most days, I’m grateful for my mothers fine angles, full cheeks, and abundant lips. (despite her .. difficult attributes and personal struggle that spans through time and space to echo through me from birth to now …)

but deeply, I SEE A HAPPY HUMAN AGAIN. I see a healing human. I see a CHANGE EMBRACING powerhouse of fucking stamina and grace. I see a body excessively scarred but solid, strong, disciplined, determined, and resilient … and so so so so soft at the same time.

When I think about the methods they used to bring my little soul back to this body .. again and again… the shiver is molecular.

(supposedly)

a human being’s most inherit trait: the will to stay alive

I’ve betrayed this body by brutalizing it for every mistake, for every whisper of my mother or father’s voice, for every previous misstep, and every challenged choice, for every emotional explosion, for every mentally ill moment of grief and pain and sorrow and FEAR…x10000000 times over… and all it’s done … is keep me alive!

I see ME…CLEARLY for the first time … in a long time.

I know I have so much… wreckage from my past to wade through… but I look forward to it now. With these clearer eyes… maybe I can repurpose the absolute TAR into creativity.

👍🏽🤷🏽‍♀️🫀

i havta try.

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thestarslittleking · 8 months

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Me 🤝Sitting in the closet when it gets bad🤝 KYD Regulus

#regulus black #kydregulusblack #kill your darlings #kill your darlings messermoon #I’m writing this in my closet #it’s getting bad again #RAB #regulus being regulus #regulus black kinnie #regulus arcturus black #jegulus #fic: kill your darlings #kill your darlings by messermoon

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babyfairy · 2 months

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nothing is fun anymore 🙃

#it’s getting bad again

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tartmorelikedont · 6 months

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I hate when people are like ‘just try your best!’ and then are angry cause it wasn’t good enough, like my best doesn’t even look like trying to you

Believe me I am doing my best even if you can’t see it

#autism #neurodivergent #adhd #it’s getting bad again #i haven’t been doing good lately and every little thing feels impossible #soo you know. fun.#executive dysfunction can go fuck it’s self #and then there’s the shame from myself and others #like believe me if I could just force myself to do it I would #unfortunately I have no power here anymore and my life is crumbling

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idontgetanysleep · 10 months

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me: i should get up and be productive

also me: but i just wanna watch star wars, and talk about star wars, and think about star wars, and create star wars content, and look at star wars memes, and discuss star wars, and listen to songs that remind me of star wars…

#star wars brain rot #i’m seriously going through it #it’s getting bad again #star wars #h rants

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bxrcodebxtch · 4 months

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oh shit oh fuck it’s getting bad again time to smoke weed until i pass out every night for the foreseeable future until i can tolerate being sober again

#it’s getting bad again #bpd abandonment poetry #bojack horseman #poetry #we’ll all be here forever #autism #bjhm #i miss you #modern love #new hyperfixation #spotify #oh shit oh fuck #oh fuck oh fuck oh shit

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dollkisses05 · 1 month

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Girls with daddy issues are the best gfs btw