since i have no future i have multiple easy choices
drug dealer/ OF/ prostitue or killing myself tonight🥰
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i have lots of dreams and all of them include me disappearing
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I don't give a sh1t anymore.
I don't give a sh1t if they notice I'm not e4ting enough.
I don't give a sh1t if they notice I'm hürting myself again.
I don't give a sh1t if they notice the emptiness in my eyes.
I don't give a sh1t if they finally notice I'm completely d3ad inside.
I just don't give a f#cking sh1t anymore.
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my efforts are not enough
my love is not enough
my pain is not enough
I'm not enough
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I sh'ed on my left thigh before having to march in a uniform for 2.5 km... that was really annoying to walk all the way...
what was even worse was I didn't bandage myself correctly so my bandages was slowly sliding off. </3
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Why am I alive
I hate this world
I have to suffer and when I finally ask for help I get to wait a year just to get told we don’t want to help you like people always say to reach out but when i finally do nothing happens and I just feel worse
All I do is cvt and lay in bed
My arms and thighs are going to be scarred forever because I can’t get help because the only thing that’s keeping me alive is cvtting
I don’t find anything fun anymore I just do it to not be suicidal all the time (I still am)
I don’t want to be on this earth anymore
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"you're spinning me around, my feet are off the ground"
actually no. cause who'd be able to pick up a WHOLE ASS COW LIKE ME
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#33
I hate that I still have that connection with you.
Like when I'm on DND and don't use my Messenger anymore, I'd look at my phone 2mins after you messaged me.
Or when that time you dropped by in the office and I just felt something and immediately turned my head to your direction and I just saw you.
And that time during our Office Christmas Party and I was in line and something just told me to go back and then there you were.
I hate that I still have that mental/physical(...?) connection with you cause I know I'll only have small, and little to none interaction with you anymore. I'm afraid that I don't know if I'll ever get that same connection with anyone after you.
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finally getting over my ana but getting worse with $/h
😭 what is going on
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