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yoursoartdeco · 1 year

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@jeffs-nylon-mesh-crop-top i honestly am a bit speechless…. this is literally a home to me. just thank you. so incredibly much. the fact that you also feel it more on a deeper level is so amazing tk me, because it’s not an interest where you just say “oh yeah i hyperfixate on a serial killer and have some sort of connection with it”. you just don’t, especially in such a judging society. more people have interacted with me on here in the last 3 days than anyone has on any social media over the past 3 damn years. it’s a rare thing to find. it makes me smile everyday, knowing that i wake up to comments like yours,

thank you for being the most welcoming most generous people ive ever had the pleasure to know. i love y’all so so so much. <3

this is going to be a more serious post than my previous memes and humour, so i do apologise for that, but on the other hand, i hope to find others to relate to.

ive tried to find the perfect social media to express my hyperfixations and interests, but to not much surprise, i haven’t had much luck. instagram is boring and highly un-interactive, facebook you don’t tend to find younger people and it’s generally quite serious (imo), tik tok is extremely toxic (again, imo) and i cant think of any others.

whenever i went on tumblr, it felt more comfortable and a place where i can genuinely express my interests etc. so i decided to join, because, why not? everyone seemed chilled and funny and everyone had a great sense of humour.

i don’t know about any of you, but i tend to give up easily, when trying to make friends etc. (and yes before anyone questions, i have trouble making friends so social media is kind of my only option). and they seem to be amazing but over and done with in like, 2 days. it’s like im scared to out myself out there because i know ill be disappointed in the end.

im homeschooled, with not much of a social life, especially in real life, i struggle with anxiety on a daily occurrence, and all ive ever wanted is to find people that get me for me, you know? and every time i think ive found it, little do i know it’s over in a second.

im worried about drama, im worried that they might actually not like me as much as i like them, im worried ill give up on it, once again. and not much changes, if *anything* changes.

i don’t actually know what my goal is with this post, i don’t know what im trying to achieve. but i just hope im not alone in feeling like this constantly.

please try not to take this as a “feel sorry for me” post, because i promise it’s not. i just would love to hear other peoples sides, since i don’t usually here anyone else speak about this.

thank you for reading, if you have. i really appreciate it.

<3

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yoursoartdeco · 1 year

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@dahmers-deathwish thank you so much for the reblog love <3

#jeff dahmer #jeffreylioneldahmer #jeffrey dahmer #dahmer #my friend dahmer #appreciation post #community

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yoursoartdeco · 1 year

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@jeffs-nylon-mesh-crop-top okay when i normally say “omg im crying” most of the time i don’t mean literally but now im being serious. im crying.

it normally takes a lot to genuinely make me cry when it comes to people being kind.

finding other people that genuinely feel a random connection with jeff and the case is like finding another world, the world in which i clearly belong. ive never found a sweeter community than i have here, i just feel the urge to hug all of y’all and never let go.

yes, he’s a serial killer. he did horrible things and ill never condone it. but i don’t know why i feel such an affiliation with him. sometimes it genuinely makes me cry. there i said it. but i cant help it. im sick and tired of pretending that im just an “observer” of the case, when im not, really. it’s something more for me.

i just cant get my head round the fact that i found the best community, even if it is revolving around a dead serial killer.

i love y’all so much.