Tell Me A Secret

Tell me a secret One bone from your skeletons Something you'll find in twilight When you crack open the closet Like I knew it wasn't going to work But I thought I could fix them We all thought that at some point

Tell me a secret It could be something morose  Like a planned escape with death  Or a good tinge of light comedy  Of how you missed all the hot one's signs You just wanted to fuck them anyway You knew it was never going to work 

Tell me a secret Can't guarantee I'll tell you one of mine Life is not tic for tac, you know Turn to that back page in the diary One that you have from high school  About getting revenge on the bully Making them cry, only you know how, why

Tell me a secret Something you always wished to spill  But you shoved deeper into the well A kink your so-called religion shamed Whips, cuts, role play, polyamory...  You thought it was abnormal But is it, if you have a partner in crime? 

Now

Do you recall the night I broke your heart You sat on the bleachers gift in hand I never gave you a chance to give I said my goodbyes and all the whys And didn't give you a chance to protest I didn't even give you one final glance Never knowing it would truly be my last So many moons later, I wonder about you If that choice was right, there was no redo A lost connection, no Facebook to be found So I put it to the ether, I hope you're happy now

Sundress

Fabric wraps your breasts And accentuates your curves Showing off your calves Teasing the thighs  Your shoulders, back Glisten in the sparkling sun The imagination left behind You glide in the breeze The swaying outlines your ass Each trace drives me wild Taking you with and without Exciting relaxation now due Perfection, no. Damn close.

Mid evening Pondering lIfe Missing love True emotion

Late twilight Misguided paths Broken oaths  Highest tension

Early morn Guided dreams  Lustful touches Exploratory high 

Before You Go

Love me before you go Leave me a memory You don’t have to text Pretend it’s anonymously

Take my piece of heaven As the fruit falls off the tree Climb the trunk to paradise Pleasures of your humanity Alone, I now lay used Exhausted by your economy Consumed by the dark fires A sin worth the ecstasy

Love me before you go Impress my memory…

Unrequited

Is love unrequited Gifted to another  Hoping to be returned In an unequal response Making you overflow And emotional whelmed Did their gift of love Find you fulfilled  Or are they the one Left to be unrequited

Do you dream of the future Of the fun and the mundane Sharing space separately  Adventuring the world alone  Building a fundamental home Full of safety, love, and hope

When I woke in the present Did I see the lonely path ahead To the future of those dreams I chose not to follow that road For I wish to not to go alone So I ask, will you come with? 

I dream of you  Sleeping alone As I do the same I can feel your skin Beneath my thoughts  Teasing my soul Kiss me through  The miles and night Touch me so We peak when right Hold me as though  Our love will end  Once the clock  Passes midnight 

Toughest Critique

I get self-conscious about my hobbies  As I’m sure we all sometimes tend to do  I like to think I’m well-rounded While the geek in me tends to win  I can ride as fast and as far as I can pedal Dozens of miles through hills, old countryside  Then coop up with Link, Shulk, and Samus While a sci-fi book plays in the background  I’ll walk in the mountains and forest for hours In morning sun, afternoon rain and even snow  And I’ll take pictures of many toys, yes toys Aiming for that perfect shot and pose I can speak for all these for hours 日本語にもはなせる Until it becomes a bit overwhelming, boring Yet, only few understand the geekiness It hides until I trust and am vulnerable  As that self-consciousness tends to creep I try to own it and make it mine, unique It is the one side of my personality  I still remain the toughest critique 

Toriyama

I watched this cartoon Something new to us  Crazy hair, transformations Energy blasts, a fan translation  A decision to learn A language none of my friends spoke I needed to know the truth  Were the words right? They were wrong But a teenage choice  Led to knowledge and chance  For an inner-city child  To travel the world like his created heroes Growing like his RPG characters Transforming me  An impulse decision From cartoons and games Molded a person, a life

Hold me when you are helpless When your world has gone dark Hiding under your safety covers From the monsters who all lurk From all the doubts in your mind And the fears from your closest I will be a moment of strength A light to guide your way back To understand that you’re loved You’re strong, brave, growing And aren’t ever alone 

Some lessons Only come from heartbreak Some growth Only comes from failure 

Broken, molded  Written, retold, abandoned, loved  We become The amalgamation of experience

Complete

Energy

You're there Static The charge in the air Electric Draw me to you Magnetic New energy created Kinetic  We’re free to let it all go Exoergic

Never take for granted their smile Their laugh, joy, hugs, their love As soon as you do, it fades slowly Like a dying star waiting to go nova  The more you can cherish the time Small moments as they happen now The more they feel love reciprocated Fueling their star, so they shine bright

The Song about Vermont

The song about Vermont Reminds me of you And how you wished to escape The past that you knew You wanted to be different Something so much more I was the person who showed you Who you were before 

Chasing happiness through drama Did it work out for you As my calm and steady persona Was too boring like dew You spoke about your exciting exes As they were legendary I never fit any of their bravado I gave you me aplenty 

You spoke about the small city In the sticks of Vermont The way your voice would sing  Your soul never left along  But now you play with that tune Hoping you found that smile I wish you happiness and wealth From my invisible profile 

We don't like to read about happiness

Joy or the growth that comes from it

We love to wallow in misery

Without company... Anymore

We march towards dystopia

Following the bright warning signs

That lie about riches being near

Each step the wrong direction

Yet the beat pushes us to the extremes

To trauma dump on fictional monsters

Knowing we can't really stop our demise

We stare blankly as we're led to the edge

Midnight Fears of the Overthinker

What if I am not enough Not showing up when needed Not lifting when called upon What if my words fail me They stumble into the abyss Into the dark forever unheard What if I open the closet All the skeletons tumble out Chasing away those close What if my heart stops My river suddenly runs dry No empathy left to give What if I destroy my smile Gone are the geeky quirks I hold A person becomes android

What if I am not enough Because I don't have enough Never... enough... enough...