I dream of you  Sleeping alone As I do the same I can feel your skin Beneath my thoughts  Teasing my soul Kiss me through  The miles and night Touch me so We peak when right Hold me as though  Our love will end  Once the clock  Passes midnight 

Unrequited

Is love unrequited Gifted to another  Hoping to be returned In an unequal response Making you overflow And emotional whelmed Did their gift of love Find you fulfilled  Or are they the one Left to be unrequited

Now

Do you recall the night I broke your heart You sat on the bleachers gift in hand I never gave you a chance to give I said my goodbyes and all the whys And didn't give you a chance to protest I didn't even give you one final glance Never knowing it would truly be my last So many moons later, I wonder about you If that choice was right, there was no redo A lost connection, no Facebook to be found So I put it to the ether, I hope you're happy now

Do you dream of the future Of the fun and the mundane Sharing space separately  Adventuring the world alone  Building a fundamental home Full of safety, love, and hope

When I woke in the present Did I see the lonely path ahead To the future of those dreams I chose not to follow that road For I wish to not to go alone So I ask, will you come with? 

Oxymoron

Is love a choice or emotion? A debate more new in time Your decisions to care, to know To show empathy, to be true Your feelings to be happy, sad To be anxious and desired A chosen emotion, it hits hard Missing one day, all you feel the next  Has you floating and falling  Yet you have to nurture it Feed it, make it grow, be sturdy  You give love and receive love To none, one, many, a choice The only single-word oxymoron

A Whisper

I pause in the moments when you come to mind Like taking in the breeze or new memories refined Why is this passing through something so special?  Like singing an old song or reading gone magical Vivid piercing of your eyes, beautiful gleaming smile Then you’re fading; I won’t beg you to stay a while Take the memories as they are and now as they were Impossible to forget, even as they become a whisper 

Sometimes my mind panics at the mundane The routine, the settling into what some call Boredom 

Is this the rest of my life, a record on repeat  Groundhog’s Day, and its so slight variations Purgatory

Can I escape, throw it away for some lost lie Green pastures, bright rainbows, true utopia Fallacies 

I float between reality and unknown fantasy Panic and calm, routine and new, never still Oscillating 

I want both the mundane and utopian deceit  Calmly panicked over fake rainbow treasure Complete

You remind me how to balance, envelop fear Embrace the boredom and the odd fallacies Lovely

Do we ever fully heal From the falls and heartbreak Do we just live with the scars Learning to smile and move on

Mid evening Pondering lIfe Missing love True emotion

Late twilight Misguided paths Broken oaths  Highest tension

Early morn Guided dreams  Lustful touches Exploratory high 

In the Midst of Love

In the midst of love You sometimes get lost in the storm  Unaware you are being guided off your path  It is when you hit the calm of the eye That you realize you are lost  Fight the storm to find the line Wait it out to change your destination Who will you be when it dissipates Forever marked, forever transformed In the midst of love Be lost. Be free in the storm

The Space

I sometimes get lost in the space between dreams Where it’s dark and float in the never ending nothing Solemn fortitude, the void becomes an escape As it’s better than a nightmare or realistic reverie 

In this space, I ponder life’s many consequences Some opportune, others lead to disappointment  I’m allowed to regret, boast, or imagine vivid possibilities  About the paths that made me, me 

When I soon wake or fall deeper into slumber The space will vanish, and my thoughts will linger Spilling into the next fantasy or new question of the day As I attempt to verify, everything is what it seems, I’m ok 

Tell Me A Secret

Tell me a secret One bone from your skeletons Something you'll find in twilight When you crack open the closet Like I knew it wasn't going to work But I thought I could fix them We all thought that at some point

Tell me a secret It could be something morose  Like a planned escape with death  Or a good tinge of light comedy  Of how you missed all the hot one's signs You just wanted to fuck them anyway You knew it was never going to work 

Tell me a secret Can't guarantee I'll tell you one of mine Life is not tic for tac, you know Turn to that back page in the diary One that you have from high school  About getting revenge on the bully Making them cry, only you know how, why

Tell me a secret Something you always wished to spill  But you shoved deeper into the well A kink your so-called religion shamed Whips, cuts, role play, polyamory...  You thought it was abnormal But is it, if you have a partner in crime? 

Unwritten Notes

I strum the keys elegantly in G minor As you sing the notes in harmony There is no determined sheet music Just natural rhythm and movement  Maintaining the sensual chemistry  Following my lead, we go higher Each note has intention, definition Pushing you into transcendence We lock eyes from the stage corners Unaware of the audience in our awe Are they aware of what magic occurred The beauty of being off script, off mic, apex Out of the spotlight, only angels know The magnificence of our unwritten notes

Toriyama

I watched this cartoon Something new to us  Crazy hair, transformations Energy blasts, a fan translation  A decision to learn A language none of my friends spoke I needed to know the truth  Were the words right? They were wrong But a teenage choice  Led to knowledge and chance  For an inner-city child  To travel the world like his created heroes Growing like his RPG characters Transforming me  An impulse decision From cartoons and games Molded a person, a life

But

You’re great, but… I had fun, but… I like you, but... But..

Always waiting  For that other shoe When will it drop Ripping your hope out You know it looms That three-letter word Full of disappointment Forcing a restart 

You’re amazing The night is young I love you No buts...

Model

Hold still Vogue Lighting Click Not right Once again 

New scene Lights Camera Action Film Good take?

That pose Don’t move Less smile Be natural Shutter Wrap 

Does this make you less human Instagram says no TikTok says yes Your heart remains empty Another day on social media Trying to please them all