This is Mischa Ernst Townes III: I made a list of thirty-two possible names and narrowed them down through careful evaluation of which phonetic sounds and letter combinations invoked his energy, which etymologies most emulated the spirit of the character, and which names had connotations or allusions that would foreshadow or contrast his inevitable arc while simultaneously harking back to his history in an interconnected web.
“Body of Years” by Mother Mother feels very emblematic of the trans experience (personal opinion)
The “body of years” is your life pre-transition, a period that you try to hide from others and repress thinking about, but occasionally look back on to see how far you’ve come - and be sure everything is staying quite dead.
The first two lines are about establishing yourself as your new identity, embracing life and carving out your place in it as the person you were always meant to be. The second two lines call back to the idea of keeping your old self like a dirty secret, a skeleton in your closet whom you want no one to know about.
The death imagery feels referential to the idea of a deadname or the figurative rotting of that person you had to effectively kill to come into your own. “Sheet of veneer” means an artifice you place over something disfigured or broken that you don’t want others to see, covering “a piece of my soul” - that’s a very common trans thing, to feel mournful and attached to those hated years while still repressing them and trying to block them out, “forget” them.
The bridge refers to reading through journal entries, symbolic of viewing the proofs of your past self and the reality they lived in, though they are now a “ghost.” The line about your body “breaking from all of the weight” reminds me of dealing with gender incongruence and dysphoria. This may be a reach, but the unique word “telltale” used in tandem with all of the death and repression imagery may be referential to Edgar Allen Poe’s “A Telltale Heart,” a story of a man who kills someone and hides his body under the floorboards, and feels so convinced he can hear his heart still beating beneath the floor that he goes mad. In this case, it’s “telltale diary pages,” suggesting that the maddening thing is just the reminder of the person you were through memories and artifacts of that life.
Top Surgery Journal #4: plus considering the cocktail of painkillers I had coursing through my veins to start I actually was in less physical pain than normal
I’m 13 days post top surgery and I am literally so happy. I’m wearing a lot of worn joggers and buttonup shirts over and over but I love the way I look already, I feel impossibly confident and just right. I never believed I could feel this good and I can’t even lift my arms over my head yet. I’m happy to be here. That’s it that’s the post ❤️
Got asked about difference in folds for different fabrics.
This is a very simplified break down, as a lot depends on the cut of the clothes and the actual material. It really helps to understand the cut and structure of clothing items because it defines how they sit and fall.
But here is a small example with a stiffer cotton t-shirt and a more softer cotton blend shirt.
In short:
Fewer lines = stiffer material
A lot of (vertical) lines = softer fabric.