Finally finished!

I'm really proud of Dimitri, but I'm not 100% sold on Byleth. Oh well. Hopefully they'll serve their purpose and make someone very happy.

"Your kind, warm hands...may they cling to my own forevermore."

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

The ghost distribution system has given me brain rot. I volunteer and foster for a cat rescue and have said the phrase "it's fine we're all strays here" to several animals an now all I can think of is him over hearing that and further solidifying "yep I'm here forever now"

God that kills me.

"It's ok baby, we're all strays here"

It hits Ghost between the ribs, sticks like it's barbed. You're talking to one of the neighborhood cats but it doesn't matter, it may as well be him. He watches you stroke your fingers over the tabby's head, scratching lightly behind its ears as it chomps greedily at the kibble you set out. Crouched and resting your cheek against your palm, your smile is so gentle. You're beautiful when you smile. All strays. He hadn't considered that in your infinite kindness, your ceaseless compassion, you could be like him. It didn't fit, somehow, that another stray might take him in, that the hand reaching out to him might have been looking for salvation as well.

Ghost supposes even god must have to beg for worship. Why else would they send angels to shepherds? Send prophets and evangelists? Do you beg at the same doorway, staring from the other side of the warmth and hoping your worshipers can find you in the cold? When you saved him, did you know how deeply his devotion would run? Did you know to be scared of it? Did you know he'd stay?

Did you know he'd come back?

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

Something about Dani and Jamie, Bill and Frank, love stories cultivated in the heart of horror. Something about finding queer love, gay love, human and fallible and worth cupping hands around and protecting even in the darkest of times. Something about stumbling into your person when you least expect them, when your mind is fixed firmly on pain and survival, and letting their light open you up. Something about choosing to wake up every day and cherish this person, even when it’s hard, even when they’re being broken down right before your eyes. Something about saying “I am marrying you, not in the eyes of others, but in our hearts where it matters—legality be damned”.

Something about gay love being worth all the strawberries, all the moonflowers, all the persistence and the endings chosen on your own terms. Something about that hits me where it counts.

♡ ⊹ . ˚ 🎀 Hi there, friends!

It’s been a while since I’ve spoken here, and I miss seeing everyone and hearing how you’ve been c:

So I thought an outfit might be a fun way to do so? ♡

(Please be kind though!)

I don’t know why I never put this up here as this is one of my favorite outfits *ever*! I love wearing tights so no surprise here, but what I actually like most is the boots and my hair hehe ♡

I’ll try to put up more outfits when I can, but most of my time is working and with my dad so I’m pretty tired lately ; ;

He doesn’t open his eyes much, but likes being read to so I plan to start the ‘The Secret Garden’ this week!

How is everyone else doing? Are you well ?? Enjoying the weather or doing anything new and fun ?? I’ll say a prayer for you guys as always if you’re not! ♡

Giving a big hug and *lots* of happy thoughts for your week! Please take good care of yourself, and stay safe, sweet friends ~ !! XOXO

🧸 ⊹ . ˚ ♡ . ˚ ⊹ 🎀

🤍 ⊹ ˚ . 🩰 ⊹ ˚ ♡ 🧁

IT'S ALMOST 2024 SOAK YOUR HANDS IN ALMOST TOO HOT WATER AND FEEL THE EMOTIONAL PAIN LEAVE YOU! RESET YOURSELF LIKE A 2003 COMPUTER AND GIVE YOUR FINGERS A CHANCE TO WARM UP! YOUR HANDS ARE COLD! YOU JUST DIDN'T NOTICE SO WARM YOURSELF UP!

HOLD THE WATER IN YOUR FINGERS AND FEEL THE THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF HISTORY HELD IN THOSE DROPS AND BECOME PART OF THAT HISTORY! FEEL THE LOVE OF THE WORLD CONTAINED IN YOUR SINK AND THE WARM EMBRACE OF THE LIQUID!

THE YEAR IS ENDING TREAT THE HANDS THAT LET YOU INTERFACE WITH THE WORLD TO SOME KINDNESS! THANK YOUR HANDS FOR LETTING YOU TYPE TO YOUR FRIENDS! THANK YOUR HANDS FOR LETTING YOU EXPRESS YOURSELF THROUGH ART! FOR ART IN WRITING!

THANK YOUR HANDS FOR WHAT THEY GIVE YOU EVERY DAY AND SOAK THEM IN WARM WATER FOR 2 MINUTES MINIMUM!!

What if, with Danny being half ghost, his body temperature is sluggish to regulate? The longer he's a halfa, the more delayed it gets.

Like, he has a normal human body temperature ...under ideal circumstances. But if he stays outside in the cold for fifteen minutes, anything exposed directly to the cold will feel cold, even two hours later. Anyone who touches him or shakes his hand or anything will notice he feels like ice.

So then you get these little moments where Danny and his friends are trying anything they can think of to warm up his hands so no one will notice. Danny freaking out about his hands feeling dead and shoving his hands in random warm places (even when he's in public), like his armpits, down his shirt collar to reach his bare chest, in his mouth, in his cafeteria food—just anywhere he notices is warm.

On the other hand, there's a chance he registers as having an extremely high fever after taking baths.

Question for my Dragon Age mage oc people: what does your oc's magic feel like in general?

I like to imagine that the kind of magic they favor + their specialization + a bit of their personality gives their magic a unique feel

God, he looks downright exhausted here...

we used to dye our tongues on purpose using kool-aid and i stood in the sprinklers with the grass already so muddy it was starting to do that thing where your lawn is now quicksand

i think i want to kiss you because you remind me of smoothing out the chalk drawing with gentle fingers. of anthills and feeding birds our leftover lettuce. of getting covered in briars while we picked blueberries from the backyard bush. i think i want to kiss you because it's a bad idea, and i think i want to kiss you because of how water grips the side of a pitcher of iced tea.

you said your life was a toddler's art piece, with paint splatted on your floor, in your mouth, in your hair. i was delighted by that.

i loved the idea of leaving color everywhere.

thinking abut this. everyday occurrence in the sam and aiden household

Took a walk out in the -10F (around -30F with windchill) and got so many whumpy ideas... frostbite and hypothermia my beloved.

Go_A at Weekend Festival 

I hate winter because I get much more achy when it’s cold and I also have to refill my tires constantly but also. december is my birthday month & I think snow is really pretty & GD there is nothing like being out in the country and looking up at a sky full of stars on a winter night

You know what i need rn? A bear hug from each of your water tribe oc's

they are queuing very patiently anon the bear hugs are there whenever ur ready