that bailey post is pure copium
It does have a healthy amount of denial I am not shy or ashamed about that 👀
But at the same time, I do not base my thoughts on nothing, I base it his dialogue and scenes partnered with a bit of psychology! And you know what I'll take this chance to ramble even more because I always have thoughts on DOL characters and their complexity
I am in no way shape or form saying that Bailey is thinking sunshine and rainbows and the stereotypical loving sighs everytime he thinks of PC-- quite the opposite 👀
I think, no matter what situation, you're literally not getting any cute loving relationship with Bailey, I think that man is too far broken, too guarded, too self-isolated. He'd not really allow it for himself, and if he did... It'd probably be deeply toxic and controlling. Because that's... What he knows.
I think the whole thing is, Bailey doesn't want a weakness. He doesn't want to have any of that kind of feelings (frankly he seems to try to be detached from feelings in general), and I think even /realizing/ having any sort of feelings like that would infuriate him to no end, he'd internalize it and it'd eat him up inside.
And with that being said, I do genuinely think he does have a soft spot for the PC. Again, not a cutesy "Oh I love PC so much!!" absolutely fucking not. And sure, you could say it's only because PC brings in the most money,,, but I think it's more than that.
I've already listed a few of my reasons in my previous Bailey post, but honestly even if we just look at personality...
I think the two big archetypes of PC-personality is the Defiant who looks Bailey in the eyes without fear, isn't scared of him, fights back, refuses to conform, and protects the others. A pain in his ass, a thorn that won't be pricked.
Or, the neutral-to-submissive type, who does as asked, helps everyone around the Orphanage, helps everyone around town, tries to keep hope and stay strong especially for the younger orphans. Someone i could see make him almost even more bitter.
And honestly... this is PURE speculation, because we don't know canonically Bailey's past yet... But I could straight up see that some of Bailey's speculated soft spot could come from seeing some of his younger self in the PC, maybe before the bitterness overtook him, before he became this hard shell that knew that the only way to ignore his own misery was at least captilazing on others, that the world would remain broken regardless of what he did.
Or maybe the version of himself he wished he could have been.
I am however simply speculating it could be something like that!! because genuinely psychologically pretty much no one turns out like him, without being deeply broken themselves.
But no to get back on the Bailey x PC dynamic
We know that everytime Bailey has shown these moments I've called attention to, they're almost immediately followed up by coldness.
Oh he came running because you screamed in the bathroom? Congrats you got slapped for wasting his time when there's nothing there. You managed to seduce him and make him admit he doesn't want you to leave? Yeah no you got shoved off him and kicked out of his office as soon as he was thinking rationally again.
-- and it's like that with everything when it comes to Bailey. Which is exact why I'll say again, Bailey is in no shape or form a lovesick puppy, and I don't think he realistically ever would be even if my speculated soft spot ever turned into something more. That man has stunted his emotions as what I would assume to be a survival instinct, recognized that emotions = weakness. Having people close = weakness.
But instead of continuously rambling on,, I'll sum it up and say that my conclusion is, that Bailey is a complex character there isn't a simple "Oh he's in love with the PC" or "Oh he doesn't care about anyone ever at all", it's much more complex than that. Just like I think a LOT of DOL characters are complex, which is part of why I love the game so much.
People definitely don't have to agree with me, and can absolutely say I'm in denial I'll accept that because even if it's denial I still love him 🤧
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My favourite thing about the Blackeyed Theatre Sherlock Holmes universe is that Watson is the clueless one.
I know we typically say that Sherlock is the one who is emotionally unaware/stunted but not this time. Nope. This time, it's all John.
Like. Mary immediately cottoned on. She acknowledges shortly after their marriage that marrying Watson is like marrying Holmes as well because they come as a set. And she understands that. She even tells Watson that Sherlock needs him, just as much as he needs Sherlock. She just comes out and says it. She's realised it. She can tell. And more than that, she knows that John hasn't realised it.
And then, THREE YEARS LATER, Holmes, after having an argument with him about Moriarty and about trying to protect him and what have you, finally gets his head out of his ass and confesses. Straight up says he doesn’t exist without Watson.
And Watson still just. Does not comprehend.
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I never care to speak to the new pastor in my hometown, especially not after he sheepishly agreed to support the local bishop's decree that trans kids would be disallowed to dress and be regarded by their preferred gender identity
but I wonder if the man cares that those kids likely won't remain in the church when they become old enough to decide to no go
I wonder if he cares that he's filling that beautiful old chapel up with seeds of hate that are blooming into a dense forest of venom and cruelty
I wonder what he thinks of the story, of Jesus seeing his Father's house become a market to those preying upon the less fortunate, and Jesus sitting outside no the steps to carefully and coldly weave a braid of leather before driving out the wicked
where do you see yourself in that story, sir?
I wonder what drive this pastor, if it is not love, if it is not the word and teaching of Jesus, a man who said all would be forgiven and who bent his own knee to wash a prostitute's feet
the Catholic church is no longer my home and never really was, but I mourn for the children who perhaps saw comfort in the faith but will never get the chance to find their place inside
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