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More Nonsense from My Ambrosius Stan Account Post:
As someone who got on Tumblr a couple years ago not really knowing the culture and rarely posts because I don't think anyone cares about the silly worms in my brain I'd like to give everyone who thought it was funny and left a like or a tag or a reblog a very I Love You and here is some more thoughts about it I had through the day that I thought nobody would care about but am posting now
The account was named @gold_loin_love and gained notoriety for being the only stan account Ambrosius actually followed
During the live stream Ballister answered the questions (that he had his followers submit beforehand) while still in character, despite the fact that he was laughing his ass off and Ambrosius was with him.
Example: "'Do you think Ballister and Ambrosius are going to get divorced?' Absolutely. They're terrible together and honestly not even cute. They probably had some cringy beach wedding with their weird pink child officiating. Ew, next question"
Ambrosius would frequently interject
"Do I think Ambrosius was toxic for cutting off Ballister's arm?"
Ambrosius, stealing the phone: "Yes he needs to be cancelled immediately."
Ballister, taking it back: "Wrong that weird creep deserved it to be honest"
He read a couple questions that were defending him and after giving them his joke answer about how they were wrong, thanked them sincerely
(sad time) The first thing he posted after the events of the movie, during which he obviously wasn't posting although how fucking funny would it have been to be Ambrosius and see Ballister's fake stan account post "lol get his ass I hope he died" over footage of him MAIMING HIM in light of all that was happening was "I'm sorry that I've been gone, the death of the Queen really took a toll on me, she was a real role model and inspiration of mine. I'm especially sorry to Ambrosius. I wish I hadn't run away. I wish I'd been there for you through all this, I know it must have been so hard. I really hope everyone forgives him."
(sad time over, silliness resumed) He'd use the account to make fun of Ambrosius and himself in every capacity imaginable
"Check out what Ambrosius wore to the national conference, I love how it's so shiny you can't tell how busy and incongruent the patterns are 😍 we love a maximalist king!!!"
"Ballister Ballhard surprises nobody wearing armor he got at the emo booth of a Renaissance Fair."
There is so much potential for this and I'd love to see more of Ballister being a silly goofball
#nimona#ballister boldheart#ambrosius goldenloin#goldenheart#idk tumblr culture if i do something wrong pls tell me#im always scared to post if i might commit a faux pas#and to the people who said they'd want to draw this or write or read about it#you have my every permission#and i love you#if someone made something inspired by my cringe brain?#id cry so hard i threw up from love#ive stolen so many people's headcanons for the jumbled fic in my google drive that will never see the light of dat
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'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.
I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.
About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'
-Casey Plett, Consciousness
#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it#i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition#but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body#not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways#but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth#valuing and exploring and treasuring#i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible#but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body?#it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head#and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude#this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example#like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than#violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body#to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities#like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia#so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you#even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by#what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems#Casey Plett#she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her#this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger#i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial#she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies#that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era#it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it#i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience#said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip#personal nonsense
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me at the howling eye (extreme) every tuesday at 1 am pdt taking my sweet time with Garuda and hoping she finally dates me and/or abducts me
#final fantasy xiv#garuda#she's insane#and bird brained#perfect waifu material if you ask me#:l also I might have issues yeah how did you know#ff14#doodles#elpatrixfarts#my art#artists on tumblr#also I'm a lvl 90 summoner of course#which means I can call my wife at any given moment#just need to ask daddy bahamut for permission every time :)#FFXIV#lalapat hahapat
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I get a bunch of comments and asks with the same question, so I feel like I should clarify this thing for new people
As long as you leave credits, you can make redraws/edits/dubs/pfp/wallpapers/fanfics with my art and concepts.
Yes, if you made your art based on mine, you can post it wherever you want. I don't mind at all:)
#You don't have to ask my permission every time i swear#Just leave the credits and we're fine#I can't answer everyone who asks about it#I don't have that much social energy#:_)
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possess
#naruto#kakuhida#hidakaku#hidan#kakuzu#every time i color something i say i'll never color again and every time i wade through an ocean of suffering to get here#coloring my beloathed#anywho something something they both are protective and possessive of one another#and they show it in semi aggressive ways to keep the themselves safe from all the pain that comes from getting overtly close to someone#but they both know how the other loves#relies on#and worries about them#something something they're immortal but they want a death in each other#if I have to die let it be you who kills me#romantic homicide#instead of saying I love you lets fight and hurt each other inthe ways we've given each other permission to#this is how we show our love#I'm normal#this is a normal blog#cw choking
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Details that make me FERAL
#aitsf#ai the somnium files#kaname date#mizuki date#AGHHHHH LIKE#I CRY EVERY GODDAMN TIME I THINK OF THEM#ive played the date somnium like. a bit too much 👉👈#its just. they love each other so much you know 🥺#and just like. mizukis parents do not give a single shit about her at all#and date cares quite a lot for her and wants to be the Ultimate Dad#but renju specifically asks for him to not do the parent responsibilities since renju wants to do that himself#but he doesnt even bother with most of it so for a long time date is in this shitty position where like#he knows what he should do and he would do anything to make mizuki happy but he doesnt have the permission#and he doesnt think hes a worthy father for mizuki#and then the date somnium is just Mizuki realizing and affirming that date IS her family#he IS what she needs and she wants to stay with him forever#the mizuki route shouldve been the true route ill be petty about this forever 😤#yeah these clowns are my favorite characters ever im so sorry nirvana did that to yall
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having mommy issues be like I hate that you know me I hate that we’re related I hate that you birthed me I hate that you don’t know how to love me properly I hate that you can’t see how much you hurt me I hate that I’m expected to love you
#cy says stuff#I moved out when I was 17 for a reason#but I do still go back to visit when schools out sometimes and I regret it every single time#every time we talk I’m like damn is it time to call it quits because this is not it#I literally feel like I’m constantly on the brink of being disowned or kicked out of the house when I’m there#but it’s also for things like. bringing a single bottle of wine to a Christmas party that I did not even drink#or like. moving in with my partner of 4 years. because we are going to the 2nd most expensive city in Canada and girl I cannot pay the rent#or being upset when she reads my diary ?? or reads my credit card statements without permission and also just like behind my back??#like do you think I’m not going to find out when you bring up information you only would’ve known if you had read those things#I can put two and two together…#also I’m literally almost done my university degree. i am fully an adult. these should not be issues !#ahhhhh!!!#anyways I will speak to my therapist about this lol#also y’all my friends are always like oh I love my mom and it just seems to be a socially accepted thing that you should love your mom#but what if your mom sucks what then#I genuinely cannot relate to them I’m like literally what does that feel like#the first time I felt loved was when I was 15 lol there is 0 love in my family#anyways !#it’s okay I am out of it and I have been out of it#just#always on the brink of cutting her off forever lol#some ppl just never change as much as you want them to and that is tough to accept.#it is also harder because society is telling my that I need to stay loyal to my family cause they’re blood#but if this were anyone else I would’ve blocked them so long ago 😭
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November 16 is when Bon Voyage starts.
Can't wait to see Ishmael be put through the wringer physically and mentally
#assorted outisms#im losing interest in lcb but anything for my sailor girl <3#and my favorite old woman. please keep me updated on every bit of dialogue she says#you have my full permission to send me every canto v image of her
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FNaF AU where Byakuya's dad is a kiddy strangler and Makoto is just there looking for a job while Kyoko is doing all sorts of detective work in the background.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MANY TIMES IVE REWATCHED THE FNAF MOVIE BECAUSE OF THIS ASK
#eggs can answer#danganronpa#naegamigiri#fnaf movie spoilers#fnaf au#byakuya togami#makoto naegi#kyoko kirigiri#shakes in my boots SHAKES YOU I WENT A LIL TOO FAR#KOMARU AS ABBY CAN YOU HEAR ME#FUCKING#SHAKES YOU#NAEGI MAKING HIMSELF THINK ABOIT NEBRASKA EVERY NIGHT#shittiest summer job ever but all the other ones were taken soooooo#naegi dealing with all this shit: I could’ve worked at fucking ihop#togami is not a cop I’m not doing that to him he’s still Vanessa tho very VERY IMPORTANT#BLOND TWINK RIDDLED WITH GUILT#kirigiri interning at her family’s private detective agency and is more than a litttle hyperfixated on the mci#hey hey hey Blondie let me into the haunted pizzeria#hey hey hey new security guard I’m supposed to be in here dw I have permission (lying her ass off)#naegami#naegiri#togiri#drthh
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and if I speak too loud about chuuyas hand size they will strike me down with lightning .
#he can measure them against your abdomen and smile when his middle finger touches ur bellybutton .....#i shant speak without permission. i shant.#🌱 idle#🌱 mumbles#hes just so big in every way except for height and you better believe hes using that to his advantage.#hornyposting™#you can take this as cute though#eg holding hands with him and hearing him smile and joke because you barely reach the second third of his fingers#third bend ***#i have small hands so#especially if his are large#hed tease me a shit ton#🌱ᰔᩚ chuuzai#having to tag that bc i got self indulgent#all my posts like this have 0/1 notes mostly anyway
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Pasta, would you mind if I downloaded, printed, and bound The Red Thread? Obviously, since it's not done, this would be an ongoing process, and I would, of course, keep your attribution on the pages.
I am absolutely fine with this! I've had a couple people who've wanted to know if they could bookbind it and I'm all for it. I'm honestly just... honored every time someone wants to put TRT on their own shelf.😭 So bind away!
#the red thread#you absolutely have my permission to bind it!#as long as my little attribute thing is there then I'm down#i love love love every time i hear someone wants to put it on their shelf!#i wish i could be more help and like... have lil paperbacks to sell but booooo illegal#but at the very least i can make it known i'm ok if you want to bind for yourself!
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#random personal stuff#personal whining feel free to ignore#why forward me an email with additional information#when you could PRINT the email and scribble your additional remarks on it and highlight what you want me to do like I can't read#and hand me the printouts#that's so much more efficient#and not at all wasteful#this man prints every dang thing whether it needs it or not#it was like pulling teeth trying to get him to email me book order requests at all#and now we're back to square one#(it's the guy with the humming & loud videos & p o l i t i c al cartoons & questionable book orders & using my printer for pointless things#& the whim vacation which of course he got permission for with no problem)#(he'll be out the rest of the week leaving just two of us here and I am struggling to exist in the same office with him right now)#(I have been putting up with the nonsense for seven years and I am losing patience & I don't know why he won't retire because he's like 80)
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okay we're officially initiating Yell At Me If You See Me On Tumblr mode
#i have just looked at the schedule and. i have two ten page papers due on tuesday (very bare bones outline for both so far)#and a a paper and final (that i have not started studying for) on thursday#and my stupid fucking art history class is still assigning 3+ page papers w 30+ pages of reading every week until classes are over#sigh. if i get distracted and start being active on here you all have full permission to yell at me
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fuck Jonathan Glazer and fuck everyone cheering him on
#self-hating jews are still antisemitic#'i refute my jewishness' okay then bitch! don't make a movie on the backs of 6 million dead jews then!#there are always going to be kapos#and he's one of them#did you know that the actors who had yellow ribbons for the hostages were told to remove those ribbons?#did you know that the red hand print pin that the other actors were wearing are referencing the lynching in ramallah in 2000?#the hand references one of the murderers holding his bloodstained hands out a window to cheer to the crowd outside#that he had murdered jews with his bare hands and there was the proof#the arabs have been using the red hand print as a symbol of palestinian '~*~liberation~*~' (jew murder) since then#glazer just gave permission to every antisemite to tokenize him
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Hello! Wanna say that i love your comics and arts! Just so you know though, don’t post your water mark like this or else some people might claim it and pretends as theirs (i don’t mean water marks on art, i mean an water mark as a post, just to clear confusion!) hope you have a great days! ^_^
lmao any artist named Ai could use it if they want because we are having enough shit on our plates already
Just don't forget to credit & link back to the original post as per reposting/usage etiquette as fellow artists ofc 🌸
#I made the watermark in like 5 minutes it's not a big deal#shoutout to every artists named Ai out there#personal#Kuroha Ai#anon#reply#I appreciate the concern btw I hope you have a nice day too anon#honestly I never thought the silly post would resonate with a lot of people but support ethical Ai arts from the source(s) 👍🌸#yes the watermark has been blessed with my permissions for fellow Ais out there
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reading the news is so exhausting bc at this point it's just wall-to-wall opinion pieces of z*onists saying the dumbest shit possible with their entire chests and then crying about how the entire world is against them because they invented a new definition for the word "genocide" and nobody with a partially working brain wants to adopt it
#bog post#politics#'you can't say that jewish people are capable of genocide!'#fun fact: yeah you totally can#bc 'genocide' is a definition for a set of behaviors#not predicated on faith#i don't see 'except when jewish people do it' scribbled under it#it's fucking embarrassing#this is not an invitation to shit on jewish people or judaism in my mentions btw#the existence of evil evangelicals isn't permission to decide every christian is a sociopath#ISIS is not permission to be islamophobic to random muslims#don't be a fucking shithead#stay salty#and frankly the non-zionist jews in your life could use some sympathy if you have it to spare#bc they're catching more hands than usual from people who were just looking for an excuse#also not for nothing but THIS is why Identity Politics Bad#bc people are so convinced that being CALLED bigoted is worse then BEING bigoted#that they'll breathlessly defend literal actual internationally recognized genocide#because that's less scary than the possibility of pro-genocide zionists calling them anti-semitic
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