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augustinapril · 9 months

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#vent #venting #ventish #spencer vents #i fucking act with this #im so sad right now #i cant stand myself or anything i do #and i just. i gave uo on this thing #this thing that i had gping on for so long #and i dont even care anymore #why do i feel like tvis #i ahte this feelign and i want it to go away so badly #why cant i be normal and happy

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nounaarts · 1 year

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Still practicing a style so boom pow Macaque redraws !!

#I promise you im so normal about him #i lied #im insane #i love him so much #he makes me go crazy #all i want is his happiness #is that too much to ask????#WHY CANT HE BE HAPPY???#lego monkie kid #lego monkey kid fanart #lmk #lmk six eared macaque #monkie kid #lego monkie kid season 4 #macaque #lmk macaque #monkie kid art

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crescentfool · 1 month

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What are your ryomina headcanons? I've loved these two since I played P3 FES, and I'm so excited to get back into the fandom^^

hi!! thank you so much for the ask, welcome back to the p3 fandom, it's always a delight to see new and old ryomina fans alike! 🥺💛💙

as for headcanons, here's a "few" i that i tend to come back to a lot! my interpretations of them are influenced from both the source material and other's fanworks, so i've linked to them as i saw fit! hcs in no particular order under the cut because oops this got long (900 word bullet point list, mentions of reload content up to 1/1)

minato's hair is dyed blue (hair originally brown, you can see it in his roots!) and he has a beauty mark on under his left eye. i like mirror imagery and there's definitely a few arts i've rb'd that portray them this way :) (e.g. this one by feliichu and this one by marasschino)

as far as i'm concerned the bathhouse scene from the manga where ryoji's hair down = similar shape to minato? that is canon to me. this art from xierru is a fun depiction of hair down ryoji :D

ryoji is homeless. everyone say thank you foxmulder_whereartthou for this awesome fic it's why i have the headcanon! but like seriously. we have no idea where ryoji lives and i could believe this.

minato dying at the end of the game is sad to an outsider's POV BUT!!! ryomina gets to be together in death for the rest of their lives (this illustration from mafuwara is a gorgeous representation of them as nyx avatar + the seal)!

speaking of the seal, they are like telepathically communicating to me in the great seal together. (mymp3 had a comic wip with this. give it a looksie :D)

ryoji likes cuddling with minato because he's warm :) (something something orpheus has fire affinity, minato is warm by extension and ryoji is cold because he's death)

ryoji's camera roll is filled with pictures of minato! ryoji... loves life, to me. and i feel that photography and journaling are perfect ways of expressing gratitude and capturing the moments in life that are most important to you :3

my other favorite activity for these two is stargazing- i feel like it's something they could appreciate either in life or death (looking at the stars from the great seal...)! they do a bit of this in the fic eurydice's vow by crescentmoontea (P5R spoilers, takes place in third sem it's a very fun fic concept).

between ryoji and minato i feel like ryoji was the one who fell in love first- and it doesn't really click in place for minato that he loves ryoji until december hits (appriser reveal + ryoji transforming into thanatos). its about the realization that ryoji was with him for his whole life and that he gets him like no one else does.

ryoji is like a sad and wet puppy who is so scared minato won't like him back. he is so scared of being rejected by minato to me like. this boy straight up deflates after he does his "i know i said i wanted us to be friends, but... i actually want to be something more." / "what about you?" on 12/1 ???

AND SPEAKING of wet puppy ryoji. ryoji is like. every animal in the world to me. he's a bird. he's a cat. etc. and also ryoji knows every language in the world ever and uses it to express his love for minato. see this fic from superheroics to see what i mean.

both of them are lactose intolerant. "this isn't lactose, it's milk!" i definitely think ryoji would make himself sick eating ice cream and milk he doesn't know what lactose is. (i made a silly poll about this once and the tags were very entertaining.)

i see minato as transmasc or nonbinary depending on the day (schrodinger's headcanons babey they're simultaneously true and not true at the same time!!). either way he's not cis to me and ryoji is like. His Gender. anyway go read this fic by nail_gun for t4t ryomina :D !

ryomina are WEIRD GUYS TO ME!!! they are so strange and they understand each other better than anyone else because of the circumstances of their relationship!!! if you asked them to do the "i wonder what i taste like" meme i think they'd start biting each other (affectionate) tbh but that's just me.

after ryoji gives minato the music box in 12/31 on reload, minato listens to the music box every night in january. this boy has insomnia and also chronic illness to me (things that housing death does to you). but i think he finds comfort in the melody and memories he made with ryoji.

in general, i think it's fun to imagine minato taking ryoji to places and show him things he's interested in! i feel that ryoji takes a lot of interest in minato's life, this isn't really a hc because in reload, minato DOES give ryoji a tour of the school (11/9) and possibly port island (11/12). but ITS CUTE OK! (tangentially related fanwork: this series of doodles from vinnigami: 1, 2, and 3)

not a hc but minato's kindness is like the backbone of their relationship and i think we would not have the ryomina we know and love today if minato wasn't such a kind soul. oh minato.... we can learn so much from you... like ryoji did!

anyway! that's all the hcs that i could think of, thank you for the ask! i had a lot of fun answering this, these two mean a lot to me 💛💙

i hope you don't mind the links to the fanart and fanfic as well, the fanwork people have made for ryomina have really made an imprint on me! if you want to see more of them, i definitely recommend looking through my tag for them because oh. i got a lot of them reblogged alright 😂 (<- SOOO NORMAL)

#UMMM hiiii #this was VERY fun to do thank you so much for the ask!! im very. well-adjusted about these two #this ended up turning into some art + fic suggests (they are like citations to my hcs)#but it was really fun! i love ryomina to bits and pieces i cannot provide a concise answer #this post nearly gave me a scare bc somehow the bullet point list doubled itself and wouldn't let me post #tumblr is a very functional website! but the posts intact so im happy!!! yippee!#i still need to finish reload but some of the hcs i wrote were partially backed by what i saw there #people are welcome to send asks btw! cant guarantee i'll answer them in a timely manner but i enjoy doing them #doing this reminded me of my early tumblr days when i'd get so many asks where ppl dropped their ryomina hcs it was cute...#im sure i will continue to recommend fanworks in the future i definitely want to start reading fic again after i finish reload! yahoo!#also this post is like the iceberg of my brain btw you have definitely not seen all of my thoughts im soo. (twirls hair) normal.#lizzy askbox #ryomina #<- why not i put effort into the post #anyway bye im going to go to the library to learn about my favorite new interest called html and css aren't websites cool :)

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ball-of-butter · 10 months

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them: what are you thinking about?

me: nothing

my brain: do you ever just sit there and wonder how differently things would have panned out if maven had attached himself to cal instead of mare? if the key to his humanity was his brother and him only? do you ever think that maybe maven would know he wasn’t and couldn’t be good but he would try to be anyways so he could be close to cal (because the crux of it all was that he didn’t want to be alone)? or do you think maven would’ve ended up destroying the both of them because he knows no other way (and cal wouldn’t leave maven to destroy himself on his own)? do you ever think about how cal would’ve been the only person ever to let him stay close? do you ever think about how the entire fucking story would have changed because maven’s character would have been different since he’s a warped mirror of everything he loves (a small list)?

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b4kuch1n · 9 months

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dip pen ink comm batch 4 complete! for Ezechiel, @ohwwhuv, and Leo :]

#bakuspecial #commission art #the grayscale for these were done on a train with my laptop track pad fksdjhf it was! manageable! but not desirable condition #that was before I got my new current tablet too... thank you my old huion. you served me well. Im so sorry I chipped ur paint to shit #ngl the texture on the new one's better off the bat. the grip's better and it has good kinetic feedback #too bad abt the touch buttons tho... I was confident I could make use of them but alas #things need actual feelable buttons again please I can Not tell where anything is when Im drawing and cant look at the tablet #my eyes are on the screen!! Im bad at gauging distance!!! please give me buttons I can find in the dark. please #even the old huion which has actual buttons I still couldnt use them. bc theyre not raised #theyre flat to the tablet's surface. you know what I shouldve tacked raised stickers on them I was stupid there #well! the more u learn. the more u learn #I'm happy with the current tablet tho!! buttons stuff aside it's nice to draw on. and thats what important. wrists dont hurt no more #almost said ''I miss the wacom eraser end" I don't. not really. every time I used that thang I was like wow you are so imprecise and blunt #litcherally why would you want basically a mappable stylus end but it's 50 times the size of a normal nib and you cant see where ur drawing #especially on a screen tablet. the dynamic there makes absolutely no sense #I can really do the same thing now by mapping one of the stylus buttons to swap foreground color to transparency #anyways. this has been my testimonies on tablets. in the tags of a dip pen ink post lmao #well! this is a late post I shouldve posted this before art fight. thank u again to that anon who reminded me #have a good day lads! we can answer emails together. hands in professional hands

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im-smart-i-swear · 2 days

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coming back home.

@barrenclan

#patfw #patfw fanart #patfw spoilers #rainhaze #THE NEW ISSUE. IT SURE WAS AN ISSUE HUH. I AM NORMAL. SO NORMAL IN FACT #THAT I REDREW A PANEL OF THE COMIC IN MS PAINT #i need someone to put this horrid beast down already. he needs to DIE i am not joking. euthanise him. please.#he is soooo fascinating.#i CANT get over his expression in this panel. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM #hes smiling .is it a genuine smile? is he smiling bc he knows how this is going to go and all he can do is laugh now?#why. why why why the smile. at first he looks shocked or surprised or terrified but THEN it turns into this playful soft grin. as if full o #nostalgia. or maybe grief. or maybe joy. he looks like he knows something we dont.#did he accept that his family is going to get wiped out (HIS FAULT HE KILLED HER HE RIPPED HER THROAT OUT) and is just happy he got to see #them one last time?#this is so weird. before killing asphodel he was so terrified of meeting them. of facing his past and acknowledging what he became.#is him smiling a symbol of him giving up? becoming part of defiance? hes not running away anymore. he doesnt have to.#jesus.#my art #wanted to make him look as fucked up as i could. i hope he looks like a corpse or perhaps a starved dog to you

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mourningcttlfsh · 8 months

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this is dj spookyswag she was born two seconds ago in a dark alleyway i found her drinking sewage and i hope she explodes

#animal jam play wild #ajpw #animal jam #aj phantoms #jamblr #beloved creature...#so so happy about the phantoms costing sapphires and not irl money #180 sapphires but still. at least its not real money #the second i realized the update was out i got on the touch pool grind on an alt acc #love this dumbass creature thing #funny how the second phantoms came out everyone and their mom immediately bought them #i know some people dont like that theres good phantoms but i do!! i think its nice #i always find it kinda weird when kids games (or any game really) is like 'hi theres two types of creature. normal one and EVILL ONEE....'#'this species is 100% evil no matter what!!!' something ab that rubs me the wrong way #i cant put a word to it though idk why #dj spookyswag

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radmista · 22 days

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Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update #she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back #i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat #im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it #bc what the fuck #i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages #and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things.#i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit #and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc #it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday #why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up #I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever #i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for #and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about #that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell #why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family #and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call #which gives them space to harass me about work and shit

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stormsofasorceress · 7 months

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As long as we're together.

#gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #my screenshots #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #finally finished the game i have. so many thoughts and feelings.#i dont wanna be bitter but it felt a little underwhelming like why cant i talk to my bestiessssssss #but atleast gale and dru got their happy ending #im going to write fanfic that is so indulgent #im going to become so normal and annoying

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sonknuxadow · 11 months

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sorry but i hate how weird people are about disabled characters and making stories/aus where a character becomes disabled . why do you only ever want to include disability in your stories to use it for horror or angst fuel…. why cant disabled characters just exist without it being labelled as a tragedy

#sorry i just saw a really weird sonic au #and it reminded me of all the other times ive seen people be weird about the idea of sonic characters being/becoming disabled #why cant you just headcanon a character as disabled and be normal about it.#why is it always ''sonic loses his leg in a horrible accident and his life is RUINED FOREVER!!!!!''#and never ''sonic loses his leg in a horrible accident and while he does initially struggle with it since its a big change #he is eventually able to adjust to it and come to terms with it and live a happy life''#or even ''sonic was always disabled from the start there was no horrible accident''#why is it always the horror and gore and angst shit #and i LIKE horror. to be clear. just not when the fact that a disabled person exists is the part thats supposed to be scary #and i also just dont like most horror themed sonic content for reasons unrelated to the disability thing but thats a topic for another post

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justsomerandomgay · 1 year

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i was actually happy and then i just felt it slip away. that was the worse feeling in the world

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secretlyofthefeywild · 3 months

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chewing on my chronic illness to threaten it into submission

#idk im so fucking tired and it so much pain #why cant i have a normal fucki mg body #everyone else my age is happy and healthy and me entire life revolves around my pain #its just not fair #and ik that complaining doesn't do anything #and i dont like to complain #bit im so tired of bei g in pain #chronic pain #chronic illness #🦝 elwyn posting 🦝

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vse-kar-vem · 4 months

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KRIS SHARED THE DRESS UP GAME ON HIS IG‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

NO BECAUSE IM STILL REELING 😨😭 NOT THE DIRECT VIDEO OF MY TWEET HES DEF SEEN THE DRESSES IN THE GIF NOW AHHH 🥹🥹🥹🥹

#AHHH im actually going insane #i have so many Feelings about this 🥹🥹🥹 my ART has touched kris guštins EYEBALLS what the fuck!!!!!!#vee rambles #thank you to everyone for the kind words and feedback on the game btw 🥹🥹🥹💖💖💞💞💖💖💖💗💗💗 legitimately means the world to me thank you so much to #everyone for playing <3333333 #kris ...... if you look it up istg .....#WHY ME #PICK SOMEONE COOL AND IS ACTIVE ON INSTAGRAM #AND ALL THOSE ARTISTS YOU KEEP SCROLLING PAST ON UR MENTIONS 😭😭😭#WHY ME I DONT EVEN HAVE INSTAGRAM ANYMORE #NOT THAT IM NOT LIKE . AMAZAMED AND LIKE STUNNED AND ALSO SOMEWHAT GRATEFUL #the user he reposted shoukdve put a link cant lie 😓😓 not to police peoples art reposting etiquette on ins god knows i should be happy they #left in my user #OK i'll be normal now i feel SO normal about this

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stellarsightz · 9 months

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“All that I've been taught // And every word I've got // Is foreign to me” — Hozier, Foreigner’s God

Aka "nooo dont grieve the life you spent running away from everything and wish you could go back to that life of uncertainty, where you constantly wonder if you can survive another day, rather than stand in the middle of a civil war which has nothing to do with you, you're so cool and sexy you're literally the mythical hero of a land where everyone detests your kind ahahahh"

A silly drawing of my Bosaltmer Dovahkiin, Baltana :))

I fiddled with her design a little, aka i added a different facial tattoo (which mirrors Lynwallyn's because hehe they're twins)

-> a companion piece to this older drawing of Lynwallyn

(Alternative version under the cut; possible eyestrain warning)

#oh tana we're really in it now #oc: baltana #i love me a reluctant hero <3 so thats what she essentially is #like imagine being a nobody your entire life then later become an assassin whose main deal is to be a silent executor #so she's really used to not being noticed and then bam. the whole province knows about her and she has these weird powers #that can make people explode and stuff. not to mention they all hope she was someone different & keep forcing their dreams and hopes #on her when she literally did not ask for any of it. suddenly her name opens a lot of doors and grants her so many contacts but she sees #through everyone's smile and knows they're full of shit. she's everything they hoped the dovahkiin not to be and yet.#she wants to belong so bad but her entire existence is just contrary yo everyone's beliefs. and it hurts so so much but she doesn't let #it consume her nor convince her to use her powers to destroy everything. she saves a world she cares very little about and doesn't even get #proper recognition for it which makes her so frustrated but yknow. what can you do #in the end it's better for her to be remembered as something entirely different than what she actually was bc ironically it means #the real her becomes forgotten. goes unnoticed #so yeah. no i cant make a normal happy character why do you ask #long tags #digital art #stellar.artz #stellar.ocs #tesblr #skyrim #skyrim tes #skyrim dragonborn #dovahkiin

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arialerendeair · 1 year

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Me: Oh, okay, the tale of five fandoms will DEFINITELY be my longest bingo fill, no problem. 30k? Still plenty of time to write the rest. Got it.

Also me, a month ago: Uh-oh, the Titanic AU is getting long. Weird.

Also me, a week ago: Okay, wtf Titanic AU, hurry up, we have other shit to write.

Me, in the last 24 hours: WHY IS THE TITANIC AU ALMOST 50K AND NOT BLOODY FINISHED?!

*sigh*

#Aria Posts #Writing #Titanic AU #IT HAS A HAPPY ENDING #I PROMISE #AN UNEXPECTED ONE #THERE IS NO TRAGEDY HERE #Also this is the fluffiest Dad fic to ever Dad #WHY CANT MY WORD COUNTS BE FUCKING NORMAL FOR ONCE #*sigh*#I know people joke about how I should do short writing challenges #But uh #I might have to actually do that #One of these days #Balls #I HAVE REGRETS AND NONE OF THEM INVOLVE THE TITANIC AU

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opikiquu · 6 months

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#★ my art #art #genshin impact #freminet #gi freminet #Sorry abotuf my sona next to frem in the first drawing i was Soooo normal about that scene #So normal…. Soo totally normal…. Yeah… Mhm yep i… i defninite.lly #he was so cute i did NOT focus on the woman with her dying son #whats up with genshin why cant we just be happy Cmon there was no need for the dead kid drop like that #i was so excited too like Yayy we’re gonna help this girls kid. Then he DIED .

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