why does my family genuinely not care about me? i just don’t understand it. i don’t know what i did to deserve this.

don’t tell me they do care. i don’t need to hear that right now. they don’t give a fuck

i remember being ten years old and wishing to die rather than experience the pain i was in yet still my parents and my doctors didn’t believe me. sometimes it just hits me. that wasn’t a normal experience for a ten year old, was it?

sometimes i feel like people forget autism is a disability. and that’s not a bad thing! i’m all for disability acceptance, im proud of my disabilities. but i feel like we forget autism can hurt.

it hurts that i have to put more time and energy into socializing than others.

it hurts when i need to move so bad, usually cause im overwhelmed by either my surroundings or emotions, that i thrash and hurt myself.

it hurts that i cant be in places that are too loud or too bright, which on bad days can be as simple as a small, quiet noise or dim lights.

it hurts that i struggle to tell when im hungry, thirsty, tired, etc. so i can’t properly take care of myself. it doesn’t help my insomnia and i get very nauseas and get UTIs.

i 100% believe in autism acceptance. i don’t want a cure. but i also want us the acknowledge that it can hurt. it doesn’t mean my entire life will hurt, but some parts will. and i want a community where we can see both sides, see the hurt, and celebrate it anyway.

these tags from @softbutchthatlovesyou !!

can we talk about how dehumanising it is when a doctor tells a patient to crawl through their house when they ask to get a wheelchair.

Being asked to rate your pain on a scale as someone who has had chronic pain for several years is so difficult. Like how am I supposed to rate the pain I am experiencing from 1-10 when I have no idea what it feels like to not be in pain. Like what is 0? what is 1?? what is even 10???? What am I comparing it to???? My 5 can be someone else's 10 and their 10 can be someone else's 2, and how is a doctor or anyone else for that matter supposed to tell the difference? Maybe it's because I'm autistic and I'm just overthinking it but it literally makes no sense to me.

“delululu” “what a narcissist” “i’m so ocd” “i let my intrusive thoughts win” “im an empath” “are you acoustic” “bpd girls 😍” “im so manic” “my trauma made me spicy and funny”

friendly reminder that you should not get your information on cluster B disorders solely on those who hate people with them and rather from people with those disorders and other credible unbiased sources!

i read and follow the same hashtags every single day here. the day i joined c punk community? i was blessed. it's SO comforting to know i'm not alone in this, to know there are so many people like me. i love reading your posts, seeing your selfies with your mobility aids, just witnessing you being here.

so if you make posts about cpunk, disabilities and mobility aids, you directly help me feel better every day.

my friend’s cat doesn’t care about anything

it’s just so funny when your parents tell you that your a disappointment! /sarc

alright he just said “everyone around me is so happy” BOI IM LITERALLY SUICIDAL BECAUSE OF MY WORSENING DISABILITIES 😭😭😭😭

not tryna diminish or invalidate his feelings and struggles but man read the room 😭 im just not the person to say these things too 😭 maybe this sounds incredibly insensitive but idk

i’m sorry if this sounds rude but i hate it when people tell me how awful their life is when i can barely leave the house, feel sick and awful all the time, am in constant pain, haven’t seen a friend in a month and had 2 trips to the ER in a month. and my friend is complaining to me that he doesn’t have a girlfriend. having abled friends really reminds me how much people take for granted when they aren’t sick like i am.

my friend is venting to me and he said “i can’t even go out of the house to go for a walk anymore” (depression) and i know i shouldn’t but im so tempted to make a paralysis joke… “i can’t even walk anymore! ba dum tish!”

i’ll just leave now

earlier today somebody said to me that they’re good for nothing because the only things they’re good at are science and maths….. and i’m just like what?? so you’re good at science and maths… and you’re still good for nothing… THEN WHAT THE HELL AM I GOOD FOR WHEN I LITERALLY CANT DO ANYTHING BECAUSE OF MY DISABILITIES 😭 abled peoples problems just remind me so much of how sick i am. i miss having the problems they have and maybe that sounds selfish abut it’s true.

i’m sorry if this sounds rude but i hate it when people tell me how awful their life is when i can barely leave the house, feel sick and awful all the time, am in constant pain, haven’t seen a friend in a month and had 2 trips to the ER in a month. and my friend is complaining to me that he doesn’t have a girlfriend. having abled friends really reminds me how much people take for granted when they aren’t sick like i am.

i’m sorry if this sounds rude but i hate it when people tell me how awful their life is when i can barely leave the house, feel sick and awful all the time, am in constant pain, haven’t seen a friend in a month and had 2 trips to the ER in a month. and my friend is complaining to me that he doesn’t have a girlfriend. having abled friends really reminds me how much people take for granted when they aren’t sick like i am.