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swanqueensalad · 1 year

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fandom is so weird because like... am i grown woman? yes. has it been the better part of a decade since i first watched ouat and fell in love with regina mills? yes. i was a child then. i am an adult now. i have less free time and more worries and yet when i find myself struggling or having a bad time, what do i turn to? thinking about my goddamn blorbo. writing fic wherein i can better understand parts of my own troubles via these fictional people who i have come to know, over the years, as if they are old friends. sharing shitposts with u lot to make u giggle. there is an unending well of comfort and familiarity here that is so strange and silly and special.

#love u love us #i am Feeling weird and just clocked myself logging onto here #when i havent had time in months #it is so odd #but i like it #gina baby is kind of part of me now #and im okay w that #ouat #regina mills #swan queen #emma swan #blorbo from my shows #my blorbo #once upon a time #fandom #musings

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chibigaia-art · 29 days

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talking about the next show!

#project sekai #ruikasa #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #cgart #this is!!!! from last month!!! help #i havent had the time to draw and color smth just for myself in weeks #also srry for using the same palette twice in a row for wxs lol #when im tired i tend to lean toward sunsett-y scenes #because theyre fun to color

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m0e-ru · 9 months

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did everybody remember when atlus finally restored the attendant social link in the steam port and how stupid it actually was

#persona 4 spoilers #persona 4 #p4 #⛽️🌫#moel gas station attendant #izanami persona #souji seta #yu narukami #tohru adachi #margaret persona #marie persona #arttag #tappous #// 'you say good bye to your senpai' okay when do i see him again #// i wish there was a rank10 but margaret said her ex doesnt do 'taught and long lasting bonds' can i at least get a final boss skip #// looking through my liveblog of this was so stupid i havent even shown all the times i kept loading saves that were in-game months apart #// because the correct flags werent triggering and the sl just disappears from the sl menu like HOW can you lose a friend #// like i kept answering the wrong prompts. gestures wildly at the jester and aeon sl. THE DOUBLE STANDARDS ARE SICK!!!!#// the attendant part time job was still working though but it was just child labor at that point with nothing fun to do #// i feel like they really had to focus on marie for this one thats why the whole sl feels incomplete because IT ISS #// atls they just 'restored' this one for fandom points or something I DONT KNOW !!!#// it was so complicated to get this far it was so ambitious but i guess it flopped by the end and we're supposed to chalk it up as 'lore'#// also heard how the last update fuckkeed it up so bad they got rid of the sl again because nobody could play it LMAOOO #// mimis so quirky like that okayy thats it for this week my dearest customers GOODNIGHT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#cw unreality #gsa sl au

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hella1975 · 8 months

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i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH!#'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

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moth-flowers · 2 months

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#moth-flowers #comics #autobio comics #Feelin' a bit stuck lads. trapped even.#Hopefully getting a flipphone this month tho 💪 thank god. i had one for a bit during highschool and it was great honestly #This was nice to make. feels good to be Creating again. havent done anything of real substance for a while tbh #ALSO IM KINDA RLLY PROUD OF THE LAST PANEL it turned out good. im happy with it #Also check out pukicho's soundcoud holy shit. he's got really good music. i love listening to his stuff when i do art.#Also lil shoutout to @dog-teeth for the inspiration on the eyes in this one #He drew eyes like that one time i remember and it rlly stuck with me. like yeah thats what glazed/''out of it'' eyes feels like 2 me

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dennisboobs · 8 months

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do you guys ever sit and remember that dennis takes a mental health day is an episode that exists

#ada speaks #i think i could probably recite the entire one sided phone conversation he has with daisy by heart and i havent seen the ep in months #i don't know how to explain it but #from what little ive read of ross' writing it feels like. when you click onto a fanfic and you feel immediate deep trust of the author #like it just clicks #the cookbook characterization specifically. is like.#i would put my life in your hands #and im sure we will get more eps by him and i really hope that continues because i think its been a very long time since the shows had #writers that i feel Get the characters in a way that feels effortless rather than. overcompensating.#like you can smell that writer's signature no matter how hard they try to cover it up with jokes and subversions #which isnt always a bad thing and im sure if we do get more maloney eps i'll pick up on his writers quirks too #but it doesn't feel like he's trying to copy anyone/pull from old eps it feels like he has a good grasp on things which makes it feel fresh #i find that long running shows hit a point where episodes start to feel less cohesive and more like. segmented short films #but if you have a really good group of writers and they find their groove its like. yeah. ok.#i think season 3 is a good study because marder and rosell's influence is all over the entire season #later seasons you can literally just. Feel which eps they worked on because its got a completely different vibe from the rest of the season #16 still suffers from that segmentation but #i think all the first time sunny writers (and nina's first solo ep) were all absolutely fuckin bangers and they've got a good team in there #anyway. characterization of dennis flipflops a lot. but the rest of the gang arguably gets it worse at times #i think megan's dee is the absolute worst aside from conor galvin's #and i understand wanting to write her as a girlfailure who is just. horrible. but.#ok. comparing self help book dee to ross' cookbook dee. i dont even have to say anything do i.#she's like. The Woman. in the self help book. and i fucking could not stand it. ross' dee is so perfect though #and his frank. MAN.#EVERYONE FUCKING RUINS FRANK.#i think marder and rosell's frank is a lot of fun because hes clearly based on marder's dad and acts believably #a lot of writers struggle to capture his. frank-ness.#he's sort of suffered from like. bland pervy senile old man writing for a long time #and ross brought back him actually being a competent businessman #IM OUT OF TAGS IM SHUTTING UP

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spaciebabie · 17 days

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wait actual question what fanfic would u recommend to get into the cotl braunrot

the only one ive read (and only partially too lmao) is bamsara's fic, which i totally recommend! the last time i had read a fic of theirs was their solar lunacy one and the from then ta now the improvement is crazy. the quality of the fic is like insane it reads like a published work that you would find in a bookstore. absolutely mind blowing stuff

#spacie splains #sorry i only have one kjsfjdf i havent had time ta do anything the past few months except eat sleep and work #the fic is also quite long which i personally enjoy #and i like their writing style. its very flamboyant and uhhhh there's another word for what im thinking about but idk #intricate?? i dont think thats it lmao #me when my mutuals are so cool and skilled and should never stop writing ever okay!!!#also i hope this doesnt come off as rude-#i just wasnt expecting that level of quality from a cotl fanfic LOL

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thenamessparkplug · 4 months

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shoutout to my old 4th grade teacher for being more supportive of me one time 6 months ago than my own mother's ever been< 3333

#it was like such a tiny interaction but i also never forgot #it was during some kind of family party thing for kids parents (and siblings) to come and eat pizza and some other stuff i dont remember #and anyways my brother(who currently goes to this school) wanted to go so my whole family went #and while i was there my mom saw my old 4th grade teacher and was like “omg you should go talk to her”#and i was like yeah i should she was a really cool lady actually #so i nervously was like “hi” and didnt think shed recognize me at all #but she IMMEDIETLY was like “ITS YOU! /pos”#she then points to my shirt and asks me “hey are those your pronouns now?”#and this was back when i still wore pronoun/pride pins in general #and i was like “yeah actually!” because no adult had ever asked me about it before and i was so happy to like be recognized as a person #and she gave me a hug and told me she was proud of me and how much id grown and i /maybe/ got a little close to tears but ignore that #and my mom just stood there the whole time #she didnt say anything #she didnt smile #and this was not my first time wearing my pronoun pin my TRANS FLAG pin even #never once did she acknowledge it #also like a month later she made fun of me for it and i havent worn one since #uh yeah anyways #sorry for ranting lmao #or ig venting?? this was not my intention mb mb #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgtbq #lgbtqia #(to be clear my mom has made it very clear she will never support me on numerous occasions it wasnt like a one time thing lmao)#tw vent??#tw vent

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echo-s-land · 1 month

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It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

#vent ig #i wish i could #but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i #wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the #short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent #but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar #and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie #we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant #the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and #'im not even remotely interested by any of you'#its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT #NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up #on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.)#anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point)#am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as #a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened #i hate feeling apathetic #and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them #cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity??#im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!!#so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss....#and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

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lesbiangiratina · 5 months

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Oh my god i need to get a phone with a headphone jack before i end it all.

#ive been using skullcandy wireless headphones for a few years but they fucking break every couple months.#also they discontinued the better kind. theres that too.#i bought a sony pair and ughhhh it sounds worse. trying to save it with equalizer but its so. whatever #can i just get the best and most convenient headphones ever. for free.#BUT UGGHHHH I HATE CHANGE!!! I HATE CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!#its hard enough trying to get alternative earbuds. i havent had a non-iphone since my fucking flip phone.#i dont want things to be different even when its for the better. i think i hauve autism.#yeah theres the fucking dongle but i want to charge my phone too. 3rd party things that do both suck ive tried them. GIVE PHONE MORE HOLES #whatever my phone is fucked up anyway. home button broke months ago. i could replace it some time next year. probably.#i need music. all i do is listen to music. 32 hours on spotify this week if you were curious.#the kat goes meow

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girlcrushau · 2 months

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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

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penisbilt · 17 days

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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now