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dragengyrr · 2 months

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I usually keep myself from writing too much on the internet, but I feel like pointing out one thing about our beloved, psychopathic deer.

Alastor is such a rare case of incredibly well done representation in media, his orientation actually improves the character tenfold - and all because it improves the plot itself.

Imagine for a millisecond that you don’t know anything about Hazbin and look at those screenshots. What’s one of the first things that come to mind? "The strawberry pimp probably wants to seduce this girl, whoever she may be. She looks younger and not very comfortable in this situation, yet is allowing him or has to agree to be treated this way."

But now, we know that’s not the case. And I doubt that Charlie would allow someone get this close to her if she had a hunch that they might do it for lustful reasons, had they resources to save her hotel or not (yeah, I don’t actually buy that "I’d do anything!"…). And yet! Alastor’s an exception, all because she knows that one scenario goes out the window. She knows she can *trust* him that he doesn’t do anything out of pure lechery. It creates that one thread of safety she can hold on to when assessing the situation.

And I love that. I love that we can cross out one dull and severely overdone scenario. That we know that even though Alastor is sketchy af, we all can *trust* him to have deeper, darker, selfish, cruel, tragic reasons. Oh, the paradox of trusting the trickster even when we know he should not be trusted. That’s like a cherry on a cake.

#alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin thoughts #aroace alastor #aroace #ace alastor #ace #hazbin vivisection #what the hell am i doing up this hour #pouring out thoughts at 3 am

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prussianmemes · 5 months

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you should kill yourself if you spend 12 minutes sorting around your notes on your desk, making sure they look messy but also the prettiest ones are on top, posing your textbook open and having the most "academia" looking web page or lecture slides on your laptop screen before taking a picture and posting it on your social media story while quietly scrolling through songs to put with it.

#every time exam season comes around #people do this religiously #i hate it profusely it's so incredibly vain and pointless #you're like the people who go to the library for an epic study day and set up your big environment #only to sit on your phone for 5 hours #have the humility to be honest about your study habits and what works and what doesn't #i feel like its a form of cognitive dissonance this type of stuff and a form of lying to themselves #which is the one person you should always be brutally honest to #txt #i plan ahead and give myself so much extra time because i know my time efficiency is dogshit and i compensate for that #i try to avoid talking to other people about studying and i try to insulate myself when i am #of course for med school it's impossible not to talk about it as your classmates will bring it up in every third conversation #which opens the pandora's box of listening to other people talk about it which is atrocious as all people ever take away from it is #'oh my god everyone is doing so much more i'm so behind'#which isn't true everyone is in their own variation of hell just slightly different #i try to block it out completely when i can #med students have this annoying tendency to group themselves into these circles of self feeding despair and nervousness #i mean all of med insta is full of dogshit memes like this of the same 'le epic med stress' memes #kill yourselves you people are self fulfilling prophecies #josef lada ice these fools #to chce klid #as the man said #a taky trošku sebevědomí #and also not listening or giving a fuck what anyone else is doing #každý ma svůj systém a svůj styl #and have a life outside of this as well

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seahdalune · 2 years

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the TF2 community talks constantly about "E Spam" but i think we need to talk more about "E Silence", where none of your teammates call for Medic even when they're at 15 health and you're forced to figure out who needs to be healed lest they die during a crucial moment.

#tf2 #shitpostdalune #i think nobody calling for Medic actually freaks me out more #might be because i'm a beginner (25 hours baby!)#but i NEED people to call me or i'll end up wandering around the map (and get killed by the enemy team)#a few times i got into matches like those and while sifting over my team's health i would see 1 or 2 people at 10 health #i felt like crying over those teammates while scolding them #''WHY THE HELL AREN'T YOU GUYS CALLING ME''#''I AM NOT A HUMAN DISPENSER. I HAVE LEGS. PLEASE PRESS E FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIIIFEE''#but what do i know.#maybe there's bias against the Vaccinator? or whatever layout i use.#or i SMELL of beginner LMAO

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months

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i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it

#snap chats #being without my computer charger has been maddening #that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :((#AND I ESP WANNA WORK ON MY COMMS NOOOOO FUCK #i mean i was at least able to read through yakuza’s bias vol 2… so theres that…#MY SCHOOL STORE DIDNT HAVE LAPTOP CHARGERS i had to order one… hopefully it gets here Overnight like i asked….. if not ill kill #anyway. daigo plushie so cute :((((((((((((((((#mine cute too but theres just something especially squeezeable about daigo #alas.. thats what the aoki plush’ll be for. my personal stress toy ☠️☠️☠️☠️#lowkey i wish i also got ichi but then i remenbee they made him pale as all hell and Yeah Im Not Putting Money To That #THE SMALLEST BIT OF A TAN I BEG YOU RGG WHY IS HE SO PALE IT DONT LOOK RIIIIGHT :((((#anyway.. i have my last class in half an hour… lemme drink this tea…#also Lowkey obsessed with my outfit today.. its that butterfly shirt + gold accessories since theyre monarch butterflies #tho Lowkey 2x the black and yellow remind me of the watase blokes from gaiden…… wack…..#ok bye its tea time #help one of my roommates just came home and she just announces like. ‘man those edibles were. OUGH’#calling my dad to pick me up nooo im a lame straight edge dont talk about drugs around me ill scream and cry LMAO #ok im done byebye lemme drink this good god

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tryingforthedelicatehopeofitall · 1 year

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So it's a typical Tuesday night and all I have to say is that I adore Wylan and Jesper and their love so much!! 🫶🏼

They have experienced a lot of cruelty and been through a lot of pain and hurt in their lifetime and then they find each other and it's like something shifts. As Taylor Swift would say planets and stars aligned to make sure that magic happens when they found each other.

They shared a night together which was dazzling in its own way only for it to end like that's the end of the story, when that was just Chapter One.

The next time they meet it feels like the song some of the original lyrics of Gorgeous were written about Wylan quietly pining after Jesper “You're so gorgeous and I ain't just talking about your face but look at your face and I am so curious your mind got me feeling some type of way ... 'cause you're so cool, yeah you should think about the consequence of your magnetic field getting way too strong ... you know it ain't my fault ... you're so cool it makes me hate you so much ... I'm nothing that you want but I must say you're gorgeous. ...”

And then they become friends and get to learn more about each other and start falling for each other. We get to witness what “... for once, you let go of your fears and your ghosts. One step not much, but it said enough. ...” “... we can't make promises now can we babe ... is it cool that I said all that? Is it chill that you're in my head? 'cause I know that it's delicate. ...” looks like on our screen. The gentle way that they care about each other and for each other ... UGH MY HEART!!!!!

Even when they are on the battlefield, they are so in sync with each other. The way they are their badass selves and look out for other people while simultaneously looking out for each other? The way Wylan has his hand on Jesper's shoulder when they are first on the ground and trying to figure out how to go about things as Tamar asks them who they are!!!!! Wylan's little smile and nod when Jesper goes ahead to show them “what it's like to be blessed”!!!! The way Wylan comes picks up one of Jesper's guns and gives it to him after that!!! And then all those little moments in the background where it seems like Wylan is hurt and Jesper does not leave his side once!!!!!

“MY MAN” (moonlit witch version willow ~ I'm begging for you to take my hand, wreck my plans that's my man!!!)

*twinkling sounds of a key being made*

Someone with gambling addiction using the thing they are dependent on to try and give Wylan a home. Wylan who has never known what a home is before “... because all these boys ... never took me quite where you do. And all at once, you're the one I've been waiting for – king of my heart, body and soul ... the taste of your lips is my idea of luxury ... we rule the kingdom inside my (your) room ... is this the end of all the endings, my broken bones are mending with all these nights we're spending ... baby, all at once, this is enough. ...”

Also thinking about Kit and Jack's response to the question of what Wylan and Jesper's universe would like and they said something like — if wesper could create their own thing ... it would be quite a cozy place. There would be a fireplace and a safe - where they keep the guns and the bombs. They would hold onto their weapons as there is danger outside and in comparison to that, they feel safe together … they found each other amongst the chaos. … <3

And how they found a home within each other — “they have quite the opposite first impressions but when they start speaking there is a shared language that they have and a shared understanding. They want to look after each other and protect each other amongst the utter chaos … they are able to sort of engage in what is quite a joyful, lovely time. They are both very damaged; especially with trust is how they are able to find homes within each other, safety within each other in amongst the wildness. …”

#wesper #wylan hendriks #wylan van eck #jesper fahey #six of crows #things i think about at 2 am instead of sleeping #the wesper brainrot is very real #i do not know what the hell this is other than me blabbering about wesper and how certain ts songs seems like they are written about them #there are so many more taylor songs that seem wesper coded but gorgeous komh yail and delicate is all i can think of right now #also snow on the beach but like that would be a wholeass dissertation <3 #wish netflix would just announce something that would ensure that we are getting them back again soon #like i genuinely need to see the crows on my screen again #anyhoo not going to spiral in the witching hours over big corporations and their usual stupidity/bigotry :))#i am going to shut up now okay bye

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thenwethrowitonthefire · 2 months

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Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present)#multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way.#combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells.#this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing.#then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on.#my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?)#me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting.#Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism*#still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something)#me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room.#i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that.#the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk.#can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

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placesyoucallhome · 11 months

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Hey so I'm gonna try doing art fight this year like actually this time

#q'ruhka #art #I spent. 8 hours on these. I've looked at them so long I already can't stand them #so ill peek tomorrow and see if edits are needed #and I am NOT doing this for other characters what the hell was I thinking?#Ruhka is already up there but i need to update some of the art

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harleybarbarahandler · 6 months

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i’m ngl that one scene from babylon where the director grabs nellie’s face and forces her to spit her gum out does make me feel Things

#is this hornyposting idk will probably delete when I have had more than two hours of sleep oops #has anybody giffed this moment #for no reason at all #nellie laroy is a sub I said what I said #an absolutely bratty sub but a sub nonetheless #thinking about the Margot interview where she was like ‘I knew Diego was the perfect manny #because when he said ‘shut the fuck up’ I shut the fuck UP. and Nellie only responds to people who can do that’#I’m paraphrasing but it was something like that #and her bi awakening with lady fay. the Margot interview again where she was like #‘nellie was just so discombobulated because this woman took control of her sexually in front of all these people #and she’s on this giddy high from it’#margot really read the script and said oh wow this character is for sure a sub #she really is so Character I’m normal about her #I may be the only person in the world who thinks about Nellie laroy babylon (2023) but by god am I gonna talk about her #I could’ve fucked with a Nellie/director lesbian subplot at some point #lady fay/nellie should be endgame but it would’ve been fun to have those two because they had good chemistry #the way the director was always boosting her up before a shot and nellie yelling at the sound guy ‘I ONLY LISTEN TO MY DIRECTOR’#her ignoring the sound guy when he instructs her to do something but when her director tells her to do the exact same thing #Nellie does what she’s told. and also them both being women in the industry surrounded by men? could’ve been a good subplot #hell nellie could be poly

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platypusisnotonfire · 2 months

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The post i recently reblogged about the Romeo and Juliet with heelys in reminded me of the way I got my first heelys.

It was when we lived in the states (NYC area) and my mother had a drs appointment that was going to take at least an hour. I was 8, and allowed to either stay in the waiting room or go to the rooftop garden, but that was all.

At the age of eight I had gotten my first job that paid like, appreciable money (I worked for the family business for five dollars an hour prior to this but got a job with a friend of the family pulling 100 dollars a week doing two nights of office cleaning with them. Yea, child labor. Not the point of my funny story tho. I liked my money. I’m honestly not mad about it.)

So I had cash.

And damn I wanted heelys.

So I illicitly left the building and walked six blocks to the closest Modell’s (gotta go to mo’s) and bought my gorgeous heelys for 30 big bucks.

At this age I had taken to carting around a huge messenger bag for all my books and I had premeditated this excursion and packed an empty box in the bag to make it look full, chucked that in a crosswalk garbage bin and carried the shoebox back.

Not questioned by the mother. None the wiser I had left.

No one was awake to see me leave for school wearing them and no one was home to see me come home wearing them and I got away with this for literal years (I had had a fairly large growth spurt at 8 and bought two sizes too big so they fit for ages)

#eventually one time I got kicked out of a grocery store for heelying around #I think I was like 13 at that point #and my mother was like when in the hell did you get heelys #and I had to debate really quickly in my head whether the statute of limitations was up on my crime #I chose wrong and told her and got massively punished #but whatever lol I still had the heelys #and tbf like yes a lot of times I got punished for nothing #but HELL if I had an eight year old child that wandered off six blocks alone without telling me in NYC.#they would be punished #I deserved that one that’s so dangerous #I work with eight year olds at my job and they are babies #what was I thinking #I was a freaking fetus #I had no business doing that #heelys #and no I’ll officially state rn I am not advocating for child labor #just. because it worked out well in my case does not mean I think 8 year olds should be working #like I said they are babies #between that job and others I picked up tho I was able to save 15000 dollars by 13 and we needed that to live on when we left #cuz my mother didn’t work #that 15 grand saved our lives so I can’t be mad at it #when I got my first job above the table at 15 I was APPALLED at how little I could work and make #compared to my under the table work as a minor #it was almost not even worth it #8 bucks an hour 10 hours a week at shop rite #like mate I’m trying to put food on the table you think I can live on this?#I was INFURIATED with child labor laws when I was that age

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altoskh · 7 days

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Imso tired man. I'm so tired. Why do I work this hard I am so FUCKING over this shit

#this other bitch out here like haha woopsie i forgot to clock out for lunch even though ive been out for two hours :)#guess ill leave early today! heehee #YOU DONT DO ANYTHING. YOU FUCKED ME OVER YET AGAIN #i am SO FUCKING SICK of this shit. why do I have to be the one to suffer #why do i have to be the person who doesnt get a say in fuck all even though im doing THE MOST WORK #and then i have to sit here and act like she fucking knows what shes talking about wrt animals #IM THE ANIMAL KEEPER. I KNOW WHATS GOING ON IN THIS DEPARTMENT BETTER THAN YOU #Im going crazy fucking insane right now #my coworker is out sick so ive had to do shit scheduled for three people. me. One person #and then im told shit like its just one class! ITS NOT #i have to break them up into two because its too big of a group #then i say ok we are doing reptiles over here #and shes like oh ummmm someone has it reserved for this time so can you do it in [place that is extremely loud]#and im like yeah ok fucking sure FINE #and then we get there and someone else is like ummmm we were told to est here for lunch by [her name]#and i radio her like UMMMM??????????#and shes like Oh woopsie i did tell them! you can do it at ummmm [3rd place]#im like yeah thanks for fucking wltting me know #Sorry im sorry thus is so extreme and petty but im like DROP DEAD #youve made my work life hell when it doesnt have to be because YOU SUCK AT YOUR JOB #FUCK!!!!!#YOU get to have a social life becaus you do whatever the FUCK YOU WANT #YOU get paid way more than me to do FUCK ALL #YOU dont have 30+ living beings depending on you every day #shut the fuck UP #I am so mad that i work so fucking hard and it doesnt fucking matter #so yeah sorry for starry spam but i think hes nice and right now the only thing keeping me from fucking losing it at work #along with a 1 min video of kookaburras im plahing over and over

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fastasyoucan1999 · 1 year

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what has kendall roy done that gob bluth hasnt already given his whole pussy to 😔🙏

#arrested development is to me what succession is to the mutuals #breaking my silence xx SORRY if i wanted to watch the downward spiral of a rich and eccentric family it would be the Bluths who are my #little special princesses :^)<3 they r so silly and sweet to Me gob u are the prettiest girl at the party i swear #arrested development #watching this show is the only thing i’ve been doing. i wake up go to class sit in the library for upwards of five hours and then am #rewarded with arrested development like a workforce dog catching a break by getting to thrash around with a stuffed toy for a bit. i put gob #between my teeth and snap his neck and ragdoll him with tenderness and love anyway i’m gone again !! see at the end of five weeks when this #hell term is over <33 you** :)

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todayisafridaynight · 10 months

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i was playing about dropping Fifty Drawings onto everyone's dashboard this week but the unfortunate reality is i am in fact being assaulted with images