Some notes on Nigel from my modern adult AU, where all their adventures were just them playing pretend as kids and now they're grown up.

I always liked the cancer theory for Nigel, so I went with that. (what can I say, I love angst...) He left because the US healthcare system is a joke.

I made this for outfits, but it kinda just evolved into random notes.

i absolutely adore chubby ryuunosuke so i had to draw him (accidentally made it asoryuu cus i let self indulgence take over & blacked out)

Insane 🙈

I wish I could diet without stress how am I already having food nightmares again -_-

First 24 hr fast!

I've been wanting to incorporate fasting back into my lifestyle since January and today is the first day that I successfully completed a 24 hr fast! I had to prove to myself that I could say no, that food wasn't the answer for every inconvenience or negative emotion, that there are healthier ways to handle my every day stressors. I plan on taking 3 days out of the week to fast for the next 6 weeks so wish my luck! And if you know of any alternate day fasters, water fasters, people/blogs that do IF or OMAD, please let me know!

in 2 months i've gone from my average being around 71 kilos (record 73) to my new record: 83 kilos. whoa

finally unfollowed this girl i knew in hs on insta cuz she was posting triggering diet stuff

yknow i hadnt really processed how much the adderall weight loss has changed my face shape but then i found this slightly older selfie

<== old now ==>

like. aww look at ur cute lil squishable cheeks:3 i can see why bf did that so much i would too

⚠️ weight loss discussion in tags ⚠️

continuing my endless journey of EDS discovery: I was last-year years old when I discovered that not everyone chokes on damn near everything they try to swallow or feels like solids and liquids get painfully wedged halfway down their oesophagus, and yesterday years old when I discovered that not everyone gets regular regurgitation & bouts of burning chest pain every day and night, and most people are capable of swallowing while lying flat and don’t have to lie in One Specific Position at night so they don’t constantly choke on their own pooling saliva

so, um. turns out none of that’s ‘normal’ and if this rings a bell you should take a prescription antacid and see a doc about dysphagia before you accidentally lose a bunch of weight and make people panic lol

apparently I've lost 27lbs in 9 months which is. really fuckin cool actually. that's a really reasonable amount to lose and rate at which it was lost. I'm still chubby but like...before I had this idealized image of myself in my head that was slightly thinner than what I actually was so I'd see myself in the mirror and be like oh ok a little bigger than I thought...but now I actually Am that size I was seeing in my head so I feel like I own myself more than I ever have

I'm rlly mad there's a global Adderall shortage which means everybody switched to Ritalin and I'm just saying I think if I've been prescribed it for 15 fucking years they should put some aside for me.

I never post pictures of me, but the before picture popped up on my Facebook memories... Anyway...

11 years and 90lbs later. Still got more to go but this picture made me very happy.

Someday I will learn that even if I am a genetic hoarder in all things material and a nice KonMari is every now and then is good for my soul (and roommates, who are sick of my shit everywhere), I am a genetic hoarder with a weight that is constantly dropping or ballooning up depending on what's flaring when it's flaring and what meds I'm on or not on at the time and I should stop throwing out perfectly wearable clothes just because I am currently either too fat for them or because I'm too skinny for them because my meager pittance of an SSI really doesn't allow me to go on a much-needed shopping spree every eight months to a year or whenever as such to get clothes that fit also #RIPSparklePants 😔

shsj i see that you can escape the louis fandom but you can't escape the random ass ppl who want judge total strangers and what they do with their bodies huh 😭 circles we're going in circles skdjdk

fans are fucking insane 😭???????? like I am somehow still shocked every day how stupid people can be 😭

Can Not stop thinking about urianger being fucked up over visions of the world ending and the wol dying for a solid Bit after getting tossed to the crystarium. im going to eat a brick.