ive been enjoying so many metas that youve written for the past few days about bruce & dick’s dynamic (thank you anons for sending them to cl and thank you for answering them cl 🙏) but i think we need yo balance the tip: lets talk about how important bruce is to dick, and how bruce is a ‘specter’ a ghost a shadow that is ever present in every other dick’s relationships (newest case in point: wftt #5 issue; went as far as dick’s shadow being drawn as batman)

Thank you and thank you anons 💞

Let's!

At first I was like, I got this! But then I was so used to Bruce showing how much he needs Dick, that I completely blanked on remembering Dick showing how much he needs Bruce!

World's Finest: Teen Titans Issue #5

Bruce quite literally haunts Dick. His presence is felt in everything Dick does and the Titans in particular get pissed off by it because they want Dick's undivided attention and loyalty to them. I love how it's Roy again in this comic that brings about Bruce because it's always Roy's biggest contention with Dick. It's like a staple in their relationship for them to fight about how much of an influence Bruce has over Dick.

One of the clearest examples and why the Titans hate Bruce so much is because Dick would do anything for Bruce.

Batman (1940) Issue #500

He says it again too

Batman and Robin (2011) Issue #34

Dick hates being Batman, but for Bruce? Anything. Anything for him.

What I value most about Dick and Bruce is their unconditional loyalty to each other. Whatever crisis Bruce is going through, Dick right there by his side with a hand on his shoulder.

Batman (2016) Issue #54

Nothing makes me cry except their love for each other.

"Bruce, man. It's cool. I know you're fine. Just know I'm here if you don't want to be fine."

Dick will get down on his hands and knees and throw everything he hates away if it makes Bruce feel happy. Between the two of them, it's a kind of religious devotion the way they feel.

The way Dick feels about Bruce carries over into all his relationships. The Titans are obvious because their dislike of Bruce and Dick's relationship is in every Titans comic, but it affects Dick's relationship with the Justice League and the batfamily too.

When the Justice League and Batman fight and they separate, the JL (John and Ollie) go to Dick to ask him to be on their side but Dick chooses neutrality. However Dick drops by the Batcave later to let Bruce know because that's how much bruce means to him.

When Bruce is deemed a killer but it turns out he's not, there's tension between the family and Bruce. Dick tells Tim that Bruce's had a stressful time to which Tim replies, "We've all been through a lot, Big Brother."

Gotham Knights Issue #33

But the conflict doesn't end there because Tim is still pissed off about Bruce lying to all of them.

Gotham Knights Issue #33

To which Bruce clarifies Tim's anger and gently reprimands him.

His relationship with Bruce is the reason why Dick is the mediator between the JL and Batman, the Titans and Batman, the Outsiders and Batman, and the Batfamily and Batman. Because what he has towards Bruce, what he feels, it isn't blind loyalty - it's unconditional loyalty.

Over and over again, Dick tells Bruce how he saved him that night his parents fell. What he sees in bruce is a pure, blinding goodness of character that he loves and Bruce in turn feels blessed and shook by Dick's utter faith in him.

Dick once told Roy that Bruce is probably the most important person in the world to him. And he means it.

hahahah i'm losing my mind ??????

so two very cool things are true right now which are :

- in twelve days my best girl will have existed in some form for an entire year - i'm about to be able to say there are officially HUNDREDS of you here ???? like as in the plural form ??????

neither of these things make any sense to me , but since both are true i figured it would be a good time to do what i guess is a little follow forever type thing. SO. here are some of the people who have helped emma grow and develop and also helped me grow and develop as a person and as a writer 🤍

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@dalphahale : honestly a day one bc i didn't really do very much with emma until around march i think and that's around when we started writing if i'm not mistaken ?? one of the best / most show accurate dereks i've ever come across and one of the best people too !!!! you're an incredible writer and honestly a saint in human form for putting up with me ooc lmao it's an honor to bless your dms every day with the most random and chaotic messages and thoughts and only be a LITTLE bit judged for it 😂 derek and emma are one of the most adorable ships i've ever seen and derek and allison are iconic as well i just think you're the bee's knees okay you're stuck with some form of my chaos indefinitely i fear 🤷‍♀️

@stanfordprepped : jared. JARED. another og and one of my best friends in the rpc. samemma is so unbelievably iconic and i'm so amazed and proud of everything that's come from them and from us writing together and from you in general i'm SO excited about charlotte's development and about samlena and about just all of our dynamics ahhhhh you are so unbelievably strong and talented and you deserve every good thing in the entire world bc the love and respect that you hold for others even on your worst days is so admirable i can't even fathom it sometimes.

@multi-royalty : MADDIE MY BELOVED i ????? owe so much of everything i've accomplished this year to you 😭🙏 you not only pulled me back when i was debating whether or not to even continue writing , but helped to develop some of my most cherished muses and threads and plots and headcanons. you're the sweetest little bean in the entire world and i can't even begin to thank you for everything you've done for and with me and the light that you bring to this community even when you can't see it 🤍

@guiltye : bitch i'll yell FOREVER at and about you are you kidding ????? your writing gives me literal chills and the plots that we have are some of the deepest most complex and incredible dynamics i've ever been a part of. you've been through so much this year and kicked ass until you got to the other side and still managed to help ME through so much too and i'm sure so many others and i just adore you okay i live for all lilly content but especially your ooc posts bc i just think your brain is so neat and i love getting to glimpse into it sometimes you're just incredible 🥹🤍 ps thank u for letting me yell about noah kahan without abandon and getting in ur feelings about him with me lol

@boundforhale // @stilesstylelinski : obviously i had to put y'all together you can't split up the gremlins okay. i love you both so much and i actually can't even begin to describe how much you guys have helped me this year both to be a better writer and to get through so many rough patches irl. i'm still not entirely convinced that australia is real but if it DOES exist i will not rest until i can fly there and we can all meet at a central location and proceed to just implode the whole universe with the sheer chaos and buffoonery. y'all are actually family at this point i don't know what i would do without you fr

@carp3diems : LISTEN HERE BITCH bff bestie angel i love you to pieces and if you ever leave me again i'll riot !!!! you're genuinely one of the coolest people i've ever met and i love all of our dynamics so damn much but what we've created with colbemma is just so insane and incredible and i know i just screamed about this in the dms but i genuinely cannot believe they started out hating each other lmao they're truly iconic and i can't wait to see how they continue to grow and thrive and also how YOU continue to grow and thrive

@redhoodiskra : A. you are an actual ray of sunshine and so incredibly talented and WAY TOO HARD ON YOURSELF and completely amazing and fantastic and i just love you a lot !!!! stiles and emma and the little family they've created make my heart so happy and so do all of our other dynamics !!!! we haven't written much on @westwingsolo yet and we absolutely should change that bc i'm in awe of you and your writing and the creativity you bring to your muses they're both so special and you can 100% see the love you've put into both.

i wish i could write everyone a little message but here are some more lovelies that you should absolutely go follow !!!! a lot of them have other pages with more incredible muses as well 🤍

@fuckmeupindie , @hellgiven , @gunchamber , @ofcrxwns , @escapedfromthevoiid , @ruinedmyself , @goldenboybarracuda , @delicatestm , @sarcasticsnackpack , @fidelissimi , @ofblackskies , @ratkiing , @snnydcys , @flamefallen , @impurc , @clockturned , @r4chelamber , @unbearablyindifferent , @mystictragedies , @conradfish3r , @jimh9334 , @jchnwinchester , @qapsiel , @thornstocutyouwith , @unitcd , @surgcns , @localsalt , @mecwmellc

Was watching an old 1975 interview and Matty talks about how Ross had to leave the show halfway through to go and be sick because of how hungover they were ☠️ and now I have severe thoughts about taking care of and babying a man nearly 7 years older than me. Can we get something PLEASE 🙏🙏

oh definite follow-up to this, where ross was so drunk that matty had to call you to pick him up and then he fell asleep as soon as he laid down lol. before you go to bed yourself, you fill a pint glass with water and lay it on the nightstand beside ross, along with a packet of paracetamol and (on the floor) a literal bucket in case he needs to throw up. you let him sleep as long as he needs to the next morning, figuring the inevitable headache won't be as bad if he's rested; it's still awful, though, as indicated by the pained groan you hear from your bedroom while you're tidying the hallway. you stick your head in to see ross literally swaddled in the duvet with only his face poking out, and he just looks at you so pathetically (you're trying really hard not to laugh) and croaks out "i feel like shit i should NOT have drank so much last night" - i think you take the piss a little bit when you go over to pat him on the head (which makes him wince), and say "oh, poor baby :(( looks like you can't hack your alcohol anymore, huh?", and ross glares at you and is like "please don't be mean to me my head is so sore i actually think i might die" (hangovers will literally turn anybody overdramatic). and then you drop the teasing and make sure ross has some water - paracetamol, too, because he doesn't feel nauseous - and then coax him to have a shower to try and make himself feel a bit more human. he takes literally ages, so long that you'd be worried if you couldn't hear the occasional defeated sigh from your spot lounging on the bed; when he reappears, looking a bit brighter, ross is like "had to sit down in the shower and just wallow for a bit" and you're like "understandable, like you were SO drunk babe", and as he's getting dressed then sitting down next to you ross is actually cringing like "what did i say?" and you smirk and go "tried to tell me over the phone about a sex position you wanted to do and then proceeded to tell matty about what we've been getting up to in bed lol". and ross just buries his face into your neck in embarrassment as you laugh and say "come on, you need a cup of tea", before dragging him downstairs. and although his headache disappears pretty quickly and ross starts to feel more like himself, he does use his hangover as an excuse for you to baby him and so he can snuggle up to you; he's clinging onto you as you make him tea and toast, then sitting with his head against your chest and wailing when you leave to take the plates and cup back to the kitchen, and then lying with his head on your lap as the two of you watch tv (he falls asleep like that). and you're constantly checking up on him, making as many cups of tea as he needs to feel normal again, and just generally being there for cuddles - when you go to bed that night, you're fully prepared to spoon ross, but he's insistent that he's the big spoon because "you've taken such good care of me all day, my love, just let me hold you and take care of you" bless <3

WMM here, seeing as ur taking prompts again uhhhh How about Gil/Jesus, maybe something to do with loyalty we've talked about this before but umm... After that episode of Jesus willing to die for a mistake that wasn't even his fault, Gil maybe takes that into a account Jesus' loyalty.... ummm idk *sweats*

This isn’t exactly what I was imagining but it wasn’t coming out so have this 😭 but thank you as always for the prompt my friend 🙏

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“Jesús.”

The name was called from across the camp, a voice that inspired a myriad of emotions in almost everyone who heard it. Apprehension, joy, concern, fondness and uncertainty alike. It was a voice that had quickly become a part of daily life for Jesús, and he swung between emotions each time he heard it.

He put the saddle he was examining down carefully and dusted his jeans with sweaty palms. There was trepidation in his gut as he walked over to the owner of that voice.

“Yes, Señor Favor?” His voice was calm, thankfully, not betraying the sudden fear he was about to lose his job.

“C’mere, take a seat.”

Gil Favor was sat on a fallen tree, there was a small notebook on one knee, a pencil in one hand and an unlit cigarette in the other. He stared down at the open notebook, occasionally tapping the pencil on it.

Jesús sat. He kept a foot of space between them.

“Have I… done something wrong?” He asked. Silently he sent a prayer to the Blessed Mother for strength.

Señor Favor flicked his eyes up, the action only visible because his hat was by his feet, and frowned. “Wrong? No! No, not at all. I’m not tryin’ to tell you off, boy, far from it.”

“…oh.” Jesús swallowed and took his hat off. His heart started to beat wildly in his chest.

“Listen. I know I ain’t the most complimentary of men. I’m a bad tempered fool and I know it. But I like to think I’m fair.” He paused, turned his head and smiled at Jesús. His lips, though thin, curved pleasantly in the wide and generous smile. It was a handsome smile, one Jesús had often admired from afar. “Wanted to tell you you’re the best damn wrangler I’ve ever worked with.”

Jesús found himself grinning as well. “I am?”

The trail boss nodded and tucked his notebook back in his breast pocket. “You are. I know it’s been a hard drive, and I don’t want you thinkin’ you’re not appreciated. Or that you need to go kicking yourself for something that ain’t your fault.”

A hand, warm and large and firm, clasped his shoulder. The thumb rubbed across the tendon joining his shoulder to his neck, and Jesús nearly shivered.

“You’ve got a place here, for as long as you want it.” The taller man squeezed his shoulder again. “If you want it, that is.”

Jesús nodded. “I do want it,” he breathed, “to- to stay, I mean, Señor Favor.”

He saw the man’s eyes flick down and heat bloomed cautiously in his chest. Gil blinked and licked his lips. Jesús watched the movement. He saw the softening of his boss’ eyes, the way his jaw tightened as he swallowed. The hand on his shoulder loosened its grip and shifted. It drifted up, the thumb grazing the skin of Jesús neck. The breath caught in his chest and Jesús held himself still even as anticipation coiled around him, tight and warm and exciting.

Señor Favor blinked and drew away. He cleared his throat and dropped his hand, the warmth lingering on Jesús’ shoulder.

“Well. That- that’s all I wanted to say, really. Just… don’t go trying to throw your life away over a mistake that weren’t yours next time, got it?” He looked up as he spoke, his voice firm and just a little stern.

Jesús looked down at his hat and nodded. “Of course, Señor Favor.”

“Good,” he slapped his thigh and stood up, stretched his back with an audible pop. “I better get back to the herd, see how Quince is handling things.”

“I’ll saddle your horse-”

“No, no, its alright,” Gil held out a hand to stop him. “I got it. Get yourself something to eat, could be a long night. I think there’s some bad weather coming our way.”

Jesús watched him go, kept his eyes up instead of watching the sway of his hips, and let out a long sigh. On one hand, he was appreciated and valued by the one man it mattered most from. On the other, he knew that the attraction he felt went both ways. A dangerous situation to be in, indeed.

I went out for a morning 🌤 walk with my now 13 year old neighbor! They grow up so fast 😢. I've been in her life since she was a baby, it's crazy to see how grown she is now.

She says she's my "adopted daughter" haha she's such a sweet kid.

Everyone does think she's my child when I take her places, I don't know if that means I look old enough to have a 13 year old 😅 if so I should probably increase the skincare lol 😆

Truth is, my dream in life has always been to have children. But I can't. And due to health conditions, I'm not allowed to adopt.

I'm grateful to be a part of this crazy 🤪 kiddos life. She keeps me entertained for sure haha 😄. I may be the neighbor, but I've watch her grow, I've baby sat her since she was young. We've kind of grown up together 💕 just at a bit of a different starting point.

I was 11 years old when she was born. So I've had a bit of a head start. I'm able to see her perspective while also being able to give the guidance she needs.

I'm very proud of the young magnificent person she's turning out to be.

I'm glad to be a part of her life. 💗 I'm grateful to have her as my "adopted neighbor kiddo who tags along with me everywhere I go" haha 💖

Today she caught a raindrop 💧, ate ice cream at the gazebo, showed me her cool 😎 new skateboard and walked around with me downtown while she chatted about life.

I love this kid ♥️ she's an awesome joy to have around. I will always be there when she needs me.

This is a reminder that it truly does take a village. Her Mom was telling me yesterday how grateful she was she had me. She needs someone like me in her life. And honestly that meant a lot.

Again, she's a blessing and I'm grateful 🙏 to be a part of her life. She'll always be my "adopted kiddo", I've always got her back.

lol okay, hi.

i know ive been memeing about it tonight but i have some actual serious thoughts & feelings about Pulp Musicals rn so I'm going to ramble!

⚠️ This will contain spoilers for the first episode, The Great Moon Hoax !

Okay so one of my favorite, favorite songs in this episode is "John's Choice." (I will be listening to it on loop while I make this post.)

I love the whole song but I absolutely adore the part when Herschel is telling the crowd that the story is true. He adopts the phrasing that is familiar and easily recognizable after the "Great Astronomical Discoveries," we've heard, but now we hear it from his perspective, and my god it doesn't seem like it would do much but the shift in pronouns (he to I, his to my, etc) is SO impactful! (Especially when you're listening for the first time and you're expecting him to reveal the hoax like he'd said he was going to!) It gave me major chills the first time I heard it, and I still get chills every time. Every time.

Another bit that makes me go insane is when we get the line "I pointed it at the moon, our companion," and then the chorus/ensemble chimes in with "Always there, watching us, from Eden to Edinburgh. As we grow..." and then Herschel picks it up again with "As she glows," and he keeps going. But here it's the ensemble that gets me.

In "Great Astronomical Discoveries, Pt. 1" it's just Samuel and Rose singing those lines. Now, we're hearing the crowd singing them, and I think that's really cool and interesting. To me, it really reflects how it's a story that's grown and been passed around a lot, that people have been talking about it and telling each other. The crowd chiming in is like when someone interrupts to finish a story they already know by heart, or when people start singing along to a beloved song that's being played by a stranger in the street.

The crowd that's gathered at The Sun already know this story, and they start singing with Herschel because they already know all the words. It's not just his story—it has become theirs, too. And that just does something in my brain. Like.. it shows how much this story about the moon means to everyone, how important it is. (As Margaret says: "So many people have nothing to believe in...") They're so happy that Herschel is saying it's all real that they can't help but tell the story with him. And the way they whoop and cheer when he says it's true? That's beautiful.

...aaaaand also pretty tragic and heartbreaking if you think about the fact that we all know it really IS a hoax, haha oops, but we'll just not think about that right now, okay? okay. 😅

Of course, I can't ramble about my favorite things in this song without a huge shoutout to Curt Mega for his amazing singing. He puts so much feeling into this song in his roles as Benjamin and John. As Benjamin, we get to hear his vindication, frustration, and impatience, as well as his anger when his plan backfires. As John, singing about his made-up telescope, we can hear so much passion. Herschel's really trying to sell the story now, and I'd say he does a damn good job of it. (Sorry Benjamin!)

Basically, this song really lets Curt show off, and I am so grateful for that because my ears and my brain have been blessed. Thank you Matt, thank you Curt. 🙏🖤

now that I'm done rambling for the time being, I am currently in the middle of an art project that I'm hoping to finish tonight, so I'm gonna try and get back to that. If anybody else wants to add their thoughts, I welcome it!!! please, come experience brainrot with me!!!! :D

someday I'd love to make more posts like this (but hopefully better and more organized) so we'll see if that actually happens lol. I love this show so much. I wanna talk/write about it. 😍

Life Update: Ego Death, and my Path

Heya! It's been a long time since I've given an update, for reasons you'll read presently. I hope you've been doing well 🙏

Early December is when it happened. I was reading the book Why Is God Laughing by Deepak Chopra while at work. Sidenote: I HIGHLY recommend this book, it is INCREDIBLE and it's very funny.

Anywho, in one section, it talks about how the ego is really just one of the many roles that we play, and that we are really just the actor behind the masks that we wear.

As I was reading this, I had this sudden, deep realization: the self doesn't exist. The "self" is really just our attempts to string together all of our experiences, a label that we've put on a pattern we're looking for behind all experience but is constantly changing and ultimately illusory.

I remember that as I realized this, I grew, literally, physically nauseous. I've never had that happen before. I grew physically sick, and thought I was going to throw up. I could also feel like my ego or my sense of who I am (or was) was starting to panic, but that and all of my other thoughts slowly began to fade, until there was nothing.

The next 2-3 days after that moment was absolutely the most present I've ever been in my entire life. Completely in the moment, in the present. It was also very strange - everything felt and looked extremely foreign to me.

And in those few days, I had this realization: I am awareness. Pure awareness. At my core, that it was I am. Actually, that is what EVERYTHING is. We are all just... pure awareness. And we are all the same pure awareness, just like different waves are all part of the ocean.

I really like the metaphor of the masks. We are all just pure awareness, but at the moment we're wearing a mask and playing a part. I am awareness, but I'm currently wearing a mask and playing the part or "Zach" in this life.

I've done some research, and it would seem a lot of people who've experienced ego death agree that while the mask may come off for a while - eventually, it has to come back on.

But that doesn't mean that things go back to being the same. You know that it's just a mask, just a part, and so you don't take things as seriously, or get too invested beyond it. And because of that, you see things differently.

Alright. Enough waxing philosophical here. After those 2-3 days, the mask did indeed come back on. But my life and my Path are very different now.

The first thing I noticed is that I had a very difficult time having visualizing myself, because of how I now view "me." Because of this... I haven't been able to astral travel or do most of my Practice. At all.

Actually, I've been in a bit of a rut with my Practice lately. Aside from not being able to astral or use most of my abilities, this experience has completely rattled my thoughts on how the universe and energy and sould and the astral and everything etc. operate. I've kind of had a working theory and system that I've been operating out of for a while now - with great success.

But now, everything is changed. I view things differently now, and I'm not sure how and where these direct realizations I've had fit in.

And so... I haven't really made any updates because... well, there hasn't really been much to update about. I'm still trying to figure and sort everything out all that.

Also, just because there hasn't been anything going on with my practice doesn't mean I've been at a complete standstill. As a result of this experience and my new view, I've been able to do some incredible transformative inner work. I've made leaps and bounds with things I've been working on for a long whole now.

Anywho, just wanted to give an update, share my experience, and write in my e-journal lmao. Also, as a result of where I'm at rn, my services will unfortunately be closed until I learn how to do them again.

I hope everyone has a wonderful night!

Blessings!

HelIo! I have been blessed many times, now I try to touch your hearts to help protect my little angel grace diagnosed with sickle cell disease. but the worst were the THREE strokes to the brain.

Thank you once again for getting here and for everything you can do for Grace's well-being. Donate anything please if you're able🙏

I really don't trust your blog. Not only do you spam sent the same ask to multiple people, you never show any proof to support your story and seem to block anyone who asks for it.

Not only that but you keep deleting and changing blogs. So far we've got lynhelbet1, lynhelbett and lynhelbet

Also this

Obligatory "I'm Not Dead" Post

-Drags my battered and limp body up to the podium-

Hey y'all.

Just got home from the hospital on Friday after my partner needed an emergency appendectomy. Luckily we caught it before it burst. I've been an anxious wreck for the past few days, but he is home now and healing at a good pace, thank goodness...

I've also been seeing my specialist about my hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos and how it's been progressing. Limbs have begun to go numb and my hips, knees, fingers, and shoulders have started popping more often, but the 250 bpm heart palpitations have stopped! My parasympathetic nerves have been slowly repairing, but it looks like I'll need my cane, collagen, pain meds for the rest of my life. It's not the best news to take in, but it could very well be worse!

If any of y'all have EDS or POTS or dysautonomia in general, Dr. DePace's practice in NJ is a blessing and a lifesaver. Folks come from three/four hours away to see him and his kind nurse practitioners.

A lot of other health and family things have been happening on the side, and I'm hoping everything is finally starting to wind down so I can focus on work again. (For those of y'all waiting on commissions, I cannot thank you enough for bearing with me during this time 🙏)

On another note, we've also been prepping for a huge milestone! If y'all are in the area June 23rd-25th, me and my crew will be showcasing our first official demo at Too Many Games 2023!!

Slime 64 has been our passion project for the past 4 years, and we're so excited to show y'all what we've been working on!

Hope to see y'all there!!

Thank you guys again so much for hangin in. This community has been so sweet and kind. More mengine shenanigans will be on their way 👉👉

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