and maybe we bend, or maybe it's fate

we're taking our time, until the pendulum breaks

don't have to give in, we don't have to hide

it's never too late for some innocence

this is so random but I like. need more Actually Dead AU content in my brain. uhhh got any ideas for shenanigans ensuing after the birthday party if Sonic stays a ghost? or literally anything? I crave more information

ehehe im glad you like it so much :))

and youre in luck! i just drew this guy earlier today (would've forgotten :p)

^inspired by the line from the dining car (with barry n sonic) where he says he's bummed he missed all the views from the train

tomas tranströmer track (robert bly) (via @mournfulroses​) \\ kim addonizio now we’re getting somewhere: “stay” 

kofi

how I announce a positive COVID test to my household:

1/ this bout of comms almost done and 2. spawndate in 3 days so I have! been fixin up some stuff for the itch store. that'll go live on the 29th! right now there Is a pack of the lineart stuff I did last year for folks who found that agreeable, still free to grab! for practicing coloring, or if you wanna mess around with colors when ur not feelin like doing lineart, or if you wanna try to figure out colors in a drastically different style than what you usually go for. or if u just wanna look at it that's cool too. small announcement that is all see u in a few

I've put this in the tags of a previous reblog but feel like it deserves its own post so PSA to tall people: your short friends likely have shorter legs than you and therefore physically can't walk as fast as you without exerting way more effort, they're not going slow on purpose or exaggerating/joking when they say they're more tired than you after an outing. your casual stroll is a speedwalk for them and doing that for extended periods of time is exhausting. also you will lose them in crowds way less if you make a conscious effort to match their pace rather than just assuming theyll keep up

The Lights Analysis vs. The Papa Script - (No Actual Lighting Discussion)

Okay, time to cross-reference/analyze my analysis with the Papa Script. 

First up here: Robin Buckley. 

Originally, I wanted to look at her saying, “It’s not everyday you loose your home and vehicle in one fell swoop,” because that has foreshadowing of Will and Mike in the van scene. Will breaks both their hearts in one fell swoop. However, I didn’t even make it to that point (these scripts also aren’t mine, but I’m sorry if this is yours because I can’t remember where I took it from)-

Because my brain stopped on this; 

“ARMS CROSSED; a gesture of defensiveness: an instinctive act in nearly every single person facing something unknown. Her ANXIETY is obvious.”

and then I went- hey, that reminds me of something-

Oh, hello Mike and Will at Suzie’s house, how’re you doing? Feeling uncomfortable, ANXIOUS, perhaps? 

I went over this it in this analysis, but Mike and Will both are tense at Suzie’s house. And this line with Robin helps to establish the fact/idea that they are in fact defensive and anxious. 

And now onto the most correct I’ve ever been in my entire life (except when I correctly guessed, after reading Gideon the Ninth, that- just realized that that’s a major spoiler so, uh. Go read the locked tomb series if you like the idea of “lesbian necromancers [exploring] a gothic, haunted mansion in space.” anyways- back to the post.)

“There’s something else that Will isn’t seeing” vs. “What are you 12 years old dude?” and Will not grasping the true meaning of what Mike said. (this is the post, because I linked the other one. There’s 16 parts at the moment, I won’t make anyone trudge through that if they’re only looking for one thing. So, here it is if you’d like to see it.)

This line in the script, right here, “nervously”, “contemplatively”, god damn.

“He stutters through this sentence like he’s nervous. His tone during this statement isn’t sad or heartbroken, it’s contemplative.”

It makes sense. This all makes sense. because they aren’t talking about El, they're asking, “What about us?” But Will doesn’t understand what Mike is saying and Mike doesn’t understand what Will is saying. 

And we didn’t need a script to tell us that. 

I don't brag about shit from my life here often but the metrics just came out and the shelter I case manage for was recognized as the top shelter in the state. We have a positive outcome (meaning clients maintaining their permanent housing for 6+ months) metric that is double the state average. I am so proud of our team. We're a very small group doing a very big job. I wouldn't trade these people or this work for anything.

god i am so grateful for music and a good speaker.

a turnip for you all

you know those people who talk super fast and always try to finish your sentences for you and they do more ohh ahh yeah okay oh my god no way seriously yeah oh okay active listening than actual listening? yeah. thats so goddamn obnoxious

.

Literally cant care about anything other than majima haruka bonding

🥴.

I think. That if you live with people. Especially people who cannot close the door at night (bc the cat needs to be able to access her litter box and water) and you NEED NEED NEED WILL DIIIIIE WITHOOOOOUT the tv playing in the LIVING ROOM to help you go to sleep. Well I think you should just go without. Or put on some fucking headphones attached to your laptop. You asshole

oooh 1 and 11 for the horror fic with Lup and Taako ! :3

Ooh!! I never get to talk about this one :3 I worked really hard on it too, and not a lot of people saw it so I'm just gonna sliiiiide a link right here <3

Also, anyone can send in a question about a fic from these questions here or just other questions in general! I like talking about my fics and never know how to shut up lol

What inspired you to write the fic this way?

So this was back when I first started getting back into writing and had virtually no following of anyone who consistently read my stuff or sent me prompts. Actually, I think at the time of writing it, I may have not even reblogged a prompt list yet. It's hard to say because this was obviously before I got an ao3 account, and when I tried to upload all of the fics I had written by the time I did get an account, somehow the publish date on some of them got mixed up and was set for the day after I actually published them?? And I didn't know how to fix it, so I no longer know the order in which I wrote everything. That's neither here nor there though. Point is, I used a prompt from a pdf of a prompt book I got in an online writing bundle called Roll-A-Prompt Writing Journal Box Set, box set meaning that it had prompts for horror, sci-fi, and fantasy. I used that book a lot in the beginning because it's a really fun book to use the few times I used it. Basically you pick a set of prompts from any of the three genres, and the prompts are ordered in three different aspects of the prompt (in this case, it was character, mood, and word, but there are other options depending on the prompt set you choose), and each aspect has a list of six options. Then you roll a d6 for each aspect, and you generate a prompt by combining the three different options you rolled. Like the monster factory from Wonderland! lol Only, I took it up a level and rolled a d4 to determine what genre I was going to do (usually I use it as a d2 to pick between sci-fi and fantasy), and then I roll a d100 to pick what prompt set I use because there's thirty prompt sets in each genre. I just used this roll as leaving it as is if it landed on 1-30, then if it was 31-60, I would just subtract 30, and if it was 61-90, I would subtract 60, and if it was 91-100, I would just reroll. Then I count that many numbers down starting from the top of the chapter until I got to the right prompt set.

If anyone is interested, I could share it! It is a pdf though, so I think I'd have to send it through email because I don't think that's something I can just share elsewhere.

Anyway, I felt like throwing in a little extra, why not? that day when I decided to roll up another prompt and added horror as an option to my d4 roll, and I ended up getting that, so that's what I went with lol I am definitely not a horror person though and know very little about the genre, and I'm unwilling to do anything too gory or gross. The most I can handle with horror is creepy and abstract concepts of other horrific events, and the top thing that came to mind that day that I thought I could pull off was someone torturing students to bring back an old dead god. So I looked up wheel torture methods because I couldn't remember exactly what the torture device I had in mind was called or did, it was the wheel thing that like, you get tied to on the side and it's supposed to stretch your body apart? Idk, it's the torture method that always stuck out most to me besides quartering, and there was no way in hell I was writing that. I get uncomfortable even rolling that idea in my head and have to try really hard to not picture it every time I remember it exists. Anyway, so I looked up wheel torture methods, and the only thing I could find was the wheel that is called a female name that starts with a c then wheel? Cathie's wheel? Cassandra's wheel? idk I don't want to look it up. Last time I looked it up (to write this fic), I literally gave myself nightmares, and I already watched a fucked up movie today. It's past 11pm and I have to be somewhere at 1pm tomorrow, so I have to go to bed soon, but the grossest part of the movie I watched is still playing in my head and aaaahhhhh

So yeah, that's why I went with a hopefully more creepy vibe for most of it (also to build up tension), and I used physical descriptors of the dead bodies in the wheels very sparingly. Probably not the most immersive experience, but hey, I'm not a horror writer usually lol

Anyway, so I needed characters to be in this scenario, and I thought doing a sibling bonding moment would be cool, and it definitely seemed like the kind of weird shit that would happen in Taako and Lup's lives pre-stolen century. Also, it gave me an excuse to end the story with Taako saying he'd always find Lup >:3

I was really proud of how it turned out when I wrote it, and I suppose I'm still proud of it because it's something I wouldn't normally do, and I do feel like it's okay. But I can definitely tell I grew in my writing capabilities since then, and honestly, the twin interactions after Lup gets kidnapped is so cringey lol 🤦🏽‍♂️ I was so worried about trying to make sure that I didn't portray either of them as weak or like a damsel in distress, especially Lup, that I didn't just let her need to be saved. I wanted to show that I still think of her as a badass who can take care of herself, especially because I was really worried about the weak woman trope or whatever, that I didn't let her just need help. I honestly thought about switching the roles, but Lup just seemed like the one to pick up on something being wrong first while Taako got distracted by how hot the professor was than it being the other way around, and of course the person who picks up on it first has to get kidnapped lol

Anyway, I've rambled on about that long enough sldgkhsldaghd

11. What do you like best about this fic?

Honestly, the part where Taako gets hit with Phantasmal Killer. It was interesting figuring out what exactly would be his number one nightmare that Keth could conjure up, and between having an inconsistent childhood where either the twins left places for their own safety or people left them and them only having each other, having Lup being the one to yell at him, blame him for fucking up a great opportunity, and then leaving him would probably be something major psychic damage worthy lol I also really like how I wrote that confrontation in his mind in general, though I feel like I could do it way better now

It's just a perfect way to spin the situation on its head you see, and fuck the both of them up just a little bit <3