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cchapsticck · 11 months

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15 questions. Stuff bout me! Thanks for tagging me @greenlikethesea!

1. are you named after anyone?

Okay kind of a funny story. When it comes to my deadname the story goes my parents were so sick of fighting over what to call me that that name was like a hands in the air okay fine concession between the two of them and neither of them actually liked it all that much. The name (and variations on it) I go by these days I am, without meaning to, named after two people. I share a deadname with one of my closest and oldest friends, and a mutual friend of ours has a condition that makes it difficult for him to distinguish faces - and we both have a similar vocal quality so we were particularly difficult for him to distinguish without someone having identified who was who in conversation. So he started calling her "Senior" and me "Junior" because calling us by the same name was just an additional complication for him keeping us distinctive and Junior stuck hard. My father's middle name is just the letter J, which someone at work started calling me and now everyone does. And I work a lot. So I am called it a lot. So that happened on accident.

2. when was the last time you cried?

I think it was before I had surgery, which was. Two months ago? Three? I forget how time works. I was scaredexcited. I'm not really a big crier, but I definitely have watershed moments of "cry a lot now" a couple times a year.

3. do you have kids?

I do not and I don't think that I will. I have a lot of respect for people who have and raise children, I just don't think I'm well suited to be a parent for a real smorgasbord of reasons. I like kids just fine though! My friend's kids are super cool and I always enjoy my time with them.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

I guess occasionally? I think when I do its this very intentionally hyperbolic version of it so as to not be misconstrued when I'm joking. If I'm ever going to be sassy about something I think I'd say my "style" in that arena is a bit more deadpan, but still very unserious. I tend to be a very earnest person so things like sarcasm are pretty much always employed as a joke.

5. what sports do you play/have you played?

/john mayer voice My Body Is A Garbage Can 🎶 my ramshackle horrible body is not cut out for sports, but in my youth I played hockey and figure skated. (midwest baybeeeee) I skipped out on my physical education requirement in high school by being in marching band for 4 years.

6. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

So I am deaf and I spend a lot of time looking at people's mouths, I read lips to fill in some lost information that my hearing aids don't reliably provide me with so it usually takes me a few encounters with a person before I start to notice other details about them beyond the lower third of their face. Sometimes I'll notice people's eyebrows, or if they have glasses or freckles but the specifics of their features don't always sink in right away.

7. what’s your eye colour?

Green!

8. scary movies or happy endings?

For my own personal enjoyment? Always always always a scary movie. I love a scary movie. Good, bad, doesn't matter, I want to watch it. A friend of mine and I spend entire weekends just watching the Shudder back catalogue and we've found some incredible films. (Please watch Death Spa I'm so not even kidding) I am a whole sucker for a practical effect. I also love a scary movie with a happy ending!

9. any special talents?

I always know where the car is parked.

10. where were you born?

American Midwest. Round the lakes. Y'know. The big ones.

11. what are your hobbies?

I'm one of those suckers who made their hobby their job so I genuinely enjoy garment construction and costume crafts. I also like to write and garden and live music.

12. do you have pets?

No not anymore. I had cats in high school (I am so deeply allergic) and we have had to put two of them down over the last few years and our last remaining guy lives with my mom. My partner and I raise carnivorous plants though and we've named all of them and talk about them like they're essentially pets.

13. how tall are you?

5'6"

14. favourite subject at school?

I always loved my English classes, far and away the classes I put the most work into and excelled at. I also took a radical dramaturgy class in grad school that changed the way my brain functions. Which is probably an extension of an English class tbh. While not a favorite: I'm good at math, but I don't actually like math. I often joke that I'm good at math against my will - I had a lot of math tutoring as a kid so now I can like. Do long division in my head and shit.

15. dream job?

Y'know, I'm not sure I have a dream job. I really like what I do, I work in the arts - live theater and I wear a lot of hats at the regional theater I spend most of my time at. I've put a lot of time and effort and lost sleep into trying to make a living doing something that feels worthwhile to me personally as an artist and important to the community I'm in and making that art accessible to that community but I'm also happy to go home at the end of the day, its easy for me not to think about work when I'm not at work.

So I think the dream is more to have a job that I like, that I want to be at most days, that feels worthwhile, but also to have a healthy work/life balance with that job. Y'know?

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toomanysurveys9 · 28 days

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1. Who was the last person you forgave? How long did it take you to forgive them? Honestly, I don't really remember.

2. Is going mushroom hunting in the woods something that would interest you? Not even a little.

3. What is your favorite junk food? How about your favorite health food? Favorite junk food is definitely ice cream. Favorite healthy food is almost any kind of fruit. Especially watermelon lately.

4. Are you listening to anything right now? Do you normally listen to music while you take surveys? Listening to a classmate's presentation. We've heard it several times already - it's her capstone presentation!

5. What were you doing the last time you hung out with a friend? Kayla and Brittany were drinking and we were all just hanging out and venting and snacking.

6. Is there anything about you that might cause others to dislike you? Oh, I'm sure. I'm definitely not the best person in the world or anthing.

7. Is there anything you’re really particular or specific about, anything that has to be done a certain way every time? Yeah, the way I clean certain things at work.

8. Are there any chores you need to get done today? I need to put more laundry away before we go on our trip this coming week. D:

9. Where was the last place you went shopping and what did you buy? I went to Martin's and got a few things for dinner tonight.

10. What was the last big change you made to your physical appearance? When I changed my hair style to what it is now.

11. Are you more likely to shut people out of your life or try to fix things no matter what? Typically, I try to work things out. It has to be really bad for me to shut people out of my life.

12. Where was the last place you went out to eat? Is going out something you enjoy or would you rather cook at home? My mom and I went to Taco Bell on Sunday night.

13. If you have any pets, do they seem to notice when you’re sick or sad? They definitely notice changes in me. My dogs get more protective and my cat gets more cuddly.

15. Is anything you’ve done lately going to matter in a year? Well, yeah. I'm almost done with grad school and also parenting my babies.

16. What was the subject of your last phone call? I was asking Jacob when he was coming home because his dinner was almost done and he had told me he was headed home earlier.

17. Are your hobbies something you’d rather do alone or with others? Depends on the hobby I am doing... but usually alone OR cuddled up with my babies.

18. Is there anything about yourself that you’re trying to improve? I need to work on my time management.

19. What are you doing today? I have supervision until 11 pm and then I get to go to bed. I'm exhausted.

20. What did you dream about last night? I don't remember except it wasn't a very good dream.

21. When was the last time you visited relatives? Do you see extended family often? I visited my sister this weekend, kind of, when we picked up her and my nieces to hangout.

22. What was the last relaxing thing you did? Laid down before supervision.

23. Will this weekend be better than last weekend? Yes, we're going to Florida.

24. When was the last time you were there for a friend? A couple weekends ago I guess.

25. Do you have any jewelry you almost never take off? My suicide awareness bracelet for Justin. I had to put on a different one because my other one broke after two years.

26. What are some of your favorite words? I don't know.

27. Do you have any journals from when you were younger? If so, do you ever go back and read them? I do. But I think I'm going to throw them away. I don't think I want to read them ever again.

28. Are there any holidays you used to celebrate, but no longer do? Not really.

29. What was the last occasion for which you dressed up? I honestly can't remember. I never dress up.

30. Is there anything you wish you could say to anyone? There definitely is but I can't.

#survey #surveys #personal #questions #question #random

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duhass · 4 years

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#man this week really sucks #we have to put my moms cat down that we've had for about 15 years #if not 16 years #and now my fish son is showing signs of dropsy which oof hurts #i love my fish son and i got him shortly after losing two pets i had for years #my mental health was taking a nose dive so we got him to help #(which it did kjhdkf)#now i most likely will lose him after having him for little over a year :/#he's a betta fish so they aren't known for being the most healthy #this month just didn't start off good and its not going to end good #i'm going with my mom to say goodbye to the stubby (the cat) this friday #we are not ready to say goodbye to another animal so soon after saying goodbye to our last one (who we had to put down only a few months ago #ALSO I DON'T WANT TO HEAR 'ITS ONLY A FISH NOT A CAT/DOG DON'T BE UPSET OVER IT'#I'MA BE UPSET OVER MY FISH AND THE CAT CAUSE THEY ARE BOTH OUR BABIES WHO WE LOVE A LOT #anyways if i go mia this is why #now excuse me while i go cry :)

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sasukyss · 3 years

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Here we go

List of all my animals (dead and alive)

Ok, in gonna divide this into sections depending on the species of the animals, cause I had a fuckton of them.

CATS

1. Marie (dead): she was ginger and white and I think she might of been our first cat? Idk I don't really remember but I do know that we picked her up off the street lol.

2. Beauty (alive): she's our oldest animal! She's white and we've had her for around 10 years and we got her from our plumbers.

3. Milly (dead): she was Beauties daughter, she was a tabby cat. Milly only died a few years ago, she was also one of our longest living animals. Fun fact about her, she got shot and lost feeling in her tail but she lived! She died of feline leukemia lol

4. Molly (dead): Milly's sister, she was also tabby but with darker colouring, I think she got poisoned by one of our neighbours. She was sweet

5. Spider (???): one of Milly's litter of kittens, he was a dark tabby colour and he hated my entire family and he ran away the moment he could

6. Tiger (???): another one of Milly's, he was like Spider but lighter in colouring. He also hated us and ran away.

7. Ariel (???): part of Milly's litter, I named her Ariel cause she had a ginger bit on her head lmao. She hated my entire family and also ran away

8. Lucky (dead): he was my trans cat!! He wasn't really part of Milly's litter cause we found him when he was a newborn in the rubbish, but Milly happened to be feeding the kittens and she took him. He was ginger and white.

9. Angel Milk (???): she was black and white and we only had for a bit and then we dropped her off at this house cause we couldn't look after her and then we never saw her again.

10. Hope (dead): we found her in another village when she was a kitten, sadly she was a carrier of feline leukemia so she died of it and also gave it to my other cat who died a few years later. Hope was white with random patches of tabby fur everywhere

11. Buttercup (dead): A SWEETHEART. She was tabby with super long fur and she was sweet and she had two kittens and I loved her a lot

12. Guppy (dead): one of Buttercups litter, he was super long and he had long dark tabby fur.

13. Kevin (dead): Guppy's brother, he was my neighbours cat and I think he only died a few years ago. He had the same fur and colour as his brother.

14. Biscuit (???): He was ginger and one of my favourite cats, super sweet and I loved him a whole lot

15. Mopsy (dead): we got him along with his sister from our school when he was a kitten. He was super big and had dark tabby fur.

16. Roberta (alive): HOMOPHOBIC BITCH. She's so grumpy and I hate her, I actually have photos of her so here

17. Arya (alive): gay ass cat. We thought he was a girl at first cause he was so pretty but turns out he's a dude and hes super gay

18. Arnold (alive): my beloved, I love you sm. He's great and I'd die for him. He's also bisexy

19. Lucy (alive): BABY PLS COME HOME. She's not dead but she's in England with my brothers, I miss you 💔 here's a pic of her assaulting her child

20. Lucy's litter of kittens whose names I only remember two of so here's a photo of them (all alive minus 1):

DOGS

1. Rocket (dead): stupid and dumb. He was small and was light brown with darker colours on his snout and legs.

2. Daphne (dead): my beloved, you may have been dumb as shit but you cared and thats what counts. She was super scruffy and she was black with light brown on her snout and belly.

3. Daphnes first litter of puppies that was like 6 and idk what happened to any of them cause my mom gave them away at my school and these kids just took them home and I nev r saw any of them again.

4. Fred (alive): we called her Fred cause we thought she was a dude but suprise, she wasn't and she had 13 puppies cause my dad dumped her in this village in the mountains and we found her again cause my uncle bought a house there and we had to check on it. Oh yeah she was also coloured like a Dalmatian lol.

5. Marbles (dead): honestly I don't remember where we got him all I know is that we had him and his brother when they were puppies and one day we found him dead. He was white with brown patches.

6. Domino (alive): my neighbours took him in, he was Marbles brother and he grew up to be fucking huge. Hes white with brown patches.

7. Goldy (alive): part of Daphnes second litter of puppies, Daphne had like 7 but one got killed by Fred who had her puppies at the same time. Yes I was there and saw her with it in her mouth. It wasn't fun. She's called Goldy cause she had blonde fur lmao

8. Tinkerbell (dead): looked like a Yorky but longer and scruffier, she could jump super high and she got run over by my neighbour

9. May (dead): she didn't last long, she was white and was a puppy and she also got ran over by my neighbour

10. Annabelle (alive): she looks like a rat, she's from this litter of puppies we found near one of our neighbours houses, shes white with black patches.

11. Toby (dead): he was brown and big and he would always break out of the dog house. He got hit by a car and it broke his spine so they had to put him down.

HAMSTERS

We had two generations of them, the first batch had babies and thats how we figured out that if you touch baby hamsters their mother will eat them cause she doesn't recognize their scent. So in total 8 hamsters (gen. 1 and 2) and some like 6 babies.

FISH

We had a fucktonnn, and they'd die every few months so we'd got back to this festival where we got them. I think the ones we had the longest was one of mine (Aurora) and one of my brothers (Stitch).

CHICKENS

Ok so we had three gens of them

Gen 1: I don't remember a lot but ik the rooster was called Scooby-Doo (my younger brothers choice). Also they got killed by this thing called a genet that Fred ended up killing

Gen 2: again idkkk, ik they were black and they hated these other chickens we had. Also they ate baby mice

Gen 3: they were this single rooster and these two chickens, the rooster kept getting beat up by the ducks so we had to move him away. Just so you know chickens don't die pretty.

DUCKS

Yes we had fucking ducks, cause my brothers a dumbass and wanted some for a reason

Roberto (alive): idkk ik hes the one that actually lived and we need up giving him to one of my mom's friends.

Roberta (dead): idk what happened to this one I didn't really care tbh.

RABBITS

Snowy (dead): ok so we called Snowy sumo rabbit cause she was fucking huge and albino. Also funny story, but we thought Snowy was a dude so we would get her other rabbits but she ended up killing them all, so we eventually figured out Snowy was a girl so we got her a dude rabbit, and yeah she got pregnant but she also killed the dude rabbit, so yeah...

She had like two litters of them and they all died lol.

Carrots (dead): I miss you 💔 super great, even if she didn't like anyone. She also had kid rabbits and these ones actually lived. Also she was orange so that's why we called her carrots.

Thumper (dead):, he was a dwarf rabbit, he was black and white and he was the father of these other two rabbits we had.

Bruce (alive): idk why he's called Bruce, I thinks he's black and white but I don't remember

Jean (alive): again, idk about the name. This one's white and brown I think.

BIRDS

Ok so we had one budgie which we called Peanut and I don't remember what happened to him, and then we had two lovebirds and I'm pretty sure we named one after my uncle cause the bird was bald like him. Yes they are both dead.

#long post #god this took fucking ages #tw animal death #i dont go into detail but yeah theres mentions of dead puppies and kittens and dogs being run over lol #never doing this again

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find-me-beneath-wonderland · 5 years

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An Unexpected Magical Experience

So my fiance and I took a trip together with my family to Disneyland back in May of this year, 2019.

We didn't know exactly what to expect on this trip. I haven't been to the park in years because of the prices, and I believe he hasn't gone since he was very young. We planned that we would all go to Disneyland the 1st day, California Adventure the 2nd, and back to Disneyland on the 3rd day. We all didn't have to stick together of course, we just wanted to be in the same park as each other at the least. My fiance has epilepsy and gets seizures if there's flashing lights/strobes, we were unsure as to which rides had these and which ones did not. We would ask every Cast Member before either boarding a ride or entering a show; they either did not know or said that there were no lights when there actually was...

Day 1:

Went horribly. Every ride we went on had lights of some sort that rapidly flashed or strobed. He had lots of convulsions and 4-5 seizures. We went on Indiana Jones and all was fine until the end where the camera is. He wasn't expecting it, I forgot about it entirely.. he was unable to get up and out of the seat. He couldn't move his legs and I asked a Cast Member for just a few moments because he's epileptic and the camera flash had got him. I had seen him struggling to even stay standing so I stepped back on and picked him up to carry him off so the next guests could board the vehicle. It took him about 10-15 minutes to recover from.

While we were in Toon Town, both of our favorite spot in the park, we picked up Pin Trading. A Cast Member had given him a starter pin and a Stitch(one of his most favorite characters) pin. Before even entering the park to begin with, he had buttons and pins on him. He had a pin in the shape of Mickey Mouse's head that had the German flag colors on it, it meant a lot to him. As we were walking through Main Street, it fell off and we were unaware of it at the time; he noticed it was missing as we were walking back to the hotel we were staying in. The entire day had been really horrible, and losing that pin made it worse...

Day 2:

We went on one of the CARS rides in CARS Land, that ride was okay, it was the dancing cars that spin.

We went on Monsters Inc, that was alright as well except for the part where the helicopters are searching for Boo.

We ate at Flo's Diner. We had an okay day. No seizures, it was a lot better.

Day 3:

Was the best out of all the days!

I told him I wanted to walk the same path we've been taking to the park from the hotel, just in case we do find his pin. I had a lot of hope and a drive that was not gonna die. He gave up and had told me that it wasn't going to be found, he was pessimistic about it, but calm. I told him that anything is possible and that we were gonna find his pin on one of those trading boards.

Our day started out horribly.. we get to the park and we're in line behind a couple with a stroller, we follow them and the Cast Member tells us to get back in line instead of behind the ones with the stroller; we didn't know... A family cuts in front of us and he's freaking out and wants to just leave the whole place and go back to the hotel since we weren't having that great of a time the past few days. He's not in a good mood at all, there's screaming children and loud talking, and music, and overall so many noises going on all at once; so this family is the last straw for him at the moment. We finally get in after them and he goes up to them and just says, "Hey, you guys cut us in line and we didn't appreciate it at all. We would really like an apology." He was being very polite about it. The tall husband gets in his face and he's like, "What did you say to me? I'll knock those glasses right off your face. [Etc]." He takes them off and I'm holding him back and apologizing to this family while the wife looks at me and is like, "WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO?!" and it was a shitty and scary encounter. They almost got in a fist fight because this guy didn't feel they did anything wrong and just wanted to start confrontation while acting all macho. People walking by us were like, "Come on guys, it's Disneyland. Don't do this." as if we started any of this. So they ended up going their own way and we went ours. We met Goofy and got his autograph. We went to City Hall and gave names of Cast Members that were amazing and made our experience magical the past few days despite the mishaps that happened.

We stopped by Esmeralda, and I had never tried the machine out until then. He put a quarter in, then gave me one. We got these cards from her that actually happened to.. happen. His card said, "A magic cityscape may unfold before you today. Your adventures could have their 'downs and ups' and may let you hoist a secret flag, or take part in a "spirited" adventure." so we just thought that meant go to the Pirates of the Caribbean ride. Mine said, "A look into the future is in your future today. Visit another galaxy or blast your way to command the stars." We figured my card meant go to Tomorrowland, so we went there first and we got on the Monorail from there and it took us to Downtown Disney. There was a Pin Trading station and I traded a pin for one that was shaped like Mickey Mouse's head but had the French flag colors.

He suggested it because I love France, but once we walked away he had wished I didn't get that one because he was starting to miss his Germany one again. We got back into the park and we were walking around going to different shops still looking for pins. We walked into this one store called Castle.. well... we both saw it at the same time on the trading board, and we freaked out and started crying together. It was his Germany pin.

Later on after the sun went down and we were getting tired, we found my mom and her best friend, told them both about our day and what our cards from Esmeralda did. Then we told them to meet us at the Magic shop because we were gonna grab a few things.

So after we got what we were needing to get, we met them at the Magic shop and we were doing a pretend pin trade between each other, just goofing off. A lady saw us and came up to him to ask if she could trade with him as well to give her daughter a pin before they leave that night back to Washington; she said "Just something really Disney."

He had a Lion King pin, it was baby Simba as the painting on the cave wall, he handed her that one because he strongly felt that one meant something and she said that it's so crazy because her daughter has that exact tattoo and her yoga studio is called "Hakuna Mayoga". He almost gave her a Cheshire cat one.. he told her how he has a gift and how stuff like that usually just happens all the time. She called her daughter over and she showed us her tattoo on her shoulder. They left and my mom pulls out her Esmeralda card and said, "We both went and got those cards after you guys told us about them.. but I wasn't gonna say anything, until now." My mom's had something to do with "witnessing a magical experience" and her best friend's was that she "was gonna join along for an adventure that she normally doesn't get to do"(she never gets to get out of her house often).

That was truly a magical wild ride

#disneyland #disney #couple #magic #magical #experience #esmeralda #epilepsy #epileptic #mickey mouse #unexplained events #unexpected #adventure #journey #miracle

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carli-in-the-morning · 5 years

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Thought Dump/Anxious Ramble

[QUICK WARNING: this is gonna have my unfiltered anxious thoughts here about getting people in trouble, backing out of things, feeling lost & scared & not knowing what to do. If you don't wanna read or deal with my stupid 15 year old anxiety, I completely understand, scroll on by]

Howdy hey! I've had....a terrible awful horrible no good very bad day. And this is that. But first! Some context for our tale.

So I am a self appointed not great person. I'm not a good role model. I do things that are kinda not what your supposed to. Namely, I go out at 2 in the morning and hang with my friends. But Cho, you may ask, how is that not what you're supposed to do? It's actually, where I live, illegal to go outside past 10 pm if you are my age. You can face fines for it. But I do it anyway, been doing it for about a year now. I have only EVER been caught ONCE, but that was by my parents as I sat on our basement floor. They brushed it off and let it be, so really, I've never gotten into any trouble for this. I typically had only gone out with my one girl friend, we'll call her Beth. But last month, I convinced my one guy friend to come out with me, we'll call him Tony. Tony is very new to it all, but Beth and I aren't. He hasn't gotten the entire stealth down pack yet. Which brings us to why I've been having a bad day.

Last night, since I was cat sitting for my grandparents, I had part of the house all to myself. Which fucking ruled, I could get in and out no problemo, and we could even chill at my place. Which we did. He came over, we played Smash (I did horrible), fucked around on Sims, and had a pleasant time. Now, it's a weekday. His dad and grandma wake up earlier in weekdays because...jobs. I asked when Tony wanted to be home by, he said we could leave at like 5:00 (10 minute walk, he'd be home at 5:10)....or he proposed he could stay later and wait for his dad to leave, so we'd leave at like 7:00, get him home at 7:10 (we actually ended up leaving at 7:20ish...so...). I said, as long as he was sure he wouldn't get caught, I was fine with that. We had a blast and then I walked with him most of the way home. I go home, sit down and judt kinda chill. Low and behold, I get a text. (All messages paraphrased for privacy sake):

Tony: Door in was stuck. Good news, my grandma was still home and let me in without asking any questions. Bad news, she might tell my mom that I was outside for no reason at 7:30. But maybe she won't!

Me: Just say you went on a walk after you got woken up by a cat. Don't tell the full truth, but certainly don't lie.

Tony: Yeah, I went for a walk and the door got stuck.

Me: Exactly

Okay....not ideal. But he has an alibi thought out and there's a chance he won't need it. I'm not that concerned. I go about my day, then I get a message on Discord at 5 something in the afternoon:

Tony: So, my mom found out. She's firm on me never doing this again and it all ends now. So, if we wanna do this again, then we're gonna need to wait a long while. I don't think she'll know I can contact you here, so let's chat here.

Me: oof

Tony: In hindsight, maybe we shouldn't have done it so often.

Me: Yeah, but for now lay low. Do everything you can to be helpful and good. Be an angel child and if your parents catch on, say that you just felt guilty and upset for dissapointing them.

Tony: I'll try to fix my sleep schedule as a start, try and get that in check

Me: Yeah, do that. That's a good idea.

Tony: also my mom has my phone. She looked through our texts and said if she caught us again, she'd tell your mom.

Now that....is beyond terrifying. If my mom knew I did this......I'd be dead. She'd cook me and serve me for dinner. My ass would get kicked into the year 3928. Oh, and another bit of context. I had been planning a movie day in two days for Tony and another friend of ours, let's call him Chris. Apparently Tony had not asked his mom yet.

Me: So how much trouble are you in rn, getting in more trouble to watch movies with Chris and I is not a smart idea.

Tony: Uh-huh...because asking to go to watch movies with the girl I've been sneaking out with is entirely clever.

Tony: also, she saw in your contact info that "she said I had a big dick" (inside joke)

Me: oh excellent

Tony: I dont think I ever told my fam you're gay

Me: least of our fucking concerns, we'll deal with that later. Right now I wanna get you in the clear.

Tony: can't do anything rn dude

So. Now onto my anxiety.

I am so fucking scared right now, because the entire time we've been doing this, I've preached that I'd rather take my fingernails off with a bottle opener than get him in trouble, which is true. I would so much rather get myself in trouble than him, and yet not only did I fail myself, I failed him. I told him repeatedly that I wouldn't let him get in trouble, and now he is and it's my fault. I should've remembered that his grandma woke up early too, he told me that. I should've reminded him. I didn't. Or I should've pushed for him to leave earlier or I should've kept him later. Or I should've never convinced him to join my stupid antics. And because of me and my faults, he's now in hot water. It is entirely my fucking fault. And not only did I get him in trouble, I could've run the risk of getting myself in trouble. Which is a death sentence in my house.

And also! That movie day? Yeah, so, Chris does soccer. And currently he had a very busy soccer lifestyle. His phone is also broken. So he had to put in literal effort to respond to me in the planning process. He just gave the okay for doing it. And now Tony can't go, and I don't wanna cancel on Chris after he A) said he was looking forward to it. And B) put in effort to make the time to respond to me and make this work for him. I'd feel like a bitch for cancelling. But most of the movies we are gonna watch were because Tony hadn't seen them. So I don't wanna watch them without him, but I don't wanna have it be really awkward with just me and Chris for like....8 and a half hours (the original planned time, given our movie list runtimes). I'm not really an entertaining person! Especially not for that long. I wouldn't know what to do! And I don't know if we could shorten the time or if I could even be sure that he would see my messages! So I can't cancel it or keep it going.

Overall I don't know what to do and I'm panicked and stressed. I feel so useless.....

If anyone has advice...I could really use it. Because I.....I messed up....I messed up big time

#cho rambles

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Rooms on Fire Chapter 12: Dinner with The Shinsou’s Part 1

(Art and OC's by the amazing Keiid)

"You ready?" Hitoshi asked as he popped his head into the closet.

"Ummm...." You were crawling around like Gollum in your underwear digging through your clothes. Hitoshi rolled his eyes.

"I personally love your outfit, not sure about how my parents will feel about it though."

You huffed and glared at Hitoshi. You were so really nervous and wanted to make a good impression. He would never admit it, but Hitoshi found it cute that you were so nervous. He sighed and sat down on the floor with you.

"It's okay gorgeous. They're going to love you."

You looked at him eyes filled with worry. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah why wouldn't they?"

You let out a shaky sigh. "Because I'm villain offspring."

Hitoshi was taken back. He knew you were sometimes self conscious about people knowing who your parents were, but he'd never seen you this worried about it. Usually you had thick skin and would tell people to fuck off if they said anything. He quickly scooped to up into his arms and held you tight. "Look here (Y/N), they're going to love you." He planted gentle kisses on your face. "You're sweet, kind, adorable, full of piss and vinegar. How could anyone not love you?" You teared up a little and hugged Hitoshi's neck.

"Come on. Let's get you dressed."

The car ride was pretty quiet. Hitoshi held your hand the whole drive, bringing your hand to his lips and planting a sweet reassuring kiss every so often. You pulled into the driveway of a beautiful modest home. It looked warm and welcoming, like the type of home that is used for Christmas catalogs.

"Wow, you grew up here?" You asked still admiring the house.

"Yup. Have a lot of great memories here."

You and Hitoshi got out of the car. Hitoshi holding flowers he got for his mom and you holding a blueberry pie that you baked for dessert. Hitoshi chuckled as he watched you carry the pie to the front door.

"What?" You asked slightly annoyed.

"Nothing." He leaned in and kissed your cheek. "You're just so domesticated."

You elbowed Hitoshi in the side and rolled your eyes when he let out a fake cry of pain. You finally reached the front door, you fixed your navy blue sweater and took a deep breath before Hitoshi opened the front door.

"Mom! Dad! We're here!" He called out.

You heard footsteps approach and a beautiful, tall, blue haired women rounded the corner. She had soft tired eyes and a sweet smile. "Toshi!" She gave her son a hug and he handed her the flowers. She thanked him and set them down on a side table and turned to look at you.

You smiled sheepishly and bowed. "Hi Mrs. Shinsou. Thank you for having me over." Before you knew it she had pulled you in for a hug. "Kubo, it's so wonderful to finally meet you. We're so glad that you could make it." You instantly relaxed and hugged her back with your free arm. She let you go, but her arms stayed on your shoulders as she looked you over. "You know the TV doesn't do you justice."

"It definitely doesn't." Hitoshi chimed in. You blushed and thanked them.

"Oh, I uh, made you a pie." You held out the blueberry pie and held your breath for approval.

"Oh how sweet of you!" Mihoko took the pie and deeply inhaled the sweet scent and smiled at you. "Blueberry is my favorite."

You smiled and she led you both to the kitchen. Hitoshi took your hand and squeezed it as he leaned in to whisper in your ear. "Mom already loves you."

"You think so?" You whispered back. Hitoshi just gave you a wink.

You entered the kitchen to see Hajime Shinsou cooking up a storm. Hitoshi was almost a carbon copy of him. Same height, same hair, same tired eyes that definitely ran in the family.

"Hajime, Kubo made us a blueberry pie." She said as she placed it gently on the counter.

Hajime turned around to smile at you. "Oh wow! Your favorite!" He threw a towel over his shoulder and walked up to you. "That's so thoughtful of you Kubo." He took your hand and shook it as you gave a bow. "It's great to finally meet you. We've been hearing so much about you."

You blushed. "Thanks, it's great to meet you too. Hopefully I can live up to the hype."

Hajime and Mihoko laughed. "Well we've been hearing about you for years, so we feel like we already know you."

You smirked at Hitoshi who turned pink. "Years huh?"

Mihoko giggled as she handed you a glass of plum wine. "Yup! Ever since the first year sports festival at UA."

You laughed as Hitoshi was red in the face. "Mom, can you not?" He groaned.

She giggled and ruffled Hitoshi's hair. "Oh relax sweetie. Surely she knows how long you've had eyes for her."

Hajime chimed in. "Yeah pretty much everyday he'd come home from school it was Kubo this and Kubo that and 'Kubo taught me this new counter attack' and 'People think Kubo is stuck up and mean, but she's actually really nice' and-"

"Daaaaad." Hitoshi grumbled and glared at his parents.

"No no! Please continue! He's gone 14 different shades of red, I wanna see if we can get him to 15." You said eyeing Hitoshi with a huge shit eating grin on your face.

He immediately glared at you. "You all suck."

You all laugh as Hitoshi pouted and poured himself some wine.

"Mrs. Shinsou?"

"Oh sweetie called me Mihoko."

Your heart jumped. First name basis so quickly. You were honored. "Okay, um Mihoko-and you can call me (Y/N) by the way- please tell me you have naked baby pictures."

She gave you a sly smile. "Right this way my dear."

You glanced at Hitoshi and pumped your fist in celebration. "15 shades!"

You and Mihoko went to the living room where she got out the photo albums leaving Hitoshi and Hajime in the kitchen. Hajime smiled at Hitoshi.

"I like her."

You and Mihoko looked through the photo albums laughing and cooing over all Hitoshi's old baby/toddler pictures. Hajime set out all the plates and utensils to set the table and put Hitoshi to work.

Hitoshi had an extra setting. "Dad, why did you give me five plates? There's only four of us."

Just then there was a knock at the door.

"Could you get that son?" Mihoko called out before going back to telling you stories behind pictures.

Hitoshi went to the door and found Aizawa standing there. "Whoa! I didn't know you'd be coming."

"Nice to see you too." Aizawa said in his typical monotone voice as he stepped through the doorway.

Hitoshi and Aizawa shook hands and stepped into the living room.

"Aizawa, glad you could make it!" Mihoko said cheerfully.

You were surprised to see Aizawa, but not mad about it. "Nice to see you again Aizawa Sensei."

"Please Kubo, I'm no longer your teacher, so Aizawa is fine."

"Come and get it!" Hajime called out.

You all migrated to the dining room where Hajime served everyone an amazing curry dish and poured everyone some wine. You all chatted about hero work, Hitoshi's parents commented on your run in with that villain a few months prior.

"You took down that guy all by yourself?" Mihoko asked in a concerned voice.

You smiled and rubbed the back of your neck. "Ha Yeah, but it wasn't the smartest idea. He got some good shots in."

"Taking him on by yourself was reckless." Aizawa lectured.

Hitoshi rolled his eyes and opened his mouth to defend you but you interrupted him. "You're absolutely right." Hitoshi looked at you surprised. "It was incredibly reckless, but unfortunately the back up that I called for was taking too long to arrive so I had to make a choice. Risk my safety or risk the safety of innocent civilians." Aizawa quirked his eyebrow. "As a pro hero it's our duty to put others safety first, so that's what I did."

To everyone's surprise Aizawa chuckled. "I'm glad you haven't lost your convictions Kubo. I was just testing you to see if you had gotten arrogant."

You were surprised. "Wow...thanks Aizawa."

The night went on and you had a great time getting to know Hitoshi's parents. You all noticed Aizawa drinking quite a bit and kept asking for refills on his wine and then beer when that ran out. Mihoko was telling a story about Hitoshi getting his first cat on Christmas and how excited he was. You loved hearing stories from his childhood.

When you were all done eating the fantastic curry dinner Mihoko went to the kitchen to get the pie you had brought. Hajime and Aizawa, both a little tipsy, were discussing something between themselves. Hitoshi leaned over to you and wrapped an arm around you. "How are you doing?" He asked quietly so only you could hear.

"I'm good. Your parents are awesome. I'm having a great time." You replied in a hushed voice.

"They both love you." Hitoshi said giving you a sweet kiss on the cheek before resting his forehead against yours. "I love you."

You smiled, so full of love and happiness. "I love you too Toshi."

"I'm so proud of you two." Aizawa's semi slurred statement made the both of you look over to him.

"You're what?" Hitoshi asked.

"I said, I'm proud of you two." He repeated. "I know I pushed you both really hard during your time at UA, and yes, I did advise you to avoid attachment. I didn't expect either of you to listen to me to be honest."

You and Hitoshi gave each other confused looks before looking back at Aizawa.

Aizawa took another sip of his drink. "I could see how much you were drawn to each other, so I know it wasn't easy to disregard your feelings. But you two acted like pros, even in your first year. You worked hard and you both because great heroes. I'm very proud that you were my students.”

This actually made the two of you choke up. This confession was so unexpected. Aizawa really was like an additional parent. Mihoko has returned with pie and served everyone.

"So you weren't just trying to keep us apart because you were a jaded grump?" Hitoshi teased taking a piece of pie from his mother.

"Hey, I may jaded grump, but I still believe in love." Aizawa said running his fingers through his hair. You couldn't resist doing what you did next.

You took out your phone and started recording.

"Sorry, Aizawa I didn't catch that. What did you say?"

Aizawa slurred louder this time. "I said I'm a jaded old grump, but I still believe in love!"

"Oh my god, perfect." You stopped recording and started to compose a message.

Aizawa caught on. "What are you doing Kubo?" He asked sternly.

"Oh nothing, just sending that to Miss Joke." Hitoshi, Hajime, and Mihoko erupted with laughter as Aizawa's face went white as a ghost.

"Don't you dare Kubo!" He tried to grab your phone, but you hit send before he could get it it. Aizawa stares daggers at you. The silence was broken by Aizawa's phone chiming. He slowly checked it and his eyes got wide. "Why did you give Joke my number?!"

You threw your arms up innocently. "That I cant take credit for."

Hitoshi raised his hand and smirked. "But I can."

You gasped then smiled and gave each other a high five. Hajime was still laughing. "You two are something else."

(Part 2 posted)

#bnha #bnha fanfic #bnha shinsou #rooms on fire #shinsou hitoshi #shinsou x reader #aizawa shouta #bnha aizawa #dadzawa #hajime shinsou #mihoko shinsou #chapter 12 #part 1 #fluff

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