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You are on tiktok debating a conservative, I am shovelling my driveway listening to The Beauty Myth by Naomi wolf. We are not the same
#god I reallllly don’t like debate bros#capitalism#left wing#leftist media#debate bros#the beauty myth#Naomi Wolf#audiobooks
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Leech twins when there's a student in NRC that's an orca.
Orcas are the bullies of the ocean. Almost no one, not even sharks will bother them.
Orcas like playing with their food by slapping it around in the air like a damn volleyball, and they even go out of their way to bother humans.
Imagine when the twins are going to collect debts, the orca MC is always called in as a bodyguard for those students, and when the twins reach the scene they always have this sadistic grin on their face, like they're ready to beat ass.
Shiba, you are amazing with all these good ideas. The perfect way to torment the twins 24/7
Leech Twins With An Orca!Reader
So, these two take two completely different routes
Since the day you set foot on campus, their lives have been hell
Jade is more cautious, vowing to avoid you when possible
He thinks through the best way to handle the situation if he does run into you before deciding it's just...not worth it
Floyd, on the other hand?
He reallllly wants to squeeze you
Does he always get his ass beat? Yes. Does it put him in a bad mood? Yes. Will he stop? No. Boi is stubborn.
To top it off? It didn't even take a week for the majority of the student body to learn this
Jade TRIES to corner whatever student they need to collect a dept from whenever you shouldn't be there, but it doesn't work???
He still gets either knocked on his ass or he just doesn't find it worth approaching
(They're debating trying to make a deal with Leona to get his help now)
Ace and Deuce? They'll do anything to keep you around them to avoid the twins. Kalim? Between you and Jamil, the twins don't gotta chance.
And seven forbid you're in their dorm, they'd never get a moment's rest
Like, you now RUN the entire goddamn school
Even the students that don't actually need protection will bow down to you
Like, Malleus doesn't need your help but he also does not want to deal with the twins at all
And don't even get me started on Riddle. Floyd is this boy's nightmare in human form and you are the ultimate Floyd defence. You want to break a rule? Go for it. You want anything in Riddle's power? He's got you! You are Riddle's new religion!
The teachers also lowkey have you as their favourite student, especially if one of the twins (normally Floyd) don't want to do their classwork
Oh, not to mention they're not even safe in the Mostro Lounge - Azul refuses to instate a "No Orca's" rule, but you know what he will do? Anything to keep Floyd in line when he gets in a bad mood, or handle Jade when he's a bit too much
So it's, like, a monthly thing when you can get Azul to do anything in exchange for pushing the twins around a tad
All in all, since the day you started at NRC, the twins have become regulars in the infirmary
They're just so punchable, so it was really their own fault
(We’ll just ignore the fact that nobody is brave enough to try to tell you otherwise 😇)
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ROTB Mirage Oneshot
On vaca rn, enjoy this pre written Mirage one shot from my fic on Wattpad
𝕾𝖔𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗: 'Hey Mickey!' by Baby Tate
*𝘙𝘖𝘛𝘉 𝘔𝘪𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 *𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘶𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘭 𝘊𝘺𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘢𝘯* 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳*
"Mirage, Y/N, you two are not allowed outside of this area for the time being," Optimus tells the bots in front of him.
"What?!" The two Cybertronians in question groan simultaneously.
"Your reckless actions almost caused the humans to discover us, and for the Decepticons to find out our location. So, you two are confined here until further notice."
"Oh c'mon sir, it was just a little race, there’s no harm in that," Mirage complains.
Optimus casts him a disapproving look.
"Optimus sir, why should I be punished for his s***ty actions, I was just following him to make sure he didn't get in serious trouble," you say. "I don't think I should be stuck here with him for a long period of time."
"Exact- hey!" Mirage turns to you, and glares.
"This is not up for debate." Optimus continues before he walks away.
You climb up in the rafters while Mirage flops down on the ground. "Thanks a lot," you mumble.
"Yo, you decided to follow me," he responds, while he looks up at you. "I ain't responsible for your stupid actions."
You scoff and try to lay down on the rafters before you decide not to as the thin metal groaned under the weight.
You climb down and went next to Mirage, laying down beside him. "Sorry I guess," he mumbles quietly.
"Nah, it's not your fault," you say. "Not completely anyways."
Silence falls upon the two of you. "Ok, I'm turning on the radio," Mirage says. "This is getting reallllly uncomfortable."
He starts playing popular tracks on the radio, and the sound fills the room. You both hum the tune of the songs, and you felt your optics growing heavy, feeling more relaxed than you ever had during the war.
You decide to fall into recharge, drifting off to the darkness with the music playing in the background.
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When you wake, you find that your head was resting comfortably in the nook of Mirage's shoulder, his arm laying across your abdomen. You turn your head slowly, seeing that he was in recharge too. You stay still, not wanting to wake him, the music still playing softly in the background.
When he did wake, Mirage looks startled slightly. "Oh, uh, sorry."
You smile softly. "You're good, Mirage."
You two continue to lay there, Mirage turning up the volume on his radio. You two sing along to the lyrics of the song, mostly interrupted by you laughing hysterically at his singing skills. "I should join a band or something," Mirage says to you.
You giggle. "Yeah, sure."
You both laugh and continue singing until night falls, and Mirage and you fall into recharge once more.
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Optimus walks into the area once more and sees the two of you laying side by side, your head on his chassis and his head on top of yours. He quirks an optic ridge but leaves, deciding not to disturb you two.
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When you two wake again, you sit up, brushing your frame off. "D***, I really need a repaint."
Mirage snorts. "No kidding."
You punch him in the shoulder. "You know, I really hate you sometimes."
"Right back at ya, Y/N/N"
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Will be rewritten eventually
#transformers#autobots#mirage#transformers rise of the beasts#rotb mirage#oneshot#transformer oneshot#cybertron#cybertronian reader#mirage <33#ROTB mirage one shot
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First of all, this admin is doing way better than old admin, and as soon as somebody makes a new blog asks are gonna start going through that y’all reallllly don’t like. Like bodyshaming etc. Second, everything that’s been talked about the last day or so is immensely boring. For the love of god somebody please post some actual tea. This has turned into an argument blog. It’s not even being used for tea at this point. Y’all are just having fights that are never going to end because nobody’s ever going to come to an agreement.
I’m so tired of the sw’s suck debate to be real; it’s been played out for over a month now. Let’s talk about something else.
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Omg I've had photos of your bracelets bookmarked as inspiration! I totally forgot those were yours. They're so beautiful!! I think FOB will be a lot of fun even if you don't know their music - one of my best friends is a huge fan and says they're amazing live. I've been debating grabbing tickets to see them too but I have 6 concerts lined up next year and two more I think I'm going to get tickets for haha so we'll see. But I'm also making bracelets for holly, olivia, and eras next year!
Ohhh is notion the digital bujo thing or am I thinking of something else? RWRB is so cute and anastasia and waitress are beautiful. It's cool to connect your bujo art to your current interests and then be able to go back through and remember all the media you enjoyed at different points. I would definitely love to see any bujo art you want to share! And wow, self-taught embroidery - that's awesome!!
Sorry to hear about the awful work environment - I hope you've moved on to something better and have recovered well from grad school! 💜 Your description of everything sounds very similar to the path I've been on. It's encouraging hearing about all the art you've worked on though - I feel really motivated to start pushing through this slump and make some fun things!! I want to do some themed art similar to your bujo theming. I just thrifted a little decorative box with small blank cards in them so I might try to do some mini collages on those maybe with music lyrics.
I hope you feel better soon and can go do some ceramic painting! I'm super lucky with knitting / crafting. My mom knit when she was younger so she taught me and let me have her old needles and yarn. And in general, she's very crafty and taught me a lot of different craft things growing up. I think the collaging was a combination of enjoying crafting as a kid and liking to collect things (in this case, scraps of paper and magazine clippings).
Btw how do you like the new Holly / MUNA collab?
oh my gosh that is so nice of you to say!!! i'm hoping to make more bracelets this week + next so i can send them out with presents, but we'll see if that ends up happening or not! if i do make more i'll post some photos on here for you 🤍
what concerts are you seeing next year? a lot of artists/bands that i like toured this year so aside from olivia + holly + taylor, i don't really think anyone i particularly care about will be touring :( i did really want to see noah kahan and also bleachers, but i don't particularly want to travel travel (especially since bleachers isn't coming to the west coast at all).
notion is the digital bujo thing! i really liked it, and like it for some things, but got caught up in making everything super pretty over actually being functional :( i keep forgetting it gets dark dark here in seattle at like 3pm now, but tomorrow for sure i will take some better photos of my bujo 🤍
i hope you're able to fall back into crafty things soon! grad school really is just ... soul sucking/all consuming. i'd love to see some of your crafts too, if you'd like to share!! 🤍 i'm starting to feel a little bit better — still don't reallllly have a voice (it keeps coming in & out), but i'm feeling a lot better overall! and that's so cool that you got to learn from your mom! my mom isn't crafty at all (she loves to bake though!) and i have no idea who i picked up my love for crafts from!
i really like the new holly/muna collab! i love muna — i'd love to see them live someday, and i think into your room was such a good song for them to be on! what about you? 🤍 if you could have holly collab with anyone, who would you want and why? personally, i'd love her to work with benjamin francis leftwich again — i think about this video often, and i'd love to see her collab with the 1975/matty healy since i really love what they did on sleep tight + please don't leave just yet.
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Oh man as an aspie who clung onto the idea of autistic Nicky as soon as I watched the film, I'm super interested in knowing what people think his special interests are- I personally hc that he acquires a new one every century or so and sometimes that dictates where he and Joe travel
ohhhh ok time for my quarantine comfort hobby which is projecting upon fictional side characters in action movies! i think some of the big things for me about special interests is that they can be literally everything, and can also last for years or fade quickly! so some things that come too me off the top of my head, and although i totally think they all have a massive array of skills they’ve picked up over the years, i totally think Nicky is the one who is constantly pulling upexpected hobbies + skills out of his back pocket like ah yes. here is a perfectly executed lariat technique from 1800′s Sonora and here’s how to fix the wiring in a radio and write in mid 20th century secretarial shorthand at some point he picked up an incredibly amount of information about rare tree frogs of nicaragua and suminagashi, neither of which even Joe knew about.
but anyway. some key Interests vaguely in order of CHronology
- sailing + ocean stuff (also thanks to @captainshakespear !!! for a lot of the ideas on this one)
i am a big believer in sailor Nicky! not an expert on medieval Genova or anything, but with my preferred background of him as being from a more modest background (not everyone in history was a royal, y’all) i think it’s quite likely his family earned their trade this way (or by fishing?). (might actually write a fic as sometimes i think it’s uh easier to write out characters thought processes than describe them but anyway) i have a real soft spot for Nico the kiddo who spent hours silently watching the sea either from the shoreline or his father’s fishingboat and who even if he had to be called by his mother three times for dinner and had a hard time focusing on conversations, understood the language of sails and ropes and knots from an early age
- related to that- tying seaman’s knots
- not to phrase this strangely but. religion
there’s actually a lot of complexity to talk about with autistic people and religion/religious observance that i haven’t seen talked about much but! many thoughts on the this i might also expand upon later. Nicky eventually became a priest, even!
but i do think that in the clamor and chaos of a medieval port city the ritualism and structure of religion would have been deeply comforting. the extremely set structure or a catholic mass, which quickly becomes the only time of the week where he’ll already know almost all of the words, and the feeling of wrapping his fingers around the rosary beads and counting through the decades. his mother’s been doing her best to raise all her children in the Faith, but she sees how fervantly her youngest actually remembers his prayers and sticks to them at the same time ever day on his own and is a little surprised.
also like, lives of the saints! which are often exceedingly odd and strange, but Nico was like eh they’re Saints right they’re good this is a Normal THing to be Interested in and then lists off all the ways a few of the interesting ones were martyred over dinner.
(but also in all of this he was definitely. a seven year old constantly questioning if God was real or not or could ever be kind when there were so many bad things in the world.) (we love projection.) and also a seven year old deeply interested in death and what happened afterwards. all things die.
more to discuss later when i’m not about to fall asleep but! I think these interests lasted into his immortal life and long past the battlefield, especially as he starts to learn more and more about everyone the society and expression of faith in his first life taught him to hate. there definitely needs to be.. subtlety here, and he never intrudes on any closed traditions/is always respectful, but over the centuries he studies many, many holy texts and traditions from around the world, by himself and with Yusuf and also in various kinds of institutions and houses of learning. a LOT of religious text and discussion is surprisingly technical stuff about the practicalities of daily life or finer points of theologic debates as much as it is, like, the Big Picture, and also the finer point and big picture questions can be deeply related. anyway.
- medicine
for all that there are a lot of autistic characters who are scientists, i rarely see one who’s a doctor/medical researcher and has that connected to their empathy and desire to heal others? but i very very much think Nicky has been a medic/involved in medicine and medical research since shortly after his first death and his centuries in the medieval Islamicate world with Yusuf, and has watched the way medicine has developed over the centuries, and is really fascinated by things like biochemistry and kept really studious logs of it all.
- music esp guitar + folk music
also pretty fun to think about with so much of the history of stringed instruments linking to cross cultural trade around the mediterranean + Islamicate worlds, love the idea that Nicky has always kind of liked folk songs and music but has learned over time a number of varieties of stringed instruments starting with the oud, with his favorite being the guitarra batente and Hawaiian steel guitar with the slack-key playing style. sometimes he sings but a lot of his appreciation for music and stringed instruments especially is about the emotions that can be expressed without any words at all!
- miscellanous other things
the parts of a sniper rifle + shooting techniques, various kinds of sniper rifle scopes, buying + haggling for the best quality kinds of art supplies for yusuf, cooking, he reallllly doesn’t understand digital anything or the internet but he does like the elegance of electrical wiring and circuits, actually reads all the manuals that come with appliances for the interest value and is the one who wires safehouses to be off the grid and is just like. very good at odd household jobs + fixing things (which Joe finds unspeakably hot), he accidentally ended up as a star batter on a minor league baseball team at some point in the 1920′s and has an incredibly knowledge of baseball scores and runnings since even tho it’s literally one of like two sports who’s rules he understands and can focus on for more than five minutes (the other sport is the irish national treasure hurling), aforementioned nicaraguan tree frogs, in the last couple decades has gotten really concerned about biodiversity loss and the importance of protecting genetic diversity of species and crops, the large scale data of public health crises + antibiotic resistance, which he gives copley a long talk on basically the first time he speaks to him at all and which has copley pulling out a red sharpie and scribbling how massively he’s misjudged Nicolo di Genova, over the last few hundred years he’s become super concerned about medical + bioethics and the various technologies involved in that, stained glass window symbolism, angry birds and cooking
#nicolo di genova#autistic nicky#which i need to make a tag#the old guard#actually autistic#i hope this was what you were looking for? sorry if this has gone on for a really long time#anyway! enjoy
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hello lia! just here to remind you how much i adore you and your content. i was wondering, since you seem to be very much aboard the logince train right now but seeing as you're still captaining the losleep ship - has brain been offering up anymore rolosleep? thought i'd give you an opportunity to ramble about them, if you wanted :) have a nice weekend! - ✨🌟
ROLOSLEEP YOU SAY
well if i’ve been given an opportunity it really would be rude to pass it up-
this ship is best summed up as ‘two chaotic fools + a braincell who is coincidentally the only reason they’re still alive’
logan loves remy and roman dearly but that doesn’t make them any smarter
not that they’re dumb, of course, they’re both very smart, they just... don’t like to apply their smartness often
aka
they also lack common sense
logan helps keep them alive and they are both very grateful for this
they all have different things in common
for logan and roman it’s poetry + classic literature (especially plays)
it leads to a lot of good-natured debates between the two of them
it also leads to them killing remy a lot
if they use poetry on each other, the other will simply respond with more poetry and it will become a battle
if they use poetry on Remy, they become a gay mess and die
for logan and remy it’s video games
roman likes them too but logan and remy get DEEP in lore for them
remy likes them a lot bc they burn their energy so they can sleep and logan likes learning the strategies of them
and ofc, as said, they both like getting deep into the lore of the games and learning every thing they can about them
they have many inside jokes bc of this that roman doesn’t understand but it’s okay bc he thinks it’s cute nonetheless
for remy and roman it’s chaos fashion
all the types of fashion- make-up, hair, clothing, shoes, everything!
why yes this does include the beautiful fashion of sweats and oversized shirts
they like to do each other’s make-up and paint each other’s nails and do stupid things to their hair and if they’re allowed to go to the mall they will be there for hours just to try on e v e r y t h i n g in the store
sometimes logan will tease them about this and they’ll say ‘but lo we have to be pretty :(’
and logan will kiss their cheeks and tell them they’re already pretty and no matter how many times he says it remy and roman never flush any less
ofc... for all the good things they share... they share less than good ones too
roman and logan share overworking
roman mostly does it on accident- caught up in an idea, he loses track of time and doesn’t remember to stop to rest or eat or anything
he does it on purpose a few times too, tho, normally when he feels like he isn’t creating enough and pushes himself even when he knows he needs to rest
logan almost always does it on purpose, sadly- he’s aware of his limits, but in his attempts to keep up with work (even when he’s plenty caught up) he’ll often ignore those limits and keep working
remy has become skilled in both figuratively and literally dragging the two of them away from their work as a result
logan and remy share sleep deprivation
logan normally ends up with it as a result of overworking, but there have been nights where he’ll just... stay up. no clear reason aside from that he just doesn’t want to/can’t go to bed
remy does it more regularly
it’s normally due to drinking too much coffee or insomnia, but too much energy + too many thoughts can also be causes
they normally play video games through the night when this happens- a problem for when logan’s also up, since more often than not remy will let him join the game and then neither of them’s going to sleep that night
luckily, roman is very warm and a very good hugger/cuddler, so if he can catch either of them staying up he can normally get them to sleep or at least rest by cuddling them
remy and roman share insecurity
roman easily gets insecure over his work- is it good enough? is it good at all? has he created enough? will he ever create enough?
he also gets insecure over his personality- is he too much? is he too loud, too dramatic, too out there? does he annoy everyone?
remy gets insecure more over lack of their own work- logan’s so smart and roman’s so talented, after all, and they’re... just them. they don’t contribute anything to the world or to their relationship
a majority of their confidence + flirty attitude + etc is to cover the fact that they really don’t think they’re worth anything
logan loves both of them very much, however, and if they’re feeling too insecure he can and will Kill their insecurities with love and facts
angst aside
these bois like to CUDDLE
roman’s naturally cuddly, and both logan and remy are lowkey touch starved
they can’t be left together for longer than five seconds without ending up wrapped around each other
their friends think this is ‘weird’ and ‘kinda clingy’ but they know their friends are just jealous
they also like kisses!!
roman’s a sucker for back of hand/palm kisses but he’s happy to pepper his partner’s faces in kisses too
logan likes to kiss his partner’s heads + foreheads but will kiss the tips of their noses to Kill Them on occasion
remy just does all the kisses. face, head, neck, hands- if they can smooch they will smooch
there is a difference for lip kisses tho
logan’s normally okay for brief little ones but never more, remy’s always good for lip kisses but only sometimes down for making-out, and roman is ALWAYS down for lip kisses and making-out but he RESPECTS HIS PARTNERS’ BOUNDARIES
this does, however, mean that when remy’s in the mood to make-out logan will not be getting either of his partners’ attention for at least half an hour
for the sake of my heart i must also note it never goes further than making out- they’re all ace, remy + roman being sex-repulsed and logan being sex-neutral. they like to cuddle kiss and sometimes make out- that’s all
slightly random but important tangent: they can all break into their house and every room in their house
remy can open any window- locked or not-, logan can lockpick any door, and roman can and will break down any door/window
this is mostly so none of them can isolate themselves but also bc remy and roman often forget their keys and logan can’t always save them
that tangent aside, a new one: how they got together
roman and remy were dating first, and logan was their friend who kept them from doing every thing they wanted to do, aka, kept them alive
and then somewhere along the way... he accidentally fell in love with them
whoops
he kept the lid on it pretty well at first
but then remy one day was reallllly tired and they kissed logan’s cheek while the three of them were hanging out
roman pulled remy away and rushed to apologize about how remy gets extra affectionate when tired and they also have a tendency to mix up who their dating and who they’re not
except logan just blushed and mumbled something about how he didn’t mind and... well... that’s Gay
for a while, logan and roman were metamours of remy, but logan already loved roman and roman’s gay and dramatic and logan knows poetry so, really, it was only a matter of time before they started dating as well
i could probably say more but my wrist’s starting to hurt something fierce so i’m cutting it off there
#rolosleep#ts logan#ts roman#ts remy#ts sleep#nb!remy#hope you enjoyed my ramble sdjfkhbnsd#i just.... love them very much\#the cryptid speaks#the cryptid answers#sparkle star anon
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What characters have you cosplayed or plan to cosplay soon? :)
awww--Thank you for asking!
I’m gonna put this here just so I don’t take up the dash-- cuz I get reallllly excited talking about this stuff
So for this cosplay that I am actively working on. It is for an online competition of sorts. I am working on the Anastasia ball gown from when she sings Once Upon A December-- except it is going to be a transformation gown ( that’s if I have enough time to get it the ballgown done first, and then work on the pre-transform outfit and figure out the rigging, otherwise it’ll just be the gown).
But, if I get it fast enough-- this is ideally what I am planning. And the way I plan it will be similar to the cinderella onstage transformation in the Cinderella R&H revival back in 2013
I am making a few creative changes to the gown as well( nothing major,) to flatter my shape a bit more. The swatches -- hopefully that yellow isn’t too yellow. I uh just bought like 7 yds of it on Etsy. sooooooo... well I guess it could do well for a Belle gown-- but that’d be a big oopsy. Anyways, the velvet and satin dark blue are for the sash/bow. The velvet is the outside while the satin is the “ lining” but when tied in the back, I am hoping it flips around so that you see the beautiful satin. The same goes for the bow-- it’s just gonna look extra. And then for the gown itself, I went with a bridal satin... I have not gotten the organza/tulle yet that I am thinking of using as an overlay on the satin??? That’s still in the works-- but my thought was to create a sweetheart neckline bodice, and then put an overlay on top of it to give it the illusion that it has straps-- still working that out.
Won’t know until I have all the fabric in one place-- things change as you go. But the idea is to make it similar to how I had my wedding dress bodice-- which is the lower middle there. I have some Preciosa flatback rose Chaton ab crystals on the way-- and some in yellowish gold which ill adorn the gown arbitrarily just to make it blingy and extra and because sparkle. I am at a loss whether to add any kind of trims-- as in piping/lacey bits. I really like the simplicity in this, and that it just sparkles and the textures of the velvet, satin and tulle/organza/net[whichever one works out] all come together.
OH! and the sleeves are going to be like these wispy things. and that is in chiffon to compliment the other blues. I am SO scared that it’ll come out looking more purply lavender blue and not really blue. But that’s what dye is for!
I am so sorry I talked into a novel there. But yeah that is the most active thing. I have some other designs but who knows if the will make it into 2021? But here are a bunch I got on the face of my cosplay binder ( this also include Mark, my husband’s characters)
Tinkerbell and Terence
Zelda (ceremonial dress) & Link BOTW although I am debating Mipha over Zelda-- it’s just that this looks like an easy build.
Rydia of the Mist from the After Years & Edge ~ FF IV the after years
Porom & Caine ~ FF IV the after years
This Chibiusa-esque Sailor Moon Design I found by Azure & Copper ( I call her Sailor Neo Eternal Moon or something also it has WINGS like 4 of them! )
Anastasia ** & Dimitri
Kiki & Tombo ( I have a closet cosplay of Kiki)
Megman & Rolle(megaman would be of my own design that I combine with multiple versions. I have the idea to get my husband to program a rapsberry pi to make some moving equipment and lights etc.)
Elsa 5th Spirit & Jack Frost from rotg /// or Elsa with the Nokk ( i have this in like.... pieces right now... since a year ago?-- she was supposed to go to Katsu last year for my honeymoon but didn’t make it. However, it’s all there..... in pieces TT^TT) & A Jack Frost Design ( I combined his outfit with Kristoff’s? So like boots and fur lining etc.) I’ve also considered making Mark into The Nokk-- but that would be a crazy interpretation. Like ... think Centaur costume with a horse head or idk-- i never got into the design ideas. i would have to take a poll on cosplay amino
Nausicaaaaa & Asbel
Haru & Baron from the Cast Returns ( in their ball attire)
Helios & Princess Chibiusa (grown-up style-- so think like Dark Lady hair with the princess dress)
Groose & Zelda ~ Legend of the Skyward Sword
Thumbelina & Cornelius ( i have parts of corny somewhere and then bits of thumbelina scattered across stuff)
Lvl 10 Jester and Caleb
PHANTOM ACE ( he is in the manga and is a love interest that just wreckkkks & Codename Sailor V I have her on my dressform as we speak--- but ever since going to this Sailor moon cosplay help panel at Katsu, I have recognized the error in my ways, specifically towards the fabric!! So I would like to fix this---
I also have this design for a historically inspired version of Princess Aurora
Sailor She-ra as well ( it’s got armour for dayyyys)
Regency Inspired Rapunzel-- I tried this before and it failed. Also I HATED the gown. So I am doing it again! <3 And Eugene too
I am also making stays/corsets to help with the overall silhouette shapes of some of these --
But yeah-- I really don’t believe I’ll get to all of this. That would be insane, however, I’d like to make a YT channel that follows the making of all of this and other stuff! But phew! Thanks for asking, that was a lovely question and I enjoyed responding to it.
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#cursed#wear snow white and white diamond#poisoned apple#ask thing#nonnie asking me about myy stufff 🥺 👉👈#Anonymous#ooc#I YEAH i forgot to mention who i have cosplay#I have cosplay snow white#diamond from land of the lustrous#white diamon from steven universe#red blood cell from cells at work#a evil punk snow white#Jester lavorre#kiki#eilonwy#rapunzel#marionette from mirculous lady bug#a lot of these weren't like overly professional just closet cosplay stuff with wigs but it got the point across XD#minako aino in school uniform#elpheba-- esmeralda and belle for when i used to sing on smule -- but i dont really count those cuz i literally just pinned random things li#elphaba** excuse me#i should also say that my cosplays are on the sprectrum of looking like complete crap but with a nice wig and good makeup#or over the top decadent elaborate looking thing#and the elaborate ones are far and few between-- and there are no IN between for like elaborate and cruddy looking costumes for me#it's quite amusing#but for cons i think im gonna put together some fun cosplays for doing normal stuff like party#or like rave [if i do that] or just chillin with friends#I've done the whole to a party room-con#andddd lemme tell youu
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So I listened to all of the Side tracks and I thought I’d make a quick summary of each for those who are debating checking them out.
people who say “but these playlists have been out forever” you’re right but I’m fashionably late
They’re listed in order of my personal preference (sorry Virge)
Virgil’s Playlist:
the second-longest at 1h 13 min
pretty much exactly what you’d expect in terms of music- predominantly emo/rock songs
most of the songs seem to be about his past with the Dark Sides and his journey over the course of the series
in my opinion, Virgil’s offers the least new information about his character, as the songs don’t give us much we didn’t already know/wasn’t already implied
my personal favorite songs were Be Calm, Sally’s Song, and Ignorance
my least favorite was Sunrise, Sunset
Even if it was my least-favorite playlist overall, it’s still pretty fun to listen to bc it lowkey slaps
Patton’s Playlist:
the shortest at 1hr 4min
passes the vibe check with acoustic guitar, nostalgia, soft/soothing songs- aura of calm
gives perspective on Patton’s character and outlook on life; there were songs about his tendency to assume the best in people, the love/concern he has for the other Sides, the battles he’s currently fighting with himself/how he’s processing POF, and how he feels about his past mistakes
Like Virgil, there’s not a ton of new information, but Patton’s playlist definitely deepened my understanding and appreciation of him
my favorite song by far was Sad (not really because it was about Virgil- I just really liked the song)
I didn’t have a least-favorite song :D
but if you’re someone who likes stimulating/high-energy music, this is not the playlist for you
Remus’s Playlist
the second-shortest at 1h 5min (you thought the colors would correspond to the Side in question, but they’re actually according to length sorry)
as you would expect, this playlist is... odd. It doesn’t stick as tightly to one genre as V and Pat did. I’m atrociously bad at identifying genres but uhh it has alt pop, rock, and lots of synth/electro-pop stuff idk I’m bad at this
Remus’s playlist basically boils down to the recognition that he’s the only Side who’s truly free, and he revels in it. Also he and Roman definitely have some stuff to work out jeez
It’s also really, really funny. I laughed a lot and I was super entertained listening to it because it’s so bizarre and not-PG and Remus
My favorite songs were In The Room Where You Sleep, Ben Bernanke, Tranz, and Don’t Stop Me Now
my least favorite was probably Queef (I can’t believe I just typed out the word queef jesus christ)
If you’re willing to hear some explicit lyrics, Remus’s playlist is a vibe, if a really weird one
I can’t stop listening to Tranz seriously help me
(I loved Roman, Janus, and Logan’s playlists so much that I can’t choose between them lmao. at this point the ranking becomes arbitrary)
Logan’s Playlist
the third-shortest at 1h 6min
Logan’s playlist has pop, rap, and a surprising number of songs from soundtracks and comedians
Logan’s playlist has a clearly defined arc(!!) It tells a story that will likely be mirrored in the series proper- Logan’s feelings of being ignored come to a tipping point and he lashes out big-time before he finally begins to accept who he is and stop forcing himself to fit the narrow role of “Logic”
I understand Logan’s thought process more now, I think. What really got me, though, was how much vulnerability his song choices seemed to show, especially in the last few songs or so (I’m rhyming :D)
My favorite songs were Algorhythm, The Watchtower, Streaks, One More Time With Feeling, and Time Adventure
my least favorites were Fitter Happier and Human (the latter mostly bc it’s really, reallllly long)
If you’re a Logan stan (or someone who likes him a normal amount), I cannot recommend his playlist enough
Janus’s Playlist
the third-longest at 1hr 12min
the memes are correct. This bitch is jazzy and it’s absolutely fantastic. There’s also a fair number of songs from musicals (Chicago, Hadestown, Cabaret(?), The Jungle Book(?), uh maybe more but I’m not actually much of a theater kid 😳)
come get y’alls Sympathetic Deceit content or whatever the damn tag is called. There’s a lot of good insight into Janus’s motivations and feelings about Virgil (surprise: he misses him), and a few songs about how fun and sexy it is to be evil >:D
like Logan, there’s some hidden vulnerability that comes to the surface and it’s so wonderful. Janus has always seen himself as the protector at odds with the “Light Sides”, and now that he’s been accepted he doesn’t really know how to deal with the change
favorite songs were Black Hole Sun, When The Chips Are Down, As Far As I Can See, and Come Little Children
those songs are all fine and good, but You’re A Cad is fucking amazing I-
no clear least-favorite
Janus wins Most Committed To A Very Specific Vibe. It’s an immaculate vibe, so good for him
Roman’s Playlist
the longest at 1hr 20min (damn Roman ok)
SO! MANY! BOPS! Unsurprisingly, lots of musicals, Disney, and pop
Roman’s playlist gave me so many feelings- he was my “least-favorite” Side but not anymore
yes the playlist is that good (at least to me)
The songs convey how Roman is hopeful, dreamy, excitable, optimistic, and so, so fragile. There are some allusions to Remus that i can’t wait for the series to explore...
I am more attached to my favorites from Roman’s because they SLAP
imo the most rocking songs were Broadway, Here I Come!, Hallelujah, Holding Out for A Hero, Flamboyant, Primadonna, and Cheap Queen (edit: I FORGOT JUMPSTARTED HOW??)
cmon Roman stans ik most of you have listened to this playlist but those who haven’t ITS GOES SO HARD and then gets really quiet and soft at the end 🥺
yeah I think Roman’s is my favorite playlist
That about sums things up! Happy listening! I read through this again before posting it and I just get more and more deranged nice
(Me later today when the team releases Thomas’s or Orange’s playlist: 🤡🤡🤡)
#sanders sides#i fail to shut my ever flapping gobtalker#roman sanders#remus sanders#logan sanders#virgil sanders#patton sanders#janus sanders#side tracks#roman is so extra#his is so long lmao#i love the side tracks sm#it was a really good idea#cw cursing
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the first part of P!ATD’s summer tour (June 2006)
(THE MAIN POST)
some interviews are in this playlist
P!ATD had started practicing with Lucent Dossier at the end of May.
I rambled about Jon’s reception into the band in this post...
The first show on June 6th was in Tucson, so the band was in L.A. on June 5th packing everything up.
Brendon, Jon, and Ryan looked like they raided an American Apparel store before starting this tour ha. Brendon’s lavender & pink hoodies (and the green one he wore in August) were from the women’s section. It might have been a coincidence, but some of the band’s recognizable items from American Apparel became harder to find in some stores.
Brendon only wore the lavender hoodie for like a month. There were just a lot of pictures taken of him greeting fans after shows.
the band’s site had a fancy Moulin Rouge makeover.
they filmed the video for Lying is the Most Fun (I think that was somewhere around June 19th based on their tour schedule).
MTV’s “Panic at the Disco makes a video” segment was on in June for a behind the scenes look at the BIBIYD video.
Ok Go was a support band until June 22nd and then The Dresden Dolls took over on June 27th. OK Go had been double booked for their last 3 shows, so Lovedrug stepped in at Orlando, Myrtle Beach, and Norfolk (at which point the tour got a little wild).
the July shows were still getting upgraded to bigger & bigger venues during June.
Live105′s BFD on June 10th was one of my favorite shows this summer because the outdoor lighting was so good. The KJEE Summer Round-Up the next day was great too.
Some fans were super into analyzing Brendon’s diet. The whole “is he actually vegan/vegetarian” debate continued. Brendon was still figuring out which diets helped him to stay healthy & preserve his voice. Fans reported what they saw him eating in restaurants and seriously got reallllly into it & took it personally. Yeah, he ordered vegan meals sometimes, and he used to make comments that sounded like he avoided animal products... alert the media that he just ordered seafood. I think this apparent “inconsistency” contributed somewhat to Brendon’s image as a liar this summer (which mostly stemmed from a lot of nonsense during the Brent fiasco).
the band started doing more meet & greets on this tour.
Brendon’s wikipedia page was updated saying that he died on June 23rd. Part of the fandom flipped out and then Jon joked about it in an interview a few weeks later in Montreal. (There were a lot of dumb wikipedia updates by this point tbh. I put more about that in this 2007 post).
The stories from this tour sounded like the band used their bus as a refuge and still played a ton of cee–lo. Spin magazine even started their article on that note. Zack said later on that Ryan had been given a gambling limit. Spencer laughed to Kerrang in July that “I don’t drink or smoke, but me and Ryan have gambling problems.” He also said that “Ryan lost a lot of money to me in ping pong. It started out a $20 game, double or nothing. It went back and forth, and we ended up playing a game for $2,000, and I won, and I’ve never seen him more mad in my life.”
it sounded like the whole band was sick by late June.
P!ATD’s stuff for MTV’s The Big Ten didn’t air until around the second week of July, but it looked like it was filmed at the end of June maybe.
the 3 songs from the spring iTunes session were released in mid-June (IWSNT, Lying is the Most Fun, & BIBIYD):
OTHER DETAILS
The band really could’ve used some personal security on their spring tour, so Zack was hired and joined the band at the start of the summer tour. And just to clear up an old rumor: Chris was the tour manager for summer – not Jack Marin (so Jack didn’t hire Zack. But pretty sure Jack would’ve been a better tour manager than Chris ha). Brent and Zack also never worked together.
Some fans were confused why a “big bald guy” was always with the band at the start of summer until Zack told some people he was the bodyguard (which really didn’t help the idea that fame was making the band think they were too good for their fans). Zack definitely wasn’t running the whole scene yet, though, or doing anywhere close to what he did in future years. The stuff I heard made it sound like Zack was still trying to figure out exactly what kind of world he’d found himself in and how to deal with a mob of screaming tween girls that you don’t want to exactly alienate.
BAND JOURNAL UPDATES:
06.29.2006 - it reminds me that its not so bad.. not so bad.
good evening family.
how everything going? were doing great. just finished up the shows in new york city, they were alot of fun. we were really busy in nyc. we hosted t minus rock for mtv2, that will be airing sometime in mid july. we also had to do a photoshoot for blender magazine, im not too sure what that was for but im sure you guys will see it sooner or later. we also recently purchased a play station 2 and the game guitar hero. everyone is addicted. i suggest everyone to play it with your friends, its a lot of fun. the photo album is up on the website too! i uploaded photos i took from may, the june section will be up at the end of the month. tour is going amazing, the dresden dolls just started the tour with us and they are one of the most talented bands you will ever see live. expect what you dont expect, you will be blown away. the hush sound is doing awesome too, were one big happy family. its adorable. time for much needed sleep. see you soon.
- jonathan walker
this one was cross-posted to Ryan’s personal livejournal too:
06.25.2006
The moon bred new Atlantic life tonight.the salt burned you right out of my eyes.and secrets we’re not proud of were taken with the tide. We were all newborns with blurred vision and no sense of direction.
Today I saw cancer, cigarettes and shortness of breath.
this is why I walk to the ocean.swim with sharks and jellyfish.
I may never get this chance again.
this is why if you want to kiss you should kiss.
If you want to cry you should cry, and
if you want to live you should live.
You don’t have to love me. You already did. At least enough to keep me smiling from South Carolina to Virginia.it's for lovers (orjustfriends)
This is why I do it.
- ry
06.21.2006 - st. petersburg - supergrass
my mother has just informed me that we havent made a journal entry in the past couple days, so everyone thank her for being on top of things for us since we so busy on the road. atlanta, ga... you were incredible. st. petes, lets hang out tonite. we have all caught up on some much needed sleep. the past few days were pretty busy. we had to fly to la early on monday. im not sure if i can tell you exactly what we did yet, so i wont to be safe. heres a few hints though.. it involves fish, the ocean and one of our songs. after la we flew to ATL for a show last night which was so fun, the tabernacle is a beautiful venue and georgia has raised beautiful people. on another note, some of our crew members visited paul walls studio the other day. if you dont know who that is, he makes "grills" for all the famous rappers you see on mtv. to say the least, our crew looks pretty awesome nowadays. besides that, nothing else is new, just having fun and excited to see you guys in the upcomming weeks. ryan is doing a phone interview in his underwear next to me right now. on that note, im going outside to play. bye friends.
ps. cassie in 10 days. chicago in 16 days. <3
- jon w.
06.17.2006
it's been a storm for 17 days. everywhere we go, it rains. i feel like it's going to follow us around the whole tour, trying to ruin what we've got, but it can't. its too good, it's a pretty amazing feeling knowing that these shows are truly ours, and you're all there to see us this time. I remember a year ago when we were just starting to write all of these songs you're singing along to now, and i never thought we'd be able to be doing what we are now.I just wanted to say thank you.we're not you're average band, we've got big ideas and we love sharing them with you, trust me, it's just the beginning.
- ryan
06.15.2006 - she doesnt need much besides the cloths on her floor...
good day internet family. we have realized that a few options on our website are currently innactive including the photo album and book club. please sit tight, we are working on getting everything up shortly. we just got done playing in new mexico. we had an outstanding time and met a bunch of great people outside after the show. we are so happy to share this tour with all of you. right now, ryan, spencer and i are in the back lounge of our bus listening to third eye blind and talking about music we enjoy. on a side note, i finally obtained my first IPOD. i feel like a new person, i can fall asleep happily, listening to my favorite tunes now. we play oklahoma city tomarrow, i hope they are ready for 3 pretty alright bands to hang out with them tomarrow. as for right now, im very sleepy. i am going to sleep, see you guys soonly.
- <3 jonathan j. walker
06.10.2006 - the hush sound is soooooweeeet.
dear panic website visitors,
welcome to the new online home. right now i am sitting next to ryan and brendon, bob from the hush sound is here with us but he hit brendon in the eye during a vicious basketball tournament featuring members from both bands, so he is busy giving us foot rubs. we want to thank everyone who helped us kick off the tour in arizona, i hope you had as much fun as we did. we are doing a few radio shows in california this weekend, but we get to continue the tour on tuesday in las vegas. we also went to the store and bought a bunch of new movies to watch so we will be very busy over the next few weeks! for those of you that are planning to come see us on this tour, be ready for an eventful night, we cant wait to see you. hope you enjoy the new site, we will be writting in our journal frequently so check back. and on a personal note, thank all of you for the warm welcome, its greatly appreciated.
ps. anyone in the bakersfield, ca area, goto the hush sound show this sunday, july 11th. they will make you happy
- jon walker
I’m also condensing the formatting on the livejournal posts to save space...
RYAN’S LIVEJOURNAL ENTRIES:
June 25, 2006
The moon bred new Atlantic life tonight.the salt burned you right out of my eyes.and secrets we’re not proud of were taken with the tide. We were all newborns with blurred vision and no sense of direction. Today I saw cancer, cigarettes and shortness of breath. this is why I walk to the ocean.swim with jellyfish.I may never get this chance again. this is why if you want to kiss you should kiss. If you want to cry you should cry, and if you want to live you should live. You don’t have to love me. You already did. At least enough to keep me smiling from South Carolina to Virginia.it’s for lovers (orjustfriends)
This is why I do it.
June 24, 2006
I’m the ghost in the bed.you can touch because i can’t rest. and the lights are always off so I can mold you in the dark.i can shape and pretend.”i just want to have a good time, just like everybody else, but i don’t want to fall apart”
BRENDON’S LIVEJOURNAL ENTRIES:
June 6: caviar and cigarettes.
tucson. first day of tour. i hope you're ready. 6.6.06. oh yes. getting sick again. surprise surprise. still heartbroken. still stressed. well-versed in etiquette. extraordinarily nice. shesakillerqueen.
THE HUSH SOUND’S JOURNAL:
6/9/2006 - we are in tempe arizona at some friends of chris' today. We were also here yesterday. This is been the smoothest two days of tour ever... almost. We had a flat tire yesterday and a five hour practice... which was fun. Afterwards we went to one of the busiest malls i've ever gone to on a thursday and we totally hit all the clearance seven foot four inches signs on the way in and we had to back out of the parking garage and it took about ten minutes.
About the actual show: We played the first two nights as main support... i'll be honest the first night was not a great show... we had a million technical difficulties... like mic's not being on. or things feeding back. so we took precaution the next night and begged for a sound check... we at least got a line check... it went a lot better... needless to say tempe was a better show. The opening band the outline out of LA was not only sweet dudes but one of the sweetest bands we've encountered. You should most def. check them out.
6/26/2006 - Hey everyone!!! I'm sitting in our hotel about to go explore the wonder that is our nation's capitol... the smithsonian i believe... b/c it's free and awesome. The shows in the southeast have been so rewarding for us. Thank you so much for making it so special for our first time to Florida, Georgia, South Carolina and Virginia. Tomorrow is our show in DC and we are very excited. I'll see you guys when we get there.
- bob and the lush sounds
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1/2 so i’ve been dealing with (read ignoring) an ankle/foot injury for a number of weeks/months. i kept telling myself it was fine because there’s no bruising etc and i was marathon training and had consulted with a pod who showed me how to strap etc. in reality it’s not getting better and it’s been about 10 weeks since the original injury. the marathon has been cancelled. ive pulled back on training but i think i probably need a proper rest... i’m scared that ill put on weight but ashamed that
2/2 this is my fear because i am the first to say it does not matter and weight fluctuates etc etc which i DO believe but i also have a history of anorexia and disordered eating and find change hard. also im scared of losing fitness and having to start again.. i don’t really know what my question is. tell me to take time off? going to try and get a go app & mri scan for see if there’s any visible damage to ankle/foot but don’t know that i’ll be able to with all the restrictions atm... sigh.
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okay hi I weirdly love that you sent me this message, don’t get me wrong that is a shitty spot to be in and I’m sending you a big hug, BUT I feel like I could have literally written this myself I resonate SO much so....hopefully because of that I can say something somewhat useful.
First of all. Take a break. I mean it. Just stop everything for like...a week to start (obviously longer is fine too, but a week might seem less terrifying at first). That doesn’t mean oh I’ll take a break from running but bike 20 miles a day...no! I am also someone who has an EXTREMELY hard time giving myself permission to rest (aside from my rest day) because I will internally debate until the end of time over whether or not it’s necessary etc. etc. and honestly I get a huge sense of relief when a medical professional tells me to take a break because I’m like oh okay cool this is literally their career they know what they are talking about and I’m listening to their advice. BUT especially if you are injured and you ARE injured from what I am hearing here even if you do not technically have the scans to prove it yet, you NEED to rest. If you keep going and pushing through the pain you are going to dig yourself deeper and deeper into the hole and it is going to take WAY longer to dig yourself out. Also, especially given your ED history, I would be extra precautious about handling injuries and ensuring proper recovery. Obviously I know literally nothing about your injury or your ED background, but I would not take a lack of bruising to mean that it’s nothing serious (I’m not trying to scare you here but I feel like sometimes we need to have someone just shove the truth in our face so here you go). If it is something like a stress fracture for instance (which again, I have NO idea the details of your issue so maybe it isn’t), then you might not *see* anything but your bones would LITERALLY BE BREAKING and the more you run on that the more you are breaking them down and the recovery could move from just needing a few weeks rest to needing surgery. Not to mention the long term damage you would be doing to your body. Something I had to really, really come to terms with after I got my stress fracture was realizing I had been underfueling for YEARS and even if I wasn’t actively trying to restrict myself, I had gotten used to not eating enough and that meant my bones were breaking down more and more every. single. day. and it is easiest to build bone density when you are young and gets progressively more difficult as you age so the choices you make today are going to affect you deeply in the future. It’s easy to see it as just one extra run or one skipped snack but the truth is that for those of us who buy into those things we never really stop at one, and all of those “just this one time”s add up. And it’s not good. This past summer I forced myself to take a week off of literally everything not because anything was physically wrong but because I realized I was exercising way too much and significantly undereating and I knew I was on the fast track to hurting myself and causing long term damage.
To your second point about fear of gaining weight- first of all I have so, so, so much respect for you for being able to admit that fear because realistically a lot of us have it, I certainly dealt with it when I was injured, and even if we rationally know that in the grand scheme of things it ~doesn’t matter~ the truth is that coming from an ED background the thought of weight gain is probably going to cause some anxiety! like you said I could talk all day about why gaining weight doesn’t matter and you are more than a number etc. etc. but you and I both already know that. Maybe this is a problematic approach that I’m about to share but honestly if someone had told me this when I first found out about my stress fracture it probably would have relieved anxiety and especially given these wild times I think relieving anxiety is prob a good thing- when I had my stress fracture I didn’t workout for four months. Literally NOTHING. no cross training. no swimming. no biking. no walks. I was on crutches. I literally had to be driven to class. My activity level was at a -12. I ate almost exactly the same as when I wasn’t injured (which, led me to learn I was DEFINITELY under eating), and I gained MAYBE like....5 pounds or less (or maybe none at all it honestly was probably 99% in my head). Literally not enough for anyone at ALL to notice except for me because my pants felt a tiny bit tighter. This honestly made me question a lot of things. For one, I knew I needed to really up my intake when I was allowed to be active again. Two, I started to reallllly question WHY I felt the need to do all this activity if being completely inactive didn’t lead to my body changing much. It made me realize how much I underlyingly relied on exercise to micromanage my body. It was a lot to think about.
ALSO. I didn’t get my period regularly for about 4 years and once that stress fracture hit I made it my MISSION to get it back (and I did!) because that is a huge red flag and I knew that if I wasn’t getting it, that once my bone healed even if I was cleared to run again I was just on track to get another injury because sure maybe THAT injury healed but my shitty bones were still shitty and that meant another injury was just as likely. I decided that gaining a little weight (whatever that meant) was critical because I would much rather be a few pounds heavier than constantly switching between running and injured. Also, more importantly, I want to be able to be active throughout my whole life and if your bones are shit at 21 (when I got my stress fracture) you are probably going to be really f**ked once you are actually the age that people’s bones start to deteriorate.
The most important thing I have learned is that everything you do in terms of over exercise/under eating has HUGE LONG TERM CONSEQUENCES and it is SO easy to ignore that when you are in the thick of it because often you don’t feel those consequences until years later but listen, you do not want to wait for things to get really bad before you decide to start trying to truly, properly recover.
It’s really easy to get caught in that inbetween place of not doing horribly but also definitely not feeling as free as you could when it comes to food/body stuff. Ask yourself WHY you are scared of gaining weight and like I said, operating under the assumption that we know weight gain is okay etc. etc., realistically your body is probably not going to go through some wild change if you just take a break. Think about it, most people barely exercise and they eat whatever and they are all FINE! It’s easy on the internet/social media to feel like everyone is out running 23498239432 miles and eating kale or whatever but most people really aren’t like that and they are getting along just fine.
Also, something that helped me was realizing that I really do not want to spend my whole life constantly terrified that if I eat too much or take a break or whatever my body is going to change etc. etc. and I realized that if i don’t want to spend my whole life worried about that then at SOME POINT I was going to have to just start living how I wanted to because 1. once you start living how you want to you realize the world does not in fact end and you can have your cake and eat it too (ha). and 2. you aren’t going to just suddenly wake up one day and not care about these things anymore, if you really want to be free from it you need to make a conscious effort to live the life you actually want, not the one that is stemmed in fear
In the past year I have grown SO much in terms of food/exercise. And my body has literally not changed. I was holding on so tightly to this perceived control that was entirely unnecessary. Your body is designed to want to stay generally the same (unless of course you are currently in an unhealthy spot) and when you just chill out for a sec you realize that your body is capable of doing naturally what you thought you had to be micromanaging and taking care of all along.
I will leave you with a quote that I heard one time somewhere (how’s that for a source) “You have a lot more to gain than you do to lose”
By letting your body heal
By not making decisions out of fear of gaining weight
By eating what you want
etc.
This was long af and I may have rambled but I hope it helps. Like I said, I’m not trying to scare anyone but also sometimes feeling a little bit of that “oh shit wtf am I doing” feeling is the kick in the butt you need. (but I know it is super duper hard and I am sending you all the love and support and also hoping your foot is something minor)
So yes, take a break, talk to your dr, be super honest with them. When I had my stress fracture my dr and pt were both like ok here’s the deal- rest and eat a lot of food. so I would advise that ;)
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A Much Needed Conversation
I just reallllly needed some fluff after Chat Blanc, okay? My heart hurts for these two idiots haha. I hope you enjoy this lil reveal fic of mine though! Lemme know what you think pleaseeee!
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Summary: When Ladybug asks Chat to stop flirting with Ryuko, identities are revealed and hearts are saved.
“Chat, I-um, can we talk?” Ladybug frowned over at him as soon as he landed on their usual patrol spot at the top of the Eiffel Tower.
“Of course Ladybug, what’s up?” Chat Noir blinked at her serious expression confusedly. The superheroine paused, taking in a deep breath before grabbing his arm and sitting the two of them down near the edge. She nibbled on her lip anxiously as she stared into the green eyes of her partner. His head tilted to the side in concern as he watched her internally debate with herself, “Are you alright?”
“I need you to stop flirting with Ryuko,” Ladybug blurted out, her words spilling together in her rush to get the sentence out.
Once again he blinked at her in confusion, “Um what?”
“Sorry,” the superheroine smiled shyly before taking in another deep breath, repeating herself much slower, “I need you to stop flirting with Ryuko.”
A sly smirk spread across Chat’s face as he leered at her, “Why? You jealous LB?”
A bubbly laugh escaped her before she could stop it, one of her hands waving in the air as though to wave his words away, “Sorry Chaton, but no. I haven’t fallen for your tomfoolery yet,” her bright, bluebell eyes twinkled at him mischievously.
He leaned away from her then, curiosity twinkling within his own eyes, “Then why...?” he trailed off.
Ladybug looked away from him then, and Chat would have sworn that her eyes got slightly misty as she stared off into the streets of Paris below. She clutched her knees to her chest as an almost longing sigh escaped her, “Well... her civilian self is dating someone.”
A light blush spread across his cheeks from her words, “O-oh is she?”
Is she talking about me? Or, well, Adrien?
As though realizing what she said, Ladybug whipped back around to look at her partner, panic clearly etched across her face, “N-not that I think she would cheat or anything! I just don’t want you to get the wrong impression! A-and I definitely don’t want her boyfriend getting the wrong impression because he deserves better than that! He deserves so much better than that,” she finished with a quiet whisper.
Chat’s eyes widened as her mini-rant came to an end, “Wow, it sounds like you really care for this boy,” one of his hands came up to rest on her shoulder gently.
“Of course I do... h-he’s absolutely amazing,” her eyes drifted away from him once again to stare back at the Parisian landscape. Once again she sighed almost longingly, causing him to flush a deep, rosy red. A small sniffle escaped her and his eyes snapped back to her as she spoke softly, “I just want him to be happy, and if it can’t be with me, well...” Ladybug shrugged before standing up.
Chat practically scrambled up after her, his foot catching in his tail slightly before he stood up properly, his green eyes searching her blue ones frantically, “W-what do you mean if it can’t be with you?”
“Oh it doesn’t matter Chaton,” she waved his words away, “As long as you know now that she’s dating someone, I trust you. Suppose we had better get started with patrol now, huh?”
Just as she was about to throw her yo-yo across to another building, Chat latched onto her wrist gently. Ladybug turned around, looking up at him curiously as he continued to stare down at her imploringly, “Wh-what did you mean by that?” his words came out in a voice that was barely louder than a whisper.
“I told you Chat, it’s nothing,” she blinked at him, “Why do you care so much?”
“Ladybug this could mean absolutely everything,” the superhero practically pleaded with her, “Please just tell me what you meant.”
His partner cleared her throat nervously, shuffling her feet slightly on the cold metal. Her gaze drifted downwards before she murmured, “I may have had a small crush on her boyfriend before they got together. He’s actually the boy I’ve been in love with all this time. It’s um, not a big deal or anything though,” she took a deep breath before lifting her head up, puffing her chest out, “I’m doing my best to get over him so like I said it doesn’t matter.”
“Why?” Chat couldn’t stop himself from blurting the question out, his grip tightening imperceptibly on her wrist.
“Why am I trying to get over someone that’s in a relationship?” a small smile tugged at her lips, though her eyes betrayed that expression, remaining a dull blue instead of twinkling up at him as they usually did.
“No, no, I mean-” he shook his head slightly to clear his thoughts, his heart beating wildly in his chest, “What if I told you they weren’t in a relationship.”
Ladybug’s eyes widened in what almost seemed like hope before they dimmed. A bitter chuckle escaped her before she shook her head, gazing away from him, “No, they definitely are. I practically ensured that,” she muttered the last part, scuffing her foot on the cold metal below them as she stared down at the ground.
“What do you mean ensured it,” Chat’s brow furrowed as he stared down at her in confusion.
“Believe it or not, he actually asked me for help with setting them up,” the superheroine’s head tilted upwards to look him in the eye as she shrugged, “And I know Kagami’s always been interested in him so there’s no way they aren’t together.”
It... It can’t be. I would never be that lucky.
He winced slightly, trying to shake off the hope that thought inspired, his heart clenching tightly in his chest. Had he really asked the love of his life for relationship advice? That didn’t have to do with her? God, he really was screwed. There’s no way she could ever love him now.
“I-you-wuh, huh?” Chat stuttered and stammered, searching her face in an attempt to recognize her.
Ladybug giggled softly as a real smile lit up her cheeks, her eyes brightening, “Cat got your tongue there, kitty.”
His brow furrowed even lower as he stared down at her, “I just don’t understand. If you loved him, why would you let him go?”
“Because I want him to be happy,” she grinned softly before sitting down, patting the space next to her, “And I want her to be happy. So if them sharing André’s ice cream together makes them both happy, who am I to stand in their way?”
Chat’s mouth dropped open in shock before he sat down next to her, looking at her with awe and utter adoration, “Wow. How are you this amazing?” he breathed out.
Ladybug’s blue eyes blinked over at him in surprise for a moment before she blushed, “I’m definitely not amazing. I still struggle a lot with jealousy. I even stole Ryuko away from him when they were sharing André’s ice cream because I was jealous. I didn’t want them to kiss,” she sniffled, hugging her knees to her chest almost protectively.
“You saw that?” he flushed a dark red, clenching his eyes shut tightly for a moment.
“Saw it? I practically caused it,” the superheroine let out a derisive laugh, “And then I still couldn’t let them be happy. God, what is wrong with me?”
Nothing, nothing is wrong with you LB. Please believe me, Chat thought to himself desperately.
“Caused it, I-what do you mean?”
Ladybug shook her head furiously, ducking her face onto her knees as she muttered, “It could have been me. I could have shared that ice cream with him. But they were standing there, staring at me with such joy that I just-I just couldn’t,” she growled, pushing up from the ground as she pulled on one of her pigtails.
Chat stood up cautiously, placing a hand on her shoulder in an attempt to comfort her. His eyes roamed over her face, trying to reconcile her face with the face of the girl that he knew. The girl that he had been trying to deny having feelings for since the moment they met. The girl he had always assumed only thought of him as a friend.
It is. It has to be.
His arms came up to wrap her into a large hug which she sank into graciously. He nuzzled his face into her hair before breathing in the warm scent of cookies and cinnamon. Chat’s grip tightened around her as he felt her do the same, “It’s alright, LB. It’s okay for you to get jealous. Besides, I purromise you that Adrien isn’t dating anyone yet.”
At that, he was shoved aside, stumbling away from Ladybug who was staring at him with pure fury, “I never said she was dating Adrien.”
Uh-oh. How can I fix this? He gulped quietly to himself.
“I-I didn’t say Adrien,” he backed up slowly as Ladybug continued to advance on him with narrowing eyes, “I said um... librarian. Yep, that’s right she isn’t dating any librarians, that’s for sure,” Chat chuckled nervously.
“You knew,” she poked his chest forcefully, “You knew this whole time that Kagami was dating someone and you didn’t care?! I mean, I knew you knew Ryuko’s name was Kagami but I didn’t think you had realized who exactly she was. What is wrong with you?! Flirting with a girl when you know she has a boyfriend!”
“That’s just it,” he held his hands up in surrender as she poked him once again, “I knew they weren’t dating yet so I didn’t see any harm with flirting.”
“Oh please Chat,” Ladybug rolled her eyes, “Anyone with eyes can see that Kagami and Adrien are dating. Even if you didn’t witness it first-hand like I did, everyone’s known for a while now.”
Chat grasped her hands gently within his own when one of her fingers came up to poke him in the chest once again, “I can assure you that they aren’t.”
She snorted, “Oh yeah. How are you going to do that?”
“Because Marinette, I’m right here.”
Ladybug jerked her hand out of his grasp, stumbling away, “H-how did you-? Oh my god, I gave too much away didn’t I.”
It is her, he thought to himself as a look of awe settled within his eyes.
She buried her face within her hands, sniffling quietly before he rushed over to her, lifting her face up so that he could look into her beautiful blue eyes, “No, no you didn’t bugaboo. No one else would have been able to figure you out if they hadn’t also experienced exactly what you just described.”
“Oh my god, André? You look so different in the suit,” her brow furrowed in disbelief.
Chat couldn’t stop the laughter from rising up from within his chest if he had tried, “We really have been idiots this whole time, haven’t we?” shaking his head to stop his loud snickers, he looked down at her with a gentle smile, “I’m not André.”
“Then who else?” Ladybug’s eyes widened as her mouth dropped open in shock, “No... no, you can’t be. A-Adrien?”
He bowed to her with a flourish, “At your service m’lady.”
Her face transformed into a look of horror as she pulled harshly on her pigtails, “Of course you’ve been flirting with Ryuko. What boyfriend wouldn’t flirt with their girlfriend?! Oh god, I’m so stupid. I just lectured you about not flirting with your own girlfriend!”
“What? Marinette, haven’t you heard anything I’ve said to you. I’m not dating Kagami. I just couldn’t... Not when I’ve been waiting for you,” Chat reached forward to grab one of her hands and squeezed it gently.
“I, you, wuh, huh, me?” Ladybug’s bluebell eyes widened considerably beneath her mask as her cheeks turned a faint, rosy color.
“Yes, you,” he chuckled as he placed one of his hands on her cheek, “I just couldn’t change targets even if I wanted too.”
“Are you serious?” she whispered, her eyes searching his for any hint of doubt.
Chat merely nodded before rubbing the back of his neck anxiously, “And, well, to be honest, Marinette, I’ve always sort of had a crush on you. I just thought that you only saw me as a friend so I pushed those feelings away.”
A light gasp escaped her before her lips were on his, kissing him passionately. He was stunned, frozen stiff until she pulled back, gazing down at the ground with a deep, red blush on her cheeks, “I-I’m so sorry. It’s just your words... I thought that you, mmrph-”
Chat cut her off by smashing his lips into hers. He poured all of the love and adoration that he held for her into this one kiss, determined that they would both remember this one. Ladybug’s hands ran through his hair as he clutched her desperately to himself, deepening their kiss. When he pulled back for air, he rested his head on hers, his eyes fluttering closed as he held onto her tightly, “I love you, Marinette.”
She gasped again before burying her face into his chest, “You have no idea how long I’ve waited for you to say that to me, Adrien. I-I love you more than you could ever know.”
A feeling of immense joy welled up in Chat’s chest at her words and he pulled her head up for another kiss. When he reluctantly pulled back for air, he smiled, “And you have no idea how long I’ve waited to hear those words from you. Is it alright if I walk you home?” he asked, planting a kiss on the top of her head.
“You had better,” Ladybug giggled, “Though I think we were supposed to patrol today.”
“I think Paris will be alright for one night, Ladybug.”
#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#fic#fanfic#identity reveal#mlspoilers#loveater spoilers#miracle queen spoilers#ladynoir#adrienette
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TW Sexual assault/rape
Society question for debate:
If we normalized pegging, would there be less sexual assault? (cis hetero specifically)
Here me out...I don’t wanna get graphic but it’s necessary to explain so please don’t read if you don’t think it will be good for your pysche.
Again, TW Sexual assault/rape
So, the mere idea of a man assaulting a woman gives me a physical sensation of fear because I know how vulnerable vaginal sex feels as a cis woman, even when it’s consensual.
The idea of someone forcibly makes me think of severe pain and powerlessness.
Although I’m not a cis man, I would imagine the vulnerability level is different, since nothing is ‘entering’ them. I can’t tell you the amount of times I’ve had to ask men to adjust or stop because it hurts. I know this because I’ve experienced it.
And I’m not saying cis guys need to be pegged to feel pain - not at ALL. That’s fucked up. I’m just wondering...if pegging was more common, would men naturally realize how much care needs to be taken to feel good with internal sex? And by proxy...maybe more guys wouldn’t even think of forcing anything cause they could imagine how it scary it would feel based on physical (consensual) experience?
Pegging has always been broadly taboo and labeled as ‘emasculating’ and that just really stresses me out because it implies ‘being fucked is a woman’s job’...which has all sorts of messed up connotations about power and dignity and respect.
If our society accepted pegging more... would that gradually lessen the amount of cis men assaulting women?
**I promise I’m not trying to shame anyone into thinking all men have some deep dark need to assault people. That’s not what this is. This post is me thinking about my cis female friends who have been date raped, and me wondering why the guys thought it was okay to do that...why there wasn’t something there holding them back. Is it because they hadn’t reallllly thought about what internal sex is like?**
#tw sex assault#tw rape#please me kind and let me know if im really off the wagon#i seriously wanna have a real convo about it#even if you dont agree pls let me know!!
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I think Gamefreak said they don't want people to have to leave their pokemon behind anymore, so I believe we'll be able to transfer out pokemon over, including cloned ones that pass the legality check
Gamefreak did say that shortly after announcing Let’s Go. At the time, they were seemingly only talking about how they want to give players the option to transfer their Let’s Go/PoGo Pokemon to future Pokemon Switch titles. Whether they were including 3DS Pokebank Pokemon is unknown/up for debate.
I do believe we’ll be getting a Pokebank for Switch. If they do allow Pokebank transfer from 3DS to Switch, then I reallllly hope they give us more than 3,000 spaces. My Pokebank has been nearing capacity for a couple years now.
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Hi! You reblogged a post from @ofrunningfoxes this morning about "no spoilers or album info" and that your blog was a safe place, and I thought that meant your blog was going to be such a place as well. Now I'm seeing you debating track titles with anons. Please be clear which one it is, so I can adjust my viewing habits accordingly for the next few days. Or is it a lost cause? Thanks!
ajsdhgjksdhgjsd im sorry, i really believe these tracklists are incredibly fake so i did not consider it to be spoilers. i’ll delete the posts that are up now and keep tracklist speculation out of all my future posts. im reallllly really sorry!! i promise it’s not a lost cause
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[ nick zano, thirty-nine, cismale, he/him ] ━ hey, I just saw [ antonio morra ] walking down the streets of crownsville. they’ve lived in town for [ on and off his entire life ], and you can catch them around town working as a [ cruise ship entertainer and mc ]. i hear they’re known to be [ intrepid & savant ] and [ stubborn & irascible ]. if asked, they would say their aesthetic would be [ a crowded room full of laughter, a thumping bass, waves slapping against the side of a boat, a reassuring smile, joints rolled with flavored papers, black coffee, & intense debates about historical theories ].
aaayoo! it’s lisa and here is my new bby ant or tony. he’s going to be a quite a bit like an old muse i used to have here, PJ and i’m reallllly excited to use him because he’s a real goofball. though fair warning, his backstory is very sad and intense.
[ triggers: bad parenting/parental negligence, alcoholism, violence, physical & emotional abuse, pregnancy, drowning, & death ]
The Morra family has resided in Crownsville, Georgia for generations, each family having fallen in love with the small town a little more than the one before them. Though for one branch of their intricate Italian family tree, the feelings of contentment for their home never existed at all. Alessio Morra knew he would never find happiness in Georgia so at eighteen he enlisted in the US Navy hoping to see enough of the world to find a new place he might like to call home. The home he ended up finding wasn’t a where, but a who. Rosalie Hassen was the first woman he ever fell in love with and for several years their life was more like a fairytale than reality.
He finished his tour with the Navy and brought Rosalie back to Crownsville so they could be married; Alessio was foolish enough to believe that she would be enough to erase the deep-rooted resentment he’d always harbored for his hometown, but unfortunately, she wasn’t. Nor was their healthy, beautiful baby boy who they named Antonio. The three lived together feigning happiness for four years before Alessio’s drinking and Rosalie’s ill-temper tore them apart. In the middle of the night after a screaming match turned violent that resulted in two broken windows, Alessio disappeared leaving only a note stating it was what was best for everyone.
Unfortunately for Antonio, it wasn’t the case. His mother grew to resent her son in time, just as his father had resented the “perfect American life” his family had tried so hard to force on him. On all of them. All she could see when she looked upon her son was the man she once loved who’d abandoned them. He possessed so many of his father’s best qualities like his intellect and free-spirit, yet she could only focus on the bad ones and blamed the child for what their life had become.
They relied heavily on the Morra family for support in the years to follow, often struggling just to pay their rent and get dinner on the table. Rosalie began to dull the sense in the same way her husband used to, with alcohol. And for a short while, she’d achieved the desired effect, but the booze only brought out the worst in the woman. During her drunken fits of rage, the cruel mother often took out her anger on Antonio, punishing him for things that were never his fault. Putting him down however she could, every step of the way as he grew up.
Though the beatings and the bruises didn’t go unnoticed by other members of the Morra family and when his Uncle confronted him, demanding the truth, Antonio told him everything. At fifteen, his mother was arrested and for the first time in his life, he felt truly safe and unafraid. He moved in with his Uncle, but it didn’t last more than a few months as his father returned to Crownsville upon receiving the news of what had occurred.
It was difficult, to say the least, trying to make a relationship that no longer existed work. Alessio tried his best to be a father, but Antonio’s respect for him disappeared the same night he did and the teenager refused to take orders from someone who’d left him and allowed him to be abused. The father who didn’t take him away when he’d had the chance, knowing full well what kind of malicious acts his mother was capable of. It was his own personal resentment toward the man he’d been carrying with him for years, one he didn’t think would ever go away.
Despite Tony’s very troubled home life, he’d always been popular among his classmates, never failing to make everyone around him laugh or smile. The young boy refused to let his mother change him, to turn him cruel and monstrous as she had been, so he always did whatever he could to make everyone around him happy. Happier than he ever thought he could be. While he had plenty of friends, none of them knew what was really going on in his life, except for one very special best friend. They were the only person Antonio shared his darkest secrets with.
After graduation, Tony left for California where he attended Stanford on a full-ride scholarship and studied History and Philosophy. The choice he made to leave Crownsville was all too easy for him, just as it had been for his father when he was the same age. He left his best friend behind and it was something that ate at him for years, but he feared what his life would have become if he’d stayed in the small town he saw as nothing more than a dead-end.
He graduated from Stanford magna cum laude but was unable to find a job he actually wanted to do. A year later, he found himself working on a cruise ship unsure of exactly what to expect except maybe a little adventure. History seemed to repeat itself as the young Morra found himself quite at home on the cruiseliner, enjoying the open sea more than he’d ever enjoyed anything in his life. The passengers loved Tony and the high energy and can-do attitude he always seemed to carry with him, it was something his higher-ups noticed as well and it helped get him out of hospitality and into entertainment.
Tony couldn’t imagine a life any different, the thought of settling down in one place was enough to give him nightmares, He revisited Crownsville every few years to see his family and nothing ever seemed to change which only made him all the more eager to set sail once more.
At thirty-two, Antonio found himself falling in love with another member of the crew and it was something he never expected to personally experience. Always having believed it was the sea who held his heart, but Lydia had stolen it without him even being the wiser until it was too late. They became very close and spent almost every free minute they had together,
Settling down was never something he’d imagined, but the thought of doing so with Lydia was enough to change his mind, though knowing it was something she didn’t want he was too afraid to speak up and tell her. They had no choice but to keep the severity of their relationship a secret out of fear of being fired for breaking the company’s code of conduct, though they didn’t seem to mind as it only made things all the more exciting. They were so in love with each other they decided that one weekend when they found themselves at port in Florida, they got off the boat and got themselves married.
A few years later, they had no choice but to come clean as Lydia found out she was pregnant. Her contract was terminated early and so Tony insisted she go to Crownsville, knowing his family would help her with anything she needed and he promised he would join her as soon as his own contract was up the following year. Antonio was right and the Morra’s did everything they could for her, including Tony’s own father who helped get her set up in Tony’s childhood home. They wrote to each other constantly and for the first time in his life, he wanted to fo back to his hometown.
One month before Antonio was set to come home, Lydia gave birth to a healthy baby girl who they decided to name Orabelle, meaning beautiful seacoast. For seven blissful months, they lived in perfect happiness, in a place Tony was once sure he’d never find it. His relationship with his father even began to heal as it meant the world to Antonio that his father took Lydia and their baby in and made sure they were safe in his absence. He continued to work for the same cruise line company having worked out quite the nice deal for himself to stay on as one of their master of ceremonies, but only for special occasion cruises. Which was, of course, his favorite kind.
They took their first official family vacation together to Florida, excited for their little girl to take her first dip in the ocean. Though the trip quickly turned into an unimaginable nightmare when Lydia found herself trapped in a powerful rip current with no way to escape. By the time Tony left Orabelle in the care of his father and managed to reach her, it was already too late and he nearly drowned himself while trying to rescue her.
Her death broke him in a way he never thought he could be, as though she took the most important piece of him with her when she left this world. Orabelle was a constant reminder of his beloved wife and what he lost, but also what he’d gained. Lydia would be with him forever because they’d created the most precious thing in his entire world, their daughter. Where he is now in life is so far from where he thought he would be, but he’s come to terms with the fact that it’s now exactly where he belongs.
❦ WANTED CONNECTIONS ❦
childhood best friend — would be happy to have this be a highschool sweetheart type thing
childhood friends
new friends
college friends or roommates
family members
coworkers
other friends with kids
#crownsvilleintro#bad parenting tw#parental negligence tw#alcoholism tw#death tw#pregnancy tw#violence tw#physical abuse tw#abuse tw#drowning tw#i'm a fucking monster oooops
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