Last week I gave Twitch chat the power to throw tomatoes at me on stream with Viewer Attack. Follow me on Twitch (twitch.tv/mpsai) to throw stuff at me this Wednesday. You can use Bits for other objects such as rocks and toilet paper.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAKOTO NAEGI!!!!!!!!

tiny little portraits while I wade through art block, enjoy

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Another attack for @smangethe

As someone who used to watch james somerton before he released his helluva boss video (a video that praises a show that has been openly misogynistic, biphobic, and just generally weird about its treatment of queer and other marginalized people, for supposedly being an ICON of queer representation or whatever the fuck) i am mentally writhing like a little piglet in joy at the new hbomberguy video

eren caring for armin was like, proof for armin that he wasn't useless, that he wasn't a burden on humanity, that he could be something to someone else. and when eren left, when he returned with nothing in his eyes, nothing to say, what do you think that proved?

it was so easy for armin to direct his hurt to anger on mikasa's behalf, but his own feelings? not even worthy of expression. if eren doesn't trust armin anymore, where does that leave him?

Decided to watch the original 1978 Halloween movie and took notes on it for fun

Here are my general thoughts and reactions

Very sorry to the classic horror movie crowd but I just think it was kind of dumb how they made this very human boy invincible for no explained reason

one thing ppl don't understand abt twin peaks analysis is 1. its not all metanarrative and 2. the return isn't a cynical work just because you didn't feel happy with how it ended

most of the awful and ironically angriest people seemed like they were not regular watcher views and maybe had seen the goatman ep. and a compilation of shane's funniest anti-capitalist quotes one time lmao. anyways, 95% of the people who said the apology wasn't good enough and they're going to leave seem like someone who shouldn't let the door hit them on the way out!

right a lot of it read like i don't care about these guys or their work at all but i'm mad because umm i can be! oh no they apologized? and are making the changes we asked for? well it's not good enough they should have literally Gone Back In Time and not launched the streamer if they were REALLY sorry!!! just say you wanted something to be mad at and move on.

Maybe the last sign I needed to leave tiktok is seeing girls refer to a that Tom Holland scene in The Crowded Room as a "gay sex scene"

Like bruh are you watching it on mute XD

On the surface level it's completely ignoring the story and the fact that the character he's playing in that scene is a woman having sex with a man. Even if she considers herself a trans woman that's still not gay

Then we can also get into the fact that gay is a loose term, or that that scene doesn't have to have a category, so one could say it doesn't really matter to call it gay or not

And we can add on the nuance that this is a female alter and part of someone who has DID, and as far as we know the original body's holder is a cis man. And it would be entirely up to that individual if they wanted to consider anything sexual or romantic with the body as straight, queer, gay, or anything else, or if that changes based on who is fronting. Is it gay because all of his alters are 'him' or 'part of him' and he's a man

What I'm complaining about is not a very serious issue and doesn't have one answer because of this amount of nuance. But on the surface, as far as I understand DID, it's ignorant to call it a gay sex scene

And the reaction of these few people I saw on tiktok makes me uncomfortable because they're doing it as a sensationalized 'omg Tom Holland have gay sex scene' that seems really disrespectful to the actor and the story. And maybe it's something I'm on alert for because we've all seen how inappropriately viewers treat actors, especially regarding sexuality

Fun fact: You can find the corniest, most joyless people to ever live in the comment section of any food video

the whole 'are video games art' debate is so unbelievably stupid

like there's no one who would seriously argue that joseph conrad's heart of darkness isn't art. a lot of people would argue that it's great art.

and then the vast majority of people would agree that the film apocolypse now, based on heart of darkness, is art. and those people who agree it's art probably mostly think it's great art.

and then you get to spec ops: the line, a video game based on heart of darkness, and suddenly we have to have a debate about what even constitutes art in the first place, and whether having mass appeal devalues the concept of art, and whether having the viewer interact with the art somehow stops it from being art, like viewer interaction isn't the basis of most performance and instilation art in museums, and it's all so fucking stupid

we found a way to tell stories and ask philosophical questions that forces the viewer to be an interactive part of the storytelling medium without the creator having to give up control of the story itself, a fact that opens up whole new and fascinating avenues of storytelling that have never existed before in human history, and there are people trying to claim the stories told in this medium are not art.

I think I'm going crazy lol I genuinely might go crazy at this point

To anyone believing that Macron and his goons unanimously stand for 🇵🇸 they just cut all of the fundings of one of the country's most prestigious university yesterday for protesting against the genocide, and then pretended it was for "islamo-leftists views and extremism" along with "antisemitism" so yeah fuck it all this country can rot

Okay, so remember that concept with allura having amnesia? Ive been thinking about that. a lot. and how it related to kuron specifically-

Beacuse there are PARALELLS here. They both have to deal with a legacy left by a past version of them and they both irreversibly change as people. Kuron resents Shiro and what he represents, and allura struggles with living up to the mysticisied and glorified hero everyone tells her shes supposed to be. and its like- if they talked about it like NORMAL PEOPLE, if Kuron had ANY emotional intelligence left, they would see that they have a lot in common actually!!

BUT. at the same time. I dont think its really possible for them to do that, at least right now, beacuse a huge fuckin part of kurons trauma was caused by allura fucking KILLING HIM, and hes understandably pissed about it. and i think that allura not remembering anything would only make him even more upset, bc everyone besides him mourned and idolisied her, and constantly hearing how great and noble the person who killed you was must suck ass, and then she COMES BACK, and maybe Kuron wants to yell at her and make her feel guilty for what she did and he wants to look her in the face and tell her exactly what he thinks about her- but he CANT. beacuse she killed him, took his body from him, and she DOESNT REMEMBER.

i dont really know where i'm going with this, but. yeah. this whole situation propably sucks ass for both of them(maybe theyll never reconsile. Maybe they wont end up as friends. And that's okay!! its cool to think about tho)

Bestie, my friend, my dude, my guy, mere yaar, yOU HIT THE NAIL RIGHT ON THE SPOT!!!!

So much of post s8 au is people who could have understood one another but dont because of the trauma everyone has, and Allura and Kuron are prime examples of it.

Kuron is not happy with her at all and all this 'hero worship' around her just further exacerbates it cause she used his body to bring back Shiro. Didnt even care that they were friends, didnt even care that he was a person, didnt even care that he may have been still alive, just used his body to bring Shiro back. And he hates her for it and hates people treating her like a hero and would have let her know that she's the worst but what is the point of that? She isnt here is she? She's dead and gone and they couldnt even bring back a body to bury because nothing of her left. So really what is the point of hating a dead woman? He avoids anything and every thing to do with her, and just tries very hard not to think about her, no bad vibes here sir we are just chillin hahahaha 😎😎😎😎😎

.......and then she comes back! And oh boy. Kuron is not having a good time at all. He is still very much avoiding her. If she's in the room, he's leaving the room and if he cant than being extremely snide and just glaring at her. Like he truly does want to explode on her and many times came close as well, but than he just walks out and screams in a pillow.

Allura has no fucking clue what to do with him. She doesnt even know him, doesnt know what his problem is, and thinks he's annoying. Really annoying and rude and she knows when she isnt wanted. Like she has met some genuinely terrible people on her journey throughout multiverse and Kuron is definately much better than them but also?? He's a fucking cunt. Everyone else is on the edge around him but no one wants to talk about it. And fine! Whatever! It's not like she's curious about what the fuck is up with this guy, or why he's the only one who doesnt look at her and is either about to cry or look at her like she personally put stars in the sky. She has too many problems and doesnt have the time for some dude's hostility.

But like once she knows about the whole mind replacing thing? Either because she was told or because she remembered bits and pieces. She's going to feel so guilty about it! Like crushing guilt. She'll try to make it up to him but given that he doesnt want to talk to her and even if he did she is convinced he probably hates her and doesnt want to see hom so she just. Going down the guilt spiral. Along with everything else

And yeah I think Kuron can never forgive Allura just like how he can never forgive Shiro. But i also think they'll come to an understanding and realize that they are similar and learn how to live with their pasts without it consuming them.

let's put it this way. after this last MCC, I think the best and least discourse-y possible scenario would be for every player to get to participate in the next event... and somehow simultaneously there's a mass Twitter outage.

It's the perfect scenario. Everyone gets to play the block game but no one can "accidentally" turn their fanbase into a negativity nuke. Shut down the Twitter stans and you shut down the rage machine. Players can be as irritated as they want about their oh so terrible luck and misfortune in the block game and it stops at the stream. It doesn't make it to the bird site.

Take away Twitter and suddenly MCC has about 250k fewer problems. Take away a loudmouth, obsequious fanbase's ability to scream insults and slurs into the ether without repercussions and weirdly, things would be so much less obnoxious.

Now I just need to figure out how to shut down Twitter in a month.