i've apparently really started to lean into my aesthetic and have started collecting shiny rocks and various occult items which teenage me would have swooned over, and adult me is... well, still swooning over.

anyway i realized that i reference runes way too often in my writing to not have a quick reference so i just... bought a set of rune stones. because this is just who i am as a person i guess.

haha oh no im definitely not at all disturbed by the prevalence of leftists on all platforms who are loudly 'anti-genocide' when it comes to the palestinian cause (and a couple others at best :3c) yet the only time ukraine [ʊkrɐˈjinɐ] leaves their mouths is in critique, in stark comparison to the former or in complaint about their (american) government sending aid.

at first what i saw often was pointing out the differences in western media framing [ukraine vs palestine], and that's fair (until the words and the agenda of western journalists are used to paint, as a whole, ukrainians who have been actively going through genocide as some kind of white supremacists hogging the blanket of global attention when they kinda just want to live and have the rights to their own land, culture, names and families)

but no one is even caring to do that anymore, today bitches just invent metaphorical scenarios and people to get mad at and to throw an entire ethnos away because wahhhh i decided that you care for X but not for Y!!!.... all while doing the exact thing they are condemning. the exact absolute same and they don't even hide it but do lack the self-awareness to realise

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käärijätober day 7, prompt: auto jää

his big pink jacket and corduroy pants in the auto jää lyric video are very dear to me

Thinking of two absent fathers on the qsmp

I'm talking about Wilbur and Quackity. I know they can't log on due to being busy irl but I would still call Q a bad dad while refusing to call Wilbur that(without hesitating at least he's an ok dad to me). Wilbur canonically writes letters to Tallulah even if they may have stopped reaching her. He put Tallulah under Phil's care knowing he would take good care of her(especially with her tending to fall behind others). In all the clips I've seen of Quackity and Tilin. Yes, he loves them but there are also so many instances he didn't stop to read her signs, being distracted by other stuff or people, telling him that the adults are talking(no I'm fine with him taking her to drink it's normal on this island). To this day I still wish her custody were given to Roier and Jaiden, growing alongside Bobby, who dislikes Quackity for making her upset

Cardio said my echocardiogram ultrasound, exercise stress test, and week long heart monitor all showed no serious issues, my resting heart rate is fine, but that my heart rate does seem to rise very rapidly under even small amounts of stress (postural changes, taking stairs, casually walking around my house) and rises very high (160+ bpm according to the monitor) so now I get to be put on beta blockers to see if they work and if they do she said that is sufficient evidence to confirm for sure that it's POTS.

Obviously could confirm it as well with a tilt table test but those are TORTURE based off what I've heard from fellow POTSies so I am very thankful that she doesn't think that's necessary and will not be making me do one.

do not write another modern jedtavius au. don't do it. you haven't even finished the 90k jedtavius fic that has consumed your life for the best part of a year now even though literally no one asked for it. don't write another modern au. you're already writing a different jedtavius modern au AND an ahkmenrah modern au you don't need to make another one. please don't do it

goodnight baby love

Time to start reading The Queen of the Damned I GUESS

Okay after freaking out about alhaitham it’s time to be neurotic again that girl is freaking me out sm :D

ok this is a long fucking shot but does anyone out here know anything about. Allergies but rather than having itchy runny-nose symptoms you just feel systemically like shit. Like fatigue, nausea, vague headache, moderate-to-severe excercise intolerance, that sort of thing. But correlated to like, pollen exposure. Or just air quality in general?

The best ballpark diagnosis I have is asthma, but I've never actually had An Asthma Attack so I don't know if that's.... right. And even if it is, I can't really find good research or resources on managing systematic effects of asthma at this like... non-acute, non life-threatening severity.

Sometimes with weird medical shit like this, there's information that exists if only you can find the right keyword to search.... maybe somebody's got something?

Or even just, it'd be nice to hear if anyone elae deals with this and I'm not, like, completely insane*

*for this. other insanity unspecified.

IT'S OVER... gomens is literally like an army wife waiting for me to finally get back home and pay attention to it again. i'm omw baby

HI TUMBLR late footnote posting before i go to bed (i took a nap today........ ate up most of my time)

not a lot to talk about with footnotes today since i was Busy and my brain wasnt working pfndkmlfd i blame seven hours of modded oneblock

[184] Mumbo has built a fancy computer out of redstone

X didn’t know he could do that!

I downloaded an app that I think is meant to be used for like, detailed food tracking or something, but I instead really just wanted something with this format (color coded calendar days) so I could put in one single simple entry a day to kind of rate my day overall (based on physical health symptoms).. which..... looking back over it for the new year since when I first started tracking.. 9 "good" days in about 9 months, so roughly one good day a month LOL...