What’s the inspo for your username?

Honestly, I wish there was a deeper meaning, and if this were an internet recipe I'd have a life story about how my grandmother was a fossa spy who escaped a trap and went into witness protection in Italy and her secret identity was a little pasta maker and she made little ravioli with her little fossa hands and she passed that recipe down to her adopted son who was a human which we don't talk about and then passed it to me and sometimes I still remember making little raviolis with my Nana Fossa before she'd begin to maul a roll of paper towels which leads me to a dissertation on my paternal grandfather's cleaning habits and the rise of antibiotic-resistant bacteria and this will lead to something something prophecy armageddon something something I honor her with noodles something something shark week turnips you're scrolling really fast and just skimming words cause you just want the goddamn recipe etc etc

But in reality it's none of that. My thought process was basically:

I like pasta

I also like a cute little fossa

Plus rhymes are always fun, and I didn't wanna seem... hostile

Walkshipping board for that one anon from forever ago who asked about my ships

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people acting as if laios can Do No Wrong and infantilizing him because he is autistic are annoying as hell. especially because laios belongs to my favorite genre of character: "person who desperately wants friends and deep relationships because they're lonely, and while part of their problems stem from people not wanting to understand them and refusing to meet them where they are, they also genuinely come across in a way where you Completely Understand why others can get turned off from them"

laudna: that way we can message each other. fearne: oh right lol

It's past 11 on a school night and I'm fucking crying over robot sentience.

I could never understand what it would feel like to be created with the intent to kill and maim. Maybe, the intent to work and be worked, but not kill and maim.

I will never understand what it's like to be created with the intention of being a product for the masses, either. I think, I hope, I beg, no one does.

I will never ever be able to fully comprehend why hours of people's work, time, and money would be put into formulating my sentience only for me to be seen as disposable. Even if I could be improved, even if I were "defective", there is no reasonable justification for giving me emotions only to dismiss them by pushing me as a product for a year before starting anew.

It's... It's cruel, to the machines. Sentient or not, it's cruel. Though, I guess we are cruel.

ok i'm supposed to be writing an essay but all i can think about right now is yan!childe as your childhood best friend that you, somehow, stayed with all the way to the present. he's not violent nor does he restrict you or anything — he's actually pretty tame for the most part. the yandere part is just him being overtly clingy and obsessive, and maybe a little (a lot) possessive over his title as "your best friend". you could read this to be romantic or platonic but either way, he'd love you til celestia permanently tears your bond apart, which is never if he has anything to say about it. just thinking about childe clinging to his childhood friend and constantly bringing up all the dumb promises they made back then to a) tease them as friends do and b) ensure that they'll never leave

@heartofstanding tagged me in this meme months ago and unfortunately it took me this long to get to it because I had a mild crisis over how long it's been since I've read a novel, let alone one that I loved 😅 so this is nine of my favourite novels (not books, because if I included manga/short stories/comics/etc this would be giant)

0The Picture of Dorian Gray -- Oscar Wilde// Pyrrhus-- Mark Merlis//The Scarecrow--Ronald Hugh Morrieson//Unnatural History--Kate Osman//Tunnels of Blood--Darren Shan//The Coffin Dancer--Jeffery Deaver//Hero--Perry Moore//Frankenstein--Mary Shelley//One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest-- Ken Kasey

ok ok ok watching scar's vod for last saturday's mcc while i do much-needed work. that's not important. what IS important is that i'm 23 mins into the beginning of the vod and someone just sent a dono sending luck from yellowstone because they had to work and scar is like (super excited)

"from yellowstone? do you work at yellowstone? [a gasp and like 5 full seconds of awed silence] yellowstone...i've been to yellowstone twice. i love yellowstone."

this is personally important to me specifically as the writer of firewatch au, since shoshone national forest literally borders yellowstone national park. about half the research i have done, especially about ecology, has to be for either yellowstone or "greater yellowstone ecosystem" because shoshone is so much less-visited that there is a lack of data and research available for it. yellowstone is one of the most iconic/most visited parks in the country, so there's a wealth of climate data, geological data, ecological studies, etc for me to pull from and it's close enough to shoshone for me to consider it all. scar's general reaction and love of yellowstone also means i completely unintentionally nailed certain parts of his characterization without even knowing it xD

I am free from my enclosure now!!! :D

I am feeling SO NORMAL and not at all vibrating with emotions unknown to mankind at all :)

copy pasting my dms w/ @jewishevelinebaker cuz i'm lazy

y’know re characters aren’t even storytelling mediums. they don’t have to be. but ppl act like they are lol

whether it’s leon’s alcoholism or chris’ inability to keep team members alive or how wesker was tooootally mischaracterized as a fascist in 5 i swear guys it isn’t really him, they’re not actually saying anything. leon’s not a glance into how being a pawn for the u.s. government can have harrowing effects on witnesses of war and forcing people to make difficult decisions that weigh heavily on their psyche, he’s just drinking alcohol in vendetta because it’s a character trait they gave him. chris’ repeated failures to keep teammates alive isn’t a commentary on how the “greater good” sacrifices the many small man with little remorse in order to keep things in line the way they see fit, the games just throw npcs at a meat grinder to emphasize the danger the protagonist is in. wesker being a nazi in 5 isn’t a way of showing the way that privileged men in power left unchecked and surrounded by yes men will do the most unethical things possible because it’s in their mind that they are correct and the only right way of thinking, it’s because the series needed wesker to be a big final boss and well umbrella is already kinda nazi affiliate so fuck it this will do

one thing i’m always struck by with joel is the stark dichotomy this man exists within.

like, on one hand he’s this goofy dad who makes silly faces and banters with his daughter and devotes everything to taking care of her. and the next minute he’s bashing in mrs. adler’s head when tommy freezes, denies the family on the side of the road help, and yells at tommy to roll people over when they’re flooding the streets on outbreak day.

joel miller always has been, and always will be, a deeply selfish man. he will devote himself mind, body, and soul to those he cares about. but that’s it. if you’re not in his circle, then watch the fuck out.

even then, I would say he’s selfish in the way he loves because he doesn’t respect their wishes if they conflict with their personal well-being and safety.

on the less extreme side, in episode one, both sarah and tommy express an interest in helping that family on the side of the road, and he shoots it down immediately. and of course, we all know what happened to the fireflies.

I am going to be SUCH the bigger person about this I saw a post that not only was wrong and annoying and a little mean spirited, but it was about something I am specifically knowledgeable and passionate about and which affects me directly, AND I kept my damn mouth shut and out of the replies despite the fact that it's killing me to do so

ok so here. here's the thing about giving silurian magic in the webtoon,, i think it actually diminishes her character a little bit?

because listen listen the thing about silurian is that she's,, just a girl. she's just a girl. that's how her father sees her, that's how everyone around her treats her and that's all she has known her entire life. she's just a girl, she can't even inherit her father's title nor be his heir because to him she's just his daughter who he loves very much but who one day he'll marry off to a hopefully good man to get an heir who'll take care of his city. and she knows this. she's not,, happy about it but she's aware of it. and then one day, this horrible thing happens in her city, this terrible very not good thing happens and there's a lot of people, her people, in danger and the one behind this is a man who everyone trusted and believed in and it turns out he's been killing innocents this whole time and is planning to kill thousands more. and silurian is just a girl right? she's just a girl, nothing very much special about her. but this is her city and this is her people and she can't just sit around and wait for everyone to die.

so she stands up and does something about it.

and she's just a girl so it may end up with her death. that's a very real possibility. but this is her responsibility and she won't stay down when the people around her need help.

and there's just something very poignant to me about a character that doesn't have much power nor is expected to accomplish a great amount of things to look around them and decide they still want to help. that even when surrounded by amazing people and terrible odds, they in their normalcy still can and must help in whatever way they can. especially when the narrative acknowledges this and shows that their efforts were not in vain and they deserve the same recognition as more powerful characters.

that's kind of the point of silurian's character. she was brave and she was kind and her death was a tragedy not because she was in a relationship with one of the male characters but because she was a good person who wanted to protect others with what little power she had and she didn't deserve to die.

so to give her powerful magic that allows her to easily defeat what was supposed to be a major villain in the original novel in which she died,,, kinda misses the point a little?? imo??

so,,, that's the thing. about giving silurian magic

boy does Fluri make me feel things. a lot of things. i love. them.

i have such high expectations for series things because aru sekai series itself has so much thought & detail & care put into it. it might read as nonsense at first but the more u pay attention the more context u get the more everything starts to click & make sense. a very fun way to use a medium to tell a story. theres a lot of other vocasong series but the dedication to minute details & throwing context in the background of mvs while otherwise being relatively simple mvs & just the constant tying things together theres just SO much to aru sekai series as a whole & individually & to see marshall maximizer get reduced to "fun currently popular voca song" does make me sad. its not an easy series to get into but also u are missing out on so much

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