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#uhh idk some people dont like that!!
samgatinho · 10 months
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I’m sorry. I’ll see you again. I think. I hope.
wearing thin by @sparxwrites
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fruitybashir · 2 months
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6k per week ain't even that much..? there's writers here who do much more, why are you complaining
hi <3
i am not other writers! hope this helps ✌🏼✨️
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lunarharp · 3 months
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wip thing...
of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)
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they mean the world to me
#bg3 spoilers#?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say.....#it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me.#i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee#i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable.#bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen#makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there.#dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it#augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH????#my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way.#Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3#I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE#AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY#grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear#truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol#if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life#being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer.#Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this?#For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online#someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this.#why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness?#What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...?#hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!!#i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful.#but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting.#I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself#I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing.#I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come.#Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......
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caffeinatedopossum · 1 year
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Me when everyone is the protagonist in someone's story and the antagonist in someone else's
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dollopheadedmerlin · 1 year
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Things that have happened at the job I just lost
Got promoted to Quality Assurance Manager
Had a sexist co manager start getting people fired if he didn't like them and bribing coworkers to lie for him to back up his claims - we'll call him M
M refuses to listen when I bring up quality concerns, and then blames me for all quality issues (which is very easy to do, as I am Quality Assurance)
Our boss - we'll call him B - hires an outside general manager to mediate - we'll call him S
S immediately takes Ms side on things because they are similar ages and both a lil bigoted tbh
They are so bad at making our product that when I was out for a week, our reject rate was 40%. When I returned, within two days, I got it lowered back to 2%.
M starts to make rumors about S as well, using the fact that he is Christian to insinuate that he is a predator of some sort, with no evidence (we had issues in the past with S making people uncomfortable by talking as though Christianity was the default)
S suddenly starts taking my side, so M uses the fact that S has anger issues to poke the bear until he snaps and threatens M, causing one of our other bosses to fire him
People start to complain to me that they are uncomfortable working with M, I tell my boss, but at this point it is my word against M's and M has been guilting/blackmailing/bribing people to lie for him
One day, we are understaffed, and having trouble reaching our goals for an order that is meant to be picked up that day. B texts us saying that no one is to call him unless it is an emergency because he is very busy
I tell M that I need everyone to work on the goals for the pickup and that the people who come in layer in the day must join in on those goals. He agrees, but once they come in, he takes them to work on a different task and refuses to allow me to borrow any of them
The person comes to pickup the order, and we are not finished and he angrily demands that I call B. I do so. He says that I "should have told [him] about this hours ago" and then hangs up. But there is a delay between when he hangs up and when his phone actually stops transmitting, so I hear him scream "FUUUUCK!"
So I am sobbing and the guy for the pickup starts blaming me for everything, including not being able to find a box that I didn't know he was supposed to take that wasn't where our boss said it was left, pointing at all the bad product and saying "someone isn't doing their job" (like I said, my manager was ignoring my quality concerns), and just all around telling me off
M catches wind of how bad the situation is and tells me that he has to leave early for an emergency
B texts us with a photo of a product that was taste tested and says how horrible it is, telling us that we have to discuss the issue and find a solution before the shift ends
I reply with this (the breakage thing was false, he just did not like the change because it took longer)
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I realize that this is the FIRST time that M has not been in the kitchen with me (he never called out) and one by one most of the employees come to me to tell me that M touches then inappropriately whenever I am not there
I tell B on my way home, and encourage everyone else to contact B directly so that it is not solely word against his
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I come back the next week to find that M had tried to put in his 2 week notice that day, but B told him not to come in
I am the only manager for a while and it is hell
I find out that M had been telling other people in the building that he was my boss (we had the same level position) and that I was after his job, wo a lot of the other companies we worked around hated me after he was fired/quit
We finally promote this one coworkers who has been "in training" for manager for half a year (M didn't like her so she never got promoted) - we'll call her R
My boss hires another outside manager, who promptly goes missing - we did a wellness check and found out she is, in fact, alive but we never heard from her again
R starts calling out very often because her bf is in a coma with tuberculosis
I am the only manager most days again
I recommend two people for promotions. R rexcomends four (including my two). I advise against one of her suggestions. That is who gets promoted to assistant manager - we'll call her A
She immediately starts to try and change the culture of the kitchen, being ableist towards our autistic coworkers, as well as just straight up not doing her job
I warn my boss that she is escalating, to little support. I say that I am comfortable sending her home if something happens but ask what I should do if she refuses. B just says "call me"
Haha it escalates
I ask for to step off the floor and speak to me and she immediately starts screaming for whatever reasing (idk what she expected that to do) so I switch from "I need to speak with you off the floor" to "you either need to step off an talk with me, or you need to go home"
She freaks out, turns around, and elbows me as hard as she can in my chest
I switch to "you need to get off the floor, you need to go home"
Her friends finally get her into the lobby and I call my boss
B comes in, talks to A, talks to A's friends, and then talks to me
I tell B what happened and he says "that's not what I heard" and proceeds to reveal that A and her friends lied about what happened and A had manipulated one of the autistic employees to lie for her as well, saying I came after he and someone had to "break us up"
I am sent home
I ask if she is also being sent home and my boss says no. I say "I don't think it is appropriate for her to go back into the kitchen after that" (note that I never asks to stay in the kitchen, I just expressed that she should also be sent home), but he insists that she will stay
Ha, I get this email a few hours later
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And then this one the next day
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I go back in on Tuesday and he gives me a teary eyed apology, I think to myself that this is the last chance I give this job (it's the most I've ever been paid and I am good at it)
He says he is going to hire another outside general manager
This last chance is looking sour already
B has J (one of the people I suggested for a promotion) take over some of A's duties. I get my hopes up thinking he will get promoted, but he doesn't even get a pay raise
R resigns because her bf woke up from his coma and she wants to work closer to him
Another person resigned because she was friends with A
The new GM arrives and I decide to give him a chance because it's not his fault that B hired outside
Spoiler: he sucks - we'll call him K
I leave for two weeks to help my bf with a medical thing and when I come back, I found that they have fired someone for messing something up, despite the fact that they had made her do something she hadn't been trained to do. They hired K's cousin. And changed my position
I am no longer Quality Assurance manager because I fixed all the Quality Issues so well that product consistently turns out great without troubleshooting. They say I will now be facilities manager, and be in charge of equipment and tool maintenance and such. This does not come with a pay raise (despite me finding out that three people have independently suggested to B that I get a raise)
K is continuing to be ableist towards our autistic coworkers as well as lie about me and I am so tired of playing social warfare with all these people B panic hires/promotes that I don't say anything because I plan to give the information to B as I resign so that it is his responsibility
I decide to finally start job hunting
We move from our communal kitchen to our own building
I set things up, help them map out where everything is supposed to go, and whatnot.
I get a job offer from an interview
I finish typing up our recipe and process in full (it's never all been written in one place before) and make a detailed list of all the things that they will need to be restocked/maintenanced now that we are responsible for our own building, including links on where to buy compatible brands and replacement parts because I wanted to set them up all nice before I left
The DAY I send those documents over, they ask to catch up after the shift
B stands behind K and has K fire me
They didn't know I was going to put my two weeks in on monday
The reason for firing was "negatively impacting morale"
That's rich since M was far more than "negatively impacting morale" for months and I was forced to put up with that, A and K were both ableist, which I'd say puts a pretty sour damper on morale but alright
B doesn't even have the decency to say it himself, can't fire his oldest and most loyal employee with his own mouth
I had only been back for two weeks and they never brought the issue up with me beforehand
I just say "okay" to everything and then get my stuff
As I stood by the door, I turned around, waved goodbye, and said "good luck guys :)"
I texted our coworkers that I got fired and everyone reacted with either being pissed off or confused as hell. One person thought I was playing a joke on her
I know of at least two people who plan to quit now that I am gone
Good luck, indeed
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autistic-ace-bee · 10 months
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isn’t luffy canonically aroace?/gen
not sure what this is in response to but i could totally see that, although im not that far into it.
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meikostan · 2 years
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fuck it. vocaloid reblog game time. reblog & write your controversial vocaloid opinions in the tags
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would it be sueish if i gave a nart oc wood release
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homoeroticvillain · 1 year
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extended aitsf soul eater au ideas
weapons:
aiba: standard issue pistol with a little bug decal on it :] | meister[s]: date, mizuki [briefly]
tama: bright red chain whip | meister[s]: ryuki
mizuki: her pipe, obvs | meister[s]: herself
ota: taser | meister[s]: iris
renju: sniper rifle | meister[s]: pewter, shoko [previously]
saito: carving knife | meister[s]: himself, rohan [previously]
bibi: i don't know.... *head in hands* i want to make mizuki and her different but it is so hard :[
kizuna: very fancy rapier | meister[s]: lien
amame: trident | meister[s]: herself, maybe gen?, maybe iris??
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sollilua · 1 year
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the tunnel post reminded me that im one of the only people i know that dont hate the idea of tunnels. like?? one day i was diving (i dont use any kind of fancy equipment. only gloves, a normal mask, a rope tied to a floaty bottle to signal where i am and a kitchen knife) and saw a large tunnel under the coral and was like "omg a tunnel........ if my ears weren't hurting this much i would swim there " only to remember that i PROBABLY shouldn't go inside the Dark Blue Tunnel Of Death without any kind of oxygen and pressure training
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cinnabeat · 1 year
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i think what throws people off about kh is that its already confusing in general in that things get mentioned and then not explained until games later but then when something DOES get explained people just leave it at that. like a lot of people dont really think beyond what is and isnt told to you in game. for example how only pureblood heartless actually contain bearts bc theyre actually people who fell to darkness and emblem heartless dont have hearts bc theyre artificially made like they dont say that anywhere other than in days i think but if you stop and think about it its something you can figure out in the earlier games. you just have to actually think beyond the information they give you and people generally dont do that i think
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sweetpastillas · 1 year
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pitting fob's return and p!atd's subsequent death against each other in my head like im drafting an old harry potter vs twilight essay lol
#it boils down to talent in both performing writing and producing#the capability to take care of your voice too#fob can produce smth of Good Quality that allows people to let go of their lil dip dip dabble into n/fts#which was also their only instance so far?? i think everyone including them let it go#which is good#meanwhile vlv was uhh too shit so it wasnt It#and theres clearly no instance of brendon retracting his apologist tendencies or the foot he uses to kick the dead horse#unless of course theres Shit im not aware of idk i havent been so immersed in this for a while#relatively its also kinda like.#fob has remained a 4piece band after all these years#they have rapport with each other and know how Talk Shit Out esp with the creative process#i mean like they know how to bend their heads together and make something and talk#even rn as joe is taking a break they still remain a 4piecer they dont omit him from promo and mvs completely#in comparison#brendon can make nonsense abt being alone at the top (he has kicked people off the pedestal itself)#while holding some kind of.. ndas with ry/jon/spence/dallon#none of those boys talk about each other which is strange when they albums they put out have bangers indicative of group cohesion#meaning like.. it sound good so they work together well at some point right? what happened?#fob#p!atd#p!atd neg#anti brendon urie#i also think its so weird that now hes having a kid he'll stop singing about sex now#like you didnt stop when the allegations came out? or as you uhhh idk got married?#like ik for a fact pete can write about skinship like an unintelligible artform he knows what hes doing#fall out boy#panic! at the disco#i hope i dont get doxxed for this? i have like . school lol#im not saying fob are saints tho . theyre just pretty alright? with maintaining a public career#i assume they actually listen to their pr manager
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astrxealis · 1 year
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sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#unfortunately i doubt i will ever get therapy bcs i have this. thing. idk. but i believe in myself to just rely on myself?#and yeah i uhh can go on more about that BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF THIS sorry i suck at explaining things. anyways#humans. interesting. i am fascinated by humans and myself and i'm tired of typing now GOODBYE anyways xiv music is so fucking good#and also idk how to interact w others sorry ..... i am scared of getting close to people bcs everyone i've grown close to has ended up#leaving me or i mess up! but tbh it's better now i think and also not as bad as i think but sorry i still have bad issues with. that#me saying i don't want to type anymore and then proceed to rapidly type out so many words oopsies#pls just do not PERCEIVE ME !! unless you want to ig but idk why you'd want to do that uhm#yk i like tumblr most out of all social medias bcs it feels like i can... sort of just be my weird self here! and it's not fully nice#and i still have anxiety problems and overthinking problems and whatnot which is evident by my 100+ notifs i havent checked since#christmas but that's not the point (?) idk whats the point honestly uhhhh nvm (??)#OH I LOVE FF SO MUCH tbh it's w/o a doubt still my favorite series ever but drake/nier is also up there for sure#which i think is amazing bcs i have yet to finish a game. and ive only like played idk 5 hours of replicant and automata#and then ive already spoiled myself on important aspects of all games but that helps ngl uh. i could explain but im tired of typing#ANYWAYS GOD actually noehgjbsejhbghjes i really suck w interacting w others i really wish i were better at all that#im not super introverted or shy im just kinda awkward and anxious but im a fun person and all and idk#and tbh its interesting thinking abt my personality... some parts of me havnt changed at all from a bit (/pos) like my lively. aspect of my#personality !! i was a bundle of energy and a little annoying (perhaps unintentionally but now i think its a bit more on purpose lol)#but the only person who really sees my true self is me. and the closest to that is lune. but even i dont know who i really am#and yeah... wnvr im like woa ill make more friends !! and then when i have the opportunities i suddenly dont care anymore IT SUCKS#anyways i think i have Opportunities now again so lets see haha ?? at least uhh in school. its like 2nd sem and i dont rlly have friends#as usual haha that sounds so sad help BUT its not like im disliked im just rlly quiet and shy at school..... throwback to 7th grade tho#that was rlly the worst but also now is just as bad in a diff sense but back then i cldnt talk w my crush at ALL i didnt speak at all im so#sorry about that HELPPP I RLLY JUST CLDNT SPEAK anyways moving on in my class rn i do have a group of sorts. like#we're grpmates wnvr theres grpworks and we can pick which is nice! ive been classmates w em all b4 and theyre the cool kids#but in the more fandom sense and one used to be a close friend of my twin and of mine too by extent and then the other was someone#who knew me when i was more extroverted so yeah uhhh anyways#OKAY ALMOST MAX TAGS im DONE rambling. bye. hopefully. bye. oh god
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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afternoon happy random rambles c:
#🌙.rambles#i am. so good at talking to myself#honestly i talk to myself quite a lot huh idk i generally have sm on my mind#i love convos abt stuff like this but idk how do ppl even bring up n initiate convos esp abt these topics#with apollo sometimes we just randomly bring it up n talk for hours but idk how to do that for others#like idk i'm the sort of person i think that seems normal on the outside but fuck no i'm weird#THAT SAID THOUGH i don't care i just wna be myself in this world :c#realizing once more that i am a rather serious person. NOT BORING THOUGH I HOPE#random but i rmb when first meeting w some ppl earlier this year i rmb in call#i don't remember context but i think i said a word n people's reactions were funny#i think it was 'affinity' ????#anyways that makes me remember i'm a person that. idk my vocab is.#i use words in normal day to day convos that most ppl around me dont use ;;;;#one thing i love abt tumblr is that there r sm creative ppl here#i'm not used to knowing creative ppl irl Sigh#i love both the intricate n simple details in life but b#im not used tho to environments fit for ppl like me ig#thinking rn abt how yh i'm really a creative person at heart but i've also always been#intelligent w stuff like memorization analysis uhh maths sciences languages n academics in general#wait i rmb now back to interpretation yes#i love that sm. like yk w music w art w theatre w literature#n that's personally a core theme in my own writing. that i try to implement at least#i love thinking abt how the own things i write r up to interpretation for others#perception in general too is smth that sparks so much curiosity in me#speaking of which i wna make that gforms soon#i wna ask ppl ik questions c: just out of curiosity bcs goddamn i rlly love learning#there's no end to the things to learn in this world. to be created too#n i'll develop these skills n gain more memories until i ultimately get bored to death or smth#hehe 🫶🏼
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mothusband · 2 years
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seriously thinking about making a new blog and moving part time there. i'm gonna keep giving it thought over the next couple days but i'm just becoming so done with it here lol, people suck.
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sameteeth · 1 month
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the gide/oda and fukuchi/fukuzawa storyline parallels are crazy. war vet convinced of his conviction drags morally upright (generous) guy to his level to achieve his goal, which was formed by the trauma of warfare on the human mind
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