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growmydarling · 8 months
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a post i made about fat liberation is going around again and people outside the feedist community are really upset about it because of the weight teasing/degradation i also have on my blog. stuff like this makes me feel such inner turmoil. teasing is not directed at fat people who aren't aroused or into being treated that way. it's a form of roleplay, a way to reclaim fat shaming into sexual expression. but i see and agree that calling people names can be harmful. in these instances i worry i'm causing more pain than joy thru my kink blog and consider deleting. i don't know. i don't want to hurt anyone. 😞
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Max: Get ready for a radically new design, especially the livery. *Laughs* It's so different
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bataranqs · 11 months
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what if you are a beautiful person and i love you. what then. will you not accept this love? will you take away this joy of delighting in your presence? how long are you going to say you aren’t someone beautiful?
#delete later#IT'S ON MY BRAIN OKAY. LET ME BE SLIGHTLY CRINGE ON MAIN AND LOOK AWAY FOR A SEC.#someone asked me how i was so good at compliments and i thought tbh i'm not good i just say them more#everyone i think is pretty good at seeing good points in others and loving them in their own ways but uh#they're just not used to saying it out loud#which is such a shame#i asked some friends the other day their most valued parts of themselves before asking their least valued parts#and they all struggled so hard for the first and had many answers for the second#and as a friend you must know how painful that is. but as a person you don't know how to be anything else. laying on my face brb#and i really do think so much of that lays in language and what we articulate#i'm fortunate enough that i get a lot of love irl and also bc i chose the amazing hobby of writing fanfic#but even for me if you ask me to think of the good and bad parts it's far easier to articulate the bad#not because i don't try to think of and love my good parts but bc my bad is articulated far more than my good#and if that's the case for someone like me who's received and receives so much love than how much worse is it for the average person?#i think it makes me angry but really i'm just. idk. i know we all have our egos and self-centeredness in certain areas but also like.#a bit more love received provides more overflow for love to be given. i think. it's compounding interest#annika rambles in the tags#been a hot sec since i used that tag but really it's just on my mind so much and i don't know how to say it in a way that's not arrogant#i want so badly to know the right way to love someone ughhhh growing up is hard
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loloslaystheday · 26 days
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Hush-Hush
pairing: keigo takami(hawks) x reader
prompt: a knight and a princess. what can go wrong?
warning/s: lil bit of spiciness like a lil HAH if you squint js a lil bit. oh, there’s age gaps and ages up characters too(shoto and reader are 18 and 19 in that order)
notes: I HATE THE WORD PANTIES THATS WHY I SAID DRAWS OR UNDERWEAR THAT WORD IS SO UGHHHH
anyways idk i was feeling the need to write and didn’t wanna work on my other works and then i snapped my fingers and said ‘yes’ when i thought of this. so enjoy.
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never did you think you’d be betraying your father like this.
but his captivating golden eyes and charming smile always caught your attention from across the room. you’re sure you could even spy him from across the kingdom with his peculiar red cape.
maybe he wants to look fancier? better overall?
well, in your opinion, he always looked good. especially right now.
his head cocked to the side like a curious bird and his sharp gaze burning into yours.
“quiet, princess.”
the way he seethes the title has you shuddering and squeezing your plush thighs together as he leans in closer to whisper in your ear.
“i’m not above teaching you a lesson your father never could.” he grumbled, voice low and rumbling. you could feel it pulsing through you and send another sharp shiver up your spine before he pushes off the wall and walks away.
“princess.” a polite voice greets. a contrast to keigo.
you’re forced to tear your eyes away from your noble knight to see who’s called to you.
“the prince is ready to see you.”
you raised an eyebrow. right. the prince.
what an inconvenience.
but you followed anyway. you could defy your father in private, but in front of the entire kingdom? you’d surely be beheaded, forget being his only daughter.
“the princess has arrived.”
you immediately set your eyes on the king. he was towering, icy blue eyes glaring at you as soon as you stepped into the room like he already thought you weren’t good enough.
but you held your head high and walked with grace.
when you reached the table, he eventually looked away instead to look at the door as it opened and shut.
“ah, yes.” your father stood up immediately. you swallowed. “the best knight in our kingdom.”
“father, why must he be here?” you asked through clenched teeth.
“princesses don’t talk like that.” your mother said with a stern glare. “speak clearly.”
“well, what’s so wrong with having a guest? i thought you liked him.” your father said. he raised a brow at your reaction and glanced at your mother.
“is that right?” keigo smiled at you, an innocent little grin from the outside looking in. from your perspective, it looked so much different.
“my son.” sir todoroki gestured across the table to a boy who looked sort of similar. the left side of his hair was red and his eye was the same icy blue. “shoto.”
“oh, yes, this is our daughter.” your father gestured to you proudly. “she’s a catch, isn’t she?”
“sure.”
“shoto.”
he glared at sir. todoroki from across the table before turning right back to your father.
“yes, i would fuck your daughter.”
“excuse us.” sir. todoroki stood up immediately, his chair scratching against the floor at the speed in which he got up.
he waved shoto to follow and he did so without hesitation.
“i.. assume they’ll be a while.” your mother mumbled. she glanced at your father and nodded off to another room. “we have to go chat, too. be good.”
you nodded obediently. they walked away and out of the dining hall within the next minute which left you and keigo alone.
“so, you like me, huh?” he asked.
“i haven’t a clue what you’re on about.” you said pompously.
“now, why would the king lie?” your eyes flickered over to him as he inched ever closer. “unless it’s not him that’s lying.” keigo gripped your jaw and turned your head to face him. “are you lying, princess?”
there were many possibilities depending on the answer you decided to reply with. which would be worse? if you said ‘yes’ or ‘no’?maybe he’d suffice with an ‘i don’t know’.
“well?”
“no.” you tore your gaze away from him and whipped your head around to the right. “princesses do not lie.”
“you must be a shitty princess.” he muttered. you immediately turned to glare at him.
“excuse me?”
“i mean, you do a lot of stuff you’re not supposed to.”
“and i suppose you’re the perfect knight.” you eyed him up and down and scoffed. “ridiculous.”
truthfully, you didn’t have to listen to this. you didn’t have to let him talk to you that way.
but you liked it. you liked how he looked at you while he spoke, and the stupidly attractive grin he always wore.
“everyone’s gone.” he says. you can feel his breath fanning your ear as he places a soft kiss on the right side of your neck. “you can drop the act.”
he doesn’t have to say another word.
you’re already at your feed before you can stop yourself, head jerked to the side as you drag him into a heated kiss.
and it’s your first, but you feel like it’s all worth it.
his hands find your waist in an instant and he’s lifting you up to crash back down on the red oak dining table.
he flips your skirt out of the way and thanks the heavens you’re not wearing a corset or a petticoat. he puts his hands on your hips, tugging you into his own and deepening the kiss.
it’s the moment you’ve craved for the longest, and now it’s finally happening. in the least romantic setting, but the passion is most definitely there.
he pulls away to stare into your eyes and presses his forehead to yours.
“tell me how much you want me.” you say breathlessly. he smirks, hand finding purchase on your thigh and inching upward.
“i’m no good with words. how ‘bout i show you?”
he cocks his head to the side like a curious child. in your eyes, you’re in no position to deny, even though realistically you are.
but as if you would.
with the way he kissed your neck and chest, his free hand reaching back to untie your dress as the other hooked around the hem of your underwear to tug them down to your ankles.
your hands hooked around his neck, not having much to do with him having most if not all of the control over the situation. your moans and quiet whimpers were enough for him to keep focused.
“so pretty.” he mumbled against your shoulder. he pulled back just to look into your eyes. “but you’re so bad.”
“i’m not bad. i’m difficult.” you corrected sarcastically. he shook his head.
“looks like you needa be taught how to behave.”
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freezing--moon · 1 year
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Pretty Sky Demon
TSU'TEY X FEM!DREAMWALKER READER!
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Summary:Reader is Jake Sully's and Tom Sully's younger sister, after Tom's death. Jake and Y/n goes to the beautiful planet Pandora, and Tsu'tey happens to take a like of the Sully Female.
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WARNINGS:Tsu'tey being a little bit dick head, fluff(?) angst(?) kissing. some 'spicy' words from tsu'tey and idk what more correct me if i forgot something.
Neytiri was teaching Jake how to ride the direhorse
while Mo'at wanted Tsu'tey to help me
this guy hates sky people so much, but i can't deny hes pretty. but hes an dick head
"Not like that demon!" Tsu'tey said
"You dont explain good, thats why im failing. you mean blueberry!!" well it was actually my fault too, but he cant explain good!
"Its your fault dumb tawtute!(tawtute=human?)" ughh hes so fucking mean
"just put ur legs like that demon!"
and i did as he told me, and this time i success.
"I did it..YES!!" I said existed
"Yeah, because i helped you tawtute"
"Ur ego is so fucking big"
"And ur so annoying"
"You are the annoying one"
"No you!!"
"HEY! the both of you stop it!!" Neytiri said, and we of course stopped arguing
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I was in the forest now, all alone in peace. i was laying on the grass with my eyes closed, but theeeen. then, a big shadow towered me. i opened my eyes and i of course saw, Tsu'tey. the mean na'vi gazed at me with a grin on his face.
"Ughhhh, what are you doing here!?"
"I saw you laying here, i wanted to annoy you demon" he answered with the same dumb grin on his beautiful face..
"Leave me alone, i want some space."
"how about no hm?"
"Oh my- Tsu'tey just get the fucking away from here!!"
"Hey! watch ur tongue. or use it for something useful"
"You are so disgusting!"
"Okay" he said and sat next to me
"You hate me, you hate sky demons. why are you setting next to me?"
"You are pretty sky demon"
"And you hate me"
"i don't"
"you do"
"No i don't."
"You-"
"Enough! i said i don't!!"
"Why are you so..strange? you act mean to me and then ur saying im pretty and that you don't hate me.?"
"Because you are pretty, kind. ur smile is beautiful..and many more things"
"..i dont know what to say tsu'tey."
"Look..oel ngati kameie(i see you)"
"You dont know what ur talking tsu'tey..im tawtute, not na'vi"
"Jakesully is also tawtute, but he mated with Neytiri. they are mated forever..we can be too"
"Oh tsu'tey..."
"i got it, u dont love me!" he said and was about to stand up, but i grabbed his arm
"No!! sit back pls.." he sat down
"..oel ngati kameie ma tsu'tey, i love you."
"I love you ma y/n"
"i-can i..like, kiss you?" he didn't answered he kissed me..
"I want you to be my mate y/n, i want to spend my life with you. i want you to carry my children..just say that you want this too"
"I want to be ur mate forever ma tsu'tey..i love you endlessly"
"I love you endlessly ma y/n." he said and lied back down, pulling me next to him. and he hugged me
"My Beautiful, beautiful. sky demon"
"I KNEW IT!!" suddenly someone yelled, that someone was neytiri. she was here with my brother.
"Ugh you skxwang!" Tsu'tey said
"You guys scared us.."
"Look tsu'tey, brother..you will treat my sister right or else.."
"Jake~" i whined at my brother
"I got it Jakesully."
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I hope this was at least a little bit interesting, sorry if i have mistakes. and etc. <3
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oh great! i was listening to some taylor swift songs today and dress came up and idk why i thought about a friends to lovers scenario with yunho shsodmd so i was wondering if i could request some fluffy scenario based on that ✨ and i'll leave it up to you if you want it to be suggestive 👀
a/n: oh gosh i am literally listening to ts songs all week and that song is so ughhhh
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👤: ATEEZ Jeong Yunho
📼: Dress - Taylor Swift
genre & warnings: fluff, angst, suggestive, cursing, university au, friends to lovers au
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Your bestfriend's room has been your safe haven since childhood.
A place where you can cry, laugh, and get frustrated without any limitations.
It is also a place filled with secrets, both yours and his. Gossips here and there, talking about bitchy people behind their backs, complaining about teachers who think that they are the best even if they don't teach shit.
Everything happens inside that room.
Even your preparation for the date that your school's heartthrob invited you with.
Yunho watched you twirl around in that beautiful silky dress. It fits you perfectly, accentuating your curves and bringing out the best in you.
"You look a like a princess." he commented, your eyes sparkling at his compliment.
"You think so?" you excitedly yelped.
He stood up and kneeled like a prince, "Of course, now will you please give me the honor of having this dance?"
"Oh," you dramatically clasped your hands on your chest before placing yours in his, "I would love to."
It feels like magic even if the both of you probably look like idiots, moving around in the cramped area without music.
The moment was cut off when a motorcycle beeping outside was heard. Yunho's smile dropped when you detached yourself from him, hurriedly going downstairs.
"I have to go, Seonghwa's here. I'll see you later!"
"Yeah, see you later."
Later came on sooner than expected when you entered his place with a dejected expression. He immediately came to your aid, engulfing you in a tight hug and asking you what's wrong.
"Seonghwa is wrong. I can't believe that he asked me out on a date just for a bet."
Yunho's blood boiled at that, you don't deserve that kind of treatment.
He calmed his self down, he could beat that toothless's ass up without any problems, but right now, his priority is you.
He dragged you upstairs, sitting you down in his comfy bed and getting some snacks in the kitchen.
Meanwhile, your eyes roamed in his room, landing on a teenage picture placed at his work table.
"Remember that ugly buzzcut of mine and emo blonde hair of yours?"
Yunho's voice startled you a bit, "Oh gosh it's you. Please knock next time!"
He shrugged, "This is my room though."
He placed the tray of foods in his night stand, walking over to you to stare at the frame as well.
"Yeah, I do remember. We look so weird in that phase." you snickered, reminiscing about your past memories with him.
"I don't think so, you look pretty every time." he nonchalantly stated, making you gape at him like he just ate the last piece of chicken on the plate.
"Stop joking around." you slapped his chest, but what surprised you was when he caught it with his hand, enveloping it tightly.
"Y/N."
It's your name, a word that you hear every day in your life yet it sounded so different this time.
What changed?
"Since when did I ever joked about things like that?"
You were contemplating so hard on what to reply to him that you didn't notice the inching gap between the two of you.
Soon enough, your noses were touching, his warm breath ghosting over your lips.
"Never." you finally answered, and you were the one who sealed that kiss.
Teeth and tongues clashing, hands fervently roaming all over each other's skin and body.
The room, despite air-conditioned felt humid, the intense heat building up rather quickly.
When you pull away for air, his hands went over to the straps of your dress.
"Take it off." you whispered, "Take me."
People have always talked about you and Yunho, saying that you'll end up marrying each other.
You have always denied their allegations, and now you want to slap yourself for it because right now, all you want to do is grow old with him.
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saetoru · 11 months
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hiiii i hope you know how much i love ghe way u write haitham !!! also sooo true haitham is definitely autistic!! (me too haitham me too) i think u get how haitham is actually a quite kind and selfless person despite people think hes arrogant, egoistical and such but like if u read some if his voicelines like the one where hes asked what concerns he has he says smth not about him but how people tend to hurt themself and like cmon would an egoistical person have that concern??? also he doesnt look down on anyone its just he knows how capable he is and like ughhhh i feel like ur writing is a breath of fresh air cause like some people make it seem like hes some arrogant dude BUT HES NOT HES JUST AUTISTIC GUYS like when people say they dont like him and its just traits that autistic people usually have…. anyway thank you for sharing ur writing i love going through ur haitham tag it makes my day
HELLO HI I LITERALLY READ THIS LIKE 3 TIMES AND MY SMILE GOT SOOOO BIG EACH TIME IM GONNA TRY NOT TO RAMBLE AS I ANSWER THIS
but omg yesyesyes i agree he’s got so much pointing towards him being autistic and ppl will bash so many things ab him and it makes me so sad but also i’m like … maybe u ppl just don’t like traits that tend to describe autistic ppl idk … BUT i read so many fics of him being autistic and i see kaveh having adhd a lot in fics where they’re written to be neurodivergent and i think the authors i’ve read from so far have done such a good job of writing them and yeah. u get it. he’s definitely got sensory issues i know this is so real and true in my heart
AND HE IS SOOOOOOO KIND. i think ppl gloss over the fact that al-haitham doesn’t look down at anyone so much like everything about this man is so disciplined. so disciplined. like someone of his intelligence in a nation like sumeru could do sooo much bad but he literally just wants to have simple life where he goes to work and goes right home HE JUST WANTS PEACE. and his voice lines IF PPL WOULD JUST READ THEM. like the one about when ppl read difficult and abstruse books and then he says “jk i don’t enjoy watching ppl struggle lol” AND YES. THE ONE WHERE HE BASICALLY WOES ABOUR HOW PPL MAKE THEIR LIVES MORE DIFFICULT THAN IT NEEDS TK BE. he’s so caring by nature and i feel like even he doesn’t even understand that to some extent like i think he sees himself as a practical guy who just wants everyone to have peace for the sake of practicality. BUT HE ALSO JUST. CARES. YOU KNOW ?????????? they way it’s just canon that he’s misunderstood by ppl at the akademiya and he just doesn’t bother to correct them bc he doesn’t care to. THROWS UP HES SOOOOOOOOOO LOVELY I WISH MORE PPL WOULD SEE IT. i cannot tell u how many fics i read and then have to close bc. they just. THEY MAKE HIM SO ARROGANT AND MEAN BUT ARROGANCE =/= CONFIDENCE. he’s aware of his capabilities okay :( he’s not some condescending know it all. im just rly picky ab the way he’s written fjsjdjf so then i’m like. ok. i gotta write the content i wanna see 😔
but omg i’m rly glad you read and like my haitham writing sometimes i get carried away and make it so like…self servicing w the way i write him and the dialogue and then i get embarrassed to post it skfjsjfn but i’m very excited u like it I AM KISSINF U ON THE MOUF and also i am kissing ur brain for understanding him
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rotisseries · 1 year
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ok so like. joel shooting down the hospital had the perfect soundtrack to it because I was fucking sobbing. Like of COURSE ellie should be saved but there's just that horrible complexity of possibly saving the fucking world for more than just one person. Like Ellie I think would've said yes even if there was death, she's seen so much of it she's had to BE A PART OF IT so much this girl knows she's supposed to be more than she is and if that means dying? Of course she would. Dying is a lover to her a friend multiple lives an ENTIRE other world WHY was she living anyways. Ellie lost her ability to choose that for herself from the fireflies sure but also from Joel. I've had enough spoilers of tlou lmao I actually think I need them to feel alright Jndnwke but I know at least that at some point, Ellie finds out. Idk what happens to that information but also Joel dies and I don't fucking know if Ellie was on good terms with him 😭
Well anyways, I've seen the podcast for ep 1 and I cannot get over what they had said. That love was and is always going to be the driving force in tlou and I really think that's all you can say for """who's fault""" it was. There is no bad in the presense of love and there is no GOOD in the presence of love. I'm sick to my stomach about it anyways did you recognize ellies mom that was so fucking cool--
YES I DID RECOGNIZE ELLIE'S MOM HIIIIII ASHELY JOHNSON MISS ELLIE SENIOR HI!!! ANYWAY YES THE FUCKING SOUNDTRACK!!! WHEN I HEARD THE MUSIC I LITERALLY STARTED FUCKING SOBBING IT'S THE SAME MUSIC FROM THE GAME UAHSGJDJENFJC AND YES ELLIE WOULD'VE SAID YES IF SHE'D KNOWN, OF COURSE SHE WOULD AND YES THE THING ABOUT THIS BEING A STORY ABOUT LOVE. THE LAST OF US IS FUNDAMENTALLY A STORY ABOUT LOVE IT'S A LOVE STORY IT SHOWS THE WAYS IN WHICH LOVE IS A DESTRUCTIVE AND VIOLENT FORCE. ELLIE AND JOEL ARE TWO CHARACTERS WHO SHOW LOVE THROUGH THE VIOLENT ACTIONS THEY'LL COMMIT FOR OTHERS. AND YES YOU CAN'T SAY "WHO'S FAULT" IT IS BECAUSE THE ENTIRE POINT OF THE STORY IS THAT EVERYONE IS ONLY EVER TRYING TO DO WHAT THEY THINK IS THE RIGHT DECISION. IN JOEL'S POSITION YOU WOULD DO WHAT HE DID, IN MARLENE'S YOU'D DO WHAT SHE DOES, IF YOU WERE THE DOCTOR YOU'D DO WHAT HE DOES. EVERYONE HAS DONE SOMETHING TERRIBLE TO SOMEONE AND SOMETHING GREAT TO SOMEONE ELSE. SOME PEOPLE TRY TO ARGUE ABOUT JOEL HAVING ACTUALLY BEEN IN THE RIGHT. LIKE THEY'LL TALK ABOUT WHY THEY THINK THE FIREFLIES WERE BAD OR COULDN'T REALLY MAKE A CURE, SO JOEL WAS ACTUALLY THE CORRECT ONE. BUT I HATE THAT TAKE BECAUSE IT CHEAPENS THE STORY AND JOEL'S CHARACTER!! JOEL ISN'T DOING THIS BECAUSE HE THINKS THE FIREFLIES ARE BAD. HE ISN'T SECRETLY THE HERO. IT'S A MODERN TROLLEY PROBLEM. LET 5 PEOPLE DIE OR KILL ONE BUT THE ONE IS YOUR DAUGHTER. HE GOT THE CHANCE TO DO SOMETHING HE COULDN'T DO AT THE BEGINNING OF THE STORY. HE GOT TO SAVE HIS DAUGHTER. AND WHAT HE DID WAS WRONG HE KNEW SHE WOULD'VE WANTED IT AND HE DAMNED THE WORLD AND HE KNOWS IT. WHAT HE DID WAS OBJECTIVELY BAD BUT HE DID IT FOR LOVE!!! AND THAT IS SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING AND SO MUCH BETTER THAN THERE BEING A RIGHT OR WRONG ANSWER!!! AND THAT CONTINUES INTO PART 2!!!!! UGHHHH OH I'M SICK
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bonesandthebees · 1 year
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Hi Bones!
Thanks for the soundtrack recs! I'm super excited to listen to them all.
I was out of town, but I got to try Thai tea! There was a little chai shop where I was visiting with my friends, so I decided to try it. It was pretty strong, but it was good! I shared it with my friend who absolutely loved it.
Also, I just saw that you answered my ask from Chapter 16 right after I finished reading Chapter 17, which is really funny. I went on tumblr to comment on the new chapter and went "oh yay! My ask from Chapter 16!"
I really appreciate you answering that ask because I know authors/bloggers are not at all obligated to respond to everybody's ask, so to see you still responding to asks from a bit ago is really cool. I love that you actively engage in asks/your fans.
I'm glad that your religious trauma was not as severe as Wilbur's clearly is, but it's also cool that you're able to basically amplify the knowledge that you have on that subject to create such a complex character.
ANYWAY, onto chapter 17
I swear, every time there's a scene of Wilbur questioning his purpose/Clara it's programmed into my head like "welp, gotta go look back and see when he switches from 'The Pythia' to 'Wilbur'". It's basically a game at this point.
And the sandduo scene at the end. I wanted to cry, it was so amazing. Idk how you do it, Bones, but just the emotion in that scene is ughhhh a;lskdfjalsdkfjals;kjf. It's like you could physically feel the relief that Wilbur was feeling. Idk how to describe it, but the floodgates opened and it was almost like a waterfall of "ahhhh finally, Wilbur is healing".
Great chapter! Have a nice day!
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I'm glad you enjoyed the thai tea!! it's definitely one of my favorite drinks but I'm very particular with how I like it too.
I try to answer all analysis asks for a glass chapter before I post the next one, but sometimes I don't have enough time to answer the asks before I want to post the chapter like what happened with chapter 17 lol. but yes I love seeing your guys thoughts on my fics!! it's such a huge compliment to me that you guys are thinking about my writing so much if that makes sense.
I used to try and answer every ask I got, but it's long since become too overwhelming, I have so many asks in my inbox nowadays. I still try to answer as many as I can especially the analysis asks, but if I don't get to an ask of yours I'm very sorry my inbox is just very stuffed
LMAO yeah these days you gotta watch for the switches. they're only gonna become more frequent.
I'm so glad you enjoyed, especially that final scene. I really loved writing it. I love glass!sandduo :)
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tuiyla · 2 years
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You think Santana never found out about the Mayan wedding? (this sounds like I'm calling you stupid lol please know that's not what I mean at all! I just want to know your thoughts) I always assumed Tina or someone would have told her. Although if she did know then how would Sam continue being alive🤔 I can't believe Brittany's first marriage wasn't even with Santana 😭 I can't believe flopson has some sort of a career in hollywood
That's a good point, s4 one-sided Santina feud wouldn't stand for Santana living in blissful ignorance lol. Imagine this: Tina's attempt at "getting back at" Santana backfires. Because of her "one word: Bram. gotta go hon" Santana is back at McKinley yet again and performing Nutbush, not what Tina wants when she's trying to prove she's the divaest of all. So, blinded by pettiness and maybe getting wind of Santana wanting Britt back, she lets it slide to Santana (with a smirk on of course).
"Oh, didn't you hear? Sam and Brittany got married just before Christmas. That's right, married."
And Tina's really proud of herself for a second because Santana's been stealing her thunder all year and this is her gotcha moment (for some reason lol). But instead of Santana being pissed, she just... starts crying. And Tina's like, shit, she doesn't know what to do here. Except she does, because suddenly the one-sided feud even Santana "psychic third eye" Lopez is unaware of doesn't seem that important.
I don't think Santina would actually have a heart-to-heart here but you're right, why wouldn't Tina tell her? Even putting the ridiculous and beloved feud apart, Santinacedes have their gossip line going. So Tina's bound to blurt it out to both of Bram's past significant others that the two (kinda, almost, not really) got married. Suffice to say Santana takes it way more seriously, and personally, than Mercedes does.
Luckily it was just a joke wedding because Sheldon the king stepped in but, within the show's logic, Bram fully believe they're married for like what, a week? And Brittany can explain it away to Santana and not that Santana had any entitlement to her anyway at that point but, I mean, fuck, it's gotta still hurt you know? I don't believe for a second Santana wouldn't spiral over it even just a little bit. Imagine if your ex who you've been in love with for years and only broke up with due to long distance told you she got married to a dude she'd been dating for a literal week.
Oh and to answer the question itself, whether Santana ever found out about the Mayan wedding... Idk. Probably? Sooner or later? It does hugely matter how, though, because it's different to find out from Tina as Bram are actively dating and to, say, hear a throwaway line form Britt when Brittana are engaged/married. But she'd be hurt either way. Well at least thank fuck Brittany had one actual marriage and one marriage only. Focusing on the happy thought of Brittana being wives instead of the utter insult of the Mayan wedding lol.
On the note of Flopson, ughhhh. I wish no ill on him as a person but god do I wish he stayed far, far away from Glee. What a gigantic flop of a screenwriter I hate almost every single thing he did.
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get to know me game (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅ ☆
tagged by the cutest! person! alive! : @loves0ft
tagging:♡ @evenofmyday ♡ chatoyervictoria ♡ junez ♡ yukicrossu ♡ @pssionfruits ♡ @guhara ♡@soulazul ♡ @un1over ♡
birthday: november 9
favourite colour: lavender and periwinkle
do you have pets?: no but my sister has a dog named nikko. we look after him sometimes, so that's the closest i have to a pet
how tall are you?: like 5'4?
how many pairs of shoes do you own?: that i regular wear, 3. i have a few more but i never wear them
favourite song: atm big flirt by lil hero and it's a wrap by mariah carey ft mary j blige, shooting star by xg
favourite movie: i dont watch movies. but lol i'd have to say white chicks or rush hour
who would be your ideal partner?: i feel like that closest would be, if you know who stephanie soo is, her cousin dan dan 🤭🥰 that type of personality i love. i could spend the rest of my life with someone like him
do you want children?: i keep going back and forth with it. idk. i feel like i need to be in a serious relationship and be married to have a final answer
have you gotten in trouble with the law?: lol does running a redlight count?
what colour socks are you wearing?: orange with lighting bolts
favourite type of music: pop, kpop, rap, old school reggaeton, the old mexican music every parents likes, like marco antonio solis, stuff like that. ig ive been listening to more bandas too.
how many pillows do you sleep with?: i use a body pillow as a pillow... i used to have pillows but idk what happened to them, and i keep putting off buying pillows
what position do you sleep in?:  my sides or fetal position. im trying to force myself to sleep on my back bc i heard that good for you, but i sleep better on my sides/fetal
what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: i takes me a while for me to sleep. or when i'm about to fall asleep my leg fucking jolts and im awake, so thats a recent thing thats been happening to me sometimes
what do you have for breakfast: i don't usually eat breakfast. but if i have something, its usually a match iced tea / iced chai tea latte from starbucks with something from their bakery
have you ever tried archery?: in school for gym class... i fucking sucked at it. but on wii sports... i'm the baddest bitch
favourite fruit: starfuits, cherries, strawberries, mangos, peaches, kiwis, mandarines 🤤
are you a good liar?: yes? no? idk ig i am
what’s your personality type?: idk, bc every time i take that damn quiz it always changes!!! like how can ive gotten intp, infp, enfp, istp, isfp like?!?!!?
innie or outie?: innie
left handed or right handed?: right
favourite food: sopes!!! or pupusas!!! fuckin loves those
favourite foreign food: i love thai food. everything ive tried is just sooo good. ughhhh!! Phở too!
am i clean or messy?: hehe i say im organized messy, but ppl say im clean. bc i am but the only thing that i have that is 'messy' is my bed, bc i never make it... and even that isnt messy, but my mexican parents say otherwise
most used phrase: 
how long does it take for you to get ready: depending. when i work at the school, about 30-40 minutes. but when i work at the clubhouse, about 10-15 minutes.
do you talk to yourself?: hehe yeah
do you sing to yourself?: only when i'm alone or in my car
are you a good singer?: i dont think so. id say average but i dont sing in front of anyone to know if i am
biggest fear?: idk, i feel like anything if i overthink it. heights?? but i like rollercoasters... but i'll get dizzy if i look over the second floor of a mall... going to the top of the willis tower made me dizzy. the deep ocean 😳
are you a gossip?: no, but ppl tell me gossip so i hear it regardless
do you like long or short hair?: both are nice
favourite school subject: english or social studies. art
extrovert or introvert: introvert
what makes you nervous: having ppl look at me. i hate making eye contact with ppl. but like if im ordering something i will look at the cashier, i'm not a dickhead. just hate looking at ppl or ppl looking at me in passing, especially when im driving
who was your first real crush?:  this guy named martin in first grade. i thought he was cute. lol but apparently we dated but i NEVER spoked to him or had a class with him. sooo... idk how we dated, but a classmate of ours told me in sixth grade that we did, and that threw me off, bc like i said, i never spoke to him. lol so i technically cheated on him like three times without knowing... sorry man
how many piercings?: seven atm. i wanna get my collar bones and maybe like one more ear piercing but idk what yet
how many tattoos?: none yet bc i still live with my parents and i feel like they will kick me out if i do
how fast can you run?: idk i dont have a reason to run. id say average??!??
what colour is your hair?: dark brown and blonde. im forcing myself to grow it out bc i fucked it up too much. wigs have been helping me fight the urge but i still wanna dye it!!!
what colour are your eyes?: dark brown
what makes you angry: those fucking bright led headlights!!!! i hate those things. that shit shouldnt be legal, its distracting, and i will bash your lights you dickhead
do you like your name?: i used to hate it bc i make me think of old white ladies but now im okay with it. i like my middle name or the nicknames my nephews used to call me when they were first starting to talk
do you want a boy or a girl as a child?: idc but i have i strong feeling that, if i do have kids, my first one will be a girl. idk why but i'm calling it
what are your strengths?: i'm a good listener, i have a good patience
what are your weaknesses?: i get annoyed easily
what is the colour of your bedspread?:  white
colour of your room: white
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mayhasopinions · 1 year
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aight on second thought instead of waiting for asks for the TOH ask game i'm just gonna answer all of em right here!!
Favorite episode of season 1? Hmm a tie between Understanding Willow and Agony of a Witch
Favorite episode of season 2? Oooh this is a hard one, there are so many exceptional episodes this season, but I think I have to go for Knock-Knock-Knockin' On Hooty's Door, for the Lumity canonisation ofc but my favorite part was Eda's dream sequence and how perfectly it encapsulates being at one with your disability and unmasking at the end and it just... AGHH it's beautiful
Favorite episode of season 3? Thanks to Them! It feels like the most cohesive and tight episode of the specials and human realm shenanigens are always a W for me
Favorite season? 2!!
Favorite Hexsquad member? Ohhh my days whaaay do you have to make me choose between my children?? It regularly fluctuates, but today i'm in a Willow Hunter and Luz kinda mood, so there ya go, the answer might change tmr
Favorite Hagsquad member? Eda!! still waiting on the spinoff confirmation btw >:(
Favorite palisman? MMmmm probablyyyy Principal Bump's palisman. Idk I never realy noticed it in s1 but then we leaned that it helped with Bump's blindness and it just chills on top of his head and helps him see? Idk I just really like Bump and i think that it's real heartwarming
Favorite other character? King, my sweet son
Favorite line from season 1? Eda saying her goodbye to Luz before going full harpy in Agony of a Witch, never fails to make me tear up
Favorite line from season 2? "Out of all the grimwalkers you looked the most like him" followed by Hunter's "...what...?" UGHHHH TALK ABOUT A GUT PUNCH
Favorite line from season 3? "The only thing I ever really wanted was to be understood" and Hunter's mini speech to Willow in FTF about how her and Gus mean the world to him
Favorite friendship? Probably Amity and Hunter! I needed more crumbs of them :(
Favorite familial relationship? Luz and Hunter. They are siblings, if you care
Favorite romantic relationship? Huntlow, the fookin losers
Favorite Lumity moment? The confession scene! It was so realistic and made me squeal so much
Favorite Raeda moment? When Eda finds Raine in WAD and puts their glasses back on and then showers their face with kisses OURGHHH it made me rabid
Favorite Huntlow moment? Can I just name one moment? Just them in For the Future, is that enough?
Favorite piece of music from season 1? The grom fight music!
Favorite piece of music from season 2? Eda's Requiem 1000%!! Probably my favorite music in the whole of TOH actually
Favorite piece of music from season 3? Luz's revelation scene music
Favorite fight scene from season 1? The fight between Eda and Lilith in Agony of a Witch
Favorite fight scene from season 2? Hunter vs Amity in Eclipse Lake
Favorite fight scene from season 3? The final battle between the owl fam and Belos
Favorite season premiere? season 2!
Favorite season finale? season 3!
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livecharliereaction · 2 months
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quick thoughts
- I know it might be a mistake later but i BELIEVE beatos tears the va is too good im afraid
- I like u lambdabern nice hidden teaparty Yup its quite a personality reveal on berns part though im sure theyll appear more in answer arcs which makes me happy... truly the cover girls of the series EVERYONES seen those two
- at one point with sakutaro i figured a magic being might be just personifications of objects (think beatrice portrait) but while that may be the case for the red eyed furnitures (stakes plushie ETC chiester sisters some kinda guns or whatever) thats definitely not what witches are
- i almost want to claim witches are born from humans but it seems unlikely case idk??? virgilia. We know how ange as a witch was born same with maria partly and even miss bernkastel!!! i still am willing to believe lambdas somehow born from miss satoko but i wouldnt yet be able to properly explain it out... So a witch is just a human who made some kind of contract with another witch or demon????? girl idk (sure everyone ik shouldve been acknowledged but like i dont know if thats like just a honor thing or a necessity to call someone a witch u know)
- i absolutely understand nothing about beato but thats the big mystery isnt it yup yup
- maria u break my heart forever
- i dont even want to guess battlers sin i have no clue. denying magic??????? girl he wouldve been 12 if i count the timeline right so
- top 3 scenes uhhhh
- HONORARY MENTIONS jessicas test, battlers test, sakutaros birth, ange ordering the stakes to kill her bullies, ange talking to the captain, ange hanging out w maria and the stakes, the first six, battler and beatrice in the rose garden
- anges confrontation on rokkenjima: so nice and even though theyre keeping a lot from me still (i can tell) i feel like i understand parts of magic somewhat now... higurashi flashback for me from the supernaturally dodged bullets and the trampling of the papers and all well what can i say. This ep rly made me like the seven stakes also thats nice esp mammon
- the jailbreak: i like how it was blended w jessica and georges tests but im pointing out the jailbreak crew specifically bcs it was fun Kyrie and krauss work surprisingly well theres a nice air of mutual respect and like kanon n shannon themselves pointed out they never survive past first twilight so seeing them fight together isnt that so awesome i like kanon n shannon.
- anges death after breaking the rule: i dotn know man i love u ange icon of sacrifice and determination and love and will and more ur forever famous to me i feel like shell appear but even if she didnt for a long time i wouldnt forget her thats for sure shes very very ughhhh aah oh ange
- shoutout to beatrice i will understand you someday
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imsofckingdonewithlife · 10 months
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I can't take it anymore, fucking hell. I cant do this anymore. Did I offend you? Did I screw up this badly to deserve this? If so tell me, I feel like nowadays I feel like idk like im being heard but not listened to. I heard if God doesn't answer your prayers, he has something else in stored for u. But im sitting here feeling like a fucking dumbass, what else is in stored for me? Im a total fucking failure. I hate it here. I hate being me. Idk what is wrong with me. I keep trying to prove myself to be better but I end up proving to be a fucking loser. Am I being cursed by someone? If someone is praying for my downfall, congrats you have succeeded. If I cant do this one thing right then truly what good am I? I have hard working parents who work their asses off for me and I have NOTHING to offer back. I feel so incompetent and worthless. I am very ashamed of myself. Over the past year you are worse than anything I could have imagined. Younger me would not believe I would end up like this piece of shit. Why have I failed you, God. If I have messed up just tell me, don't let me wonder blindly wondering why my life is becoming shit. Why have I failed everyone around me, including myself. I don't know what is wrong with me anymore. This isn't me, she isn't me. I feel like a spirit has entered my body and has taken controlled. She isn't me, im better than her. Ughhhh the words wont come out the way I wanted, I cant explain this feeling. I feel truly worthless. I cant even pray I get better, I have no hope in me improving. Im on steady decline. I have peaked and this will be a turbulent time for me spiritually. I've cared so much that I dont even care anymore. Why should I care?
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Compiling my TFTR end notes so they clog up the fic less but tbh it's mostly for sentimental reasons. Fun Facts:
Chapter 3:
Harry rambling about the Pale as a way to talk about wanting to disappear is based on a real conversation I've had.
Chapter 4:
I used Korean as a Seol language because it's the Asian language I'm most familiar with. I speak neither Korean nor French fluently (I don't speak French at all) so please correct me.
For reference, I switch between sounding out, anglicised, and characters to indicate the way characters are hearing language and tonal differences.
I am a white person, so I'm not in any way the person to be talking about experiencing racism but it felt wrong to ignore the place that has in DE and Kim's story especially and it's role in cop work especially. I work a lot with people who speak English as an Additional language, so I've tried to respect the bravery it takes to speak a language like English when you aren't fluent, and base that conversation on actual ones I've had. While I've tried to be actively anti-racist from a narrative standpoint, I won't do that perfectly.
The fire, and its cause, is based on one where I've lived that I won't go into for obvious reasons.
Eomma is based on my Italian great-grandmothers.
Chapter 5:
if you see me misspelling characters names: no you don't. I learned via this fic that they aren't columbinimus clouds, which is the best spelling I can offer for what I spent my life reading and pronouncing. Plus side: every spell check I'd laugh because I'd get to remind myself it's spelled with CUM not COL.
I find it really, really hard to keep real life geography straight let alone in-game stuff. I'm taking Messina to be an Italy stand in because it's literally a city in Sicily, which is where my family is from, so when I saw it in the game I was like bwuh??? If that's wrong let me know and I'll change it.
The reference to culturally insensitive ads is a reference to a real pizza place where I live, as well as various chain Asian food places with actually completely racist ads.
Chapter 6:
Had Harry been not caught up in his own stuff, Katya's song choice would have been more illuminating to him than any other piece of information thus far. But there was a reason Judit said that sometimes we get caught up in the little internal things that drive us (b/c its foreshadowing) which is what Harry and Katya do. Idk if you’ve ever had a fight with someone that, while it has valid points, you think back on later and are like oh. That wasn’t really about that at all, was it? They’re both still learning about how to do healthy relationships.
Having a character whose entire character trait up until this point is being secretive meant I had to do so much exposition I would have rather included earlier ughhhh.
The entirety of the case discussed is plotted out in full despite being only mentioned briefly.
I never name male perpetrators because in reality they always get the headlines when their victims don't and it pisses me right off.
I am ACAB and continue to be (and yes, ACAB includes all these characters and the RCM) but what Katya and Liza are implied to be doing is a form of the PEACE method including focusing on establishing known factual events.
Some of the city's reflections of love are inspired by me re-reading this answer at the time of writing. I think "If you found love right now, you would run it straight into the ground in seconds," applies to Harry though he's not at a place where he's ready to understand what that would mean in this fic, imo.
I had to remind myself how to do medical notes for this and they may or may not be accurate, idk. They're meant to obscure information, though, so non-accuracy works in this regard. I'm a suicide attempt survivor so I tried to be sensitive about this. For a disclaimer, I’m not a medical professional and my work lies in health advocacy, hence how I know a lot of this. You can tell, because I abbreviated a medication which is one of the first things they tell you not to do but hey, it was on purpose. Here is a translation:
TW for domestic violence, attempted suicide (with potential context as to a method), abortion and miscarriage:
“02:00 5mg/h AC bolus pushed via NGT. 10ml/h IV saline bag replaced.
03:40 PT semi-conscious but non-responsive, pulling at NGT. IV sedative admin.
5:30 RR 27, HR 114, BP 160/110, other VS normal. ECG shows sinus pause reduced but bradyarrhythmia remains.”
This is basically not that important really lmao. I could have skipped it, in retrospect, but I think it gives some nice context to say that Katya is okay, health wise, in that moment. In summary: she’s being given activated charcoal via a naso-gastric tube which is a common treatment for some kinds of overdoses (and why you shouldn’t use activated charcoal tablets/toothpaste if you’re on prescription medicine!). She’s sick and her heart is being a bit funky, but she’s okay. You can say this is why Katya refers to this as a “heart attack” rather than what it is.
“Emergency Department (ED) admission 23:39 by neighbour for suspected overdose (OD), no known next of kin. Blood alcohol level .32, suspected drug use. Became physically aggressive when asked if deliberate OD, requiring intramuscular sedative. Transferred mental health ward 00:48. History: childhood Pale Related Acquired Brain Injury. 3xED presentation for gun shot wounds and stab wounds relating to RCM work. 2x presentation for injury relating to suspected assault and battery, patient denied intimate partner violence and left against medical advice both times. 3 pregnancies and 0 live births: ED presentation following miscarriage after fall; ED presentation for miscarriage after suspected assault and battery; ED presentation relating to suspected termination of pregnancy haemorrhage requiring blood transfusion and overnight observation.”
Again, I’m hoping no one is learning how to take case notes from this. I re-wrote this a million times, no lie, and if I saw this on someone’s records I would probably be like UM WTF. But for storytelling purposes, it got the job done lmao. I hope the original gets across what I wanted to get across: that something really significantly bad happened in Katya’s past that explains her motives and behaviour. I wrote it with the intention that Harry has just gotten enough information to want to push, but not to know that he shouldn’t. Having said that, you could make the argument that he should have known at the very least what the abbreviation for Assault and Battery is, so if he knew, would he have pushed anyway? Canonically, I think the answer is yes because even a high-empathy Harry can be remarkably tactless on a fail. Which is why I think this interaction is fun(? Oh wow I’m a freak) because it’s pushing (fanfic) Harry’s assumptions of himself and his goals. His stated goal is to do good, but he actively doesn’t do that in this scenario (though, neither was Katya, tbf).
In his defence, he’s right but he’s also kind of wrong. Yes, Katya’s background makes her empathise with this case a lot more, but the other implication that Harry misses is that she was actually involved with the case to some capacity while it was ongoing, and therefore she feels responsible
If you care about the OCs at all: Katya, as a mirror to Harry, has been going through a parallel to Harry's plot and she's really going through it. At the end of this chapter she is off-screen having her own "I don't want to be this kind of animal anymore" moment. We only just get to glimpse it.
Chapter 7:
Mee's Kitchen is a reference to a beloved take out place where I live, and again I'm sticking with Korean stuff because I'm most familiar with it.
Harry feeling like he has no control and slapping himself and being terrified of that is based off of my entire life lmao but particularly a few years ago when I started to slap myself without consciously deciding to do it. Then I 1. started dealing with some of my mental health stuff, and 2. started being treated for ADHD, and, surprise, it happens less now and when it does I don't freak out about it. Harry is very flippant about it, which I was too for a long time. I have a lot of body-focused repetitive behaviours and repetitive behaviours in general and no one has ever formally told me if that counted as one of those or not. I don't like to call out specific things as me obviously projecting but I also wanted to be clear that if you also have those kinds of behaviours, there's nothing wrong with you and don't listen to a guy in a fanfic. Talk to someone about it if you're worried. <3 I tagged it as self-harm because it seemed to cover all bases.
Chapter 8:
This was a hard chapter to walk the line on and if I wasn't doing the poetry chapter title thing, it would be titled "What if Rigorous Self-Critique Was More Helpful and Less An Opportunity to Hate Yourself into Self-Destruction, and Therefore Allowing Your Shitty Behaviour to Continue." And I never want to demonise addiction or mental health struggles and I hope I don’t. In my own experience to do better you do need to face up to things you've done that you’re not proud of. No joke, a lot of this fic is me exploring the idea of restorative justice and how and when we can forgive someone, especially when that person is a victim too. But I also don't want to woobify Harry and I recognise that I could have gone harder on this and that's a flaw in this work. Very few things destroyed me in DE like Rigorous Self-Critique. My reaction to reading it was physical horror and I still remember how it felt. And I just couldn't play that out to its extreme in this. It would be too much of a tone shift, for one. And for personal reasons, I just couldn't. Also, In editing this chapter, I removed a bit of context I didn’t fix. Specifically, there is no doubt in my mind that Harry is abusive towards Dora and I realise I may have presented it as if to imply he wasn’t. Harry was specifically asking about sexual violence, and that is what Jean investigated. I may fix this in the future, when I’m in a better headspace.
I love to write bi-Jean being no-homo, I don't know why. Jean constructs intricate rituals to allow himself to hear that he is loved.
Other fun facts, grabbed from my notes:
MoralIntern/Coalition politicians declaring that homo-sexuality no longer existed in Revachol is based on a comment from a politician where I live who said that there were no gay people in his state. It’s also very inspired by real life anti-homosexuality laws stemming from racism and colonialism and eugenics.
This fic works from the assumption that Dora ended that cycle of untreated mental illness and abuse by leaving as soon as she realised what was happening, by virtue of having a better education and resource access through being middle class. She is my idealised version of myself here haha. So the question becomes less, is Harry a bad guy? But what can Harry do to make sure he doesn’t continue a cycle of violence that probably pre-dates him by centuries?
I also can-opened myself writing this fic because I was like, why do I write stories about people being at their worst and still being loved? And my brain was like, because it’s the kind of story you needed to hear when you were at your worst, that it’s still possible to be loved, and never heard. And then I had a little cry :)
 If you think that Harry is a bad and an irredeemable man, you’re totally valid! Maybe I will write a fic about that at some point.
I love Jean now :)
I was like haha what if I make the chapter titles a poem from the city to Harry and immediately regretted it because I'm bad at poetry :)
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