she's a stargazer

"Forgive me for interfering in familial matters, but with the procreation of the Vulcan species jeopardized by the loss of our homeworld, permitting your son to carry on his dalliance with that emotional human seem inexcusably indulgent. Would it not be logical to counsel Spock to end that relationship in favor of a union more beneficial to Vulcan society?"

Sarek cast a probing stare at L'Nel. In the month since she had come to work for him, she had proved herself to be intelligent and capable. On this occasion, however, she was revealing her naivete in personal matters. "It might appear logical, but I think it would be ultimately self-defeating. In my dealings with Spock, I have found that the most certain way to encourage him to entrench his opinion is to take a contrary position."

--------- Excerpted from More Beautiful Than Death by David Mack

YALL I AM CACKLING

Sarek might be a moody little shit at times but I'll be damned if he didn't just prove that he knows his kid in that one sentence.

Anyone: actually Spock I think you should do this thing instead

Spock:

Spock is the type of person who survives out of spite you cannot change my mind.

HIIIII im back for my annual oc redesigns AND propaganda <3 this time featuring THE most brothers of ALL time bc my GODDDDDD. i open my notes on the Ryder family and they unravel and roll on for 382 miles like a cartoon scroll u feel me

thank you for making topjima content 😭🙏🙏 youre like the only artist i can name off the top of my head who draws or talks about it and as a certified switch/vers Majima believer it has me kicking my feet and feasting on your art

😳💖 👉👈

nsfw //

hehe very welcome and thank you for enjoying it!! I have a big fondness for topjima and tbh there's so much topkiryu stuff already so I gotta be the change I want to see in the world 😤 kldfkldsds

plus like... Majima annihilating Kiryu until he's a blubbering mess? sublime. Kiryu wanting to be at the mercy of someone he trusts? fantastique. Majima letting his soft side show with genuinely sweet aftercare? WOOF WOOF

throw in some topGoromi and I'm just

a rainbow is a promise that we make to future family an ark is not the only way to survive a flood and we are not so easy to drown

English is not my first language so correct me if I'm wrong

I know those antis are in the tags somewhere those clowns really need to touch grass

I posted this on my twitter link is below if yall are interested

These are incredibly fun to do (don't worry wenclair fans I'll be posting more of them soon)

charlotte reference sheet!! she's happy to meet you all

Surely this can't be right 🤔 I have been reading manifestos written by his beloved fans, predicting his career downfall since August because his association to his long-term girlfriend made him a pariah in Hollywood. Don't tell me they were wrong 😮 They had so much evidence, collected from blind items, viral tweets and tiktok insiders!

sleep???

nah.

sorting my frimages??

much better use of my time.

FUCK YOU !!!! *thinks about the good and positive things in life, despite all the bad things going on with us rn*

I can’t believe it’s been a year since I got this game and nine months since I started this blog. Unfortunately, the timing of me getting sick twice in a row these past couple of weeks means I wasn’t able to finish a fic in time to celebrate, but I’m determined to get one out soon! 💚 but I can’t let today pass me by without at least waxing poetic about this game, the community and their impact on me :)

cw: workplace abuse, childhood emotional abuse

This time last year, I was in a very abusive work environment. I was pushed well beyond my limits by people who didn’t care about me or the concerns I raised to them. I was told to shut up, that others had the same workload even though I clearly had more on my one-person “team.” I was a scapegoat. I began having weekly performance reviews in which typos in emails were put in the spotlight and heavily questioned/scrutinized. In the end, they fired me, HR refused to return calls from potential employers to verify employment, and they barred the few coworkers I actually liked from giving me recommendations (I only know because I aggressively pressed one of them after she rescinded an offer to help me), effectively making it twice as difficult to get any new job. I’m in therapy to recover from this experience, but I still carry a large amount of bitterness towards both my former job and myself, and I don’t know if it will ever fully leave me.

I am grouchy and short-tempered. I don’t consider myself to be a nice person or a good friend. My previous work experience solidified what an entire childhood of emotional abuse stemming from my neurodivergence taught me: it’s better to have no trust and be prepared to get angry if people think they can step on me; cut others off at the smallest sign of danger and keep myself at arm’s length from everyone unless absolutely necessary; calculate weakness in my bullies’ tactics and exploit it.

When I first got Hogwarts legacy, I would play maybe a couple hours every week. But what started out as an escape has become a source of healing. I see so much of myself in some of the characters, and seeing some of my pain, mistakes and flaws mirrored in them has given me the ability to give myself a little grace. I see so much of myself in Ominis, and my rabid need to write him receiving the love and healing I want/need has been extremely therapeutic.

Joining the HLDS dev team was the best thing I ever could have done. I’m finally starting to feel like I can trust some people a little more. The other discord server I’m a part of has been such a positive experience for me too, and I really do love and appreciate everyone there for being so nice to a grouch like me, even if I’m not really sure how to express that most of the time lol. The moots I’m regularly messaging/reblogging/responding to are so important to me. I am so happy you enjoy talking to me, because I adore talking to you too and seeing your notifs gives me such a huge serotonin boost.

Thank you to everyone who makes room for me in discord servers and reads my tumblr posts and talks to me about this game that’s had such a huge impact on me. It really does mean so much more than I could ever express. 💚

i only think im unlovable because i havent found the right people yet, i only think im unlovable because i havent found the right people yet, i only think im unlovable because i havent found the right people yet, i ONLY THINK IM UNLOVABLE BECAUSE I HAVENT FOUND THE RIGHT PEOPLE YET

dont be fooled; i am full of rage

I have to say this because I just had a very serious talk with my bestie about weight.

When I first went to college, I was doing acrobatics four days a week and a 15 to 18 hour course load a semester, while spending six months out of the year sick or recovering from such. The bronchitis plus [whatever comorbid illness struck this time] was bad enough, but the recovery took so long because I had so little fat that my body would start eating muscle and tissue.

I had access to a school nutritionist and so I wrote down everything that I tended to eat, how often I did so. My diet was and still is semi-decent, mostly because I have enough texture issues that a lot of junk food and "unhealthy" (I say that loosely) stuff I can only eat very tiny portions of, if at all, and most meat things are completely off the table unless I make it myself.

I was and still am very high energy. I have always been skinny or slender since I started walking, had some body image issues after being sick and I could count every rib. At the time of going to the nutritionist, I was 190 pounds of mostly muscle.

She looked at me like I'd lost my goddamn mind when I said I wanted to gain some fat and I wanted to know why I just wasn't. I was a freshman. I knew about the freshman fifteen. Instead of gaining fifteen pounds, though, I lost it, and it was fifteen pounds I didn't really have to lose. I was eating something ridiculous like almost double what the average woman "should" be, calorie wise, basically constantly snacking because I was always hungry.

Two years later I was in the hospital for a month. A wheelchair for seven. Lost almost eighty pounds in eight months. Died three times.

It's five years past that now. I'll never be able to fly like I used to, but I can pick up unsuspecting coworkers and adoptive siblings again, which is great fun for startling them. I can renovate my house without too much issue. I weigh 160 lbs now, and for the first time in my life, I have fat on me, after seven years of working at it and so many goddamn catastrophes it's ludicrous.

It took me seven years to gain twenty pounds of fat. Of me actively working on it. There's no such fucking thing as "weight gain!" pills, and there's no such thing as "weight loss" pills either, and take it from an Irish woman? Starving yourself doesn't work either. If you feel good in your body, if it works for you regardless of your weight, then you're fine. The only way anything is going to change is a massive force--like illness, or amputation, or cancer, or occupation, or food scarcity.

Fat people's positive representation in media is shit, and the way that Americans, at least, tend to see fat people is shit, and I'm sorry. You are worthy of feeling at home in your body, without fear of judgement of yourself or society, of feeling good without reservation. The twenty pounds of fat I've gained has, no joke, changed my life. I don't get cold standing in front of a refrigerator, I'm not utterly terrified of getting sick again and dying of something stupid like bronchitis or strep throat. I feel good, and I hope that you can feel good too, and not continuously damage your body by yoyoing your weight with attempted diets and pills.

THE NEW SEASON OF UM ACTUALLY HAS IFY AS HOST N BDG AS FACTCHECKER... MADE FOR ME ACTUALLY