“you do things to me.”

TR: I hate you.

DF: I know.

TR: I want you dead.

DF: I know.

TR: One day, I’ll be the cause of your collapse.

DF: I know.

TR: I hate you, I’ll kill you, I’ll sabotage everything you stand for—

DF: I know.

DF: I love you.

TR: …

TR: I know.

i still think you're pretty great

having fun with colors for once :P

thanks @creepycoffins for the awesome dtiys :D

tbqh the most annoying part about being a detail-oriented artist is being like fuuuuck yeahhh i’m SO gonna draw tommy and buck fully making out in buck’s kitchen and it’s gonna be sooo good

and then realizing i actually personally have to draw the whole fucking kitchen in order for them to be making out in said kitchen

could u draw eridan and nepeta....enjoying a cuppa tea together...

they’re spilling tea 🍵

Tracks ✨

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Art trade with @ny000mdraws

"To dream the impossible dream, that is my quest." - Prince Fernando of Asturias

+ Seb not getting what he ordered

+ the usual

Hello yes, look! It's baby Renault Fernando, isn't he so cute??? Who wouldn't want to force him into an arranged marriage, like cmon man be real. Here is the progress as usual, as well as his suit without the design, cause I'm pretty proud of it just blank even!

Okay so this is pure Fernando, innocent Fernando, before he had his apirations ripped way from him. Well not fully ripped away tbf, because that's the crux of his character: is it more humiliating to never succeed or to only succeed because someone handed it to you with concessions? I guess that's up for him to decide though ;;;

The thing I love about this drawing and young Fernando in general is how much easier it is to see his and Seb's similarities. Look how similar they look! Seb is just a bit more evil.

I think that's a big part as to why his feelings about Seb are so complicated. He both loves and hates how similar they are. From an egotistical point, he can appreciate and respect the familiar traits in Seb, the hunger, the exuberance, the pride, the ego. But also we hate seeing our own traits in other people, it's almost like turning a mirror on your worst traits and suddenly being able to see yourself from a new perspective. The biggest point here though is that Fernando turns that resentment onto Seb, as a way to clamp down on self hatred.

He becomes more bitter and resentful as he grows older, and loses a lot of his whimsy and joy. So it hurts him to see Seb, who in addition to getting everything he's ever wanted, also retain his whimsy. He, wrongly, just sees it as something that had to happen in order for him to grow up fully. It's more of a survival tactic, it started becoming unbefitting for him to have that level of unfounded confidence. That's the main reason he sees Seb as childish, immature and undeserving. He hasn't fully grown out of his capacity for whimsy and joy, and thus is below Fernando.

Well that was depressing oops! As the chibi art represents, this is probably a painting Seb got sent in the early days of planning their marriage. This is the Fernando who is still prideful, the Fernando who is still confident, the Fernando Seb vaguely remembers meeting his youth. Seeing this definitely pushes him even further towards the marriage(though tbf it's not like he even has a choice either.) Though when the time to actually start courting comes around, Fernando looks very uh different. This is both a joke about how different Fernando was in his first renault stint vs his second. But also I think he does show up very moody and disheveled, as a sort of last chance way to try and turn everyone on Seb's side, including Seb, off from the marriage. However, it's pretty much a done deal by that point.

Seb is uh, definitely confused, but I think he would be drawn to Fernando regardless. Actually, this might make Fernando even more appealing. Seb gets to push him all the time, try to break down his walls and get a glimpse at the real Fernando, if even just for a moment. Seb wishes he had more that just a blurry, vague recollection of Fernando at his peak confidence. Fernando definitely grows into something resembling his past self, after recovering from all the hurt, but there's just something about youthful exuberance that can't really be fully replicated.

Okay so about the quote. I went with Don Quixote this time instead of the typical Napoleon, because I thought it'd be funny. Fernando picks up the book at some point during his youth, and it inspires him a lot. He doesn't really see the satire in it, and comes to really admire Don Quixote's mentality, he's like "wow he never gives up! That's so admirable!" It definitely helps him through dark times to aspire to never give up no matter what. Though later Seb definitely rags on him for not knowing it was satire, and Fernando is like "wh-what do you mean satire?" But he's mentally strong enough atp for it to not cause his whole worldview collapse. About the quote specifically, there's definitely some part of him, even when young, that knows his aspirations are borderline impossible. I wonder if that part of him feels weirdly safe and comforted about the marriage. Yes, it's not ideal, but it's safe and secure. He gets what he wants, and there's no chance of anyone taking it away from him, no matter what.

I think his title would be Prince of Asturias? It was either that or duke, and I think prince fits him bettee(Machiavelli reference?) That title is currently the title for the heir to the Spanish throne. In this time period, it's also commonly used for the heir, but for Fernando it's a bit unsure. Like in real life, he's not directly the offspring, but he's still the most obvious choice for heir. But there's still enough room for Seb and his house to try to vie for the throne themselves, so it makes it all complicated.

Lea :-)

Eeeeeeeeeee!

I got ProCreate on my iPad tonight!!! I have never found it so easy to draw digitally before, it’s WILD-

As a celebration (after a test piece I may post later,) here’s some Siffs I drew w/ some brushes I was testing!

I think I prefer the “flatter” brush, it gives more personality. Damn, will my art style CHANGE, though,,,

Here they be! The ones with the “rounder” brush are the ones I did first. I didn’t really end up liking that brush so I just,,, tried another one, lol.

Will draw more!! I’ve wanted to draw more this year [>

App Used: ProCreate! (Woo!)

Time: Around 20 mins

Transcript under the cut:

Panel 1 Investigator (left): Look, Mrs. Oserisades- Ath Velan ket'Oserisades (right): Call me Velan. Investigator: Um, Mrs. Velan. We're pretty sure we have a link to your clan and Investigator: um Investigator: notorious pirates. Velan: My, that's an embarrassing mistake for the EBC's tax offices to make. Velan: A waste of both our time, really. Investigator: Not so- Velan: I guarantee it is. Investigator: Look, your paperwork seems clean, but- Velan: Because my clan has done nothing.  Velan: Have some tea. text by Velan's ankles: shoes off means she can transform very quickly - prepared for violence! Velan's stool: chest full of extremely incriminating records Card at the top: The notorious pirates in question left the Oserisades camp 20 minutes ago. Non-card text at the top: Ath: A title, indicating the leader of a dragon clan. The EBC: The Ever-Burning City, a city-state with a military-meritocracy & a monarchy slowly trying to grab at more and more land for the last 40-odd years. Very serious about both piracy and tax fraud (Velan is involved in both).

Panel 2 Investigator: With respect, Mrs. Oserisades- Velan: Ath. Investigator: What? Velan: My title is Ath ket'Oserisades. Investigator: Mrs. Oserisades. Investigator: I know that you've done it. Investigator: I just need to prove it.

Panel 3 Velan: Hmm. Velan: Color me concerned. Velan: But it sounds like Velan: and do correct me if I'm wrong Velan: it sounds like you have no actual proof.

Panel 5 Velan: Don't worry, kid.  Velan: We're all wrong sometimes, ha ha. Velan: I can tell you have a lot of passion. Velan: You'll make a great investigator someday. Velan: You should drink your tea. bottom card: End.

had a slow day at work today, so i kept doodling my vampire ocs on my phone while waiting for work to do lmao

Viktor is making bad decisions, per usual

Intsys resurrect my man he did nothing. Like. In general. (BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T LET HIM‼️‼��‼️‼️)

don't really know how the fuck to feel that if you search up "bipolar" on this fucking app you immediately get met with the "is everything okay? do you need medical help?" message

like I get that it's Like That sometimes but fuck dude, I'm trying to look at the positives while the meds are working, give me a fucking break

by popular 2 ppl's (including myself) demand... my july receiptify^^ happy august everyone!

guys i finally stopped listening to h&d soul on repeat !!! i put dkb fondue on repeat instead !!! but otherwise not really anything new haha tho im surprised broken melodies or istj didnt make it on here?? i'm predicting next month should have a lot of new stuff because i promise i HAVE been listening to a lot of exo & nwjns & kiss of life & nct dream & zb1 but they just havent made it on here yet :') also im excited for the august tbz comebackkkkkkkk

tagging (no obligation ofc as always sorry for annoying u but im just curious what u’ve been listening to): @baeseongyeob @dakbees @dive-in-the-blue @dkbtho @dorisnumber1fan @gnanii @haechannabelle @hyuck-xix @kyubins @nctsworld @lee-minhoe @lunetual @neonunau @peachjaem00 @snicketfiles @sunminshine @woodziecup @y-ves + anyone else that wants to share and hasn’t been tagged (like me LOL) just say i tagged u <3

Just had a funny idea

Imagine Kokichi Ouma, being in denial that he's gay. Like Miu calls him gay as an insult and he gets confused and claims he isn't gay, and Shuichi is like "oh wait that means I don't have a chance with him :(" and then fast forward like a bit and kokichi is being a clingy mfer to shu and Shuichi is like "...you sure you're straight" and Kokichi thinks for a moment and then is like ".......HOLY SHI-"

And that is how kokichi was slapped in the face with the reality that he, is in fact, Gay.

🍄anon

miu calling kokichi gay as if she isnt a giant fruit basket herself, She Is Projecting