"I can do it with a broken heart"

"Snow on the beach"

oh god what am i doing with my life

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I just skimmed through the art part of your blog and holy bajeebus your LMK art is so beautiful and the headcanon ideas you come up with are so good I wanna steal em-

Kinda wanna see like a part 2 of the little angst you did between MK and Macaque a while ago. It's so interesting and I wanna see Macaque's reaction in your art style. (You don't have to of course, it's just a suggestion [idk if i spelled that right])

Thanks for reading and hope you have a good day/night!

Hope this is to your liking ^^

Part one here

End of Empathy (time for violence)

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guy who so desperately tries to find god. who wants to have faith in a higher authority to guide him out of the hole he's in. from the weight of guilt from simply existing, as the person he is. but every time he thinks he's answered his higher calling it turns out he's made the Morally Incorrect choice and his path to goodness and holiness was the road to the devil all along

sending postcards from a plane crash (wish you were here), 2003 // the kintsugi kid (ten years), 2023

whats ur beef?

My favourite manga lost the plot so now i cope by being a hater 👍

killing eve // wishbone; crush - richard siken // letters to milena - franz kafka // a primer for the small weird loves; crush - richard siken

svsss thing i cant stop thinking about, and im hoping its not a case of i just misinterpreted a thing but i'm pretty sure we got a just casual reveal of the fact that Shen Qingqiu didn't kill Liu Qingge

like, in that dream sequence where SQQ sees the events and deaths in the original story/gets his limbs ripped off, he sees LQG going through his qi deviation, and LQG stabs himself. SQQ doesn't stab him. like sure he didn't save him like Shen Yuan does but he didn't go into that cave with the intent to do a murder

idk it just really struck me, and it was so casual and there was bigger stuff happening in that dream sequence but with everything else we learn about SQQ/Shen Jiu the fact that he spends the whole original novel being 'LQG's murderer' and he just. he didn't do it. he did a lot of other crap but he didn't kill that one guy you expected him to kill. i think about it a lot

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no but im being so dead ass about the parallels between coriolanus and anakin; down to the little nicknames they each had as kids (coryo, ani)

sad orphan with deceased mom

high expectations to do good things (and while anakin was fundamentally different bc the jedi order and the capitol arent exactly a one for one lol)

lived in fear of losing their family and pursued power to save them; ultimately was seduced by said power

forced to become soldiers and suffer consequences in the aftermath, such as symptoms of ptsd

fell in love with someone who they inevitably begin to distrust due to their own paranoia and guilt

loses said love after a confrontation and act of violence; solidifying the end of their relationship and permanently altering their feelings towards things like love

becomes a literal evil dictator after throwing away their last pieces of humanity

"I killed the old me" OKAY????????

anakin kinda gets redeemed?? i guess?? but its been awhile since ive read the og hg trilogy so im not 100 on snow's development into his adulthood i just remember that hes manipulative and evil and obsessed with control and oh yeah so is darth vader

alphys undertale would play ISAT and become completely bedridden from the resulting carnage

Picture this: You are young and charismatic and very intelligent and you are so, so alone. Through no fault of your own, you have had the responsibility of a secret balanced upon your shoulders. It's not your secret, not really, you never had a choice in the matter, but if it gets out your life will be ruined. So, from childhood, you've known you couldn't let anyone too close.

But you are young. You are young and weighed down with secrets and you meet a man who wears his deception like great gilded armor. You don't know what lies beneath, but you watch him stroll through the Promenade and you know as well as he does that he is untouchable.

You have lunch once or twice a week. You trade novels and sharp remarks and at some point you realize you know him better than anyone else on the station. You realize you don't know him at all.

You know he thinks he knows you. You know he doesn't know you're lying.

And then suddenly he's fading in front of you, maybe dying because of his secrets and you realize all at once that he was never wearing armor. He's like you, forced to tell lies since before they could fit properly into his mouth, and at some point someone took the loose ends and wove them into a cage.

There is a man in your life who is just like you and he is dying in your care. He tells you stories of his life and you know none of them are true, you know there are some secrets a man carries to his grave. He tells you stories and you can hear the truth in every word and you can't help but ask him why he's telling you all this.

He looks you straight in the eyes, the bastard, and the answer rolls off his tongue, smooth as honey, soaked in fear he dare not speak aloud, I need to know that someone forgives me.

You know this man better than anyone. You do not know him at all. He has bared his soul to you and he was lying through his teeth. You look at him and see yourself and you make a decision.

"I forgive you. For whatever it is you've done."

Tell me about a song you like right now, maybe an animation you just watched that made you think thoughts and feel things

Only Acting by Kero Kero Bonito!! I want to make an animatic for Macaque using this song and some parts of Shadow Play and the s4 special.. although im still mapping it and deciding whether I want to use the radio edit or not lol

Thinking about the Clive and Bill parallels again...

Both started with pretty average goals (gaining money / getting closure). Both became obsessed with said goals to the point of going through with their plans no matter the cost. Both became consumed by the desire to pursue a goal that isn't actually achievable (You can get more money but it will never feel like it's enough. You can lash out in anger but it won't make the anger go away). Both ended up killing innocents.

And yet.

Bill getting rid of his humanity in the hopes of getting money. Clive getting rid of his money in the hopes of getting his humanity back. Bill claiming he despises people like Clive when he has himself killed innocents for his own selfish plans. Clive claiming he hates politicians and scientists but still using science to build a mecha and politics to justify its use. Bill hiding everything, hiding from Claire that the machine isn't ready, hiding his crime from everyone. Clive exposing everything, exposing his secret base to Layton, exposing Bill and Dimitri's crime by his staging. Bill covering up the incident while Clive broadcasted his crime inside the fortress.

I don't know where I was going with this. Maybe that prime minister Bill looks like a honest citizen, just your regular Londoner really, while Clive is so obviously violent and destructive : and yet, Clive is the dove and Bill the hawk. Funny.

Hi, I just wondered what your favourite part of the Fenhawke romance was? Like, a scene/moment that really made you fall more in love with him? I love your writing so much!!

Oh, that is very kind of you to say! 💗I'm glad you enjoy the things I've written. I've really been enjoying writing for this ship, especially the past few months c:

As for your question...

Man, that's tough. I have a hard time picking one thing---I mean, *gestures to all the fic* you know? But I can narrow it down to a couple of scenes/elements:

The fact that a romanced Fenris still calls you "my friend" even after the act 2 romance scene. This is just...the bedrock of their relationship to me. Yes, that night went very poorly (understatement, I know), but at the core they are friends and he trusts Hawke in a way he's likely never had the cause or opportunity to trust someone before. I believe he never stopped loving Hawke, and it was a matter of laying those feelings out and understanding them one at a time. Romantic love not replacing platonic love or eclipsing it, but building or twining together is just... *chef's kiss* that's the good stuff.

The moment during the romance conversation in Act 3 when you can see Fenris go from hoping (painfully hoping!) that there is still some way he and Hawke can be together to actually believing it will happen. There is a shift in his body language that I could watch (and...have) over and over.

The element of choice? This is not going to be coherent, but the fact that he is learning for the first time what it means to have options and preferences, and he spends a lot of time exploring and understanding himself...and after all of that, the thing he keeps coming back to is Hawke. I think it's gorgeous. A song with refrains of pain or fear and choruses of decision and hope. He's loyal to a fault, in many ways, but understanding how much of himself exists to share and then still choosing to share it is just...man. I said this wasn't going to be coherent lol, so there you are. "If there is a future to be had..." like he doubts its existence but he's willing to chance it for Hawke. Man.

But, honestly? I've played DA2 a lot of times and never romanced another character, even though I've played through multiple romance storylines in each of the other games. I can't shake the Fenris romance. Every time I open a new playthrough, I tell myself that this is the time I'm going to romance Isabela, and every time Fenris rips that dude's heart out and I just......alright, yeah. Okay. Here we go again.