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actual-changeling · 6 months

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This post is going to show you the EXACT moment that tear forms with indisputable evidence that consists of several screencaps, detail shots, and slowed down video proof, which will be at the very end.

The tear and I are getting married, her name is Trina and I love her.

Let's get right into it. Be prepared for uh. Very painful facial expressions! And tears (at the end).

We're going to look through the final fifteen chronologically with pit stops at important emotional points that I think would make sense to cause a tear.

As you can see, we go into this argument with mostly dry eyes, a little glistening here and there but those are NOT tears. Probably just the contacts plus the lack of blinking making his eyes a bit more moist than your usual pair. The tear will be obvious.

Obvious disbelief when Aziraphale tells him about the Metatron's bullshit, yes, but Crowley soldiers on through.

Now a scene that I personally thought would be most likely to cause tears - "tell me you said no". However - his eyes stay dry! Both before and after Aziraphale's non-answer. No tears.

The best spot to look at is his waterline, and as you can see it's free of any sad tears.

We have reached the "go off together" stage, Crowley is yelling, they're both emotionally perturbed, a very good foundation for tears. Yet when you look at his eyes during and right after, they're still dry!

We are now right before Crowley says "you can't leave this bookshop" and when he does BOOM the tear is suddenly there!

This is what our tear looks like, and we have a very narrow time frame during which it can appear. So it is time for the grand reveal because by now you're probably yelling at me "okay but WHEN does it show up??"

I will tell you. Or rather, I will show you first and then tell you what Aziraphale said right before that triggered it. Ready?

There it is. Left - no tear. Right - tear. (no i will not make the trivago joke again i want to but i wont.)

Come with me! To heaven! I'll run it, -> no tear yet. It appears after the next part.

you can be my second in command THAT is what causes the tear to finally show up. Right as Aziraphale finishes his sentence you can watch as it appears.

As promised, here is the video evidence, slowed down by half and zoomed in on Crowley's face at the end.

Alright, have you seen enough tears? Good! Let's look at the emotional reason. Because your question is probably what is so special about that sentence that it tips Crowley over the edge?

That one sentence, that one "promise" Aziraphale makes him, destroys everything. All of it in one go.

It is not just about Aziraphale choosing heaven over him, it's not about him saying no to running away (Crowley probably saw that coming anyway). What Aziraphale does is he takes them, their us and eliminates it.

Not just is he telling Crowley that he's an evil demon tm who needs to be an angel to be worthy of staying in Aziraphale's life, but "second in command" takes that even further.

Not "ruling together" or "ruling side by side" or any variation of those. No, Aziraphale is telling him that they are not equal and never have been. That Crowley has always been inferior to him and always WILL BE even if he stops being a demon and does what Aziraphale wants.

This is why Crowley no longer things of them as an us after all of that. Aziraphale took every single meaning it had and inverted it, crushed it up, and then threw it away.

Yeah.

Crowley is telling him he is gay and in gay love with him. Aziraphale takes that and says "you can be my employee at gay conversion therapy which i will run #straight besties".

Crowley hears "second in command" and it is the last puzzle piece falling into place. It's the final straw and that is when we get the tear. Before that he was saying we can be together, be an us, just the two of us, you and me. He was referring to them as free equals who don't need heaven or hell, who are happy with everything the way it is. An Aziraphale who loves Crowley no matter what his former occupation might have been.

We could have been us. (I wanted us to be an us)

And Aziraphale's answer to that is there has never been an us and we never will be. i don't love you the way you love me.

Anyway, see y'all on my next angst post or in the tags. Have another devastating screencap to wrap this all up nicely 💚

#alex talks good omens #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #go2 #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #ineffable divorce #the final fifteen #good omens meta #good omens 2

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psalacanthea · 1 year

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Are we going to talk about how scary being the Inquisitor is for a Lavellan or…?

I mean, the more and more I have played this game, the more the Chantry shit is terrifying. Over and over again, you see painful and irrefutable evidence about the shit humans did to elves in the name of the Maker. The Exalted Plains is an obvious example. (I consistently call it Dirthavaren you don’t like it fight me bitch)

Like I think the entire fandom can agree on fuck that bitch sister Amity. The Chantry crusades destroyed what was left of the elves, destroyed them. Culture, body and spirit. Like be honest, there aren’t many Dalish clans left and each time a new game/book comes around, another one bites the dust. It’s so easy to lose your clan in Inquisiton and even easier to accidentally kill off Marethari’s. Hell, you can choose to kill Zathrian’s.

The Dalish are dying out, any way you slice it.

Then suddenly a hole rips open in the sky and everybody thinks Lavellan did it. It destroys the Conclave…don’t tell me for one second that the humans didn’t immediately start developing an ‘elves and vengeance and antiMaker’ conspiracy theory. The ‘remain silent’ dialogue option in that first interaction isn’t a stoic ‘I don’t give a fuck’ to me, it’s more of a ‘whatever I say doesn’t matter I’m already dead’ for a Dalish Inquisitor.

The true horror is knowing that they wont just kill you, they’ll call for a bloodbath on elves across Thedas.

“For the elves were guilty of the greatest sin, of turning from the Maker.”

You’ve damned them all and you can’t even remember how or why. For a First, it must be terrifying to realize even if you try to diplomatically talk your way out of it, they’ll never believe you. As a hunter or warrior, you know it’s hopeless. All you can do is throw yourself forward as the villain, claim that whatever happens you acted alone and take as many of these shems out with you as you can. As a mage you know if they take pity on you, you’re condemned to their mage-slavery prisons.

“Whatever you think I did, I’m innocent!”

But then they believe you (barely, like thank the Creators the Lavellan clan taught you how to talk to humans civilly and not panic) but it’s basically a hostage situation. There’s one other elf with you and even if he’s not Dalish thank Mythal because shit you were scared and you’re still scared but at least it’s something. His name is ‘Pride’. You take it as a sign from the Creators that it’s not time to give up yet. Suledin, you think.

There is an orb, a weapon that caused this. Solas tells you it’s elven and your heart sinks.

“Eventually, the humans will find a way to blame elves…”

You become Inquisitor and things are a little better but the humans call you Herald of Andraste. You don’t believe in their Maker but none of them care. You know your clan would feel betrayed, think you’ve given up your gods. You haven’t of course but the terror is there…what if the gods think you’ve given up them? You talk to Cassandra and Leliana, trying to understand the human chantry and maybe figure out a way for your two beliefs to coexist.

But no.

You realize it wont help. Cassandra talks about spreading the Maker’s word to all corners of Thedas…you remember the lonely howls of the wolves across Dirthavaren. You know what ‘spreading the Makers word’ means. Leliana at least acknowledges what the Chantry did, but she dismisses it with words. All those lives and hopes and dreams dismissed with the words ‘that hate won’t just go away if you dissolve the Chantry’. You understand what she really means, though.

She’s saying that the hate will never go away, not until the elves are just like humans. The Chantry will never stop. She says she wants elves to be part of the chantry so they survive and you try not to taste bile in the back of your throat when you think of what that means.

“My father says humans are like weeds that choke out the grass…”’

Slowly, slowly, slowly...they consume you.

#lavellan #Draon Age Inquisition

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yanderu-deredere · 8 months

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ooo spicy reqeuset: how would the yan yans react to their darling trying to fake an orgasm during sex? maybe because nobodys given her an orgasm before and so shes worried that they wont make her cum so she just pretends?

a/n: pretty sure all hell would break loose LOOOL also, as an adhd bitch, i know the pains of this so fucking well and it fucking sucks

wanted to do a group up thing but decided against it becos i wanted to write drabbles so here are just some random yanderes i picked and how they'd react

if you wanted to see another different yandere, shoot me another request and id love to answer for you!

warning: female reader as requested, mentions of stalking, overstim in ryouta's and the wolf boys' parts, spanking int he wolf boys' part, degradation in the wolf boys' part, double penetration in the wolf boys' part, honestly leo just lets it all out i think

eun-jeong yoo ★ profile

if he's never made you cum before, he probably wouldn't notice that you're faking it. he's not the type to really go around fucking other people. in fact, more than likely, you're his first. so he wouldn't know better

but, if he has made you cum forreal before, he'll know immediately that you're faking it and, even if he hasn't gotten off yet, he'll stop everything to ask you what's wrong and ask why you're faking it

same goes for if he's stalked you before and like has watched you make yourself cum becos then he knows what it looks like?

neway he's just an all around very observant guy who memorises how you react to things so he'd know if you're faking it or not

Eun-jeong's thrusts slowed and he ended up frowning down at you, his hands at your hips tightening but only a fraction "What's wrong?" Your face erupted into heat and you tried your best to sound confused "Huh? Wha-What'd'you mean?"

Eun-jeong took a second to think about his words carefully. He'd always been told that he wasn't exactly the most socially graceful person in the world so he wanted to really pick what he was about to say deliberately.

Because he loved you. And he wanted to finally show you the parts of him that he's been anxious to show you; all the ugly burned skin, all the big insecurities, everything.

He didn't want anything to go wrong. Except, now, it was obvious to him that you just tried pretending that you were cumming when you weren't.

It made him extremely anxious that you were faking it. Were you just unable to get off while looking at his ugly skin? Was he that bad? What was wrong?

"You… didn't cum."

Eloquent. He wanted to hit himself upside the head so bad.

You turned even more bashful, embarrassed both by the fact that you acted badly enough that it was obvious and by the fact that you got caught.

Unbeknownst to you, you could've been the best actress in the world and Eun-jeong still would've been able to tell. He knew you, has observed you at your most vulnerable moments, when you thought nobody was looking.

He liked to think he knew you better than anyone, even yourself.

The awkward silence was finally broken as you stuttered out an explanation "So-Sorry, I just-- I-- Nobody's ever made me cum before s-so I was nervous-- I-I didn't want to make things awkward by uhm, not cumming?"

Eun-jeong understood completely. Still, he shifted his hips, jostling his cock inside of you. He pulled you a little closer, sigh escaping him. "I don't care about that, puppy. It doesn't matter how long it takes; I just want you to feel good, no matter what."

You nodded hurriedly, feeling the way his cock stretched you deliciously. Honestly, this entire time, you'd been stuck at the precipice, eager to cum but unable to. Unfortunately, it's always been like that.

Eun-jeong noticed the way you nibbled at your bottom lip, your eyes flickering to where the two of you were connected. Something clicked in his mind then.

He shifted his hips again, dragging his cock out of you slowly. He could at least tell that it felt good because the walls of your pussy seemed to desperately want to keep him inside.

“How about you tell me how it feels?” Eun-jeong leaned down, his voice tickling your ear and his breath hot against your skin.

The words were on the tip of your tongue but your brain ended up blanking a little when Eun-jeong suddenly thrust his cock back in. He took your loss for words as a good sign and chuckled, his hand travelling from your waist to a little bit lower so his thumb could rub against your clit

“Don’t worry, I’ll wait. We have all night after all and I want to make sure you cum at least once.”

ryouta watanabe ★ profile

super observant like eun-jeong except like maxed out so, even if he hasn't seen you cum before, he definitely can tell what's fake and what's not

not to be like cliched or anything but your body tells him exactly how you feel and he's not had any experience outside of you but that doesn't stop him from hyper-analysing your every movement

so, yes, he can tell you're making yourself clench around him and you're making your eyes roll up and that you're pretending

and he'll definitely 100% take that as an offence LOL like what, you think he's stupid??

wouldn't talk to you abt it til after he's punished you tho

“What the fuck was that?”

Your entire body stiffened and you immediately grew nervous. Thankfully, your back was facing Ryouta so he probably couldn’t see your expression but you were sure he would at least fall for your acting.

People usually did.

He suddenly bullied his cock back into your pussy, making you whimper. Then, just as suddenly, his hand was at your face, cupping your chin, his fingers digging into your cheeks “I asked you a question.”

“I-I don’t—”

“Don’t lie to me.” He sounded angry—angrier than you’d ever heard him be like ever—and from his tight grip on you, you could tell that he wasn’t in the mood for games.

“I-I’m sorry.” You huffed, squirming as you felt him keep grinding his hips against yours, his grip on your waist making you unable to get away “I-I— Nobody’s ever made me c-cum before and I-I thought— I-I didn’t want to—”

Ryouta pulled out of you, which only made you feel rejected and guilty. Now, like everyone else, he’d be sick of you too.

Before you could say anything else, though, he turned you over so you faced him. Finally, you could see the irritated expression on his face.

It felt so out of place since Ryouta always seemed pretty much emotionless. You were always left guessing exactly what he was thinking. Now, it was obvious: what you did really pissed him off.

“You think I’m anything like those shit-heads? Those pieces of garbage that can’t make you cum?” He practically spat out, his hands cupping the backs of your thighs and spreading your legs.

You tried to stutter out excuse after excuse but the words immediately died on your lips when Ryouta ducked down and started lapping at your pussy.

You gasped, your back curving up a little as your eyelids fluttered. Oh, fuck, the feeling of his tongue tracing your folds, lapping at your clit, was something else.

One of his hands moved your knee so it rested on his shoulder and, at first, you wondered why. Then, you felt him pushing his fingers inside you, curling them in a way that made your walls clench and your pussy gush.

“Wa-Wait, Ryouta— I-I— feels weird!” You squealed, feeling his fingertips deeper than you’ve ever been able to reach. He kept brushing up against something that made electricity dance along your spine.

It made you feel like you needed to piss.

Instead of stopping, however, Ryouta just kept his dark eyes on you, lips closing around your clit and sucking as his fingers kept working you over and over.

Before you knew it, your back bowed and your head flung back as you were hit with the hardest orgasm you’d ever felt before. Your toes curled as white spots played along your vision.

“First time cumming and you end up being a squirter, huh?”

Ryouta almost sounded far away or maybe was that just your post-orgasm haze? You were still so out of it, both from the fact that someone made you cum and from the fact that it was the best orgasm you’d ever felt.

Before you could say anything, you could feel the head of Ryouta’s cock at your pussy.

You immediately looked up at Ryouta, the haze replaced with a sense of urgency “N-No, wait, I-I’m still a bit—”

Ryouta just chuckled meanly and pushed his cock all in one thrust “Did I say you could stop cumming? No, you’re going to keep going, baby, until you wring out every last drop of cum from my balls.”

emm fiala ★ casimir fiala

has had experience with each other so like they know what someone cumming looks like and, yeah, every person is different but like also you're not fooling them

they each have polar opposite viewpoints on how to deal with it though: like casimir's would be to just ignore it and keep going but emm would wanna stop and talk abt it

it's defo a lot more like eunjeong rather than ryouta cus emm calls the shots LOL

Emm suddenly stopped and you could hear Casimir let out a small scoff. Immediately, you felt a cold sweat cover you. Did they notice?

“What the fuck was that, darl’?” Emm was behind you but you could feel her grip around your throat tighten a little; not enough to restrict your breathing but definitely enough to get your attention.

Casimir, on the other hand, didn’t say anything, his hands still tight around the fat of your thighs.

You didn’t know what to say. You’d never been caught faking it so it was a little jarring to face the consequences so quickly. Were you that obvious?

“It’s fine, Emm.” Casimir huffed, rolling his eyes, and he seemed to lean closer to you as if about to kiss you.

However, before he could, Emm’s free hand pushed his face away “The hell d’ya mean it’s fine? It’s not fine.”

“Why’d y’fake it?” She pulled you closer to her, her breasts pressing against your back and her hand travelling a little higher up so she could direct your gaze to her.

Your face felt hot and you couldn’t bring yourself to look at her. “S-Sorry. I-I just— I-I thought I n-needed to…”

“For what?” Casimir sounded a bit amused by your answer but you honestly couldn’t see his expression clearly because you were pointedly looking away from both of them, too embarrassed to meet either of their stares.

“If y’didn’t wanna fuck, you could’ve just said so.” Emm added, huffing and obviously off-put as she started pulling her strap-on out of your sopping pussy.

“I-It’s not that I didn’t want to!” You immediately interjected, feeling bad that you’d ended up making them feel like they’d forced you “I-I really d-did want to! Bu-But… uhm, it’s just that! N-Nobody’s been able to make me cum before…”

Casimir laughed meanly but Emm seemed to pause at your words. Then, she sighed, and you could feel her pushing that impossibly thick strap-on back inside of you. It definitely made you whimper a bit.

“Were we at least making you feel good?” Casimir pushed himself closer to you and you finally looked up to see a smirk playing across his lips.

You nodded because they really did. Both Casimir and Emm were, at the very least, the closest to making you cum “B-But, uhm, I-I just c-can’t—”

“I think you just need a little nudge, my love.” Casimir used one hand to cup your breast, thumb playing with your nipple, while the other moved down to toy with your clit.

Suddenly, you felt Emm push against you, nudging you so you were chest to chest against Casimir, your chin resting against his shoulder. Emm’s hand also left your neck and, instead, she used both hands to grip both sides of your waist.

“The fuck’n audacity to compare us t’your past lovers.” Emm grumbled before she renewed her thrusting except, this time, there was more force behind it, like she was earnestly fucking you.

Casimir chuckled but you could hear a sinister tone to his voice “Don’t worry, my wife, we’ll show our sweet that we’re nothing like those hooligans.”

mel lowell ★ isamu lowell ★ leonard lowell

also another group that hasn't really had a lot of experience with the female gender? LOL the three of them have only ever been with each other and pussies work differently yk

if it was just isamu, he'd totally fall for it LOL he'd believe you 100%

for mel, he's less likely to believe you but he wouldn't confront you abt it? he'd just keep going until he sees a real orgasm. but it'd be that thing where it's like? was that real? (yes) hmmm, he should make you cum again just to be sure

leonard would kick. your. ass. like forreal LMAO he'd absolutely berate you for even attempting to fake it and he'll be able to tell okay! surprisingly, the youngest of the three of them is kind of the most observant loool

if all three of them are together tho, leonard wins out and he ends up beating u up (metaphorically) while isamu and mel watch LOL

“No fucking way.”

Everyone immediately stopped what they were doing and you felt a sudden anxiety overtake you. There was no way Leonard could tell… could he?

“No fucking way! I didn’t just see that! Tell me I didn’t just see that!” Leonard, who had been behind you, suddenly woven his fingers through your hair before tugging, making you look directly at his bright blue eyes.

“Tell me you didn’t just fake an orgasm right in front of me.”

Mel, who had been happily observing, fist around his cock, stood, and you saw the concerned expression on his face from the corners of your eyes.

Isamu, who was in front of you, looked like a kicked puppy.

“I-I didn’t!” You instinctually answered, shaking your head, your entire body jittery with anxiety.

“Leo, I don’t think she’d—” Mel even tried to intervene but there was no stopping Leonard as soon as he was determined to see something through.

Thankfully, he let go of your hair. However, as soon as he did, he was shoving you and Isamu down, his hand on your shoulder making sure you wouldn’t get back up.

What he didn’t let go of was the issue at hand. Though you couldn’t see his face now, you could hear the insistence in his voice “Yes, you fucking did! I know you did! Admit it!”

You shook your head, of course, still in denial. The embarrassment of admitting it to them would’ve been too much.

Unfortunately, just as you shook your head, you felt a sudden flash of pain that made you gasp. Leonard just spanked you.

“Admit it.”

Of course, you shook your head again and, like you’d expected, Leonard spanked you again. This time, the lingering pain from the first one combined with the pain of the second one and you were left whimpering.

You looked to Mel, eyes a bit watery, hoping for help. Instead, he stood there, his arms crossed, an analyzing look on his face.

“Leo, don’t bully her!” Isamu at least tried to stand up for you.

“Fucking slut thinks we’re some virgin fuck-heads who can’t make her cum.” Leonard grumbled, landing another hard swat against your ass “Doesn’t that piss you off?”

You let out another pathetic sound, eyes fluttering close as you felt the pain and heat radiate from your ass cheek. “I-I’m sorry…”

Isamu made a confused noise but Mel tilted your chin up so you were looking up at him “So you did fake it?”

You nodded guiltily “I-I just— I-Isamu was about to cum an-and I-I felt so bad— Nobody’s been able to m-make me cum before and I—”

You were interrupted by another harsh slap against your ass, making you yelp out.

“We’ll talk about it later but I want you to know that you shouldn’t ever be pressured by us.” Mel spoke to you in his rather infamous soft leader-ly voice. “We’ll do whatever it takes to make you cum so you don’t have to fake it, okay?”

You nodded hastily but your nodding was disrupted by another harsh swat from Leonard.

“And you, Leo. I appreciate you noticing and saying something but try to be a bit gentle with her.” Mel turned to Leonard and you could almost hear the exasperation in his voice.

“Now…” Mel reached behind you and it took you a second to even realise what he was doing.

He had fisted Isamu’s cock and fed it back into your pussy, not even giving you a second to adjust as the thickness spread your walls apart mercilessly.

You whimpered but happily took it.

“You have to be punished though, puppy.” Mel pet your head, threading his fingers through your hair before directing your mouth to his cock “We’ll forgive you if you let us use all your holes, hmm?”

You nodded at that, tongue already running over the veins on Mel’s cock.

“And, of course, you’ll have to cum at least three times. No faking it this time, okay?”

You sighed but agreed to that as well. Just as you did, you could feel the head of Leonard’s cock press against your asshole, pushing in slowly but surely, spreading you apart in a way that made you whine.

It would be a long night for sure.

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ghostismybbygorl · 1 year

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141 when they're angry and how they cry

Im feeling a little bit angsty tonight 😈

Warnings: self inflicted pain, ptsd, truama responce, crying, anger

Price

It takes alot to get him pissed the fuck off but when he does he blows the fuck up like full blown disappointed dad he will make you cry. This usually only happens if he had a rookie or someone close to him nearly gets killed or a mission goes SOUTH

Again it takes alot to get him pissed if he realizes he getting to that level of anger he'll excuse himself take some breaths smoke like 3 cigars to get his composure together and then he'll address the problem

He's usually just passive aggressive and says some really petty shit

Now he's a silent crier with the occasional sniffer. He's stroke his beard and rub his face with a groan. He hide his face and just silently sit there until he gets his composure. He aslo does breathing exercises to calm him down

Soap

When he's pissed of he'll get really quiet and shit himself off. He does the "im fine" and if you keep prodding at him he'll blow up in a yelling fit.

Hes a angry crier like full blow screaming crying punching things. Hes a whole hurricane when he's MAD

Now he will never lay a finger on anyone he loves if your in the middle of an argument and he starts forming tears he'll storm off and find something to punch. He keeps a punching bag around so that he doesn't have to hurt himself on anything. he wont punch the walls because he'd be the one fixing it.

He one time got so pissed he dissapeard and ghost found him curled up by a tree that had obviously taken a beating. his knuckles will be bleeding and bruised. He'll be a sobbing mess hyperventilating, hiccuping, coughing ghost would have to calm him down and try to get him leveled

Hes the screamer type crier he'll be holding something just wailing. If you ask him whats wrong he will just pull you in a hug and just let it loose.

Ghost

(Alright so in the comics he was in a abusive household where his dad would beat his mom and he would terrorize him with new foreign animals and he witnessed his dad murder a woman at a concert and he just told him to laugh it off. He was captured and tortured to near death being buried with his comrad so he has MAJOR PTSD from it so this kind of falls into the senario)

He tries HARD to not loose his composure in fear that he will be like his dad and loose his shit

Hes goes quiet and shuts himself off. Like price he'll excuse himself and get his composure together. He raises his voice and will warn you that you're pissing him off and to stop immediately. If you don't stop he'll tell you "that's enough!" And storm off

His whole aura will change and you can feel the anger radiate off of him. He's the type to go "its fine don't worry about it" if you ask before storming off to somewhere quiet

so theres this trauma response where if someone you know where to get hurt or something just makes you snap you start laughing i feel like ghost has that especially in the comics he has a ptsd attack and just starts laughing

When he has an attack he'l start with a chuckle and then it just mores into a sick laugh and itll just turn into him full blown sobbing and laughing at the same time

He's also a silent crier so if he's severly overstimulated he'l lie down and his eyes will start becoming waterfalls. No sniffles he just stares while his eyes soak the floor

Gaz

He RANTS when he's pissed the fuck off. He will call you out in your bullshit and roast the fuck outta you. he does the hand clap, waves his hands in the air everything. He's a bery level headed person but if you say something that pushes that button right be ready for a blow up

He doesnt get violent whats so ever unless the person provokes it. His dad (price lol) taught him to not start a fight but finish it and he damn well finish one.

He super sarcastic when he's irritated and is passive aggressive

"And thats why your mamas dead.... dead as hell"

When he cries he has tears streaming down his face and he does the quiet sobs that will turn into hiccups and him rubbing his eyes constantly

He doesnt cry that much (except for weddings hes a sucker for them) and he usually doesnt show anyone that he's crying (except for the weddings 😂)

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shower-phantom-ideas · 10 months

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Danny leaves Amity Park and Earth to commit to his rile as Ghost King

Ok I can’t lie to yall it’s one am and I wanted to write danny becomes ghost king and moves to the realms but misses school so asks William Lancer to skype call him during class so he can still be there. But I got very off track. Like I think I wrote a character study of jazz? I had to force myself to stop no joke. I could write this way forever but I think it’s kinda boring to read when I write in this style.

Anyway rambling here it is

Danny becomes the high King of the Infinite Realms and tries his hardest ti balance it all with his human life but it’s too much. He can’t keep up. His parents start putting more and more pressure on him. Plus their hatred if Phantom and ghosts has gone from a 10 to one hundred. Jazz thinks their obsessed, like their in love but with the idea of destroying Phantom. She no longer tries to give Danny a false hope of them accepting him as a halfa. Like he can’t see that. Every time she pulls him out if the kitchen, the living room, the lab. Hell every time Danny walks down the hall and one ih his parents join him, theres Jazz. As if summoned. Shes made it her mission to keep Danny from them and when she can’t she will do her best to make sure hes not alone with then. He thinks it’s a bit extreme and secretly is so glad for it. It’s like shes telling him his feelings are justified and that hes not crazy for being scared of his parents. That he doesn’t have to have the same fear of her. Shes on his side. Shes protecting him. And it’s nice. To be the one protected for once.

So they make a plan for him to leave. The Realms arent going ti give up or go away so he might as well go there. At least if hes nit running from his new responsibilities as Ghost King then they wont have to track him down and dump it in him once it’s piled up too much to be ignored. Hes already told Jazz hes not going ti pass up the crown. Imagine the good he can do as King. Plus hes promised that if he needs any help he will ask. So she helps him go. Their parents hardly notice when Danny disappeared from their house. Their obsession, their devotion, to Phantom has completely blinded them. Jazz is only staying because she is so close to finished here so wont have ti stay long. Less than a year and she can go off to any college she wants. Her grades are proof enough that she knows she wont tied to them and their money. She will be dependent of them and make a name for herself completely unrelated to them. These monsters who have taken her parents place.

She does wish she noticed sooner. Make she could have spared Danny so much pain and trauma had she just seen the signs. It was so clear to her now that this was their path. With every passing day she should have seen what they would become. But children love their parents regardless of goodness and she wanted to, no needed to believe they would do right by Danny. That no her parents wouldnt try to turn their son into a science experiment and strap him to a table and cut him open. She so craved and longed for a normal stable family. Something she no doubt learned doesn’t exist while studying physiology. She can’t blame herself. She knows it’s not her fault. She is still a child and still loved her parents. Even now as she makes plans to leave them and never come back to them. Even now she loves them. ‘Maybe im making a mistake’ ‘am I doing the right thing?’ The doubts pour into her mind. Then she sees them or talks to them and is once again reminded of why shes doing this. She has no doubts about if she can do it. She is smart and resourceful. She can easily make it on her own with a full ride to pretty much any collage. She would earn money as a tutor still and maybe even write articles online for cash, shes already got some offers, but that little voice in her mind still nags at her that they’re her parents and they love her. Maybe they used to but she knows they only care about one thing. Their “work” or their “science” in reality it’s their obsession. Ironic how they are like ghosts with their obsession controlling them. Unable to do anything else, think about anything else, until is fulfilled. If they just achieved their goal they would let up and maybe even return to their family. Minds no longer unable to sleep due to thoughts of their target. But Jazz could never let them. The price of her loving parents is the life of her sweet little brother. What a choice for a 17 year old to make. Have the family she was promised from all the media she had as a kid, showing familys of understanding and endless love. Or lose any hope of loving parents to help her little brother have his own loving family.

The choice was clear. She would sacrifice anything for him after all. If he asked her to give up her human life and join him in ruling the Realms she would have. Hell if he asked her to become a halfa she would have. This sweet boy whos willing to give up everything for everyone else deserves at least that. The hero who is not loved for his acts but despised, hated even, by those who he protects. A crueler fate even that his whole being obsessed with protecting them. Even if he wanted to give up on them he couldnt. She doesn’t even think hes capable of wanting to give up on protecting them. His ghost obsession keeps him from it. So she will give to the giver. He deserves just that.

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#danny phantom #jazz fenton #danny fenton #jack and maddie #seriously how to I tag stuff #I had a system for it a year ago and I forgot #forgive me I have been reading books and am In book mode #good sister jazz #she loves her brother

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khaleesiofalicante · 3 months

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and this chapter the new one is the reason why i would never stop loving my little Max blueberry, i loved him since i first knew of his existence (in teh fictional world) btlio was the second story i ever fucking picked up after completing tmi even before the rest of teh tftsa book. I ... the pain never stops, last time i was crying over arthur now i am crying over max , tbh i i was also a little biased towards max throughout the whole lbaf story ( only time i was a little furstrated was because of the mallory trust situation - but it just showed he is too good for the world my max) and DAVID?! wow that boy has literally been tortured since birth with just a good few years sprinkled in between. WHYYYY DANI WHYY, also other max did a honoruble thing choosig teh world but his FAMILY!?? wow. my max i just want hi to be alright ( and teh rafe and max scene was sooo heartbreaking but such a heart touching moment) also magnus baby stop taking credit for all teh bad things happening, buddy, you are good, believ that. wow my max ,.,, and david wow, i sort of knew it was going to come to these two choices, and wehenver i wondered about teh trigge rof the story i aways thought either arthur will die or..actually it was only what i thought, but i was like nahh dani wont, arthur is her fav baby she wont, but girl whattt, i wasnt surpised but i was surpised *insert surprised pickachu face* but i didnt forsee max having to make such a difficult choice, so now he took arthur to pandemobium, his body is disintegrated, and he truly is gone isnt he. also whoa HERMES BACK OFF BUDDY BACK TEH FUCK OFF, DONT TOUCH MY MAX, HE LITERALLY JUST FUCKING SAVED YOUR ASSES by making kincaid exist you bitch. i hope max tells him or atleast magnus does something to protect him, i know he wont let hermes hurt his kid, no wayy.

also so if in the alt uni, alec is dead when lance destroyes idris, like rafe and all everyone

ALSO THAT BITCH FUCKING DONKEY MADELINE AND KYLE (firts they hurt kincaid, and then HE SAYS BITCHY THINSG ABOUT ARTHUR ?whore ? that what that piece of shit said you are a fukcing whore pretending to love his wife and then also telling hell hurt her.

he is psychotic both of them like MADELINE THAT FUCKING BITCHJUST AS BAD AS MALLORY ACTUALLY WORSE, saying david got to hold him was more than he deserved, NOW I am like glad she suffered, PLEASE DANI DO GODS WORK AND MAKE THEM SUFFERRRRRRRRRRRR LIKE ANYTHING, nothing will be enough at this point, (ps this is actually how real life abusive toxic marraiges also exist like threatening to harm the mom to a kid and the mom who stays their willingly bc of how they believe they are dependent and love their husbands, who are emotionally manipulative.) its so hard to see for people about the suffering and people just go on like that.

mallory (sry madeline i mean, i just exhanged them in my head) (like bitch you all knew the repurcussions of going to that meeting and werent you teh one who aupported david, and wtf excuse does kyle have aother than his bruised ego to want this shit so bad) and kyle have no redemption. and like people no matter how scared just allow such inhumaness like killing kids, harming torturing them and teh fact that even in real life this has happened in history is disgusted.

thank you for all your hardwork and giving us this chapter.

I say this with my whole heart but I would literally pay money to watch you life react to LBAF chapters 😂😂😂

#annie REALLY went through it #but thank you for all the emotions it's gratifying to see if I am being honest x #lbaf

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Heyy <3 lmao welcome to tumblr !!

can you write for our boy Eren? specifically angst i love that shit

Hi! thank you, and yes I can do one for Eren and yes it can be angst, we love angst here.

pairing: Eren Yeager x genderneutral!reader

warnings: canon typical violence, not proofread.

sypnosis: After having brought Eren back from his rouge mission in Marley, you decide to pay him a visit only to be hit by a very obvious change in relations between you two.

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You contemplated walking further down the basement, stopping momentarily to take the easy way out and just leave it be. When Eren had mentioned of his plans to secretly infiltrate the Marley military, bells had already went off in your head but then when he asked you to come along, you had sternly rejected the idea.

Route of his plan was one of direct aggression and while your mind didn't conjure any new ways or strategies that could help in a peaceful conversation with Marley, you knew the effects of war and the true cost of it.

Hanji was quick to notice the cold atmosphere that was switched instantly when you had turned your heels to walk towards your destination, much to your satisfaction they didn't point it out nor forced a change, your head was too deep in already and it was too late.

Sasha had just passed and news of the extent of destruction had just waved in, too much weighed in your mind to be just switched away by small talk and minor interests.

Eren sat there with an expression on his face you would never get used to seeing, the light was dim, the cell bars cold to your touch.

"Eren," You called.

He raised his gaze before tipping his head back to it's former position and rose from his seat.

Before you could say anything, Hanji was quick to break the tension, "Were you talking to yourself back there?" Their face seemed quizzical, almost unserious.

You looked between them, Eren's gaze met yours again however he didn't reply.

"Just tell me Eren," Hanji sighed "What was your motive storming off to that Island by yourself? What sane person would make that decision by oneself?"

Eren chuckled this time, your eyes narrowing you say, "You're too far gone Eren, I'd told you it wont do anyone any better if you acted alone."

Hanji's eyes snapped to you, of course, you hadn't told anyone that you were of any knowledge of his plans, some might argue that this may even have assisted him in a way, should you have hinted at it earlier, Shasha would've been alive.

"You knew?" Hanji said in disbelief.

"Yes, because tell me Hanji," His hands made their way to your shirt collar, and before anyone could react he pulled you closer harshly to collide with cold cell bars, "What other plan would you have proposed?"

"And you," He directed his attention completely on you "I should indirectly thank you shouldn't I? But why didn't you support me from the get go, I was alone, I was in pain, why Y/N WHY?"

Hanji came forward, tried to free his hold on you. You eyes remain fixated, stunned to say anything, you were looking at a completely different person. He wasn't the same Eren you had loved, held, kissed, cherished ever since children, no. This was a man blinded by rage, desperation, this man was no longer the same.

"Eren let go, what the hell?" Hanji exclaimed, he did let go. You gasped slightly, feet taking you to move away from him.

'I will stop at nothing, for nothing." He continued. His gaze only grew colder as he said as he said the next few words,

"Even if it is at the cost of you."

#attack on titan #eren x y/n #eren yeager x reader #attack on titan x reader #eren jeager x y/n #aot fanfiction

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lvxybby · 9 months

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It kills me to love you (kai anderson x reader) Angst. (it'll get better <3) PART 2

i sat there on the bench. i became full of stress once i hung up on kai. i did way to much and i know ill get punished for it. will he beat me? scream and yell at me? lock me in a closet? i dont know. i really cant deal with him anymore. i want the things he promised me. he promised to keep me safe, educate me, stay LOYAL to me if im loyal to him, WHICH IS ALL I HAVE BEEN! he has promised me so much! and EVERY SINGLE ONE IS BROKEN! i cant take it! i wont! im tired of him calling me weak and a slut for crying over something or dressing a certain way. i have been taking all his bullshit for so long, and he doesnt expect me to feel bad? sometimes i really miss the old kai. the sweet quiet fun kai. the one who would braid my hair and kiss my cheek when im sad. i miss him coming over and talking to me about his parents. he wont tell me anything because hes so eaten up with paranoia. and vince? he doesnt help one bit. his brother is a mess and all he does is supply kai with adderall! i sat there on that bench or hours just thinking. it grew darker and darker and soon it was 10:30. i held my things close to my body. i didnt want to go back. i couldnt go back. soon i saw the familiar grey toyota pull up onto the side of the curb. kai along with meadow got out. dear lord help me. her "very real blonde" hair was over her shoulders and down her back. i sat patiently and waited. kai walked over to me and slapped me so hard i thought i would pass out. "what the fuck!" he shouted. i stayed quiet. "seriously what the fuck" meadow said "oh shut your fucking mouth you cunt!" i snapped back at her "you have no reason to be in this? why the hell are you even here?!" i continued. kai hit me once more. "you have no right to talk to her like that after what you've done" he growled. "kai i dont want to be around you! thats why i left! all you care about anymore is yourself and meadow! YOU always call me weak and a slut and a attention seeker! ALL those names and you dont expect me to get upset! I DONT WANT TO BE AROUND YOU!" i cried out "what happened to the loyalty? you promised loyalty to go both ways and ive been by your side, helping you dispose of YOUR doings! i do my task no matter how i feel! i always do what you want me to and you dont do anything else for me!" i yelled at him. he snatched my arm and dragged me to his car. i fought back, digging my nails into his skin. i clawed and dug them into his arm but it didnt stop him. meadow followed us. he opened the door and threw me into the back. i hit my head hard on the other side. i quivered as kai got into the front seat, meadow following. he put on his seatbelt and began to drive back to his house. was this it? is this all he would do? no. theres no way. i quietly let tears flow down my face. i rubbed the spot where i hit my head. it felt warm. i moved my hand to find blood smeared onto it. i covered my mouth as i cried a bit more. he stopped right in front of his house and got out. he came over by me and opened the door and began to drag me out by my hair. the asphalt scratched and cut my calves, leaving my legs bleeding. i tried to force his hand away from my hair but he never let go. he pulled me inside and slammed his door "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU" he screamed. "YOU DONT TALK ABOUT THAT ANYWHERE ELSE BUT HERE" he continued. i cried more. he dragged me down to the basement and threw me down onto the hard cold floor. my head was bleeding so much by now. i cried out in pain from the sudden force. i was in so much pain. everything hurt, so badly. "kai please" i cried. i couldnt even stand up i hurt so bad. "no im not done with you" he whispered close to me. "kai all i did was leave the house for a few hours cause i was upset! i never wanted this to happen! i left cause i couldnt take it anymore! i have done so much for you for 2 years! 2! but meadow kills a guy and it so perfect! Ive done so much shit for you! to make YOU happy to make YOU comfortable I HAVE DONE SO MUCH BUT YOU DONT CARE! SO WHY DO YOU WANT ME AROUND!?" I yelled back at him. he sat there quiet for a minute.

#kai anderson #kai anderson x reader #american horror story kai anderson #american horror story

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Untitled's Prompt Writing - Generic

This 1/3 list of Prompts that I would like to do writing on Steve Harrington (I know, I'm biased. Sue Me.)

18/1/23 - Change of plans more bois are coming into the picture 😆

All of the lists will be credited to @justforshitsandcackles - I just changed some of them to fit to the universes I will write about. I'll roll a dice thrice to know who will I do the story about, what genre and number I do.

There will be no requests, but I could change my mind over time :3

1. “You know we’re meant to be.”

2. “The thought of losing you scares me.”

3. “Would you just shut up and kiss me already?”

4. “You’re staring again.”

5. “Wow. you look stunning.”

6. “What are you doing here? It’s late.”

7. “I missed you so much.”

8. “Don’t smile at me like that. You know it drives me crazy.”

9. “Mine.”

10. “I’m going to marry you one day.”

11. “You cant banish me! This is my bed/bedroom too!”

12. “You’re seriously like a man-child.”

13. “Stop being so cute.”

14. “I feel like i cant breathe when i’m around you.”

15. “It was a joke, baby. I swear.”

16. “Are you seriously giving me the silent treatment?”

17. “Will you just hold me?”

18. “What do you have behind your back?”

19. “Not to toot my own horn or anything, but the dog loves me more.”

20. “You look really good in my sweater.”

21. “No, i’m not letting you go. It’s too early to get out of bed.”

22. “I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.”

23. “You’re so cute when you’re half asleep like this.”

24. “Lets just stay in bed.”

25. “Is that my shirt?”

26. “No, like..its just, i cant believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

27. “Can you stop playing connect the dots with my freckles?”

28. “Are you planning to stay glued to my side the whole day?”

29. “Wow- you look…amazing.”

30. “I’m not jealous! Its just..you’re mine!”

31. “You snuck into my room, at 4am…to cuddle?”

32. “This is gonna sound cheesy but….I love when you’re half asleep and talking nonsense.”

33. “What? No! I wasn’t staring…I-I was looking at something behind you!”

34. “Stop being so cute.”

35. “Tell me again.”

36. “Can’t you stay a little longer?”

37. “Because i love you god damnit!”

38. “Wait a minute.. are you jealous?”

39. “I really want to kiss you right now.” || “Then do it.”

40. “I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.”

41. “I heard that!” || “You were supposed to!”

42. “I turned out liking you a lot more than i originally planned.”

43. “Even when we were kids, i always kicked your ass!”

44. “Why should we date?” || “Because we’re attracted to each other.” || “I’m attracted to pie, but i do not feel the need to date pie.”

45. “Where have you been all my life?” || “Hiding from you.”

46. “Somehow, i always seem to end up here. With you.” || “Soulmate shit, it’s hardcore as hell.”

47. “I love you.” || “Thats nice.”

48. “How do i look?”

49. “If i didn’t know you better, i’d say you were trying to flirt by giving me books.”

50. “No! It’s your turn!”

51. “Enjoying the view, beautiful?”

52. “Be careful, he’s so sweet you might get diabetes.”

53. “I cant sleep without you. I need my personal body heater and cuddles.”

54. “How am i supposed to spoil you when you wont accept my gifts?”

55. “While i do enjoy the silent treatment, i wasn’t aware i had done anything to you.”

56. “What, you’ve never thought about us?”

57. “Why is your hand sweating so much?”

58. “So, we’re just going to ignore the fact that you drunk-dialed me to tell me you love me?”

59. “Im pretty sure your mom hates me.”

60. “You’re such a fun drunk.”

61. “Since my dog likes you then i guess i like you.”

62. “Tell them to fuck off.”

63. “It’s six o’clock in the morning, you’re not having vodka.”

64. “I want to strangle you 99% of the time.”

65. “Could you not suck for five minutes?”

66. “The ladies love a guy who’s good with kids.”

67. “You can’t banish me! This is my bed/bedroom too!”

68. “You’re seriously like a man-child.”

69. “Well thats tragic.”

70. “I’m too sober for this.”

71. “You are actually insane!”

72. “I think you’re actually satan.”

73. “It’s like -50 degrees in here.”

74. “Laugh at my jokes! They’re funny and you know it!”

75. “Sorry isn’t going to help when i kick your ass!”

76. “Don’t let one of them electrocute themselves or something.”

77. “Holy shit! That thing is huge!”

78. “Don’t kink shame me.”

79. “I hope i’m never stuck with you on a deserted island.”

80. “I just cleaned that!”

81. “Don’t get sassy with me!”

82. “What do you have behind your back?”

83. “If you interrupt me one more time, so help me god.”

84. “Not to toot my own horn or anything, but the dog loves me more.”

85. “I’m going to put on some clothes before you say anything else.”

86. “Bite me.”

87. “If you insist.”

88. “Im not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.”

89. “I need you to be my fake girlfriend/boyfriend.”

90. “Can you stop playing connect the dots with my freckles?”

91. “You snuck into my room, at 4am..to cuddle?”

92. “If we get caught i’m blaming you.”

93. “What? No! I wasn’t staring..i-i was looking at something behind you!”

94. “I locked the keys in the car.”

95. “This is why we can’t have nice things.”

96. “Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”

97. “Define normal.”

98. “Do i get bonus points if i act like i care?”

99. “Just remember if we get caught, you’re deaf and i don’t speak english.”

100. “Don’t look for any redeeming qualities. I don’t have any.”

101. “And you wonder why you’re single.”

102. “Remind me to kill you. Please.”

103. “I’m listening to you. I’m just not paying attention.”

104. “She’s crazy. and just when you think you’ve reached the bottom of her craziness, theres a crazy underground garage.”

105. “Sorry. I don’t speak skank.”

106. “My middle finger salutes you.”

107. “I don’t think i could ever stab someone. I mean, lets be honest, i can barely get the straw in the capri sun.”

108. “I don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how i feel.”

109. “Somebodys cranky.”

110. “Somebody needs to shut up.”

111. “All due respect but thats a bunch of crap.”

112. “I am one of the few people in the world who can murder you and leave no forensic evidence behind.”

113. “Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.”

114. “What did i tell you about calling him/her the devil?”

115. “That it’s offensive to the devil?”

116. “I heard that!”

117. “You were supposed to!”

118. “I’m not weird. I’m limited edition.”

119. “If history repeats itself, i am so getting a dinosaur.”

120. “You seem somewhat familiar. have i threatened you before?”

121. “Even when we were kids, i always kicked your ass!”

122. “Sarcasm is the body’s natural reaction to stupidity.”

123. “Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.”

124. “She’s hot, but she’s evil.”

125. “Do i regret it? Yes. Would i do it again? Probably.”

126. “You’re going to burn in a very special level in hell. A level they reserve for child molesters, animal abusers, and people who talk at the theater.”

127. “I’m not a damsel in distress. i’m a damsel doing damage.”

128. “Sometimes i question my sanity. Occasionally it replies.”

129. “Why should we date?”

130. “Because we’re attracted to each other.”

131. “I am attracted to pie, but i do not feel the need to date pie.”

132. “Why does everyone assume the worst of me.”

133. “It saves time.”

134. “You’ve successfully cured him/her of anything interesting about his/her personality.”

135. “Neither one of us is drunk enough for this conversation.”

136. “Wow somebody needs a happy meal.”

137. “I didn’t do it!”

138. “Then why are you laughing?”

139. “Because whoever did it is a freaking genius.”

140. “Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.”

141. “You couldn’t handle me even if i came with instructions.”

142. “Obviously you have mistaken me for somebody who gives a shit.”

143. “I’m so glad you could come.”

144. “Cut the crap. give me a drink.”

145. “Where have you been all my life?”

146. “Hiding from you.”

147. “I can tell that you think what you’re saying is funny, but...no.”

148. “If you pull out my earphones, i will pull out your lungs.”

149. “Ah, he’s playing hard-to-get. thats cute.”

150. “I feel like a freakin’ soccer mom.”

151. “My ex? Yeah id still hit that. Except this time it would be with a car or a baseball bat.”

152. “Such big evil in such a little thing.”

153. “For the love of fuck.”

154. “Yep, thats me. i love to fuck.”

155. “Are you ready to go?”

156. “Yeah. let me grab my machete.”

157. “We’re going to sephora. no machetes needed.”

158. Clears throat seriously, “Yas bitch.”

159. “No road trip is complete without the snacks. So go in there and buy everything you can fit in a tiny cart.”

160. “I’m all for making you miserable by being insufferable, but unfortunately i have things to do today.”

161. “Come on, you can help me make conspiracy theories. If you make an especially good one, ill pay for dinner.”

162. “You know what? Why not? I haven’t ruined my life yet this week. Lets go.”

163. “Do these dark circles under my eyes say nothing to you about how i am doing?”

164. “If i didn’t know you better, id say you were trying to flirt by giving me books.”

165. “What are you talking about? Im hilarious!”

166. “Duct tape? Duct tape is not going to fix this!”

167. “What did you think? That you were going to fight him?”

168. “You’re blocking the view.”

169. “I am the view.”

170. “Why are you on the floor?”

171. “Tying my shoe.”

172. “You’re wearing rain-boots.”

173. “Cant stop me from slaying!”

174. “Close your eyes and imagine it, all the dogs in the world.”

175. “Be careful, he’s so sweet you might get diabetes.”

176. “Would you reconsider if i was sober?”

177. “Stop running i’m wearing flip flops!”

178. “Why are you holding your boobs?”

179. “I wouldn’t call it stalking, more like far distance admiring.”

180. “You need to stop making her laugh! you’re ruining her makeup!”

181. “I’m sure i can get some kind of sexual gratification from just staring at him if i try hard enough.”

182. “I’m not sure if its a sexual thing or not.”

183. “I’m either in the mood for french fries or to rip someone’s head off. Hmmm. decisions, decisions.”

184. “If you’re not out of the shower in the next five minutes, i’m going to cut your fucking hair off to make your life quicker.”

185. “No, i will not dress up as a chicken.”

186. “I never told my extended family that we broke up, and now they want to know when you’re coming over for dinner again.”

187. “I need a date to my relatives wedding, and i’ve already asked literally everyone else i know, so i know you probably hate me, but please say yes. Otherwise they’ll try to set me up with someone, and they have awful taste.”

188. “One more sound and i swear to-”

189. “Sometimes when (name) texts me, i just pretend they didn’t so i don’t have to respond.”

190. “You gave our pigeon boyfriend the wrong beans!”

191. “If i’m like 50 and still single, ill marry you because tax benefits.”

192. “Please, never have children.”

193. “I know its like 11pm, but i’m on my way to your house with nacho fries.”

194. “Sometimes i wish i was gay so i wouldn’t have to deal with all these dumbass boys.

195. “You know, would’ve been nice if you told me your whole ass family was coming to this dinner! I look like a troll.”

196. “Im going to the party to pet the dog, no thanks drugs.”

197. “I hope in college i get some excuse to deck him. Maybe with a bottle or something, ill wing it and be like “oops, sorry shithead, my hand slipped.”

198. “What is this shit...i’m just trying to graduate.”

199. “Ooo, i sense attitude in your tone.”

200. “Guess who only got two hours of sleep? Me, lol, i’m gonna die.“

201. “I’m gonna strangle you.”

202. “Is that a threat or a promise?”

203. “Superheroes aren’t allowed in my house, especially after they’ve destroyed my living room. go away.”

204. “oh you’re coming. even if i have to drag you through the snow in your pajamas.”

205. “i swear you’re gonna end up getting like botox in your tits or something.”

206. “well i mean-”

207. “whAT DO YOU MEAN?!”

#steve harrington #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x you #steve harrington blurbs #steve harrington blurb #steve harrington fluff #stranger things #joel miller #joel miller fluff #joel miler x you #joel miller x reader #joel miller blurb #the last of us

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secund4 · 5 months

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a lot of times i feel stupid and ashamed to post. i feel like there’s always an invisible audience on the other side of the post button and clicking it only opens myself up for criticism ( aka being told that nothing i ever do is just good in accordance to my brain ). i know criticism is healthy and necessary, but to someone like me who has felt like they’ve been hunted for sport all their life and is finally taking a decent shot at discovering to be a person and rekindle their interests- it feels like the piercing of a bullet because there it is. there’s the reason i never took an honest shot at anything. amongst an overflowing swirling sea of love and positivity and light i will find the one off colored speckle of sand amongst the rest and my psyche will use that as ammunition to beat me into submission and keep me bored and wishing i could just act. im so deeply ashamed and embarrassed of myself and my thoughts and my body and i was made to be this way. i wasn’t always this way. i used to be so loud. i used to be so happy. i was a fountain of information and words and interests and ambitions. i wanted to be a vet. i loved animals so i wanted to be a doctor for them. ive always devoted my time and attention towards helping and healing. so why is it that i myself am so sick? i feel like a wilted flower in the most literal sense. i feel my brain thump and thud in my skull half the time. my hair falls out in clumps as i run my fingers through it. my stomach is nauseated from the moment i wake up until i sleep. and food sometimes but rarely helps. but i am so hungry. im sitting here even now thinking about this for too long and im talking myself out of expressing myself. don’t make such a fuss. don’t write it out so it doesn’t become real. stop whining, you look stupid. what do you have to be sad for really? i guess i have a lot of reasons, and whenever i tell others theyll tell me they dont even know how im still alive. or they silently nod their heads and rub my back because they have no idea how to respond to most of the shit ive been through. but it still feels.. like artificial pain. i know it was all real, but i feel like an attentionwhore for getting attention about it and liking it. what else could you expect from a neglected abused child ? they want attention. they want love. i want love. i have love. but it never feels like enough. and my hunger for it makes me ashamed. why should i have to hold the burden of not only experiencing how miserable it is to always have a hungry void in your heart, taking and taking and taking and yet never becoming any less ravenous, but also having to deal with the consequences of the responses the people that were supposed to nurture and raise me put on to me? they set me up for failiure from the cery start and here i am. in the trash and desolation that they left me. left alone and confused and vilnerable to look throigh the rubble and try to rebuild what i can, watch the unsalvageable parts of me die, and have to first get myself to a clean slate before i can even start pouring the concrete that will allow the foundation of myself as a human ti stand on stably. im losing my mind. i feel like im falling apart. its not fair. i wish i could live an easy life. this is hard and tiring work and im not sure how ive managed to pull myself by my own hair through the darkest pits of hell just to still be alive today. i want tomorrow to be the end. but i know ot wont be. i know theres going to have to be a lot more tomorrows for it to be the end, and that i have to continue to fight and fight harder through all those days to get to the end. i wish i didnt have to fight for my life just for some peace and comfort and space to be myself. i, as a cuban immigrant, never thought my lofe would get this difficult. but it has proven me wrong time and time again. it Does get worse, and it has. but it also Does get better. i can only hold on, keep tryong, and hope that it starts getting better again soon, and that the outcome will be worth all of this.

i hope we get a cat and a puppy and that i properly learn how to crochet. i want to learn how to skateboard and rollerskate. i want to read more and write more and go to parks to do it. i want to cook meals in my kitchen and get my girlfriend flowers and edibles to surprise her with after work. i want to make friends and build community. i want ti make a difference in my life and the lives of others around me. i want to be seen and known and loved and held as sacred and protected. but i feel like i have been set up with parental controls and now that ive left them i don’t have the passcodes to get in and turn them off. i have so many fake invisible walls and locks in my mind that i give full control to. they do not exist. they are not real. but yet they control me. all i can do is push forward and remember that tomorrow will bring me a whole day closer to my peace. i remember seeing a post on here where someone said they’d bake a pie when everything turned okay for them. im not sure what i’ll do. i suppose i will know the best way to celebrate the end of my long and hard journey once im in the end of it

#come back when it changes #novisoulposting ✴️

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asseater3k · 9 months

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Meta gear Mania Days:9&10

Covering after compleating peace walker so spoilers might occur under the cut

GAMEPLAY- this was a weird one it plays like a weird mush mash of phantom pain and snake eater but not as interesting as it entails. The depth of survival mechanics is unimpresive in relation to MGS3 which is fine but there are some strange holdover like the camo index and bones of the original camo system except instead of being able to swap at any moment its all pre mission since it seemed footstep noise was far more impactful on stealth than actual camo I basically never swapped out of the sneaking suit once I unlocked it. On the subject of missions the whole mission based structure was weird especially when the story is structured much more like a classic metal gear long ass mission the constant breaks actually really got on my nerves untill I remembered that it was originally a psp game and as such was meant to played in bursts on the subway during your commute to your job as a salaryman not as parted of a demented pseudo speed run of an entire franchise. What I experienced as frustrating and jarringly momentum breaking to be continued screen was in fact a gentle blessing to those dedicated office workers who would soon arrive at their stop. Interesting tidbit when you start the game you given three control schemes one of which is basically just monster hunter freedoms control scheme and is even referred to as such in the game I didnt use it although funnily enough i did end up using the old monster hunter claw in segments at the end. Another important thing to mention is that I fucking suck at this game and I think its fair to chalk a few of my annoyances at how the game played up to that fact. What I wont concede being a skill issue is that like half of the boss fights suck all three of the normal vehicles are not fun to battle and the chrysilais gave me an aneurysm. I don’t like to get mad at games and I’m proud to say I dont get mad at games very often, but the chrysalis just pissed me off. Looking back I don’t even know why, like when I think about it its not that bad like the normal vehicles are bad because they’re boring and samey but like chrysalis just hides and blasts you while shooting grabbers at you and also missiles. Maybe its just that I kept getting kind of locked up by the missiles or the small health pool or that I got unlocked and killed a lot just before I i switched back to ration from the sonar thing also i miss the trigger menus. The side ops were fine.

STORY- I don’t Have a ton to say other than its really good its very personal mostly focusing on big bosses grief but the dialog and performances where really strong David hayter goes off and does such a good job of sounding just so weary the gathering of freaks was fun and the “secret” ending was interesting but I was kinda done with the game at that point I do appreciate that strangelove’s whole motivation is being down so tremendous that she brings the boss back as an AI that was fun also I adored the motion comic style believe it was mostly shinkawa doing the art and it was amazing I love his kind of schratchy style that manages to be so utterly full of life Kaz is hilarious, and I hope Huey went to hell before he died

Moving foward- coming close to the end here I really had to beat peace walker today to have a hope of getting this whole challenge complete and grinding like that has kind of burned me out with regards to talking about it like there’s really so much to dig into especially with how Big Boss is jumpstarting the nightmare war economy that the series talks about and is about to focus a lot more on in the next game but I’ve got three hearty days for MGS4 and I’m very excited see you then

#metalgearmania

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black-rosewolf66 · 1 year

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Hiiiii^^

Yeah its me and its one of my shitty writings again..but yeah i still have no life and noone to speak to in real life..so hear me out…

Yesterday…or maybe the day before that🤔hmm or could have been 3days ago i dunno not that it matters but i was having a…you know ✨fun time✨…with an ex married couple and day are cute and i trust them its not our first encounter its just our first lets do something more not just talk…(because clearly im not good at talking we can see why…)

So there i am horny as i am always the first day after my period ended the hell of hell the first day of the worst horny season getting myself mentally ready for the things…and ehh i wasnt prepared for what came like they were playing like seriously they were talking non topic and on topic about things like a cord can be or cant be good for spanking that ass? Like things like chernobyl help i was trying to focus bevause they share great wisdom but if i try to focus on one thing i loose focus of the other so i was batteling my mind and my heart in each of the sweet sweet painly sensations…i was trying to be good and stay in position and accept the pain and feel that tingling but i just couldnt i dont even know if it was because i was too sensitive and they started at a (for me) at a high pain level or….

I was so confused i couldnt let it go…i felt quilty and i know i know…but knowing and feeling is two separate thing…i know i should accept that i dont have the practical years in me i only have what i could have studied on my own…but i was dewastated i looked like the kind of toxic girl who just says everyone can do anything to her because she doesnt have limits and that kinda thing….i felt so toxic so ashamed because i didnt know myself….but they tried to assure me that its like this with everyone..almost every beginer is like me doesnt know anything…i was devasted…i couldnt even focus it just kept on popping in to my mind how the pretty lady said she doesnt wanna do this because shes too worried about me and i hate the feeling of letting others worry about me…it was one hell of a ahit i pulled there…and i just dont know what was that…i never done something like this…i never felt something like this not wanting to submit…or atleast not to the sensation…i was scared of my self…i was scared that maybe they will have the idea that im not enjoying it because of my reactions and….and i kinda wanna do this again show that i can if i want if i do have the feelings if i do geab the moment but…

I was nervous upon meeting the kind lady of the house…i knew her ex husband the gentelman of the house but they were…strange when the ywere together they had that amazing sparkle noone had the dominating aura in themself…it was strange and when i arrived it didnt even take a 5 mins before we started…it was too soon…but i didnt know if it is something i should say something about…like when im scared i wont tell it…im just a beginner and i do believe in the experiences they have its just im unique …or im not like other hungarians i have a weak mentality i have these strange moments when i describe the sensations with colors the feelings with colors because i dont know the perfect word for it…

And well im mostly not into degradation so when i the kind lady was saying things it was kinda well i dont know strange…i know its her way of dominating but i kinda cant help myself believing the words too much taking it upon myself…

Like when they where trying to make me orgasm i was like thats a wasted plan i will be the one to get hurt really badly…and when i was saying no they were telling me first to shut up but the second time they were like what?why?…and i was line stop it and i will tell a whole story for why….but they wasnt so i said it again and then she was like than what do you want would you rather have us beet you again? And i was like wait a second what so i want a cant concentrate i just dont want my muscles to jump i just dont wanna kick you accidently if i loose control in my orgasm i just dont want this side of me to be seen i just dont want this first experience to happen now and i was like…”you know what,yes” and she was like really? And i was like “ yes,please i would rather have that” she was so confused maybe a tiny little bit hurt because she was trying to help me feel good with it and i dont know maybe the husband didnt mention it to her that i dont even like the idea of orgasm anymore…i just let go of having fantasies about having one…but here i was having a big mouth not thinking before saying anything because in the first 5 minutes i was like nope this isnt good eather i feel like its too much for my soul like i dont want it..and shortly after one hit one my ass i jumped on my ass making it hurt more i was like “god im stupid im idiot aw damn my reflexes” and they were like okay now…here is the question should we stop and i was like wait i have to collect my brain from somewhere i think i lost it….yeah better stop it..im terribly sorry but its better if its stopped… im behaving strangely…like one time i almost have an asthma attack the other time im so silent and i only see the darkness im just feel the tinglings and then the other time i feel the sensations too much i cant even control ma face which i hate to show…my real expressions are like seeing a unicorn…it aint gonna happen while im alive…

But help i lived with no regrets up until now and here im collecting a loooooot of regret in just one night…i know i did a lot wrong i was stupid for not being carefull…but i feel like i still made some mistakes i cant see i just cant figure it out and upon seeing them i just cant figure out how should i fix them the next time because i want to have a next time even if my mind my soul doesnt want my body was reacting to it so nicely i cant deny it…i dont want another trauma i wanna have a better experience…but me and the communication even if i know its key its just that im scared i will be wrong if i try to tell something…im scared i will only speak stupid things…

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bossmahal · 1 year

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Its been a week. This entire week all I've done is think of you. Last week was terrible, one of the most painful week I ever had my entire life. I thought something was stabbing my chest every minute. I couldnt stop screaming, calling out your name. Questioning why are we here now? It broke my heart to pieces when you said you'd hang with your friends rather than with me. I never felt so unloved and alone. I had no choice but to stomach the fact that I am no longer your priority. I didnt even get anything as to what you've been up to afterwards. Even the following days were hell. Even telling me straight you wont come visit me because you'd feel it will be forced. My stay near your workplace felt like my soul was being crushed to pieces by the minute. I had no choice but to accept your words. I felt so defeated that i could do nothing for you to have a change of heart then you came on my last night of stay.

When I saw you I was confused. Why are you here now? Are you here to end it all? Are you here to tell me you dont love me? Are you going to tell me there's someone else now? All these questions popped in my head. The pain in my chest only felt tighter with the silence we have. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to ask.

Why are you here? You said you had planned to come, you apologized that we couldnt be like we were before where I was your priority. I broke there and then. Asking why? What did I do wrong? Why did it come to this?

All you could say was you don't know. That there's a lot going on with your life. That you dont want anything. You dont want tomorrow. You dont even know what you want for the future. Including me.

I couldnt understand. Why must I disappear from your life? Why am I included on the things you want to disappear? Is there nothing I can do to change your mind? Something. Anything. I love so much I'm willing to try anything just to make us work.

You said you love me. That your feelings never changed. Then why? Why are you doing this? Your answer was you're not ok. That you lost your passion like the time you first met me. I tried to convince you still that of course people change. That we sometimes cant have all the time in the world for 1 person, it doesnt mean we have to give this up. You still said no, telling me I dont deserve that. You feel overwhelmed by my love. That I love you too much yet you cant give back. That you want to fix yourself first. The conversation went on and on till i gave out. Agreed with you that you want out.

I asked you if in the future when you're ok, would you want to get back together? You said yes but you know its impossible.

I swore right then and there that I would wait for you to be back. No matter how long. No matter how many years it would take. I can still hear you say you'd want that, I can still see your face about to cry as if wanting to believe me. I assured you I would wait. That I will love you every single day no matter what. So you'd better come back

You couldn't believe it at first. I reminded her how stubborn i can be. I'll love her for 2? 5? Yrs or till God knows when. I'll wait. I repeated this over and over till I felt you believed me. You promised you'd be back and when you do you'll make sure that nothing can break us apart.

I asked. Can you see it? In our future? Were together? That we were meant to be? You agreed. Nodding and saying yes.

We made love that night. It was so intense I can still feel it. Your skin to mine. Kissing every part of your body. Making you moan. You making me feel good. Everything is sitll in my mind.

Jan 21. This was the last day I saw and spoke to you. I remember all the things we talked about, specially our promise.

I cant forget that you shed a tear when you ask me to smile and I did. You told me I was beautiful and you'd miss me. I couldn't help myself but cry too while keeping my smile and caressing your face. I wanted to burn your face unto my memory because I dont know when I'll see you again. We talked about the past of how we used to be. We were just happy. As if we weren't breaking up, yet time was almost up. You have to go back to work. You checked your phone and saw my email and messenger message, i saw you cry after reading and told you'd better come back to me. You better message me. I'd answer you right away coz you're the only one I want to receive a message from. The only person I ever want to be with. So come back.

We said our farewells. Even called you till youre at the office. We didnt want the call to end. That call ending would start the silence between us indefinitely. I didnt want to lose you. I was willing to try anything even waiting if it meant having a chance even a 0.01% chance I'll take it coz right now that's the only think I can do. There's nothing I can do. NOTHING I can do for us. I will always love you and I'll always think of you. From a distance.

#heartbroken #heartbreak #missing you #i love her

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