I wanna write

But I don't know what to write

Worldbuilding and oc stuff flops. Every. Damn. Time.

Headcanons I can't seem to find an idea that sparks inspiration.

Scenarios was my last post and that flopped so motivation is low on that.

Prompt lists flop

Mc/ oc assumption games/ask games/tag games and stuff is ok but I don't get the serotonin I'm looking for by doing those

The one request I have has to do with mcs appearance, which makes me a little uncomfy and I cant find inspo for that either.

I also just...have no brain to write a series

I dont have the emotional energy to invest in writing for my 18+ blog either

So idk. Might be gone from tumblr for a bit. Content just isnt taking off and I cant figure out why. Ive tried putting things out at different hours of the day, multiple reblogs, sometimes I tag people but...I'm getting less than a tenth of my followers engaging with most of my recent posts and its really disheartening. When I had like...300 followers I would still get like 200 people interacting in some way. But now I have over 1.1k and I'm getting to maybe 50 notes and 5 rbs that arent my own. Believe it or not there is some stuff on here Im proud of and want other people to enjoy...

Im home at a sensible time ✨

Treat me ~ Tip me ~ More of me

“if you were really creating for yourself you wouldn’t be posting on tumblr” …????????????? idk about you but my blog is my little mermaid grotto of treasures. this is my collection of cute posts funny posts pretty posts fun posts shitposts my own posts. look at this stuff isn’t it neat.

Okay once and for all I am not interested in mwii's Latest Fandom Drama (it changes every week this is a general statement) and "fans of x are saying y about z!!!" and whatnot. I do not want you to put it under my nose asking for my "opinion" about it. I am 27, I work fulltime AND I am entirely irrelevant to the mwii fandom. I am the ignorer and all i do on this blog is focus my energy on sharing things I like with whoever likes it too: my blog is a place for creative outlets, mine and others' and that is literally all 🫡

I feel uninspired and lack motivation for art again so I thought of an ask game for me :)

Send me(or comment) a number from 1-34 and I will draw my corresponding oc

I mentally struggled over whether I should make this post, because ik ocs are niche and probably not many people care for it, but I realized I could have been using those hours to y'know. Actually draw something. So I might as well just post it

its very easy for public discord servers about unrelated low stress activities to eventually become health issue support and vent servers and it makes me so uncomfortable

being such a strong believer of you can do whatever you want forever and yet still being paranoid that my identity or how my attraction works is "wrong"

What's yuri's personality then? Being gay?

About Minho, being mean and making mean two liners towards Kitty every in between?

ma'am this is a McDonalds drive thru

Being an older sister who really hates it when my younger siblings have friends over at our house really makes me reevaluate all of those “Rude older sisters who seem to hate everything” tropes in shows and movies where when I was younger was always like, “Umm??? Rude much??? That’s your little sibling and their friend, be nice??? It isn’t hard???”

It is hard. Get these random children out of my house

Omigooooooaaaashhh 😭😭😭 your last post!!! Somebody PLEEEAASE SAVE BAATAR FROM HIS OWN MIND!! I literally know the feeling of fighting with yourself and your own thoughts and it's truly exhausting, nerve wrecking and draining!! But to have them centered around people who have extraordinary powerful abilities that literally change both the physical world and spiritual world HAS to be torture!! Omigosh by beautiful baby boy needs therapy!!

NO FOR REAL IM TRULY BEGGING HIM TO SEEK A GOOD THERAPIST LIKE SIR PLEASE 😭😭

Kuvira can just see on his face when he starts Thinking Too Much and then has to divert his attention lest he be consumed by the horrors of his own thoughts kshsjs Baatar doesn't like being fussed over like he's helpless and she knows that, but she can't help but check on his heart rate often to tell if he's having an anxiety spike or not. Especially when they're in public because it happens. He'll suddenly realize he's just surrounded by people who he can't ever know the intentions of and he'll just start quietly internally panicking and Kuv can't help but pick up his heart rate through the ground and have to go rescue him from himself :')

Like when he was captured and held hostage by Korra and she threatened him with the Avatar state, sure he called her bluff but that has to be the number one fear of any non-bender because what could they possibly do in response to that? He pretty much had his fear of being subjected to the mercy of someone with bending realized- in the worst possible scenario imaginable, and all he could do was try and talk his way out of it. And yeah Korra would have never hurt him in front of his family but he was still humiliated in front of them all the same. He's a champion at masking his feelings on the surface but I can only imagine how heart attack enduring as a non-bender being threatened by the Avatar themselves would be.

He's got so many mental anguishes going on at once, his status as a non-bender, how that has damaged his relationship with his family, his identity crisis, and also how he internalizes how Kuvira has felt outcast and he just reflexively gets angry for her. The man truly needs a mental health intervention because insisting that he can handle it all on his own has not been going as well as he thinks it has ajshsj

I've reoccuringly daydreamed about the scenario where Baatar does start going to therapy and detangling all his cumulative damage and feelings like that's truly what I want for him the most, some mental peace ;;

Let's be honest it's not cus Aegon.. Aemond would be 100% toxic with anybody and everybody lmao

Aemond is significantly way worse but I don't think Aegon is exactly roses.

Tbh i see many ships whether canon or crackships from f&b to be "toxic". The debate is how much?

Of course by toxic/unhealthy I don't mean to imply to not ship them. Hell, I'm drawn to darker dynamics myself. But I won't lie and pretend they're the stereotypical malewife x girlboss that many fandoms seem love putting their favs in

I think Timekeeper should have sat this one out. Genuinely. You don’t need time travel powers to predict how a popularity contest with them ends. 

do you ever feel like some people dont understand the difference between pity and sympathy/empathy? (people don't even know the difference between those two, to be fair) giving someone sympathy or having empathy for them is not the same as pitying them. someone trying to reach out and seeking or expecting sympathy from you or wanting empathy isn't wanting you to pity them!!!!!! dont mix the two up 😭

4 am thoughts

Be honest guys, if I do a DTIYS challenge, how many of you will actually participate?

EDIT: if this post has made you think about whether or not you are autistic, im really glad! i hope you get some better understanding of yourself and are able to find community and support

however before you go and tell a therapist and seek an official diagnosis please read this thread and consider the points made therein:

autism is highly stigmatized. be fully informed about what you gain and what you lose from having an official diagnosis before seeking one.

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people do correctly identify that laios is autistic fairly often but a lot of the reasoning begins and ends with his special interest and social difficulties, but honestly it goes far deeper into the build of his character than just those two things

his pain tolerance is wildly inconsistent, unable to tolerate a drop of hot oil (or any heat) but able to shrug off both his leg being bitten off and it being reattached

hes sensory seeking in the extreme. he rubs the bat bones against his face, pets and fluffs the shapeshifter tail.

his desire to eat monsters comes from three very autistic places. 1) the rules for why monsters are not okay to eat but animals are are arbitrary to him so he cannot follow them easily: he cannot understand the 'feelings' argument others make. 2) this too is a sensory seeking behavior. he wants to experience these new things, new flavors and new textures. 3) it completes his knowledge of the monster in question to also have data on its edibility. because he cannot draw that arbitrary line around all monsters, he wants to evaluate them case-by-case and see if real patterns emerge. butchering and eating the monsters improves his knowledge of them greatly and highlights their importance in their ecosystem, as well as making him a part of that same ecosystem

he cannot emote the way others expect him to. he compartmentalizes his feelings (to an unhealthy degree) because he needs a pragmatic solution. so as long as there is a problem to solve, that matters far more than evaluating his emotions and allowing himself to experience them. while this is also a coping mechanism for ptsd, it is a trait found in many autistic people regardless of trauma, as we have trouble sorting the feelings we have and often need time to think about what we feel, so it becomes easier to simply not do it and pretend we dont need to. laios emotions certainly affect him, with or without his processing them, but others do not see what they expect to see and thus dismiss that he is feeling what they would feel

he is incredibly gifted with pattern recognition, observation, and analysis within realms he understands. to understand subjects that dont come easily to him, he must filter them through his established schema (his special interest--this is why they are so special! they help us sort the world). when he isnt sure about the social cues and details hes observed in the shapeshifter arc, he filters it through the lens he understands best: monsters. he was making correct observations about his friends all along, but he could not be confident in that the way he was about their behavior when it came to his interest (chilchucks caution, senshis passions, and marcilles carelessness)