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south-sea · 1 year

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i’ve always thought gerald was too complex a person to describe in only a few words or motivations. it doesn’t really sit right with me to think of him in all black or white terms. obviously he loved deeply; look how hard he worked for maria. obviously he hated just as deeply; look at what he became, and what he made shadow into.

good people can still do horrible things. bad people can still do good. just because a person is categorized as “bad” doesn’t mean they aren’t, or weren’t, capable of being everything someone would expect out of a person categorized as “good”, and it goes both ways.

i like to think he was primarily a warm person. but as much as i want to assign a gentle grandpa-like character to him and leave it at that because the idea of shadow having that pure kindness is comforting, i think more realistically he was a mix of warm and bitterly cold in all the moments that mattered most.

he would praise shadow—but only in the sense of what he was supposed to be: you’re perfect, because i designed you that way. you’re perfect, because everything about you is tailored to be in the image of your purpose and what i consider perfect. when you succeed, you’re perfect. when you keep maria safe and comfortable, there is no one better.

never would that praise be for shadow as an individual.

but neither would his criticisms or disappointments be either; you couldn’t stop her pain. you couldn’t cure her. you were supposed to cure her (never mind that that was my goal). you are a failure (never mind that this is projection). you are imperfect (never mind that this is my fault).

all said under his breath or in the ways he acted or moved or things he implied. he’s not so black and white where he was always ever kind, or always ever abusive. he was soft and welcoming and would treat shadow with the same familial warmth, and then there would be the occasional cracks in his kindness and hope when he would get angry or frustrated and say things he could never take back. like a parent in a moment of weakness blaming a child for the divorce.

#shadow the hedgehog #gerald robotnik #sea talks #figured with all the discussion happening about the robotniks i’ve seen floating by tonight #that tonight would finally be the day i put these thoughts down somewhere too #eggman deserves his own post because while i also find him to be complex #he’s complex in a very different way #and someone else already mostly covered that #didn’t mean it to sound all preachy either i’m just in writer mode so everything is just Dramatic #this is also a #second chance au #thing

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10holmes · 1 year

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Just re-read Going Back The Way We've Come again because I was feeling nostalgic and craving some sweet angst and because I still love this fic of mine so very much.

Anyway, I am now mentally and emotionally stuck in a painful daze reflecting on chapter 2 - where Xiao Xingchen's past is relived - especially concerning that personal headcanon of mine that I included there.

Back when writing this chapter, seeing that canon apparently wasn't painful and tragic enough, I thought:

What if XXC and XY had almost met sooner?

What if there had actually been a slim chance that XY would have even not encountered Chang Cian at all... but Baoshan Sanren instead, back when he was seven?

What if Baoshan Sanren actually descended her mountain once a year to look for orphans and then came to Yueyang that specific year?

And what if she had allowed then ten-year-old XXC to come with her and help her look for a potential child to join them?

This would have actually been the perfect grounds for a little canon-divergence AU that's all happy and cute with maybe some minor angst.

But as I am fond of gut-wrenching and soul-splitting pain, I decided, let the possibility be there but then have them miss that chance by a very very very small margin.

And now I've made myself cry because it is just so damn painful to read and think about that missed chance... The two of them almost meeting... Xue Yang being so close to a happy childhood, not having his hand crushed, his finger turned into pulp or almost losing his life, not going on to commit all of the attrocities later on, and then Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan would also not have had to go through any pain and emotional and physical torture either...

There could have been that wholesome happy future for all of them... But it was missed by just a heartbeat because Xue Yang had been detained elsewhere, got back too late and wasn't there when Xiao Xingchen could have chosen him but selected another orphan first...

Oh the sweet sweet pain....

In a similar way, I thought long and hard about their actual first encounter in canon and why it escalated the way it did and, yet again, my angst-driven self was like

What if all of it was in fact ultimately just based on one big unfortunate really minuscule misunderstanding?

What if what each of them thought they heard or what they said was not at all perceived the way it was intended to and what was meant to be said and heard?

What if they had even been trying to say something but were interrupted too soon and didn't get to say what might have been significant to diffuse the tensions and avoid any growing resentment?

So we might have Xiao Xingchen, who is actually quite smitten with young Xue Yang already, despite his rather unruly behaviour, and even muses about the younger’s potential as a cultivator when receiving the proper training, but before he can even begin to say anything along those lines, Xue Yang, who is already or still too heated and angry by Song Lan's attack, interprets XXCs manner all wrongly as self-important and haughty and interrupts him to lay words in his mouth and thus never learns of the man's true thoughts...

Another twisted knife to the heart for another possible diverging path to a better outcome not being taken...

And now you may lie with me, staring at the ceiling, contemplating our existence...

@verycatbluebird & @ba0shanblack

#xue yang #xiao xingchen #xuexiao #the untamed #cql #mdzs #XueXiao fic meta post #Going Back The Way We've Come #fic musings #inflicting angst and pain and emotional damage to me and my readers #almost forgot to tag #this is also a #SongXueXiao #fic #And Song Lan plays an important role as well

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tobeblamed · 1 year

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verse reboot: nothing ever really ends — [ post-series ]

sam and dean embrace their newfound freedom and retire. they take a couple of years to slowly move out of the bunker and move into a cabin in the woods. dean rebuilds bobby's garage and opens a small business providing car service to the locals. he even works on improving his health by limiting his drinking habits.

everything works out well, too well.

at some point, dean starts to doubt that this is the kind of life he wants for himself. he realizes he misses hunting and starts to wonder if this is it.

and that's when he wakes up.

because a djinn can only keep someone dreaming away a fantasy world, as long as they stay happy in it.

when dean wakes up, he's surprised to find out that sam ( @sunsymbols ) is tied up next to him, dying slowly while still sleeping. they were sharing the same fantasy this whole time. dean pulls out the tube that's been draining out his own blood and rushes to help sam, shaking him to wake.

they've only been gone for 2 days. but in their minds, it felt like 2 years.

with fresh memories of a fantasy that, for the first time, is actually attainable, sam and dean gather different learnings from their individual experiences. tension grows between the brothers, as sam refuses to go back to hunting and dean refuses to retire.

dean does not talk about this experience to anyone right away.

disclaimer: not all post-series interactions were just a dream. we can decide together if we want them to be, or if we want to start out fresh. feel free to ignore this verse if it doesn't work for you.

#timeline v: nothing ever really ends [ post series ]#this is also a #psa.#if you DON'T agree with this verse we don't have to write in it #the show's given me 15 seasons and 50 au's #there's plenty of other options babes

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zeldaelmo · 1 year

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Bahaha, I learned how to code Tumblr posts for Ao3

It's over for you all 🤣🤣🤣

@silentprincess17 wanted something with a zelink baby and you all have to put up with my dubious humor😬

#Yes the typo in the tags is on purpose #😆#zelink #zeldaelmo writes #advent calendar #This is also a #wip wednesday

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suga-parade · 1 year

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it just hit me that we finished dr. stone and i haven't looked for fanart yet

#disgrace on my cow #this is also a #trini warns #omw to fill up my queue

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locomotive-idiot · 2 years

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so i have i mentioned im mostly on a roblox kick

#roblox #trains #the game is called streamlined btw #fun fact #this is also a #trans europe express #:)#anyways #see you next time all

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dxwnxdusk · 2 years

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He’s playing the violin right now. It’s not exactly a song since he’s testing it out after all this time. Trying to find a place to start. He can recall so many notes and yet time has not worn away his skill in this field. Perhaps it never will be able to. That’s quite the thought. For now? He experiments with different notes.

#Worn Letters > Dash Commentary #this is also a #Open Starter

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bonesandthebees · 2 months

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one of the most infuriating things about becoming an adult is when you realize that it actually is 10x easier to solve problems by making a phone call vs literally any other communication method

#I was forced to get over my hatred of making phone calls bc of this #one 15 minute phone call is the equivalent of 5 back and forth emails #also if you don't know exactly what you need help with you can just ask and you can get real help #instead of just desperately clawing at faqs on websites #it's infuriating that it works so well #ramblings

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liquidstar · 2 months

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i always think abt my cousin in greece who's like obsessed with american culture, bc ill say that im going to a barbecue and she'll be like "wow.... a real life american barbecue... will there be red cups?" you bet your ass there'll be red cups. take my hand. have a hot dog. all your dreams can come true here at the real life american barbecue

#she needs to visit so i can take her to a mall #the food court alone will blow her mind #shes like 14 so claire's and/or justice would probably also blow her mind

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kochei0 · 2 months

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I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

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vamprisms · 2 months

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i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.

#like majority of the time kids are not just 'being naughty'. they have big feelings inside little bodies it's a lot #also like.#it should be illegal to dye your hair fun colours if you aren't prepared for kids in public to ask if youre related to a my little pony #EDIT: the notes on this post are an absolute cesspool. i don't care about your reasons for hating kids you sound like a disney villain

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butchfalin · 6 months

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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chikinan · 1 year

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the idea that your friends won't like you if you're too weird is wrong for example one time I told a friend whenever I was losing my mind I laid down on the floor under my desk and stared at it until I was better and next time she visited me she taped a bag of salami snacks to the underside of my desk with a message saying "going insane all by yourself, handsome?" which I only saw months later when I had a breakdown. that's friendship.

#snack was delicious also #mati barks

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bookwyrminspiration · 4 months

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god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

#executive dysfunction #shitpost #every day I get stuck in waiting mode for SO LONG and SO MANY TIMES #that one time I tried adhd meds it fixed it but then I. was like no I am going to be scared and not continue taking it <3 #and also. I simply did not like the psychologist and did not want to have to go back #so. rawdogging the world <3 #man if I could start a task right now...then you'd see...then you'd all see....

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trashy-greyjoy · 4 months

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really love dynamics that are like 'it honestly doesn't matter if you view them as romantic or platonic, the point is that they love each other. the type of love is inconsequential, all that matters is that it's there'. gotta be one of my favorite genders.

#who cares if its platonic love who fucking CARES if its because they wanna kiss like the devotion and the tenderness is there no matter what #mainly brought to you by: jack and anne from black sails but also probably sydcarmy and msr #sydcarmy #msr #rackhanne #the bear #black sails #txf #the x files #mulder x scully #sydney x carmy #jack rackham x anne bonny #oh wait perhaps also theonsa if you squint #maybe not

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cactuseri · 4 months

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collection

#seri.txt #these just made me laugh idk 😭 my mom and dad r also both like this #idk if someone’s posted these before but idc #seri’s hits

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