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roseofdarknessblog · 5 months

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Family gathering (Postwar!Levi Ackerman x Reader)

Word count: 3 140

Disclaimer: english is not my first language, I apologize in advance for any mistakes

Summary: You and Levi finally introduce your baby to the rest of the family.

This story can be read on its own or as a part of my little post-war series: Learn to live again

Family gathering

Being back in the tea shop after giving birth felt even better than you expected. Even if you only came to visit Levi for short periods of time. But it was enough time to make sure that he really had everything under control even without your help. At least for a couple more weeks.

Being new parents wasn't easy, not even the slightest, but you were adjusting. Learning every single day, that having a tiny little human living under your roof was about changing or adjusting one too many things.

Despite that, Levi and you couldn't be happier. In your newborn daughter, you saw the reason why you fought so hard all those years. She truly was a beautiful representation of the future you wanted humanity to have.

„I think they know something is up,“ Falco said, when he walked into the kitchen, that was at the back of the tea shop. Here, you used to bake many of your sweet and savory goods, which were then sold alongside the best tea in the whole town.

„Yeah, probably. But that's fine, something really is up,“ you said, smiling at the boy.

Until now, only he, Gabi, Onyankopon, and Yelena knew about the little Ackerman baby you and Levi welcomed into this world seven weeks ago. Nobody else from your friends knew you gave birth, or even that you were pregnant in the first place. You and Levi decided, that it would be better not to tell anyone and let things unfold on their own.

However, now it was finally time to introduce your precious little miracle to the rest of your family. To all your beloved friends, who fought alongside you these past few years. To the people, who helped you create a safe world to bring your daughter into.

„Is everybody here already?“

Falco nodded, gently taking your daughter's hand. She loved him so much and lately always smiled when they were together. „Yeah, they're talking, having tea and sweets but you can definitely tell they suspect something. Mainly because you're not there.“

„I think we should go see them, right?“ you asked your daughter in a sweet voice, stroking her chubby little cheeks. In some way, they very much reminded you of Levi's. Just like her silky black hair, her blue-grey eyes, or her cute little nose. She was the sweetest little copy of your husband in the cutest ways possible. „You're gonna love them, darling. And they're gonna love you.“

When the little girl looked at Falco and smiled, both of you smiled right back at her with so much love. The boy truly loved her as if she was his little sister.

„Hey, Y/N! Come and join us finally!“ Jean screamed for you from the tea shop, making you chuckle and kiss the top of your daughter's head, who tried grabbing the collar of your shirt.

„I'm coming, settle down. All of you!“ you called back, taking one last deep breath. Falco walked back to the shop before you, giving you one more moment alone.

The moment felt almost surreal. Holding your baby and getting ready to introduce her to so many important people. Not even that long ago, you would never even dream about doing something so magical.

„Now, I have a very special surprise for all of you. Can you close your eyes?“ you asked them before opening the door.

When you walked into the main part of the shop, everyone was there – Armin, Connie, Jean and Mikasa. Even Reiner, Annie, and Pieck came, along with Gabi, Yelena, and Onyankopon who didn't even need to close their eyes. Together with Falco and your husband, who was smiling at you ever so slightly.

„What do you think? What is this big surprise?“ you asked them excitedly. But before anybody said a word, your daughter let out a loud cry to get everyone's attention, before she smiled up at you. Almost as if she knew what was happening. „Okay, I guess it's not a surprise anymore. Open your eyes,“ you said, smiling happily at them.

The awe on everyone's face was so worth keeping this whole thing private until now. Connie and Armin looked at you as if they'd never seen a baby in their life before. But that was probably because of their last visit when you were five months along and still barely showing. Under the right pieces of clothing, they had zero chance of noticing anything. And now, half a year later, you were standing in front of them with a baby in your arms.

„So... we called you all here today, because we wanted you to meet someone very special,“ you said, looking over at Levi. With a slightly pained expression, he stood up from his wheelchair and walked a few steps to stand next to you. „She'll be two months old in a couple of days. I hope you can forgive us that we kept such a big thing a secret until now. It was...“

„We wanted to make sure everything will turn out okay,“ Levi said when you couldn't find the right words. „And then we wanted to soak up every little moment with her. Just the three of us,“ he added, wrapping one of his arms around your waist. It was a gesture full of love and also a way to help him stand more securely because of his leg.

It almost seemed that everybody was too shocked to speak. The first one to stand up and come up to you was Jean. He smiled, looking at both you and Levi. Then his soft light-brown eyes wandered to your baby, looking her over very carefully. He offered her one of his fingers, which the little girl took with such excitement, seeming happy that she was seeing a new face.

„She's beautiful, Captain, Y/N,“ he said proudly and with a happy smile.

„Oi, where did you get that baby, Y/N? When me and Armin were here a few months back, you surely weren't pregnant,“ Connie shouted, hurrying to you as well.

„I can assure you, that I was pregnant at the time. Five months pregnant, to be more specific. I just hid it too well,“ you chuckled, stroking your baby's hair. Her eyes were wide open with curiosity while her tiny hands were playing with Jean's fingers.

„Was she, Captain?“ Connie asked Levi, not wanting to believe you.

„Where do you think we got a baby that looks like me if she didn't give birth to it?“ Levi questioned him, his brows furrowed. He may looked annoyed with all the commotion, but by the tone of his voice, it was obvious, that he was enjoying having them all here.

„She really does look like you, Captain,“ Armin said, coming to stand between Jean and Connie.

Behind him, Mikasa followed a little shily. You gave her a warm smile and motioned to her, to come even closer. „Would you like to hold her? You're blood-related, after all,“ you said to her, looking over at Levi, who nodded at your words.

She seemed a little hesitant but eventually nodded in agreement. After showing her, how to safely hold the baby, she took her from you and carefully cradled your daughter against her chest. The little girl looked confused when she first looked up at Mikasa, but after she grabbed a strand of her hair everything was okay.

„She's adorable, congratulations to you both,“ Mikasa said, smiling at both you and Levi warmly. You've barely seen her since the Rumbling, because she went back to Paradis, so her presence right now was even more precious. „What's her name?“

You knew this question would come. And you were preparing yourself to answer it without too much emotion. But suddenly... when they were all here, standing around you and waiting for your answer... it felt almost impossible to explain the meaning of your daughter's name without making everybody way too emotional.

She got her name after a person, who was very dear to you and Levi. And to all of the 104th as well. It was a person, who was supposed to be here today with all of you as well. And also the person, thanks to who you got one more chance to fight the Rumbling and win.

„We named her after Hange,“ Levi said in a calm voice, seeing you struggling a little. „Zoe. Zoe Ackerman.“

„The meaning of her name is... life,“ you added in a quiet voice, reaching out your hand and stroking your baby's back. „I guess it's more than fitting, don't you think?“ Feeling your eyes welling up with tears, you looked at your friends. A wild range of emotions was seen on their faces – sadness, surprise, and also happiness.

Armin was the first one to speak up, leaning closer to Mikasa and taking the baby's hand, shaking it very gently. Such a sweet gesture made all of you chuckle. „It's more than fitting,“ he smiled at her warmly. „Nice to meet you, Zoe. I'm sure we'll be very good friends once you grow up a little.“

The sweet tone in which Armin talked to your baby melted your heart completely. Feeling unimaginable happiness, you looked over at Levi and kissed his cheek. The way he was watching the scene right in front of you, was more than beautiful. His expression was relaxed, almost completely pain-free. The look in his eyes was soft and loving towards all the people standing around you and introducing themselves to your baby in the funniest, yet most adorable way possible. She was all smiles, while she was looking around and taking in all the new people.

So despite looking so much like Levi, she surely didn't get her personality from him.

Connie was the one, who made her the most excited. Mainly, when he held her in a way that she was able to pull Jean's hair. But he truly couldn't be angry with her for even a second.

„Hey, you three. Come on, don't be shy,“ you said to Reiner, Annie, and Pieck who were still standing a little to the side, only watching the others happily fuss around your baby, who was making a lot of loud excited noises.

Once they were your enemies, they wanted you dead. Now they were here amongst your closest friends and family. In a way, you forgave them for almost everything. After having a couple of difficult talks, mainly with Reiner, you gained a new perspective of them all. And through that, things between you and them started changing. Gabi and Falco also helped a bunch, too.

„It's okay, we wanted you here and we're happy that you came,“ you said to them, stroking Reiner's arm and smiling at the girls.

„In a twisted kind of way, but we're all here thanks to you, too,“ Levi said to them, his grip around your waist tightening. His knee was starting to trouble him after standing by your side for a few minutes.

So after you made sure, that your baby was truly in good hands, you helped Levi walk outside the tea shop and sit down on a bench right next to the door. A heavy sigh escaped his mouth when he finally sat down and took the weight off his left leg.

„Good? Are you okay?“ you asked a bit worriedly, sitting down next to him. While your left hand started rubbing his back comfortingly, you leaned closer and kissed his cheek.

„Yeah, sure,“ he mumbled, taking a couple of deep breaths to ease the pain.

„It went well, didn't it? They were all so surprised and happy,“ you chuckled, resting your head against his. The voices and laughter from inside were heard pretty clearly, so you didn't have to worry. „And right now, they have probably a couple of minutes before she starts crying. Either because she'll be hungry or because she won't be able to find us.“

Levi smirked, wrapping his arm around your waist again, to keep you close. Despite the pain, he still seemed relaxed and content with the way today turned out. Everybody's reaction made it certain, that you and Levi did the best thing when you kept your pregnancy private.

„It's all so bittersweet. Having so many of them here and still missing a bunch of people,“ Levi said, his fingers gently stroking your side.

„They are here with us. In a different kind of way, but still.“

You could see all of your fallen friends and comrades in your baby's eyes and in her every smile. All the things they did and for what they sacrificed their lives, made it possible for little Zoe to be born. You and Levi were grateful to them every single day. For their bravery, resilience, and determination to make the world a better place.

Hange, Erwin, Sasha, Miche, Nanaba, Nifa, Furlan, Isabel, Moblit, Petra, Eld, Oluo, Gunther... Eren...

All of them and many, many more gave their lives a long time ago, so you and your friends could have this life. In one way or another. Looking back, there probably wasn't a way to save them. To spare them from death. All you could do was continue living your best life and honor them by being happy.

„Who would have thought, really? That we would make it here all the way from the Underground,“ you sighed, running your fingers through Levi's hair lovingly.

„We made it far, that's true. And...“ he shrugged, smirking at his own words, „I'm kind of excited to see what's next, now that we have our little girl. She's going to turn our lives upside down so many times.“

„That's what parenthood is about, right?“ you chuckled, grabbing his free hand and holding it tight. „We're doing good. Learning and making mistakes. I'm so glad that everything worked out in the end and that we have her.“ Having a baby was an adventure like no other. In the end, all the sleepless nights were worth it, when you saw your little angel smile at you, with her eyes full of innocence and pure love.

„Just wait until she starts walking and running around. That's gonna be a disaster.“

„We'll just have to keep up with her.“ You gently took Levi's chin and turned his head, so you could see his face.

He was still very handsome, no scars or a missing eye could change that. For you, he was the one and only. Since you were a teenager to this very day. All those years, it was Levi. And you were more than sure, that it would stay like this for the rest of your life. Nothing and nobody would be able to change your mind, because Levi was all you'll ever need – with all of his disabilities, which sometimes still made him feel a little self-conscious or worried, that he wasn't good enough for you. He was more than enough and you never failed to remind him that. A day never went by without you reminding him, just how thankful you were for his love and his presence in your life.

„I love you,“ Levi said, leaning in for a kiss. His soft lips pressed against yours, making you forget about everything else.

„That's really good to know because I love you too.“ With a smile, you brushed a few strands of hair from his forehead and kissed the tip of his nose. „I'm proud to call you mine and be yours.“

His sweet little smile had a very strong effect on you every single time you got the chance to see it. Mainly, when said smile reached his eyes and made him look so carefree and young. Seeing him like that, nobody would be able to tell how many horrors he had to suffer through.

Levi rested his forehead against yours, reaching for your left hand. He brushed his thumb over your wedding band, finding your lips in another sweet and love-filled kiss. Time seemed to stop around you at that moment.

But only until you heard a loud cry from inside the tea shop. Just moments later, Connie hurried outside, eagerly trying to return your baby into your arms. „Guess she doesn't like when someone pinches her cheeks. But they're so adorable and chubby, I couldn't resist.“

„They remind me of someone else's cheeks,“ Mikasa added, standing in the open door, her eyes focused on Levi with a playful smirk. You bit down on your lower lip, trying not to laugh, while Connie was grinning so hard, he had to turn away.

Levi, a little flustered, shook his head upon them and took his crying daughter into his arms. You watched him gently cradle her against his chest, planting a couple of kisses on the top of her head, while he rubbed her back.

„The brats made you cry, huh? Don't worry, you'll get used to them,“ he said to the baby, looking back at Connie. „And you'll have them wrapped around your finger in no time,“ Levi added and kissed her forehead in the hopes of stopping her from crying more. But little Zoe knew exactly what she wanted and cried until Levi didn't hide her in his embrace from the rest of the world, while he lovingly started scratching the back of her head. Lately, this has become the most efficient way to calm her down. „There, sweetie. That's better, right? No need to cry.“

Connie chuckled at the sight. „Well, Captain. Seems you're already wrapped around her finger. I've never heard you talk so sweetly to anyone, not even to Y/N.“

Jean and Armin came to stand by Mikasa, all of them watching the sweet sight of Humanity's Strongest being a completely different person when it came to his own daughter. All of them changed so much during the past few years. But when you looked at them in that moment, you still saw the kids they were, when they joined the Scouts. The kids you grew to love and swore to protect. The kids, who became your family long before such a peaceful life was even a possibility for all of you.

What a shame not all of them made it this far.

Not having Sasha and Eren here felt strange and painful. It felt like you failed a little. But just until you looked back at your daughter. Her cheeks were still wet from tears, while she was so adorably clinging to Levi. In her still teary eyes, you saw Sasha's dedication and Eren's bravery.

And that was what mattered the most.

Having your family here with you and showing them just how much they meant to you. How much you loved them and how happy it made you, that they came here today to meet little Zoe Ackerman.

#levi ackerman #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman x you #levi ackerman x female reader #mikasa ackerman #armin arlert #connie springer #jean kirstein #aot x reader #aot x you #attack on titan #snk #shingeki no kyojin

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itripandfallalot · 6 months

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I'm sure I'll post more TSS, but for now, have some Shel thoughts on TWS (featuring the British editions, because why deal with the silly American ones, when you can have 3 versions of the books - digital, US paperbacks and English paperbacks? Stroud, you're welcome ◡̈ )

(Clearly, I had trouble prioritizing what passages to pick, and the last one is prime example of how not to highlight, since I underlined the entire page.)

I love these scenes though, because as I've mentioned before, we know that Lockwood and Lucy liked each other very early on, but I think this is one of the first instances we see Lockwood wrestling with his feelings and backing down from them as a result. @dangerously-human posted a brilliant analysis on Lucy's denial of her feelings for Lockwood, and here we see Lockwood grappling with the same denial and ultimately forcing himself to refocus on the mission, as a result. (Side note: When Lucy tells Lockwood they're so similar in the beginning of TEG, it's like yeah, you two are both idiots.)

I get it—Lockwood has lost everyone he's loved, so any feeling close to that, he's going to push back on, because to love someone might mean he'll lose that someone. Isn't that what life has taught him (and yet!! the wonderful miracle of Lockwood is that he just keeps on loving... kind of like my dear ol' boy Harry Potter)?

He legit knows Lucy is watching here, and he's totally showing off for her. When has he ever demonstrated a move like this to George? No, Lockwood is totally flirting with Lucy during this scene.

But then, Fittes comes up. We get a reminder that this isn't any world, despite how immune our heroes seem to be to its horrors sometimes. Lockwood recognizes that ultimately every agent is just a kid risking their life. This is important, because while Lockwood is certainly starting to blur the lines with Lucy, at the end of the photos I've taken, he pulls back. Why? The mission.

He's a kid with a horrible past. In TEG, he mentions that it seemed random—his parents, Jessica— but it wasn't. Up until now, it almost borders on revenge. Obsession. He doesn't have hobbies. He refuses to dwell on the past. He spins and thinks and strategizes about the next case, and then the one after that. He has no sympathy for ghosts. He wants to end them—all that matters is the mission, for the pain it's caused him, for some of the emptiness it's left him.

But then there's Lucy. He gets sidetracked. We even have George noting here that he's surprised that Lockwood has already told Lucy this much. And yet, he still holds back. We don't know who beat him at the Fittes tournament, and he doesn't tell Lucy until TEG.

He's completely in denial here, and even though we see him open up slowly, he still always orients back to the goal at hand, as he continues to struggle with his feelings for Lucy. And so consistently, he refocuses and pushes them aside.

Until we see that he can't after Lucy leaves—how wrecked he was without her. And it isn't really until this point that he truly, really starts to open himself up to her—not his past, not his thoughts as a leader, but himself and how he feels about her.

He takes her to his families graves in TEG, and if that's not a sign of vulnerability, trust, and faith, then I don't what is.

But what I find the most interesting? We don't get that Flo backstory from Lockwood until much later, after the graveyard. Huh. And it comes after Lockwood realizes that his parents didn't die in a random car crash—almost like his life wasn't random at all.

I actually think it's kind of huge that Lockwood saves this last piece of information for last. Because it's a funny story that's meant to cheer Lucy up. Defeating Marissa is important, but it's no longer about the mission at this point. Not really, not anymore. He's found peace with that. It's about Lucy, and I think, in this moment, he fully and 100% accepts his feelings towards her.

Yes, you can argue it happened when he tried to give her the necklace the first time, and it was Kipps who interrupted them, and blah blah blah. But Lockwood could have found a way to give Lucy the necklace again before the attack on PR. But he didn't.

And isn't it interesting that the undying devotion necklace is something still tied to his family? But the Flo story and how she beat Lockwood? Nah, that's all Lockwood, and it's something of him—without the weighty ties to his family, still somehow so wrapped up in the Problem—that he shares with Lucy. And it's this innocent moment, this moment of joy, that's so inherently pure and lovely, and largely unrelated to the bigger threat, that sigh, my heart. This to me, this is the moment. And all these other moments, I've highlighted above set us up for this.

#lockwood and co #lockwood & co #l&co book spoilers #anthony lockwood #locklyle #lucy carlyle #tws #teg #thb

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kafus · 4 months

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if you ever feel up to it, i'd love to hear how you got the mew. hearing stories about people and their pokemon is really fun.

SOMEONE TOOK THE BAIT LET'S GOOO i wanted to talk about thisSDFFDKS

anyway i got my hadou mew through basically a miracle encounter - back in 2020 i was buying a lot of older pokemon games to fill holes in my collection, either games i never owned or games that i lost over the years from childhood, and as for my missing gen 3 games, i ended up going for japanese copies of firered and sapphire instead of english because having foreign carts is neat but mostly they're just a lot cheaper. buying secondhand pokemon games is always fun because often times the seller doesn't wipe or even check the save file and especially if the save file has a lot of playtime, they're like time capsules from a stranger right. so both games come in and the sapphire has nothing interesting but i'm perusing the boxes of this firered and uhhh

LMAO my initial reaction says it all, i literally just found this thing on a completely random firered cart i bought! it was not advertised to have mew in it on the ebay listing, in fact the seller i bought from sells a LOT of imported japanese pokemon games (and other gba titles) so i imagine he just has a pile of these and he picked out a random one to mail me without so much as checking what was on it.

of course mythical pokemon on gen 3 carts are dubious, it's not like it's particularly hard to gameshark a mythical pokemon, especially considering that i've gotten a secondhand file before with shit like a box full of Deoxys caught at level 2 on the first route in hoenn LOL... so i was pretty serious about checking for legality on this thing as best i could - backed up the save file and inspected it in pkhex, all data was 100% accurate to the event and also reasonable RNG wise, like normal random IVs and stuff... checked for archived versions of this event mew, none of them were identical to online injectable ones, which means the owner couldn't have downloaded and injected it... and most of all, context clues

here's ancient pictures of this mew traded to my english leafgreen so it's readable for everyone - i had not done anything with this mew yet so it's completely untouched from how i found it here. we can tell from looking at this that whoever owned this mew was training it with the exp share as its still holding it and is level 23 despite being met at level 10, and the moveset... solarbeam, mega punch, dragon claw?? very random moveset that i can only imagine a child using. this mew looks like it was played with by its owner legitimately. additionally not shown here, the firered cart had a lot of playtime and like 2/3 of the dex complete, the boxes were full of pokemon that the owner had been breeding and a few unhatched eggs, like i hatched one and it was a completely normal eevee so they may have been getting extra eevees for pokedex purposes etc.

basically i cannot 100% confirm this mew was obtained legitimately without teleporting back in time and getting that japanese movie preorder bonus myself, but there is literally nothing strange about this mew and the save file it comes from is well loved and appeared to be played by a child doing normal pokemon stuff. so for all intents and purposes, this mew is definitely legit to me. actually insane happenstance. i have never gotten anything this crazy from a secondhand file before

think of it this way. some japanese kid in 2005 preorders a pokemon movie > he goes to the store to redeem it for a mew in person. in 2005. in japan. > he plays with the mew a bit > at some point he stops playing pokemon > he sells the game to some random american seller after never wiping the save or removing the mew > the american seller buys jp pokemon games in bulk to resell on ebay so he has a ton of them and probably doesn't check them for what's on them or the old save files > when i order it from this random ebay listing, the american seller picks a random fire red cartridge out of his bulk stash and mails it to me > it ends up in my hands 15 years later after the kid first got this mew

like holy shit it's a small fucking world huh

another old convo from the RM discord because i'm nostalgic about it, i had just started talking here at the time... i'm gonna be honest the ribbon master challenge and the people i met through it genuinely changed my life and this mew came into my life at the perfect time so it means a lot to me on top of being insanely cool

anyways i went on about that longer than necessary but yeah bless my mew i love him

#kiki was here #asks #anonymous

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teriri-sayes · 11 months

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Reactions to Miracle Creator's Chapter 141

TLDR; Cale and HD casual talk. BD and Raon talk. 1/3 of Purification over.

Soos? LSH = ✅ CJS = ✅ Both of them are just mentioned standing and watching the purification.

Lots of Talking Half of the chapter was just conversations. Cale and HD are on casual terms already that Cale even uses "Yah" (or "Hey" in English) to call HD. 😊

Do you remember Array Formations? They're the murim version of magic circles. The array formation surrounded HD to suppress the released dead mana. Enter BD and Raon's conversation. The array formation was about to break because the dead mana was too much, so our Raon reassured BD that he would handle it, creating a black shield.

Poetry (Again) Of course, every time the Fire AP is used, there will always be poetry of its appearance and effects. But this time, gray clouds and rose gold lightning even fell from the sky, so poetic descriptions were inevitable... 😂And perhaps, more people converting to Caleism 🙏🧎

Purification Begins No blood-coughing yet. Fire AP said that it was easy even when lightning descended from the sky. So our Cale was feeling confident and relaxed. He was also using the divine stove during the purification.

I drew Cale and HD's positions before the purification began:

The array formation (blue lines) is actually bigger, but I made it smaller to fit the drawing.

HD was sitting cross-legged on a platform.

The raws said that Cale took a seat, but did not say if it was on a chair or on the same platform as HD. I opted for a chair because it looks better.

Cale was holding the divine stove on one hand, and his other hand was touching HD's back.

Ending Remarks Not much happened this chapter, so it was disappointing for me. Only a third of the dead mana has been purified, so next chapter will be the continuation. Perhaps we'll see the blood coughing by then 😂

#tcf spoilers #trash of the count's family

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goosewriting · 1 year

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Okay I've got an idea so you remember when in the rise movie Leo is saying goodbye to his family and then gets Portales in the other dimensions with the krang. What is the reader saw this happen like right in front of their eyes and they're running to the portal like "NO!" and the then it closes.

Then later they're with Casey/ or by themselves just making their way to the others not knowing that Leo's alive (could be because their phone broke or something) so when they see Leo with his brothers and stops. Then Leo turns around and see the reader, he makes his way over to us.

Then we just smack him (plot twist 😱) then he stops.

We then start yell at him about how that we could have stopped the krang together and how scared we were that we would never see him again and he should never do something so stupid ever again. While we're say this were like sobbing, voice cracks everything. Just us trying to hold it together but failing miserable, Then going "and- *shakey breath noise* a-and"...

While Leo slowly pulling us into a hug, our eyes widen and then we sob into him then Leo just petting our hair and whispering comforting stuff. Then after we stop hugging but but also not like were holding on to each other making our way back to the other very slowly because we're both very VERY injured. Then we apologize of smacking him and griping his hand tighter.

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Sorry this a lot but I've had that idea in my head for a hot minute and just wanna see it come to life.

Anyways Make sure to take breaks and and eat food because you deserve it for all the amazing story's you bring into this world. Have a great day

When he was gone (rottmnt Leo x reader)

summary: reader sees Leo stay back in the prison dimension as the portal closes and thinks he’s gone for good.

relationship: Rise!Leo x GN!reader (established)

warnings: angst, comfort at the end, mention of the Krang and injuries

word count: 1.4k

A/N: i was in the mood for some angst and i’ve been wanting to write this one for forever now. sorry it took so long (and for the lame title lmao)! i hope this is along what you imagined ;;v;;

(english is not my first language. constructive criticism and grammar corrections are very appreciated!)

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“Casey, please!” you heard Leo pleading. Pleading for him to close the portal, while he was still on the other side, holding back the Krang.

You lied on the ground, or rather on the floating debris around the technodrome; remainders of the battle that had just taken place. While you had fought to the best of your abilities and given it your all, the Krang still seemed so much more powerful than all of you. You clenched your fist, hearing Leo screaming again.

No, you thought. We’re not leaving you here. We need you. I need you.

Painfully getting back up on your feet, you started walking towards where you could see Leo fighting the alien. Then you started running, sprinting as fast as your limbs would allow. Daring to look down to where Casey was standing in front of the gate, your blood ran cold as you saw him snatch the key from its platform.

“NO!” you screamed, stretching out your arm towards Leo as the portal started to close. Your vision was completely blurred from your tears, but you kept leaping forwards until the explosion of the gate closing knocked the breath out of your lungs and sent you flying.

You hit several pieces of debris, and by some miracle you managed to land somewhat safely on the actual ground, although you were pretty sure you had broken something. Still, the pain in your heart was so much worse than the physical one. Clenching your shirt over your heart, you all but wailed and screamed.

It was over. He was gone.

You were curled on the ground for what seemed like an eternity, but had likely been only a couple of minutes, until you felt the stinging pain in your leg and chest; probably a broken rib? You tried getting to your feet, but winced and immediately fell back down. Looking at your already swollen ankle, you concluded it was sprained. You dared giving your body a once-over and realised you were covered in cuts and bruises everywhere. Blood stained your shirt where glass shards had cut into your flesh. You carefully picked them out one by one, biting on your bottom lip.

Once your breathing had somewhat calmed down, you tried getting up on your feet again, switching your weight fully onto your good leg. Taking your phone out of your pocket you realised it was completely busted. Another wave of tears streamed down your face. Hopefully you could recover the pictures of you and Leo. You suddenly thought of how you didn’t have a single printed out photo of him, and a bitter laugh escaped you in between sobs.

If anything, you had to get back to the other turtles. So you grabbed some piece of metal that was the right length to use as a crutch, and started your slow and painful way back.

You kept crying to yourself with every stride. The ache was too much to bear. Several times you had wanted to just give up and let yourself be engulfed in self-wallowing, not caring what happened to you, but you knew that’s not what Leo would have wanted, so you continued to take step after step, breath after breath.

The sun had almost finished setting when you heard familiar voices. Quickening your pace, you walked around the corner to see Raph and Donnie supporting Leo, Mikey besides them, as they also made their way back home.

You called his name, and Leo looked up to see you limping towards him. He freed himself from the grip of his brothers, meeting you halfway and ready to take you in his arms. To everyone’s surprise, when you stood in front of him, you let your makeshift crutch fall to the ground as you slapped him across the face with all the force you had left.

Behind him, the brothers winced and looked at each other, but no one moved.

“Have you lost your mind?!” you all but screamed in Leo’s face. “We could have stopped the Krang together! Do you even know how scared I was that I would never see you again?”

Leo stood still, his gaze soft, as he let you yell at him. You pointed at him accusingly.

“You better-” your voice cracked as you choked down a sob, shaking. “You better never even dare to do something this stupid again, Leonardo. I swear if you-” but you couldn’t continue as you started to cry again, sobs impeding you to talk any more.

Leo took one final step towards you to close the distance and embraced you in a hug. You reciprocated and shamelessly put all your weight on him, as your sprained leg was about to give out. He grunted softly as your arms snaked around his torso and gave him a squeeze.

As you cried into his chest, he kept stroking your hair, whispering reassurances.

“It’s okay” he spoke softly into your neck. “I’m here, I’m not going anywhere.”

After a while when your sobs had turned into sniffles, he pulled back slightly to look at you, wiping away some of your tears with his knuckles.

“We should get going. We’re all in pretty bad shape” Raph said from behind. To which you agreed, reminded of your own state as a sudden streak of pain made itself known in your leg, going from your ankle to your hip.

“Can you walk?” Leo asked, holding your arms to stabilise you. Your eyes were closed shut because of the pain, so you just shook your head.

As Leo started letting go of your arms, you opened your eyes in panic, but he kept holding your hand in his, even when Raph picked you up to carry you to the lair. Donnie was once again at Leo’s side to help him walk. The rhythm of the snapping turtle’s walk started lulling you to sleep. Despite the pain, the exhaustion took over, and soon enough you were out cold. Still, your grip on Leo’s hand did not loosen.

— — —

When you woke up, you were all patched up, lying in Leo’s bed. Lifting your arms with a grunt, you saw several bandages covering the glass cuts, as well as an IV. You looked down at your leg and sure enough, your foot was now in a plaster cocoon. You leaned back again and sighed deeply, hissing through your teeth as you felt the shock of pain in your chest.

“You should take it easy” Leo said as he entered the room, sitting down on the edge of the bed. He held a cup with a lid and a straw in front of your face. “Drink up” he commanded.

You obliged, and took several sips. As he placed the cup on the side, you saw he was also donning several bandages and band aids.

“And why aren’t you in bed?” you asked. Clearly he had also taken quite the beating.

“I already was. I’m better now, and you need someone to take care of you” he replied and took your hand.

“That’s unfair, I also wanna take care of you” you whined. Then you went over his words again. “Wait… how long was I out?”

“Five days” he simply said, caressing the back of your hand. “Actually had me quite worried for a bit.”

“There’s no way you’re healed in just five days” you retorted, ignoring the fact that you had just slept for almost a week.

Leo just snorted at your reply, glad that you were alive at all. And that he was here with you. Together again. You both remained in silence, enjoying and appreciating each other’s presence.

“By the way” you said after a while. “I’m sorry.”

He raised a brow in confusion.

“For smacking you…” you explained and hid your face with your other hand. “You didn’t deserve that. I mean, you kinda did after what you pulled, but I didn’t mean to hit you so hard.”

“Eh, I’ve survived worse” Leo shrugged and smiled at you, squeezing your hand tighter.

“Still, I’m sorry” you apologised again and cupped his face. As he leaned into your touch, you pulled him down towards you and gave him a lingering kiss. He hummed and smiled into the kiss.

“Maybe I should get smacked more often” he joked and you gave him a warning look. “I’m kidding~” he laughed. “You don’t need to smack me to get kisses.”

#goose feathers #rottmnt x reader #rottmnt leo x reader #tmnt x reader #tmnt 2018 #save rottmnt #rottmnt #tmnt leo x reader

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theythemitalian · 1 year

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it's so funny when high schoolers say shit like "how could romeo and juliet do this they're so stupid." because they don't know where verona is and all the stage performances are in english.

ROMEO AND JULIET ARE FUCKING ITALIANS

its a miracle they don't do something more stupid than mutual suicide jesus christ these fucking wops can't be trusted

#italy slander #romeo and juliet #shakespeare

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tymime · 8 months

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I'm very alarmed by how many people are dismissive of the lost media community, even going so far as to spread misinformation about them. I've seen them characterize lost media seekers as ignorant whiners and brats, and that they're wasting their efforts. Do these people have any idea how difficult it actually is to find this stuff? It can take years, if copies even exist. Don't they value art preservation?

You'd be astonished by how many shows that are barely twenty years old that have simply vanished, with no clear indication of whether or not the copyright holders kept a record of it. When fans try to contact the people involved in the show, they often refuse to answer emails. These aren't old, aging shows from fifty years ago, decaying in some film can. These are shows from as recent as the 2000s and 2010s.

There's been a toxic attitude going around big media companies for a couple decades now, treating their IPs (and their customers) as disposable, moving on to the next thing as soon as profits dry up. This is a big part of the reason media becomes lost in the first place. Old show not getting enough ratings? Need to make room for a new show? Just get rid of it! Now, some of these examples aren't lost media, admittedly- but they definitely could have been, if not for an on-the-ball internet pirate downloading and backing them up. There's a series from 2002 called Whatever Happened to... Robot Jones? which hasn't been on the air in about twenty years. The original audio track was missing for many years, and had to be pieced together from several sources, with the video elements coming from a foreign dub. There was a music track heard in an episode of SpongeBob called "Humpback Hop" with several minutes cut from it, unheard of for two decades, and even the composer had lost all of his copies of it. It seemed like even Nickelodeon didn't have it in their archives, because they rerecorded it for a DVD menu. It's a miracle somebody finally tracked it down. There's a series from 2007 called Out of Jimmy's Head, whose original English version is still half missing. Even though by all accounts it's a crappy show, I still want to see it. (update: This show has been found, thank goodness.) And even though I'm not a fan, there are dozens of 2010s Cartoon Network shows that were once on HBO Max, that are simply gone. They're not in reruns, they're not officially streaming. You have to resort to piracy to view them. I wouldn't wish this fate on anybody. The Willow series from 2022 was taken off Disney+ mere weeks after its debut, just because not enough people watched it. It's stuck in the middle of a storyline.

Nintendo has been notoriously bad about this. They don't want you to play any NES, SNES, GB, or N64 games that aren't the most iconic best-sellers. They take down ROM websites, even if most of the games there aren't first party or being sold in any way. The only way to legally play a game that isn't available on the Switch is to pay hundreds or even thousands of dollars for a working console and cartridges. Most people can't afford to do that.

If it hadn't been for the efforts of unofficial programs like Ruffle and Flashpoint, thousands of flash games and cartoons would be unplayable and unwatchable.

Even if the cartoon is safe and sound locked away in some vault, instead of missing entirely, it still winds up unseen that way. The public has a right to see a show they used to be able to see and enjoyed, instead of it being unviewable for all eternity. "Oh, but they have a right to not let us see it! They own the rights to it, after all, and can do whatever they want!" some might say. What if WB went out of their way to destroy every DVD, Blu-ray, and video tape of Looney Tunes, and locked away all their copies? Would you feel the same way then? Would we not have a right to see them? Would you just roll over and take it, and let corporate overlords tell what you can or can't watch? Just shrug it off and say "Oh well, guess I'll never see it again"? How would it not irritate you? TV and movies aren't the same as some painting or statue where usually only one version of it exists in some museum or private collection. Media is meant to be distributed and seen worldwide, for everyone to enjoy in their homes. If they're stuck in some warehouse on some hard drive, they may as well not exist.

It extends out into other aspects of our lives- old buildings get torn down instead of getting restored, vintage interiors get torn out or covered up by something modern or ugly. There was a time when films and video tapes were routinely destroyed to make room for new ones, because nobody thought anybody would want to see them again. We need to get past this destructive pattern.

Am I grateful for streaming services and the content they make available? Of course I am. But as many have said before, they could take it all away, and a show can simply vanish, leaving fans to resort to piracy just to see it, if anyone even bothered to save it beforehand.

Being dismissive of these efforts is the sort of attitude that's part of the reason media gets lost in the first place.

#lost media #streaming #cartoons #animation #disney plus #cartoon network #disney #hbo max #flash #ruffle #flashpoint #nintendo #media preservation #preservation

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morkaischosen · 7 months

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Gal shouldn't be here.

The Craft Sequence is a very contemporary fantasy, and one with a realistic- if not cynical- view of power. Again and again our protagonists find themselves up against gods and corporations, establishments with the very most established positions, and have to use every edge at their disposal just to keep some kind of hope for something better alive. There aren't any knights in shining armour coming to save them. Except...

The Ruin of Angels deftly sketches in a picture of Camlaan - an insular island with Imperial dreams, spinning tales of love and heroism as it sends its thugs to project its will outside its island borders. It's a familiar picture to me as an English reader, and its mythology is so clearly a justification, a comforting self-deception for the iron fist of an immortal queen. You can't say "a true knight wouldn't-" because the knights who would are real, and the ones who wouldn't just a story they tell. Except...

The Ruin crew are thieves. They have their motivations and dreams, and they're risking life, limb and legal process to score artefacts, and for all Raymet's preoccupation with scholarship and heritage, that seems to be a side-hustle to the crew's overall goal: profit. And yet, somehow, one of the crew is a storybook knight with an unbending code of honour. It's not that she's a hypocrite, not exactly - the climax of her arc with Raymet wouldn't make any sense, wouldn't have remotely the same emotional impact, if I didn't feel in my heart that what Gal's willing to justify (what she feels is just) is the most important limit on her behaviour - but she's like an invader from another story, too wild and pure to live by the rules of this world.

And all of that is vital to her place in the book.

We see her, largely, through Raymet's eyes, and our sense of genre brings us right along- how are you even real?

But the book carries on, and she keeps being like that, and eventually Raymet curses her out, and the people who made her into someone who just doesn't fit the world that really is, and- "I don't understand this. I don't understand you."

Gal reads like the intrusive work of another, better world, and part of me resents her for that; but once I accept that she really, truly is only and completely what she seems, the only word for such a senseless thing is miracle.

It's a book about love. It's a book about a lot of things, but when I read for Raymet and Gal, it's a book about love. Disbelief, and fear, and the blossoming of joy as you realise this is real, you're here, all the reasons you shouldn't be just don't matter because you are.

That's how it feels, sometimes.

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This week's campaign of Galposting is brought to you by @swordswomanshowdown and my discovery that I'm willing to put a whole lot of effort into trying to get people to vote for a character I adore in a Tumblr poll tournament.

#max gladstone #the craft sequence #craft sequence #ruin of angels #the ruin of angels #yeah we're on the full Tag For Visibility plan here I'm not fucking around #galposting

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keeyisbored · 1 month

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Orthodoxia - Guichiry ENGLISH LYRICS

I made english singable lyrics, not sure if they're the best but idk if u plan to use them please credit BoreedKeeys on youtube - that's my name there!

the-the-the god said miracles happen so often so if you believe you may just receive one pray your prayer, wholeheartedly pray by yourself, wholeheartedly devote all that of your voice devote all that of your arms devote all that of your tongue devote all yours to the lord the wishes that they wish each one of them is a life worth returning to

-well…-

blind followers go marching in packs no matter who, they all simply search for a life the "correct one" thats secondary, quinary even their selfish wishes - you see, status quo even thats what broken can be reborn all anew thats all just such a stupid fucking lie thruly, there are no such things you see, once more another pretty lie.

Give up your life away each desire I will gladly take I breathe through each misforune that meets your worthless soul! devote! devote! The world was never a wonderful, place to live in any fucking way Those whom are saved by the flattering, fake idols around No correct doctrines await them.

A-A-A-Another time he has said, "miracles fool you again, such stupid fiction they say, its all a lie wont you say?" Even if, still pray on, wholeheartedly pray all by yourself, wholeheartedly devote all that of your all devote all that of your heart devote all that of your breath pray with all yours to the lord So jealous, and envious, they all go, drown in their, greed in such, gloomy lives.

-Though..-

blind followers go marching in packs no matter who, they all simply search for a life the "correct one" thats not something they themselves decide self-sacrifice's = not so justified can broken leaves be alive through such miracle? only frivolous idealism floats around further, you misunderstand your belief again, once more, my voice cannot be stopped so-

Religious fanatics revolve all around whoever comes along with their ride will die the saints recite scriptures, saying "we'll die, so pray down to the lord!" Religious fanatics revolve all around whoever comes along with their ride will die the follower's runaway, laughs all alone look, hey look, so ugly isnt it?

Taking your lives away devouring each wish you say I breathe through each misforune that meets your worthless soul! doubt! oh doubt! humans was never such a wonderful, kind to live in any fucking way and those who couldn't be saved by the worthless scamfull idols around there are no more doctorines left for them.

all of your lives devoured all you had's been devoured I breathed through each misforune that has met your stupid, worthless soul "was love really not, a wonderful thing in the world?" what in the hell are you trying to imply?! hypocrite!

Your lives taken away- desires eaten up till they're gray I breathe through each misforune that meets your worthless soul! hate! such hate! So the way as I am "you reap what you sow" I say

Those who've been saved by flattering idols wandering round Their worthless, unrewarded lives worth complete nothings Their unslight stupidity and beauty of living theres no teachings left for them at all!

#orthodoxia #guichiry #vocaloid #english lyrics #translyrics #singable lyrics #english translation

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mmmmalo · 9 months

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Feeling my way around...

Lord English having 88 eyes to invoke the HH of Heil Hitler (an approach initially suggested to me by @th4nkyoub3n) is, in addition to being similar to eugenicist Cronus's SS scars (hidden by the Harry Potter reference), weirdly consistent with two interpretations I'd made of the Jubilite logo. One read is that it's an eye with an X of red clown paint bleeding hauntingly into (or out of?) the sclera from/to the skin, symbolizing a perceptual confusion of interior and exterior that speaks to the uncertain status of Z's "delusions". Another read is that it's an adaption of an obscure Hitler Youth pin -- hyperlinking doesn't work for me on mobile, but the images are juxtaposed in my Psycholonials tag. That and the burning police station adorned with the 6 pointed star suggest that Psycholonials, like Homestuck before it, counts antisemitism among its conspiratorial lodestones.

So the motif of a fascist gaze persists -- perhaps that's even part of the work's self conception, given the ways the works situate themselves, however mockingly, within hostile worldviews. But if there were a more tangible "juice" around which the story might situate its liquid notion of perceptual essence, I guess it would have to be... wine? There's a running motif of raiding and depleting the wine cellar at Abby's mansion (which twitter's ghostopal found was sourced from Martha's Vineyard), and then a plan to annex Martha's Vineyard itself... but it's not clear to me what, if anything, is being "abstracted" in the presumed perceptual paradigm that seems to be at the core of this brand of paranoia.

I feel like I should return to Dave's piss motifs -- he was partly on a quest for a sense of Realness, and part of the paranoid attitude towards abstraction in Homestuck is a sense that it steals the magic from miracles, siphons out the juicy Realness of direct experience. Psycholonials seems less concerned about this metaphysics of humors, afaict, but maybe reviewing Dave's stuff would offer a more transferable paradigm... (I suppose Z drinking siphons the Realness from reality insofar as they're getting drunk, but I'm hoping for something... else. Dunno what)

#psycholonials #Antisemitism

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Just read your drabbles and I feel like you captured the both of them really well!

It didn't quite occur to me initially that kaito would still experience his seizures. :/ if I rmb correctly, they're caused by his constant use of time magic? So his body is reaching its limit. In that case, wouldn't causing his paused time to go again make the situation worse? I'm wondering what form kaitos healing will take, because it seems that for clamp, extending a life means immortality -> Yuko's situation, which wouldn't really fit here either.

Wow thank you so much for reading them!! 🥲 It might seem like I'm seeking validation around (I am), but for me it's really the first time and I was so nervous, for many reasons, not necessarily connected strictly to fanfictions. Writing is really a "world" I've never dared stepping into. I'm also worried about how my English sounds, so there's a lot of insecurities converging...

Anyways! Yea I have the impression that MANY people haven't grasped Kaito's situation from the finale very well, and again I would blame the ENG translation for that, but it's not only that. I feel like CLAMP have glossed over the specific fact to not ruin the atmosphere of the "happy finale", but what they made the characters say is pretty clear. The fact that his time is stopped didn't erase the pain he's been constantly experiencing since long time (the so-called "seizures", which have been there even before the play started), cause if it was enough to also halt completely his seizures, Sakura would've asked Akiho もう辛かったり痛かったりにはならないってこと？ ("does that mean that he's not going to have a hard time and feel pain anymore?"), but sadly what she said is もっと辛かったり痛かったりにはならないってこと？("does that mean that he's not going to have a hard time and feel pain more than this?"). A single word can change so much. Stopping his time means that his overall situation is completely frozen at the point it was before he ended up engulfed by the Seal of D and turned into a dragon. He's not going to age, but his pain won't stop either. But this is literally what's keeping him from dying, because those seizures were meant to become worse and worse, till they would've eventually killed him. That's why Sakura is relieved to hear that "they aren't going to get worse than this". In the bigger picture of things, it's still something to be relieved about.

Now, what Akiho explained they're going to do is to find a magic that would cure him FIRST, AND THEN find a magic that could make his stopped time move again. It's very conditional to the fact that they can find a "cure" for him, and the cure is pretty much bound to extending his lifetime, cause as you have mentioned, Kaito is having these seizures cause the time magic he had used shaved off his lifespan, in the first place. This might mean that if they can find a way to "cure" the seizures, then the lifespan will automatically be extended too. I don't exactly know how CLAMP have envisioned this.

But yeah, once you dig deeper, you can actually understand just how difficult things are going to be for them from now on. It's not going to be easy to find what they're looking for. Still, we're literally talking about bringing back a guy that was supposed to be trapped forever in a dimension where time was destroyed, eternally condemned to solitude in an inhuman shape. Moreover, even if you removed the Seal of D there was still his complete lack of self worth and care for his life, which brought him to use time magic to that degree and eventually bring his body to its limit, at death's door. What everyone was capable of accomplishing in the finale is literally a miracle. Having Kaito alive, even if a bit sickly, is a miracle. I'm absolutely certain that if this was another one of CLAMP's manga, for another demographic, there's no way that Kaito would've been alive and with Akiho, by now. Because the "death flags" were so many for him, and we know how CLAMP are. Everyone gotta bear the consequence of their choices, in their manga. And it's not like they've "let him off the hook" easily either, even for CCS standards.

So yeah, as I said elsewhere some days ago, I desperately need to see a bit of serenity and happiness for them in the special chapter, I need to see for certain that despite the difficult path they've chosen, they're really going to be happy together. 🤞Not only for Kaito but mainly for Akiho too.

#reply #clear card arc #cardcaptor sakura #ccsakura #akiho shinomoto #yuna d. kaito

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ofdarklands · 1 year

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character theme

What instrumental track would play in the background of your character's story during their most meaningful moments?

Tagged by: @emcapi-ffxiv

had to go on a hunt because unlike other characters of mine i have not actually made a playlist for mitr'a or andvari

i've chosen one instrumental and one with lyrics for each because i can :)

magus (:

this character is old enough to drink in all countries of the world. immortal bastard man who got exiled from reality for crimes, though that didn't stop him. age betraying songs to follow:

youtube

literally can not not put this. it has spent 20 years in my mp3 player nonstop

youtube

atrum (anima)

pretty sure i was listening to this whole album while creating and playing him, though it never quite ended up in the party playlists i made. man of convoluted past, stole a guy's body accidentally and then later on purpose. unintentionally mocked the second guy about it. wizard stuff

youtube

we lost the campaign in the end, so as one of the survivors you can imagine he's not doing too hot:

youtube

andvari (ff14)

pretty young in my mind yet, but i'm having fun so they get a place. they're a 117 year old viera on their third variation of life path. they're here for new things! so, fun song :)

youtube

and obligatory mildly worrying song for summoner wols

youtube

mitr'a (ff14)

my love for blind guardian won out over other options :) this would be more the wol... impression i guess. wol from outside? the wol legend, if you will

youtube

and this one... i decided this was his song in heavensward and i shall stand by it

youtube

english translation below:

only death lasts for all time it whispers under the pine branches must pull all into its darkness even the sun will burn out

but have no fear, we are with you one last time, we sing

adieu, goodbye, auf wiederseh'n the last road you must walk alone one last song, one last kiss no miracles await adieu, goodbye, auf wiederseh'n the time with you was beautiful

from life you step off quietly the soul goes in silent journey (silent journey) the flesh perishes, the soul rises the self will surrender to death (yes)

in the end you are all alone but we will be with you

adieu, goodbye, auf wiederseh'n the last road you must walk alone one last song, one last kiss no miracles await adieu, goodbye, auf wiederseh'n the time with you was beautiful

everyone dies all alone (all alone) but you will always be with us

adieu, goodbye, auf wiederseh'n the last road you must walk alone one last song, one last kiss no miracles await adieu, goodbye, auf wiederseh'n the time with you was beautiful

#not tagging anyone because i am lazy in that #if anyone wants to play consider yourself tagged #music #rol #atrum #other atrum #mitr'a #andvari #rammstein

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wisteriasakana · 5 months

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Welcome to Soe finally does a real devlog on Pink Pro (but first, she talks about something else) + little announcement!

This experience with jams has taught me that, as I am, the perfect deadline is a month and a half. If it's a full two months, I'll end up doing something else because "there's plenty of time", only to find myself doing it all in the second month/last three weeks.

BUT! It's not like I haven't done anything, what do you think?

[Part where I talk about other things]

🍨 In parallel with the development of Pink Pro, I collaborated with GrandPiekron on his This Tomb of Ours (Run and check it out, it's right HERE!).

It was great to be part of building a game from scratch and seeing it take shape! Maybe in the next few days, I could publish Erin's beta designs. Fun fact: Her sprite creation time was 10% sprite and 90% hair lock. As I already said for Clea and Aurel, the idea of making everyone bald is increasingly tempting.

At the moment This Tomb of Ours is not yet complete, literally only the ending is missing, but it is on its way. In the meantime, how about take a look at Doomstone, GrandPiekron's other game? It's complete, but I warn you that it's very dark.

🍨 My collaboration with @time-lapse-games continues, this time for a project that you will soon see on your screens.

Here, instead of sprites and busts, I am the main characters spriter and the betatester. When it's published, I'll obviously spam it here too!

🍨 As mentioned on Halloween, I'm getting help from two great people who can make Three Yellow Quartzes a game in existing English, and that involves discussing adaptations.

🍨 For the 100+ downloads (Thank you!) of Interview with a succubus, I contacted a Spanish translator to make it available in an additional language. I love Spanish and who knows, maybe one day I might be able to translate things myself! Hopefully in a more existent Spanish than my English.

I will never stop thanking acadizs for his translation and his patience with my requests.

🍨 Given the introduction of an additional language, I put my hands on Ren'py again to do a single build of Interview with a succubus.

I'd like to do other visual novels, maybe a little longer than ten minutes and more elaborate than two ending branches. I was a little sad that I didn't get to participate in the Once Upon a Time VN Jam, but 1. I had no ideas, 2. I wouldn't have had time even by mistake. I'm eyeing the Winter VN Jam but, barring a miracle, I seriously doubt I'll participate.

🍨 I would also like to go back to translating RPGs into Italian and I contacted again an author whose everything I translated except, like, their most important game. Living Playground: The Witch's Puppets, I'll come back to you!

🍨 I fixed a few things about The Night of the Candy Apple. I plan to make a dedicated devlog about it, once Pink Pro is published.

[/Part where I talk about other things]

I've been wanting to make "a pink game" for a while now. I love the aesthetic of games like The Huntress of the Hollow, Sweeter Yesterday and Dreaming Mary and I wanted to make something pink too. I also wanted to do something with sweets tilesets (You might have deduced this from the fact that I made a post on sweets tilesets-), so I decided to merge the two! When I decided to join jams, I decided that I would make my pink and sweets game for the Yuri Jam.

I've already written about the characters in their introductions, so what about the game itself? The game itself, in theory, is very simple: dialogues, cooking minigames, ending requirements, period. Then, of course, maps, sprites, CGs, music, sound effects.

So what's the situation like?

So geometric...

🍰 The maps are complete. They're the first thing I made and the first thing I finished! Obviously, Chocomill and com-sho could not be missing. I am very satisfied with how they turned out! (… Although I definitely need to practice more with exteriors. Maybe one day I'll be able to build a house other than a rectangle or trapezoid.)

🍰 The sprites are- The sprites for Chantal and Janet are complete. Margrit's would be complete too, if only I could make her tail decently.

As for now, the sprites of the others exist - Except Zora's, who is always the last. Poor Zora. They are not all 8-directions-complete, but it must be said that not all of them need 8-directions sprites-

🍰 The busts are complete! I still have to do all the expressions, though. If nothing else, they all have an average of 3/4 expressions, only Chantal has like eight.

🍰 CGs are almost finished! Only one left.

There's one that I'm extremely satisfied with, I hope you'll like it- Um, actually, it doesn't represent a happy scene, so I'm afraid you won't like it much-

Since I started using Clip Studio Paint not that long ago, I still make stupid mistakes that I notice eight hundred years later, possibly after publishing. Above all: smudged shadows, non-blended shadows and color that goes on the lineart. But I assure you that in traditional I know how to color within the lineart! I learned it in kindergarten!

🍰 The sound side is ready.

More importantly, Pink Pro will also have a customized music track! Maybe I'll talk about it more in depth in a future post, but in the meantime: thanks to DogStudio there will be a story section accompanied by a track that they wrote especially for the game! It has a very particular sound, and inspired me for the main musical genre.

I was sure of one thing: I didn't want to play the "jangling" music typical of sweets contexts. I find them cute, but I wanted to do something different. I hope you like the result!

🍰 On a separate note, since @time-lapse-games has been my sound designer for Three Yellow Quartzes and explained to me the whole philosophy behind the choice of sound effects (?), I pay more attention to the sounds and I feel like putting them even where I wouldn't have put them before. For anyone looking for sound effects for Anything, may Taira Komori's website be with you!

🍰 Venka's Crafting Script works!

… Well, inserting the latest recipes gave me a weird problem where recipes from, like, Number X to Number Y did not appear. I still have no idea why (I thought the numbers were connected to some variables that were also used in the game or other scripts, but that doesn't seem to be the case, so who knows?), but I solved it by simply dubbing the recipes that didn't appear in the number following Y onwards.

🍰 The cutscenes exist. It's a great achievement. The fundamental parts are there, the scenes of four out of five customers and the ending are missing. I hope I don't get stuck as usual-

And so?

Initially, I wanted to post the whole game in Italian, and then translate it as soon as possible - This is because, 100%, I would not be able to finish the game and translate it by the jam deadline. However, the RL has landed like a volleyball in your face as you walk courtside, and in the next few days I won't have as much time to dedicate to it as I would like.

SO! For the jam I will release a demo. If you stop to read the flavor texts and talk to everyone, the gameplay can last about twenty minutes. Seems like a good timing to me!

In this way, I will be able to publish both the Italian and the English versions. Since the game is 80% ready, I plan to get back to it as soon as I have a bit of a break.

And that's all for now!

To the next time! Hopefully with the demo-

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crazysodomite · 6 months

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sigh... i basically never attended a full week of school. at a certain point i only attended a few days a week and maybe showed up for 1 class in the middle of the day and went home. its a miracle i even made it to 9th grade before dropping out. i never did any homework unless i was forced to. i would fake being sick as much as possible just to not go to school. i was only in school for 9 years but changed over 10 schools. i was always bullied in every one of those schools with varying severity. i was even bullied by upperclassmen for reasons i still don't understand. when you get bullied by high schoolers as an elementary/middle schooler it does things to you. i always hated my fucking teachers and they hated me. all i ever wanted from them is to leave me alone. i was the quiet kid in the back of the class who would draw and not pay attention and it made my teachers really fucking mad. and it was always perplexing to me. i don't want to be there just as much as you don't want me to be there. you're a fucking grown adult getting mad at a middle schooler who gets bullied to the point of being scared to go into the hall to get into other classrooms. my teachers were evil to me. i became very jaded very early on in my life. i did well enough in a few classes just so i could pass into the next year. my teachers probably just wanted me to gtfo as soon as possible which i'm thankful for. i never got high enough grades in anything to get into university or anywhere really. it still has an effect in my life because i technically haven't gotten a full education yet. i did get into college for a few years (college here is not what it usually means in english. here college is where you go if you didn't complete school or where you go Before university. its basically school with specialization). i dropped out again because once again life got in the way and somehow i was still getting bullied by my now adult peers which was crazy. i can't catch a break. i never made any friends irl for this reason. i had a few brief friendships that were just bullied kids sticking together lol. i think my life is really well illustrated by one anecdote. a teacher really hated my guts for not paying attention. and one time i couldn't get home so i went back to school and that one teacher happened to be there and decided to try to get me home and they saw what my home situation was like. and then they left me the fuck alone and didn't bother me anymore. isn't it crazy how teachers treat you like a blight on their existence without even knowing what you go through as a CHILD? i never had any mentor figures or adults in my life who made me excited about anything in life so i grew up very apathetic and im still dealing with that to this day. there was never anything good in my life growing up and there still isn't anything. i was pretty much depressed as soon as i had a conscious mind. it's also really telling how people treat poor/unfortunate kids who fall into addiction or crime. theres no empathy for us just scorn. we are treated like scum and lesser than by everyone. after all you go through as a child you enter the world realizing how far behind you are after everyone else and you don't really know how to catch up! dropping out is stigmatized, not going to uni is stigmatized, going to college is stigmatized, being bullied is stigmatized, not having a subject you're especially good in is stigmatized, falling into drugs or alcohol or crime is stigmatized to the point you shouldn't dare speak of it. people don't even try to sugarcoat the fact they see people who fell behind as lesser but at least they're honest. oops

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