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sophiamarieispinkbunny-chan · 5 months

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Something bothers me about Fiona/Nightfall…

Okay so in my first chair analysis post, someone reblogged it saying that Fiona/Nightfall might hate Twilight and turn on him as he and Yor get close with each other and I can actually see it happening. Right now, it’s still less likely but it’s not impossible for her to turn rogue and here’s how the manga suggests it.

She’s the one who usually let’s her emotions guide her despite appearing emotionless, like how she almost endangered Operation Strix through visiting Twilight's home without any consent from her superiors, causing for Yor to doubt her marriage with Loid.

Sylvia, her Handler, told her not to do anything but she ignores it...

She even broke that policy among fellow agents by making an unnecessary contact with Twilight...

And in this chapter, Twilight's statement suggests that Fiona/Nightfall seems to also have a problem losing her cool, letting her emotions control her and that often gets the way in her missions.

In everything she does, what motivates her is the hope to gain Twilight’s affection.

When she does something, it wasn’t because she genuinely cares for peace and other people's sake herself. She just strives for peace because it’s what Twilight wanted. It's mostly displayed in the recent mole arc chapters.

This isn't really that necessary but it's just cringey and uncomfy to me how she says Twilight is like her little toy knife, when Twilight was never hers. I really don't like this part of her personality when she thinks she knows everything about Twilight when she knows nothing about the real him, the past him and the man he's slowly becoming.

So moving on, when it finally dawns on her that she will not ever have Twilight's affection, I don’t know what she could do.

I mean it is hinted when she’s first introduced that she’s the one who’s most likely to betray someone in the agency and it might be a judgmental comment from a hateful coworker but knowing how the plot is moving right now, I know Endo could be throwing subtle details that could mean more in the future. And who knows, she might’ve done it before. When?

Let’s go back to the exchange of Twilight and Franky during Chapter 2 when Loid is finding someone suitable to be his fake wife.

Twilight stated that most of the female operatives in their agency were wiped out during the recent spy sweeps. Female agents we're the one who are mostly wiped out and Franky mentions someone must've ratted them out to the SS.

I think, this might be a wild and far fetched theory but it's not impossible, Fiona/Nightfall was the one who ratted those female agents. Why? She might have received the information for Operation Strix, considering that all Wise agents seems to know about the Operation. She probably eliminated all female agents that might've suited to be Twilight's fake wife.

Cause if you think about, it is really practical for Wise to have the wife be a spy too, it would be really convenient for the mission. However, the candidates they think are capable of being an ideal wife and mother just get outed like that in the SS and this spy sweep just happened to be when Twilight is looking for a wife.

Nightfall might've thought, finally, she could fulfill her utmost desire to be Twilight's wife. Yet Wise has a different idea. Even if she's the only female agent left, she still isn't suitable for the role and I think Handler purposely didn't pick her knowing she has feelings for Twilight and her emotion might get the best of her, thus could compromise the mission. Handler, as a former wife and mother herself, could also think Nightfall can't do the job of a wife and especially of a mother properly. So I have this hunch that Handler purposely gave her another mission at that time so she can't complain about not being picked as Twilight's wife for Operation Strix.

Yes, Nightfall might be on the good side now because she’s helping to maintain peace and she's protecting Twilight. But her main intention why she’s doing this is so subjective and dependent that I think it would really affect her judgment in the future when she realizes reality is different from her fantasies.

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celiciaa · 9 months

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ELBERT GREETIA MAIN ROUTE....

CHAPTER ONE.

translations are not 100% accurate. expect mistakes.

trigger warning: blood

minors and ageless blogs dni.

In a quiet room with the sound of rippling waves, I pierce the butterfly's back with a needle.

——It’s another beautiful thing I have acquired.

I simply stare at the bright scales of butterflies spreading their wings in the picture frame, as if praying.

This will surely make the "two" happy.

Surely, surely——

A night has passed since the day I saw a spectacle that I shouldn't have seen in London at midnight.

I was able to avoid being killed by carrying out my duties as a "fairy tale master",

Time passed with no sense of reality, and I was once again greeted by the darkness of the night.

——From now on, I will accompany the crown on a mission for the first time.

Roger: Is the inn in question around the next crossroads?

Alfons: According to the information given in advance, yes.

Elbert:….

Mr. Roger, Mr. Alfons, and Lord Elbert——

I was walking through London at night with three companions.

Kate: I thought you said that a certain inn was a temporary storage place for…stolen art.

I was closely observing the "cursed" crowns’ behavior,

As it is my role as a "fairy tale master" to write them down.

(I want to fulfill my responsibilities properly, win their trust so that they can release me.)

(I still can't keep up with them…but I have to do my best.)

Roger: Don't be so hard on yourself, young lady.

Alfons: We are just going to investigate the actual situation, so it won't be too bloody. Surely.

Elbert:…..

Kate: Thank you for your concern, Mr. Roger, and Mr. Alfons.

(Well...if it is my job to write about the sins of the "cursed ones", then I must know about the "cursed".)

Kate: May I ask you all about your "curse"…?

Alfons: Fufu, our dear robin is very studious, isn't she?

Alfons: Lord El is the “Queen of Greed” and Roger is the “Traitor Hunter”. And I'm cursed with the "mirror".

Kate: Queen, hunter, mirror…..

Alfons: I wonder if those who appear in the same fairy tale are destined to interact with each other. (Snow white)

Roger: Haha. Where is Team Snow White?

Alfons: I'm very uncomfortable being lumped in with you, though.

Roger: Don't say that. Right, young lady?

Kate: Ahaha. I agree….

They both speak to me in a friendly way.

I am glad for their concern, but I can't help but smile.

(People who commit crimes on a daily basis…..)

(I'm just afraid to look them in the eye and talk to them.)

Elbert:…What's wrong?

Kate:…Eh?

With Lord Elbert’s words, I suddenly realized that the distance between them was widening.

Except for Lord Elbert, who stopped for a moment, the other two were moving on.

Elbert:…Are you all right?

Kate: I'm sorry, I was spacing out and...! I was thinking.

Elbert: I see. ….Be careful not to get lost.

Just as I was about to get back on my feet——

Elbert:….!

A passing man bumped into Lord Elbert.

Drunk man: Ha? What is it? What a strange, pretty person you are.

A man with staggered legs, barely able to stand upright, looks drunk.

Elbert:….

Drunk man: Let's have a drink, brother. With your treat. Ahahaha.

Elbert:…My apologies. I'm in a hurry.

Drunk man: Ah? Do you want to get your pretty face all messed up?

Lord Elbert is surprisingly unresistant to drunk people.

(I'm not sure what's going on, should I call Mr. Roger and Mr. Alfons?)

Kate: U–Umm…!

It was the next moment when impatience and question marks intersected on his head.

Drunk man: Uu…uuu…why did you throw me away…Eliza… *sobs*

Kate:…Eh?

The man who had been involved with Lord Elbert broke down and cried on the spot without warning.

(What happened all of a sudden…?)

Alfons: Your ability is still a joke as ever, I see.

When Alfons turned his heels, he approached Lord Elbert and laughed.

Kate: You mean…Lord Elbert’s ability is a joke?

Alfons: Yes. It awakens the saddest memories of those who stepped on the shadow.

Alfons: In other words, the other person becomes extremely depressed and dejected.

Roger: It's an ability that works better with people who've been through hard times, but the downside is that he has to choose the right person.

Kate: Depressed….

Still unable to stand up, I just stare at the man crying by the side of the road like an infant.

(This is Lord Elbert’s power.)

After seeing William's spectacular power to force people to commit suicide, it seemed like such a small power.

But——

Elbert:…I'm in a hurry. ....I’m sorry.

And then Lord Elbert used that seemingly insignificant power on a drunken man,

He looked sad as if he had committed a cruel crime.

(…Well, that's a little surprising.)

(I guess the cursed ones aren't exactly accustomed to using their powers either.)

Elbert:…Let’s go.

As we pass each other, Lord Elbert's hair shimmers in the street light.

His golden hair fluttering in the night breeze and his sorrowful profile subconsciously catch my eye.

(….How beautiful he is.)

His beauty was so overwhelming that I forgot for a moment my fears about the mission ahead.

Alfons: Well, the alley is ahead. We can find the inn we were aiming for.

Elbert: Yes.

Then Mr. Roger tilted his head while staring at the dimly lit alley.

Roger: Something strange. I can see a cheap hotel, and I'm sure there were quite a few guests.

Roger:…There is only one human heartbeat.

Kate: Heartbeat…?

I listen carefully, but all I can hear is a small whistling sound.

Alfons: Abnormal hearing is what this man is capable of.

Roger: At a distance of roughly 100 yards, I can tell exactly their location without looking.

Kate: That's great. ......But does that mean there is only one person at the inn?

Roger: Well, yeah.

Kate: Why on earth…..

Alfons: There's only one way to find out.

When I turned the corner into the alley that leads to the inn's back entrance——

(….!!)

——There was a horrifying sight.

Several bloodied people are lying in the alleyway.

A large amount of blood was spreading in the hallway seen from the open back door of the inn.

Kate:….Aah——

My instincts are telling me to run away.

However, as if sewn into place, my legs froze and I couldn't move.

At that moment——

My body was strongly pulled back, blocking the bloodstained scene.

Kate:…!?

My cheeks are pressed tightly against the soft, high-quality cloth.

(Blue cravat.)

Kate: Lord Elbert….?

When I finally realized that Lord Elbert was holding me close, I tried to raise my head.

Lord Elbert's hand was stronger than that, refraining my movements.

Elbert: ——You don't have to look.

(Eh…?)

Elbert:…Because sad memories can easily kill you.

Elbert: So, you don’t have to look.

A sad voice whispers in my ear.

Elbert: You have…nothing to do with what happens here.

Elbert:…You don’t have to carry on what you don’t have to take on. **

(Lord Elbert….)

His voice sounded like a prayer.

He was protecting me with his hand and hugged me tightly.

For some reason, I feel as if I am being clung to, and I hesitate to resist.

(Lord Elbert….you look like you're scared of something.)

Roger: This guy...is an innkeeper and a guest.

Alfons: Judging by the way he's dressed, I'd say there's no doubt about it.

I was listening to the voices of the two people watching the scene while being hugged, at that time——

???:….Uuu…uu…..

( ! That voice just now…..)

Mr. Roger's words about a single heartbeat come back to mind.

Kate: My apologies….!

Elbert:…!

Instinctively, I pushed back Lord Elbert’s chest and lifted my face.

I looked around and saw a woman lying on the corner of an alleyway, moving faintly.

(That woman….)

Kate: Is she okay….!?

Roger: We're not out of the woods yet, but it's dangerous.

Mr. Roger, who had rushed to her before I did, frowned and muttered something to me.

Roger: She needs immediate attention. Take her to the nearest hospital——

Roger:….!

Kate: Mr. Roger? What’s wrong?

Roger: The police are coming. Two….No, three of them.

(Police…?)

Alfons: Then there's no need to stay long. Let's move on.

(What!?)

Kate: What about this woman——?

Roger: Our mission(The crown) is confidential. We have to lay low for now.

Mr. Roger's annoyed profile makes it clear that he doesn't mean what he says, and he swallows his rebuttal.

(But what if the police didn't notice her….?)

I quickly took out a handkerchief and pulled it over the lamp directly above her.

(This should be enough to keep her from being identified. I'm sure they’ll notice her as soon as possible….)

While praying for her safety, I followed the three of them and hid in the shadows.

I will ask how things are going from a little distance away——

The police arrived and I saw her being carried away immediately.

Kate:…I’m glad….

(…I hope she’ll be safe.)

Elbert:….

——We had to call it a day and return to the castle.

But I couldn't eat the food that was brought to my room, nor could I sleep…..

In order to change my mind, I was walking alone in the garden that was too large.

━━FLASHBACK━━

(Tonight, I've only witnessed the aftermath of someone's crime.)

(But someday I may end up seeing such a scene made by the crowns’ hands.)

━━FLASHBACK ENDS━━

(I don't know if I'm capable of….writing it down.) // (I don't know if I can….write that down.)

While thinking about such things, as I walk along the path——

(…..Lord Elbert?)

I found Lord Elbert gazing at the flowers in a daze.

It was like he’s wearing a veil of moonlight. The sight of this painting-like figure again captivated my eyes.

Elbert: Hm…oh…it’s you. Good evening.

Kate: Good evening, Lord Elbert….

Lord Elbert must have sensed something when he saw my face, and tilted his head languidly.

Elbert:….Can't sleep?

Kate:…Yes. So, for a change, I'm going to take a walk.

Elbert: I see….

Kate: What are you doing here, Lord Elbert?

Elbert: I suppose…I'm in a similar case. …..I've always been a short sleeper.

Kate: I see…..

Elbert: That's why…I can become someone to talk to when you can't sleep.

Kate:….!

The way his words seem to be soft and gentle made me feel better.

(If it had been last night, I might have been wary of even his thoughtfulness…..)

Kate:…Thank you very much.

Aware of my wariness, which was beginning to fade, I took one step at a time toward Lord Elbert.

(That's right...just now, I still haven't been able to say thank you properly.)

Kate: Thank you for protecting me earlier.

Elbert:….No. ….In the end, I showed you a cruel sight.

Kate: I wanted to see it, so don't worry.

I tried to sound cheerful, but Lord Elbert looked at me as he narrowed his eyes painfully.

Elbert: If they hadn't taken you to that place...you never would have tried to see it.

Elbert: You’re different from us. …..You shouldn't have come here.

Elbert:…Sin doesn't suit you.

Lord Elbert’s emotions don't show up very often. nevertheless….

I could see the unclouded pity in his eyes, which were like the bottom of the deep sea.

(You're the one whose sins don't suit you.)

At that time——

━━FLASHBACK━━

Even though there was no knife or bullet pointed at me, and my life was not in danger, he tried to protect me.

(I'm sure...so that my heart won't be hurt by the cruel sight.)

(That time, the strength of his arm.)

(It was as if he was afraid I would get hurt.)

━━FLASHBACK ENDS━━

(If he didn't feel anything at that scene, he wouldn't have done that.)

I was told that the people of the Crown feel the same fears, anxieties, and sadness as I do——

I realized again what is very obvious.

Kate: You are very kind, Lord Elbert.

Elbert:….That's not true.

I cherish people's thoughts and feelings. That was my goal in life.

(That's why I chose to work as a postwoman.)

(No matter what kind of crimes Lord Elbert and the others commit from now on, the feelings that are there and——)

Kate:….Thank you for your concern.

Kate: But it's okay if you don't protect me this time.

Elbert:…Why?

Kate: You may come to know a lot of things would be happier if you didn't know.

Kate: I want to know what you are thinking….as you face these things.

I smiled, wanting to respond to Lord Elbert's inclination to be kind, even if only a little——

Elbert:…..

But Lord Elbert stared at me without blinking.

(….?)

The eyes that were fixed on me were very serious, and I instantly felt uncomfortable.

(Ah...I wonder if it was rude to say that you don't have to protect me this time, even though you're worried about me.)

I felt that his overwhelmingly beautiful face became even more powerful when he became silent, and I couldn't help but gasp.

Kate: Umm….

Elbert:….Stay still.

As we suddenly closed the distance, Lord Elbert brushed my hair.

Elbert:…There were petals in your hair.

Kate:…Uh.

Kate: Thank you very much….

(….I see. He was just looking at the petals.)

(I’m glad…)

To calm my beating heart down, I quietly stepped away from Lord Elbert for a little while.

Kate: Well then, if you'll excuse me. I should get some sleep for tomorrow.

Elbert:…Do you think you can sleep?

Kate: Yes, thanks to Lord Elbert.

Elbert: I see...then, good for you.

Elbert:…Good night, Kate.

Kate: Good night, Lord Elbert.

(….I don't know why.)

(But I can't stop thinking about the way Lord Elbert looked at me just now…..)

His abyssal blue eyes burning into mine.

Even after I turned on my heel, his gaze seemed to follow me from behind——

Oddly enough, my heart was stirring. // Strangely, my chest felt tight.

The next morning, my steps to the dining hall were lighter than yesterday.

Kate: Good morning.

William: Good morning. ….Your complexion looks better this morning.

Roger: See? She came here all right, didn't she?

Alfons: I suppose I lost the bet.

Kate: O—Oh, you were betting?

Alfons: Indeed. By now I was betting that you would tear the curtains apart and tie them back together and escape through the window.

(They even thought I was escaping…..)

Liam: This morning, Victor's special scones with extra butter! Kate, do you have an appetite?

Kate: Yes! I missed dinner yesterday and I am starving.

Alfons: Fufu, you are surprisingly strong.

(I'm still a little nervous...but I think I can manage.)

When I decided to face their thoughts and feelings this morning, I was able to look into their faces more closely than I had yesterday.

Elbert is staring at Kate as she begins to eat while exchanging words with everyone.

Elbert:…Al, isn’t she beautiful?

Alfons: No, not at all?

Elbert:…I don't think so.

Alfons:…..

Alfons: This is going to be a little...troublesome.

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misteria247 · 1 year

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Ya know the 12 boys, hell all the turtles each have their own parts to play within their group. Like they each have a special role that only they could fulfill and that no one else can.

Mikey's role is the group's heart. He's the one that lifts their spirits and helps them all stay afloat with his positivity and sometimes naive nature. He enriches everyone's emotions.

Donnie's role is the group's mind. He's the one who holds the knowledge that they need and who's always bringing logic and facts to them whenever things become bleak. He keeps everyone grounded.

Raph's role is the group's strength. He's the one whose the pillar of their group's foundation and is the one who protects them from harm and who fights for them. He keeps them safe and offers them strength when they're weak.

Leo's role is the group's spirit. He's the one who ignites a fire within them and who gives them all the courage and determination to keep going even when all seems lost. He keeps them all in high spirits and gives them hope.

They each have a role that is so critical and so crucial to their team and brotherhood that if one of them were to be lost then they'd all fall apart. Separated they are good and can function decently enough but together.....together they're unstoppable. Together they give each other strength in the ways in which their roles are needed. Together they're one, they're complete and whole and able to accomplish great things that are downright breathtaking.

It's why their relationship is so important, why whenever they're together they can overcome anything that stands in their way. It's why that whenever we see a bad future such as SAINW, or The Mutant Apocalypse or the Krang Takeover where they're all not together they end up either falling apart or not surviving their enemies and dying brutally. Because they need each other, they can't fight and win against their opponents without one another. If one of them is taken away from the group they can't function properly. It's like a body that's missing something vital.

Whenever you really truly step back and think about how important they all are and how detrimental their roles are to their team it's honestly mind blowing to see how something like this small detail has such a huge impact on everything.

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princeescaluswords · 9 months

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I know you're not the biggest Derek fan but I just rewatched some of his scenes with Scott and I got cracked up by how consistently he campaigns for the title of President Of The Scott McCall Fan Club.

He brings this energy every time he mentions Scott to somebody:

Really weird that people think he'd *ever* badmouth him to prop up characters he canonically doesn't give a single thought to.

First, I know you sent this as a three part message, but I found things to talk about in each one, so I'm going to answer them separately!

Second, I may not be the biggest Derek Hale Fan in the world, but I am a fan. I love a well-crafted redemption arc, and Derek's story is one of the better ones I've seen. In fact, I wanted more of it. But, for me, the key to a good redemption arc is that it is an arc. For Derek to grow and change and become a better person and for it to have meaning, he had to start out in a state that, frankly, wasn't. That's why I insist in my analyses that Derek was an antagonist in Season 1 and an outright villain in Season 2.

I do have seven pages of posts on Tumblr marked anti derek hale. I wish I wouldn't have to label them that, because I do not hate Canon Derek Hale. I simply recognize that he did terrible things, and that while they were understandable within context, that doesn't make them not terrible. Yet, his manipulative treatment of the teenagers of Beacon Hills, his embrace of lethal violence as his primary strategy, and his trauma-induced selfishness all served to fulfill his role as a foil to the heroic protagonist, Scott McCall, and fans shouldn't shy away from discussing this, but I have learned that Tumblr etiquette, when it is followed, demands that negative evaluations of a character's behavior be tagged properly so people can avoid it.

I wish some of the fans who hate Scott McCall would remember that, but I digress.

But I do recognize the weirdness you are describing. To me, Derek's admiration for Scott McCall is a natural evolution. He starts out in Season 1 trying to sell Scott on the realities of his life as a werewolf (even as Derek is using him): Scott's fate is to become like him. "So you and me, Scott - We're brothers now." Derek wants a new family, one that won't be destroyed, but through tragedy, pain, and violence he learns that you can't create one using brute force -- by coercively reshaping others into versions of himself. He sees that when Scott forms his pack, his family, Scott does it by accepting his friends as they are. Scott accepts Stiles with his sarcasm and insecurity. Scott accepts Allison, with her family and all that demands. Scott doesn't want Isaac to get hurt, remembers Kira's name, and tells Liam that he's not a monster. And Scott accepts Derek, even after Derek manipulated him, beat him, sold him out to Peter, and tried to kill innocents. So by the end of Season 6, Derek has instead sold himself the idea that his goal is to become like Scott. "You came back for Beacon Hills? No. Came back for you."

And that is what parts of the fandom can't stand. With all the tragedies Derek undergoes (manipulation by Peter which causes Paige's death, manipulation by Kate which causes his family's death, manipulation by Peter again which causes Laura's death, his execution of Peter, the disasters of his attempt at a pack), they want Derek to be redeemed without the necessity for change. In other words, Derek deserves nice things, not because he earned them, but as some sort of cosmic balancing for what he has suffered (and, frankly, his identity as an attractive white man and a 'bad boy').

But this misguided empathy runs counter to the themes of the show. Scott's the heroic protagonist not because he suffers more than anyone else (and he absolutely does suffer a lot, a fact that fandom uselessly tries to deny) but because he doesn't let that suffering, that injustice, determine who he is or who he cares about. This is what makes him a True Alpha, because he could have let Peter or Derek or Gerard or Deucalion determine his nature. He could have rejected Derek and Stiles and Liam and Theo and Malia and Jackson after they attacked and hurt him. He could have wallowed in the pain caused by his mother's rejection, or his father's absence, or Allison's death, or "Some of us are human!" He could have placed his own safety and well being first, and hid or ran from Kira or the Dead Pool or the Doctors or the Beast or Monroe. But he didn't. And that's what Derek saw, and that's what Derek learned.

Instead of acknowledging that learning, those choices, and that growth, certain parts of the fandom decide that what Derek should have done is resented Scott for not allowing Derek's pain to control Scott's life. They decide that Derek thinks Scott is stupid for not thinking of the world in terms of "us vs. them." They decide that Derek's repeated submission to the tragedies of his own life couldn't possibly have made him weak -- after all, he's rich, good-looking, white, and werewolf "nobility" -- and instead of what happened to him being the consequences of his own choices, he was bedeviled by the metaphysical forces known as 'the writers.' Oh, and Evil Tree Wizard Deaton and his Moron Tyrant Protege, Scott McCall.

Yeah. It's very weird.

#derek hale #scott mccall #teen wolf meta #teen wolf fandom problems #fandom racism #scott mccall defense squad

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digital-survivor · 2 years

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What do you think of Ryo character and his relationship with Kunamon? Personally I find heartbreaking the way he dies in my first route, we see him break little to little, when in chapter two (when we save Saki and Shuinji) he seemed be more ready to help, and then in chapter 3, his grief ate him so much that he couldn't be (didn't want to be) rational again =( I'm happy to be able to save him in my New Game +

Honestly I wasn't expecting Ryou to become one of my favorites along with Shuuji, but he ended up as 2nd favorite after my NG+ (If you can't tell already, Shuuji is my most fav kahsjkdsh). I really enjoy seeing his relationship with Kunemon develop too in NG+, because unlike most of the other pairs, he didn't immediately hit it off with Kunemon (albeit not as bad as Shuuji and Lopmon) and on top of that, Kunemon wasn't able to communicate properly with the humans like other partner monsters, so I was very Intrigued to see where the story would bring them. I'll elaborate everything under the cut because I feel like this is going to be long LOL.

I actually found Ryou's cowardliness at the beginning very endearing in a weird way rather than annoying, so I couldn't understand where all the hate was coming from? But yeah, I admitted it was pretty fun seeing Ryou getting teased a lot before we learned more about his whole ordeal, which made me feel really bad.

I really feel for him, and even though his experience didn't hit as close to home as Shuuji's was for me, everyone could tell how it obviously wasn't easy to deal with the stress of getting trapped in an unknown parallel world especially when you were still struggling with grief and loss of a beloved family member. Especially after learning that he actually joined the camp to fulfill his mother's wish. It just makes it all the more heartbreaking to know. I wasn't actually expecting him to go full mental breakdown as fast as in chapter 3, but piecing together all the things we know about him it makes sense. Still, I was taken off guard by how fast it all happened, and his death actually made me take some time off from the game to calm down for a bit kahdjskdh.

His whole feigning tough guy act to hide a cowardly and lonely heart isn't something original in media, and I could actually tell from the beginning (I don't think the game is trying to hide that either), but I really like how Survive made him more perceptive than he may look on the outside. It fits well with Ryou's other traits and information that we know about him. And it's nice how he plays a very pivotal role in saving Shuuji, because you need someone who both can relate with Shuuji's issues and has the gut to smack some sense (almost literally) into Shuuji's head to give him the much-needed wake-up call. Everything just fits together really nicely in the story.

With regards to his relationship with Kunemon, I can understand why he didn't immediately click with him like the rest of the party, given how scared shitless he was at the beginning. I did notice that as we progressed in the story, he was starting to respond to Kunemon more, though at that time it was hard to tell if he actually understood Kunemon or he was just being delusional. From NG+ we learned that the first one was the case, and... okay I might be reading too much into this, but I love how this whole "Kunemon can't communicate with humans and the only human who understands him is Ryou" fits not only Ryou having communication problems that hinder him, but is also pretty symbolic of Ryou being more perceptive than he looks. Him being able to understand Kunemon despite Kunemon's struggle in communicating with humans represents that.

Aside from the whole symbolism, I like that a lot of Ryou and Kunemon's moments (like in evolution scenes) centers around them being best bros that won't abandon each other no matter what. One thing though, I wish that Flymon's evolution scene didn't just happen randomly without Ryou and Kunemon themselves being involved in the buildup to the scene. Although at least I like the fact that it was Ryou who gave Kunemon the pep talk instead of the other way around, obviously because we wouldn't understand Kunemon lol. His pep talk was great too, my favorite along with Shuuji's heartfelt confession to Lopmon.

Other misc things: I did feel like his character development felt too sudden in NG+, and the way he got involved in the scenes before ch8 also felt very forced/shoehorned (I had these problems with Shuuji in NG+ too anyway), but I guess smoothing it out by making his character development happen more "gradually" would frustrate other people who got annoyed at him in the first playthrough, so I'm happy enough with what we get (he's still a really great character). Other than with Kunemon, I like his dynamic with Minoru and Shuuji (specific in NG+) (these three happen to be my most fav in Survive anyway). Him being a thug who's still very afraid of ghosts even after his character development is very cute. Him being able to cook is also a cute hidden depth and it makes sense, considering his circumstances.

#digimon survive #digimon survive spoilers #tominaga ryou #kunemon

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anjumbai · 1 year

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Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky: Thoughts

"Why do you demand me a heroism that perhaps you have not either? It is despotism, it is tyranny. If I ruin anyone, it is only myself"

Overall Rating: 8.5/10

* Spoiler Warning: Did try to keep it as spoiler free as possible *

This will go down as one of the most memorable novels I've ever read. The world of Dostoyevsky was just something I didn't know I wanted so much. It's cruel, unfair, filled with despair while also being full of sympathy, hope and redemption. I absolutely wanna read more books written by Dostoyevsky and will go on a spree to collect his books soon. It felt almost, if not, better than how I first felt when I read a George Orwell novel and I'm all for it.

The protagonist: Rodion Romanovitch Raskolnikov- will go down as one of the most memorable protagonists for me. It's rarely that I finish a book or keep off a book for so long, yet remember the protagonist. That's the kind of protagonist Raskolnikov is. Also, it was funny how the protagonist of this book was a sick man. Not like metaphorically sick or anything, just literally sick all the time- suffering in his small box of a room at the top of an apartment. Raskolnikov is an intelligent man of contrarian desires, who tries to fulfil his desires by murdering an elderly woman ( not a spoiler, just something you know when you get into the book ).

Psychological aspect: His psychological state, the way he rationalised his murder and even managed to carry it on without foreseeing the moral and emotional torments he will have to suffer - was absolutely a delight to read. He says and acts to be someone cruel, rational, someone who you could fit the role of a 'nihilist', yet he is so full of life, filled with the desire for love and helping others. It feels like he feels alive when he is helping people- despite being a cold blooded murderer. He torments himself over and over for not living up to his convictions, torturing himself for not being the Napoleon he thought himself to be- yet succumbs and melts when he is shown the tiniest bit of love. He'd go as far as to torment and cut off the ones he loves to prove his conviction to himself, isolating himself and tormenting himself over and over- yet again showing it was all for nothing and he is only but a man. Of course, I'm not properly in touch with the flow of the book as I read books in the course of months and this wasn't much different, but damn I loved this guy.

Russian Literature: I also loved the journey of St. Petersburg, Russia. Russian literature isn't something I thought I would enjoy, yet it was pleasant experience. The overall cast was splendid too, each portraying their beliefs and stands on society. As a result, the tone of the story is balanced out from cold, harsh and depressing you initially thought it might be. The positive heart and will of Razumihin, the beauty of Sonia's pure heart, motherly love for Raskolnikov, the treachery of Luzhin, Porfiry's ability to keep you at your feet while reading conversations- this all added to the amazing read. All the subplots might've made the book a little too long, but it was worth it in the end.

Surprisingly, funny at times and memorable: Will remember Crime and Punishment. For a book with sucha serious name, Dostoyevsky was able to keep it humorous too. A dry and practical form of humour, you see it in your imagination and you can't help but laugh. The whole concept of Russians calling each other out translated into English is just humorous to me. I loved this book. Memorable books are what fill with me with hope to read more books, and this definitely did that job perfectly. It's an 8.5/10, keeping the 1.5 for a hopeful future of books haha.

#books #book review #fyodor dostoevsky #bookish #book quotes

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kateringggg · 1 year

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Third Blog : THE FINALE

For the past weeks, a lot of things happened to my life as an entrepreneur. Even though there are a lot of activities that happened, I still enjoyed my time being an entrepreneur. I learned a lot of things especially to the lecture series that happened a week ago. As I remember, there are two resource speakers in the event who share their knowledge and experiences in the business industry. The first speaker is Engr. Bronson Mabulay who tackled about the start up ecosystem. From what I can remember, he emphasized three things to start a business. There should be a team, an idea and a problem to solve. These three will serve as the foundation of the project we are creating. Since being an entrepreneur means that we are problem solvers, a problem should be identified first followed by an idea on how to solve a problem and of course the team which will be the one to carry out the idea. He also said that about 1 out of 10 start up businesses can only last for more than 3 years. Hearing that made me realize that starting up a business is really hard since you won't know what will happen in the future. You're literally doing it without a certainty that it will become successful.

The next resource speaker is Mr. Arnel Arreglado. He talked about the importance of a team in creating and starting a business. He said that a team is the one who will identify the problems and come up with a solution to solve it. Every one in the team should complement and help with each other in order to have unity and eventually create a better and an amazing idea. Each member of a team have their own roles and responsibilities to fulfill to ensure that the project will be successful. If one of the team betrays the other, the project will be deemed to fail and the whole idea would crumble. Honesty and loyalty is very important in a team. Without those, everyone can't work harmoniously which might result to an unsuccessful endeavor.

On the second day, another resource speaker was invited to the event. She talked about the protection, laws and copyright. She described and explained the terms patent, copyright and many more. She said, "Do copyright, dli copy paste" in which I agree. Copy pasting the works of others is considered plagiarism. An act which is punishable by law. Also, doing this is very disrespectful to the owner of the idea. We should give credits to them properly. "Ctto" is not enough. We should properly cite the owner of the original idea to give them respect and appreciate the idea they have created. In addition, a demo pitching competition was conducted after the talk. I am very happy and nervous that our product or service was chosen to represent the whole for that competition. I felt so proud that our idea was used. It gives me the feeling of fulfillment. Surely it is a great achievement. I am one of the owner of the idea and I am also part of the team who presented in the Demo Pitching competition and I can really that I am very proud of my classmates Justine and Rastine who did their role perfectly as the hustlers of the group. Their delivery was awesome and thy literally saved the night. The other students from different courses and colleges have unique ideas. This makes the event very interesting and successful because no one had the same start up business.

Moreover, we created a Venture pitching video. Creating it is a little fun to me because the idea is great. Searching up videos that would relate to our product and doing voiceovers is stress relieving for me. Just by doing so gives me a lot of fun. Even though I don't have a great background about editing, I'm still quite satisfied about result of the video.

Our journey in creating a service that would help the Central Mindanao University students had been great and amazing. Along the way, I have learned a lot of things and even shared good memories with my teammates and classmates. I realized that being an entrepreneur is not an easy job. Handling money, coming up with an idea and carrying it out is very hard to do. We sometimes take for granted those people who are really doing their best to have an even better result for their business. And now that I have experienced it, I can say that they are very hard working. Time and effort isn't just the things we need to consider in starting up a business. A great mindset makes everything work. And so before I end this blog, I want to share the quote that Sir Von shared to us in the last day of the lecture series.

"Fortune favors the brave and those with good attitude".

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canned-pears · 2 years

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I always found it odd how a lot of people make ff7 centered around the romance between tifa or aerith where as I thought it was more about the meaningful relationships between all of the characters. Going through the game you explore each person's backstories and see how it makes them unique. You see how it affects them in their current lives, and how at the very end, we see our protagonist's story finally unfold and the fog is cleared.

All the characters influence each other, motivate each other, and operate as a team. No one could accomplish anything without the other. That's something cloud had to realize towards the end: that he has people around him to support him and thats he doesn't have to do it all alone. The people around him have had a great influence on him (especially aerith yk) and at the end (after tifa repairs his mind) he is whole. He's able to fully take in those experiences he had during their journey (when he was XP in the head) and appreciates them properly.

Throughout the lifestream sequence between cloud & tifa and going back to the forgotten city to uncover the truth abt aerith's disappearance, we see how each character's involvement with one another leads to something else. We see how tifa was essential for reminding cloud of who he was and how aerith was essential for the salvation of the planet. Barret was our introduction to midgar and he was essential for setting up the relationship between shinra and the gang as we go along- he shows us how the people are treated and how people respond (via Avalance). Nanaki showed us that there is a source of knowledge to go back to (Bugenhagen) and that there is much more in the world that has yet to be uncovered. He also also shows us the importance of maturity-something that allows him to move forward and possibly motivates the others to do so as well. Nanaki undergoes a change, and the other characters are set up for change the further they go along:

Cid also mentions that the planet is like a child, one that can't take care if itself and it their job to protect it:

This further pushes the idea of growth and change. The planet still has to grow, and so do the characters.

Speaking of Cid, we see how his passion for space travel affects the way he treats others (Shera) and how it affects their relationship (good or bad). In this scene we also see the impact he's already had on Cloud after being through a lot together:

Cid realizes how badly he's treated shera during this scene too.

And moving onto yuffie! She introduces us to Wutai and like Barret, she gives us insight onto how shinra has (once again) negatively affected the people.

(I was gonna go into Vincent but im not interested in dirge and even in the OG game he doesnt have too much of an influence story-wise. He's still cool tho 😩😩)

Each character has a role they fulfill and reducing the story to a ship war and who cloud loves the most is stupid imo. The ships should be a fun part of it. It shouldnt be the main takeaway ykwim? Theres a lot of world-building, impactful messages/themes, and a web of meaningful connections!

I have ships that i like but i dont let it make up all of the story, especially when the game has so much to offer!! shwjkakeojrjqkajbs

#anyway uh who said cloud tifa and aerith couldnt be polyam huh 🤨🤨#also i want to talk abt aerith's role more and how much i love her but another time lol #I LOVE ALL THE CHARACTERS SMM 😭😭😭#ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy #ffvii cloud #cloud strife #aerith gainsborough #tifa lockhart #barret wallace #red xiii #cid highwind #yuffie kisaragi #vincent valentine

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Heya ! i was wondering if you have a list of the webtoons you read/stuff you like that you would recommend

Hey there! I did a post on that a while ago, but I can't find it (more like I was too lazy to look for it properly) so I'll try to replicate it and add a few more things, I'd like this to be a master post that I'll be updating frequently. It's also a good opportunity to put more effort into it lmao. The old one was a lazy post. I have some recs for those who follow me for BNHA and Eldarya, in case you wanna check this out.

𝖂𝖊𝖇𝖙𝖔𝖔𝖓 𝕽𝖊𝖈𝖘

As I said on that other post, I haven't been reading many new webtoons lately. In fact, I'm many chapters behind on those that I used to read religiously, so I'm sorry if I'm not helpful lol.

On another note, all of the rankings here are personal, obviously.

1. UNHOLY BLOOD

ACTION | FANTASY

5/5⭐

"When vampires destroy her chance to have the normal life she’s always wanted, Hayan is forced to draw on her darkest secret to rid the world of the merciless hunters that took it over 10 years ago. With the support of a rising star in the local police force, Hayan steps up to protect her loved ones, face her past, and get her revenge."

*HURRY!! this series will become a daily pass series in about a month!! You are running out of time

I talk about it with more details on this post.

My all time favorite without a doubt. I won't lie to you, the ending was rushed, BUT it didn't make the webtoon less awesome. Everything about it is fire, and it's a quick read.

In a nutshell, the story is set in a world where vampires exist and everyone knows of them, and they are the country's biggest threat. (I was traumatized by twilight whenever it came to vampire stuff, but this is art) Out main character, however, is a vampire herself, and an incredibly strong one at that. Certain event forces her to seek vengance on the vampire leaders who do as they please with the country in aspects like pharmaceutics, politics, entertainment, etc.

Something I mentioned before, is that there are a lot of incredible biblical references. For example, each vampire leader has an Alias referencing one of the demons of each deathly sin, and this, of course, describes their motivations. For example, Lucian, a reference to Lucifer, and the character's main characteristic is that he's incredibly proud. This is probably the coolest thing about the series to me, the amount of symbolism. The protagonist also has a lot of characteristics that place her as a reference to Jesus, the "savior."

The webtoon has romance, shocking plotwists, and an amazing art. But because I know some of you guys are like me, I feel the need to point out that there are also lots of hot characters.

Here, take a look:

2. UNORDINARY

ACTION

4/5⭐

"Nobody paid much attention to John – just a normal teenager at a high school where the social elite happen to possess unthinkable powers and abilities. But John’s got a secret past that threatens to bring down the school’s whole social order – and much more. Fulfilling his destiny won’t be easy though, because there are battles, frenemies and deadly conspiracies around every corner."

Alright, this one is veeeery well known, I know. Still, for those who don't read webtoons, this one is a good start, especially if you are a BNHA fan.

Basically, the series is set in a society where people have special abilities. These abilities are ranked depending on how strong they are, and that'll also affect how you are treated, and your place in society.

What I really like about this one is that it does what we all want BNHA to do. It actually shows us how fucked up a society where people have abilities can be. What's very interesting is that they don't have the need to portray this by using heroes, in fact, there are no heroes here. There are a couple of vigilantes that are not well seen by people, though.

In this story, the authorities make the role that heroes have in BNHA. They are who people should trust, but instead are fucking corrupt. Of course, there are characters who actually want to do things right. I also really like how emphasized social hierarchy is. To the point where people are literally labeled with a number that decides how worthy they are, and how much respect they deserve.

3. SUB ZERO

ROMANCE | ACTION

3.5/5⭐

"What would you sacrifice to save your family? How far would you go to protect your people? For Clove, the last princess of a near-extinct Dragon clan, the answer is the unthinkable: MARRY your greatest sworn enemy in an effort to bring peace to your land."

This one is A GREAT pick if you are into Eldarya, and if you are into Lance.

I won't lie to you, this is one of the series that I haven't been keeping up with, but definitely not becase I don't like it. I just don't have time. We follow Clove's story, the princess of an ancient dragon clan, who sees herself forced to marry the prince of the enemy dragon clan for the sake of her people. THIS IS AN ENEMIES TO LOVERS! If you are too picky, you might consider it as rivals to lovers, but I don't think that's the case. For all of us who were expecting that kinda trope for Lance and Erika, this is it. The male protagonist is a bitch, but kind on the inside, just the way we like it. I really like this romance, I feel like it was well constructed and veeery entertaining, it's hard to stop reading. As I said, I'm some chapters behind, so I don't know if that might've changed, but I don't think so. Quite a spicy story.

4. VILLAIN TO KILL

ACTION

4.5/5⭐

"There are two kinds of people with special abilities: villains, who are driven by their evil desires, and psykers, who pursue justice and work against villains. Cassian Lee is a very powerful psyker with a good heart. But one day, when he visits his friend in Greece, things take a wrong turn. Following an unexpected chain of events, Cassian ends up in the body of a Korean high school boy... who has just become a villain! Will his sense of justice win in the end or will he end up becoming a cold-blooded villain?"

This one, this one, this one!!! Another GREAT pick for BNHA fans. This is set in a world where you can be born as a child of the sun or a child of darkness. You don't get to choose, and this will determine if you turn into a hero or a villain. We follow Cassian's story. He's a professional psyker (hero) who sees himself betrayed by the company that's supposed to manage psykers; and when I say betrayed, I mean he was literally murdered by them. However, certain factor leads him to revive... In the body of a villain. This makes him realize that the psykers who he admired so much, are a bunch of rats, and the villains he had been thought to hate his whole life, aren't that bad after all. He wants revenge. Revenge against those who lied to him and killed him. We'll have to see him fight his now natural instinct to be the bad guy and stay true to himself, while we also see him become more and more familiar with being a villain rather than a psyker. This is a great story to show us that not everything is black and white. I really recommend it.

5. THE WARRIOR RETURNS

ACTION

3.5/5⭐

"After saving one world, warrior Minsu Kim returns to Earth only to find that he’s lost everything... so he decides to destroy the world he used to call home. In his rampage, he kills teenager Jeongsu Park and his family. But instead of dying normally, Jeongsu is transported to another world, where he finds that he's now a warrior himself. After killing the demon king of this alternate world and honing his skills as a warrior, Jeongsu returns to earth, hell-bent on revenge against Minsu. As the two warriors fight with the fate of their country in the balance, who will emerge victorious?"

This one is a new one, it only has 18 chapters as of now, but it's pretty damn awesome. If you already read Unholy Blood and liked it, this series is just for you. It has a very similar dynamic when it comes to the antagonists. The main character has to defeat them one by one. We follow the story of two characters, the protagonist, and the antagonist. The series begins with the antagonist's story, when, one day, he just happens to appear in an alternate universe where the one who defeats the demon king, will br deemed a hero and go home. And he does. Except that when he gets back home, everything is a mess and his life falls appart. That's when he goes on a maniac rampage and turns the world into an apocalyptic disaster.This disaster ends up killing the protagonist's family, and himself. Except that when he wakes up, he's not death, he's in the world the antagonist had gone to, and also happens to kill the demon king and become a hero. When he gets back to his world, his only mission is to kill the man who killed his family, but he'll have to fight many other warriors who also went trough this alternate world before getting to the main villain.

6. DEVIL NUMBER 4

ROMANCE / SUPERNATURAL

4/5⭐

"When a down-on-her-luck student runs out of money -- and hope -- it’s time for the devil to make his entrance and give her an offer she can’t refuse. But this devil has problems of his own. He’s a cog in Satan’s corporate ladder, who’s quickly losing credibility because that same desperate girl isn’t ready to part with her soul willingly. Now, she’s working at his coffee shop while he tries to convince her that she can have it all. And the cost? Merely her mortal soul…"

Here, we follow Hanna's story. Her life is not ideal, she has lots of money issues and not many people to rely on. The perfect target for a devil who wants to make a deal. That's where we meet an enchanting devil who will offer her a better life in exchange for her soul. While she's not interested at first, she ends up signing anyway, and the devil is as happy as one can be... Until her time starts to run out and he realizes that he fell in love with her. What a weird thing, in a world where devils are said to be unable to feel anything for anyone.In a world with devils, angels, a god and satan, it's hard to get bored. I truly recommend it.

7. PURPLE HYACINTH

MYSTERY

4/5⭐

"Her ability to detect lies has made her an outstanding officer of the law – despite being haunted by her inability to save the ones she loved from a gruesome fate many years ago. Now, she uses her powerful gift to defend the defenseless at any cost – even if it means teaming up with a deadly assassin to fight evil in a world gone mad."

I'm only halfway through the series. However, I love it. In this story, we follow a police officer who has the ability to detect lies. She has a strong sense of rightness, and wants to make the world a better place... Even if it means betraying her team and make a deal with one of the most dangerous criminals in the city to get to her goal. It has a lot of tension, mistery and I would recommend it to any of my fellow criminal minds fans. Or anyone who happens to love police themed series and true crime, really.

8. OMNISCIENT READER

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ACTION

⭐- coming soon

"Dokja was an average office worker whose sole interest was reading his favorite web novel 'Three Ways to Survive the Apocalypse.' But when the novel suddenly becomes reality, he is the only person who knows how the world will end. Armed with this realization, Dokja uses his understanding to change the course of the story, and the world, as he knows it."

Now, this one is very popular as well, but it's deserved. I started reading it a while ago, and only went back to it last night. I'm still very far behind since it's a long series, still, what I've read so far it's great. It has an amazing art style, and an amazing premise. I can't say much for now, but i'll definitely update this as I continue reading the series.

9. GET SCHOOLED

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DRAMA

3/5⭐

"Hwajin Na’s teaching techniques are pretty violent for someone who works in the Ministry of Education. That being said, when punishments don't seem to work on even the worst of school bullies, there is no better man for the job. Sometimes you can’t get a good education until those bullies are taught a lesson."

If I'm honest with you, nothing here makes sense, but I like it. It's set in a worls where teacher's used to be allowed to hit students until recently. When hat changed, students began to be assholes to teachers, to the point where a student murdered a teacher. This event caused the foundation of the TRPA, an agency made to put students in their place, and they are more than allowed to hit them. Our main character is one of the agents working for the TRPA, and the series is based on him beating the shit out of annoying kids. It's actually pretty entertaining, especially since the cases he has to deal with are pretty serious. It's a new series, but worth a read. You'll like it if you are a Shouta Aizawa fan. The MC resembles him in personality and physically.

10. UNLOVABLE REPLACEMENT

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ROMANCE

3.5/5⭐

"When his relationship went down the drain, Chiko Dyer started to develop a weird relationship with a local delivery girl."

You'll love it if you are an I love Yoo fan, especially if you love Nol. Our main character ends up meeting a rich kid as she delivers him a pizza. This rich kid is going through a hard breakup, and asks her to pretend being her girlfriend in front of her ex, the only reason she accepts, is because he offers to pay and she needs the money.I don't think I have to disclose what happens after that, right? Our male main character has a loooot of similitudes with Yeong Gi/Nol, so I think many of you will enjoy it.

AS FOR VERY POPULAR SERIES I ENJOY:

Let's play - Charles. (3.5/5)

The remarried empress - I just love women who put men in their place. (3/5)

I love Yoo - Cult classic. I love it. (4/5)

Cursed Princess Club - Very sweet and great if you have trouble with self worth. (4.5/5)

Men of the Harem - It's a weird concept, but I have fun with it. (3/5)

Edith - Very far behind, BUT I love the art style.

Age Matters - I couldn't care less for the main couple during the last season, I only finished it for the secondary characters, tbh. (3/5)

My dear cold blooded king - hated the last season, but the beginning was great. (2.5/5)

Lore Olympus - Got tired of it like 80 chapters ago, sorry. I do want to read it again, though. (3/5)

True Beauty - It has it's good moments, but the MC started to piss me off at some point. (2.5/5)

NOT SO WELL KNOWN SERIES (I think) I GAVE A SHOT RECENTLY

Devilish Romance - great to forget that you miss Devil number 4. (3/5)

Brimstone and Roses - Interesting concept and a fun read. (3/5)

The make up Remover - It gives me cursed princesses vibes. I like it. (3/5)

Like wind on a dry branch - I love many things about it and dislike many other things. (3.5/5)

Zero Game - Great for those who love videogames, I think. The only issue is that it's hard to keep up with it because they give you too much information with each chapter. (4/5)

Please, please, pleaseee add your own recs, guys!!! I'd also like to hear them. It would be lovely if you'd add more to any of the series I mentioned as well.

#webtoon #unholy blood #omniscient reader webtoon #vtk #ovr #lore olympus #true beauty #the remarried empress #unordinary #sub zero #let's play webtoon #i love him #age matters #purple hyacinth #get schooled #unlovable replacement #the warrior returns #webtoon recommendation #orv

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mbti-notes · 4 years

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I am privileged AF (young, no debt, STEM degree, white, born male) and yet I don't want to do anything with my life, I can't even get up from my bed to eat. I have so many possibilities but I don't have any passion, any craving, I don't even feel alive anymore. Everything is a pain in the ass, or I just don't give a fuck. How can I care about my life? Care about anything really? I know I do care but somehow really don't? I feel erased from existence, like it's not me at all. What shoud I do?

You don’t get to choose the circumstances that you’re born into, which is why we often use the phrase “accident of birth”. Whether you’re born into poverty or privilege is of little consequence in terms of “identity” because things that you can’t control should not define who you are. However, people run into problems when they start to believe that accidents of birth define their personal identity, e.g., believing that being born into poverty means that one automatically deserves lesser treatment, believing that being born into privilege means that one automatically deserves better treatment, or believing that genetic heritage or arbitrary achievements make you superior to others. You seem to indicate that you don’t subscribe to these problematic beliefs. Yet you still unwittingly link your privilege to your identity, otherwise you wouldn’t mention it as though you feel guilty for it, otherwise you wouldn’t imply that privilege “should” be bringing you a happy existence.

One good thing that has come out of Western culture is the idea of individuality, i.e., that you are more than the sum of your environmental influences. It is a valuable idea because it facilitates human progress by granting people the freedom to discover their gifts and make unique and creative contributions, in other words, it is a way to ensure that everyone has a role to play in society even when accidents of birth hold them back. However, individuality is a relatively new concept in human history, and I would argue that human beings still do not understand it because most of their attempts to express it are immature and rooted in irrational fears. Individuality states that, no matter your circumstances, you get to choose your attitude, you get to choose how to express yourself and respond to situations, and you get to choose how to make the best use of any gifts and resources you’ve been granted. Have you ever read Viktor Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning, which includes his reflections on surviving the holocaust? I’d recommend it to anyone who questions the meaning of their life. Why is it that people living in the same circumstances react so differently? E.g. Some choose surrender, some choose death, some choose to fight, some choose brutality, some choose integrity. To make a “choice” means that there is an agent doing the choosing. To possess a sense of agency and express agency requires individuality. You cannot make real choices when there is no real “you” there to deliberate and decide. But when you don’t know how to decide for yourself, others are more than happy to step in and use you.

You mention that you “feel erased from existence”. What this indicates is that you have no sense of individuality. When you say that you “don’t care about anything”, what you’re really saying is that you don’t care about yourself. There is no “you” to care about, is there? To discover who you really are is called the process of self-actualization. Up until now, you haven’t done anything significant to discover who you really are, what you really need in life, and where your individual purpose lies, have you? Or, if you have, you haven’t gotten very far? One of the downsides of privilege (such as being male in a male-dominated society or being heterosexual in a heteronormative society) is low self-awareness, because you are rarely prompted to question your social role, you are rarely urged to reflect on whether you use your privilege wisely, and you are rarely forced into proving that you deserve your position of relative power. In other words, being an “insider” means that you naturally fit into the order of things and never have to think outside that small box. One reason that the privileged fight so hard to maintain the status quo is because allowing “outsiders” to speak is psychologically threatening, as it forces the insiders to reflect on who they are and whether they really deserve to have more than the people they label “outsiders”.

Privilege aside, many people suffer from no individuality because they are only extrinsically motivated, i.e., they have only lived their life by superficial external standards for the sake of garnering superficial external rewards/privileges, without ever reflecting more deeply on their life direction, much like an automaton executing someone else’s program. They are usually stuck at stages 1-2 ego development. I’ll give you an oversimplified example of extrinsic vs intrinsic motivation: Which child do you think continues to clean their room when the parent stops paying out money? The child who only cleans their room to get a monetary reward (blindly following the parent’s programming), or the child who feels strong inner pride in maintaining cleanliness (personal choice)?

Self-actualization is hard work, it is a personal choice, and you choose it because you understand the value of your life, the value of your time, the value of your gifts, and you want to make the most of them. Many people don’t choose self-actualization because they are afraid of failing, they are afraid of taking full responsibility for each and every decision, and ignorance/complacency is the path of least resistance. However, where does rejecting self-actualization lead you other than apathy or indifference, since there is no “you” to care about and, therefore, no “you” to motivate healthy self-care and self-developing behavior? It’s not that you don’t have a self, it’s that you don’t honor it and listen to it. If there were no self, you wouldn’t feel bad about being apathetic. The definition of apathy is “no interest”, yet that’s not really possible, because you are clearly interested enough to know it’s a problem and want to solve it. How long do you have to be stuck in apathy before you can’t bear the emptiness of it anymore, because it slowly morphs into deep-seated existential pain?

Nobody can make you care when you don’t. Humans are built to care. Care emanates from within, from “the heart”, but you speak as though yours is missing. One of the nice things about being human is that we all have a voice within that guides us and informs us about how to live life well - it is the same voice that prompts you to reach out for help when you’re hurt or lost - that voice is the true capital S “Self” that is always there whether you are aware of it or not. Some might prefer to call it “soul” or “spirit” instead. In any case, it cries out to live life, and it despairs when you reject life. Many people are discouraged from listening to that inner voice because they have been punished for it in childhood, or they feel that they don’t deserve a life of their own, or they are afraid of what might happen when they finally stop and listen.

Therefore, you don’t sit around and wait for something to “make you care” because, once again, you’d trap yourself in the cycle of chasing superficial external rewards; rather, you make a personal choice to care because 1) it is the best way to make good use of your life, and 2) you understand that not caring leads you into emptiness and “death” as you reject your own spirit. Whether you choose to care is nobody else’s concern because we should respect your freedom to live as you see fit, but it should be YOUR concern because it is directly related to who you are and the quality of your life. If you choose not caring, then you choose to be a nobody to no one, to have no influence, to make no impact, thus, to have no real existence - you single-handedly erase yourself from existence. You say you “feel erased”, which indicates that you suffer from passivity or even victim mentality, as though someone has cruelly inflicted this state upon you. Nobody can develop your individuality for you. Without it, you won’t realize that you are always free to choose how to be. At any point, you can choose to take full responsibility for how you live every second of your life rather than twiddling your thumbs or living in fear.

One way to look at privilege is that it grants you economic power and social capital that you didn’t earn for yourself. When you don’t properly earn something, you might develop an irrational fear of losing it, you are much less likely to appreciate it, and you are far more likely to take its positive aspects for granted. And when you no longer see the positive, what are you left with if not just the negative (or the “pain in the asses” as you put it)? It’s hard to appreciate privilege when you don’t really understand what it means to live without it or how hard some people work to obtain it (and perhaps still fail to). Many privileged parents actually damage their child’s psychological development by never allowing them to face any real challenges in life (sheltering them), by telling them that privilege is their birthright, by telling them they “should” be happy for an easy life, or that winning the genetic lottery is what makes them “special”. Many people believe that having all of their physical and material desires taken care of is the road to happiness, but it isn’t. There’s a reason we use different words to describe concepts like “body”, “mind”, and “spirit” or “soul”. Feeding the body isn’t the same as nourishing your soul.

Fulfillment comes from the arduous process of learning how to live your best life, which includes taking the initiative to confront your life’s challenges, problems, and obstacles as well as succeeding or failing by your own hand. If you allow privilege to shield you from proper hard work, then you rob yourself of the chance to learn about who you really are and what you’re really made of. When you define yourself with empty markers of success, like accidents of birth or unearned privilege, you don’t develop a personal identity and then “my life” remains a meaningless concept. Have you ever read the story of the Buddha, a man raised as royalty in the lap of luxury but then walked away from privilege because disillusionment prompted him to explore the true meaning of life? He listened to the voice within, found something that worked for him, and that is what each of us needs to do. We each need to set out on our own journey of self-actualization, to find our true individuality, to live to our unique potential. Privilege can be a cage as much as a blessing. Whatever your circumstances, a true individual would never accept a caged life, no matter how gilded the cage, because it means giving up the freedom for self-exploration.

You care about life when your individuality and becoming a person of substance matters to you (intrinsic motivation) a lot more than chasing empty/fleeting rewards (extrinsic motivation). To be an individual means that you are your own savior first, so you don’t sit around waiting for one. Unless you’re brave enough to break free of your “automaton” life, nothing will really change, will it? It’s not your fault that you were born into privilege or granted privilege by society, but it is your fault if you keep choosing to hide behind it to the point that you never connect with anything, never recognize your potential, never grow, and never become anything - think of it as self-violence. It’s not about feeling guilty for squandering what you have, it’s about reflecting seriously on why you would ever choose the self-inflicted pain of living a spiritually dead life.

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fbdtingson · 4 years

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LIFE AND DEATH

In the Heavenly Kingdom there was a Great gathering and all the gods and goddesses are summoned to be in this jamboree. Every corner was decorated in fine pearls and gold for it was the foremost event after thousands of years. As the trumpet sounded the gods arrived from very distant realms and as they step at the holy gates the angels roars for joy and welcomed all the divine beings. Among all of this great existence came the salient deity that will take responsibility of the succeeding plan in the mortal world.

There came the God of Life, the God of Death, the God of Faith, and the God of Destiny. The celebration goes on and in the middle of loud music and chattering unexpectedly the God of Death felt something odd as he was captivated by the beauty of the God of Life. She was like the definition of perfection to him for every inch of her is faultless. The young god talked to the goddess and she finds out his role is the complete opposite of her and she abandon him in their conversation and they were seen by their parents.

They were commanded to make peace in order for them to work together in mortal world. As they separate from each other their parents told them that they should always keep their distance because of the disagreement of their families. The God of Death was disheartened to know the conflict of their families.

Sweet song started to play and there came a very charming and good looking god. He came near to the God of Life to dance her. It was the God of Faith who is also charmed by her beauty.

The celebration lasted for decades of years before they will be fulfilling their role. The God of Life felt bad for the action she made to the God of Death.

So she tries to find him in the kingdom to properly apologize for her rudeness.

And she found him in the garden talking to the angels. She was observing him from afar and she don't find the God of Death as what her parents describe him.

Darkness was never found on him.

The God of Death looked behind him and saw the beautiful damsel god and he invited her sit down with him. Watching the endless galaxy view.

*invited her to sit down with him

They talked there for months and they never left their spot for they were enjoying their company.

They talked about their dreams and fears and all sorts of things they like then she's starting to fall for for him and she keeps on denying it for she knows that it was forbidden to love the God of Death.

The God of Life look at his face and suddenly their eyes met and that moment they knew they loved each other.

Heart started to beat peculiarly and they seemed they don't hear any music but only the music beats of their hearts.

The God of Life went to her chariots and the same with the other. As they rode their way to the mortal world, the God of Death stares on white chariot where the goddess is and he can't stop reminiscing the kiss he planted on her lips.

As soon as they arrive they started to fulfill their role as gods. They saw the beauty of the existence of the mortals and they witness happiness and sadness, knowledge and ignorance, goodness and vices.

Through out thousands of years the God of Death missed his beautiful goddess. He don't have any idea where she at those time. He wanted to find her again so he look on every edge and corners of the world. He found the God of Destiny and ask him if he has any idea where the God of Life is. He answered and told him that she is getting married to someone.

Pain scattered inside him and caused him to cry like endlessly. That moment he lost his sense of direction and forgot his role. Mortal lived for more than hundreds of years, sickness never prevailed, and mortals became so populated.

The God of Destiny talked to him and brought sense back to him. Everything in mortal world started to get back in order.

The two gods went to the wedding day of the God of Life. The God of Death was shocked to find out that she's marrying the God Faith.

Then the bride enters and he saw her walking in the aisle with her outstanding outfit. Her countenance was like cover with innocence and purity for she's wearing the whitest clothing that ever made in the kingdom.

She walks toward the altar and everyone seems to be happy. The God of Faith look on him and gave a smirk that it's like telling him that he won the game.

As the bride continues to walk she pause for a bit when she saw her true love in the crowd with the tears flooding on his face. But she continues to walk again with her fake smile and lifeless eyes.

**that he lose the game.

The God of Death didn't finish the ceremony and went straight back to the mortal world and followed by his friend.

Because of his anguish and the pain in his heart he caused the moon to be painted in red symbolizes the torture he felt in his heart. Darkness envelopes the world leaving a beautiful red crimson full moon in the sky.

The God of Destiny saw his creation and he felt the sorrow for his friend. He was curious about the matter that troubles the God of Death. They talked on the moon and the God of Death rehearsed his story to his dear friend.

The God of Destiny is a wise god and suggested that they need to visit his uncle, the God of Time.

Back in the ceremony, the goddess found out that the 2 gods left and went back to the mortal world. Without any hesitation she secretly fled the kingdom without anyone noticing her.

She followed back the God of Death to the mortal world with her white colt.

As she landed on the mortal realms she look on every city hoping to find her lover. On the third city she found a mortal that really resembles her with the boy that also look like the God of Death.

She craved the absence of her love while watching the two mortals expressing their love to each other.

She wept so hard that she caused the whole earth to rain. As the goddess sat on the grassland someone gaze on her from distance. The God of Life exclaimed that only if they can be like the mortals. Because of the pain in her heart she passed out and quickly the personage that observes her caught the goddess and whisper "I also wished it was us". The God of Death carries her to the sky and put her on the bed of cloud. He was so overwhelmed on the things he learned from the God of Time. They viewed the past and found out that the God of Faith was plotting to cause a great commotion in Heaven. And they also saw the war in Heaven.

For them to stop this war they need to to abandon what they desire and the love they have. If their parents found out their forbidden love it will be the start of the war. Faith use this knowledge in order for him to win the goddess and forces her to marry him.

The God of Death knows the decisions she made to keep the balance between gods and the mortal.

He was delighted and proud for her action

The God of Death gently kissed and embraces her and said it this to her "I am so proud of you, without any doubt you do really love me and proved me you act unselfish. You did it to protect everyone and establish harmony. You are right, let's make things right".

The God of Death courageously left everything. Leaving the goddess in the bed with tears flowing on her cheeks hearing everything for she was conscious at the very time he kissed her.

As she about to returned to the kingdom her hands were glowing as if there's like a spell that is happening. Words became clear and it states "You have the power to make the future to reality" and she knows it came from the God of Time.

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hopiemiliza-blog · 5 years

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“The implication of doing our duties in life”

Everyone has their own duty in life. This depends on what role they have in life to perform their duties. Aside from their duties, they also have a pleasure to fulfill that maximizes happiness for the majority. Duties and pleasures are both important to everyone. But among them, what is more accountable, is it the duty they should do or the pleasures they should fulfill?

Rendering to Kant's theory, actions are only morally right when they are done out of duty while utilitarianism promotes action that maximizes the happiness and well-being of majority. Both are good for us, but if I were to tolerate one, I would rather tolerate Kant's theory rather than being a utilitarian. Because, with Kant's deontological theory, we are capable to fulfill our duties on which we solely act the right one. By this, we can't just lead to any possible harm or suffer tremendously to perishing. We can also practice our admirable self-control and sufficiently learn to properly respect others. We all have these duties in life, and everyone justly deserves to be respected because we in common are all human beings. Just like for example, it is naturally our moral duty to aid others who are in need because if we are all heartless then none of us could live. We can't live by ourselves so we genuinely need others to seek for help. We can't just shape ourselves with only us who lives in these worlds. We naturally need each other even without any social inclinations that we should feel, at least we can promote safety and security with everyone.

Therefore, by performing our duties and responsibilities, it can promptly lead us to a better life. It protects and improves our respect with others andit promotes the safety for everyone without thinking of any suspicious things. And by this theory, we are able to reflect carefully to our actions. We could also produce positivity with everyone that can encourage them to live longer and peacefully. And it can also established trust and happiness for our quotidian lives.

#Reflection07

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unbotheredqueensblog · 3 years

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THE GOLDEN VOICE

Meet Ana a young and beautiful girl Who lives at a far far away

Her house is tiny and dusty

A only daughter of Leo and Mary

Her mom has a noodle hair

Her dad has a owl eyes

Who are strict and lazy

They doesn't even care for Ana

Ana is so pretty and loved

By the people who sees her

But she is insecure for being fat

Lacking on her room

With watery eyes

Seeing herself to a mirror

Wishing that she will be tiny

When the sun arise

While laying on her bed curbing

Singing a lullaby to make her sleep

Ana has a golden voice that has sprinkles on it

Everyone who hear her golden voice

Cultivate and have hearts on there eyes

Every women who hear her admire her golden voice

Every men who hear her voice fall in love with her

One day Ana goes to the market

To buy some supplies for there home

Cause her parents are crazy as nothing

She bought some fresh fish catch from the deep sea

Also she bought some vegetables as fresh from harvest

She's happy doing to the market because she loves food

She loves to eat a lot extremely

The comfort that she needs love gaves that comfort thats why she love food

Her favorite food is fried chicken that deeps to a boiling oil in a high heat

She also loves rice that full of cabs that makes her big and bloated

Her favorite dessert is ice cream that flows of sprinkles and fluffy marshmallows

While she's cooking for there dinner

She sings her favorite song and its so beautiful to hear

Even birds are also singing with her

And the mouses are dancing while listening to them

She's cooking some delicious food

Favorite of her parents and her

She's also talented on cooking delicious dish

She's preparing the table for dinner

While singing her favorite song that's high above in the sky

When her parent approach the table

While staring badly at her

When she notice she stop singing

“Stop singing you really think your voice is that good to hear” her mom said

“If you want to shout go outside and scrim there” her dad said

She become sad while eating the food that see cooks for her family

There's a lot of things that playing into her mind

Why of all the people who will not support her why her parents

When she's on the middle of eating

She cried and runs to her room without saying anything

She's all alone to her room crying quietly

While crying she started singing

The room started to light up golden

The birds and mouses start to approach her

Her friends feel her sadly emotion

While seeing her friends admire her voice She smile and touch them sweetly and softly and her friends also hug her hands

She approach the windows and look up

She mesmerized about the beauty of the stars above the sky with a bright light coming out from the plate moon

Bright sunny day birds are flying rounded

She went first to the bathroom to clean herself and brush her white teeth

Roasters are hungry and cows too

She go down she grab a bread to eat

When she opens the door a windy blows her and she smile cause its so refreshing

She feed all her friends in the backyard

She doesn't have any friends so that birds, mouses and a lot of friends in there backyard also in the forest

While walking singing with the birds on the forest she place herself to a falls that has a beautiful clear water that fish are visible

There's no one around so she louder her singing voice that echoing to the place

She doesn't have any idea that someone

is walking slowly and quiet near to her

When she notice someone she stop singing and notice a boy who's staring at her while smiling “Why di you stop your voice is very beautiful its not ordinary” he said

Ana look away cause she can't look the face of a handsome boy she just smile

They talk for a while the boy really admire Ana he's eyes sparkles a lot looking straight to her it gives a little chills and a blush on her face until the boy ask her name

“By the way, what's your name? the boy ask

“Im Ana” she said

“What a lovely name, Im Marko” he said

“Nice meeting you Marko” Ana said

They become friends Ana has a friend now

Marco ask her If she is aware for the up coming talent show that will happen at the market and it has a prize If you win

Ana smile and her eyes full of happiness

She wanted to join to that talent show

But she has two major problems first is her insecurity to her body she is frighten to go up to the stage and people will laugh at her

And the second one is her parents whould not allow her to join to that talent show

Her happy face turns into a sadly face and she cry a lot that she may not fulfill her dream to sing in front of many people

Marko holds her hand and ask her “Whats wrong Ana? You can talk to me if you want? he said then he confort Ana by hugging her

When Ana’s emotion calms Marko just wait for her to speak and share she don't want to pressure her to tell what's really the problem

Ana breathe out heavily and she look to Marco and say to herself “maybe I can trust him” Ana smile to him and Marco also smile

Then she breathe again and start telling what really the reasons that she can make it to the talent show even she really want

Then Marko understand the situation he had a first solution to that by talking properly to her parents and believing to herself

The second one if her parents still didn't allow her its up to her to break the roles and follow her dreams to sing in front of people

They meet again to there hidden place and each of the tells about their lives what family they have and what they like

Suddenly Ana feel sorry for herself because Marco has a lovely family that loves him and treat him well

Marco holds her hand and tell her that the right time will came that her parents will be change and love her for the rest of their lives

When Ana came home she prefers the food for there dinner and still thinking the advice that Marco said earlier she can't focus to eat

After eating she wash dishes and go to her room sitting on the window looking to the star in the sky and singing that makes her relax she decided to talk to her parents first

She think positively that her parents will allow her to sing to the talent show

Thanks to Marco she had a friend to lean on

The next day which is actually the day of the talent show while preparing to their lunch she speak up to her parent if she can join the talent show and give them a lovely smile but her parents get mad and her mother shout out her saying “You will never go to the talent show can you be shy look at yourself your so fat you can't win that contest understand!”

She was drugged by her father and lock up to her room she's crying loudly didn't except that it will happen that worst

She sit on the corner of her room and cry

Looking to the clock she need to get out of that room and go to the market and sing

She wants to open her parents eyes that even she's fat she can win that she can make them proud

There's someone throw on her window luckily its Marco he knew that Ana’s parents will not allow her to sing so he proceed to the second plan which is breaking the roles

Ana wipe her tears and change she wear her favorite dress and she put some make up to be more presentable to people

They tied up the blanket that she had on her room to make a rope to get down and it was successful

They run to go to the market as soon as possible holding hands and with a bright smiles to there faces

When they arrive to the talent show wa already started but she still can perform They filled up the form and prepare for her turn while waiting she look at Marco and say thank you for all things that he did for her and they hugged each other

It's her turn now she walk to the middle of the stage and smile to the people her chest running as fast but she think that she can do it looking to Marco which is her source of bravery the piano started to play and she started singing a few lines of the song

Her parents followed her to the market and they hear the true beauty of theirs daughters golden voice and the people was mesmerized about what they hear its a cotton to the ears and cloud to the feelings

Her parents realize what they did and they cried watching and listening to their daughter smiling and looking to her

She notice that her parents are there and she can see her though their eyes their repentance and happiness when the people cheering for her when she hit the high note

Ana won the talent show and fulfill her dream to sing for the people

The people acknowledge her for having a golden voice to their village

When she walk down to the stares her parents approach her crying saying “We're really sorry our daughter” they they hugged Ana she also hugged them back because even she's mad at them she still love them as a parents

She look at them and says “I already forgive you Mother and Father” while crying her parents also say “We so proud of you you're such a gift to us”

Ana introduce Marco to her parents saying “Mother Father this is my friend who helps me to get her and he also encourage me to join to this talent show” Her parents smiles to him saying “Nic meeting you and thank you” Marco smiles back saying “Its my honor to meet you maam and sir”

They invite Marco to have dinner with them to their house

When they already home Ana was shocked because she usually does preparing but now her parents do it for her she actually have teary eye for so much joy and happiness

They eat dinner with full of laughter and naughtiness that Ana didn't really realized that will happened

Her parents finally changed and become a real parents to her They are the one who cooks for the family and the one feed the animals backyard and finally she feels the love that she really wanted and deserve

Marko and Ana still meets at the falls and they know that they already feelings to each other

After ten years, Ana and Marco become married and blessed with two daughters Lori and Mori who also have golden voices like there mother they lived on a small house at the forest beside the falls where they meet each other

This small house was full of love and caring for each other they also have plenty of friends backyard

Swimming to the falls was the most favorite for their children as a bonding

While swimming they used to sing a song that feel them a love and family that they must treasure for a long time

Ana teach her daughters to love each other and always look to each other

Ana and Marco hug their children and they live happily ever after

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