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dana-chan-the-control-brain · 3 years

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Happy new year everyone 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

I know 2020 has been hard for everyone.

And I want everyone to know, suffering isn't a contest and we all suffer in different ways. But I feel I should give my year in Review. Just some things that happened to me personally.

This was an intense, and long and spiritual and emotional journey for me...

I really discovered what it meant to have community, family and what my life means to me.

But I feel I need to get this in writing cause I can remember the year with vivid detail and I will probably forget if I don't get it down.

Do I have to share this publically online to my tumblr account for a bunch of strangers to see? not really.

Do I want to?

Yes. I think so. Just from how so many people on tumblr and real life have touched me.

This is kinda long and no one needs to read this.

(idk how to do a readmore on mobile. But this is where I would add it later. No one needs to read if they don't want to.)

January/February: (and some background on the last five years of my life cause.....well. it's important.)

As people knew, I got way into Invader Zim last summer. I spent most of my waking life working a dead end job at a grocery store. I lived a sad lonely life, going straight home to a single dark studio apartment. With not many material possessions outside of games, my laptop and my tablet to my name. Half of my material loves, such as home furnishings and books were still in boxes from when I moved in. In case I ever had to move again, or get some "big screenshot or copywriter" job in the city.

....

I lived in that city in the same dead end job and apartment for five years.

No friends. No social life. I often refused to make doctor appointments or attempt to establish myself in that city. I didn't even talk to anyone in my workplace.

Work. Go online. Go to sleep.

I lived like that for five years.

I thought it was good.

Even my therapist thought I was doing well.

When I really wasn't. My main character flaw I struggle with is motivation.

I can talk to someone about very detailed plans I have to fix a problem... But I tend to never follow through.

Just because I can describe in detail how to fix my personal problems, it doesn't mean I will do it.

(I have gotten better at this but it's a major struggle)

I might have been a Zombie during the day...

But by night I was pouring my soul into my AU and my analysis.

After being so thoughly ignored or overlooked by the Naruto fandom and the Undertale fandom, I felt like I had finally found my home and was settling into a community there.

I just loved that people loved what I had to say.

Especially my AU.

It's no secret that a lot of themes in my au revolve around found family, grief, and loss.......

Fatherhood, in particular.

What it means to be a father, how much do you need to try when you mess up, how willing should a child forgive their parent, especially those that have wronged you and how much of it is factually accurate and simply a self projection of what children want their parents to be and visa versa... What amount of forgiveness and change is nessasary...is it needed?

....

It's no secret that a lot of my AU is a giant coping mechanism for my Dad's death. Espessially the falling out and growing closer with a lot of my family members throughout the years following his death. (Most of the time I keep it ambiguous to how it relates to my personal life unless I include a readmore that states so outright. I feel my au can be enjoyed by a variety of people in the fandom who don't need to know me as a person or my life story.)

My Dad passed away in 2016 in February and my family still feels the aftershocks to this day.

It's part of the reason I moved to the city, alienated myself from my family and people that loved me and refused to experience life for five years.

My entire world was Zim, and I was okay.

March: When America finally realized and started to feel the effects of the pandemic....

A lot of people got scared.

Me included.

I didn't have any streaming services or access to the news. So I only heard accounts from my mom.

I didn't understand why the store was so dead quiet and empty for a few days, then it went into mass chaos and panic in the span of two days.

It felt like Retail black friday in the worst way. Everyone was packed like sardines. Everyone was yelling. The lines at the registers bled into the clothing department.

I was witness to customers shoving others for toilet paper, being rude to cashier's and just overall unpleasantness.

At the time, I didn't even fully grasp what the pandemic was, and I feel a lot of people at the time didn't either.

I ended up absentmindedly scratching my eyebrow in front of a customer and she screamed and villanised me for it. That they didn't want groceries touched by my "unclean hands"

I ended up breaking down into tears.

The customer behind me gave me a hug and told me I was doing a great job.

But the damage was done. It was the final straw, I couldn't stop crying and I was breaking apart.

Thankfully my Boss (the one who likes me) pulled me aside and asked what's wrong.

It was then that I quit. No notice. Same day. I had to get out of there.

I was planning to move to an apartment with my sister in the summer, but my Mom offered for me to move back in with her temperarily just so I can get out of the city and away from the pandemic.

So I did.

I got scared, broke my lease a month early and quit my job of five years that gave me nothing back.

He told me, "take care of yourself and your family, I won't keep you here, do what you need to do."

So I did.

April-June:

A very eventful few months.

My mom offered for me to live at her place, but for some reason she was acting like I would live there forever. That this wasn't a temporary arrangement, and that I didn't have an apartment set up already.

This was in large part to my sister, who had lived with my mom taking advantage of her for years.

Even though my sister and I were going to move in together, I was just never sure about it cause of how she never packed her stuff or made any effort to find a job.

My mom often acted like I was lazy and not searching and was treating me like... Well, an unruly teenager instead of a woman of 29 years. She acted like I was a failure for returning home when it was her idea in the first place.

I would have just been petrified in the city.

Like usual, I retreated to my au again.... And in the spring, something eventful happened.

In may, 8th 2020:

I was invited by @rissynicole to join an invader zim discord.

Now, I've never really used discord before. I always thought it's interface is too confusing.. and I'm a member of a few other iz discords and I usually don't follow them that closely.

Rissy assured me it was different cause some friends of thiers made it and it was smaller.

Before I knew it, I was sharing memes and getting to know everyone there.

It wasn't long after I invited my partner in IZ crimes, @paketdimensioncomic who was genuinely wary of iz servers due to a bad experience with the last one they were a part of.

But soon they were sharing memes and laughing with everyone else.

My eyes were starting to open and I was able to connect to fans of my work in an interpersonal way. And I was able to discover new artists and aus I never knew about.

I was also able to meet so many others of the community and invite them to the server myself.

The moo-ping 10 server kept me sane while I was living with my judgmental mother.

Not only that, the summer was very productive for my au.

Drawing was all I did, and it was a huge break from the job as a cashier I had.

Not only that, June came, and with it, me and Ceph's first collab fic:

A result of us just going back and forth in our DMs constantly about Professor Membrane and how he changed in ETF for the better and how much we adamantly stan "trying-to-be-a-good-dad-brane" and how much of his ETF development has to be implied off screen in order for the emotional resolution in the movie to matter.

The only reason I never professed my love for Membrane as a character in the fandom before the fic dropped was.... Well....

Membrane can be a decisive character in the fandom and I was so worried people would hate me if I did an analysis on him, simply because he's not the best parent in the world. (As an understatement)

Ceph and I really encouraged each other to scream our love for the science himbo loud and proud more frequently and so often.... I actually start to see less Membrane hate posts and breakdowns then their used to be.... I like to think it's a combination of Me and Ceph's influence, along with ETF and the Quarterly's painting Membrane in a slightly more nuanced light then he was previously.

I never wrote a collab fic before and it's such a rewarding and fun and unique experience that I don't think I'll ever have again. And I love working with Ceph on our fics so much.

So much so we did it again...

July-August:

I never thought I would be one of those people who writes NSFW IZ fic... But here I am.

The Brainbrane au started.... An au of my au where Membrane and the Computer fall in love and Membrane makes him a body.

This ship was based around the idea where we joked that Membrane and Zim's Computer would have funny interactions if they ever met, under the pretense Membrane thinks Computer is Zim's parent.

Our headcanons morphed and shifted until we just full blown started shipping them.

Just because Membrane and Zim's Computer have overall REALLY entertaining chemistry.

It's a character dynamic never seen in the show or comics (yet) and I imagine thier interactions to be nothing but entertaining banter.

The fic was also born from spite... Making fun of the troupes and cliches that we found personally destestible in some questionable zadr fics.

So an angry ace and a demi-bisexual collab on a porn and end up blessing the fandom with

Compapa headcanons,

Computer being recognized as a more common used fanon character,

The ship of Brainbrane.

The fandom having a crisis of "oh God, not only are we xenophiles we're technophiles too!!!" Or "why you gotta give Zim's Computer an ass"

More android Computer designs

It was an eventful summer.

In the midst of all this, I moved into my new place, got a new job, and I was able to see my friend (who is def my platonic straight soul mate) who lives in Indiana.

She came to visit, showed me how to decorate and how to take care of my body better! Things were looking up! It was great.

September-November:

My job was at a boat store. If was approaching the fall and my hours were being severely cut.

I was getting into a rut of depression again.

I thought things were changing but the same routine I was trying to escape from was the same thing coming back.

But instead of letting it take hold, I decided I was going to do something about it... I was gonna visit a museum and go with my sister. Just... variety stimulation.

Well that didn't happen.

I talked about this shortly in my au itself...but..

My sister had a complete mental breakdown.

She stopped taking her meds, went off the deep end and was in the hospital a total of five times throughout November.

A lot of it was acting out and the perfect storm of environmental factors that made her scream and act out so she would keep going back to the hospital.

It was traumatizing for me.

I just can't explain what it's like. For her and for me to be in that position.

I'm not telling the full story and a lot of bullshit things happened I won't share here.

She got diagnosed with bipolar one and my mom expected me to be a caretaker for her.

I threatened to disown my family and move away out of state.

It was just too much for me to handle.

So much I was a nervous wreck.

I tried to pick up a second job... Cause my sister was in the mental ward so frequently and couldn't pay the bills.

But I was fired within a week cause I was so stressed I couldn't retain the basic information they were training me for.

It was an office job.

My dream.

It could have been.

I was fired from something I really wanted.

I was only there for three days.

I could not retain any information.

I was a mess.

My sister was a trigger, my mom wanted me to live with her. I couldn't live like this.... I had to get out.

I had to get out.

December:

Remember my Indiana friend?

Well the first week of December is my birthday.

My 30th to be exact.

While I did pick up a seasonal position at Target (not my first pick)

I took the first week of December off so I could spend time with her. Cause she agreed, I needed a break from this crap.

Surviving 30 years is cause to celebrate and if I had to celebrate with my sister I would have cried.

I know there was a risk traveling out of state during a pandemic...

But I needed out, I needed a friend..

And I kinda wanted to look at the place since I was considering moving there.

My friend's mom was sick so she avoided me and her daughter and got us a hotel room.

It was fun! I got to swim in a salt water pool, we talked about Naruto, I showed her the iz and su art books I brought, also Computer and Membrane tea.

I also got to meet her other friends and get crunk. And her bf who is super nice and funny!

I had a super fun birthday....

Until her mom told my friend that her grandparents had covid and that was what she had. And my friend got sick within that same day.... As did I.

I owe so much to her family.

I was an entire state away...about a ten hour drive from home.... She let me stay at her house. "The covid house" we called it.

Cause everyone (except the father. He avoided everyone and booked a hotel immediately cus he was an ER doctor) had covid within a day.

I called in, the test results were positive and I had to stay with her family for ten days quarantine before I could work again.

Which would have been fine....

If my tumblr didn't log me out perminately of my old account. @dana-chan325 .... Which really sucked cause I had a constant headache and was too sick to engage with tumblr or much of the fandom. I didn't want to make a new account when my head was in a bad fog and I could barely breathe or smell.

It's not like I saw much of my friend either.... We all slept at different hours and she had more symptoms then I did.

It was just netflix, danganronpa v3 and cry.

I was miserable, but at the same time.... Not?

I really feel like God himself was the one who pulled me off from tumblr, and my living situation.

Maybe a whole extra week feeling like a bobblehead was what I needed.

It gave me some much needed clarity on my relationships with my mom and sis and friend.

Running away to Indiana was not the solution here.

Once I was better within ten days and no longer had a leave of absence, I drove home.

I am glad I fully recovered (but from how I understand it, my dear friend is still ill. I'm praying for her)

I might have gone to work a bit too soon, cause I had an asthma attack after trying to unload a single cart in the span of six hours.

My boss lectured that my speed was unacceptable, and even though I explained the covid situation and breathing problems many times, she threatened that I'd be fired if I'm that slow again.

Que the next few days of work where they put me on register.

Instantly I was sent into a panic remembering the last time I was on the register and how that panic attack caused me to quit.

I even asked if I could go back to stocking, since my breathing had improved. My boss assured me that I was put on the register cause they needed help and nothing to do with my covid thing.

Then as December concluded and the new year began, my boss said that this was the last shift for me cause my position was seasonal and they were letting a lot of people go.

I then asked why I was on the schedule for Sunday, and he told me to ignore it and I'm free to reapply for full-time.

I mean.... They can act smart about it...

But putting your general merchandise stocker onto register after she had an asthma attack and missed working the first two weeks of December due to covid.....

Not a good look.

So once again, I'm jobless once more.

Will probably continue to live with my sister for awhile.

But I do not feel as if it's a bad thing....

I met so many good people this year....

My friend's family even gave me 500 usd to cover my rent since I couldn't work for a majority of December.

I've seen evil and good from humanity this year. I've seen acts of god, good friends and what my real family means to me as well as friends I consider family.

This year really made me look back at the person in the mirror and say,

"I deserve better."

And actually worked for it this time.

Oh and after Christmas I got a horrible yeast infection that burns over most of my body currently.

Very accurate doodle to the pain I'm in right now.

(seriously my body is a fungus.)

But hey, good news, I respected myself enough to go to the doctor about it!!

So that's progress.

I really hope 2021 holds good things for me.

Thank you to the mooping 10 server for always being there and keeping me sane,

Thank you tumblr for liking my au and everything.

AND A SUPER SPECIAL THANK YOU TO @evartandadam and her family for housing me and my dumb diseased ass. Everyone, she is an angel and I can't express how much she means to me. Please check out her art and buy her stuff on redbubble.

Anyways... Byebye 2020.

I look forward to what I can accomplish for myself this year.

#danachan's posts #personal stuff #new year post #tw: covid #tw: yeast infection

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onthevirgeofdestruction · 3 years

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35 Q’s for Fanfic Writers

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I’m having a shitty, rude alter-y, crap night so I’m just going to answer all of these to distract myself and focus and to not bother anybody just making my own post and putting it under the cut btw, notice to anyone not aware: since I’m moving I won’t likely be updating anything until I’m done doing so.

1. From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!) 3/5? Could use more editing and description and can be weirdly paced.

2. Why do you write fanfiction? Because it’s better than focusing on pain 24/7.

3. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works? I don’t seem to have a specific narrative voice that people recognize but I’m pretty proud of mostly organic dialogue.

4. Are there any writers that inspire you? as a rule i never look up to anybody for inspiration but there’s some stuff in my ao3 bookmarks I fawn over.

5. What’s the fic you’re most proud of? Right now, none of them. It changes normally, anyway. If get too proud then I’d get my ass kicked by RSD if someone didn’t like it so it’s safer this way

6. What element of writing do you find comes easily? Dialogue.

7. What element of writing do you struggle with most? Organic description, poetic language kind of stuff. I can paint a scene but I’m not so great with bring out out a feeling with description alone.

8. Which character(s) do you find easiest to write? Janus and Virgil are probably tied. They both have things I struggle with but I don’t have to go back and do much adjusting of language and tone with them. Though admittedly my Virgil is signifigantly more foul-mouthed than canon and I tend to prefer pre-AA feral asshole Virgil.

9. Which character(s) do you find most difficult to write? Patton. I write him the least, so people can probably tell. I love Patton, I really do, but it’s so hard to keep away from fanon Patton.

10. What’s your favorite genre to write for? Angst w/ H/C obviously. Or if you’re talking about regular book genres, Fantasy. I fucking love fantasy world building.

11. Who or what do you find yourself writing about most? Trauma. I blame Daeram. As if Ayri isn’t a giant Angst Demon.

12. Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about. Slopes. I’m really into it. I’ve got three one shots running right now. Patrons can read the first part of the unnamed cat remus one, there’s also a coffeeshop au tropey nonsense one like eglantine & lycoris, but Slopes is addiction angst. Mmmmm. Virgil is addicted to coke and alcohol and will listening to his friends even be in time? Who knows, especially not me, but there’s already over 30k.

13. First fandom you ever wrote for? InuYasha. Or was it Harry Potter? Or shit, The Blue Sword? Fuck, I’ve been writing for a long time, I really have no idea.

14. What’s your favorite fandom to write for? Sanders Sides. The characters are the perfect dynamic for writing since they exist in balance of each other and the popular, easy to project on archetypes featured are incredibly fun to do basically any scenario with.

15. What’s the weirdest fandom you’ve ever written for? Weird storywise? Kingdom Hearts? I can’t even follow the plot anymore. Weird Fandomwise? Sanders Sides. Its simultainiously the fluffiest and angstiest nonsense at the same time.

16. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)? Vampires. Gay ones. Gay Vampires. I also love calm tol and angy smol.

17. A trope you’ll never, ever write for. Any tropes that normalize incredibly toxic behaviour or tropes that are inherantly ableist, but I can’t think of any.

18. Wildest fic you’ve ever written? Incorrigible continues to be complete nonsense.

19. Do you prefer canon-compliant, AUs, or something in-between? AUs. I mean closest I even have is canon-divergence other than a single short.

20. Gen fic or shippy stuff? I like it when there is gay nonsense along with a plot that is treated as more important than the relationship the most. But I like both. There’s more shippy stuff in tss so i read more shipping action by default.

21. Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!) Anxceit/Sleepxiety, but in general, give me darksides or give me death/j

22. Do you listen to anything while you write? Almost everything I write has a special playlist I listen to to help me write it, but otherwise I listen to my Nyan playlist, an alter is picking the tunes, or a voidfam playlist. I never have music off. When my internet is down I just listen to the songs I own or Anxiety’s theme on loop.

23. Do you prefer prompts and challenges, or completely independent ideas? I’m fine with all of them. I love working with prompts but I tend to deviate. And I’ve never done a challenge since I can’t do deadlines and bad things happen bingo never sent me a card and I applied three times.

24. One-shots or multi-chaptered works? I am generally multi-chaptered stuff, but I’ve been working on a few one-shots lately that are much longer than most one shots.

25. Have you ever daydreamed about side adventures/spin-offs from your fic? Tell us about them! I was originally thinking of doing some little 13-year-old Dreaming!Roman (y’know, the one with a job) shorts but it turns out I just had an alter of that little bastard and that’s why I inexplicably know more about him then I ever even considered. I still might do them after Dreaming is done. But that’s paced so slowly who knows when that might happen. Otherwise I put stuff in my notes and just do shorts of it if I’m like “oh you know what’s cool???” but since I can’t daydream maybe this question doesn’t apply to me.

26. Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try? I want to do more autism stuff, and I’ve had it demanded a few times, but I’m scared of being that explict about it for some reason. Possibly because I might be, possibly because I’m scared of doing it wrong even though I’ve accidentally coded multiple characters autistic. I’m scared of explictly tagging them as such, too.

27. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received? That I can remember off the top of my head? I’m going with one from @a-genz-with-trauma-and-kins. It really helped me out and was just so kind and literally the best christmas gift I got in 2020.

28. How well do you handle criticism when it comes to your writing? I can handle it alright but Daeram is a little fucking pissbaby about it. Constructive criticism helps people get better, so I appreciate it. I can’t handle critism that is incomplete, though. “i just don’t get it” or “I don’t know I don’t like it” kind of things. If I can’t understand the why to fix it then things get out of control. And then I spiral and RSD for like four days minimum. If it came from an anon or a troll, too, It might not bother me for as long. Things that are just like “this is shit and you should feel bad” just make me laugh. Couldn’t even bother to read it long enough to insult me proper? I don’t care.

29. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out? I have a few times. Mostly in shorts and prompts, I think. I think they turned out okay. They’re not particularly inspired or anything.

30. Tooth-rotting fluff or merciless angst? Depends on my mood. Am I triggered? give me the fluff. Am I vibin? Angst.

31. Do you have any OCs? Tell us about them! Fuck, fam, no, I can’t, I have so many. I have multiple original stories and some of them have very large casts and like holy fuck. Or do you mean in Sanders Sides fandom? Um, Morgan and Thorn in PD. The lesbian and her himbo dynamic. I love them. They’re dorks. Morgan is strong person with sharp tongue and soft romantic heart and Thorn is just so kind and so dumb and so exciteable he’s like a puppy. They were just filler characters and I got attached to them. Felton even gets redemption for being an ass later in PD, like oof i never intended to include so much OC content, especially for names I just picked randomly.

32. Summarize a random fic of yours in 10 words or less. nope I’m doing all of them because these are fun plea for my new self: 2 gay vampires, 4 humans, 1 braincell dreaming while I wake: trauma child needs therapy and so do you break: big oof, oh dragons, oh why, go virgil go rebuild: virgil is so not okay there’s more virgil to deal painful death: gay teens drink themselves into a new religion stargazing: whoops we didn’t realize people actually cared whole castle: everyone will throw down for kid!patton, even you incorrigible: found family with a shot of psychological horror and crack dangerous instincts: wholesome crime syndacite action slopes: addict gets mugged and thinks that’s just fine with him conflagration: logan avoids everything ever like a champ cat!remus: bored fae shifts gay pining from one person to another caffeine cyptids: caffinated gay panic goes faster than regular gay panic eglantine & lycoris: more tropes than you can toss a shoe at storytime: overpowered virgil also overreacts literally always

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process? an alter and I write together and I have absolutely no idea what’s going to happen, what I’m writing about, or even what year it is. I often don’t even remember what I wrote. There’s no outline. I have an idea and I pick things at random for it. There’s just notes and an evil gleam in a demon’s eye. The only reason I know more than readers is because I take a long time to edit and some of these stories have fucking alters up in my head who can tell me things. Daeram tells me nothing. The writing demon supposedly has all this knowledge but I have absolutely no clue because he does not talk to me, he just fronts and slams out 9k in a few hours or we cofront to write and I’m like “oh no she didn’t” while typing

34. Copy and paste an excerpt you’re particularly fond of. i’m fond of the entire painful death series and I tried to find something I really liked without spoilers in stargazing and I couldn’t so here’s a random thing from incorrigble: “So, what do you do with your friends?” Patton continued on with a megawatt smile. “Grand larceny,” Virgil deadpanned and glared at Patton, who was taken aback. Remy and Andy just broke out laughing while Virgil tentatively sipped his still-too-hot-cocoa.

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want! slopes my dudes slopes i have learned so much about cocaine! like wow! I thought for a minute it was going to end with MCD around 30k but it swtiched from whump to hurt/comfort and I still don’t know if it’s going to be MCD but look at that funky little coke/alcohol addict go, it’s a medical wonder he’s alive! It’s not like there’s what seems to be a little talked about interaction between alcohol and cocaine that causes a toxic chemical to build up in the liver which can result in liver failure and sudden death at basically any moment! Which is part of why it may result in MCD but this time no ghosts! maybe it’ll be h/c with whump elements or maybe it’ll be whump with h/c elements we can’t know for sure

#ayri writes #tw drug mention

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dent-de-leon · 7 years

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I can't tell if so many members of the staff are pro-sheith because it's such a good ship or if it's because they know it's going to be canon. Honestly their support for it is what made me think it could become canon in the first place. I can't be the only one.

Well, staff support doesn’t mean it’s going to be cannon, but it certainly helps I think. I’ve just answered an ask about how I think staff feels about sheith and the possibility of whether or not they’d make it cannon here. And I’ve discussed staff’s views on lgbt representation, so I don’t think there’s too much more I can really go into in terms of that.

If we were to just look at sheith from how it’s presented in cannon though, I think there are a lot of interesting things about their dynamic that really set them apart from other potential ships (and give it a better shot at being cannon). And this starts right with their introduction; Keith’s shift from raw rage to tender softness when he looks down at Shiro, the way he breathes out Shiro’s name–his very first line–and then reaches out to gently turn his head to the side. It’s a very emotional scene, and one where you can clearly see Keith’s pain. Keith’s rescue of Shiro means you automatically associate one with the other right at the start; I don’t think that’s accidental. And it does seem like the intro of a possible love interest to me.

The fact that so much of Shiro and Keith’s past is purposely hidden from the viewer is also just…really curious to me. What reason could they possibly have for that? We know from Joaquim that “[Keith] latches onto Shiro at times because Shiro’s sort of the only thing that can really calm him down and keep him in check.” We also know that Keith tells Shiro “If it weren’t for you, my life would have been a lot different.”

So we know that Shiro made quite the impression on Keith, but what in the world did he do? How is it he literally changed Keith’s life, and what exactly was their relationship like prekerberos? And why in the world is their backstory such a mystery that the writers feel the need to be so secretive about it? What is it about Shiro that makes Keith feel so strongly about him, that makes Keith live in constant fear of losing him?

Something else that really drew me about sheith was all their thematic parallels. Their roles, reactions, and reunions feel inevitably fated–like a fairytale. The way Keith follows this siren call out into the desert, searching for something, anything, because he “felt lost” but then finds Shiro of all people, looks him in the eye and says “Then you showed up.” Also, right after Ulaz tells Shiro “The Blade of Marmora is with you” Keith frees Shiro–with his Marmora blade. For Shiro, this gives the added thematic implication of Don’t worry, Keith is with you. There’s also the added parallels between Sven being given a dagger by his love interest Romelle, Keith’s mom giving a knife to Keith’s dad, and the fact that said knife is not only what Keith uses to rescue Shiro, but also ties them together during the Marmora trial. Other parallels include but are not limited to:

Keith pilots the right arm of Voltron, which is also the arm that Shiro lost

The implication that by being the right arm of Voltron Keith is also Shiro’s “right hand man,” and how this reflects their dynamic in cannon

The way both their bayards combine to form blazing sword

Keith and Shiro both undergoing this internal struggle with the notion that they’re a monster, that they both belong to the galra empire; of everyone on Team Voltron, they’re the only ones who can really understand the other’s pain over that on such a deeply personal level

All of Keith’s parallels to Black and all of Shiro’s parallels to Red

Repeating dialogue back to one another, which strikes me as really romantic honestly. Exchanges of “It’s good to have you back” “It’s good to be back” and “Patience yields focus” is something completely unique to sheith. No other pair has a go to phrase they recite back and forth to one another, and it’s just really sweet. Also, the way Shiro looks so touched when he says to Keith, “That really stayed with you, didn’t it?” It means something to him that Keith remembered

The way they keep getting torn apart but always come crashing back together. Like they’re caught in each other’s orbit, like against all odds they’re just meant to be

The way they both anchor one another; Shiro being the only thing that can really “calm Keith down” and Keith always being the first to try to snap Shiro back to the present during one of his flashbacks, always trying to be there for him and center him–like Shiro always did for him

Keith and Shiro maintaining a facade in front of everyone else, but opening up to each other when they’re on their own–allowing themselves to be vulnerable and painfully honest with one another

A lot of Shiro and Keith’s scenes mirror one another. Just looking at visuals, I think this is especially obvious with Keith saving Shiro in the pilot and Shiro’s rescue of Keith in BOM. Again, I personally just happen to read parallels like these as romantic

I think the role that Shiro played in Keith’s galra arc also demonstrates just how close they are. Before season 2 (and even after) it was very common for fans to write aus that focused on a romance with Keith tied to his galra reveal. Whoever the chosen partner was, fans would often show them 1) Noticing the change Keith was going through before anyone else, 2) Comforting Keith, and 3) Offering to keep his secret or defend Keith if the rest of the team distrusted him (which they often did). For a while, this was a common theme in fan works. And the thing is? In season 2, Shiro is that character. Out of all the paladins, Shiro is the one who picks up on Keith’s self-loathing and isolation, is the only one who reaches out and tries to help. Asks him what’s wrong, if he’s okay, if he wants to talk

He’s also the only one there for Keith’s trial and galra reveal. This is a defining moment of Keith’s character development, and of all the paladins, Shiro is the sole witness to it. When everything with Marmora is said and done, the rest of the team doesn’t even say goodbye to Keith. But Shiro does. He pulls him into a warm hug, and the focus on Keith’s tender expression is just the sweetest thing. Keith is so emotional in this scene, that it actually humanizes him enough to unnerve Allura–who turns away almost guiltily–because how can she say Keith is a monster when he holds Shiro so close and affectionately?

Shiro offers nothing but unconditional support in the wake of Keith’s galra reveal, something that no one else does. This was such a prominent trope in fandom before season 2, that I can’t believe people hardly ever acknowledge the character who actually did it. Because it does feel like Shiro’s role in Keith’s galra arc is often dismissed in fandom or cast to the wayside in favor of fanon–which is something I’ve never liked. At any rate, Shiro’s role is one that was kind of romanticized in fandom a lot before season 2. That’s at least interesting, I think. And it shows that Shiro is always a support Keith can rely on no matter what. There are also a lot of noticeable parallels between sheith and kallura (another ship people seem to feel staff has been building up romantically) in season 2, so that’s interesting.

Also, really quickly, but everything with Keith’s trial strikes me as kind of odd if Keith really just sees Shiro as a brother figure. For one thing, the fake Shiro calls all of Team Voltron Keith’s family–“We’re your family,” he says–but the fact that Keith moves the focus of the conversation to Shiro proves that he thinks of his connection with Shiro as running deeper than what he has with Team Voltron (all of whom we know he also sees as found family). But there’s something about the line “Your friend desperately wants to see you” that evokes a sense of unrequited love to me. As much as I look at it, to me, that line just does not read as brotherly. Desperation is not the word I would use to describe someone talking about their bro. Desperation implies a sense of desire, a sense of longing for what one will never know, a sense of agony over that desire.

When commenting on this scene, Josh said that “[Keith’s] constantly scared he’s going to say or do something wrong and he’s going to lose Shiro.” Again, nothing about that sounds brotherly to me. With someone who’s a sibling (or like one) you wouldn’t feel so insecure as to believe they’ll walk out on you any second and just leave you all alone. You’re not so scared of losing them. But Keith being worried that one wrong move will cost him his bond with Shiro? That sure sounds a lot like someone who’s fallen for their friend but would never admit it for fear of scaring them away.

And for someone like Keith, who’s deepest fear (according to the paladin quiz) is apparently feelings, I think it makes sense that Keith would hide any possible feelings for Shiro. Especially given his fear of abandonment; Shiro is Keith’s one longterm, significant relationship with someone. The possibility of ruining that friendship by bringing unwanted romantic feelings into it is definitely something he would avoid. I also think it says a lot that, while many people zero in on the brother line (simultaneously ignoring the “we’re your family line”) and insisting that sheith can only be read in a platonic context–at the same time, there are lots of instances of fans replacing Shiro with Lance and treating the scene as romantic. So, whatever someone’s personal shipping preferences, I think the scenario itself–“your friend desperately wants to see you” and that friend manifesting as your greatest hopes and dreams, your deepest desire–can easily be seen as romantic.

So long story short, yes. I think there’s a lot of precedence for sheith already covered in canon. I can see why plenty of people on the staff either ship it or support shipping it; in my opinion, they have the most well developed dynamic in canon, and they have so many scenes that just demonstrate their intimacy and implicit trust. Whatever their relationship grows into, I know I’ll still love it a lot.

#sheith #shiro #keith #voltron #meta #gotta get all that sheith meta for seasons 1 and 2 out before i gotta write the new stuff for 3 lmao #im not really sure i answered the question right anon?? but i tried im sorry bro #anonymous #i write so much meta i bet all my new meta will just come with a works cited of old meta cause thats just how much i meta #long post #v long #cause like #im incapable of talking about sheith without rambling forever apparently

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I'm so glad I found someone else who likes B&Echo & Beluna. I'm just really excited about their potential - more so for B&E since they have more history. W/ Bob saying he was surprised by E's arc & it being one of his favorites in S4, how do you see their dynamic progressing? I love B&C (although I can't discuss B's other potential ships w/ other B&C shippers :-/) but what do you think of B&E & B&L?

Hi! So I half answered this last week before RL got in theway and I gotta be honest, post 403 I’ve had to scrap most of it because I didnot anticipate the abrupt amplification of Bellarke feels so early on in theseason. Wow. I thought we had at least ahalf season of “grieving” in order to play about with our dark crack ship, butno apparently we’re Going There and we’re Going There now.

Nevertheless let’s look at the potential here. We had adefinite shift in tone, but I’ve still no reason to believe that Bellamy hasany clue about the true extent of Clarke’s feelings and lbr 302 also gave ussome amazing Bellarke feels before everything went to shit so it’s not over tilthe fat lady sings (or until Bellarke squish their faces together).

On Beluna, I’m gonna be a party pooper and say lower yourexpectations because right now I don’t have any reason to believe that Bob andNadia have any scenes together, let alone anything further. Bob sounded startled when he was asked, soI’m guessing it is pure fanon. But, youknow, the plot potential is there (my flailing on this topic). I would have dearly loved to see the clashbetween a character who has so much conviction, and a character whose conviction in everything is smashed to smithereens and is just playingthings by ear until he figures it out. Did nobody notice that Bellamy’s “wesave who we can today” mantra in 402 is basically a less evolved version ofLuna’s isolationist stance? Big picture vs small picture. AND THE CURLS, NONNY.WE COULD HAVE HAD THE SMOOSHING HALOED BY TWO MOST GLORIOUS SETS OF CURLS.

But that is not happening and I am bitter fine about it.

Now. Becho. *rolls upsleeves and flexes fingers* At thisstage I’m not convinced their dynamic will ever turn into a Bellamy-Grounder hookup(I still have hope) but I do think Bellamy and Echo may have towork closely together at some point in the season towards sharedgoals.

Did I mention how psyched I amthat Echo has been retconned as an Azgeda spy? Well I am. Because it opens thedoor for BECHO SPY PLOTS. And why not? Bellamy is Skaikru’s equivalent of a spy: resourceful, clever and brave,with a track record infiltrating his people’s enemy and achieving theirpolitical aims. And how amazing would it be to have Echo and Bellamy sent on amission together? It would be like apost-apocalyptic Legolas and Gimli.

If that happens Bellamy will be forced to put aside hisunderstandable antipathy for Echo to work with her and see things from herperspective – and learn the value of forgiving others and himself. Meanwhile Echowill learn who Bellamy really is as opposed to the bloodthirsty warrior shethinks he is, which could lead to her questioning her whole Azgeda ethos. Aphilosophical tussle played out in a microcosm of two people against a backdropof the End of Days? Yes please. We had asimilar Thematic Event with Clarke and Lexa last season.

Ultimately I think they’re going to have their own clash ofsouls and I think Bellamy will take her with him, rather than the other wayround. I think Bellamy could end upsaving her, both in body and in soul, with the significance ricocheting furtherafield. I mean, if the “very dangerous,very loyal” head of the Azgeda Royal Guard has her faith in war and divisionshattered, where does that leave everyone else?

And nobody is talking about this piece of dialogue: “I know how it feels to lose someone youcare about to war. But we do what we do for our people. You slaughter us, weslaughter you. That all went away in the City of Light. But it’s back now. Sohere we are.”

I feel like this is Echo’s starting point (and also hellobackstory sirens). It reveals that she tried to escape the horror of war in theCOL and it also shows that on one level at least she’s capable of critiquingher perspective. I would not be shocked to see a re-run of this conversationlater in the season.

I am in no way definitive about the above btw, even thoughit may sound like I am. This is pure spec and headcanon and I stand by to becorrected as canon proves me wrong.

Also related: Echo is looking super hot this season which Ithink is interesting. Previous costuming choices were the mandatorymurder underwear in the Harvesting Room, and 90 grunge look in early season 3so this is New. Why? It’s very distracting.

#asks #becho #the 100 #the 100 meta #s4 speculation

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