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realbeefman · 8 months

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how is this show real

#HES LITERALLY BARKING AT PATIENTS WHATSGSJGDE #WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM #ok also house autism moment tho #he cant bend to vogler bc vogler is Wrong #and house is Right #got autistic swag AND that set in stone morality #house md #gregory house #house md clip

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theonewhowails · 5 months

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silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

#my art #cotl #i am looking into your soul with my huge autistic eyes. read this fic right now. blease #hksfdjghdfghldkfg im sorry it just fucking kills me that for the first 4ish chapters narinder is just. so nasty #like all the followers are like There He Is. The Leader's Favorite Guy. and its this filthy half-dead cat that hasnt bathed in 10+ years #like he has hardly eaten the entire time he's been mortal and he looks like absolute dogshit #and their unbeatable normally serene and gracious leadergod is hovering around his stinky ass like omg nari hiiiiii #its fucking hilarious to me. and also heartwrenching bc this fic does also get into how hard it is to be alive when uve never learned how #gonna draw the twins desperately bringing him soap later i just had so many things i wanted to draw for this

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riot-ghost · 6 months

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Commissioner Gordon was ostracized within the Gotham Police department. He knew this was because of his ties to the Bat, his late hours, constant overtime. He knew that even the good officers, while he couldn't tell too much who was who, didn't mean to ostracize him. It happened on accident, he's sure. He picked up some clues from the world's greatest detective. Rumors went around, running rampant about him. He just couldn't care so much about them.

Everyone knew that Commissioner Gordon always took his late dinner at 9:37 at night. Everyone cleared from the break room. Gordon opened the door, taking a heavy breath. He was still expecting the empty room. It felt empty, in a way Gordon had picked up from The Bat. He pulled his burrito out of the fridge, opening the styrofoam container and eating a bite. "You're not going to heat it up?" Gordon barely manages to catch his burrito, his whole soul leaving his body.

"Jesus Christ, kid, you scared me." Gordon lets out a heavy breath, seeing the new detective sitting at a table in the corner. He's eating... Something indescribable. He looks tired, his long black hair bulled back into a high ponytail. His face seems disproportionate, large prominent features. A crooked nose, a wide, thin mouth, large eyes accompanied by large bags. His skin was pale, dusted with faded freckles and litchenburg scarring. The young man- still a boy, practically, shrugged at Gordon's words, eating another bite of the odd food. "No one warned you I'd be in here?" Gordon decided to sit with him.

"No, they warned me. But the past couple of days they've been... Avoiding me." Dr. Fenton, Gordon remembers his file passing over his desk. He could never be a cop- he was a detective-by-hire because of some medical condition. Gordon feels a pang at the emotionless words.

"Ah, they avoid me too." Gordon takes another bite of his cold burrito. "So, how have you been enjoying working here?"

"Well, it's been alright, I guess." Fenton took a drink from his thermos- which has a straw in it. It goes unsaid that this was the only job Fenton could really get. Close to the force, anyways. His medical condition refrained him from being a proper officer, so he wasn't officially a Gotham PD detective. He was an out-contract detective, receiving the same work, pay, and hours as the regular detectives.

"Getting around the town well enough?"

"Well enough, I suppose. Almost got robbed." Fenton held three doctorates- criminology, psychology, and natural sciences. All at the young age of 22.

"Almost?" Gordon snorts a bit at that. "Scared them off with your badge?"

"I don't have a badge. And I don't have a gun, if that's what you're thinking. I guess they just thought I was too pathetic to have much cash." Danny shrugged.

"Oh come on, you're not pathetic." Gordon is a bit taken aback that the boy doesn't carry any weapons. He makes a mental note to get him a badge.

"I looked pathetic enough not to rob."

Gordon feels like he missed something there, because Gotham robbers would rob a kindergartner if they were unattended. Regardless, he and Fenton sat in silence for a good couple of minutes. "What are you eating?" Fenton asks eventually.

"A burrito from the Mexican stand on Westwood."

"Why are you eating it cold?"

"Because if I reheat it, then the sauce becomes a solid liquid and everything gets soggy. What are you eating?"

"It was supposed to be stir fry?" Danny stared down at the leftovers container. "I'm not good at cooking. No videos ever make sense, so they don't turn out right."

"Your parents didn't teach you?" Gordon asks.

"No, they weren't the best chefs. They did pass on the family fudge recipe though. I can make some killer fudge." He laughs a little bit at that.

"I'll bring you lunch in from now on." Gordon says. "Until we can get your cooking sorted out, anyhow. Normally my daughter and I spend Tuesday nights fixing dinner together, so you'll get the best meals Wednesday."

"You don't have to do that." Danny seems a little caught off guard by the kindness.

"I can't have one of my youngest detectives going hungry!" Gordon smiles. "Besides, you're the first person in the precinct to eat dinner with me in nearly twenty years. You keep eating with me, it'll be no problem. I enjoy the company." Danny smiles at him and Gordon is reminded of someone, but he can't remember who.

Over the next couple of weeks, Gordon and Danny get well acquainted in their overlapping shifts. Danny works the nights and sometimes early mornings, similar to what Gordon does. Gordon finds himself feeling fatherly to the young man, who's working and picking up significant overtime to pay off his student loans. He learns that Danny moved here from Illinois- it was the only PD he could work at. He had no formal fighting training, but apparently his mom had taught him some moves. They had yet to overlap in the field, and it was easy for Gordon to forget that the boy was really a detective.

"Danny?" Jim paused, having finally made his way to the crime scene. Danny was crouched over a dead body, using his gloved hands to inspect the wound- the word Joker carved using some sort of knife.

"Gordon?" Despite all insistence, the boy still used his last name.

Jim has to stop himself from asking him why he's here. Danny's eyes shift to a spot behind him and James sighs. "What happened?" Batman's voice startled the last officer in the room, who quickly stuttered an excuse and left.

"The Joker broke in, tortured her, and left." Jim says. "We just have to figure out why."

"No, we don't." Danny looked back at the body, his eyes unfocused. "It was political. Do you see the swelling here on the neck? No lacerations, and no bruising. Allergy, I suppose, or a poison that reacts similarly. No clawing at the neck or face, but heavy rope burns on the wrists and ankles. The cuts were sloppy, and from the bleeding, it was done after she had died. Maybe five, ten minutes after? The window wasn't fully closed when it was broken into, do you see how the glass fractured there at the top?"

Jim blinked, and Danny continued. "It doesn't fit the motive of a mad-man like the Joker to do this. Who you're looking for is a woman, younger than the victim, maybe around twenty or thirty?" His eyes unfocused again. "Hmmm." He snaps back, looking around. He stands, his hands shaking a little. He looks around, eyes landing on the shelf. He scans it, using gentle hands to lift the potted plant. He pulls out a camera, unplugging it. "A Direct Link- model E47C." He sets the camera in an evidence bag.

Batman gives a grunt- and if Jim isn't mistaken it was one of approval? Danny held the camera out to Jim. "That was some fine detective work today, kid." Jim sets his hand on Danny's shoulder. Danny glances off to the side nervously. He locks eyes with Batman. "Danny, this is Batman. Batman, this is Dr. Daniel Fenton, the newest detective on the force."

Batman holds a hand out. "I look forward to working with you." Danny pulls off one of the disposable gloves, reaching out to shake his hand. "You're shaking a little, are you alright?"

"Medical condition." Danny answers. "You're taller than I expected."

"It's the ears." Jim represses a smile. "You go ahead and get your deductions filed. I brought pasta." Jim watches Danny leave. He turns to Batman, who's staring him down with that signature I-know-everything™ face. "What?"

"When are you going to let him know that you're mentoring him?" He says it like a sentence, and was that amusement in his tone?

"I'm not." Jim turns to the window.

"You brought him pasta."

"He never learned to cook."

"So you're teaching him." There was definitely amusement in his tone now.

Jim huffed. "We're getting old." He finally sighs. "We both have full grown kids. Crime and corruption are still thick in this city." Batman is standing next to him with a swoosh in his cape. "Retirement... I could see myself with it. Sipping cocktails on the beach. A beach with sunshine and no broken down carnivals."

Batman is silent for a moment, as if considering this. "So you see Fenton taking your place?"

"Like you see your Robin." Jim admits.

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doctorsiren · 2 months

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who would be the main defense attorney against prosecutor phoenix wright? would it be defenseworth, or another person? :0

Yup! I’m gonna make this an offshoot of the main Defenseworth AU :)

also…I think Phoenix would experience some von Karmic influence on his path to becoming a prosecutor…

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theshriekingsisterhood · 28 days

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The way I SPRINTED to my computer to make this the second Risky showed me this textpost

#what we do in the shadows #wwdits #nandor the relentless #Nandor #Autistic Nandor the Relentless #Autismposting #deadass i didnt even have time to rip HD screenshots I needed to get this baby OUT #a more Nandor ass post has never before been made #Obviously Nandor doesn't know wtf Autism is bc hes a nearly 800 year old vampire #In my mind tho Colin Robinson called him Autistic once and Nandor just assumed it was a complimentary adjective akin to Awesome or Majestic #'Guillermo which of these capes makes me look more Autistic?'#'Guillermo is that not the most Autistic painting of a horse you have ever seen?'#Colin Robinson wasn't saying it as an insult also just to clarify #Just as like #a neutral descriptor #which obviously applies to Nandor #Risky I love you and your brain it is huge and wrinkly

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pretty--in--purple · 12 days

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kabru as a psych student who KNOWS about ethics guidelines and KNOWS he's not qualified to make diagnostic statements and therefore spends every moment with laios grinding his teeth to dust because HOW DOES THIS MAN THINK HE'S NEUROTYPICAL!??!?!?

#like half a year into their friendship falin mentions that laios was clocked as autistic as a young kid but never officially diagnosed #and that he doesn't personally think he checks the boxes bc #'it's not an abnormal level of interest in animals EVERYONE cares that much about migration'#and kabru smashes his phone #laios: don't you just hate it when wearing a sweater gives you a headache?#kabru: i'm not a clinician i'm not a clinician i'm not a clinician-#based on my experience as an autistic psych student #kabru #kabru of utaya #laios touden #falin touden #<in tags only #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #labru

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antares-dupont · 2 months

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JON A THAN SIMS

this was my first drawing of him, from about episode 100? i’m now on 191 >:]]]] (guys im so scared)

#he has a cane bc i can do whatever i want forever #(me when i enjoy a character: get disabled boy. get autistic boy. get transgendered boy)#ant art #art #digital art #jon sims #jonathan sims #tma #the magnus archives #the magnus archive fanart

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akechi-stole-my-heart · 11 months

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this guy gets it

#if anyone is wondering bc I am also autistic and I understand the struggle. I'm doing a bit I know he's a hater #sera posts

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vulcan-moon · 1 year

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finished sketchbook spread for these guys, a found family so close to my heart auuugghhh

#my art #fanart #traditional art #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #serirei #tome kurata #watercolour #watercolor #sketchbook #need to lean harder into how manga reigen looks vs anime reigen bc he embodies an indescribable tired energy i enjoy #like the reigen manga itself these ended up tome centric #i love her. autistic daughter #portfolio

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lgbtlunaverse · 8 days

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How I feel about this and next week's dungeon meshi episodes

I'm already seeing people going at it and it's gonna get SO much worse next week when The Fight™ happens. I am so tired. I just wanna stare at my and marcille's hot dragon chicken wife. Is that too much to ask?

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #toshiro nakamoto #part of me is like eh whatever at a man getting the same treatment for getting 'in the way' of a wlw ship #that girls always get for 'threatening' an mlm ship #but at the same time HE'S NOT EVEN GETTING IN THE WAY OF ANYTHING?? BFFR RN THAT MAN IS NOT A THREAT TO FARCILLE let us all calm down #also i think the conflict between laios and toshiro is one of the best written conflicts where you understand both parties #and neither is fully in the wrong or right. and both of their experiences describe something marginalized people irl can deeply relate to #(autistic trauma on one hand and wheathering microagressions without speaking up bcs you don't want to Make A Scene on the other)#and i am NOT looking forward to seeing ppl flatten it into 'shuro's evil laios good bean' LET MY DUDES HAVE NUANCE

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charliespringverse · 1 year

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i am not a taskmaster blog but i AM autistic and a taskmaster fan and this post made me have some emotions earlier today and i am yet to see it shared on tumblr

#this is very special to me as one of the many ppl in the centre of the venn diagram of autistics and taskmaster enjoyers #i read it out to my mam and we had a rlly nice chat abt why we think the show resonates with autistic ppl #and considering this is the first series that my dad (autistic) wasn't able to finish watching it felt . rlly meaningful #bc taskmaster is one of the things he and i have always shared #my mam thinks the reason he and i bonded over it in a way she didn't join in with was that we both watched it in an autistic way #anygay . enough channel 4 themed grief #taskmaster #taskmaster series 14 #fern brady #autistic joy

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feralplantwife · 8 months

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Rent-Free Special Interest Thought of the Day:

1) Lan Wangji is autistic. (This theme invades my every thought about him. We love to see good, if possibly accidental, representation.)

2) He, like many of us autistics, does not take criticism well AT ALL except maybe from Lan Xichen or Lan Qiren. (He would take criticism from Wei Wuxian well, but Wei Wuxian thinks he's absolutely perfect, so it's a moot point.)

Anyway:

LQR: Wangji, this particular night hunt situation might go better if you try This next time. I encourage you to experiment and record your observations if you choose.

LWJ: Mn. (Translation: I will do that, because I love you. Not because I agree. We have a pattern of Teacher&Student behavior and share a relationship.)

Random Lan Elder: You should try it this way instead.

LWJ: Mn. (Translation: I will not be doing that. I will remember this moment for years and possibly forever. You have made an enemy for life. I will dwell on this in the dead of night, thinking about how wrong you are.)

But nobody outside of his family can tell the different between "Mn." and "Mn." So nobody really notices and Lan Xichen and Wei Wuxian think it's incredibly funny to watch crusty, dusty old cultivators think they got Lan Wangji to do something he doesn't want to do.

He's just like me fr

#autistic lan wangji #lan wangji #wei wuxian #lan xichen #lan qiren #mdzs #mo dao zu shi #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #bonus for reading the tags:#jiang cheng can also tell bc hes also a hater #and he hates that he also finds the whole thing kind of funny #he hates it almost as much as he hates lan Wangji

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moonllhi · 3 months

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i think he meows when he's flustered

#hehehehe #i love him #he meows around angel specifically #bc he is head over heels #huskerdust #autistic aster #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #husk

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scintillatingshortgirl19 · 5 months

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so a few days ago i watched the episode where house treats an autistic kid (s03e04) and i'm still hung up on it, because i genuinely can't tell what the writers want us to think re: whether or not house is autistic

basically they spent the whole episode showing house being very autistic and then at the very end had wilson say, "nah he just wants to be autistic to excuse his assholery" (which. yikes. but moving on)

i mean is the audience supposed to see wilson as a reliable voice here? aka all house's autistic signs were written as some kind of bait and switch? "lol you thought house was autistic bc he was doing all these autistic things but really he just wishes he were autistic to explain his behavior!"

except. bestie he DID do all those autistic things. he legit couldn't tolerate his office with the new carpet. He did identify with the autistic kid, and they made a huge deal out of the fact that house was the only one who figured out how to calm him down. my man stims nonstop. he has sensory issues. he knows social rules bc he's obsessed with analyzing human behavior, but he openly states that the rules do not actually make sense to him.

like i'm happy to just have a headcanon that fills the gap between what the writers seem to want us to think vs what their story is actually showing us (done that many a time) . . . but usually i can at least tell what the writers' intentions even are?

#anyone who has ideas about this please weigh in #i'm ignoring the whole 'autism vs aspergers' thing bc thats just bc it was the 2000s #but like?? “we purposefully protrayed this character as autistic but he's actually not autistic because . . . we said so”#am i reading that right??#house md #hate crimes md #house season 3 #house s03e04 #videos - house #autistic house #op

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turtleblogatlast · 3 months

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Love the idea that Leo’s portal and teleportation based fighting style can heavily parallel the types of stuff you’d see in magic acts. Disappearing and reappearing, pulling stuff out of a hat/portal, sleight of hand and other such methods of averting the audience’s/enemies’ attention from what you’re trying to do, etc.

It’s genuinely pretty neat to see and I wish his love of magic acts and magicians was brought up more often because it and his other interests tie into each other and in turn his whole self so neatly.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #leo out here making his entire identity circle on his special interests #and u know what he’s so valid for it #bros out here doing a performance 24/7 of course he latched onto the whole idea of ‘a magician never reveals his secrets’#he heard that one line and was like omg I can make a mask of this #I’m so on board with the autistic leo thought too bc frfr he shows it in spades #he’s just a king at masking #but yeah back to special interests- Leo’s all come together in making his various masks #the way he acts is nearly always reminiscent of someone else and it’s notable how different he is when masking isn’t necessary #everyone: will you ever stop overthinking this turtle boy?#me: no

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lord-squiggletits · 2 months

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I think the key component to my personal reading of post-Delphi Pharma is that he's trying to be a horrible person on purpose. Not "on purpose" in the way that people have free will to exercise their own choices, but in that Pharma's "mad doctor" persona is a performance he puts on to deliberately embrace how much everyone else hates him. Basically, if people already think you're a "bad Autobot" and a horrible doctor who just kills his patients for fun, why try to prove otherwise to people who have already made up their minds about you? Just fully embrace the fact that people see you as an asshole. Don't try to change their minds. Don't plead for their forgiveness or understanding. Just stop caring. If you're going to be remembered as a monster, you might as well be a memorable monster, and eke as much pleasure and hedonism as you can out of it before karma catches up to you and you inevitably crash and burn.

I mean, I guess you could just go the route of "Oh, Pharma was always a fucked up creepy guy and Delphi was just him taking the mask off," but I really don't like that interpretation because, for one, it feels really wrong to take a character like Pharma becoming evil under duress and going, "Oh well clearly he did the things he did because he was evil all along," as if somehow Pharma breaking under blackmail/torture/threat of horrible death was a sign of him having poor moral character. As opposed to, you know, suffering under the very real threat of horrible death for himself and everyone he cares about while being manipulated by a guy who specializes in psychological torture.

The second reason is that it just doesn't make sense to write Pharma as having been evil all along. I mean...

Occam's Razor says that the best argument is the one with the simplest explanation. Doesn't it make way more sense to take Pharma's appearances in flashbacks, his friendship with Ratchet, his stunning medical accomplishments, and the few we see of him speaking kindly/sympathetically (or in the least charitable interpretation, at least professionally) towards his patients and conclude "This guy was just a normal person, if exceptionally talented." Taking all of these flashback appearances at face value and assuming Pharma was being genuine/honest is a way simpler and more logical explanation than trying to argue that Pharma for the past 4 million years was just faking being a good doctor/person. I mean, it's possible within the realm of headcanon, but the fact is Pharma's appearances in the story are so brief that there simply wasn't room in the story for there to be some sort of secret conspiracy/hidden manipulation behind why Pharma acted the way he did in the past.

I just can't help but look at things like Pharma's friendship with Ratchet (himself a good person and usually a fine judge of character) and the fact that even post-Delphi, pretty much every single mention of Pharma comes with some mention of "He was a good doctor for most of his life" or "He was making major headways in research [before he started killing patients]" which implies that even the Autobots themselves see Pharma's villainy as a recent turn in his life compared to how for "most of his life" he "used to be" a good doctor.

And although Pharma doesn't know this, we as the readers (and even other characters like Rung) know about Aequitas technology and the fact that it actually works, so... if Pharma really was an unrepentant murderer, why couldn't he get through the forcefield too? The Aequitas forcefield doesn't require that a person be completely morally pure and free of wrongdoing or else how could Tyrest get through, just that they feel a sense of inner peace and lack feelings of guilt. Pharma has murdered and tortured people by this point, and put on quite a campy and theatrical show of how much he sees it as a fun game, so why then can he not get through?

It circles back to my headcanon at the start of this post that the "mad doctor" persona is just that-- a persona. Delphi/post-Delphi Pharma's laughing madman personality is just so far removed from every flashback we saw of him and everything we can infer based on how other people see/saw him before that, to me, the mad doctor act is (at least in large part, if not fully) a persona that Pharma puts on to put his villainy in the forefront.

To avoid an overly simplistic/ableist take, I don't think Tarn tortured Pharma into turning crazy. To me, it's more like the constant pressure of death by horrific torture, the feeling of martyrdom as Pharma kept secret that he was the only one standing between Delphi and annihilation, the physical isolation of Messatine as well as the emotional separation from Ratchet, being forced to violate his medical oaths (pretty much the only thing Pharma's entire life has been about), etc. All of that combined traumatized Pharma to the point that the only way he could avoid cracking was to just stop caring about all of it. Because at least then, even if he's still murdering patients to save Delphi from a group of sadistic freaks, Pharma doesn't have to feel guilty and sick about doing it. As opposed to the alternatives, which were probably either going off the deep end and killing himself to escape, or confessing to what he did and getting jailed for it.

In that light, Pharma becoming a mad doctor makes sense. It avoids the bad writing tropes of "oh this character who was good his entire life was actually just evil and really good at hiding it" as well as "oh he got tortured and went crazy that's why he's so random and silly and killing people, he's crazy" and instead frames Pharma's evil as something he was forced into, to the point where in order to avoid a full psychological breakdown and keep defending Delphi, he just had to stop caring about the sanctity of life or about what other people might think of him.

Then, of course, the actual Delphi episode happens, and Pharma's own lifelong best friend Ratchet basically spits in his face and sees him as nothing more than a crazy murderer who went rogue from being a good Autobot. Then Pharma gets his hands cut off and left to die on Messatine. At that point, Pharma has not only been mentally/emotionally broken into losing his feelings of compassion, he's received the message loud and clear: He is alone. Everyone hates him. Not even his own best friend likes him any more. No one even cared enough about him to check if he actually died or not. He will only ever be remembered as a doctor who went insane and killed his patients.

So in the light of 1. Having all of your redeeming qualities be squeezed out of you one by one for the sake of survival and 2. Having your reputation and all of your positive relationships be destroyed and 3. People only know/care about you as "that doctor who became evil and killed his patients" rather than the millions of years of good service that came before.

What else is there to do but internalize the fact that you'll forever be seen as a monster and a freak, and embrace it? People already see you as a murderer for that blackmail deal you did, so why not become an actual murderer and just start killing people on a whim? People already see you as an irredeemable monster who puts a stain on the Autobot name, so why beg for their forgiveness when you could just shun them back? You've already become a murderer, a traitor, and a horrible doctor, so what's a few more evil acts added to the pile? It's not like anyone will ever forgive you or love you ever again.

Why care? Why try to hold on to your principles of compassion, kindness, medical ethics, when an entire lifetime of being a good person did nothing to save you from blackmail and then abandonment? Why put yourself through the emotional agony of feeling lonely, guilty, miserable, when you could just... stop caring, and not hurt any more?

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i'm sure the doylist reason for the writing is just that pharma was a designated villain #so since he's a villain and 'crazy' it's fine for everyone even the good guys to treat him like complete trash #i just think from a watsonian perspective taking a sympathetic approach is way more interesting and logically consistent #what i mean is like. from a meta perspective one of the best ways to show that a character is super evil and not worth saving #is when even the good guy heroes. the ones who are supposed to be kind and compassionate and wise. see him as dirt #and this is also kind of a necessity in most plots bc TF is the kind of series that just needs action villains and long-term antagonists #so not every villain is written or has a plot to be made redeemable. and pharma is one of these bc he's not important or a legacy character #so from a doylist (meta) perspective you could read the autobots' disregard of pharma as a sign of #'this guy is not meant to have your sympathy as a reader. pay no attention to him'#but from a watsonian (in universe) perspective it paints a miserable picture of pharma being utterly forsaken by the ppl he served alongsid #and like yeah i'm super autistic about pharma so of course i view him with sympathy but like #the idea of being a loyal and good person for years only to be subjected to a Torment Nexus of #being blackmailed into breaking all of the oaths you held sacred. under threat of you and all your comrades dying horrible torturous deaths #then when your comrades find out about it they focus solely on the 'harvesting organs' and not on the 'blackmail' part #and then you get literally left for dead by your comrades and best friend hating your guts #and then you get rescued by a guy who uses you as a test subject for his evil machine #this is a fucking nightmare scenario like pharma could hardly be suffering more if the author TRIED to make him suffer #and for me it's like. the evil pharma did can't be decontextualized to what drove him to that. as well as the question of like #how easily ppl can write someone off as evil and turn a blind eye to (or even find satisfaction in) their suffering bc theyre evil #and either brought it on themselves or it's just karma paying a visit #like. i feel like if pharma WERE a shitty doctor and a terrible person his whole life then the delphi situation would feel like karma #but the way it's written and the lore retroactively put in makes it feel more pharma getting thrown in a torture carousel #and THEN becoming evil. but then being treated as if he was always evil or was some sort of bad apple #bc like i'm not opposed to LOLing when a villain gets a karmic torture/death related to the wrongs they committed #but in pharma's case it feels less like karma and more like endless torture + being abandoned by ppl who should have been more loyal

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