#that it is just the autism and i was like wow this is actually very cool of me i think actually
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I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain
Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it
i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)
really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!
undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.
i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.
people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.
peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.
it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."
so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.
people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.
autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.
#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before#and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.”#and that made sense to me i think.#but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing.#and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much.#and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed#and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology.#i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now.#and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be??#i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe.#will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore??#maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know.#i don't know what it'll mean for me.#but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way#i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think#i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed.#because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people.#peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing.#there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing.#it's a product of all of his things.#just like me! just like everyone.#so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways.#a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be.#i don't think it's something that can be simplified.#sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags.#i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual.#sci speaks
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my autistic ass when i would try to explain to my non-autistic writer friends how my ocs don’t just feel like characters/plot devices/narrative tools, they feel like fully fledged people that just live inside my brain who i just have access to for some reason and the stories i write are merely a snapshot into their fully fledged personhood/lives. and that that these feelings don’t mean i’m unaware of my role/agency/responsibility as the writer who has the final say in these characters and how they are written it just means that my writing process feels very intuitive and i can only describe it as “listening” and “getting to know” these people that just live inside my brain in a way that i don’t feel like i can completely elaborate on. and because of this i would actually consider these characters “real” in their own way because the impact and influence they have had on me as a person beyond just my writing is so real and not having them would feel like i’m missing a part of myself
#DISCLAIMER! when i say autistic i do not mean this is an exclusively autistic experience or that every autistic person will experience this#i mean that its my autism that makes me not just have my characters be my special interest but also feel so intensely about them#and why i have sometimes felt weird talking about my characters with people because i am just experiencing ocs in a different way#to them#also i think one time when i tried to explain this to someone they thought i literally meant that i felt my characters were real#and when i look back on moments like that i am like beloved you need to get yourself some autistic friends#also its 10pm and ive been up since 6am and this was a very emotionally heavy day so im about to post this and log out and we'll see how#tomorrow me feels about that#but anyways the point of this post is i did not realise this was not universal and felt kinda weird about it for a while until i realised#that it is just the autism and i was like wow this is actually very cool of me i think actually#yesterday my bf sent me song links and was like i feel like felix would listen to these#and ive been thinking about this ever since hence the post because that made me so happy bc i was like i feel like you're seeing him as a#real part of me the way i see him as a real part of me
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when one of your friends is fixated on a character from something you know nothing about and then you start getting excited whenever you see that character too
call that autism osmosis
#like you only know what they have told you about the character and you’re just like ‘it’s that guy! from the thing! wow’#this is about a particular mutual#i can never look at crosses or mold the same way again (two very vague references that they will understand very easily)#autism#actually autistic
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this is like my second post abt this in a row within 5 minutes but npd + autism is knowing more about your friends special interests than they do & correctly fact-checking them on their own outdated info numerous times, or just never saying anything abt it bcs u feel like some wise intelligent above-the-others soul letting the kids have their fun
#npd#narcissistic personality disorder#autism#i think it's because i have this special interest#idk how to categorise it#i don't wanna say a special interest in Learning because i don't like all subjects At All (though i like a lot)#but there's definitely a pool of topics with some similarities and i'll very often indulge in these topics. but maybe not to the extent#someone who's EXCLUSIVELY into one of these topics might#& i also tend to fact check a lot. i'm not gonna trust something just because it was said in a documentary in 2015#so that just gives me a lot of General Knowledge on things#to me it's really insulting and triggering to the npd when someone's explaining a special interest and goes “Did You Know” & explains#smth i Been knew about & i just have to nod along#but sometimes that whole “wow this person actually doesn't rlly know what they're talking abt” helps unironically
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oh i got 3 compliments on my nails at social anxiety group tonight🥺🥺
#also i finally got to talk to the other girl* who's actually in the group#one of the compliments was from her and the others from one of the. um idk what you call them. ladies training to be psychiatrists#part of the appeal of these nails is the are 3d so they are very tactile#also im realising that the autism is also making the Getting Over Social Anxiety hard#bc the social anxiety def came from the autism so. there's things i just don't do and im very adamant about not changing them but#like#eye contact and such. im never going to do that and i think tahts OK!#sorry these tags are like. getting in depth. BUT#ive been like. performing societal norms super hard lately which is not good for my mental health like im out here making a gazillion#facial expressions a day bc idk im stressed outta my mind! idk!#i really need to get my therapist to understand that i am fucked up in a way bc last time I saw her (last week) i said i vaccuumed my room#and she was like wow ur doing gr8! nvm the fact that i still had piles of washing and so much shit to still Pu away#i did clean my room fully tho tonight bc my sister is coming over tmr#but that's bc i wanna set a good example#incentives don't seem to work on her 13yo brain but they do for me! but as i said she's coming over tmr and since im going str8 from work#to pick her up ive left it up til the LAST MINUTE lmfao#but. i did it#OK guys sayonara I'm going to read these tags to my therapist next time i see her tho#diary
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i think that there are primarily 3 reasons i was never diagnosed as autistic when i was a child. 1) the simple fact that most people in my life had next to no accurate info about autism and no idea that there was any nuance beyond “Rainman Savant” and “Lenny from Of Mice and Men.” 2) my mom’s refusal to accept that there was anything “odd” about me despite definitely knowing that something was up. this likely came from a place of protection, however, so i don’t really hold it against her at all. 3) the fact that my dad is also definitely autistic and also never diagnosed, so a lot of “definitely autistic” behaviors were easily brushed aside by my dad stepping in to say things like “oh no it’s normal for kids to read hard science fiction in the second grade i was also an avid reader as a child” and “all children love lining things up in neat rows and sorting small stones by size, color, and texture for hours. i personally preferred using diagrams from history textbooks to perfectly recreate battle positions from WWII with my army men when i was a toddler, but this is basically the same thing.”
#autistic things#my dad absolutely had no idea that i was anything except a very normal child#my mom had extensive experience with children and definitely knew something was up but was not going to let anyone point it out#i personally as a kid also knew nothing about autism beyond the Rainman-Lenny ends of the spectrum#so i just thought that i was a uniquely alien specimen of a person#i was just like 'wow for no reason at all my peers are entirely alien to me and i to them. no explanation'#my peers in hindsight either figured out what was up (autism) or also did not have enough info to reach that conclusion#so landed closer to the 'no idea what's wrong here but it must be some kind of mental affliction' side of things#oh and i also had a hard time identifying autistic things from normal/NT things because even after i realized i was autistic#i did not make the same connection about my father#so i would be like 'hmm i wonder if this is an autistic thing? but no dad also does that'#my sister was actually the one to be like 'you know dad's also autistic right?' and i was hilariously shocked#but like in hindsight it all fits
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hi nyancrimew. whos your favourite sonic character
wow this question comes with such great timing, ive been getting really into sonic autism again lately, thought i know very little of actual sonic canon (beyond whats in the movies) and have just personally decided that anything happening in the @snapscube fandubs is probably entirely canon.
uuh i think my favs are like rouge and shadow cause edgy cool and kinda goth and stuff yknow, and tails is pretty awesome cause of the autism
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It’s Carly Tingle’s big day, the release of her first traditionally published horror novel, Camp Damascus. Unfortunately, Carly’s having trouble enjoying this moment as fear and chaos begin to swirl around her. She wants the book to do well, of course, but it slowly becomes apparent there’s more to Carly’s ambition than meets the eye.
Things get clearer when Carly revisits an old erotica short she’d written, titled Eaten Right By The Physical Manifestation Of My Pride And Excitement That The Lead Character Of My First Traditionally Published Horror Novel Is On The Autism Spectrum Just Like Me. This sets off a chain of fourth-wall breaking events that will send Carly on an adventure unlike any other.
Now at the book shop, Carly will come face-to-face with the beautiful physical manifestation of her pride and excitement as an autistic artist, culminating in an erotic lesbian encounter that could inspire generations to come.
This erotic tale is 4,300 words of sizzling human on sentient physically manifested excitement in the form of a punctuation mark action and lesbian autistic pride love.
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please enjoy EATEN RIGHT BY THE PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION OF MY PRIDE AND EXCITEMENT THAT THE LEAD CHARACTER OF MY FIRST TRADITIONALLY PUBLISHED HORROR NOVEL IS ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM JUST LIKE ME out now for free but asking for donation to AUTISTIC SELF ADVOCACY NETWORK
MORE ABOUT THIS TINGLER:
hey there buckaroos i would like to use today to talk on something that is very important to me. i have talked a lot about my journey as a bud on the autism spectrum, and about how I LOVE BEING AUTISTIC.
my story on the spectrum is not a struggle. my way was diagnosed in early twenties, but because of way of masking VERY FEW BUCKAROOS WOULD EVEN NOTICE. it has given me ability to hyper focus and get large amounts of writing done, to find creative ideas neurotypical buds might miss, and to have a unique perspective on life on this timeline.
HOWEVER as man name of chuck my pride in this way used to make me uncomfortable, thinkin i should not share my story. there are many buds on this spectrum who have a MUCH harder time than chuck, and i want to respect the VERY IMPORTANT AND VERY REAL struggles of my fellow autistic buckaroos. for long time i did not feel like it was my place to share and say ‘personally, i wouldnt change my autistic trot for anything. i think being autistic is very cool’
but as tingleverse got more fans and buckaroos started listening to my words more i started thinking: THIS is an opportunity to prove love. part of the reason i am PROUD of my spectrum way is because FIRST INTERACTION with idea of this trot (was called aspergers way back then) was to realize that ALL MY HEROS were on this spectrum: david byrne of band TALKING HEADS being number one.
my FIRST INTERACTION with this idea was not ‘whoa this is tragic’ it was ‘whoa the coolest buckaroo on the PLANET is the same as me’
POINT IS i have been on this timeline a while now and now i am in this position myself. i can be the one buckaroos see when they learn this about themselves and think: WOW LOOK AT THIS WILD ARTIST I ADMIRE BREAKING THE NORMS AND CHARTING A NEW TROT THROUGH THIS TIMELINE WE ARE BOTH AUTISTIC THIS IS THE HECKIN COOLEST
most of the characters i write are probably a little on the spectrum because they are comin from inside chucks head. i look back and notice this and laugh, but other than a single tingler i rare actually OUTRIGHT SAY this character is autistic. i decided that FIRST BIG HORROR NOVEL WITH A TRADITIONAL PUBLISHER was a good time to change this. while i write erotica most of the time which means NO YOUNG BUCKAROOS ALLOWED, horror is a little different. buckaroos young and old can read CAMP DAMASCUS and think ‘i see myself in this autistic hero and I FEEL COOL’
EVEN WRITING THIS NOW makes me get teary eyed and emotional, because these feelings of belonging and positive representation were SO IMPORTANT to me. i would not be trotting here without these autistic heroes, and now i have been given the chance to create one of my own with CAMP DAMASCUS and WITH MYSELF just by being chuck and talking openly about my joyful, exciting, artistic trot on the spectrum.
WITH ALL OF THIS IN MIND i am releasing a brand new tingler called EATEN RIGHT BY THE PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION OF MY PRIDE AND EXCITEMENT THAT THE LEAD CHARACTER OF MY FIRST TRADITIONALLY PUBLISHED HORROR NOVEL IS ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM JUST LIKE ME for free. HOWEVER i am requesting that if you choose to read you send your three dollars (or whatever donation you would like) to the AUTISTIC SELF ADVOCACY NETWORK. this way 100 percent of all profits will go to them. (WARNING this is actual erotica so no young buckaroos allowed for this one).
all ages (who are old enough to read horror) can preorder CAMP DAMASCUS at any bookstore. i also have a tingler name of NOT POUNDED BY THE PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION OF SOMEONE ELSE'S DOUBT IN MY PLACE ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM BECAUSE DENYING SOMEONE'S PERSONAL JOURNEY AND IDENTITY LIKE THAT IS INCREDIBLY RUDE SO NO THANKS that is pound free so all ages can read so check that out if you would like.
thank you for blessing me with a space to explore these ideas. i am so thankful to be here with you and you have treated me so well. i am eternally grateful for our tort together and look forward to the future we craft on this timeline.
LOVE IS REAL - chuck
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AITA for insinuating a kid's misbehavior isn't due to his ADHD?
(🧶 so I can find this later)
I (25nb) am in a knitting club that meets every week. It's mostly filled with older women, but there are some of us younger people that pop in there when we get the chance.
One of these older knitting friends in particular has a lot of stories about her grandson(~15?M), because he misbehaves very often. She'll complain about how his new hyperfixation is snails, so he'll bring snails into the house when it rains (minor infraction), or how he took a picture of her credit card information and uses it to buy things for himself off of amazon (a more serious infraction). Tbh, as far as knitting clubs usually go, this is just plain, normal, good gossip that's pretty on-par with what other people usually share.
However, once she starts to receive any responses along the lines of "aw man, that's awful!" or "wow, that's actually really bad, have you tried xyz?" she'll quickly end the conversation with "well, you know how it is, he has ADHD and autism and da-da-da (meaning he has more diagnoses that shes not going to list out)." She always dismisses any advice or sympathy with a swift dismissal along the lines of "he has these diagnoses, so what are you gonna do?"
Here's where I think I may have been the asshole the other day. I have ADHD and autism. Her use of "well, it's the disorder!" at the end of her stories about her grandson's misbehavior has been grating on me for months. In my opinion, it's very stigmatizing, and it doesn't help me feel any better about the Public Opinion when the other older ladies there respond with more or less "ah, yes, that makes sense, it's because of the Bad Kid Disorder."
Yesterday, she finished a story about him taking a picture of her list of passwords with "well, you know, it's the ADHD." I immediately cut in to say "Well, I have ADHD and I never stole anyone's passwords as a kid." She immediately became flustered and raised her voice, responding with, "Well, you don't have autism!" - I do. I do have autism. I let it slide because I felt bad about the initial callout and also didn't want to out myself any more. She changed the subject after I hesitated in response to her raised voice, anyway.
The rest of that week's meeting went mostly smoothly, but I can't help but wonder if all I did was make things awkward. I felt like I was at my wit's end with her using the ADHD and autism = bad kid argument, but was I TA for not just continuing to let it slide?
What are these acronyms?
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Please share your thoughts on Kieran/Ash
GRINDS MY TEETH OKAY ALRIGHT WE’RE DOING THIS
-Ash arrives in Kitakami and immediately butts heads with Carmine. Needless to say this leaves a strong first impression on Kieran who has never really seen someone stand up to Carmine before
-Carmine challenges Ash to a battle. Ash whoops her ass. Kieran is enthralled. Kieran proceeds to laugh to himself saying “It’s not like I lie awake thinking about him at night or anything” cut to Kieran lying in bed thinking about Ash going AW MAN
-Ash and Kieran get paired up together for the little interactive tour. Kieran is a hot mess. How do you not act like a total oddball in front of the really cool foreign trainer who was able to beat your sister in a Pokemon battle.
-Kieran’s a nervous ball of anxiety the ENTIRE time until they get to the first signboard. Then his autism kicks in and he tells Ash about Ogerpon. Ash notices how passionate Kieran seems to be about Kitakami’s history and is like whoa that’s really neat 😳
-Ash agrees with Kieran and says whoa yeah the ogre actually sounds really cool!! Aw man now I really want to meet it!
Kieran: Oh no I think I’m in love with him
-Kieran is inwardly having a mental gay breakdown and wonders what to do. How does he handle this. How can he impress Ash, who is already so impressive. Maybe a Pokemon battle? But there’s no way he could beat Ash after seeing how strong he was yesterday…
-Kieran decides to battle Ash anyway. Unsurprisingly, he loses. He’s about to go into a self-deprecating spiral when Ash comes over and is like WOW that was AWESOME!! Your Pokemon were so great, that was such a good battle!! Man battles are really really fun huh ^^
-Huh. Kieran’s never really thought about it that way before. At least with his background, battles have always been about power and proving yourself the strongest and winning. Maybe Ash is onto something? Kieran doesn’t feel the sort of disappointment he usually feels when losing a battle. He actually feels…satisfied?
-They continue on to the second signpost, and then to the Dreaded Den. Kieran infodumps about Ogerpon again. Ash listens to every word with a dreamy look on his face. Is nobody else seeing this?? Okay. Alright
-The Festival of Masks is ready to start. Kieran’s grandparents let Ash borrow an extra set of jinbei. Kieran sees Ash all dressed up and tries not to let his gay show too much. (He fails.) Kieran’s grandparents watch them awkwardly flirt with each other and do that eyebrow raise thing.
-THEY GO TO THE FESTIVAL! With Carmine tagging along. Carmine is her usual snarky self and unintentionally insults Kieran. Ash gets angry on Kieran’s behalf. Kieran manages to calm both of them down and he and Ash split from Carmine for a little while.
-Ash: I don’t like how your sister treats you >:(
Kieran: O-oh 😳
ASH CARES ABOUT HIM. He wants to cry. This is the best festival ever.
-I actually considered having Ash and Carmine being the ones to have a run-in with Ogerpon, and then Ash refusing to keep it a secret from Kieran, but. I like to think that Ash would change the narrative so much that he and Kieran would encounter Ogerpon from the get-go. This is the Good End route.
-Ash is able to start befriending Ogerpon with his Protag Powers and Kieran is stupidly impressed. And very very gay.
-Ash, freaking out: Was that the ogre?!! OH MAN
Kieran, freaking out: OH WOWZERS
Ash cares about him AND they met the ogre. This is DEFINITELY the best festival ever.
-Since Ash is bad at keeping secrets they’ll probably end up telling Carmine about Ogerpon anyway. Lmao
-The next morning the three of them find out the Real Story behind the Loyal Three and Ogerpon’s past. Carmine is furious. Ash is also furious but to a lesser degree. Kieran is just heartbroken that Ogerpon’s had to live this way for so long. And Ash is like holy CRAP Kieran was right the entire time!! Kieran you’re amazing!! How did you know Ogerpon wasn’t the bad guy?? You’re so cool Kieran 😤
Kieran: (A cute boy is complimenting me I think I’m going to explode)
-They aren’t sure what to do about changing the townspeople’s minds. Carmine says they should probably keep it a secret like her grandfather told them to. Ash refuses. Kieran also refuses. Carmine gets angry that Kieran is taking Ash’s side. Kieran actually snaps back at her and Ash is VERY proud Kieran’s standing up for himself
-They split up for the time being. Ash and Kieran decide to go tackle the last signpost. Along the way Kieran’s p dang quiet. Ash asks him what’s wrong when they get there and Kieran asks him for another battle.
-This time it’s CLOSE. And both of them get REALLY into it. Kieran realizes he’s never had this much fun battling someone before. Along this crazy adventure he’s learned so many things. And Ash has inspired him so much. Kieran’s always wanted to get stronger. But the way he’s been going about it has been all wrong.
-Kieran has an epiphany of sorts. Battling with Ash made him realize it’s not about winning or showing off. It’s about having fun!! And this whole time Kieran’s gotten stronger without even realizing it.
-Ash runs at him after the battle ends and he’s like “That was AMAZING did you see the way those moves collided?!! And when Furret dodged Pikachu’s attack like that I was like WHOA and then they were like WHAM and I was like YOOO!!” And Kieran’s gushing right along with him. The tism LEAPS out
-Ash makes Kieran develop a true passion and love for battling and he’s so thankful 🤧 Bc before he never could really grasp why he wasn’t improving at all. Focusing on strength kinda blinded him to what was really important.
-Kieran: Let’s battle again soon! I’m feeling really pumped up now, battling you and watching you strategize has given me some good ideas :’D
Ash gets the DOKI DOKIS and he’s like uh yeah okay! Definitely! (I don’t know why my heart jumped just now.) Pikachu looks at him like homie I think you’re catching SOMETHIN but it’s not a Pokemon 👀
Obviously there’s the rest of the DLC plot to finish but you can probably guess the direction it’s going in. Kieran’s obviously overcome his weird thing about strength so he doesn’t spiral and become unhinged over Ogerpon like in canon. Lol
Oh and this
-Kieran: You’re the WORLD CHAMPION???
Ash: Oh yeah did I not mention that?
Kieran: *Proceeds to have a heart attack*
Anyway I love them thanks bye
#Shima answers questions#Pokemon#Pokeani#Ash Ketchum#Kieran#Pokemon Kieran#The Teal Mask#Ogerpon#Carmine#Pokemon Carmine#Pokemon SV#I’M STILL THINKING OF A SHIP NAME BTW.#If y’all have ideas let me know ^^#Long post
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haaaii!!! omg im a little nervous lol! we recently became mutuallss and i could NOT resist sending in a request I love love love your writing!!! ☆ helluva boss request because autism wins!!
maybe a striker x imp reader? readeris apart of the i.m.p, this can either be set in 1×05 or after. reader's IS insecure enough to fall for strikers manipulation. i would prefer a gn they/them reader, but im fine with a fem reader 2!! yippee for angst
Spring remedy.
Pairing: Striker x GN! Imp! Reader
Warnings: Nothing really, Striker calls the reader 'sweetheart'
Word count: 715
✰Masterlist
You take in the warm Wrath air as Millie greets her parents. You don't pay attention that much until you hear the loud stampede of hooves. Your head moves in the direction of the sound to see the amazing cowboy-hybrid come into view. Your eyes visibly widen when you see him. He was almost majestic like, fixing his hat when he dismounted from his horse.
You watch him talk to Millie, then Blitz. You find yourself becoming more intrigued the more you look at him. When the conversation switches, Striker turns to you. "So, you do free work too?"
He asks, making you blink a few times "Oh, we don't do free work at I.M.P. We're actually assassins."
Striker raises an eyebrow at that "Wow, an assassin, huh? That's pretty impressive."
For some reason, you feel a pressing heat on your cheeks suddenly. Striker gives you a light nod before turning away from you.
You tune out Millie's and Moxxie's conversation as the winners for the Pain Games are announced. Your boss and Striker won of course. Putting the other competitors to shame. You watch as Striker pulls out a guitar and starts singing a victory song. You feel mesmerized at the sound. Your tail twitches when Striker winks in your direction.
You didn't even notice when your boss sat down beside you. Startling you to no end when he starts speaking very loudly all of a sudden. You shake it off, though, ignoring Blitz to pay attention to Striker.
When you get back in the house, you decide to go to the upstairs bathroom. Once you reach the top of the stairs however, you see a glow coming from one of the doors. This peaks your interest and you walk closer to it. Slowly turning the knob, the door opens under the weight of your push.
You quickly figure out that the source of the glowing was from an angelic gun. You take a careful look at it, having never seen anything like it before. Then you hear the door close behind you, making you jump in surprise.
You turn to be met with the face of Striker. Just now noticing how much taller he was then you. Your panic mode kicked it and you get into a slight fighting stance. "Relax. I'm not gonna hurtcha."
His smooth, velvety voice makes you want to relax. You don't know why. It goes against everything you stand for. But you feel as if your body is acting on its own. Striker walks up to you, placing a hand on your shoulder. "What do you think I am?"
Was that a trick question? Either way, you answer uncertainly. "A farm-hand?"
He responds with a slight chuckle and then some words "Well, I can be. But I'm really an assassin."
You blink in surprise, looking back at the gun. Then the realization hits you. "Were you hired to assassinate Prince Stolas?"
He laughs again, his tail swishing behind him. "That's right, sweetheart." Striker dips his head down a little, getting closer to you. "We could work together, you know?"
Your body tenses, your tail curling slightly. "I can't.. do that to Blitz.."
A slight frown is etched on his face, his grip on your shoulder tightens. "And why is that? What has that blue-blood Prince ever done for us?"
You shake your head firmly. "It could effect Blitz. Whether that be emotionally or financially, he'd get hurt. And I don't want to do that.
You push Striker's hand off your shoulder and walk past him towards the door. Until his voice makes you freeze. "They don't care about you. They've barely even talked to you since you got here."
This makes you think. Like really think. Did they care about you? They never seemed to show it if they did. "I care. Which is why I want you to join me."
Your body feels like it moves on its own again as you turn towards him. This makes Striker grin. "We could be rich, famous and powerful together."
He offers his hand to you. You hesitate for a second before taking it. Striker pulls you towards himself. One of his hands finds your waist. While his other hand grabs your chin. "Good. You made the right decision, sweetheart.
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any time they describe one of maria's personality traits in ep1 it's just a symptom of autism. she reads very heavily as autistic, she's the autism, and it's the little details that sell it. it's very important for me. i HATE the manga's portrayal of her there, because it presents her with creepy evil faces. i also only really like the original ryukishi sprites for her, because the others tend to make her look like she's crazy and evil when in reality she's just infodumping about her hyperfixation which is magic and witches, and she's just smug about it because she knows more than battler and the others. it's endearing and funny. she's very daughter. i love her so much. adaptations framing her as weird and creepy is something i truly hate when the actual text wants the reader to understand and sympathize with her, and it's very invested in explaining why she's the way she is and how there's nothing wrong with that. she's really cute when she shows off her vast knowledge. she's like "wow guys you think i'm dumbass child? actually guess what i read THE BIBLE" as she proceeds to explain what this intricate magic circle means. which is the funniest thing but is also very interesting because the bible plays into her character in important ways. how anyone hates her is beyond me.
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So as an anime watcher of Dungeon Meshi my first impression of Laios was "wow, the fandom made me think this guy was kinda weird and dumb" and tbh thats totally on me.
Because Laios is actually fucking awesome?? First of all, hes unintentionally hilarious. Like this mf scared away sirens with the power of his awful ass singing and im supposed to NOT laugh? Impossible. Also him just always asking if he could theoretically eat something inedible is funny af too.
Second of all, he can be a great leader. Unironically if this guy had an ounce of understanding of social queues he'd be unstoppable (honestly same dude) but even then his personality makes him easy to like. His vibes in general, although a lil weird, do help him be a great leader for his friends.
Lastly is that hes really smart. Like, impressively smart. Its literally canon that his infodumping has helped his party members and i love that so much. This guy be saving the day with the power of autism fr and as an autistic person i absolutely love it. Even that aside, he is very smart in his own way and that sets him apart from other characters without really making it feel like hes supposed to be written as a dumb character, if that makes sense.
#anyways laios my favorite character#actually thats a lie my number one fave is chilchuck#still tho laios being weird is extremely relatable#so i HAD to rant abt it#dungeon meshi
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Do you think Jackie is autistic? She has alot of autistic traits and some are even accepted by the fandom. There's a tag for her on Ao3
this is a really interesting question for me. i'm sort of going to give my opinion in a round about way because its very bound up in who i am, so bare with me. i wouldn't feel equipped to answer this question if i didn't relate very heavily to jackie. part of my yj love started just from how seen i felt by jackie's character.
i was captain of a girls sports team, i was so stupidly lesbian, i had the on a boys sports team boyfriend who i didn't like at all, my home life wasn't like hers in many ways but my mother was also an addict and generally not nice lady lol, i tried my best to be as nice as i could to everyone, and surface level i was liked in a homecoming princess type way, but i had very few super close friends. i often got the "wow you're actually nice" or "i assumed you were a bitch" comments from people i'd never spoken to before and i had no idea why or how to prove that i was genuine. jackie gets accused of being "fake nice" to "manipulate people" a lot, but we really don't see her doing any manipulating or get any evidence that she doesn't mean the nice things she says and does.
i heavily relate to that and as i've gotten older i've realized that people often mistake the sense that something is off with fake kindness. i think there are a few reasons that jackie is treated the way she is, both by the other girls at the end of her life and by viewers, but it would take like...an extensive essay to get into the nuance of them lol, so i'll just stick with this:
i think being neurodivergent gets you the treatment that jackie gets a lot of the time. i'm EXTREMELY adhd, like really blow the assessment scores all the way up adhd lmao it impacts my life heavily, and i wasn't diagnosed until my twenties. i also score high on the autism screener and fit the criteria, but i have never/will never seek any formal diagnosis there just out of personal preference. all that to say, i relate heavily to jackie taylor, i think the girl is some kinda neurodivergent, and i think headcanoning characters as autistic makes total sense when the evidence tallies up lol.
the thing is, so many characters are lesbian-coded or adhd-coded or autisim-coded, because so many people don't know that they are those things. i knew i liked women from an early age, but i had the comphet of thinking i liked men also. so i didn't know i was a lesbian until i was 24. i didn't know i had adhd until i was 25. i didn't know i was (probably) autistic until 26. we don't have to know the words for the things we feel and do to embody them or to see them in others or to write them into characters. does that make sense?
anyway, if you think jackie taylor is autisic i love that and i can't say i disagree. that's my long-winded answer!
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Drive (2011) - An Autistic Reading
Have you guys ever watched this movie with Ryan Gosling? Did you know he's literally me. Hello, fellas, today I am going to talk about why I think Guy From Drive, the Protagonist of Drive, has this thang called autism.
Everything you see here is headcanon. It wasn't intentional on the movie's part. In fact, I know it and find it hilarious. Every writing choice in this movie that led it to be critically acclaimed as a sigma male film bro has only pushed this guy further into The Spectrum. Let's take a look at them.
The Jacket
You can't talk about Drive without bringing up Ryan Gosling's silvery embroidered scorpion jacket. This iconic costume design has him standing out in the crowd as the baddass that he is, a part of his personality and of the movie's visual design. He wears that scorpion jacket so often that it becomes his image in the movie's posters.
OR... It's his comfort clothing. This jacket gets progressively dirtier with blood as the movie goes forward and he does not take it out even when he has the chance to change. Because it's the right texture, it's comfortable and familiar. When everything is falling apart around him in the second half of the movie, that scorpion quite literally has his back.
The Gloves
We love a sexy pair of gloves. I like to think they have the same function, another comfort, since he's never caught driving without them on. Might be a sensory thing too, keeping things from touching his hands.
Which reminds me of this scene
This scene is very WOW. The SYMBOLISM. His hands are DIRTY because he is a CRIMINAL.
But he was also talking his way out of physical contact here.
The Brooding Attitude
Another thing you can't talk about this movie without bringing up is the fact the protagonist is Very Mysterious and Brooding and Quiet. Everyone wants to be as cool as he is with how Quiet and Mysterious he acts. I even saw people making fun at the fact that it takes him a good 30 seconds to answer anything addressed to him.
But to me, that was just screaming nonverbality. It's not even that he's an introvert, or awkward at socializing, since he happily seeks out Irene and her son Benício to chat with them. It's just that it's hard for him - the actual talking.
In this context, his monologue at the start of the film, which he repeats later on when he decides to help Standard, might be something he scripted, and rolls more easily off his tongue now.
People also point out his facial expression stays the same for the entire movie. He also often stares at everything in a very intense manner. It might be him being all baddass and calm and collected, or it might be that he just can't emote properly, something that happens a lot with autistic people. It's not like Ryan Gosling was being a lazy / bad actor, because he hinted microexpressions and acted with his entire body during the movie. A scene that definitely caught my eye was the one he was about to hammer a bullet into his enemy's face.
Sure, his face doesn't change even as he talks with the big baddy guy on the phone, but he's clearly angry to the point of twitching a little.
The Toothpick
I like that he had this little toothpick in his mouth all the time. He even asks Benício if he wants one, and the kid, thinking he's cool as hell, accepts so he can be like him. It's a nice little trait that adds extra personality to him.
It's also most definitely a stim.
The Cars
Last thing I have to add is the theme of the entire movie. This guy lives and breathes cars. He has three separate jobs and all of them involve cars. Every hobby and leisure activity he was portrayed partaking in the movie was in a car. He drives.
Cars are his special interest. We'll never know the choices that led him to his life of crimes, but we know he managed to include his favorite thing, the thing he loves and specialized on, into it. And he does a damn good job at it, his baddass movie protagonist-grade talent at being Mr. Drive.
Bonus: the theme song
Just cause "A Real Hero" by College is such an autistic song to me. Those lyrics about being "emotionally complex, in a grain of dystopic claims", all while the chorus repeats itself ad-infinitum, reassuring you that you've proven yourself to be a real human being (and a real hero). It's a common experience to autism, and I can confirm it, to feel alienated, like you're some sort of alien in a sea of normal people. The fact this song reassures me I'm human is very comforting.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk.
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Would you be willing to do a platonic jinx and silco with a autistic fem reader? Has trouble with communucation and socialization, a bit clumsy, but is otherwise very loyal and sweet to them both and one of the few people who not only can keep up with jinx intelligence wise but actually understand her. Silco and jinx one day overhear one of silco's goon straight up call her an "idiot freak" or something really horrible not knowing she's more than just that kid that hangs around jinx all the time but is pretty much family.
(hello! I however, do not write autistic readers because I do not have autism or know anyone who does and I don't want to be insensitive for anything about that so I cannot do that so sorry. But anyways, enjoy!)
Little Dysfunctional Family
Jinx
Jinx was ways happy to have you
Even if you had your quirks
She wasn't always the best with communication either
She was also accident prone, now and then when she was a certain someone
She didn't like socializing, she hated it
She didn't like being around fake ass goons who thought kissing up to her would get them on Silcos good side
It got tiring
So, having you, and knowing your love and being with her was genuine??
Made everything else matter absolutely jack shit
She treats you like a sibling, maybe if your younger, like a little kid sibling she never had
She will be very protective and loving
She doesn't want anything to happen to you
Or for anything, or anyone to take you away
She doesn't think she can handle that
So she does whatever it means to keep you happy and very loved
As long as you love her the same
It's a great deal, really
She is very happy you're able to connect with her on so many different levels
Especially when you help her when she has freak outs
You understand why she has them, and how she is the way she is
But you never judged her about it
Or really questioned it, you were just you, and you were there for her
And she will always love you for that
And that you're able to keep up with her highly energetic ways is amazing
And how you can make gadgets and go on and on for hours on end with her
She loves
She never had someone like that before, so now that she does
She doesn't wanna let it go and doesn't want anything to change
So to hear someone talk shit about you??
You??
The amazing one, her fucking sibling, like they're nothing??
Oh boy
When Jinx is mad, she is mad
There are no limits
She will do whatever the hell she pleases to them
She'll toy with them for a little tho lmao
She'll be asking
"Why do ya think that?? Wow, what else do you think?"
Acting coy, a fake pleasant and charming smile on her face while she is seething inside
Then she'll just bust out
"Well, funny you say that about, y'know, my best friend."
She'd be giggling while the goon is terrified
Everybody knows
don't fuck with Jinx
She's a firecracker is under the protection and love of the Eye of Zaun
So, safe to say
That goon is GONE
never to be seen again
Oh well, cuts your losses
Jinx will then rant to you about it and be telling you how wrong the goon is
She'll also probably tell you bits of what he said, and make it out like he tried attacking her to justify what she did
But it's okay!
Who can be mad at this amazing girl?
Silco
He is the Eye of Zaun, man
He may not show it or say it very often, but he cares deeply about you and Jinx
He's had you guys for so long, he forgot what it was like without you both
He didn't care that you didn't very function well with socializing and communicating
To him, you were perfect
Because you were you
He wasn't good with that stuff either, like Jinx
That's what makes you all an amazing little family
A family that protects one another from anything
You all were basically molded with the same skills, some lacking in some departments, but we'll enough to appreciate one another
Even if it's not said every day
You knew it, Jinx knew it, and so did Silco
So, he wants to keep you and Jinx happy
He wants you guys to be taken care of
He also appreciated that you can connect with Jinx on a level he can not
Intelligence wise and her personality in general
Not many can keep up with the blue haired wonder
So, it's very much appreciated that you keep her alive while also indulging in her activities
He will not let anyone talk shit about you
Did you see how he acted when Sevika tried to call Jinx a problem??
Well, he'd act sorta like that
If the goon kept going on about you and saying shit
He's be silently pissed as they keep running their fucking mouth
If they even get the chance
He may not kill them per se
But they will be traumatized, no doubt
If they go far enough, he'd probably send Sevika on their ass
He would not stand for it
He would also, probably call them into his office and play a physiological game
He'd threaten them no doubt
And you and Jinx are giggling up in the rafters having the time of your lives watching this absolute jackass almost piss himself
Anyway, Silco would not let any asshole try and run all over you
He taught you better than to let that happen
He also will take care of it for you
It's his way of showing fatherly love
It's not perfect, but it's the way that he knows he can show it without screwing up
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