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murdrdocs · 11 months

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just read all your imagines and they are so good!! just on here to req anything hobie brown related cos god that man is so fine. maybe like a one-shot where they are fwb cos hobie doest do labels but gets jealous and then asks reader to be his gf and then shows her off to everyone. just like really anything u want to write tbh ✨✨

end of line | h. brown

description. being friends with benefits with your best friend, hobie brown, is fun and all, but you start to realize that maybe firm labels suit you better than whatever this is

includes. slight smut SUGGESTIVE 16+, fem!reader referred to as “girl”, fluff, sweet!hobie, pav gwen and miles mention, rockstar!hobie

a/n: i have no words this was supposed to be uploaded like a week ago but then i went to disney so ... sorry yall. also not edited well bc ... disney. edit: title from the song by daft punk bc tron <3

word count: 1.7k+

things are still in your bedroom. they always are right before he arrives.

you're not a psychic, nor do you have a "spider-sense" (which, with the creepy-sixth sense way hobie described it, you don't want one either), but you like to think that you can tell when he'll come by.

nights when you haven't heard much from him, but the sirens seemed to never stop outside, were usually when your window would creek as it slid up.

you listen out for the sound now as you finish painting your last nail. you'd used the quick dry polish tonight, in hopes that you wouldn't have a repeat of last time, when your fingernails weren't dried but hobie was incredibly impatient and when you were done, you'd realized that your right ring and pinkie fingers were smudged.

the bottle's closed, you'd blown on your nail to ensure it dried, and that's when your window slides open.

there's no point in looking back at him when he tumbles into the room. he starts mumbling complaints as soon as the window's closed, the sound of his shoes unlacing padding his words, something about some common thief who hobie was going to let go but then he went and messed with the lady on the street and her cat.

you'd lost the tail end of his words whenever he started walking closer to you. you sat up straighter, pushed everything out of the way, and waited for him to turn your chair around.

which, when he did, you looked up at him, small smile on your lips as you stared into his deep brown eyes.

"how's your night, hm?" he asked, a courtesy before getting to the real action.

you shrugged, pretending to think. "nothing. just a lot of this."

"no smashing societal standards? picking off misogynists one by one?"

a small laugh in the form of a snort from you. "nah. figured i'd take a day off, you know?" the sarcasm dripping from your words. that's not who you were. you wish you could've been like that, could've been like hobie. but there's one spider-person for a reason.

"oh, yeah, uh-huh..." and hobie trailed off as he leaned in, pointer finger hooking under your chin to pull your lips to his.

it always felt good to kiss hobie.

you'd fantasized about it for weeks before it actually happened. he's your closest friend at the moment, and he occupied the title before this arrangement even existed. and of course you had the worry about ruining your beautiful friendship if you became more, fear that you wouldn't be able to go back and you would subsequently lose probably the best friend you've ever had.

but that was no need to worry. because while you could let hobie pull you up and lead you to your bed, sitting back and pulling you into his lap while he kissed you with a tenderness you know so well, you could also just be friends with him, sitting side by side on the couch and having a movie marathon of horrible biopics without thinking about jumping each other's bones.

there's a balance here that you could only hope would've existed.

and it's never thrown off. not even when he pulls your shirt over your head and his full lips find your nipples and the slightly-faded marks he'd left a few days ago. not even when he switches your position, laying you back and kissing down your torso until he can bury his head between your legs. not even when you whine and cry just a bit, slightly begging for him to pull his suit off so he can fuck into you in a way that only he can.

you try not to think about the equilibrium of your relationship with hobie when your legs hook around his waist and the heels of your feet dig into your lower back. you try to solely focus on the way his cock fills you up perfectly, mostly long with the right amount of girth for your walls, tip reaching deep within you in an almost mind bending way.

but you can't help but think about the way hobie doesn't do labels when he helps you to your bathroom, where he lets the shower heat up while you sit in a shirt he left behind a few days ago when he'd shown up as just hobie brown and not spiderman. you can't help but think about being hobie's girlfriend when his big, veiny hands run along your skin after the shower, smothering you in shea butter as you struggle to hold your eyes open. and you don't bother attempting to fight off the lasting thought of being hobie's while he hums an unknown song to himself with your head on his chest, the deep sound of his voice and the vibration of his chest lulling you to sleep.

you need to be someone's.

the friends with benefits scenario was fun, it worked, it was glorious, but you don't think it's for you. and labels aren't for hobie.

so, you look elsewhere.

you're at hobie's show, standing in the back of the pub with a drink you weren't interested in, with some guy you really weren't all that interested in, either. but he smelled nice, and he seemed nice, and you were just looking to broaden your horizons just a bit.

you and hobie weren't exclusive, but maybe it's a little wrong to flirt with someone else at his show. but you were slightly upset, and craving attention, so it didn't matter.

not until hobie got off stage.

it took a while for him to roam over to you, but even then you were still entertaining the other guy. giggling, tilting your head, batting your eyelashes, your hip popped out and a manicure, that was still fresh, blinging as your hand rested on the bone.

he greets you with a term of endearment that he uses often, but it feels different in this circumstance. you tell yourself that it feels different because you want it to feel different.

"oi, babe! who's this bloke?"

his arm slings over your shoulder and you tense under it. your hands folding over your chest, your smile tightening a little.

“uh this is steven.” your hand reaches out to point to the man, a tight lipped smile spreading onto his lips.

“steven …” hobie repeats the name slowly, and without looking at him you can tell that he’s eyeing the guy up and down.

the air is stiff, the three of you are silent, and unfortunately, steven takes the hint to dismiss himself, and you instantly turn to hobie, a scowl on your face.

“what the fuck, hobes?” you’re pissed, but the nickname still slips off easily.

hobie shrugs and reaches into his back pocket, a cigarette appearing and he sticks it between his lips. instantly, your fingers pluck it out from his mouth, instead putting it in your own back pocket.

instead of looking upset, hobie looks amused. his hands reach out to grab your waist, and you want to give in, but you try to push his hands away instead.

hobie lets you, and you don’t know if your happy or upset with that.

“what’d you mean?”

you stare at him, deadpan, then gesture to where steven had walked away towards.

“you just cockblocked me!”

a cocky grin, almost a little condescending. “i didn’t ‘cockblock’ you, babes. you weren’t trying to get with that guy.” your eyebrow lifts and you can see realization come onto hobie’s face. “oh … you were?”

“yes! of course i was!”

“but why? you are i are together.”

“sure, hobes, but we’re not ‘together’.”

“yes we are.”

“no, we aren’t.”

“why do you think that?”

you suddenly feel a little insecure, eyes scanning the thinning crowd, ears noticing the way the volume in the pub is lowered. “because you’ve never put a label on it, bee.”

another layer of realization. hobie’s hands coming to your waist again, but this time you let him pull you in.

“i didn’t know we needed a label. but you’re my girl. and i’m your guy.”

your body heats up and you bite down onto your lower lip giddily, peeking up at hobie through your lashes.

"thought you didn't like relationships?"

"labels. i don't like labels."

there's a disruption in the atmosphere. goosebumps raise on your skin, the hair on the back of your neck sticks up, and even if you weren't aware internally, the way the magazine you were previously reading floats above the table would've tipped you off.

the portal opens shortly after, but you knew it was coming. it took hobie a while to tell you that he was spiderman, longer to convince you that he was spiderman, and a while longer to convince you of the existence society, and even though you know, you still get a little shocked whenever a portal opens.

he comes through first, thud of his heavy boots against the floor of his flat. the spoon in your mouth clings against the side of the bowl, your free hand reaches out to the tv remote to pause the episode as you look over at hobie.

"oi, didn't know you were still here." is all he says before he's walking over, pulling his mask off on the way, and leaning down. your head tilts up instantly to meet his lips in a kiss, your body warming with the way his hand pushes into the back of the couch, slender but muscular form caging you in.

you expect him to sit beside you and force you to give a recap of the episode, but he stands back, and then three other people come through the portal.

"oh ... are we expecting guests?" surprise sits in your words, the tone amplified when hobie takes your bowl of cereal out of your hands to finish it off himself.

"right," he speaks through mouthfuls, saying your name as an introduction to the other three. "this is pav, miles, and gwendy. spider people." you nod, waving at each.

"this here, is my girlfriend." three sets of spider-eyes widen with the admission and you can already sense what's coming.

"wow, you're pretty. 's nice to meet you."

"i knew it! i could sense the tension as soon as we got here."

"you have a girlfriend? wait. i thought you didn't like labels."

a small smile on your face as you tuck your hands in the pocket of hobie’s sweatshirt that you wear.

in coordination learned from how close you two are, you speak at the same time.

"he doesn't like consistency."

"don't like consistency, mate."

#hobie brown x reader #hobie brown x you #hobie brown smut #hobie brown fluff #spider punk x reader #spider punk x you #spider punk #celeste writs mcu #hobiesworld!#hobie brown #spider man across the spider verse

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strangesem · 11 months

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Dropping in with a request!

Could you do either Miles or Hobie (you can choose) with a Spider person reader who everyone thinks is scary and intimidating but actually just really quiet and shy?

THIS IS SO CUTE (and also very much fits my spider-sona 🤭)

hobie brown x intimidating but shy reader

a/n: I took a brief hiatus bc I’m trying to get my license but I’m back and more feral than ever

FIRST OF ALLL I feel like part of the reason people think you’re intimidating is bc of your spider-suit?

like maybe the mask is “spooky” or it’s super dark or what have you

and if you have good posture that would definitely make you seem sm more intimidating? like you’re just standing there upright saying nothing

even though you’re only quiet bc you’re shy, no one knows that!!!

except for hobie

tbh I feel like he originally approached you to annoy you or knock you down a peg?

but when your response was so quiet and soft he was like ?????

he doesn’t believe in consistency soo you’re basically his new best friend

but genuinely you would both bond so fast, largely due to how well your personalities even each other out

but also because no one else really talked to you bc you seemed “scary”

I also feel like you’d end up forming a trio with pavitr bc he’s too sweet to be intimidating by your “rough exterior”

and pav is the number one supporter of you two getting together I’m serious

“I can feel the tension, you guys should go to dinner after this”

“DID YOU SEE THE WAY HE LOOKED AT YOU? he’s in loooooveee”

speaking or pav; when you first met he *did* get jumpscared a little bit with how quietly you move around, and compared you to a ghost

it really stuck with hobie bc he immediately started calling you “ghostie”

(you’re crushing way too hard at that point to care let’s be real)

once you get together he’ll probably start spending more time in your world; just chilling at your place

teasing you occasionally about how nervous you are to even just open your door and talk to a delivery guy (he WILL do it for you if you ask though he doesn’t care lmao)

he’d also want you to spend a bunch of time in his dimension bc he wants you to go to his shows! go to all his favourite pubs with him!!

but if that’s all to overwhelming for you, even just lounging in his bed is more than enough to appease him

he likes that it smells like you after you leave

also!!! he definitely would want his partner to wear his clothes

if you’re bigger and his “normal” shirts don’t fit you comfortably? he’ll steal some oversized shirts and wear them a bit before handing them off to you!

hobie loves loves LOVES taking part in conversations where people are talking about how intimidating you are bc it’s hilarious to him

peak comedy even

“nah they’re a little cutie pie; couldn’t hurt someone if they tried”

“[spider-sona name]????”

miguel absolutely despises you both though bc hobie’s full time job is already being a menace to him and then you just stand off to the side and stare? WHISPERING TO HOBIE??? he can’t.

peter b parker though? he LOVES you guys. you’re his otp and she will sometimes point to show mayday what “true love” looks like

#not proofread #marvel #across the spiderverse #hobie brown #hobie brown x reader #hobie brown x you #spider punk #spider punk x reader

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miguelswifey04 · 10 months

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telekinetic!spidey!fem! reader

note: my spidersona + my own headcanons of her <3

first of she’s from earth 1213 where superhero’s and supervillans don’t exist & if they somehow ‘miraculously’ do exist they are shunned by the world—that’s why there isn’t superheroes anywhere to be seen because they are most likely hiding their true selves.

she had already had telekinetic powers every since she was very young!! she was raised and born to a mexican mother and an african american father!! her first language was spanish then later on as she gotten older she’d learned english

currently a college student in her 20s!! the timeline takes present day 2023–she studies computer science at a prestigious university & works as a barista at her university’s coffee shop <3

she was bitten by a radioactive spider when she got out the shower 😭 & she didn’t know she was bitten after she saw a red lump on her knee but she brushed it off until her spider abilities on top of telekinetic ones manifested

her hero name is starlight spider & her suit consists of golden outlines and pink stars ✨ that glitter her suit—she got it tailored and had her artist friend design it for her (they’re the only ones who know her true identity)

her parents are long gone so she only has herself and she’s trying her best to juggle her college and hero life—it’s hard at times but with the help of her roommate she’s able to persevere 😣

now her telepathic abilities are a strong one—she’s able to levitate (float but can’t fly for long distances) short distance teleportation, can manipulate and control objects with just her mind, very good with creating strong energy fields & a telepathic <3 but for her spider abilities she uses webshooters, has increased speed and agility, increased strength, spider senses (don’t rly need em when you’re a telekinetic) can do pretty much what a spider can do <3

extremely flexible…she does gymnastics 🤸🏽‍♀️ and does yoga 🧘🏽‍♀️ to help center herself and it’s kind of an escape from her reality

miguel had an eye on her because he was curious and surprise to stumble upon a spider person with telekinesis—he eventually comes to her earth and scouts her…she’s very stubborn and snarky at first but agrees to join

i’d like to think that she would challenge him and be reluctant to follow him and in a way it’s a game of push and pull between them; she keeps him on his toes while he simply puts up with her because it’s something he looks forward to everyday

at first they wouldn’t get along pretty well just because they both think differently and are polar opposites 😭

when they do start to get along they form a rare bond it’s just an unspoken thing between them and many of the spider people don’t get how 2 diff people have a thing for each other but they make it work

miguel would be cautious of her but NEVER underestimates her just because she’s a rare gem and has such cool powers & a lot of the spider people admire her for that—she’d be close to spider people who have unique abilities like her tbh !!

she’s super close to the spidey gang and probably has a soft spot for miles, margo, & gwen LOL + hobie & pav would treat her as a sibiling more so :p

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a/n: please let me know if you want a pt. 2 & elaborate more with the relationship between her and miguel <3 also these are mine headcanons so if you seen a similar one out there i didn’t take inspo from that!!

tags 🏷️: @kairiscorner

#spiderman atsv #spider man: across the spider verse #miguel o'hara #miguel o’hara x reader #atsv x reader #miguel spiderman #spider person #miguel o’hara x y/n #spidersona #ao3 works #telekenisis #telepathic #telekinetic!spidey!fem!reader #my headcanons #🌱 lin writes

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myersesque · 10 months

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Hey!!

So I saw your HC about everyone in Mumbattan knowing its Pavitr who's spiderman, and my friend and I were planning to write a fic based on it :) I just wanted to check with you to make sure you're fine with that, we'll credit you and your idea in the ao3 notes, ofc

And if that's okay, I also had a few clarifications- If everyone knows that Pav is Spidey, wouldn't his relations be in a little bit more danger than normal? Or would you like us to figure that part out?

hihihi omg !!! u guys are absolutely allowed to do that, i'm so flattered!!! (and my ao3 is winged_reaperz, if you wanna tag me there too ;D /nf)

to be honest - i didn't really think of the specifics when i made that post. tbh it was inspired by a daredevil fic i read a few years back (there were a few iirc, but i was thinking specifically of "last to know" by whitchry9) where all of hell's kitchen knew matt was daredevil but all worked to cover it up bc they didn't want him to get in trouble, but w the additional layer that Pavitr Is A Child and therefore people would be even MORE inclined to cover for him. as such i didn't really think about the specifics, and i don't really mind what direction you take it in?

that being said, if you want my personal opinion of how i would do it (which you ABSOLUTELY DO NOT HAVE TO ABIDE BY, please write whatever speaks to you the most, i would LOVE to see different interpretations of this concept): villains knowing your identity is always going to put the people near you in danger. even then, depending on the villain, some of them might not know - like, someone who just moved there and hasn't seen spiderman in action before, or something - but that's really up to you. i think it could be a double edged sword - gayatri is in more danger of getting kidnapped or gwen stacy'd generally endangered due to her connection to pavitr, but her dad may be a little more willing to look the other way on their relationship if he knows pav is the one saving her - or maybe the opposite! maybe he'd be even MORE protective of her if he knows pav is inadvertently the reason she's in so much danger!

i really don't know - there are so many directions you could go in and i think all of them would be really fun :] so really, just have fun with it! write whatever you like the best! disregard me entirely if you want - it's not my fic, yknow, it's yours :]

thank u for asking (i wouldn't have minded if you didn't, but it's sweet of you to ask) n i look forward to reading it :D

#before anyone asks - i bold bits i want people to focus on because sometimes it's difficult to read large sections of text #so i bold the important bits so you can skimread if you want #anyway this was v sweet !!!#ask

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erigold13261 · 5 months

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Some thoughts on the Family Tree Saga (I adore these):

To Celine, Joey and Gigi's Parent 1: What. The. Fuck./lh (Seriously, what was the inspo to make these three half siblings?/genq)

I wonder how Nova feels about their older sibling. Did they ever ask Nuru and Sarabi?

Uhh what happened to Tila's family tree? Where are her grandparents? Ancles?

Holy shit Noa are you okay????/lh

Hmm... if Miles has baby sister Billie, would he want to go to a college/uni in Vinyl City?

I like the idea that Maize (Ham's aunt) goes by Corn or Cereal in day to day life (That is why Ham calls herself Ham, food connections)

Have a feeling that that tree is Satoru's "official" family tree, bc I imagine the AMAB folk of blues family having non official concubines to have more children (so Satoru may have a bunch of half siblings or relatives who are not included in this tree)

Not to be nitpicky but I think the comics say that Shoko's powers are rare, and (I think) only Shoko can perform healing on other people as of now (Though I do like that its parents kept on trying for girls until they had a healer that can heal others too, only for that one to go rogue)

-Celin/Joey/Gigi: It's either a poly relationship with their mom being the center, or a singular parent was just a whore/jiggalo lol

The inspo actually comes from my own family. My nana had 4 kids, only 2 are full siblings, then my mom had 3 kids and only me and my brother are full siblings. That's probably the main reason I love the relationship of half siblings so much lol

-Nova: He most likely knows by now. Honestly he probably knew as a kid because his parents spoiled him rotten because they were just so happy to still have a child.

-Tila: Okay, my bad, I forgot about the grandparents in Tila's family tree lol. But both her parents were only kids, so no auncles. Grandparents aren't really in the picture so that's the main reason I forgot them (might change her tree honestly. I kinda blanked out when making hers tbh).

-Noa: No. No he's not. He got an extreme version of parentification and that was the major driving force for him to join Ex-Jay as a way to gain any sort of freedom (though his upbringing did kinda make him the mom friend of the group)

-Miles: Possibly not, but I think by the time he gets to college his sister will be about 3 years old (maybe 2) if he doesn't take a break from school to do so. I think at that point he'd be a bit more okay leaving to be with Gwen at school since Billie could go to daycare and stuff at that point (he'd be hesitant to, but his mom would want him to get the best education and music/art degree he can if that is truly what he wants to do with his life)

-Ham: Hey you saw my food joke/pun thing! Benny is also one! (Eggs Benny is another way to say Eggs Benedict lol). Love the idea that they will tell Maize to stop being corny or for Ham to stop hamming it up, just food puns like that as a cute close family!

-Satoru: Oh yeah, I can see that. Though if I thought of that I would have made it look like they had concubines/side pieces because I didn't even think of what an "official" family tree would look like. Like an official one from Neon J or Tatiana would probably look different from what I gave as the REAL one, but we can totally have this version of Satoru's as the "official" one the fam shows off.

-Shoko: See, I didn't know that! That is good information to know. But that also goes into the idea of "rare" as in the world, or "rare" as in anyone? Because in the world, possibly ONLY Shoko's family has that specific kind of healing power, which means it is still a rare power. But if you mean rare as in for anyone to have, then most likely Shoko is the only (or one of the only) people with that specific healing power (while other users are not related to it at all).

So personally I like the idea of a family power (similar to Eve and Pav), but we can always have it so that Shoko's family can only heal plant elementals or something like that. Perhaps only people connected by blood (so only family members) and Shoko is the only one to be able to heal outside of the family.

Definitely want to keep the idea that afab people in this family have more power than amab people, because I just like that idea for this family for some reason. Whatever the reasoning is (whether it's powers or something else), I think I'm keeping the family tree as is.

OH! Maybe it's like a power that skips generations! Shoko's parents knew their kids were most likely supposed to have this amazing and absolutely OP healing power. But each new kid just failed to produce it (even though they were girls which this power is more likely to show up in) so they kept trying (making SURE they were giving birth to a girl) until they got Shoko (and then, like you said, it defected from the family and "ruined" everything)

I actually like that version quite a bit! Gives a reason as to why the Auncle with no kid and no marriage was disowned since they weren't "participating" in keeping that generations healer alive.

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kinetic-elaboration · 3 years

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February 3: 2x05 The Apple

Today’s ep: The Apple!

I feel like people who enjoy hating on TOS probably especially hate The Apple but I like it and will defend it so--haters be gone.

I do think it’s an uncomfortable episode and asks questions with no good answers, but that’s a plus, not a minus, for it.

I love this red sky. It’s very alien.

Okay so Starfleet wants the planet explored and “the inhabitants contacted.”

I can’t believe Spock, who must know that Kirk has unrealistic fantasies of a simple, romantic life outside of the demands of Starfleet, just happens to mention that the soil is “good for husbandry.” Like “This would be a great place to settle down and farm, Captain. no reason for saying so. Just thought you should know." And Kirk tries to capitalize on this flirting and Spock doesn’t get it.

Bones is so personally affronted that Chekov thinks of Russia, not Eden.

This Yeoman is all up on Chekov.

Scotty angling for an invite to the surface.

Kirk picking flowers! Smelling the flowers! He is soft and likes plants.

“This isn’t a field experiment in human biology.” First lol. Second... isn’t it a little though?

“I know you find each other fascinating.” Interesting word choice there.

Sorry yet a third bullet point on Daddy Kirk telling the young people to calm themselves down it’s hilaaaaarious.

I love Spock in this episode. He’s always at his best when he gets to turn his scientific curiosity to stuff. Because like he loves new, weird stuff but he’s also very funny about it. “An analysis of this rock should prove interesting.” Then he just throws the other half away! And it explodes! And he’s not even embarrassed, he just thinks the explosion is cool.

Ugh this is one of my favorite underrated K/S moments: the “Jim!” the “Spock!” Spock putting himself in danger for Kirk. Kirk being grumbly about Spock being hurt. Concerned space husbands.

“Spock has been injured...this is a nightmare.”

Honestly, I love everything about this triumvirate scene too. “Dr. McCoy’s potions turn my stomach.” Spock’s clumsiness (he really isn’t graceful lol... I sometimes think people want to imagine he is, but he is NOT). “Do you know how much Starfleet has invested in you?”

I legit jumped at the explosion.

“His father helped me get into the Academy.” Interesting. How? What help did he need?

“I could have prevented all of this.” / “I don’t see how.” Spock is so....he’s so emotional about defending Kirk’s decisions and making Kirk feel better.

“As my father told me, Starfleet is dangerous.”

...I’m sorry I’m getting so many Spock and Kirk and K/S feelings right now.

This Spock and Chekov distraction conversation is hilarious. “Uh--you’re dumb!”

That’s not very nice, Kirk, just punching the confused humanoid.

“Vaal is Vaal” reminds me of that Daria episode with “Val.” “I’m Val, as in, VAL!”

“We come in peace,” says the man who just punched him.

Antennae! Spock wants to touch the interesting alien.

Scotty knows more about the Enterprise than the people who designed her.

Fire AND burned up in flames? Not a good day for Scotty.

Great Vaal design. This is not an ironic comment.

Not a good day for Spock either. That’s injury... 2?? Force field that knocks him on his ass.

“We have been introduced to Vaal.”

Don’t tell Sybok you met god.

“Vaal sleeps now.” Poor sleepy Vaal.

“Replacement” is a better word than children tbh.

“What is love?” Chekov just slides on in like HINT HINT.

McCoy lol. “No sex?? That’s not paradise to me!”

“It really does something for you.” / “Indeed it does. It makes me uncomfortable.”

Now everyone is laughing at him! A super bad day for Spock all around.

I do think he likes the decorations in the hut though.

McCoy is still wearing the flower decorations <3

The feeding of Vaal is so creepy. The machine needs to eat! At first I didn’t really get what they were feeding him, but my mom suggested it was the explosive rocks and I think that makes sense.

“Humans are only a tiny minority in the galaxy.”

The last time they thought they’d found aliens who were making no progress they’d actually found the Organians, who were BEYOND progress, so perhaps they should have learned by now not to be so hubristic in their judgements.

I like the philosophical argument and I like that they had it on prime time network tv.

I also think it’s interesting that Spock likes this kind of way.

Honestly, can you even imagine being a young Starfleet officer and you’re assigned to the Enterprise and KIRK is your Captain? And you end up on an away mission with him and he asks your opinion about the aliens? I think I’d find him intimidatingly cool. I’d probably have a big Captain Crush on him.

Kirk really walked his way into this awkward sex conversation though.

Hilarious how he asks Spock to explain sex lol--when he knows what sex convos with Spock are like. I mean that’s probably why he did it but still.

Spock probably WISHES he’d learned about sex from a machine. Rather than Sarek. Or Amanda.

His eyeshadow is a lot more subtle this season. (I know this is just the makeup team learning how to do makeup for tv but I’m going to assume it’s a choice.)

Chekov is so smooth lol.

PAV.

Can’t believe Chekov literally taught the aliens sex.

“Killing is a thing to do.” Well I mean... you’re not WRONG.

I think McCoy has a point that it is creepy and weird for a machine to control an apparently intelligent race so utterly that it can teach them how to kill without also teaching them what killing means, essentially turning them into mindless killing machines.

Like, Spock is up on his high horse about them becoming more human by learning how to kill and I guess technically that’s something they wouldn’t have learned but for the Enterprise interference but... it doesn’t come from them pulling away from the machine. It’s not that the machine spell is broken and the first thing they learn to do is kill. The machine taught them that FOR ITS OWN PURPOSES. Not even the murder is a choice.

“They exist to serve a machine.”

“They should have the opportunity of choice.”

I can’t believe Kirk can outright carry Spock. He’s gotta be heavy. (Also...injury 3?)

“Put them in the hut. They’re in time out.”

Poor Jim... feeling guilty again. "I had to follow orders...always orders." But he's a rebellious person who doesn't care about rules right???

Oh no, the aliens are escaping! “Get back in there. No. Back in there.” (That’s actual dialogue btw.)

I find it weird that they still have phaser power. Weren’t they diverting everything but life support?

Poor hungry Vaal.

Honestly, I do feel bad for them. This is a really sad situation in a lot of ways. Also, awkward. Like...not even going to explain kids to them? Just let them figure it out? That’s actually nighmarish in my opinion.

The ending is really awkward imo because the last bits of triumvirate dialogue usually do simplify the week’s adventure, which I get, but this one defies simplification, and so literally painting Spock as the villain for holding the opinion that didn’t win the day--especially when his metaphor is apt and Kirk IS the devil in it--seems very mean, not within the realm of casual friendly joking that they usually do.

Apparently Den of Geek compared this ep unfavorably to Return of the Archons, which I actually think is one of the weakest eps of S1 and not as good as The Apple. I think part of it is that the dialogue and adventure of The Apple is preferable to me, though I guess one could argue that Archons had a more evolved and interesting alien society, who were in a position to have opinions about their computer overlord. But it also had weird unexplained stuff like the purge or what-have-you, and my overall memory of the ep is that it didn’t really come together. One could argue The Apple doesn’t either, but in my opinion what it leaves open are more questions of world building than basic facts. Perhaps a splitting of hairs. Because the aliens in The Apple don’t (can’t) have opinions, I think the moral question is more complicated and defies a good solution.

Whether or not the Enterprise should have interfered with the Feeders of Vaal is a complicated question I think.

First of all, as it actually worked out, they had to in order to free themselves. But that makes me wonder...why were they there? Kirk is upset with himself in this ep for losing 3 officers and putting his ship in danger, more than interfering with the culture, but he IS upset with himself and I think it’s because his instincts were right, and he didn’t listen to them. The mission isn’t important. It isn’t worth everything that happened, to be honest.

So I’m uncertain about why Starfleet sent them on it. They’re not just there to look around an uninhabited planet or the uninhabited parts. They’re there to make contact with the people--which means they know there are people there! And like in one sense this isn’t weird, right, because the Enterprise’s mission is one of exploration--to make new friends for the Federation. But I feel like they should really only be seeking out relationships with aliens who are ready for them. You can’t beam down onto a planet of people who haven’t heard of space travel and NOT interfere with them. That’s interference! So you’d have to do some surveillance first. So either the Enterprise/Federation didn’t do that surveillance or they misjudged what they were seeing.

Of course, a society can not itself have space travel and still be open to alien visitors (like the Organians). So maybe they determined the Feeders of Vaal were in this category. And then I would think the role of the Federation vessel would be to determine if their society is the kind that the Federation could establish some kind of diplomatic relationship with. In my opinion, if it hadn’t been for the danger to the Enterprise, the correct thing for the Enterprise to do would be to leave the Feeders of Vaal and report back that they aren’t a suitable race for the Federation to ally with in any way, because their values aren’t the Federation’s values: they don’t think independently. I don’t think it’s the place of the Federation to MAKE their values match but I do think it’s fair to judge others by your core values, because they’re CORE values for a reason.

In other words, I do think it’s fair for McCoy to judge the Feeders of Vaal harshly and to think it’s wrong in some objective sense for intelligent humanoids to live with no history, no love, no families, no purpose, no creativity, no innovation, and no independent thoughts. I mean that’s pretty awful in a lot of ways!! Again, I think the ease with which Vaal turns them into weapons is very chilling. Because they lack so many basic concepts, they’re extremely malleable. That’s gross.

But Spock is right too... They do have a society that works. Their planet is beautiful, they have enough to eat and drink, they’re peaceful, and they seem happy, to the extent that they can be happy. They can’t die, they’re in good health, and they’re protected from all natural dangers.

Also, the Enterprise really doesn’t know what their society used to be or how they ended up with this version of a society. So when they kill Vaal and undo all of that, they don’t really know what they’re returning the people too. I think it’s irresponsible to just say ‘you’ll figure it out.’ And it is arrogant, to assume it just will work out, and what they’ll build now will be better than what they had with Vaal. The culture has been pretty clearly decimated by Vaal and so perhaps none of them can even recall what it used to be like. (I think this is an open question.. they don’t know “kill” or “sex” or “love” or “children” but they can refer to a “dark time” so....do they remember the details of the dark time??) But generally speaking, people tend to be experts in themselves. And so perhaps no one is an expert because the information is just lost, but certainly in no case are Kirk and McCoy experts.

In other words, someone built Vaal for a reason. He’s a machine so he didn’t just come to be. So the question is who built him and why? It’s possible that it wasn’t this society at all. I mean, there could have been another society who built Vaal and then died, and then these people took over. But I think the more likely explanation is that they built Vaal themselves, or, possibly, their parents built Vaal for them as children. Given that Vaal seems to have a lot of power over the physical planet--the killer plants, the lightning from the sky--that McCoy mentions that the computer protects them from the harmful rays of the sun, and that the people specifically praise Vaal as being the one who gives them food and “provides” for them, I think their paradise of a planet, without the computer, was probably very harsh. Kirk says it’s not so hard to gather fruit and Spock points out the good qualities of the soil but what if these things really do COME FROM Vaal and now, without the computer, they go away?

I’m not sure how the people came to be so dependent on Vaal or to have lost so much of whatever advanced culture they must have once had to create a computer like this (again, assuming it was them...). Maybe they had to spend so much time “feeding” Vaal that they forgot everything else. Maybe Vaal realized on its own that it couldn’t support a population any bigger than this and so forbid sex and reproduction. Maybe the turning point was in the attachment of the antennae, when the computer ceased to serve the people but to be served by them. But my point is that I think the computer was not created to for the purpose of people serving it, so much as it was created for some other unknown purpose and the society the Enterprise encountered was an accidental unintended long-term consequence of its actual purpose. And I don’t find this hard to believe, given both the sketchiness of AI (it does not think like humans!!!!!! very scary!) and the general inevitability of unintended consequences.

I think this ep is pretty relevant to today specifically because its unanswerable core question--how does a freedom-loving society react to a society that choose not to be free? can it respect another’s choice not to have choices anymore?--is similar to a common question floating about now: can a tolerant society tolerate intolerance itself? (The answer to that is no, and I feel like it might be no to the first question too, when phrased that way...and yet the interventionist attitude of the Enterprise makes a lot of people, including me, uncomfortable!!)

Not having context for why the society chose this or became this way really makes it much harder to judge Kirk’s actions imo. Like I was thinking about how powerful our machines are now. What if we somehow evolved to mindlessly serve them, and then thousands of years on, aliens came in a space ship and freed us? Would that be morally wrong of the aliens? I don't think so. I wouldn't want that for my future self. But from the aliens' perspective, we chose that life and so maybe it's wrong to free us. Like I think Spock's pov is basically dependent on this being chosen BY them. But eve if it was...how long ago was it chosen? If they themselves can no longer remember or in any way identify with or even explain the original choice, does it still hold?

I think there are some indicators that this society isn’t satisfied being the Feeders of Vaal. Vaal tries very hard to keep outsiders out (the flowers, the lightning, etc.). But the people are curious. They follow the newcomers and spy on them. They’re friendly and welcoming. They see Chekov make out with his girlfriend for about 10 seconds before they start wanting to do it, too. They seem to do literally nothing but feed Vaal and occasionally dance (?). But they were once smart enough to build this whole machine (I assume). Maybe they ARE bored in stagnation.

I wonder if Spock’s defensiveness of this society comes in part from being a Vulcan serving with humans. McCoy thinks it’s just inherently wrong for humans to give up their autonomy in service to a machine, and he doesn’t ever think about why they might have done that. But he ALSO thinks it’s wrong or at least weird for Spock to live his life ruled by logic rather than emotion, and he rarely thinks about WHY Vulcans do that: because without logic, they’d be so violent they’d risk destroying themselves. Maybe that puts Spock in a better position to think about their REASONS for Vaal: because they value peace and prosperity and health more than autonomy and creativity and innovation, perhaps, or because without Vaal they would not be able to survive any more than he believes Vulcan could have survived without the Reformation.

Anyway that’s a lot of thoughts! I think I got everything. I’m very tired now and must rest. I’m in service to my own Vaal tomorrow.

Next up is The Doomsday Machine, which I have seen, but don’t remember at all.

#star trek tos #the year 2021 #2021: star trek #2021: fandom thoughts #there's a lot of meta in this post and i am proud of it

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Eeeeeeeeeee! I love tgia SO MUCH❤️ Any chance of more Renfri and Renfri&Yennefer? 🥺 The parallels on chapter 11 were f***ing amazing. (Thank you for writing the alive!Renfri we all deserved)

Renfri and Yennefer definitely get more scenes together! However, I do fear I’m setting up some of my readers for failure oops. Renfri/Yennefer as a couple isn’t going to happen within the scope of tgia for a few reasons

PUTTING THIS UNDER THE CUT, plus a little tgia snippet from the next chapter, because i have never been accused of being concise in my life

Honestly? They might have slept together at some point when Geralt and Yennefer were on the outs. They’re both very attractive individuals, danger and almost dying clearly gets Yennefer fired up, and Renfri has been known to make questionable sexual choices when it comes to Very Dangerous Individuals. So their relationship probably does include some flirting, some pushing of boundaries, some erotic subtext where Renfri has at least once put her sword under Yennefer’s chin and tilted it up

But when it comes to an actual relationship, Renfri at least is smart enough to put her foot down. They’re fine as rivals-friends-frenemies, but Renfri has some serious trust issues. Especially with mages. Especially with brotherhood mages. Yennefer knows Stregobor. She might not like him, but they belong to the same order.

And then there’s the big thing between them: Yennefer wants kids. She wants, desperately, to be a mother. This is tied into her whole desperation for unconditional love thing she has going on. Renfri? Does not want kids. Absolutely against them. If she somehow gave birth tomorrow, that kid would be either adopted out or in Jaskier’s care quicker than you could say “curse of the black sun”. It’s not even that Renfri doesn’t like kids. She’d be a great weird-aunt-who-gives-an-8-year-old-a-real-sword-as-a-present. But Renfri does not want to be responsible for a child’s life and health and safety.

There are other little things. I love comparing and contrasting Renfri and Yennefer in tgia honestly because it’s so much fun? Yennefer was born a peasant and clings desperately to the power and prestige her magic affords her. Renfri was born a princess and cast it aside with pride so that she could be as unladylike as she pleased. Both of them knowing that power means sacrifice. It’s a gilded cage to be sure, but it’s still a cage. Yennefer was willing to make the sacrifices and change herself to gain power while Renfri ran. Granted, Renfri ran for many reasons but let’s be real, tgia!Renfri wouldn’t have stuck around to be married off and shuffled away to a quiet corner of the kingdom, out of sight out of mind.

Renfri was a princess, but her father was a King with male heirs. No matter what parallels I draw, her situation was vastly different from Princess Pavetta, sole heir of Queen Calanthe. And even then, even then with circumstances giving her great importance and a parent in power who should have been sympathetic to her plight, Pavetta was still a pawn on a board who was expected to marry a man she did not love for a political match and then become a background trophy. But even so, Pavetta would always have been Queen and the keeper of her bloodline, and so retained at least some power. Until she produced an heir of course, after which she would have become... less important to keep alive.

Renfri on the other hand? After Jaskier’s birth, she’s a spare. Jaskier is the male heir, and so he got to leapfrog over Renfri in the inheritance. Renfri is officially a bargaining chip, one that doesn’t even have to be compromised with because she is not going to be running the country. As best she could maybe hope to strike a political match with a prince and become a queen of somewhere not her homeland, with little power and easily replaceable. But Stregobor claimed Renfri had internal mutations, ones that might make her sterile, and so as a bride she would be... undesirable to say the least, except perhaps as a bride to a widower who already had heirs to follow him and needed no more. Perhaps to a second son who needed a bride but whose family tree needed no new branches. Which means she would likely be married off to a man, possibly very much her senior, probably not a King but perhaps a Lord (or lord’s son) currently in the king’s favor. This choice would have been made for her, and she would have been expected to accept her new position with grace.

Yennefer’s father sold her away as well. Yennefer’s father struck a financial deal. Renfri’s father’s deal would have been political in nature, likely. Yennefer was bargained away to the brotherhood, Renfri would have been bargained away to a man.

(me, loudly: what about the implications of a mage organization comprised of all genders being called the brotherhood.)

Renfri and Yennefer each have. A lot of issues. A lot of these issues would make then incompatible for a longterm relationship. Renfri needs someone she can feel safe with, and that someone is never going to be a brotherhood mage, even if it could even be a mage at all. Yennefer needs someone who loves her unconditionally, who places her first, always. She needs to be someone’s first priority. That doesn’t necessarily have to be a romantic relationship mind you, but either way that person can’t be Renfri. For Renfri, her first priority is Jaskier. Always. Just like Jaskier’s first priority will always be Renfri.

(He loves Geralt, he does, but if Geralt was his first priority then he would have told him about his sister long ago. Geralt is important to him, and he would move heaven and earth for the Witcher, but his sister is the only family he dares to claim and he defeated death itself in her name.)

Yennefer and Renfri both have serious control issues as well. Yennefer has literally mind controlled Geralt before, has manipulated him, and keeps him on his toes. She has this need to be in control, and for the most part Geralt is fine with following where she leads, and that makes her feel safe with Geralt. Up to and until she finds out that Geralt’s wish might be the reason why she loves him, and then all of a sudden it isn’t her in control, it’s some untamable uncontrollable magic, and she absolutely flips her lid. She’s furious! She feels betrayed! All this time she thought she was in control, but then she finds out that Geralt tied their fates together or whatever.

(Thankfully, this isn’t an issue in tgia, but Yennefer also doesn’t exactly love Geralt in tgia so much as she loves being loved. Their major conflict in tgia is probably going to be about children, honestly, because Geralt sure as fuck doesn’t want any.)

Renfri? Also would very much need to be in control of a relation. Maybe especially the sexual aspects of it considering her trauma involving that. She’s pretty, and that hasn’t done her any favors. She bristles under restrictions and has broken the door of every cage people have tried to shove her into, including death though she had a little bit of help from Jaskier breaking out of that one. She’s protective, and secretive, and has trust issues a mile wide. She never even tells people her name. Every piece of personal information is carefully controlled. And who can blame her for her trust issues a mile wide? She was assaulted when she was fifteen. At least one man she willingly lay with literally murdered her the morning after (thanks Geralt). Renfri has issues with intimacy.

So yes, while I love throwing them in scenes together and I love their snarky terrible friendship where Yennefer proposes they do something terribly dangerous and Renfri is like “...i mean i GUESS i’ll go.” unless she has a prior commitment OR it conflicts with her primary motivation of protecting Jaskier (getting too close to Geralt threatens this purpose), they won’t be getting together in the scope of the fic

which i hope people won’t be too disappointed by oof

sorry for writing you a whole essay about Renfri and Yennefer when you probably did not want it lmao, as you can see this has been pressing on my mind and tumbled about more than a little bit.

(honestly though if Pavetta hadn’t been married to Duny and hopelessly in love with him, I might have shipped her and Renfri tbh. They had plenty in common, Pavetta had magic and would have been powerful enough to defend herself but wasn’t a brotherhood mage, they got along well and had inside jokes, the only thing standing in the way of that ship (besides Duny and. you know. the whole death thing) is that Renfri wouldn’t be too keen on becoming a queen/having to deal with shithead nobles again and the whole issue of Stregobor. But Renfri is a princess of a royal bloodline, was raised to be royalty with knowledge of court customs, and is a trained and blooded warrior. Let’s be real, Calanthe would have loved Renfri as a daughter-in-law. Renfri is exactly the ruthless sort of heir Calanthe would adore. There would be the issue of an heir of course, but as long as Pavetta was the one pregnant it wouldn’t be a big deal because Pav’s the one with the important bloodline to carry on.)

ANYWAY you have been very patient with me so here is a tiny Yennefer and Renfri snippet from the next chapter -

As soon as they’re alone, Renfri turns to Yennefer. “I’m going to kill you for this. One day. Sleep with one eye open, Witch.”

“Come now,” Yennefer teases, “It can’t have been that bad.”

“I genuinely can’t tell if he’s criminally stupid or just ignoring the obvious.” Renfri hisses, “I’m carrying a sword. What kind of handmaiden beheads a bandit?”

“A very loyal one.” Yennefer offers, but she’s trying way too hard to keep a straight face and Renfri can see the smile she’s doing her damnest to contain.

“You’re lucky I didn’t kill him in his sleep the fourth time he started extolling your virtues for taking an ‘unpolished peasant’ under your wing.”

That makes Yennefer break face and give a most unladylike snort that she covers with one dainty hand. “You know,” She says, laughter still in her voice, “I wouldn’t need him if you just agreed to go with me.”

“If this is you trying to annoy me into going on an adventure with you, the answer is no.” Renfri immediately states. “Need I mention the last time you talked me into going monster hunting for you? There was a fucking manticore nest, Yennefer.”

“You enjoyed yourself, admit it.” Yennefer smiles with a flip of her hair.

Renfri presses her hand together and then presses them to her lips like she’s about to start praying for Yennefer to get some sense in her empty, empty head. “You are literally insane. You know that right? Stark raving mad.”

#tgia commentary #the witcher #tgia #to grow in adveristy #tgia snippet #tgia spoiler #renfri and yennefer are weird rival bros and that's all they shall have to be unfortunately #renfri disapproves of yennefer's dragon fighting companion #renfri: you aren't a bard yennefer you can't just fuck your way out of problems #yennefer: i CAN and i WILL #i do love comparing and contrasting them though #the noble who cast abandoned her birthright #and the peasant who clawed her way into power #yennefer #renfri #sorry to everyone shipping them in my fic #i gave it a lot of thought!!#but it ain't happening #in the scope of my fic that is #y'all can decide i'm being dumb and headcanon what y'all wish #or write aus where they get together i don't mind #where's my poly renfri/pavetta/duny v relationship #renfri and duny only tolerating each other for pavetta's sake but also like. kicking each other under the table #when they think she isn't paying attention #(she is)#renfri: this is my gf pavetta and unfortunately this is her bf duny #duny: you're right but hey #everyone else: i ship yennefer and renfri in your fic!!#me: we can go more obscure

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sauveteen · 5 years

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my fav shawnblr couples | 1

not be like... a fangirl. but i’m a fucking fangirl. fight me.

anyway, it’s been so long since i’ve done a rec list (have i ever done one?) and ~i’m quirky~ okay i’m not a basic bitch! so i compiled a list of my fav couples from my fav fics on shawnblr, based on their dynamic, their banter, the ease between the two, the whole deal. this is more an appreciation for writers than it is a rec list for readers, but honest to god, i recommend each story on this list so, so much. n e ways. lettuce begin.

[fair warning, i’ve read these fics spaced over.. 8 months, so my reviews are going to be hella rusty. stay with me, please]

lilly and shawn from like the back of my hand by @harryandmolly

absolutely, utterly, heart wrenchingly pretty. lilly is probably one of the first OCs that i fell in love with. in my head, she’s the prettiest girl to ever exist, thank you! the way lilly and shawn fall together so.. easily. i literally read this so, so long ago, but there’s still some scenes that’re stuck in my head. when they’re sitting together at the pool party? the day the AC is broken and they’re tangled together on bed? her strong legs? the day she makes out the trip to see him and they go to a football match? all of this happened, right? or was this just a fever dream? i fucking hope not. also, did i mention how much i love how they’re best friends first, lovers second? holy shit.

alisha and shawn from your favourite colour under the light / bring heaven to you by @shawnjpeg

i don’t there are words for how much i fucking adore shalisha. i love how.. casual their relationship is, i love how they go from friends to random sex to closeted lovers to finally, finally lovers. i love the relationship alisha shares with shawn’s family, how shawn’s family knows her family. i love how he always tells it to tell her like it is, because honesty and communication are things they can never compromise on. and their banter? shit, need me someone like that, please. she cooks pav bhaji for him and packs it for fucking tour because that’s how much she loves him-- cooking bhaji is no joke, okay? also also also he calls her lia and also the one time that he called her flower, devanshi knooooows how much that fucked me up oh my GOD. and when she called him starshine!!!!! that’d be so fucking cheesy if it wasn’t for shalisha, sorry not sorry. also i love... the maturity? when alisha is upset because of work and shawn doesn’t only reassure her, but also tells her that she could be working harder (i can’t fucking remember if devanshi posted this one shot or if it’s just something she shared with me and never finished writing but i’m going to exploit this friendship nevertheless.) also the time on the pier when they’re fighting but it’s so. calm? like it’s angsty, but again, it’s mature? ALSO. ALISHA’S FASHION SENSE. I REST MY CASE. [side note: raul. okay. i’ll shut up now]

y/n and shawn from fake it till you make it by @mend-es

i’m so tired of sucking berry’s dick. but like. literary genius. i’m not sure if i can call them a couple (yet?), but the whole relationship? the banter? how fucking stupid the two of them are? *chef’s kiss* they compliment each other so, so well. when they’re eating yogurt at his dorm, when they’re ‘practicing kissing’ at hers. i love how clumsy and dorky shawn is, and how obvious it is that they’re meant to be. i hate how long we have to wait for those fuckers to actually realise!! just kiss you dumbasses or square up!!!

her and shawn from a certain time and place by @shawnscheekscar

my new favourite fic series!!! i love how stupid the two of them are, apart and together. how they’re sleeping together and they almost said i love you (yes, i see you with your fucking cliffhanger, i’m gonna kill you) but they’re still so much like.. the best of friends? if that makes sense? i love how their humour compliments each other’s (what is this english truly). sometimes, during the morning after, shawn is hesitant but she makes it so comfortable for him. they spend the day together after sleeping together. are you guys seeing the same level of comfort that i am? also, let’s not forget the cereal killer and julias ceaser dressing costumes, please. absolute genius.

jo and shawn by @particularrose (she deactivated but if P’s not on this list, then the validity of it shall be rendered null and void, so, this is an honourable mention)

jo and shawn will always, always be my favourite couple. i cannot count the amount of times i’ve wished for people to find actually love like that, tbh. shawn deserves love like that!! i love how strong, beautiful and intelligent jo is. this series of blurbs was so beautiful because it was so realistic. the way P tackled the entire aspect of shawn’s fame, the social media, the travelling and the touring, absolutely all of it. how jo tackled all of that, as well. the one piece that stuck with me in particular was the rolling stone (?) article. their entire relationship was laid out in the best way in that blurb, and the journalism style of writing was impeccable. (also, if anyone is in contact with P, tell her she’s so dearly missed)

anyway. this is part 1. i have the attention span of a cockroach. making part 1 took me 7 fiscal years and a quarter. stay tuned for more terribly worded rec lists from yours truly.

#shawn mendes #shawn mendes fanfiction #13/10 rec #rec list

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notebookist · 5 years

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studyblr tag game!

thank you to @noteworthys for tagging me!! (つ´∀｀)つ i’m new to the community and this is my first tag game. i’m EXCITED lesgOOOO

rule: tag 21 people & answer the things below

nickname: di! my name, diya, only has 4 letters so. this is the best we can do (ｰｰ;)

star sign: aries sun, sagittarius moon (totally did not just look up my moon sign on one of those online calculators. nope i am very well informed abt astrology!!!!!)

height: i’m 5′4. okay, maybe 5′3 and three quarters. or maybe just 5′3. MOVING ON TO THE NEXT QUESTION.

last film i watched: hobbs & shaw is the last full movie i saw (my boyfriend and our friends wanted to see it. the things we do for love, amirite?) but more recently the bf and i started (re)watching the netflix fyre festival documentary, because it’s absolutely sad/hilarious, and every time someone refers to ja rule as “ja” it adds a year onto my lifespan

favorite musician: drake (#noshame), lorde, hozier (SAME ZI!!!!), mitski, father john misty, lana del rey, florence + the machine, cardi b, ratatat, arcade fire, && beyonce! (ok i know this question asked for one person but it’s Hard)

song stuck in my head: night shift by lucy dacus. do you like songwriting so twisting and accurate it feels like a gut punch? listen!

other blogs: LMAO i have an animal crossing blog, used to run a themed confessions blog, and had an old personal blog as well. but let’s leave the past in the past ;)

do i get asks: rarely! hit me up with anything!! lessbe friends!!!

following: 344

what i’m wearing rn: tiny PJs, because the room i’m subletting does noT have air conditioning（πーπ）

dream job: i can’t think that far ahead tbh. i would love to study at a clinical psychology phd program. but one step at a time here :P

dream trip: JAPAAAAANNNNNN

instruments: used to study piano, but i was 5 years old and the only thing i now remember is my instructor looking at me disappointedly......

languages: english, telugu, basic french, and i’m going to learn portuguese this year!!

fave food: pav bhaji (a delicious indian food~ you should try it if you haven’t!!)

favorite song: copying noteworthys and listing my top spotify songs because i can’t pick!

1. francis forever - mitski 2. only son of the ladiesman - father john misty 3. paper bag - fiona apple 4. no children - the mountain goats 5. six feet under - the weeknd 6. would that i - hozier 7. hallelujah - rufus wainwright 8. i do - cardi b ft. sza 9. off to the races - lana del rey 10. 400 lux - lorde

random fact: my knees are covered in scars. some are boring, like from when i fell down while (trying) to take up jogging. some others are more exciting, like when i fell off a bar trying to lick the ceiling (rip)

tag, you’re it! (or if you’re not super into these, that’s totally fine too): @popcorn-studies @tmedic @clabujo @diaryofastemstudent @lexxi-studies @knightlystudies @peachesstudyy @nervouscuddles @leberceaudeslucioles @cursed-coffee @intrastudies @milknstudies @bujoie @parallel-living @studytako @medlivin @medusa-studies @skulstudy @lantern-hill-studies @tealover-studyblr @elisstudies

#THANK U FOR TAGGING ME ZI U ARE SO COOL AAAA #tag game

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mcalhenwrites · 6 years

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A-Z Tag Game

Rules - Answer all questions and tag 10 blogs you want to get to know better

I was tagged by @hashi-cat

A - Age: 32, but I turn 33 on June 5 so I’ve already been saying 33

B - Birthplace: Kansas

C - Current time: 11:32 PM

D - Drink you last had: Water

E - Easiest person to talk to: Phi

F - Favourite song: Lately I’ve been jamming more often to “Follow the Nightingale” by KOKIA, which is from the best Tales game opening in existence tyvm (secondplace being Eternia’s with “Flying” by Garnet Crowe...which I’ve also been listening to a lot lately)

G - Grossest memory: I’ll be kind and not repeat any of the things I see that are gross

H - Horror yes or horror no: YES...but I’m picky about it. I think the only genre I’m more picky about is scifi, and that’s because I generally hate scifi save for a handful of exceptions

I - In love?: No, honestly I’m not sure I even know what that is or would recognize it if it happened

J - Jealous of people?: Rarely. I’m more of the envious type than jealous type. I don’t have much to take or people whose time I want to monopolize (ew, I’d hate myself if I was like that), but I have so many things I wish I had that others do - particularly when people have their own places and financial comfort to splurge sometimes or travel.

L - Love at first sight or should i walk by again?: I need to be good friends and even then...I’m not sure I’m ever going to have anything more than just friends. I am there for life as a friend (and friends are family!), but tbh I avoid commitments otherwise.

M - Middle name(s): René

N - Number of siblings: a younger brother

O - One wish: That I made enough to be financially comfortable and buy some nice things and own a nice house with cats! (And maybe have enough property and money that my mom and brother could live in an apartment above the garage or something, and we’d share a yard! But still have space from one another. And room for friends to stay with me if they need to!) Basically: being financially comfortable enough that I never have to worry if I take in a momma cat and her litter of kittens and keep ALL OF THEM!

P - Person you called last: ...I don’t even remember

Q - Question you are always asked: I don’t know

R - Reason to smile: animals, nature, friends, good games, good comedy

S - Song you sang last: “Third Eye” by Tool

T - Time you woke up: idk, 9:30 PM? Haven’t been up long. Tempted to go back to bed, I can’t seem to wake up :(

U - Underwear color: black

V - Vacation destination: Lately I’ve wanted to go back to Oregon, especially because I think it would be a good place to write! And I’ve been thinking about other U.S. destinations, like Nebraska and New Jersey. I am going with “vacation” because if I went to, say, Belgium, I’d hope it was a one-way ticket with a VISA, and I wouldn’t want to come back! :’D

W - Worst habit: Picking at my own skin (mainly face and legs), trying to talk to people knowing damn well I’m annoying, letting my brain demons win

X - X-rays: Nope, surprisingly. (I have had dozens of fucking ultrasounds, tho! Not fun!)

Y - Your favourite food: pav bhaji~

Z - Zodiac sign: Gemini Tagging @yume-x-hanabi, @iseliadragonwill, @bermudaprincexlena, @erythe, @charnelwitch, @punky-thera

#mcalhen nonsense

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themastaralex · 11 months

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Spiderverse tweets pt.2

Tbh hobie is pretty much not present cause idk what he would say in most of these situations,

BTW I will be saying some stuff in the future about Mexicans which could be taken as demeaning, so, just to make sure, I'm confirming rn that I'm Mexican, just so no one gets too mad

#gwen stacy #miles morales #pavitr prabhakar #miguel o'hara #peter b parker #gwen stacy x reader #hobie brown #you and gwen are giving enemies to lovers #you and miles share one braincell #you and miles are so crazy together #tbh you and pav are best friends #you

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spooky-gadreel · 7 years

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okay so for the latest ask meme I'm gonna ask sem, lizzie, alex, and pav??

SEMYON

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: he will literally?? fight and tooth and nail and lay down his life for his friends like?? once you’ve got him on your side you’ve got him for good unless you fuck it up like sOMEONE DID, MARCELLA JONES.worst quality: is it his temper?? is it his inclination towards self-destructive behavior? is it his recklessness???? wHO KNOWS!!!ship them with: ALEKSEI PETROVICH RYKOV. brotp them with: Lemony Hunt ( © @carnivalbearsetfree ) needs to stay away from: JESSICA GARNER JFCmisc. thoughts: LITERALLY HE’S SO ??? i love him so much he’s so clever and he always thinks he’s so dumb in comparison to alex but he’s nOT and i’m uPSET

ELIZAVYETA

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: her compassion, hands down. she has this really black and white way of thinking, and sometimes that’s Not Good, but her compassion is every present, and tbh it really drives most everything she doesworst quality: her naivety is probably her worst quality because there are a lot of things she really doesn’t understand?? but she tries to act like she does and that usually leads to her doing stupid stuff to try and prove herself ship them with: Tate Askel and Semyon and Arabella Darrellbrotp them with: Mallory Milligan, Tiana Wu, Arabella, the rest of the gangneeds to stay away from: her mother, definitely. Nemesis would not be a good influence on her.misc. thoughts: my sweet sunbeam child i love her more than anything in the whole wide world she has so much love in her heart i cry

ALEKSEI

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: his perseverance; you can stick pretty much any obstacle in his path and he won’t give up until he finds a way to solve itworst quality: he has this tendency to say things that sound really arrogant and self-righteous without meaning to, and that’s probably his worst quality. that or his pride.ship them with: Lemony Hunt, and Semyon brotp them with: he doesn’t have friends??? literally sem and lem and lizzie are his… only friends…needs to stay away from: his studies, for a few hours. please?? please take a break son.misc. thoughts: he’s literally the only character i have of mine that i haven’t hated at some point i love him so so so so s o much!!!! he’s my son!!!

PAVLOV

#answered memes #[ trouble incarnate ]#[ memento mori ]#[ memento vivere ]#birdfrenchforbird

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eat-travel-live-repeat · 4 years

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A Foodie’s Guide to Bir Billing – The Paragliding Capital of India

Bir is a town situated in the west of Joginder Nagar Valley in the state of Himachal Pradesh in northern India. Now popular as the “Paragliding Capital of India“, Bir is likewise a prominent centre for ecotourism, spiritual studies and meditation. Bir is also home to a significant Tibetan refugee settlement with severable known Buddhist Monasteries . While Billing is the take off site for paragliding and Bir is where the landing site is; collectively it is referred to as “Bir Billing”.

In the past few years, Bir has become quite popular with the travellers, specially with those who are living the Digital Nomad Life. Popular hostel chains such as Zostel, The Hosteller, The Bunker etc have opened up properties in Bir, catering to the demand of the growing travellers, and likewise the Cafe culture has also grown and developed in the past 2-3 years.

A lot of creative minds, who chose to escape the city life and move to the mountains, have made Bir their home now! And the fact that there are direct buses plying between Bir and Delhi on a daily basis, has contributed significantly in the growth of tourism in the Paragliding Capital of India.

All these factors have made Bir Billing not only a popular Weekend Getaway destination, but also one of India’s growing Digital Nomad Hotspot.

I was fortunate to have spent around 2 weeks in March 2020 (Before Coronavirus aka COVID – 19 was declared an Pandemic by WHO), in Bir Billing, getting High on Himalayas, with a bunch of amazing people, and trying out different dishes to Eat in Bir Billing, on a daily basis, which helped compile this Bir Billing Food Guide, which mainly highlights what’s special to Eat in the different cafes and restaurants in Bir Billing.

These places have been listed in chronological order, with respect to their location, as you walk from Choughan Chowk towards Landing Site in Bir.

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Steamed and Fried Momos – Ram Bahadur Cafe

If you have a craving Momos, there’s no place better than Ram Bahadur Cafe !

This small ordinary looking food joint, holds a special place in the hearts of everyone who stays in Bir!

They have got Vegetable / Chicken / Mutton as a filling, which can be enjoyed either steamed, or fried. And my recommendation would be the Chicken Fried Momos, with spoonfuls of the yummy spicy chutney!

PS – Their momo chutney is to die for – just yummmm!

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Thukpa and Devil Momo’s – Nyingma Restaurant

Another few steps from Ram Bahadur Cafe towards Gandhi Chowk, and you’ll find Nyingma Hotel – a bright yellow structure, on the Left side of the road.

This will look like one expensive restaurant, because of the plush interiors, but trust me, the rates are pretty economical, and the food tastes yummy.

While the restaurant serves a variety of dishes, I found the Thukpa and the Devil Momos to be the highlights at Nyingma Restaurant. And Ginger Lemon Honey tea of course.

Unlike a lot of places, where the Thukpa turns out to be either bland, or too spicy, the Thukpa here is just perfectly balanced, and pretty heavy too!

Devil Momos are basically fried momos, tossed and served in a spicy garlic gravy.

If you are looking for a place where you can chat with your friends, while having some really sumptuous food, Nyingma Restaurant is the place to be!

TBH, I found this to be one of Bir Billings hidden gems, with respect to this Bir Billing Food Guide ! You will mostly find locals here, rather than the tourists and travellers!

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Hogging on Momos in Bir, be it fried, steamed or the devil momos, will forever remain one of my Most Memorable Experiences in the Himalayas.

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Home Cooked Food – Kuckie’s Cafe

Kuckie’s Cafe deserves a special mention in this Bir Billing Food Guide !

Why ? You may ask ?

Well, ask any one who has been staying in Bir for a while, where they go to when they crave some Home Cooked food, and the answer will be unanimous – Kuckie’s Cafe !

The food served by Kuckie Aunty is simple, but yummy, and not that heavy on the pocket. The moment you step in Kuckie’s Cafe, you’ll feel as if, you’ve entered the living room of your house, and having a few words with Aunty will make you feel at home.

Whether you are looking for a quiet place to read a book, or work, or simply have a conversation – Its very easy to find a spot for yourself at Kuckie’s Cafe.

BTW if you are looking for a place to volunteer, Aunty is always on the lookout for a helping hand.

Yummy Home Cooked Food

Ghar ka Khaana

Kuckie’s Cafe

Hot Chocolate – June16

The strategic location of June16 Cafe, makes it one of the most popular and frequented cafes in Bir Billing, where travellers can be seen throughout the day, sipping a hot beverage like hot chocolate or coffee chatting with other travellers, and Digital Nomads, engrossed in their work, while sipping some yummy Hot Chocolate, which is what I would recommend you to try out as well.

Hot Chocolate @ June 16 Cafe

Vada Pav and Cutting Chai – Bombay Local

If you are craving some authentic and yummy Maharashtrian street food, such as Vada Pav and Pav Bhaji, along with the famed Cutting Chai, Bombay Local is where you should go to.

The Vada Pav is economically priced at INR 40, and will definitely take you back to the streets of Mumbai or Pune.

Vada Pav @ Bombay Local

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Pasta’s and Fresh Green Salads – Paloma Vegan Bistro

Probably the only Cafe in Bir Billing, that caters only to Vegan Food.

Paloma Vegan Bistro serves some really delectable cakes, pastas and fresh salads, which you should definitely try.

Fresh Green Salad @ Paloma Vegan Bistro

Himachali Siddu – The Northern Cafe

The Northern Cafe is one of the best places to catch the famed sunsets of Bir, with a panoramic view of the landing site in front, and the mighty Himalayas on the back.

While the food is a bit pricey here, its one of the few restaurants and cafes in Bir Billing, where you can have the traditional Himachali Siddu. Also to try are the yummy pakoras, while enjoying the sunset.

Also, if you are a Digital Nomad, and are looking for a quiet place to work, I would highly recommend you to make The Northern Cafe, as your workspace during the day, when there aren’t that many travellers present.

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Mint Ice Tea – Musafir – The Traveller’s Cafe

If you are a traveler and are interested in the Indie Music scene, you might be aware about Musicathon Bir. Musafir Cafe is where it all started!

The Mint Ice Tea is sort of a legend, and I highly recommend you try it at Musafir – The Traveller’s Cafe, while enjoying the sunset, with soft Indie Music playing in the background.

If you are an artist, you are going to love the vibes at Musafir Cafe for sure.

I’ve also heard that their chicken curry is also quite sumptuous. So if you happen to stay here post sunset, you might want to check it out.

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South Indian Food – Avva’s Cafe

Strategically located beyond the Landing Site in Bir Billing, overlooking the green terraced fields, Avva’s Cafe, serves the best South Indian Food in Bir Billing. Period.

Yes, dining at Avva’s cafe, will be a bit heavy on the pocket, but the moment you’ll have your first bite, you’ll realise, that its worth every penny.

The idlis are going to melt in your mouth, the sambar is perfectly balanced and is neither too sweet nor too spicy, the coconut chutney is something that you’ll keep asking more and more, the dosas will be crisp with just the right amount of filling. And did I forget to tell that, you’ll get Rasam with kaala chana on the house.

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Avva’s Cafe has one of the Best views in Bir Billing, from where you can see the gliders fly in the sky, all day long.

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Bnoffee Pie – Silver Linings

Another quaint cafe, famous with artists, digital nomads and the local community is the Silver Lining Cafe, just opposite Avva’s Cafe.

What usually happens is that, travellers have a heavy meal at Avva’s Cafe, and then cross the road and make their way to Silver Lining Cafe, where they just chill, connect with other travellers, and enjoy their cup of coffee!

The Bnoffee Pie along with Coffee is what I’ll recommend you to try at Silver Lining.

Bnoffee Pie @ Silver Linings

Anything and Everything – Kaafila

Tucked in the bylanes of Chaughan village, amidst bright yellow fields with the backdrop of snow clad peaks is a quaint cafe named Kaafila – from the streets of Bombay that offers you a slice of Bombay in the mountains.

From the iconic Bombay wada pav to pav bhaji and other mouth watering delicacies of mumbai street food, Kaafila serves it all.

Occasionally, you can find artistic souls creating soothing music or just leaving their footprints behind by painting a part of them on their art wall. Also, on bright sunny days they bake amazing sweet treats too giving you a complete experience of a guilty food trip filled with tons of entertainment as you connect with fellow travellers!

They also host pizza and burger nights, live sports streaming nights, BBQ and bonfire nights and gaming nights where the community of travellers meets and interacts with each other.

Musafir Cafe as mentioned above in this Bir Billing Food Guide, was previously where Kaafila, is today.

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Vegetarian Thaali – Suryansh Bhojnalaya

This is the only place in this Bir Billing Food Guide, which is not near the landing site in Bir Billing, but on the highway from Bir to Palampur. Its 4 – 5 KM from the landing site, and the best way to go there is in a cab / your own vehicle if applicable.

The speciality of Suryansh Bhojnalaya serving only Vegetarian food is the Himachali Thaali and its pretty simple and straightforward affair. The food is sumptuous, healthy, and very economical.

One Thali for INR 150, is sufficient to feed two people, if they are not that hungry.

Himachali Thali @ Suryansh Bhojnalaya

Maggi and Chai – Multiple Places

This goes without saying, that the joy of having piping hot Maggi, while sipping Chai, is an experience thats synonymous with getting High on Himalayas.

Any any trip to the mountains is incomplete, if you haven’t sipped hot Chai, and slurped the Masala Maggi, while enjoying the view of the mighty Himalayas.

Getting Maggi and Chai in the mountains, is very easy, and can be found at multiple places through out Bir Billing, but the ones where you’ll have the best experience, are literally in the lap of the Mountains, away from the town.

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redvelvetnerd · 6 years

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1-100 for the recently askme box thingy 😇

*cracks knuckles* HELL YEAH

1. Last kiss: Last night and it was Not and Ideal Situation2. Last phone call: My aunt on Wednesday, just to see how I was doing.3. Last text message: My suitemate, freaking out about the events of last night 4. Last song you listened to: “How Far I’ll Go” from the Moana soundtrack 5. Last time you cried: I… don’t remember surprisingly?

HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice: nah fam7. Been cheated on: I sure hope not8. Self harmed: yeahhhh9. Lost someone special: too many 10. Been depressed: hell ye11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 12. had sex: yeeee13. How many people have you had sex with this year?: 2 or 3 depending on what counts?15. Made a new friend: lots of them!17. Laughed until you cried: plenty of times18. Met someone who changed you: so many19. Found out who your true friends were: still doing that20. Found out someone was talking about you: YEP26. What did you do for your last Birthday: I went to Splish Splash with my friend who has the same birthday as me, and then we went for hibachi and had an awesome cake that she made!

27. What time did you wake up today: like 10:30 ish I think? 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: hanging out with my best friend tonight! 30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time: Honestly my stepsister’s wedding in August. Haven’t seen any of my siblings in person since the fact.31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nothing honestly because everything is a learning experience and even if things seem shitty, I find that I’ll look back one day and realize that everything that happened, needed to happen so I could grow and mature as a person.32. What are you listening to right now: nothing tbh. I should put some music on33. When is the last time you had sex?: depending on what counts, either a week ago or two months ago.34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now: two guys from last night - one who kissed me and now thinks we’re a thing, and the other who I thought was into me and then went “lmao I have a girlfriend” and brought her to our game night like wow fam. 35. Most visited webpage: Tungle Dot Hell36. Favorite colour: either red or purple37. Nicknames: K, KP, Kris, Kristian Pav, Kenzy, Chicken38. Relationship Status: bitterly single39. Zodiac sign: leo40. Male or female: female41. Primary school: a Christian school on Long Island42. Secondary School: same place as 4143. High school/college: high school was same place (it was a K-12 thing) and college is Stony Brook44. Eye color: Brown46. Height: 5’6 last I checked47. Do you have a crush on someone: lmao who the fuck knows48. What do you like about yourself: I’m funny sometimes, I’m a very loyal and attentive friend, and I love to help other people49. Piercings: one in each ear and that’s it50. Tattoos: none yet51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS: 53. First piercing: I was a few months old when I got my ears pierced54. First best friend: I met her in Bible camp when we were 4 and we’re still friends ❤️55. First hookup: This past September and it was. It was bad. For many reasons that I won’t get into.56. First Bestfriend: why is this here twice

RIGHT NOW: 59. Eating: nothing60. Drinking: water61. I’m about to: text my friend to see if plans are still on62. Listening to: still nothing fam63. Waiting for: MY FUCKING FRIEND TO TEXT ME ABOUT PLANS I NEED TO KNOW WHAT TIME.

YOUR FUTURE: 64. Want kids?: Probably, if I get married65. Get married?: Most likely, but not till I get my shit together66. Career: lmao who tf knows. Something with languages.

WHICH IS BETTER: 67. Lips or eyes: EYES68. Hugs or kisses: depends on who we’re talking about69. Shorter or taller: it doesn’t matter to me70. Older or Younger: again, doesn’t matter71. Romantic or spontaneous: SPONTANEOUS LIKE HELL YEAH BRING ME ON COOL ADVENTURES AT 1AM72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I really don’t care? 73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive. I don’t like loud. 74. Hook-up or relationship: RELATIONSHIPS omg I feel like a casual thing would be a Not Good idea

HAVE YOU EVER: 76. Kissed a stranger: nah77. Drank hard liquor: YE78. Lost glasses/contacts: I don’t have either 79. Had sex: Ye80. Broken someone’s heart: Probably? 82. Been arrested: no and I don’t plan on it83. Turned someone down: a LOT of times84. Cried when someone died: yes yes85. Fallen for a friend: Kinda…? I still don’t know what that was like if I was starved for intimacy or if I actually liked him

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 86. Yourself: I guess? A little? 87. Miracles: Yes! I’ve seen them88. Love at first sight: hell nah. There has to be a deep bond that builds over time and after learning about the person.89. Heaven: yes90. Santa Clause: not anymore. Not since elementary school91. Kiss on the first date: I mean I never have but I don’t see why not.92. Angels: yes!

93. How would you label yourself?: what does this mean? 94. Someone You Pray Everyday For: my sister, that she won’t grow up to be as fucked-up as I am 95. Did you sing today: yeah but in a joking kinda way because i was making a Hamilton reference because when am I not making a Hamilton reference 96. Who From All Your Ex’s have You Cared The Most About: He’s got a Tumblr so he may see this but I’m not gonna tag him. He knows who he is. Anyway, we dated the second semester of our freshman year and y’all probably saw us being gross on each other’s blogs but basically he got me in a way no one else did, and we were scarily similar in a bunch of ways and though I certainly have people I’ve known for longer, when we were together, it felt like I’d known him my whole life. We didn’t end on the most amicable terms but we’re friends now which is Good.97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: I just wanna party it up in the 20s man98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For: That one day I’ll be truly happy with where I’m at in life99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: oH YES. I go through an existential crisis every time I so much as develop a crush on someone are you kidding me100. Do you like the way you look?: sometimes. I go constantly back and forth between “I am the most beautiful creature that graced this planet” and “i am the most disgusting human alive”

THANKS ANON ILY

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