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flowering-thought · 1 year

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Hi! So I've asked a few asks on here, and am delighted to see that you've answered all of them. That really means a lot to me, and it makes me super happy and it makes feel included! I wanted to thank you, and note that I'm always looking forward to reading your writing. If you don't mind, I'd like to introduce myself as 🔮~Anon! (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

Anyways, if you have a chance, can we get some soft fluff head cannons for Makoto and Rowan with a super shy and kind darling? Like, she's self aware of her shyness so she goes out of her way to try and make them feel comfortable but ends up feeling awkward instead? 👉👈

Thank you💕~

Well HI! I'm glad I've gotten to all of your asks cause I haven't gotten to all the asks in my inbox tbh. And I'm glad to welcome another anon so welcome 🔮!!

And so Makoto and Rowan with a shy darling hm? I'll do Rowan then Makoto as I kinda usually write headcannons and like characters in a specific order as to when I created them? If that makes sense? But I hope you enjoy this! Also super sorry for taking a long while to get to this!!

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WARNING - MINORS DNI

AFAB reader and reader is described as feminine and chubby/plus sized.

Yandere themes and implications of violence

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Rowan Clarke

Shy Darling Headcannons

• Rowan is a pretty outgoing person-

• He's charming and has a slightly rough way of speaking and he says things how they are.

• So when his darling is shyer and stuff he honestly can't get enough of you-

• He helps out in social situations or when you meet someone new

• Rowan will notice your shyness on the first meeting and kind of tone down how loud he is to be around since he really doesn't want to scare you off-

• But in the beginning, he fails to notice for a while that you push yourself to be a little more talkative and get a little shyer when the conversation goes quiet.

• When he notices he starts to feel guilty-

• He hates the thought of you pushing yourself to talk more, and he can't imagine the anxiety of constantly trying to come up with a topic because you feel as though he might not be comfortable with your silence.

• The next time it happens he'll bring up that you don't have to force yourself. He holds your hands gently in his and gives you that same bright smile, "Don't worry darlin' you don't have to say anything if ya don't feel like it. I love it when you're comfortable not when you're forcin' yourself to go out of your comfort zone."

• While shyness can also mean having anxiety about newer situations/people, he always tries to make it comfortable. Like if you meet his parents? He warns them beforehand to take it slow and just let you come out of your shell alone.

• He never pressures you and lets you take your time. And he loves talking with you about random things or your interests!

• And when he sees you being kind it just makes his heart melt-

• As much as he gets a little jealous at you being kind to others it just affirms his thoughts that you should only be his and that he needs to protect you.

• And if you're kind to someone who isn't too kind to you? Oh boy, he's pissed-

• He tries to steer you away from those people. Absolutely starts to get people in the town to shun those people as well. Doesn't matter if that person has been kind to him before, if they show any sort of disrespect to you they are dead to him-

• You see Rowan adores it when you're shy to others. A part of him likes to see you out of your shell of course, but that more possessive part of him wants to see you be shy around others so he's the only one you rely on.

• It's a dilemma but when he gets thoughts like those he just goes to see you and gives you hugs. Somehow that's all he needs to calm down-

• And he doesn't often try to push you out of your comfort zone unless there's an event or something he knows you might like but might be a little too much.

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Makoto Kawahara

Shy Darling Headcannons

• Makoto is kind of an introvert but an extrovert you know? Doesn't like strangers but around those he loves he's more outgoing.

• Having a shy darling is probably the most comfortable thing for him. He finds you absolutely adorable and loves to observe your habits.

• He has a mature way of talking? Something about the way he talks is just soothing and calm. It makes you comfortable and warm most of the time.

• It's not often that he tries to push you out of your boundaries as he also prefers environments and places that make him feel safe.

• He tries to prioritize your comfort as well as his. So when you and him are sitting on the couch in his penthouse, a book I'm his hand and a blanket covering both his and your lap, he occasionally looks up to find you fiddling with your phone and glancing at him nervously.

• Your small attempts at opening your mouth to form words and find a topic to talk about, until you started rambling about various topics.

• At first he found it cute, he always loves when you ramble on or go on a tangent about the things you love. But the way your eyes traveled around the room and the nervous behavior you showed made him realize you weren't doing it out of genuine interest in the topic.

• He let you finish your sentence before closing his book and giving you a soft kiss on your cheek.

• "You don't have to push yourself to find something to talk about. It's okay if we have silent moments where we are both doing something darling." He started, bringing his hand to cup your cheek.

• "Every moment, whether small or large, I want to spend with you. So never push yourself out of your comfort zone. I'll still be here at the end of the day wanting to spend every waking and non-waking moment with you." He assured, leaving another kiss on your forehead before bringing you close for cuddles.

• He doesn't mind reminding you or reassuring you if he has to when you might feel awkward or pressured to be more outgoing.

• He also warns his brothers, mostly Takeo as he's the loudest of the brothers and the most outgoing to tone it down when Makoto finally wants to introduce you to them.

• And Makoto is honestly very observant. He avoids people who may make you uncomfortable and if anyone ever bothers you? Well, let's say his grip is firm.

• Overall he sees your shyness as quite an adorable trait and finds that when you are in your comfort zone where you talk a lot or get excited about something, that is when he finds you to be the most adorable.

• He tries to keep his home comforting and welcoming just so you won't feel too out of place.

• While he does like it when it's just you and him. He knows he can't keep you from having a social life.

• If you have really close friends he lets you invite them over whenever or tries to be open if you hang out with the quite often.

• He wants you to be happy. And so long as you don't neglect him and pay attention to him he's content with just holding you in his arms for now-

#.rowan_clarke_♡#.makoto_kawahara_♡#yandere oc #yandere oc x reader #yandere x reader #soft yandere #yandere x darling #yandere imagines #chubby reader #yandere male #yandere #yandere headcanons #yandere hcs #yandere male x reader #yandere x you

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ieatsmallorphansnamedtom · 1 year

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Abigail falling in love headcanons?

Abgail Falling in Love with the Farmer Headcanons

Thank you for the request! I've never been as close to Abigail (I usually only get two years into my saves before giving up lol), so sorry if she's a little OOC. I tried my best, though.

Abigail always had an interest in you. Having lives in Pelican Town her whole life, it's no surprise she was super excited to hear a new person moving into that old farm. She spends a lot of time speculating about you and has made it her goal to be your new best friend (also it was a bet she made between her and Sam).

Of course, she is a little upset. She loved exploring the old farm alone (or occasionally with Sebastian) looking for fun critters and creatures. She's of course worried you're going to turn the place into a big corporate sellout, too. She's seen her fair share of Joja employees, and all of them (except Sam) really suck.

When you arrive though, she's relieved. Seeing you in those old overalls (or clothing completely unsuited to farming) has her knowing you can't be like the rest of them. She really wants to talk to you, but since she's Abigail she kind of stands awkwardly to the side and waits for you to approach her.

But once you do approach her, she's all over you. She takes you around town and introduces you to anyone you haven't met yet. To be honest, she's trying to get some information out of you about who you are. She trusts you, but she's Abigail, alright?

She finds herself hanging out with you more. And more. And more. And eventually she's barely even with her friends anymore. She, being pretty dense, has zero clue she's doing that. Sebastian is the first to get really annoyed about it, but he forces Sam to do the talking. Her reaction is a little like the clueless stare of the TBH creature.

However, it's after that talk that she has that 'oh no' moment. She never planned on having a crush on you. What she was looking forward to was a fun, friendly, platonic-filled buddy-buddy relationship that involved playing games and graffitiing the passing trains. Not THIS!

I imagine her to be just a tiny bit possessive. And by that, I mean I couldn't think of a better word for 'tries to hang out with you as much as possible to the point that all her friends are pissed.' That, while still trying to keep her cool girl look. Spoiler: she's not all too good at it.

It's pretty obvious she has a thing for you, but since everyone in that town is so damn dense the only person outside of the ASS Squad to notice is Gus. Gus - my buddy, my pal - is the only person to put two and two together and know that something's up. He doesn't do much about it, but once did ask Abigail to come to the saloon before opening (under the excuse of doing a few odd jobs) and gave her some advice. That advice was to

Calm down

Back off

Talk to you!

Abigail tried to follow this advice, and it went as follows:

"Hey, Y/N! I was wondering if you wanted to hang out later today - or tomorrow! Anything's good. It's embarrassing, but I still need help with that level [of the game]."

To summarise, nothing really changes! Of course, she's still trying to hang out with you as much as she can, but it was really like that from the start. Well, okay, maybe it is a bit obvious, but to the townspeople it's not. All they can assume is that Abigail's just going wild over a new friend.

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Once again, I don't know how to write Abigail. On my list of characters I am good at writing for she's right down on the bottom. That's not to say I hate writing for her (practice is good!), I'm just rusty. I hope these HCs represent her well enough. If you'd like me to write her differently in a request, just let me know! Remember to eat well, get sleep, and stay hydrated.

#ieatsmallorphansnamedtom #sdv #stardew valley #sdv headcanons #stardew valley headcanons #sdv abigail #stardew valley abigail #abigail sdv #abigail stardew valley #stardew abigail #abigail stardew #sdv abigail x reader #sdv abigail x farmer #stardew valley abigail x reader #stardew valley abigail x farmer #stardew abigail x reader #stardew abigail x farmer

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growling · 19 days

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please give us the tea on the warrior cats ships!!!

I'll go first by saying Mothpool is overhyped and Leafpool had more chemestry with Cinderpelt. (in my opinion, ship what you like!)

:3c !!! Didn't think anybody would actually ask I am gonna gonna ramble now.. Separating this into pos and neg opinions

Positive:

I did think of leafcinder before and thought it was cute but not really something I'll get passionate about (i tend to be very picky on these kinda age gap/mentor x apprentice ships), now that I'm reminded of it I can really see it! They would have a great dynamic (taking tnp cinderpelt personality into account here. tbh her in tpb and her in tnp are almost different characters to me... where's your whimsy girl...), and honestly, there are almost endless options for Leafpool ships (she interacts with so many cats woagh that's crazy for this series she actually has friends??) that have more chemistry than crowpool. I mean it's fine I guess from a strictly plot perspective (and even that's well. bendable) but why is Leafpool, 30 cat years after their breakup, dead, in cat heaven, STILL deeply in love with cat Clay Puppington. I know they will get back together in StarClan because the authors absolutely love them and think they popped off writing their romance subplot they think they created a banger. Sorry this veered off into negative can't help being a hater.

hollyjaylion, leafsquirrel and bramblehawk are the three shipcest pairings I will never be able to be normal about. Canon to me. I say this as if I'm joking but I'm serious oughhh the goddamn dynamics. On a joking note though, graysky. there is no healthy nothing to see here just bro supporting his bro explanation for whatever the hell gray wing's problem was this entire arc

spottedtiger is cool it's interesting it's mindblowing it saves lives and it's haters are sooo silly I am sorry... "but spotted is his aunt according to the family tree!!!!" ok. and is this made relevant in the books at all? do they ever even acknowledge these two as kin. It's so pointless.. draw them making out

why's the fandom turning on darktiger suddenly now because they're still related (which is not even relevant or explicitly pointed out in the books and them being related was only decided way after both of their arcs together were done I. ughhhh.) wasn't this your favourite little henchman x fascist dictator toxic yaoi ship just a few years ago?? cowards. draw them making ou- ah wait that's just dark being obsessed with tiger, who on the other hand would RATHER NOT he wants that useless lickspittle OBLITERATED he doesn't CARE

ivyhawk good she could fix him. or he can make her worse. once again the fandom are major cowards for turning on it just like they did with darktiger, but much, much more aggresively so. like you people need to calm tf down just take deep breaths it's just a warrior cat ship...

people complaining about dovetiger's age gap (which are commonplace in the wc series tiger is not alone in dating apprentices) are so boring. they actually have the most wholesome dynamic in the current era/arcs I'd argue. they're in love and I love them. as a ship and both as characters.

fallenholly had the option to be one of THE best dubiously-canon wc pairings to come out of this series had they just went the direction of making fallen actually somewhat more messed up after being trapped as a ghost in the torment tunnels for cat centuries like. I remember someone else wording this really well earlier but I'm not really gonna search so just. Yeah. fallen leaves ships.

leopardtiger is hilarious I don't care. she thinks he's sooo correct and intelligent and truly the enlightened sigma worthy of the tigerclan podcast throne while also poisoning his food because he's fucking pissing her off in their side twitter dms and plotting his demise every night while he's snork mimimi'ing next to her in their kitty political marriage cuddle pile. ben shapiro x pragerU fucking ship I hope they kill each other

mudhawk... funny... seriously WHY is the fandom picking the most interesting goddamn ships to get pissed off at and call "problematic"??????? "age gap" THEY WERE BOTH ADULTS WHEN THEY MET WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU ON LET HAWK MANSPLAIN MANIPULATE MANFUCK THAT OLD MAN

I didn't read AVoS in it's entirety (and don't want to. it's... boring for the most part. I mean I love violet but is she enough to make me keep reading all that.) and don't remember if they even had any notable interactions but violetpuddle is very cute and my favourite (and, honestly, only) option for their ships. puddle's mother suckled violet but they don't consider each other "real" siblings just like how their mother doesn't consider violet as her daughter but try telling that to the fandom who can't distinguish between wet nurse arrangement, foster siblings and adopted siblings. Proud only resident of violetpuddle nation...... literally nobody else is here...

Negative: (gonna start censoring the cat/ship names now)

so correct moth.pool overhyped and their fans annoying. and also because I headcanon moth as aroace like there is not a single romantic thought in her body I cannot ever imagine her in a relationship moth don't care.

*takes a deep breath* mouse.fur is not aroace. tall.star, raven.paw and barley aren't gay. authorial statements made 10 years ago at some con ARE NOT CANON. IF IT'S NOT IN THE TEXT IT'S NOT CONFIRMED CANON. Also the latter examples also reek of biphobia lol. you can ship any of these characters with anyone forever, what is any of you people's problem.

long.fire, shadow.root, holly.cinder, bright.cloud, jay.kestrel are boring yaaawn I am falling asleep and do not see it. same with sandfire; these two did not have the groundbreaking dynamic (nor was sand that uh, well-rounded as character) you think they did you're just nostalgic. I actually prefer spottedfire and cinderfire over sandfire. anything over sandfire.

hawk.ash pisses me off because their shippers are always "hahahaha toxic yaoi sooo fucked up they make each other worse!!" but show them an actual toxic pairing and they immediately shit themselves and call you an abuse fetishizer. COWARDS you lot are COWARDS and this is why I cannot get behind hawk.ash at all like I associate them with the most annoying people so much I cannot sorry. I'm sure it's a cool ship or whatever

I actually got tired and now am too sleepy to articulate myself properly anymore but still here are the other ships that I either dislike or just plain out hate seeing: fern.ivy, alder.needle, crow.squirrel, bristle.root, bramble.squirrel (but that's a very popular one lol), lion.cinder.

thanks for the ask! :3

#ask #mine #seweryn's wc tag

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jellydishes · 11 months

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JELLYYYYYYYY my friend my pal my brother in bite, I SEEN YA REBLOG and now I am HERE to get UP in your BUSINESS with QUESTIONs about your OCS who are ALSO MY BELOVEDS. (please)

I can't resist asking 7 and 18 about Edyiss my darling For Tsurin I absolutely need 16 and 23 And for Sorrow (asking for Tank and myself): 5, 20, and 21 And because I am perpetually curious about your marvellous creations, I'm enclosing a free space where you can pick a question you've been dying to be asked about the OC of your choice. THANK YOU I AM ENCLOSING BITE 8D

oh man you have released the kraken of ranting about characters lmao

now!! as for ed, i would bounce these questions back at the actual owner of edyiss, @pen99, but as far as my INTERPRETATIONS of edyiss hawke go for the purposes of my stories featuring her!

number 7, What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?: edyiss has more or less remained consistent since i started writing her, though she's definitely more self aware than the rough framework my initial studies for the first story would've indicated! she just doesn't like making a big deal out of it or actually changing because of it :v

number 18, Is your OC more cold and detached or up close and personal?: edyiss is a fascinating mix of both depending on context and how pissed off she is, but in general i would say she'd more up close and personal in terms of her emotional/internal reactions, while often SEEMING cold and detached

tsurin tabris!

number 16, What is your OC's pain tolerance like?: medium, as least based from the perspective of some body who regularly suffers through migraines! i think she would be much better at handling sudden and short term pain rather than chronic issues tbh, it would fuck with her intensely, which is why the lingering issues from her burn scars after fighting the archdemon are the WORST for her

number 23, What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?: i would say the hardest emotion for tsurin to process is grief, she's been struggling with it since her mother died in her early teens and it sends spiderweb cracks out into basically most of if not everything she does, while the hardest for her to express around most people is genuine affection/trust. she only really knows how to do it around family she's known her whole life. shit's tough!!

sorrow cousland/shepard!!

number 5, How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?: in terms of what he thinks is strategically sound, VERY FAR. in mass effect he sacrificed the council for instance bc he thought it just made sense while in dragon age he sacrificed isolde! in terms of personal desires, he is far less willing to pursue THINGS he wants, but in terms of RELATIONSHIPS, he is pretty intense about pursuing somebody unless it's made obvious that his affections aren't wanted

number 20, Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?: sort of! he's polyamorous in name, but he does get insecure and grumpy/withdrawn if he feels his partner(s) aren't seeing to his emotional needs in favor of somebody else, and i can easily see him getting snippy if pressed because he doesn't! want to talk about it! it's FINE!!

number 21, Does your OC have any illnesses or disorders? How do they handle it?: aside from his stutter, sorrow has tremors in his hands due to chronic pain, which is one reason he has his weapons modified so he can't drop them! though the answer you're looking for is, "never talk about it ever at all to the point that some of his companions had no idea he had chronic pain at all for MONTHS"

aaaaand for the one question! i do in fact have a song i associate with tsurin tabris from WAY BACK

youtube

#thank you for the questions :>#tsurin tabris #sorrow shepard/cousland #edyiss hawke #ask tag

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 5 months

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walks into ur inbox and sets up a big conspiracy board. hi mac :3 do u wanna hear about the hs epilogues and hs2??? well i'm gonna learn u a thing about homed stuck post canon!!!! here we fucking go

ok so idk how much of the epilogues u have read, but basically to sum it up: it was made as a way to make the fans of canon hs angry. like that's kinda the whole point. and it worked because honestly!! they are quite terrible!!! and i do like them a lot but there are a lot of things that were done in bad faith with very little care to original canon, such as: raging misogyny in the form of making jane a hashtag girlboss who sexually abused jake, jade who has no concept of sexual boundaries and was literally framed to be the girl who got in between the gay couple, and like. a lot more. so it's. very far from perfect. honestly a lot of the character writing isn't even that good

but something to keep in mind is that while yes, part of the reason a lot of it is written that way is because hussie just wanted to piss people off, there is kind of a canon reason for it??? dirk went kind of off the rails and absorbed the knowledge of all of his splinters and alternate timeline selves (which for a person who hates himself that much!!! not great!!! would drive a guy a little nuts!!!) and he got a little. bro strider-ish. very manipulative and Not Nice. and he also grabbed control over the entire narrative in the meat timeline so!!! he was just messing with people and trying to convince himself he didn't feel bad about it. sad!

and the candy timeline is controlled by alt!calliope who wanted to make the entire timeline nice and perfect and domestic, a war broke out between trolls and humans, shit hit the fan pretty bad, but the narrative only focuses on the romantic and family drama which says sooooooo much about how alt!callie views the world and these characters. she grew up obsessing over them and now can't process that these are real people who are friends with the alpha timeline version of herself and it drives me bonkers and fucking yonkers GIRL YOU ARE MESSING WITH PEOPLE YOU ARE NO DIFFERENT THAN YOUR BROTHER!!!! since ultimate!dirk absorbed the knowledge and memories of lord english through his absorption of arquiussprite he is basically lord fucking english so him and alt!calliope arguing over the timelines is literally just. two siblings who never grew up pulling their toys/friends back and forth and being upset because they can't get their own way IT'S INSANE

also the prose slaps sometimes. meat page 39 is an especially good example, like the way it capture's ult!dirk's character voice is. AAAAAAUGHJGHGH. god. the feelings of that part. the way he's clearly trying so hard not to care..... but he DOES. and you can TELL. honestly it really captures the tragedy of dirkjake so well. also candy page 14 is just. woagh. idk if you read that part but dirk dies in candy and it's just.... holyyyyy shit dude. it's a bit gorey and it is a suicide so maybe not the best part to read if you're in a bad state of mind but GOD. it just. there's something about it that somehow manages to capture dirk so well in a way. like of course his death would be self inflicted while feeling like he's doing something "right." jesus christ. i can give u links to my favourite pages if u wanna read any of em

ummm ANYWAY. hs2 is a continuation of BOTH timelines. john died in the meat timeline (sad) and got incredibly depressed in the candy timeline (also sad) but also he had a son with roxy in candy!!! his name is harry anderson and lemme tell u i love all of the kids in candy. there's harry, there's vrissy (an ecto clone of vriska adopted by rose and kanaya), tavros crocker-english (jane and jake's kid, the most tragic little guy ever tbh) and um. yiffy. yiffany longstocking lalonde-harley who was born when jade wanted a kid. i'm not gonna get into the whole ordeal of yiffy rn it was so balls to the wall insane if i explained everything i would be here all day. but also VRISKA IS THERE 🎉🎉🎉 and she is the highlight of the candy timeline lemme tell u. she's gonna end the troll/human war maybe. or maybe she'll just fuck around. who knows!!! it's vriska!!! i love her silly unpredictable swag :3

the meat timeline is where i go especially crazy because there is soooo much to analyze here in terms of prose and imagery and just. stuff in general. basically dirk and rose blasted off into space to go create a new intelligent species and introduce them to sburb and make their universe "relevant" again because something just feels Off about their current story, and they can't quite tell what it is so they're fixing it any way they can think of. also terezi tagged along because she was there when john died and she still hasn't found vriska and so she is also depressed so hey why not tag along on this death trip to the stars!!! also a bunch of others are trying to chase them down in their own spaceship, including: dave and karkat, jade, callie, and roxy (who is transmasc in the meat timeline!!!) also davekat is canon in the meat timeline and they have some lovely existential discussions about dave's immortality and karkat's mortality

anyway thats all i got for now. i feel insane about these guys and i'm hoping the new writers for hs2 can maybe improve the story a bit AND THEY ALREADY KIND OF HAVE!!! they brought sollux back, they made jake less of a punching bag and more of a character, they have vriska shenanigans, and jane is less of an Evil Girlboss and actually more of a homestuck villain if that makes sense!! AND THE ART STYLE IS BETTER TOO the hs2 style kind of devolved a bit and looked a bit terrible after a while (they might have just had new artists on at the time) but now they've got different artists!! and the guy heading it now worked on some of the original homestuck stuff!! so they're trying to slowly fix some of hussie's bad writing choices and expanding on the cool stuff that was already there!! i love hs2 it is my deeply flawed very fucked up baby :3 sorry this was so long. the demons got me u understand <3

I UNDERSTAND I UNDERSTAND. OMG THANK YOU. i actually did start reading candy/meat when they first came out (<< 17 yr old who was so so so excited for new homestuck content) and ended up. giving up on them REALLY quick. i actually got to the part where dirk died in candy and that was what made me put them down entirely bc i was SO upset . also like u said yes the way jade was characterized was so so so uncomfy for me. so those r like the two main factors that made me totally give up on meat and candy. and i kind of openly was super super mad about the epilogues for a while after that and then i realized. oh no. im a fool. im exactly the kind of person they were written to make angry HHFDBSJS. so i backed down and learned to appreciate them for what they were from a distance <3

i appreciate u SO MUCH for the deep dive bc holy shit. every once in a while i have the internal struggle of "god i miss homestuck. maybe i should go back and read the epilogues" and then i Dont hFBFSJDK . i actually do not know SHIT about hs2 in general !! i know there is. ult dirk who looks like an anime villain and i think thats great for him. aaaaand. the davekat laundry room scene which i have only seen panels for and not dialogue and i love them so much forever. and thats about the extent of my knowledge.

#IM GLAD U ENJOY THEM BC I ALSO LIKE TO KNOW EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. i am avsorbing your knowledge #i think i would like to go back and read meat and candy again some day and give them another chance #((mainly so i can then read hs2 bc thats what i care about))#but i think i need to be in the correct headspace to do that and it has never really felt like the right time i guess #unfortunately the first time i consumed them i was a super super hyper depressed lonely college freshman #and they kind of scarred me a little hBFHDJSKS #I APPRECIATE THEM NOW THOUGH.#THANKNU THANK U THANK U i love whiskey inbox time #friends!!!#asks #anachronistic-falsehood

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thephantomcasebook · 1 year

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I love the Daeron Dayne theory!

Re: And thus all of Team Green has to be bad guys in some way so that people can root for "Girl Bosses" and "People of Color" ... which as someone who is not white, I find that shit more racist than anything else.

I personally also can't wait for the optics of good bastards (the Hulls) played by black actors who stay true and loyal to team black, and evil bastards (The Two Betrayers) played by white actors who go comedic relief warlord, as well as, white girl (Jaehaera) gets murked for black 9yo beauty pageant LMFAO. Just a deeply unserious and disingenuous show. Will only be peeping the rest for the amazing performance of the team green actors tbh.

I also really like Steve Toussaint as Corlys but the show seems to not care for him beyond putting him in the role of Rhaenyra's wise wizard which comes with its own racist implications. He's a shrewd politician himself who was ready to pimp out his daughter but like everything else team black it's neither highlighted nor problematized as much as Otto/Alicent was. There's no way they're for real about that Seasnake show 😂

You joke, but I'm sure, at least before GRRM took over writing duty for Season 2, that was exactly what Spotchnik, Hess, and HBO Corporate had in mind for future seasons.

I mean it's now basically a well known fact that they tried to write Daeron out of the show, because, they didn't want Alicent or the Greens to have a heroic and moral son that is on par with Jon Snow and Robb Stark. GRRM had to fight (And fire a showrunner) to get him on the show, because, the people in Season 1 were so married to their political bullshit that they though Daeron's mere existence would spoil their racist algebra of "Team Black x Diversity + Pogressive Values = Good Guys! Team Green x White people + Catholic/Conservative Values = Bad Guys! Even in the parlance of GRRM's World that is not how things work.

Ugh, don't get me started on the Dragonseed Riders. I wish people would stop perpetuating that, somehow, they're all badasses. They fought like one battle - "The Battle of the Gullet" - in which both Aemond and Daeron were far from home. Then, they all pissed themselves when Rhaenyra tried to send them at Daeron. They literally threatened to quit, because, they were scared of Daeron and Tessarion. At Tumblestone, Hammer and Ulf shit their pants at the sight of Daeron in battle and switched sides so they wouldn't have to fight him. The only Dragonseed Rider who actually fought another Dragon was Adam Hull ... and he and Seasmoke got their asses kicked by Daeron and Tessarion - and yes, Daeron was piloting Tessarion in that battle, anyone who actually believes the maester about Tessarion doing all that shit on her own ... I got a bridge to sell you.

The only thing I looked forward too is Daeron and Hugh Hammer's rivalry. Cause Daeron really shows who he is by being Alpha as fuck going up against this jacked roid-rage rapist murderer on the biggest dragon in the world and sitting Hammer's dumb ass down every time they mix it up. I just love that the most powerful and dangerous Dragon Rider in the war is afraid of a 17 year old master swordsman who denies the Iron Throne twice and just wants his mommy back.

I mean if you polled any of the fans in 2018 everyone was saying that Daeron or Criston was their favorite character in "the Dance". It's revisionist history to say that Daemon or Corlys were popular when the book came out. I mean Daemon was GRRM's favorite and he became popular when Matt Smith took over the role - and he's damn good - but I'd argue that no one was that big a Daemon fan till Smith got cast. Daemon was a piece of shit who abandons his wife and young children to run off with an underage girl.

I do like Steve Toussaint a lot. I especially love that he and the actress who play Rhaenys are big fans of GOT and I love them together on the press tour. To be honest with you, I knew all the way back in 2018 that they were probably gonna race swap the Velaryons, because, even in the book House Velaryon stank of "Marketability" - You mean the House that is only ever mentioned in passing in ASoIaF and plays no bigger role except getting wiped out at the "Battle of Blackwater"? It had the stench of HBO on it from the beginning. So when they announced Toussaint as the Sea Snake, I wasn't mad nor surprised cause Corlys felt like a Corporate character from the inception.

I also agree with you that it bothers me a whole lot that somehow Corlys got a pass for doing the exact same thing to his own - much younger - daughter as Otto did and for the exact same reason. Except that I think it's much worse. On some level, I think Otto knew what he was doing was wrong and at least he never justified his bullshit with Alicent. Corlys not only did the same thing, but he was entitled when he did it. He didn't give a shit, not about Viserys or Laena. At least Otto eased Alicent and Viserys together and fostered a friendship. Corlys was just "You're gonna get Funky with Strawberry Shortcake and you're gonna like it!" like she wasn't even his daughter.

#House of the Dragon #Daeron Targaryen #Daeron the Daring #Corlys Velaryon #Otto Hightower #Hugh Hammer

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wait i just saw the fandom game too!!!! gosh i cant make up my mind between transformers and teenage mutant ninja turtles!!! i'll let you pick between the two. or omg both!? too much? aah well i wanna know your thoughts on it all LOL

-bumblebeesdoorwings 💞

since i already answered the tmnt one here's transformers!!!

the first character i ever fell in love with: absolutely tfa bumblebee. i remember like it was yesterday. it was like three or two years ago, i was scrolling insta and saw an edit of tfa bee (i can't link it and i won't put it here bc it's obviously not mine) where prowl said "we're gonna use bumblebee's greatest weapon. his obnoxious personality" and i LOST MY MIND it was love at first sight

but imagine my surprise when i finished watching tfa and realised that all the other bees... are just not the guy i liked. i watched prime and didn't enjoy it as much as i could have, had i forgotten my weird obsession with sorta hot shot-like bee and just appreciated prime's bumblebee. it didn't stick tho and i stopped looking for tf stuff for like two years (i realised i just gave like my whole backstory about tf ok sorry lmao)

a character that i used to love/like, but now do not: swindle. idk why he's just another jerk to me now, tho i do like the tfa take

a ship that i used to love/like, but now do not: ratchet/wheeljack from prime. i like dratchet now <3

my ultimate favorite character™: still bumblebee. even tho he's not what i expected at first he's one of those archetypes i easily fall for, i simply had to stop looking for a comic-relief arrogant teen

prettiest character: drift <3 or starscream. or ratchet from prime and idw. or knockout from prime.

what are transformers so pretty for......

my most hated character: unicron? i can't get what his deal is and what is he even why is he in the plot in every continuity i'm kinda sick of him tbh get some new ideas

my OTP: STARBEE STARBEE STARBEE *dies*

my NOTP: starscream/megatron. i can kinda see it but like.... nah

favorite episode: it's not really an ep but. ALL OF TAAO. like all of it. superb character writing, beautiful art, gay. haters will say.. idk what they'll say i'm not a hater nor an empath so

saddest death: bee... in idw... and in prime... in idw specifically. "we're stronger together than apart" FUCK OOOOOOOOF

prowl from tfa was tragic too.... hxhdduirejejkf

favorite season: the first season of tfa actually! it's really cozy and humorous and character-driven i love it (and earthspark obviously i don't know if it counts as a season)

least favorite season: i don't think i have that but unicron idw the one that's the ending just pisses me off. everything gets re-set why. why is my otp Like That

allow me to rant here for a few seconds bc i can't even anymore

LIKE WTF WHY IS BUMBLEBEE A JERK TO A GUY HE WAS STUCK WITH FOR LITERAL YEARS DID HE FORGET OR SOMETHING THIS IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE MOVE

AND STARSCREAM DIES AS REDEMPTION???? that's just CHEAP and for the sake of it like they needed to tic it off the list of completed arcs that's not how it works!!!!! i mean yeah SURE it comes full circle when he comes back as a ghost tethered to bee but we could have had it all and for wHAt.

character that everyone else in the fandom loves, but i hate: pharma? i have no idea. perceptor? yeah sure. shockwave too what an asshole

my ‘you’re piece of trash, but you’re still a fave’ fave: STARSCREAAAM how did i even end up loving him

my ‘beautiful cinnamon roll who deserves better than this’ fave: blurr lmao

but really it's prowl i think. especially now when everyone screams acab i don't agree. but i won't get into that. anyway prowl interesting but has poor execution

my ‘this ship is wrong, nasty, and makes me want to cleanse my soul, but i still love it’ ship: starbee also..... it's sooo weird for me to ship a "hero" and a "villain" i don't typically do that but idw changed me fundamentally

my ‘they’re kind of cute, and i lowkey ship them, but i’m not too invested’ ship: megop. i just don't like optimus i think. he's boring... hot take right at the end there

hope you don't hate me now 🥺🥺

some of these are.... questionable for sure

#asks

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protect-daniel-james · 6 months

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Hi!

For the ask game, 11 and 12?

11. Who is your favorite character(s) to write about and why?

I have lots of favorites tbh. Currently:

Frank Lampard - he's a sad jobless lump of issues. I'm not his biggest fan irl, but it's fun to explore all the fucked-up ways he might have been affected by the things that happened in his childhood and while growing up... Also, the "setting" of his life, his career, his jobs, it all makes a great setup for some in-depth explorations of... things. Family relationships, thatcherist England, gender roles and expectations, The Lads and their banter, homophobia in football... Honestly, I wouldn't be shocked if he came out one day, and admitted that he did all these things to be one of the lads, and to not disappoint his parents (mostly Dad), and to fit the role of a "perfect English player".

Unai Emery - obviously. I love him, I respect him, I wish him all the best. He's perfect for all the dorky, weird, strange, mysterious stuff. I want to write about him having wet dreams and nightmares about football, getting withdrawal symptoms when unemployed, thirsting for football desperately, fucking a real football /the object/, seeing formations in colors and shapes even when he just writes the names of players on the whiteboard, feeling unbearable pain when a part of a stadium is being demolished/rebuild... He's one with football, he belongs to it, and the Enfermo... stories with him are ultimately odes to football and places of football practice.

i love the ships of Barnes/Westwood, and Thomas Frank/Graham Potter because they are always an opportunity to write a tender hurt/comfort fic without the messed up toxicity that very often comes up in the other fics.

Diego Simeone - oh, I love him. And he's so hot. And he's passionate and obsessive... Tough guy who would kill, you know? But he has one weakness - Antoine. And I love it. I always try to make him not sappy/pathetic (like Frank is with Mason in the end), but truly El Cholo, the manager, in his dark suit, unbreakable spirit, devoted until the end to making his sweet French prince happy.

I love the Eddie/Jason dynamic, and hope to explore more the backstory, I think with @milfcaptainpike we figured out an interesting dynamic and reasons behind Jason's behavior and devotion... Let me say this. Jason the scruffed beaten up dog that never knew love and was used to "dog eat dog" mentality of the bad crowd in Mile End finding a protector in Eddie, and Eddie finding a fierce, loyal, growling dog that won't hesitate to bite if neccessary in JT...

I love exploring different personalities/behaviors with different characters, all while making them hopefully believable but also distinct? So that nobody could just "swap" the characters from Frank/Mason story for Cholo/Antoine for example, nah. The characters and personalities make stories.

12. What is your favorite theme/subject matter/trope/ship to write about? Why?

incest and breeding and stuffing and pissing

aahhhhh... Longing, jealousy, desperation? Wanting something you can't have, and either succombing to the desire, or struggling.... I've been told recently that I'm good at writing "the desperate, miserable, uncomfortable little wanks these men tend to indulge themselves with", thank you, and I think you're right? I can't tell if I'm good at it, but I certainly enjoy writing those! I feel like most of the smut I wrote recently has been pathetic rather than "hot" (although, well, Unai is not really pathetic in his love and horniness for football? it's just... that it's an inanimate thing). And sometimes, them being pathetic is hot.

Recently I found out about objectophilia and it's fascinating to me because I see some of the behavior/thinking in myself, so it's fun to explore with Unai in extreme - he's perfect for it.

I love when a fic touches...a deeper subject. Or is well done for a historical context/background, etc. I would love to do this with the Jamie in Liverpool fic - I think I said I want it to be a "love letter to Liverpool" (I've been there twice in the past year, wrote my thesis about it, and fell in love with it), even if it's in the sad Lampard context. Similarly, I'd love to include some academic stuff, experiences, and even works in the potential academic!au with Mikel and Unai. I brought home three books about ETA and Basque nationalism to have real life info for Txoria txori... And I could go on. I just love when there's a depth behind a story. I also enjoy a smutty PWP, of course, but the stories I love the most have a depth and references and "lore" and "-verse" I guess?

#ask games

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titodicks · 1 year

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Hi. Lady_luly here. First of all thanks for calling me a comeback Queen and praising my essay on Total Drama Rama but i have to say that i don't agree with some of the things you posted. Namely :

1."Because women are inferior horrible people unless they are white, boring, or toddlers apparently "

I may have used icons of white Female characters in my blogs but that's because i love these characters, not because I'm white myself. I'm actually a nearly 28 Black woman and that post sounded racist asf. Heck in my opinion the only two good things about Courtney are her singing voice and design.

2. The post you made saying that staning a character means suporting all of their actions.

That is false. You can ask any Courtney apologist there is and they'll say that her actions in action and all stars where all because of the writers meaning they don't suport them but can't find any in Universe reason that may have caused them,thus completely ignoring that it was Courtney's choice to act the way she did.

I myself don't suport Duncan's unjustified bullying of Harold but i do believe in the headcanon of a Courtney apologist that said it was caused by him being bullied by obnoxious geeky neighbors wich Harold reminded him off.

Also, to correct any misconceptions you may have, I do not hate Owen. My only problems with him are his design (wich makes it impossible for me to imagine him in any shape but fat. Like I'm all for giving the characters diferent body shapes but i don't like that the only edges in his design are his head and legs... Heck even S*gar has more edges than him. ) and his role as the main providers of gross humor (wich makes me have to kill him or make it so he never even took part in the total drama competition in any fanfict that i write, sans the Dramarama meets total drama one where i have to include him since he is part of the main cast). I personally love how kind he canonically is to everyone and kinda ship him with Justin tbh.

As for this fandom as a hole, I'd say yes, it is toxic as fuck but as long as you stick to just writing/reading fanficts in sites where you can block the Courtney apologists (like Ao3 and fanfict. Net) you should be fine. I know because i wrote a fanfict where i bashed the bejesus out of Miss C. U. N. T in training and people loved it. Seriously, not even once there was a Courtney apologist in my coments giving me their regular "you can't bash my favorite girl boss" BS.

Also, the fandom is not yahoiphobic, it is sapiosexualphobic, as proven by all the hate i got when i said that i headcanon Noah as being sapiosexual (a headcanon I got from a Dunno (Duncan+Noah) fict I found on Fanfict.net).

They weren't pissed because i think Noah is gay, they were pissed because i think he is sapiosexual.

Problem is this plataform has more Courtney apologists and passionate Nowen shippers than any type of fan.

WHO IS THIS IMPOSTER?! I WOULD NEVER SAY ANY OF THIS NONSENSE!! 😡🤬😡🤬

#ask #tw impersonation #tw lies #tw hatw mail

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#1 Omg, those memes are so funny but also where is the lie🤣 I'm not debating that she cares for the others too, it's just not even close to how much she cares about Yennefer. You are so right though, we know very little about their dynamic and tbh I think it's ridiculous that supposedly Yen only spent like.. 4 years at Aretuza? Pretty sure it's much longer than that in the books. That's ridiculous, how could they learn how to wield magic so quickly?

#2 Plus it's not like they don't have all the time in the world to learn all they can. Omg I wish you wrote the show instead of the useless lot that are actually writing it🤦‍♀️ "explained more about the heirarchy of the Brotherhood and how the Council works and stuff" honestly THIS. I haven't a fkin clue what the difference is, whuch group holds the most power and so on. I even looked it up but I'm gonna have to again cause it's confusing.. Yeah, the show is super inconsistent about everything

#3 Someone said that it's like the writers just expect people to go along with all the crap cause everybody just binges it and then moves on. Except there are a lot of people who were familiar with the world of The Witcher before the show and know the lore. Better than the ones writing the show from what it looks like.. This is an interesting point though because I have not considered what the people who only know what happens on the show would think.

I don't know that I'd agree with binging culture meaning that you don't need to care about telling a good story. Especially in fantasy, lore and worldbuilding are so much a part of the story because it's not our world and we need to understand how it fits together. Personally, I like bits of The Witcher and I work with those bits. But a lot of the stuff in the show, when subjected to any scrutiny at all, doesn't stand up.

#4 It seems the majority either knew it before or wanted to know more so decided to do some digging or read the books even. I think it's well worth doing that because you don't get to experience this amazing world at its full potential otherwise. You only get a very limited and frankly warped version full of plot holes and inconsistencies.

I did read The Last Wish, but I can't say I enjoyed it. I know loads of people love the books, but the bits I've read don't appeal to me. To each their own and all that. Plus, Tissaia's my favourite character, and book Tissaia seems to be a totally different character (and not actually around much) in the books, so I don't have much motivation to read them.

#5 I have shipped a few ships that were unlikely to be canon but not a lot. Can't really think of one right now even. No, actually Rizzoli&Isles but my interest in them wasn't anywhere deep enough like it is for Yennaia🤦‍♀️ Honestly I totally see why you would not care for Yen's relationship with Geralt, the show doesn't even remotely do it justice. Whereas in the books it's one of the most important things, along with Geralt and Ciri's relationship. And Ciri and Yen's (as far as I know).

I know many people were pissed off at the Yennefer and Ciri stuff in Season 2 because of how their relationship is in the books, so I can understand that disappointment and betrayal. But for me, as a non book reader, I have no investment in their relationship based on what I've seen in the show. So the last episode of season 2 was pretty hollow for me.

#6 Honestly I think part of the reason why I ship Yennaia despite what I know about the books &games is because show Yennefer is so different from book and even game Yennefer that she might as well be a totally different character. And come to think of it, her relationship w Tissaia does feel more genuine than what she has with Geralt, no matter how one chooes to interpret it. So I totally agree with you there. As for Mr Manbun all I'm gonna say is that I hope he won't be alive by the end of s3

I did write about my thoughts on the developement of those two relationships in the show.

I believe he's around for a while, unfortunately. If they stick to the books.

#badassheda #yennaia #the witcher

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Okay, So that you can get that OC Talk impulse out while I'm too eepy to fully engag....That Ask Meme for Sabryel and Sebylen: 2, 6, 8, 9, 11, 12, 13, 17, 18, and 20

2. What are your OC’s food preferences (flavors/textures/spiciness/calories/ when and how they eat) and how did they get that way?

Sabryel: he absolutely loves spicy food. it also eats a ton of meat and eggs and high protein meals in general. they have a very strict meal plan focused around their exercise regimen that is focused around being as nutritionally complete as possible to keep them in top physical condition.

Sebylen: tbh they are kind of a "try anything once" type, and will eat even obviously gross stuff if it would make for a funny story or were dared by someone who said they wouldn't do it. sebylen enjoys a lot of the home cooked recipes their parents made for them the most, but they're not really a super picky eater.

6. What would STOP your OC from Doing The Right Thing in a tense situation?

Sabryel: i feel like that HEAVILY depends on what Doing The Right Thing is for a given situation. the easiest sort of answer for this would be a situation where sabryel involving himself in a physical conflict would be an objectively bad idea, but their impulse control around fighting is JUST bad enough that they'd likely do it anyway if it thought it could solve the problem with its fists.

Sebylen: sebylen is VERY committed to their morals overall so really the only thing that would stop them from doing the right thing is if someone successfully convinced them that not doing that thing was ACTUALLY the right thing to do. otherwise it would be a fucking struggle to stop them from being the fucking hero.

8. If your OC had to take the S.A.T. tomorrow with one night to prep, how would they do? both emotionally and academically.

Sabryel: he would probably do some decent prep and score in a middle-of-the-road range. they don't have a whole lot of academic smarts but it's also not what i would call stupid either.

Sebylen: they would not study at all and would ace any sections focused on reading/writing but bomb anything else. as for the emotional effect, i can't see it upsetting them all that much.

9. What would cause your OC to chose to do something petty/pointlessly cruel?

Sabryel: he can be petty at times, but it takes a lot to get him to be genuinely cruel to someone outside of a fight. you'd have to seriously hurt someone it cared about to get it to be overly nasty to you.

Sebylen: relatively simple answer here. if sebylen perceives someone as The Villain of a situation, they feel 100% justified in being as shitty to that person as they can get away with.

11. What song is 100% garunteed to get your OC beyond turnt and will be sung loudly and emabarrasingly, either in public or the shower?

Sabryel: sabryel has an extensive workout playlist of ONLY songs that get him turnt as fuck specifically so he can work out at maximum intensity. they'd only really sing loudly and embarrassingly if drunk though.

Sebylen: sebylen knows tons of songs from their theater days that they'll sing at any given opportunity.

12. What perfectly-normal-to-them-thing does your OC do that confuses/pisses off/terrifies thier neighbors?

Sabryel: the parties it throws on a regular basis definitely have a habit of pissing off the neighbors. sabryel's guard construct definitely also creeps his neighbors out.

Sebylen: loud music all the time constantly.

13. Under what circumstances would your OC appear naked in public?

Sabryel: maybe for some kind of kink event they'd be willing to do that, but they would not do so without some kind of magic object to hide their face, hair, and wings.

Sebylen: could definitely see them getting naked in public if REALLY intoxicated.

17. How does your OC sabotage themselves?

Sabryel: tbh out of all the main characters of TSiP, sabryel is the LEAST likely to self-sabotage overall. the main way that he does self-sabotage in the story is by convincing himself that he's peaked and there's no more progress to be made.

Sebylen: sebylen's main self-sabotage is via the way they see everything as a story with heroes and villains. if they cannot make something fit into their life's ongoing narrative, they will just not do it, even if it would be an objectively good idea.

18. What’s the trashiest item in your OC’s wardrobe, when was the last time they wore it and why do they still have it?

Sabryel: i feel like sabryel has some shitty meme shirts that are overly vulgar and sexual that they only wear for a bit at parties. they don't wear the shit out in public outside of that, though, but since they have frequent parties they still wear those shitty shirts and occasionally comical booty shorts semi-regularly

Sebylen: i feel like sebylen doesn't currently have anything really "trashy" in their wardrobe.

20. What’s your OC smell like? no, not that “Vanilla and Anxiety” evocative stuff, realistically. Body odor? what have they been touching all day? When was thier last shower? Did they put on any kind of artificial scent?

Sabryel: sabryel definitely uses the ledaveth equivalent of axe body spray. they don't usually have body odor though, since they are very stringent about their bathing schedule.

Sebylen: this fucker definitely wears perfumes to cover up body odor. now that they're working as an adventurer they don't get to bathe as often so they're constantly covering up the sweat stink with floral scents as if that helps at all.

#sye's answers #oc talks tag #sabryel tag #sebylen tag

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roublardise · 3 years

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i just finished s8 and i can’t stop thinking of the Dean/Sam dialogue near the very end when Sam goes:

You want to know what I confessed in there? What my greatest sin was? It was how many times I let you down. I can't do that again.

What happens when you've decided I can't be trusted again? I mean, who are you gonna turn to next time instead of me? Another angel, another -- another vampire? Do you have any idea what it feels like to watch your brother just –

I already got that Sam’s reaction to Benny at best didn’t make sense and at worst was controlling. and truly I don’t want to dislike Sam but he just keeps doing shit he’d never apologize for nor acknowledge afterwards.

and here again: it’s not even subtext or interpreting it’s Sam stating that he feels replaced by Castiel and Benny (who are Dean’s only close friends). like Dean having other people in his life is experienced as a threat, as a failure on Sam’s part. he talks about it like if there ever was a case of Dean trusting someone (heavily implied: Benny) who betrayed them afterwards, but there wasn’t. Sam literally equals Dean having other things going on in his life, other people to trust and care for, as him letting Dean down. how??

what does he think his role is? does he think he has to be Dean’s everything? I could understand such irrational thinking from Dean-I’ve-been-taught-all-my-life-my-brother’s-life-mattered-more-than-mine but Sam was able to see through the abuse and get out. he knows, he has learned as a character, that they could & should be independent.

it even makes less sense considering at the start of the season Sam’s planning to stop hunting, because he has other people in his life he trusts and cares for. but then Sam decides to stay (it’s his own choice, Dean even gives him the unsolicited green light) and asks of Dean to cut ties with Benny - who has hurt neither Dean nor Sam nor anyone since he's been back from Purgatory. it’s literally Sam isolating his brother from the other people he has in his life.

and like, yeh I get that Sam has trauma too but???? it doesn’t fit with his history. like even if it was his abandonment issues acting up, it is still not okay to expect someone to have no one else in their life besides yourself.

he’s just being controlling, whether he realizes it or not. and if he does realize it later on, good!!! but considering he still hasn’t apologized for saying to Dean’s face that John was right to do what he did, I have doubts.

Sam is projecting so much I am begging him to sit down for a day or two and to take a good look at himself.

#can you tell i'm fucking pissed #spn 8x23 #spn s8 #supernatural #spn #spn takes #tbh i'm also pissed that they can't write this character like he has no personality but is that truly his own fault?#most spn's women also lack personality but at least they die quickly enough so i don't end up disliking them #knowing how this show ends just make the rewatch harder bc i am in full mode Dean deserved better #anyway if you've read all that check out my fic where dean and sam gets the sibling conflict they need

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helloalycia · 2 years

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a girl friend // rory gilmore

summary: Rory wants to come out to her grandparents, but you and Lorelai aren't so sure that's the best idea.

warning/s: mentions of homophobic parents and neglecting your kids, kind of a sad one in that sense tbh

author's note: this has been sitting in my drafts for over 2 years! so i thought i would finally post it lol, if there happens to be any rory fans out there still. god knows her character pissed me off post season 2, but that's the beauty of fanfiction, you can write her however you want! it's kinda bad compared to my recent stuff because it's 2 years old, so sorry about that 😂

also in this, just pretend you have a gender neutral name as that's the point in the start. you'll know what i mean when you read lol

masterlist / wattpad

"You guys ready for this?" Lorelai asked as we reached the infamous Gilmore residence.

I glanced at Rory, who reassured me instantly with that beautiful smile of hers. I looked back to her mother and nodded, hoping I looked calmer than I felt.

"I think so," I said, breathing out a little. "They can't be that bad, right?"

Lorelai snorted as Rory shoved her mother a little. They both smiled apologetically before Lorelai knocked on the door, neither answering my question. I didn't feel any better.

Rory and I had come out with our relationship to Lorelai a few weeks ago, to which she was completely accepting of. A little surprised about her daughter's sexuality, but accepting nonetheless. And she didn't seem to hate me which was always a good sign.

Now we were meeting the grandparents. Though, not in the way I expected. Rory wanted to come out to her grandparents as she did with Lorelai, but Lorelai knew her parents better than anyone and was convinced that wasn't a good idea. And with my own personal history of getting booted out the house and practically disowned by my own parents, I didn't want Rory getting treated the same by those she loved.

So, Lorelai figured it was better to introduce me as one of Rory's Yale pals so I could charm them first before revealing the big news. Though I wasn't sure when exactly the 'big news' would be revealed. Either way, I felt a lot of pressure tonight.

Lorelai knocked on the front door and I gulped down the lump in my throat as I waited. I felt Rory's hand slip into mine, squeezing it gently for reassurance. I glanced her way and smiled gratefully, to which she nodded. The door opened though, and her hand left mine.

"...I'll get it myself, it's not like I'm paying you or anything!" the woman, presumably Rory's grandmother, shouted behind her as she opened the door. Her posture straightened up and a smile was on her face as she looked to her family and I. "Lorelai, Rory, lovely to see you again."

"I'm sure it is, mom," Lorelai said with a forced smile, hugging her mother.

"Hey, grandma," Rory greeted with a hug.

As both Gilmores entered the house, I received a confused stare from Rory's grandma.

"Uh, hi," I said, smiling awkwardly. Lorelai said she told her I was coming...?

"Are you Y/N?" she asked, looking me up and down.

I suddenly felt self-conscious. "Yes, ma'am. Y/N Y/L/N."

"Mom, I told you last week about Rory's new Yale friend, Y/N," Lorelai explained to her mother as I stood there, smiling awkwardly.

"But Y/N is a boy's name," she said, looking to Lorelai. "I expected a boy."

Rory, who was blushing a little, said, "Grandma, Y/N can be a girl's name, too."

"But you said 'he' on the phone," she continued to Lorelai. "You gave me the impression Y/N was a boy."

I shuffled uncomfortably and Lorelai seemed to notice.

"Well, mom, you must have misheard because Y/N is a girl and waiting to come in."

Rory's grandma sighed before looking to me. "I guess so. Well, welcome, Y/N. It's nice to meet one of Rory's Yale friends. I'm Emily."

I chewed the inside of my cheek nervously, noting how this wasn't going well and I hadn't even stepped inside yet.

"Thanks, I've heard a lot about you, Emily. Rory speaks very highly of you and your husband." I offered a small smile.

Emily merely nodded and stepped aside to let me in. I breathed a quiet sigh of relief as she closed the door behind me. Rory nodded my way, as if to say 'it's okay', and I found myself stressing just a tiny bit more for whatever was to come.

"Let me take your jackets," Emily said, and the three of us gave her our jackets to hang up. "You can get settled in the living-room for drinks."

"Come on, Y/N, it's through here," Rory said, and I felt a lot more comfortable when she was by my side and we were walking into the living-room. Though, from behind me, I could hear Emily mumbling something to Lorelai.

"I thought Rory was bringing a boy to dinner, you know, like a new boyfriend," she thought she whispered, but I heard loud and clear.

"No, mom, Y/N is just a friend," Lorelai replied, before jokingly adding, "I'm sure Rory won't mind switching sides for your sake, though."

"Oh, don't be so silly, Lorelai," Emily scoffed.

Rory put her hand on my back to lead me to the sofa, and I felt her rub it slightly, with reassurance. She must have heard, too.

We both took a seat as Lorelai did so on the other chair.

"Rory's grandfather is just finishing up a business call and should be down soon. What drink would you like whilst we wait?" Emily said, already at the drinks cart.

"I'll be fine with just a wat–" I began, but stopped when Lorelai and Rory shook their heads frantically. Emily turned around and waited for me to finish. "...just a vodka martini...?"

Emily raised an eyebrow but nodded nonetheless and got to work. I breathed out as Rory squeezed my leg supportively. I wasn't really fond of alcohol, but if it meant winning over Emily Gilmore, then so be it.

"Can I get the same, mom, but with gin instead?" Lorelai asked.

"I'll have something fruity, grandma," Rory added.

It went quiet for a moment, as Emily prepared the drinks, and I sat there trying to think of things to say to Emily at dinner. The little confidence I had left dropped as soon as I walked through the door.

"So, mom, how's the club?" Lorelai made some conversation.

"Doing fine, as usual," Emily responded, sounding a little bored. Though that could have just been her normal voice, I wasn't sure.

She returned and handed out the drinks before taking a seat with her own. An awkward silence took over again and I had to keep a smile plastered on my lips every time Emily glanced my way.

"So, Y/N, what are you studying at Yale?" Emily finally spoke, vaguely interested in me.

Feeling a little relieved that this wasn't a tricky question, I relaxed and answered, "English. I'm hoping to teach it in the future."

"Straight A's this one," Lorelai added with a playful smile.

Emily wasn't amused.

"And how did you and Rory meet?" she asked, though it felt a little like an interrogation. Maybe she didn't like me because I wasn't the boyfriend she expected.

"The paper," I responded with a nod. "I thought it would be fun to join the paper and that's when I met Rory. We worked together on our first article."

"It was about the amount of garbage cans on campus, believe it or not," Rory added with a chuckle.

Emily cracked a smile at this, before saying, "That sounds... lovely. Y/N, do your parents go to the club? I don't believe I'm familiar with your surname."

At the mention of my parents, my smile faded a little and I looked down to my hands. "Um, no, they don't."

"Well, what do they do? I'd love to meet them," Emily continued, and I looked up, forcing a smile.

Rory met my eyes and I saw her watching me apologetically. She managed to rest her hand on mine without Emily seeing and I appreciated her so much at that moment.

"They aren't from around here actually," I said, looking back to Emily and grasping Rory's hand. "They are architects. But yeah, maybe next time they're in town, I could introduce you."

Emily seemed satisfied as she took a sip of her drink. I hadn't seen her so happy all evening as she said, "That would be lovely. I look forward to it."

I nodded, flashing Rory a reassuring smile so she wouldn't be worried. My parents wouldn't dare meet Emily. Or Lorelai. Or Rory for that matter. They wouldn't even see me anymore. Not since I came out to them.

"Ah, I think I hear Richard now," Emily said, standing up. "I'll go see what's keeping him."

I nodded her way, noticing she was warming up a little now, as she left the room.

"Gosh, Y/N, I'm sorry about that," Lorelai apologised instantly. "I know that must've been hard..."

I shook my head. "No apology necessary, Lorelai. It was obvious she would ask about my parents. But it's fine. Eventually I'll tell her the truth, but right now, this is okay."

Lorelai nodded, but watched me with sympathy. Rory did the same and I resisted the urge to give her a kiss on the cheek.

"Girls! It's lovely to see you both again," a male voice boomed from behind us, and we all stood up. It was Rory's grandfather, Richard, followed by a smiling Emily.

"Hey, dad," Lorelai greeted, hugging him. Rory did the same and then Richard looked to me.

"You must be Y/N, Rory's Yale friend," he said with a smile. "It's nice to meet you."

He put his hand out and I shook it, saying, "You too, sir. You have a lovely home."

"Call me Richard," he insisted. "And thank you, dear.”

"Dinner is ready, so if everyone could make their way to the dining room," Emily announced.

"Come on," Rory said, tugging at my hand and leading me to the dining room. I couldn't help but smile lovingly at her excitement, though my nerves still remained because so far, the night wasn't going to plan, and I knew that there was a chance it could just keep getting worse.

Thankfully, it didn't, but it wasn't a knock out either. Rory's grandparents were polite, making chatter about Rory and Yale and our degrees, and Emily eventually got over the fact that I was in fact a girl and not a boyfriend she could meet. Unfortunately for me, she did talk about boys and if I was seeing anyone, and I had to somehow tell her that I was solely focusing on my studies and couldn't in fact introduce Rory to any potential bachelors. It wasn't a fun conversation, but it moved on quite quickly.

After a pleasant-ish evening, the night came to an end and I was glad when we said our goodbyes.

"You handled that like a pro, kid," Lorelai complimented once we were by her car. She slapped me on the back gently, adding, "Even I couldn't put up with her talking about the club for that long."

I let out a shaky breath. "Thanks. She was as tough as you said she'd be."

Rory laced her fingers between mine, squeezing gently and flashing me a reassuring smile. "You did good. Thank you for coming tonight."

"Thanks for having me," I said with a small smile.

It was a tough night in more ways than one, but it was all worth it if there was even a slight chance that Rory could be comfortable amongst her family.

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"Rory."

She hummed as she continued typing away at her laptop, but didn't look away from the screen.

"Rory."

"One second..."

"Rory."

She didn't respond, so I sighed dramatically and rolled over, so I was under her arms. We were both sat outside, laying down on our stomachs, her writing an article and myself reading a book. I was getting kind of bored though and wanted some attention.

I looked up at her chin, hoping the discomfort of me being below her would get her attention, but still, she barely mumbled a response as she continued typing away.

I sighed again and slipped out from underneath her, before laying directly on top of her back and hugging her tightly. She let out a little chuckle and finally looked over her shoulder.

"You okay back there?" she asked teasingly, to which I hummed in response.

"I'm bored," I said, not moving from my spot. "Love me."

There was a pause before suddenly she had turned us both around so she was laying on the grass and I was on top of her. She smiled from below me, her blue eyes sparkling in the sun.

"I always do," she said, before pressing a soft kiss to my lips.

I smiled down at her, admiring how beautiful she looked, before sitting up and pulling her up with me. She leaned against the tree and motioned for me to sit before her. I crawled over and she held me from behind, resting her chin on my shoulder. I relaxed into her embrace, sighing contently.

"A quick break never hurt anyone," she spoke, adding, "and I'll never get anything done if you keep bugging me, so..."

"You love it." I laughed, craning my neck to kiss her cheek.

She smiled against my shoulder. "I know."

A peaceful silence enveloped us as we looked out onto the Yale campus. Students were milling about between classes, lecturers were strolling by without a care in the world, even some parents were about, probably to check in on their beloved children. Which reminded me...

"Your mom knows about us," I said and felt Rory nod.

"She does. Remember? We went over together and told her?"

I pursed my lips and nodded. "Yeah, yeah, I know. What I meant to say is, that's really cool of her, you know?"

I still wasn't over it, even though it had been a month or so since we told her.

"She's a cool mom," Rory replied, and I could tell by her voice that she was mildly confused.

"Yeah, she is," I agreed, especially because it wasn't easy knowing whether or not your girlfriend's parents would accept the fact that their daughter was bisexual.

"I'm glad you brought that up actually," Rory started, sounding serious all of a sudden, "because something has been on my mind since we told my mom."

I swivelled around so I was facing Rory to give her my full attention. I nodded to show I was listening.

Rory appeared nervous as she pushed a strand of hair behind her ear and avoided my eyes. "I think I wanna tell my grandparents. About us."

I bit my lip as I tried to suppress a frown. We'd already been through this.

"You sure about that? Lorelai said we should wait and–"

"But we've already waited!" she said with exasperation, before sighing. "I'm sorry, it's just, we did it how my mom said to. Introduce you as a friend and let her warm up to you. That dinner was a few weeks ago, Y/N. What's changed?"

I took her hand and stroked it gently. "Rory, I know, but if Lorelai thinks they need time, maybe they do. She does know them best after all."

Rory nodded and her eyes flickered to our hands. "I know... I just hate lying to grandma."

I smiled sadly. I hated that she had to lie, too. But I also didn't want her to ruin this one chance she had to tell her grandma and possibly lose her. I knew firsthand how that felt and I would never wish it upon Rory.

"It'll be okay," I reassured her, pulling her in for a side hug and kissing her on the forehead. "Time is what's best right now. Your grandparents love you and I'm sure they'll be fine with this."

I felt Rory nod her head on my shoulder and took this as the end of the conversation. I worried for her though. Would her grandma be okay with us?

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I was searching through Rory's drawer for some batteries for the TV remote when finally I came across some lying on her desk. I shook my head at how obvious they were and how I hadn't noticed, then replaced them in the remote.

"Rory, I found them!" I called, waving the TV remote in the air and heading to the living-room. But I stopped when I saw Rory shaking a little, tears coming from her eyes.

"Oh my god, Rory, what's wrong?" I asked, rushing over to her side on the couch.

She smiled through her tears, wiping away at them and shaking her head. "Nothing, nothing. Sorry, I didn't mean to worry you."

"Rory," I began, rubbing her arm and grabbing a hand that was wiping her cheeks. "Come on. Don't hide your feelings."

She sniffled and looked down hopelessly. "I don't wanna make a big deal over this," she admitted, her voice shaky and hoarse.

I held her cheek and lifted her head so her glassy eyes met mine. "You can tell me anything," I told her knowingly.

She licked her lips and took a deep breath. "Okay... well... my grandma, she– she found out about us."

My eyes widened. "What?"

Rory frowned, more tears rolling down her cheeks. "She found out a few weeks ago. Apparently someone's parents at Yale saw us and word got out to grandma. My mom told me grandma knew and doesn't want to speak to me."

I frowned, my heart sinking. "Rory, no..."

"I– I thought–" she swallowed the lump in her throat, "I thought if I gave her time, she would finally speak to me. But she hasn't. She just keeps ignoring me. I've tried calling, texting, even emailing! But she won't reply. Y/N, she doesn't– she doesn't lo–"

"Don't say it, Rory," I cut her off, wiping away at her tears. "She does love you. She's just confused, probably.”

Rory's lip trembled as she looked down. "Why? I don't understand. I'm still me."

I pulled her in for a hug and kissed her cheek. "You are. She just doesn't see that yet... I'm so sorry for this, Rory. I didn't think she'd find out so soon. You should have told me this sooner."

Rory squeezed my hand. "I'm sorry, I know. I just didn't want to upset you..."

I forced a small smile. "I'm a big girl. I can handle it."

Rory smiled too and her eyes flickered to my lips. Before I knew it, she had leaned forward and kissed me gently, lovingly.

"I'm sorry for worrying you," she said when pulling away. "I just can't deal with grandma ignoring me like this. I miss her."

Rory pulled her legs up on the couch and cuddled into my side. I held her close, letting her know I was there, and wondered what I could do to help. I hated that her grandmother was acting like this. I couldn't watch Rory go through what I had. Maybe I could speak to Emily somehow, get her to change her mind...

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I chewed on my lower lip as I waited for someone to answer the door. I was stood outside the Gilmore residence – Emily and Richard's – hoping I could talk to Emily for Rory's sake. Rory didn't know I was here and I honestly just hoped I didn't make things worse...

Finally, the door opened and revealed a maid. She was different to the one who served at dinner last time I was here. I recalled Rory saying how Emily went through maids quickly, though.

I shook my head, realising I was distracting myself, and smiled at the maid.

"Hi, I'm here to see Emily Gilmore," I said politely, ignoring the knot of nerves in my stomach.

The maid nodded. "Your name?"

I couldn't say my name because I knew Emily would slam the door in my face instantly. Or, well, she'd get her maid to.

"Oh, she'll know when she sees me," I said, forcing a smile. "Tell her it's a surprise."

The maid shrugged and disappeared for a moment. I didn't hear much, apart from Emily complaining about how surprises weren't respectful or mature. Her complaints neared the door until finally, she was stood before me.

"Hey, Mrs Gilmore," I greeted with a small smile.

Her gaze narrowed before she said, "Rita, you're not to let this girl in my house. Understood?"

The maid, Rita, nodded frantically as Emily backed up, but before Rita could shut the door on me, I jumped through the gap.

"Emily, please, just hear me out," I begged the older Gilmore as she glared in my direction.

"You can't just break into people's houses like this!" she exclaimed before clenching her jaw. "Leave this instant, Y/N."

She turned on her heel and marched away, but I only ignored the maid and followed behind her.

"I need to talk to you about Rory," I began quickly.

"Don't say another word!" Emily interrupted me instantly, turning around and making me stop at her abrupt halt. "I don't want to hear whatever you have to say. Or whatever she's made you say. I want you gone."

"Rory didn't send me here," I got out before she could say anything else. "I came to ask you to forgive her. Speak to her."

Emily narrowed her eyes again. "You don't come into my house and tell me what to do."

"Emily, she loves and misses you so much," I said, hoping her attention would stay on me. "This isn't her fault. She's still the same Rory, whether she likes girls or not. I–"

Emily groaned aloud before marching away again. I rolled my eyes and began to follow closely behind.

"You have no right to be here!" she shouted, making her way into the empty kitchen.

I ran a step after her and stopped before her, making her listen to me.

"You are the only family Rory has aside from her mom," I rambled out quickly. "She looks up to you, Emily. And you can't shut her out because she's bisexual. My parents, they... they kicked me out because I'm gay. They don't want to know who I am anymore. I only go to Yale because of a scholarship, but I still have to work 2 jobs just to stay there. I have no family anymore. I only have Rory. And the last thing I wanted was for her to lose her family like I did."

I hid my hands behind my back before Emily could see them shaking. I needed her to see my confidence. I had one chance.

Emily avoided my eyes, but I could tell I'd made her think.

"I'm sorry for what happened to you and your family, Y/N," she started, and I was hopeful for a split second, until she said, "but you don't get to dictate what happens in my family. This is between Rory and I, nobody else. Not even Lorelai. Now you need to leave before I call the police on you."

My heart sank to my stomach as she turned around and began to walk away.

"If I break up with her, will you speak to her again?" I asked, swallowing the lump that was beginning to form in my throat.

Emily paused and I stopped breathing for that moment.

"You know where the door is, Y/N," was all she said, before leaving the kitchen.

I took that as a yes and sighed shakily. It wasn't difficult to see what I needed to do now. I couldn't let Rory lose her family because of me.

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"Rory, it's important and I need to see you in person," I said into the phone, "where are you?"

Rory sighed over the phone. "I'm in Stars Hollow. I... I felt a bit down because of everything happening with grandma and I just needed a break with my mom."

I breathed out quietly. Of course.

"Okay, erm, can I come over?"

"Of course," she said, almost sounding a little relieved. "I miss you."

I smiled sadly. "I miss you, too, Rory. I'll see you in a bit."

The drive to Stars Hollow wasn't exactly the easiest thing I'd done in a while. Rory was hurting already and I was just going to make things worse. For now anyway. Eventually, they'd get better.

When I arrived at Lorelai's, I saw her mom was home, too. Great. Now she's gonna hate me, too.

I didn't even need to knock on the door because Rory had already opened it and pulled me inside.

"I'm glad you're here," she said, though it was slightly muffled because she was hugging me very tightly, her head tucked into my shoulder.

I returned the hug and savoured it, not knowing whether it would be my last. "How are you doing?"

She pulled away and smiled a little. "Better now."

My stomach was twisting with guilt as she dragged me to the living-room.

"Where's Lorelai?" I asked as we got comfortable on the couch.

Rory pulled her knees up and wrapped her arms around them as she said, "I kinda pushed her upstairs when you arrived."

I chuckled quietly. "Wow. I'm sure she loved that."

Rory chuckled, too. "Yeah, well she's been with me all day, so I think she's glad for the alone time."

My smile faded and I looked down as I was reminded why I was here.

"So, what was so important?" she asked curiously.

I blinked and tried to think back to what I practiced in the car. "Erm, well, okay... you know about my parents."

She seemed confused. "Yeah."

I avoided her eyes as I spoke, unable to meet them without feeling immensely guilty. "They've shut me out and well, I have nobody else."

"You have me," she cut in with concern, leaning forward to grab my hand and rub it with her thumb. "You know that."

I frowned. This was too difficult and getting harder the longer she stared at me with those big blue eyes of hers.

"Rory, I don't want you to have to choose between your grandparents and me when it comes to it," I came right out with it, letting go of her hand. "I can't let you go through that. Not because of me."

She frowned and shook her head. "Y/N... what are you talking about?"

I took a deep breath, trying to stop myself from tearing up, but it was too late. My vision was blurring.

"You love your grandma and she loves you," I explained. "I'm nobody. The nobody that is getting in between that. I don't want to watch you lose your family like I have. You don't deserve that. And I don't want you to have to make the choice between me or them when it comes to it. So, I'm taking the choice out of your hands."

Rory was clenching her jaw and staring back at me with watery, darkening eyes.

"I'm breaking up with you," I said, hating that my voice broke. "We're... we're over."

She didn't respond at first, her eyes were just piercing through mine emotionlessly. For a second, I thought she might have not heard me, but that was impossible.

Eventually, she shook her head. "No. You're not doing this. You don't get to do this."

I blinked and my tears finally escaped, making me suck up a deep breath. "Rory, I'm sorry."

She smiled sarcastically through her tears and I knew a rant was coming. "You're not leaving! You're not. You're just not. You can't just make my decisions for me, Y/N."

I breathed out and stood up, about to speak, but she stood up, too and glared at me.

"Why are you doing this?! You're doing what she is doing! Shutting me out!"

"Rory, please," I begged, holding her to hopefully calm her down, but she shoved me away.

"Don't 'Rory, please' me!" she mocked. "You're being so selfish right now! You know I love you and– and– I can't believe you!"

She crossed her arms and tried to contain her cries, but I could see it was getting too much for her.

"I know you hate me, but–"

"Get out."

"Okay, but I'm sorry, Ro–"

"I said get out!" she shouted, pointing to the front door. "You wanted to leave, so leave!

"Rory, I'm so sorry," I apologised, guilt eating away at me as I saw her face covered in tears. "Please understand, this is for the best."

"Get out!" she screamed, shoving me back. "Now! I don't want to see you!"

I backed up, turning around to leave, when I saw Lorelai stood at the bottom of the staircase. She looked between me and Rory, momentarily shocked.

"I'm sorry, I had to," I whispered to her, before walking to the front door.

I opened it to leave and felt my heart shatter into a million pieces when I heard Rory sobbing.

"She left, mom," she cried as I was shutting the door. "She gave up."

I closed the door and stopped for a moment, trying to wipe away my tears, but they just kept coming.

I wished at that moment, that I had my own mother to hold me and tell me it was going to be okay.

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Rory hasn't spoken to me since I broke up with her a week ago. I didn't expect her too, I guess, I'd broken her heart. But I missed her like crazy.

I hadn't seen her around campus, though she could have just been avoiding me. It felt strange without her there. I loved her and she was suddenly gone. It wasn't right.

Except it had to be done. I hoped her grandparents were speaking to her again. I really wished that this wasn't all for nothing. Because if Emily still wanted nothing to do with Rory, then I had just abandoned the girl I loved when she needed me the most.

I was trying to focus on some English homework I had when there was a knock on my door. I was kinda glad for the interruption because my mind was in shambles and I couldn't think without the Gilmore girl roaming my mind.

I opened the door and almost choked on my own spit when I saw who it was.

"Rory? What are you do–"

She cut me off by moving forward and pressing her lips against mine. I was surprised, as I expected her to hate me, threaten to set my flat on fire, or come yell at me some more, but here she was, kissing me.

I closed my eyes and kissed back, wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her close. I had missed her so much, even if it had only been a week, and I wished I could have stayed like that forever. But she came for a reason and we both needed air.

She pulled away breathlessly and had tears slipping from her eyes, but a giant grin was on her lips.

"I love you," she spoke, resting her hand on my cheek and meeting my eyes. Not an ounce of hatred lay in her eyes, just love.

"Rory...," I began, but didn't know what to say.

She dragged me into my flat, shutting the door behind us, and pulled me into a hug.

"You fixed it," she said, not helping with my confusion. "My grandma is speaking to me again."

I smiled, feeling relieved. "Rory, oh my god, that's amazing!"

"I know," she said, intertwining her fingers in mine and holding them there. "It's because of you. She said you spoke to her. I can't believe you did that."

I felt my cheeks growing warm as she laughed, a bright, contagious laugh that I couldn't imagine hearing again until now.

"She didn't stop speaking to me because I'm bisexual, or because of you," she explained further. "She was upset at me for hiding this from her. And not trusting her to love me for who I am. She hated that she found out through other people. She thought I didn't trust her the way she trusted me."

I bit my lip to contain my happiness for her. "That's amazing. I'm so happy for you, Rory."

"You told her about your parents," she said, with disbelief. "You did that and she realised what she was doing to me. We talked it through today and made up. She doesn't care who I'm with, Y/N."

I smiled when she took a step closer to me, trying to contain my tears of joy.

"I'm so sorry for hurting you," I said, not tearing my eyes from hers. "I truly thought that was the only way. I didn't want you to go through what I did."

She used her hand to wipe away a stray tear of mine. "I know. And it's okay. I'm sorry for what I said to you, how I reacted. You were hurting, too. I just didn't see that."

"It's okay," I forgave her instantly, knowing none of us meant what happened. "...I missed you so much, Rory. I– I thought I'd never be with you again."

"Same here," she said, before chuckling to lighten the mood. "But I'm here. And you're here. And I love you so much."

"And I love you," I said, unable to contain my happiness. "Can I call you my girlfriend again?"

Her eyes flickered to my lips. "You technically never stopped, so..."

I laughed and moved forward to kiss her, hoping she knew how much I loved her and how I would do anything for her to be happy.

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Lore here: My biases are Malleus, Leona and Vil. I'd still yet to know Malleus so the only thing that makes me like him is that he's mysterious, but it's a fae nature so I ain't surprised. I have to wait at EP 7 to see how his life will go but looking at his personal stories and his background in the main story and my opinion, Malleus is a person who was groomed to be a perfect heir to his throne, but the fact he was this innocent of how the world is changing proves the fact how Faes are so closed off to humans or any other species alike. And about his blatant loneliness, honestly Malleus can't change the way how he was groomed to hold a reputation that sets him apart in the society (to the point he's given that Mike Wazowski treatment) and also he ain't a realistic character enough without some of his flaws such as his pride and anger issues. I feel that Malleus has this desire to understand the side of human nature and to see the world that he wasn't able to. IDK I feel like I'm going a bit too far with this. I think the reason why he's attached with Yuu is not because they're innocent but because they treat him normally and respectfully, Vil treats Malleus respectfully and yet he's still wary of him. We can see how Vil reacts when Yuu calls him Tsunotarou. Vil knows how to treat everyone and he probably knows Malleus came to the school to be a student not a future king so he treats him like one.

I like Leona not because that he's a Neko boy like any narrow minded fans of his, but because his character is realistic and complex, but it doesn't mean that I excuse his actions, but TBH, due to his untreated depression (I still don't know how much rejection he faced back in the past for him to develop that complex of his and his unhealthy coping mechanism, his backstory is lacking alot, it doesn't explain well about his character) he seems to be misguided, hence why he developed that destructive behavior, at least in my opinion. The fact Leona's mentality was this worse makes me think if ever he was given attention or discipline by his actual parents, I mean he couldn't be that worse if his parents are around, we don't know about his parents so I can't be sure (we only see his brother but not their parents Leona said their Dad is sick so it might've cost a toll in Leona even if he's closed off to his family).

And then Vil, I've seen lots of anime idol characters but none holds a more realistic background of what the showbiz industry is like than Vil himself. Not to mention the realistic portrayal of the standards of beauty and talents. It's just hard to imagine Vil abusing himself just so he could attain what he wants and despite his good side, people are still superficial and only sees what he is wrongly portrayed as. I was pissed off whenever he gets compared to Regina George like that narcissistic time bomb is nothing compared to Vil.

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Lore here: about Floyd I really don't see him in a way his fans see him cause TBH, I don't know much about Neurodivergent people. All I know is that there times he acts like a child being energetic, reckless and stubborn, sometimes he shows some attitude for his age and is really smart depending on his mood. Times he's just as sadistic as his brother and times that he's a walking chaos. He has alot of personality in him that I can't comprehend so easily. But surprisingly I find him normal.

Answering on my sideblog because I need someone else, in this case Lago, to moderate my reply as you say whenever Leona is involved, happy now?

I want to make note of something, I do not equate realistic with depth, a character can be flat and yet realistic, a character can be deep, complex, and yet so insane and so unrealistic. A character can be unrealistic for it's the author's self indulgent writing. selling to the horny, fetishizing the entire personality altogether, or conveying specific message.

Malleus is unrealistic not because he's a fey in universe, it's because his personality is fetishized. Yes, it doesn't happen to just women, that characters get emotionally fetishizhed, but also men. A lot of Disney princes (and even until now, a lot of otome isekai male leads) have that "prince charming" qualities, flawless, lovestruck to the female lead, OP in both combat and political influences and uses that to protect the love interest as much they can, etc. While Malleus isn't that flat as he has his own baggage, that he is not completely fetishized, the elements, the intention to sell to those crowds who wants "prince charming" is there .

Lago agrees with most of your point , so I think I don't need to add more.

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The rabbit is in. I get exactly where you are coming from, Lore. I actually find myself agreeing with most if not all of your points.

Drace, unless I skimmed over part of your thread with Lore, I don't think they're (are 'they' pronouns okay with you? My apologies if not) trying to debate you about whether a character is realistic or not, and they're making valid points here, too. Lore also doesn't seem to be justifying Leona, and they're even making points we have made about Vil before! We also hate him being reduced to a Mean Girl stereotype, he knows it's brutal out there, and he's not only for outwards appearances.

Is Malleus even that fetishized though? I think it's unfair to just call him a perfect Prince Charming. He would honestly weird me out a little if he came at me the way he comes at Yuu lmao, but that's precisely because, as Lore said, he's been sheltered his entire life, raised exclusively to become the next King of the Valley of Thorns.

As for the Floyd part, well, those are very factual observations, he's hard to understand and not to me, if that makes any sense, as a neurodiv artist myself; we all not the same, after all. Honestly, as long as you're not saying Floyd's a complete dumbass or an idiot and ignoring the rest of his character (even if you find it hard to understand, you can see it is there), you're in my good books. I find it funny you say you think he's normal, that's probably what Floyd would like to hear. Or that he has an exquisite fashion sense, either would work.

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for director's cut asks, how about more than that?

ahhhh excellent choice, tyty anon dear!!!

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more than that - bakutodo

He’s not sulking. Katsuki is appropriately pissed off

baku is SUCH a great pov to write from, like, generally? cause while he's definitely really conservative about some of his emotions, i think he lets himself get all pissed off and riled up inside his own head, and it's a case of there being so much more going on in his thoughts than he ever puts out into the world. and that makes for a super rich inner dialogue, which tends to be where i work best lmao

He exhales a heavy breath - he trusts Deku, though he’s loath to admit it.

baku having this inseparable soft spot for deku was kind of super critical to me during this whole story and fleshing out their relationship/his relationship with todo/etc? just like. almost not really knowing how to be apart from him, having to worry about him even more now that he's not here, etc. having to hand over trust, which he doesn't do easily - he strikes me so much as a character who needs control (oddly enough lmao) like, he needs to be the one doing things because he knows he can do it

“Reward me with information,” he says against his own will

although i find him more prone to inner emotions, i think his outward control is actually pretty meaningful? he knows what he wants, but unlike some other characters who are prone to acting heavily on emotion, i think it's a rarer thing for baku? when he has control over himself, at least. while he wants todo, he still has fair insight into the overall situation, into what could potentially heavily involve him, and he still makes that a priority? i find it rare in characters that i enjoy writing tbh, because for the most part, i like a character who acts on their emotions (or in direct counter to their emotions, ie a character in denial or pointedly trying to fight their emotions and reacting accordingly) - level heads (can't believe i'm using that to refer to baku but here we are lmao) are rare for me to enjoy writing

“She would like to meet you, I suspect.”

i knew from the start that once i got todobaku together, todo would want baku to meet his mom. and while it didn't end up working out in the second part of the series (in part due to the sheer freshness of their relationship), i'm glad i was able to put it in here. it also gave me a good chance to explore the implications of baku's status and personality, and his reservations about appearing/acting 'royal' enough to be with todo - which, now that some of the more pressing issues have been dealt with, he can actually think through now

“I was told you’d be a bit more...abrasive,”

okay tbh i actually love writing rei? she's fun as hell to build out as a character, i really like giving her some of todo's sassier personality traits, making her a bit of a gossip, and almost always letting her see through facades or other characters' obliviousness. i really like using her as a vector to bring light to other characters, or to open their eyes to things that they haven't noticed yet, and i adore her being blunt in a very wholesome, kind way

“Not for one fucking second,” he says, and takes Shouto’s stupid arm anyway.

can you tell one of my favorite tropes is 'character claims not to trust the other one while blatantly acting with the utmost trust toward them'? skfldjjklsdf really though, i think baku is the type to make well-considered judgments about whether a person is trustworthy and to what degree/in what situations, and he has that all filed neatly in his head for reference. and then todo comes along and gets slapped with 'trust at all times, always' and he kind of hates that, but his stupid intuition has never been wrong before

“This is your fucking coronation.”

i actually had this concept for a one-shot in mind from pretty early on, because i'd built sort of this whole domino effect that needed to collapse and have todo take the place of the king at some point - without trauma, ideally. but it allowed this really huge culmination of baku making some serious decisions about how he feels about todo and all of this, within the context of like. actually having to consider the royalty aspect firsthand. and ofc todo wouldn't just tell him, he'd make him decide on the spot sdflkjkdlf run away, or don't. and baku isn't a fan of running

“But the thought of your subservience,” his face twitches with clear distaste, “does not appeal to me.”

while a little bit of this is personal preference, i actually think...two things, really. the first, that todo genuinely doesn't want someone to blindly obey him. and, as such, he chooses his companions accordingly - people who respect him, people who want to support him because of that, not because he's the prince (or king). the second, that baku actually is kinda into being ordered around - provided he's allowed to fight it a bit before giving in. he strikes me as the kind to take control in every aspect of his life, but to give that control to those he trusts in moments of pure privacy. and i think it would kill him to ever admit that out loud lmaoooo

“This life is overwhelming. I am aware that I can also be...overwhelming, in some ways.”

i think todo really struggles with this, actually - like he's acutely seen the effects of him being the crown prince, the way it changes how his friends can interact with him, how he's expected to interact with the world. and it scares him, that baku might not be okay with that. but it's critical that he's allowed, uninfluenced, his choice. especially when it's this big, because it's one thing for someone like kaminari to sneak around and hang out with todo, but another entirely to subject baku to all the formalities required of the crown prince's....person? consort? whatever he is lmao

“I had hoped to find a more eloquent way of wording that.”

speaking of characters who act on emotions, todo is definitely that kind of character more often than not. and i like the idea of his life of underwhelming bullshit to be interrupted and turned on its head by the overwhelming presence of one bakugou katsuki, leaving him making all kinds of wild decisions driven mostly by the idea that he wants baku, and he's going to figure out how to have him (as long as baku wants it too)

“I fuckin’ hope so. All that coronation bullshit is gonna be really hard to backtrack on.”

y'know i actually did toy with the idea of ending this story at baku's 'more than that' comment, but it felt important to let todo say his piece. also, it's critically imperative that i let todo tease baku a bit lmao. i do also like to let baku get called out on things he's insecure about? which, while not really an issue most of the time, the 'acting like a royal' thing definitely feels like a shortcoming for him when it comes to being with todo. so having todo reassure him on that felt like a meaningful addition. and having baku reaffirm to todo that he's in it, come hell or high water, was definitely important. i like giving baku the chance, when he feels safe enough to do so, to open up and be a little vulnerable with the people he cares about

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