Ok, so, my magazine arrived today. It's a lot smaller than I thought it would be, though I actually should have expected it, but it's only 21 centimeters tall.

There are pages on a few of the Milan squad, but it's all pretty interesting. I got it originally for this page:

If you read the questions, some of his answers are pretty funny. Apparently, he prefers showers, doesn't know how to do house chores, his favorite sport is Tennis (?), and his favorite song is "Kiss" by Prince. Also, those shorts...

Anyways, there are more pages on Billy, Gullit, Van Basten, Rijkard, Tassoti, Marco Simone, and some more. There is a little section for fan arts made by kids:

Fanart of Evani, Gullit, Maldini and Donadoni. The children captured Paolo's Soul glaring eyes well. Anyway, if you want to see specific pages like Gullits page or Van bastens just lmk

Guys pls when I talk about characters, just assume I'm talking about the original text (or I guess English translation of the original text)

If I'm talking about a retelling/adaption I'll mention it lmao. I do it with epic and I do it with movies/shows I watch. Why is my inbox suddenly full of /neg anons about feminist retellings 😭

I feel like i have the mob countdown going on in my brain and when it's filled i'll finally go read the dunmeshi manga.

if anyone's wondering what ive been up to recently while away from tumblr it's mostly just involved me getting really obsessed with todd rundgren and 10cc 👍

reading springfest now after everything in nagazora is making me crave more fu hua and mei interactions. i feel like thus far in my go through, i've never actually seen them interact, but it's kinda fun that the person who made the recommended reading order put springfest after nagazora (though of course this is probably in preparation for whatevers going on with senti/fu hua rn in ch 19)

but the way that the empyrea isolates herself so she doesn't have any attachment to those who she will outlive and how she winds up becoming lonely as a result threw me back to mei isolating herself in world serpent so that she can protect kiana and just... idk..... i think the two talk about that isolation would be interesting

also. i love fu hua. she's still at the top of my list for best character so i'm just a happy little guy getting more fu hua content now in the story :> yippee fu hua

TW for racism and genocide of Native Americans

Today I learned that the original "The only good _, is a dead _," was "The only good Indian, is a dead Indian." And it really sucks that now I know this information.

Looks like it's speculated to be attributed to one specific Union general due to his actions, but it was more likely just a common anti-Native sentiment of the time held by a lot of the settlers, not just one person.

Like I know I hear 'the only good snake, is a dead snake' most often since I love being in snake discussion groups, which also sucks because I love snakes, and they shouldn't be killed.

But I've also heard like 'the only good Nazi, is a dead Nazi.' And like, I So agree with that, fuck Nazis, but I don't want to think about the original phrase being reclaimed like that for a laugh, no matter how much I agree that Nazis suck.

It should stay as horrifying and sickening as 'the only good Indian, is a dead Indian' in my opinion. I think we should retire the phrase entirely and just note that, that was the origin of it - the continued genocide of Native Americans during the 1800s when settlers were eager to get rid of us so they could claim property for themselves while forcing us into insufficient reservations as US America expanded westward.

This book I'm reading describes that the usual retaliation for the theft of a cow would have been the execution of an entire Indian village. One specific horrifying example given, is from accounts of a traveler that joined a group of Mexicans pursuing Indians (Chumash) in possession of stolen horses. They come across a group of some old Indians, women and children, drying the horse meat. Every last one was killed, and their ears cut off as proof for the priests that they made every effort to retrieve the horses.

This shit is so sickening. They were hungry and trying to survive.

It also describes how the accounts of Indians from my tribe before the mission system were all about how generous and welcoming they were. (Though, it was through the lens of the Spanish who saw us as ideal candidates for conversion because of this.) Then after the collapse of the missions and post-assimilation, the accounts simply describe the Indians' drunkenness and disorder. What did you expect???? You assimilate a group of people so they're entirely reliant on you (the rigid structure of the mission system and the dismantling of their previous tribal villages), and then suddenly turn them out to a world without their previous villages and social order. Of course they're going to struggle and suffer and abuse the drugs (alcohol) you introduced them to.

I hate this so much.

The book also mentions how, during the mission period, anyone who ran away from the missions to go back to their original tribal lives, would be dragged back to the missions and cruelly punished with restraints, lashing, or stocks, and they couldn't understand why because punishment was exceedingly rare before Spanish rule.

Ugh. Anyway.

I'm going to bring this up any time I hear anyone mention that phrase, because the horror of that time period should not be diminished in its modern reclamation. ('Diminished,' because I, a 30yo Native American, did not even know the origin. I thought it was a modern phrase. Our local Native history was always glossed over in school to focus on the mission system. I didn't even learn of my tribe's revolt until like 2016 when I went to a lecture my tribe held.)

I get that reclamation is supposed to be like a good thing, to take away the power of its original use, but I personally don't think that's appropriate for this phrase that was used as a rally for genocide.

Maybe I'm just being a sensitive baby, though, who knows! I'm crying while reading a history book about my tribe. This shit really hurts deep, though. It always has.

he was only nineteen???? he should've been at the clubbbb

hello i have no idea how to say this without feeling like im coming off incredibly conceited (so im on anon for now) but. a while ago i wrote a fic that i think you would maybe probably enjoy? its a psychological torture-y body horror-y semi-character-study longfic thats essentially just jay getting physically and emotionally more fucked up in kind of a villain arc way but not really a Villain? lots of violence etc and some of your jay whump drawings were kind of a big insp while i was writing it ahaha!! so i thought maybe youd be interested - that said tho feel free to ignore this ask!!!! i realise promoing myself in your inbox is a bit cheeky i just genuinely thought the themes were up your alley so if you are interested lmk i can link you but no worries if not B) also love your work!! the way you write (and draw) whump is incredibly tasty it scrambles my brain ok bye

hmhmm i would say i am interested in such elements. but i have to be upfront and honest here. i am VERY VERY critical about fanfiction. i love fanfiction but bc i love fanfiction i am also very. picky. i developed a refined taste over the years. not that im saying that i assume your fic isnt good, its just that. are you okay with running the risk of me not liking it by sharing it with me? are you open to (honest but fair) criticism? i dont want you to have expectations for my reaction. and also i dont want to give unwarranted criticism either, i dont want to be mean or hurtful. i just. cant lie about fic. so if i dont have high praise for a fic i keep it mostly to myself. well i do vague a lot about fanfic on twitter. but i try to keep it nonidentifying if it isnt positive.

anyways thats not the point. if i havent inadvertently scared you off and you are emotionally prepared for any reaction (or even no reaction), you may send it to me. i can only promise that i will judge it fairly. if you okay with constructive criticism i can give it too. but i get it if you dont want that. if you just want me to read it just for the sake of reading it i can do that too

I need my babygirls (the central characters of no man's sky) to be okay forever, like i know that doesn't happen but i need them all to be alright or i explode us both

Bc buzzcut really makes me feel Boi Gender, I really wanna put on a dress/something femme now to achieve Best Gender

i think ive finally actually found a way to rip the DVD commentaries!!!!!!

fucked up that astarion came into my life during these two months of ABSOLUTE PURE TRAUMATIZING HELL and significantly helped keep me sane via escapism, like if he wasn't already So My Type It's Painful now he's gonna be imprinted on me forever i'm never going to escape

I've recently quit drinking (or at least I'm significantly cutting back, mainly just no more weeknight drinking, but we'll see how i feel come the weekend) It's only been 2 days and on the one hand I've already completely reorganised my bookshelves and logged them all onto goodreads which I've been meaning to do for ages. But on the other hand I cant fall asleep so yknow, swings and roundabouts.

i have Got to reread mistborn it’s been years and i didn’t know shit about the cosmere at that point so i KNOW i missed so much

hey, i saw your post and i just wanted to reach out and idk... give you a virtual hug or hold your hand or something. thinking, praying and hoping for good things for you and the ones you love. you dont have to respond, i just wanted to reach out to you and offer something other than silence

thank u☹️🥺💖 it's looking real bleak here ngl- our country is infamous for putting the absolute worst. corrupt, money-hungry shitty "people" in power............... thank you for thinking of me 😭🌷

when im reading an article about dreams and they reference a dream book i have >:3