I have a different post in the works about Maddie not having children in the "Masters of All Time" timeline - it makes the emotional dilemma about whether Maddie should help Danny repair and reset the timeline straightforward and clean, but the thing is, the premise that "Masters of All Time" gives us is a FASCINATING and potentially really anguishing emotional dilemma if the writers were allowed to acknowledge it.

Maddie isn't happy in the MoAT timeline. When Danny shows up in her timeline, frantically trying to explain to her that he's her son with Jack Fenton from a different timeline, she accepts and embraces this explanation pretty quickly. It feels like she wants to believe it - she wants to believe that if things had gone differently, she would have married Jack, had children, had a ghost-hunting career she could be open and proud about. Everything Danny offers to her is something she wants more than what she has - a husband who has been lying to her, who dislikes ghost stuff and disapproves of her ghost research, so she has to do it in secret and hide it from him.

Something that goes totally unaddressed: Danny, her son from a different timeline, is a ghost. He's dead.

Never once does anyone stop to wonder what it means that her teenage son is a ghost.

And I know it's because Hartman & co. refuse to let anyone acknowledge that ghosts are dead people... but imagine they did.

Maddie Masters is... happy enough, she guesses. She married her college friend, and he is her friend, and she's not opposed to this. He doesn't support her work, but, well. She deals. She has her basement ghost research lab, even if she has to keep it secret from Vlad. She lost touch with Jack decades ago, and still regrets that, but that happens, sometimes, and his grievances aren't unfounded. She doesn't have children.

And then a ghost boy claiming to be her son shows up, and tells her that in a different timeline, the timeline that should have happened, she married Jack Fenton, she has two children, she is is out and proud about her ghost research and ghost-hunting and Jack enthusiastically collaborates with her on it. He tells her she's happy.

He doesn't tell her how he died.

And Maddie has a heartbreaking choice to make. Does she help him make this reality happen, restore time to how it's "supposed" to go?She wants to believe him, to believe in this alternate history where things went differently and she got the life she wanted! She has a wacky house full of Ghost Contraptions, a husband who loves her and supports her and collaborates with her, and two children she loves.

... and one of those children is going to die when he's 14. That comes with this choice.

Can she live with that? Consciously make this timeline happen, knowing she's going to have this child and then see him die.

It puts me in mind of one of the major emotional through-lines of "Story of Your Life" by Ted Chiang, the story of a linguist who makes contact with aliens and learns their language that allows her to see all of time at once, where it will go, what the outcomes of events will be. She sees her daughter dying. She knows from the moment she has this child that she will die in a rock-climbing accident in college. She sees it all at once, her whole life, and makes that choice to have a baby anyway.

I think MoAT!Maddie should have to consciously make a similar choice, and have similar feelings about it. Unlike the protagonist of "Story of Your Life," she doesn't know how it will all go. She only knows it as Danny tells her, and she herself won't really experience this, going forward. But she, another version of her, will. And Danny doesn't explain the halfa thing or the portal accident or anything, leaving Maddie to have to make her own hypotheses about what her alternate-life's future holds, about the grief that's going to come with the love, and make that choice to make it happen anyway.

Johnshi HCs

I'm sorry most of these aren't explicitly romantic I just have so many HCs about the two of them it's driving me crazy.

Johnny holds Kenshi by the waist, Kenshi holds Johnny by the shoulder or the bicep. After some time Kenshi starts to go for his hand instead.

Johnny is on his phone all of the time. Kenshi will either avoid the internet for a week or plays chess on the computer at the kitchen table for a day straight without talking to anyone (secretly uses Sento for this).

Kenshi has good spirits (literally) when it comes to his blindness, but can get very defensive when others pity him for it. Johnny is the only other person he will let touch his blindfold, take it off, or wash it.

Kenshi doesn't love the name "Johnny Cage" and thinks that "John Carlton" suits him. Johnny thinks that it sounds like an "old man's name"

Kenshi would visit Johnny on set sometimes but not say or do anything but sit in the background and watch him in silence until he was done.

Speaking of that- Kenshi had a good time filming in Outworld for Johnny's movie (made him feel like an action hero), but absolutely refused to watch the parts he was in.

Kenshi thought Johnny's movies were mostly cheesy before and after meeting him. However, he ended up rewatching all of them and got excited when there was news he got cast for a new one (before they started to officially date).

Johnny was a pretty good student growing up who made A's and B's as per expectations of his parents but hated school because he got picked on. He got into a decent university where he ended up falling in love with physics. He accidentally became famous around the time he was 20 (maybe he got street casted and went viral?) and had to balance acting with school to get his pHD. He is that school's most famous alumni.

Kenshi was mostly homeschooled by his parents and did not show much attention in academics in his youth due to his intense upbringing in the yakuza. This is something that he regrets but accepts that it wasn't really his choice to begin with. However he is quite knowledgable, knows broadly about history and literature, and can speak multiple languages (Japanese, Chinese, Korean, English, Spanish). He also learns braille relatively fast after losing eyesight.

Kenshi thinks it's so hot that Johnny has a pHD but also thinks its so strange he doesn't do anything with it. (It's a backup plan so he can write textbooks if his career tanks)

Johnny is great at drawing due to it being a hobby growing up stemming from him being a major comic book fan. Kenshi isn't very artistic however used to be able to do mediocre calligraphy (a skill he learned from his parents) before he became blind.

Kenshi breaking into Cage Mansion the second Cris left was admittedly pretty awkward for him (but he was too distracted by Sento to rly care).

Kenshi tries to not let it get to him, but he is saddened by the fact he cannot read properly anymore. Johnny tries to support him by buying him every audiobook in every language he understands. Kenshi will sometimes ask Johnny to read to him mostly because he loves the sound of his voice.

At first, Kenshi tried to get Sento to help him with daily tasks (cooking, cleaning, etc.), but after talking to Kuai Liang he tries not to rely on Sento on anything non-kombat related.

Kenshi has a slight lisp (I'm sorryyyy this isn't rly a hc but you can hear it in his intro dialogues he still sounds like a badass tho i think it's super cute thank god for Vic Chao)

Johnny makes their home a "smart home" a.k.a 30 Alexas in every room of their place, and a Samsung fridge he can live tweet from while making green juice.

Kenshi sometimes used to drive with Sento in the back seat and got arrested for it one time. Now he gets told off by Johnny for it every time he tries it again.

Kenshi will only drink milky coffee (lattes, cappuccinos, etc.) and prefers tea. Johnny hates coffee and tea and pounds red bull in the morning.

Kenshi used to care a lot about his personal style and mostly only wore suits and dress attire. After losing his eyesight, he didn't care as much anymore and just focused on wearing things that were comfortable (sweatpants, sweaters)

Johnny buys Kenshi soft fluffy things to wear all the time. Kenshi always says it's unnecessary but ends up wearing it anyway.

In MK1 Johnny is 32, and Kenshi is 39 (I like the idea of Kenshi being old it just makes sense to me). It both amuses and horrifies Kenshi that he's dating a white man 7 yrs his junior.

Johnny calls him "old man Takahashi" and Kenshi just goes along with it and says "get off my lawn you punk" or something LOL

I think Kenshi was more of the brawny "tough guy" of the yakuza than the suave, seductive type. He has more of an awkward and stony personality. And the fact that he was desperate to get out makes me think he wouldn't entertain the "flirty" role of the job. (a.k.a Kenshi is BAD at flirting unlike a certain someone)

Johnny sometimes helps Kenshis clunky azz samurai gear on before he engages in kombat. Johnny is also the reason Kenshi sometimes gives up and just wears a suit.

Kenshi shops like an old Asian dad. LOVES Costco, will eat all of the samples. Will buy everything on sale even if he doesn't need it. Will not take Johnny with him because his megastardom ruins the peace of being unrecognized. Has taken Raiden with him though. Will use Johnny's credit card. Johnny is dismayed that he hasn't taken a liking to Erewhon and Whole Foods

When Johnny isn't there with him at night Kenshi will play his movies and fall asleep to the sound of his voice

Kenshi will have sex with the blindfold on. He will fall asleep next to Johnny with it off.

Kenshi doesn't like sleeping with the blindfold on, but was worried it would scare or disgust Johnny in some way. It doesn't and it never did. In fact, Johnny appreciates the intimacy that it creates.

AITA for kicking my cousin out of our city? Kicking out is a strong term. I didn’t exile her or anything, I just - well, here’s the story from the beginning. My cousin-once-removed G (3263F) and I (2188M) were co-founders and co-rulers of this city. I don’t want to give undue credit to either of us - there were and are many others involved in the founding and governance of the place - but it’s fair to say that we two were the ringleaders. And we made a good team! We’re both very opinionated people, so of course there was sometimes tension, but overall I think our disagreements only made our decision-making stronger. That was until A (ageless, M) showed up. A is one of the lesser primordial beings who helped create the world. Necessary context: not long ago there was a catastrophic war between the most powerful of these beings, who was monstrously evil, and his more benevolent brethren. This war was absolutely necessary, but it did wreak havoc on the natural world. Myself and my cousin G and many others had to flee as refugees. When we founded our city, we wanted it to be a place of recovery from all that loss, somewhere that everyone could come together and flourish. The rulers of A’s people sent him to aid us in that. And his help has been invaluable! He’s shared knowledge that has already bettered our city and its people, and now we’re working on a project together that will let us heal so many of the world’s ancient hurts… but I digress. When A showed up, G took an immediate dislike to him. She has some history with the rulers of his folk, and I suppose that colored her opinion of him, but I’ve never seen that level of hostility from her before. She picked at everything he said, implied that he wasn’t trustworthy, even tried to tell me that we should send him away! She argued that since our people’s king had declined A’s help, we should too - which was ridiculous, our city has always made its own decisions, and anyhow our king hadn’t commanded us to do any such thing! Ordinarily G is very clear-headed and has excellent judgment, but in this case I just couldn’t get across to her that she was being unfair. When I was firm in my support of A, G started trying to drum up public animosity against him. Of course I opposed her, and as A had already made many friends in the city and is an excellent rhetorician to boot, G only succeeded in turning public opinion against herself. At city council meetings she continued to oppose A and his projects, but I stood with A, and the majority of the council followed my lead. G was essentially frozen out of the city’s governance - and I do regret that, truly, but she put herself in that position by refusing to work with me and A! Eventually G took the small faction that agreed with her and left the city. She told me my “doom was on my own head,” which was needlessly hostile, I think. And look, I fully believe that she believes she’s in the right. She’s a very principled person; she wouldn’t do all this for petty reasons. She’s just so wrong about A! I truly can’t think of anything else I could have done, but G’s been a blessing to this city and I’m really unhappy to have been part of the reason it lost her. Was there another way I should have handled this conflict? AITA?

♡ lost without you ft. kim taehyung ♡

a/n: tae’s new album is for all the hopeless romantics out there and i’m here for it.

warnings: nsfw (minors DNI).fem reader. major ANGST (i’m sorry). pwp(porn with plot). unprotected sex. not proofread.

summary: PAINNNNNNNN (but yeah pretty much angst…and falling out of love). sorry guys idk why my brain is like this.

“i love you” your sweet boyfriend said, a smile drawn across his face.

“i love you too” you replied, but you didn’t really mean it. those feelings were gone a long time ago. you didn’t know when it started, but suddenly the butterflies weren’t there anymore. you no longer enjoyed spending time with him. you had certainly fell out of love. but you couldn’t find the words to say that to him. you couldn’t look him in straight in the eye and say “i don’t love you anymore”. maybe it was the history and the memories that were keeping you from telling him. or maybe that you longed for those times where you were happy, and full of love.

he held your hand and looked at you concerned “is everything ok, baby?” you removed your hand almost instanlty, regretting it immediately.

“oh, don’t worry babe, it’s just i’m a little tired” you said, placing your hand on his, and trying to brush off all those thoughts that were fogging your mind.

“yeah me too, we should definitely get out of here” taehyung said, after leaving the tip.

the trip back to your apartment was a quiet, sometimes you both sang together the song that was playing. it felt like before for a moment, memories filling your mind and making you feel like everything was all right. but the emptiness was still there.

once you were in your apartment, you decided it, you would say goodbye your own way.

“come here” you said opening your arms to embrace your boyfriend. you held him tight for a long time, there were no lights on. so it was just you two and the darkness embracing your bodies.

“i want you” you whispered in his ear, as you placed your hands on his belt.

“yeah, baby? how bad you want me?” taehyung said as he left a trail of kisses on your neck.

“so bad, i want you now…” you purred as you unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants, and then palming his hardness over his boxers. making him groan against your hot skin.

his hands unzipping your dress, and letting it fall to the floor right next to his pants. his hands now on your waist, pulling you close to him. there was no sound other than your sloppy kisses on filling the room. the emptiness was gone again, you had almost forgotten about it for a moment.

his hands fell to your hips, motioning so you could wrap around his waist, he carried you to your room. and plopped you down on the soft bed, his eyes were glowing, so full of love, you had to turn away.

“look at me, please” he said, his hand cupping your cheek. you turned back, and looked back at him. again making you forget that this was the last time you would be together. you could almost know exactly what he was thinking, he didn’t have to say a word. he adored you, he loved every piece of you. he taught you how to love yourself, when you couldn’t love you.

you pulled him in for a kiss, you played with his golden locks. his soft lips against yours felt like heaven, his teeth grazing yours as he caged your in between his arms. the i love yous in between kisses made you shed a few tears, thankfully his eyes were closed. you didn’t want him to notice this was a goodbye.

one of his hands traveled to your cunt, his fingers rubbing your clit through the soft lace of your panties. “fuck, you’re so wet for me…” you moaned as his fingers played with your sensitive bud. you finished getting rid of your clothes. you were skin to skin, almost melted into one.

you pressed kisses on his honey skin, while he softly thrusted into you. your moans and his groans filled the room. while the dim lights of the streets made your skin glow in the darkness of your bedroom.

“fuck…yeah, like that” you whispered as he kept on pumping in and out of you, watching the white ring around his cock, whenever he slipped his cock out of you and slipped it back inside you. pressing kisses on your shoulder whenever he was fully in you.

suddenly you felt the coil on your belly tighten, “i-i’m so close, baby..”, he started increasing the pace, searching for your high as well as his. you looked at him, once more. pressing him into your memory, his soft hair, his kind eyes, his honey skin, his rosy lips.

this didn’t feel like the other times where you both were drunk and fucked for hours, this felt different. it wasn’t just sex, it was something more. it didn’t feel like the first time, you both where together. this made you wish you could love him again, the way he loved you or even more. made you wish that the emptiness and indifference you felt suddenly would disappear. you regretted not letting him know how much you loved him before all that love was drained out of you.

“you’re mine, and i’m yours” taehyung said, while you both cuddled, covered with the messy sheets. you nodded and cupped his face with both hands.

“i know” you said and kissed him. you kissed each one of his moles, the one on his left cheek, the one on his right eye and even the little one on the tip of his nose. you promised yourself you would engrave the memory the big smile he gifted you before he fell asleep.

you watching him sleep, make sure he wouldn’t see you part. not leaving a single trace of you for him to miss. it was heartbreaking but you would rather disappear without saying another word than watching him break and beg for you to stay. you simply couldn’t. but if you stayed for another minute you would convince yourself not to leave him.

genshin characters as stages of grief

characters : yoimiya, childe, kaeya, dainsleif, thoma, zhongli

warnings : major character death obvs

note : some of these aren’t even that angsty but i just really wanted some character death

Yoimiya (denial)

It just doesn’t make sense. 

What do they mean you’re gone? You were still here with her yesterday, discussing what kind of fireworks to use on Anna’s birthday, roaming around town to stock up on materials, lying in bed with her fingers threading your hair at night. How could you just suddenly… not exist?

She suspects that it will simply take time for it to sink in, but weeks pass, then months, yet she never gets to make peace with the fact that you were gone.

How could she, when she still looks for you in your untouched room, still thinks about you when she’s eating your favorite food?

There are days when she finds herself needing to share with you some entertaining encounters she had, only to remember that she no longer has the privilege.

Even years after your passing, she still keeps her eyes out for you on the streets, as if you’ve simply been travelling elsewhere.

Childe (anger)

At first Ajax is angry at the bringers of the news for even daring to say something so ghastly about you, though he is soon forced to face reality.

Then he’s blinded by fury, storming out of the hospital with red in his eyes. You bet he won’t stop until he finds the ones responsible for your death so that he can watch the regret scream on their faces every time he drives them near the brink of death.

Still he knows that no matter how much he lashes out at them, nothing can bring you back.

In his solitude, he confronts the truth: of course he’s enraged at those who laid their hands on you, but on top of that there is anger directed at himself. 

He should’ve been able to protect you, he should’ve gone out with you, he shouldn’t have let it happen, these self-inflicted blames are to plague his days to come, for it was his carelessness that costed him the only person who keeps his nightmares at bay.

Kaeya (bargaining) 

On the outside, Kaeya looks like he’s coping with your passing pretty well— as well as one can be, anyways.

But in the dead of night, alone in his grotesquely quiet room, his deepest feelings shine through. Circling the half-empty wine bottle on the floor, he wonders how it is that he can never keep the ones he loves around long enough.

He wants you back, so badly that he would do anything. He would pray to any god, look for any unorthodox methods, if just for a slim chance to feel you in his arms one more time. 

If he could just turn back time, he can fix it all. 

Of course, most people aren’t aware that he’s been hoping for the impossible. He knows that they will only look at him with that disgusting look of pity, so he puts on a facade and plays his role.

But sometimes, when everyone else has gone home and the only thing keeping the tavern alive is the noises Diluc makes as he cleans his glasses, the red-haired often finds his teary-eyed brother clutching his forearm, slumped forward while mumbling about how he would do anything if he could just help bring you back.

Dainsleif (depression)

You never knew that he loved you, not when it mattered.

The burden of his curse and the weight of history hasmade it hard for him to care for another, but you were a bright exception. You were the sole flower blooming in the dry, parched land, the safety Dainsleif never dared dream of having.

That Is precisely why he couldn’t have you. Even though it hurt the both of you, he knew the only way to keep you safe was for him to stay far away. So he kept his distance, even though it felt like his numb heart was being torn to pieces every single time.

The funny thing is that it did nothing— all the heartbreak and dull aches were worthless as he cradled your dying form in his arms. It was the closest he’d ever been to you.

Dainsleif is familiar with losses, but this one is particularly hard to carry. His heart succumbs to a deep, frozen winter, clinging to him like a dead weight.

He now knows more than ever that there’s no salvation awaiting him, and that love is just a luxury he can’t afford.

Thoma (depression)

Once the initial shock passes, all that remains is the gaping hole in his heart.

The thing about your death that haunts him the most is that he will never live out his life with you. All those plans and talks about him guiding you around Mondstadt, opening a pet cafe near Ritou… they’ve all vanished into smoke.

There are still so many things he wants to experience with you— relationship milestones, travelling around the world, maybe even starting a warm, lovely family.

But because time is merciless and doesn’t look kindly on those who spend time wishing instead of doing, it takes away the most precious treasure from him.

He tries to heal, really he does. He works with tripled efforts, spends all his time running errands around Inazuma, keeps himself busy so as not to leave any opening for grief to sneak in.

Yet there is only so much he can do to protect himself against sorrow. After all, it is a raging thunderstorm capable of destroying even the strongest man. If Ayaka hears his muffled cries at night, she doesn’t say a word of it, and Ayato knows better than to try and console a man who has had his present and future stolen in one breath.

Zhongli (acceptance)

Zhongli is no stranger to grief. Over the centuries he has seen people succumb to the corrosion of time, so much that he has the illusion that he’s somehow made peace with grief.

That is until you’re gone. 

He knew from the first day that you wouldn’t be with him forever, he just never expected death to be so impatient that it took you early.

In the eyes of an outsider he looks tranquil, but that is only because he is not used to displaying his emotions in big letters on his face. Deep inside, the cracks that have healed over his heart are tearing at the seams again, and your sudden end leaves him with regrets he could never hope to overcome.

Just how many times must he see those he holds close leave this world? He finds himself pondering this question sometimes, even though it’s pointless. He is eternal, mortals are not, and now even you have become history.

With you gone, he feels as though life is missing a fundamental color. The world is less due to your absence. To fill the void in his ribs, he finds himself lingering around your grave with flowers most of the time.

A GIRL'S BEST FRIEND

you chose not to ask about it

remember that some of the paths are similar, but every decision is important for the outcome

if you're new here, go back to the beginning !!

the air in the cafeteria swirls with the aroma of brewing coffee and the buzz of conversation as you spot soobin making his way towards your table. "long time no see!" you greet him with a grin as he slide into the seat opposite you.

you might be judging a book by its cover, but with his bunny-like face and gentle demeanour put you to ease. trusting him is a gut feeling, but also, someone who is friends with kai must be decent, right? at least more than yourself, you remind yourself; you shouldn't have been eavesdropping in the first place.

"sorry i ditched you earlier i´ve got this annoying friend. you'll meet him, eventually." he mentions, and you decide to not give it much importance. he then throws a glance your water bottle order with playful disdain. "plain water? no flavor, no fun…"

"what? i was thirsty!" you chuckle. "what were you thinking about having, anyway?"

"right so," he leans back, a mischievous glint in his eyes. "are you a gin girl or a vodka girl?"

you raise an eyebrow. "i'm more of a 'give me the strongest and cheapest thing you've got' kind of girl."

"ah, so a college student." he laughs. "i can work with that."

before you can even pull your wallet out, he's already on his way to the counter. next thing you knew, he's back with two mysterious glasses in hand, each with a murky color that hint at a blend of different liquors. "what's in these?" you ask, raising an eyebrow.

"it´s the college student special. and trust me, you don't wanna know," he replies with a smirk. you both take a sip immediately your faces contort into grimaces. "it's good, right?" he asks through a goosebump.

"delicious." you deadpan, your voice dripping with mock enthusiasm as the two of you dissolve into laugher. he's fun to be around, soobin. "hey, speaking of college," you begin to say. "i saw you studying earlier. flunking many courses, huh?"

"i'm a brilliant student, mind you." he says, acting offended, hand to his chest. "passed every subject with flying colors. it's embarrassing to say but it was just for fun. and a crippling need for academic validation. but mostly fun. you can call me a nerd, whatever."

"ah, a nerd... so that explains why you're friends with huening kai."

"huening's a weeabish nintendo fanboy, not my breed of nerd." he said. "also, you're huening kai´s cousin so that makes you a nerd, genetically."

"bold assumption."

"but am i wrong?" he asks. and, as you stay silent, having no way to debate him, he grins and says, "exactly."

"anyway... what's your major?" you ask.

"history."

"of course. any specific field within that?"

"classical history. you know, greece and rome."

"of course."

"shut up." he says, taking another sip of the college student special he soon regrets. "what about you, what's your major?"

your expression darkens slightly, catching his attention. "i... um, literature." you mumble.

"your face just went all gloomy. not really really liking it, are you?"

"yeah, it's... it feels so hollow, you know? i've dreamt of being a writer since forever, and i love books. but sitting in class, drowning in grammar and syntax... it's like they've missed the whole point. i dunno, it's hard to put into words. i don't even understand it myself. that's why i'm heading back to geoje for the summer. need some time to figure things out."

"sure! sometimes you gotta step back to see the bigger picture, figure out what truly matters to you." he smiles. "my friend, the one who just called me, he's been going through something similar. he's a music major, you know? i've been trying to give him some advice, but i'm pretty happy with my major, so it's tough to advise him from my standpoint. feels a bit shallow. he's... well, he..." there's a pause as he hesitates. "i think you two would hit it off."

"i'm sure, yeah!" you force a smile to hide your awkwardness. the friend he was talking to on the phone, the friend who had been your bully but now apparently wanted to apologise. but of course, that was just your assumption.

the remainder of the trip was spent in lively conversation with soobin, exchanging summer plans and trading stories about your favorite spots in geoje. to your delight, you stumbled upon a mutual fascination with the iliad, diving headfirst into a debate over homer's authorship. it was endearing to see soobin's passion for the subject, you found traces of huening kai in him. it brought back memories of the heated arguments kai and you used to have as kids, fiercely debating which pokémon was the most powerful.

outside the train window, the sky shifts to deeper shades of purple as you approach your destination. you tell soobin that huening kai would be picking you up and offer him a ride too, but he politely declines, mentioning that he lives near the station.

and so, you finally arrive to geoje. you say goodbye to soobin, and just as you step outside the train, you feel your phone buzz in your pocket. you check it to find a text notification from huening kai. "i'm here! bring the awkward on. 💪🏻"

go find huening kai.

What's been most exciting for you about your upcoming eversnow roadtrip romcom longfic, We Wild Creatures? Anything you wish/can share with us about it before posting starts? And how long (word count-wise) do you think it might get?

Thank you for the ask!!

Most exciting: in The Shivering Season Katniss’ attraction to Snow develops out of a trauma response, and though she begins the story able to acknowledge his handsomeness and concludes it taking a certain delight in his beauty, the majority of the fic frames his body through a lens of disgust. This is totally unfair because Donald Sutherland is, of course, absolutely fucking gorgeous, and We Wild Creatures will present Katniss’ slow attraction to him in much healthier terms. In short, I get to write about how incredibly beautiful and sexy Sutherland is without that frame of disgust. Yaaay!

Length: The story is in two parts, The Wilds and The Warren. Part one should be around 80k words, of which I’ve drafted 50k+. I expect Part Two to be shorter, but I really don’t know! I would like it to be shorter than The Shivering Season, but, uh, I do sometimes get carried away and write more than perhaps I should. So, 130k?

Anything to share: The story is set after Mockingjay, where Coin survives Katniss’ arrow and Snow escapes. Katniss is sent to find Snow, take him as prisoner, and escort him across the landscape to the rebel base as part of a plan to overthrow Coin. Road trip! On the way, they get to know one another very, very well.

This story puts two people in a survival situation where their unmanageably painful history no longer matters, because if they don’t cooperate they will die. If dwelling on that history only brings you more pain, what do you do with it? Here, Snow is completely powerless and willing to obey Katniss, because she is the only thing of value left in his life. What kind of justice can you enact against an old man who regrets nothing and is now basically harmless? Katniss might decide she has had enough of suffering, but that doesn’t mean everybody else Snow has wronged feels the same way. She becomes his protector as much as he is her prisoner.

And it’s about bodies and humanity. Taking two extremely different people who share so much pain, and forcing them to reckon with one another as human bodies struggling to survive. Getting to know a person as a living, breathing animal. And perhaps you want that human animal in your life more than you want to kill the monster you imagined him to be (the monster that he is). Snow cannot be forgiven (and does not want to be), but if you find some other value in a person than your hatred for them, what do you do with that?

And, also, it’s about trust, affection, self-discovery, age, gender, and sexuality. We are going to be Sexualizing That Old Man in this story. Whereas Part 1 deals with Katniss and Snow crossing the wilds, Part 2 deals with their time at the rebel base alongside Haymitch, Gale, and Johanna. How will those characters react to Katniss and Snow’s growing bond? Not well!!

Hello! A lot of you had positive responses to my last post, so here I’ll be writing my personal rewrites of the I.M.P. Crew (Sorry this took so long, I got side-tracked this weekend <:]). For a reminder of what my redesigns looked like, you can find them Here. I’m gonna go from left to right and start with the first crew member:

Mildred (or Millie)

I did a lot of reworking around Mildred since a majority of her characterization is basically nonexistent, so I gave her a personality with a lot of potential and complexity that’s on par with her male crew members.

Mildred comes from a very low-income, Southern family in the Wrath Ring. She grew up on a barn with her parents and several other siblings, making her essentially a middle child. She worked on their farm for most of her life as a hand and delivery girl to send fresh produce to buyers and the local market. It was like this for some time until the family business had gone dry due to some messy ties with the upper-class that resulted in them going into poverty. Wanting to help her family and support them financially Mildred left to go find work elsewhere, in which she meets Blitzo and is hired onto the I.M.P. team.

She’s very hard-working, a bit brutish but has a heart of gold, and is blunt and out-spoken. She’s not very sophisticated but has a lot of Wisdom to her and gives some great advice to Loona as the only other woman in the workplace, and someone for Loona to look up to in times of need. She gets along great with everyone except Moxxie, who she butts heads with constantly due to their conflicting personalities and backgrounds. Speaking of Moxxie, he’s next on the list.

Moxandicus (Moxxie)

Moxxie was an Imp born into the wealthier part of Imp society, basically making him the equivalent of your typical “uptight, sophisticated rich boy”. His family comes from a line of competitive businessmen, none of that mafia mumbo-jumbo, though they probably do have some loose ties to them in some way. Moxxie is the odd-one-out of his family, rather than taking an interest in the family business, instead finds his passion in Mortals History (this man is so infatuated with Humans culture its crazy). Because of this, his family looked at him more as a nuisance “wasting his time on silly hobbies”, and basically cut him off from his wealth until he “proved himself worthy” of being welcomed back into the family. Now broke and nowhere to go, Moxxie finds himself looking for work, where he meets Blitzo and joins I.M.P.

I imagine my Moxxie has a very similar personality to the one if the show, except he’s more educated, calculating, snooty and uptight, and less of.. I don’t know how to put this— coward? Butt of the joke? You get what I mean. He’s essentially the straight man and voice of reason for the group, and is the one who usually has to get them out of their pickles when working. He doesn’t have a lot of street smarts and is less willing to get his hands dirty compared to everyone else. Like I said earlier he clashes a lot with Millie and frequently questions Blitzo’s authority, but most of the time doesn’t argue back on the count of that’s his boss. He’s indifferent towards Loona, though questions why a teenager is working for them in the first place.

Blitz(o)

A lot of Blitz’s backstory and personality is mostly the same: Grew up in the circus in the Pride Ring, left after wanting to seek more in life prove to everyone someone from his social class can make it big in the world, yadayadayada. However I did rewrite some things that I believed wold make his character a lot better/more tolerable:

He’s still on good terms with his sister, they’re just really busy all the time so they don’t have a lot of time to talk or see each other (I’m so sick of this dude not having at LEAST one good relationship).

He and Verosika are still on bad terms due to their messy break-up, though I want to believe Blitzo regrets and sometimes even misses her and the actions that led to their falling out, though due to his pride refuses to admit it out loud.

None of that weird “sexually harassing my coworkers” shit. That was weird and gross.

I gave him a personality that’s more attuned to “if Weird Al was a bounty hunter who grew up in the circus”. He was always some silly little guy to me. The man grew up in a circus, I’d expect him to be a little clowned down if you get what I’m sayin’.

His relationship with Loona is typically the same. He adopted her when she was around 13-14 and has been raising her ever since as his teenage daughter (None of that weird “treating hellhounds like literal peta thing that was weird and confusing). He makes her work as their secretary and “social media manager” as a way to earn a weekly allowance and also “the kids are hip with it she’ll do wonders for us promotionally”. She does not, he just refuses to admit it.

Leona (Loona)

I’ve done a lot of reworking for Loona as well, same reasons as Millie. Istg they do not know how to wrote female characters.

Loona is a hellhound born from the Sloth Ring. She doesn’t know a lot of her background, but was raised in foster care for a small portion of her life until Blitzo took her in when she hit her teenage years. Before that however she took a liking towards astrology and magic and would constantly read about it in her formative years. When she began living with Blitz she began attending schooling to further learn about magic and how to translate older works, which is how she’s able to use Stolas’ book for the IMP team to use. She get’s teased on a lot in school for being one of the only Hellhounds there, which causes her to feel insecure about herself and shut in from people including Blitz.

Loona’s a very quiet, closed-off teenager (16-17), who’s very much in that “going through a phase” part of growing up. She’s very insecure about herself and is easily-impressionable, which is why she looks up to Millie so much, since she’s cool and is the only other girl in the office space to talk to. Loona’s relationship with Blitz is the same, except she actually acts like a teenager and not an abusive asshole. She wants to prove to herself that she’s not some “loser nobody” and can actually do magic and make friends with other teens her age.

And that’s it. Sorry it was so long I had a lot to say lol. If you have further questions, direct them to my ask box.

hey ajekdkjdd idk if you’re comfortable sharing or anything but i’ll graduate high school soon and i want to study art history so i was wondering what it was like for you? like. im currently debating whether or not i should do it or just go with law or international relations bc i’ll probably starve if i do end up majoring in art history so.

i was just wondering how it all. was. like. for you

btw when i read ahb last year my obsession with art history got stronger and sometimes i simply want to crawl into a hole

hi!!

honestly i think you have to have an honest conversation with yourself on what you value most??

for me, it was either major in something i wasn’t super passionate about so every day i went to work it would be a job. but i’d made a decent amount of money i could spend in my free time. OR. i could major in something i loved and get a job that made me never want to stop learning ,,, but i would struggle a bit !

i wanted a job that didn’t feel like a job. i wanted to be surrounded w art and history and beautiful things and i wanted to help preserve and talk about those beautiful things and if i had to struggle to do that, then i would !!

i’m not going to lie to you i LOVED every bit of my education. every moment of studying art history was wonderful and fascinating. i don’t regret any of it. i had the best time.

but now that i’m post-grad im kinda out here like 🧍‍♀️. bc it is hard to find a job in this field and establish yourself 😭 but i’ll get there!!

it really just depends on what you want out of your job i suppose! 😋

How much of each other's childhoods/backgrounds do the la squadra members know? Do they know about Risotto cousin? Pesci dad? I'm sure the majority are very private

Going by what little we have in canon, and in canon we get one (1) member explained, I feel like Risotto would not have voluntarily talked about his childhood or background - not so much keeping it secret as ignoring the facts for the sake of his team and leadership. At the same time, I could see some facts surfacing if they others decided to do a little digging, especially around how and why Risotto ended up in Passione, which makes his order to forget about Sorbet and Gelato hypocritical and personally painful at the same time if they know that he would want to avenge them more than anyone.

As for the others:

Melone feels like the type who just unabashedly talks about it, all you have to do is ask or for something to feel relevant enough to warrant a remark, and it's mostly a very neutral disclosure;

Gelato is also honest about his history, but he takes far more pride in all the tomfoolery and jackassery he's done, and the more he drinks, the more of it will come out;

I could see Formaggio offering colorful little stories here and there, in that some details are exaggerated or made up for a playful fare as well as to mask some unpleasant truths;

Pesci kind of wants to talk about his past, but at the same time is convinced that his past is boring and nobody really wants to hear it, and feels he doesn't have the talent required to make it sound interesting, so he would have to really be made comfortable and coaxed patiently for a long time to talk;

Meanwhile Ghiaccio would prefer to never talk about his childhood or background ever, except when he gets carried away and goes on tangents, you can see that there are some past grievances coming to the surface, resulting in a bunch of angry fragments;

Sorbet has a somewhat sordid relationship with his past, there are things he regrets and things that he feels are embarrassing, so he mostly keeps quiet, but like with Gelato, alcohol helps loosen his tongue and so a vague history becomes obtainable;

and Illuso and Prosciutto are probably the most secretive about their backgrounds, Illuso in a "nobody must ever know me" way and Prosciutto in a "none of your business" way, though Illuso sometimes gives away very small details that are a matter of pride to him, and Prosciutto just never talks if he can help it, period.

Bonus: I love the idea of Formaggio and Risotto as childhood friends, and if they were, they would know each other's histories, with Formaggio weaponizing Risotto's for fun anecdotes and Risotto sometimes talking about Formaggio's past as a means of helping others understand him better.

ahh i should have clarified that i myself don't have a degree (yet). i'm not from an academically inclined background so when i didn't do well in my first two semesters of university (i failed some classes and only barely passed others), i got very discouraged and saw it as a sign that university is just not for someone like me. i then learned a trade and have been working in the field; but i'm interested in going to university as a mature student and i'm going to apply this year for a BA :)

still, precisely because i don't have a degree it really upsets me that someone who used the chatGPT shortcut is a teacher now. teaching high school students is an academic profession, and it doesn't sit right with me how common it is for teachers to say things like "i learned so much useless stuff in university; none of which i need as a teacher"; it's actually really frustrating. then why do you go to university/become a teacher? ??? ????? (i mean i know why, because it pays well here.)

in our country, MA/MSc degrees are required for a lot of positions, so grad school isn't quite as "you're here because you choose to be" but still.. his sentiment is basically, since he teaches high school students it should just be sufficient to be able to teach them, what’s the point of a thesis? like ok with that sort of logic i could have been a teacher with just a high school certifcate. i think tbh there is a wider discussion here about how people just don’t value knowledge too.

he also later said that he sometimes regrets not just paying someone to write it for him and save himself a lot of time and trouble 💀to me that is just the epitome of being so full of yourself. he has just decided that he has what it takes to be a teacher and making him write a thesis is a waste of time because of that. lmao??

also I would like to point out that this guy is not my friend, just someone i met through a mutual friend (and they’re not exactly friends either, they work together💀) i talked about this with my friend and she said that he isn't even the first person she knows who has casually admitted to using chatGPT like this. i guess they feel emboldened to casually admit to cheating because they know that their peers won't report them because that would then make them look like snitches

i'm sorry about venting like this to you; i just remembered that you spoke about the chatGPT problem before

Well first of all: fingers crossed for your BA applications !! Everyone got at their own pace, sometimes you need a few years to figure out how to best approach University!!

That is indeed upsetting that someone who does not value critical thinking and does not understand the point of research/research writing is teaching now. "I don't need it anyway/I did so much useless stuff at school/Uni" is such a dumb. dumb. Argument.

Like, I had to study German and Spanish and Latin and theology. I took the equivalent of AP biology and physics in school and learned how to use a soldering iron and identify rocks. I learned Roman Law, and company insolvency rules, and the procedure to contest a refusal to grant you a construction permit. During my PhD, I had to become proficient in advanced data-driven research methods and 2 different code languages. NONE OF THAT has anything to do with me job, whatsoever. I teach students about the International Court of Justice and some of them are Literature and History majors. I KNOW that their dazzling knowledge in embeddedness theories of international adjudication is NOT what will get them a job.

But it's not about the raw knowledge, it's about

1. Transferable skills: targeted reading, critical thinking, information gathering, writing for different audiences, time management, group work, self-reflection, project management, conflict resolution...

2. Learning how to learn: adapting to new situations, new rules and new logics; switching from one type of reasoning to another; picking up on new practices, new skills, as fast as possible, knowing how YOU best do that: on your own, with friends, listening, writing, visuals, with cues, independently, by teaching...

3. Putting your future work (and honestly, yourself as a person) in a broader context: knowing what the ICJ is to spot dumb and wrong info when you see it. Knowing that it MATTERS that we know different types of rocks, and therefore we should fund research on geology. Knowing quantitative research methods to know when they are used well and when it's bullshit. Knowing that Latin shaped some languages and not others, to understand the limits of translation itself. Knowing how 'generative' AIs work to understand that there is very little about them that is actually 'generative'.

I would evening argue that just being confronted with the sheer vastness of Things and Knowledge and Fields that are not yours has value in and of itself. It keeps you humble, aware that no matter how much you are knowledgeable on your one (1) thing, in the back of your mind, there is the knowledge that there is much, much knowledge you actually do not have and cannot claim to have. OR, in the wise words of Dan Olson on CryptoBros, to avoid being the kind of person that:

"assume that because they understand one complicated thing [...] all other complicated things must be lesser in complexity and naturally lower in the hierarchy of reality"

hi 🗣️ may i please request a bg3 matchup?? (i'm p sure i've done matchups for you in the past on my sideblog @frostfall-matches - i'd be happy to make this an exchange if you want!! 💪 you may ignore the fact that my requests are listed as closed lol)

raven / 20s / any pronouns / slight preference for male match but gals are fine too.

personality traits (and notes): introverted (distant, disinterested in getting close to many people, does not get lonely), extremely independent (often refuses to rely on others, hates when people step in to help without me asking for help), confident (arrogant, a bit prideful), straightforward (blunt, sometimes tactless), even-tempered (somewhat apathetic, rarely has strong emotional reactions, but is baseline content almost always), good sense of humor, playful, teasing, mischievous, realist that leans optimistic, curious (nosey, loves gossip), a bit of a troublemaker/rulebreaker, does not shy away from conflict (a bit combative with authority and people who don’t know what they’re doing), not sentimental, does not hold onto regrets, good at self-reflection, cold and a little mean when upset with someone.

hobbies: drawing (digital), painting (watercolor, acrylic), baking, cosplay, reading, taking care of plants, thrill-seeking activities, traveling.

likes: cats, sweets, good food, lattes, aromatic candles, cool weather, traveling, piercings, tattoos, puns (!), lazy days, learning foreign languages, cleaning, new experiences, people with a good sense of humor (quite subjective), when people banter back with me, people who develop their own opinions but are still willing to listen to other perspectives.

dislikes: bitter foods, strong scents, pessimism, hot weather, feeling restricted, possessiveness, conformity, having to be responsible for others, when people don’t stand up for themselves, overly anxious people, people-pleasers, when people act condescending towards me, people who try to force conversation with me.

types: intj-a ; 7w8 ; love languages: physical touch, quality time.

misc.: clumsy ; accidentally misuses slang or phrases bc i can never remember how they go ; able to pick up new skills relatively quickly ; studied french, korean, and latin in uni (also studied abroad) ; majors in international cultures/languages + minors in psychology and medieval history ; prone to being a bit directionless in life ; prone to bad luck but tries to find the humor in most situations ; life approach: to live a life of varied experiences, to not take life too seriously, to not dwell too much on the past.

physical description: 155cm, green eyes, round youthful face, curvy, dimple on one cheek, pale skin (sunburns so easily...), 5 piercings in one ear, 4+an industrial in the other, navel piercing. changes hair color/style/length frequently but it's currently mid back length and toned silver, almost always has straight bangs, hair is wavy.

in bg3 persona: wood elf ; main class ranger (gloomstalker) w/ rogue-like tendencies ; the child of merchant parents and did a lot of traveling with them when she was young but has decided to explore and adventure by herself in adulthood ; not really the academic type but is pretty book smart and willing to learn new things ; equal parts strategic and careless, depending on the situation.

Omg hi and thx for the request! Sure I’d love to turn this into a trade and thank you for all the matchups you’ve done for me in the past!

Astarion!!!

Lowkey this was an easy decision. I feel like you couldn’t be a better match for anyone else, but him. You guys have similar personalities with just enough differences to bring the necessary variety to the relationship.

I feel like you guys would definitely bump heads when first meeting due to similar traits (prideful, apathetic, loner), but once you both begin to care more for your party members including each other than sparks start to fly!

You get close very quickly because it’s so easy to banter and bounce off each other.

At first he finds you optimistic and care free nature a bit annoying at first, but then begins to find is refreshing when times are bleak.

I feel like when Astarion’s trying to seduce you for your own goals and you aren’t falling for it, it’ll be the classic troupe of where person A gets every person to swoon over them except person B which makes them want person B even more.

However when he actually starts falling for you he does get nervous and start to back off a bit, but oh no you’re not letting him get away from you that easily.

Due to your knowledge in psychology you’re able to notice his self destructive behaviors and talk him out of it, but ultimately let him take the lead in figuring out what he wants in life.

Also because of your blunt nature you’re able to deliver the hard truths that he needs to hear without sugur coating things.

Even after your mindflayer worm adventures, you two continue to adventure for awhile. Sharing lots if experiences and fun on the road.

If you get yourself into a tough altercation with some people on the road, Astarion’s charisma helps defuse the situation.

Astarion is still working on his trauma so you’ll have to work up to physical touch with him, but once you do he really likes being held and playing with your hair. He also likes to trace your tattoos.

Astarion is also an introvert so he understands how you need to have alone time as much as he himself does. Although sometimes you guys will be in the same room doing your own things and count it as quality time. (Yknow like comfortable silence)

When you’re having a chill day on the road or once your adventuring days are over, you guys have lazy days together. You’ll cuddle and he’ll read to you. You guys may get a bit intimate but don’t necessarily have sex (not saying it never happens though).

You guys exchange elvish traditions (or what astarion can remember of them) and talk about the history of faerun together.

He gets you a lot of souvenirs on the road usually different snacks and foods for you to try with the occasional scented candle or new set of paints. He even gets you seeds of the local plant life for you to grow.

You guys would get a cat. So many people say astarion is a cat person and I whole heartedly agree.

He (loves) hates your puns. He cringes so hard every time you make one (but he finds your smug face very adorable).

Yknow that popular headcanon about how Astarion’s lover would paint a picture of him so he can finally see what he looks like. Well if you would do that as like a birthday or anniversary present and man would full on cry from happiness at the gesture.

He just loves you so much and is so grateful to finally have someone in his life to bring him joy again.

Sorry id this kind of sucks im writing this early in the morning cause I was inspired.

Runners Up: Lae’zel, Karlach

ACTS DONE BY + INFORMATION LEAKED BY SASAENGS OVER THE YEARS  |  SUN SOOAH 선수아 [SEVENTEEN]

! TRIGGER WARNINGS ! : Breaking into hotel room, people being put in danger, cheating, pregnancy scares, fighting, personal privacy being invaded, 

*If there are other trigger warnings you feel are present let me know and I will add them to the list !!

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☒ SOLO DEBUT

TIME FRAME: Mid 2020

REACTION: Many Carats were upset about her personal space being hacks and the leaking of what was going to be the first soloist to debut in SEVENTEEN. They praised the song and her vocals on it as it was going to be her debut to show her vocal talent.

A few sasaengs, back in mid 2020, had hacked into her iphone account that she uses to save and keep track of her music and photos and other things in her daily life. After looking through everything they had came across a snippet of a few of her solo songs and ideas for her debut solo mini album and had leaked it around 4:14 AM KST on JUNE 14TH. She was very upset and actually cried to some of the members behind the scenes when it happened as her, WOOZI, VERNON, and HOSHI worked extremely hard on those songs for two years prior. Although the song was leaked, many Carats were interested in her solo album!

☒ DATING DISASTER

TIME FRAME: Sometimes in 2016, 2018 - 2019, and 2022

REACTION: 50/50, some fans were happy their idols were in a relationship but others were extremely upset that SOONAH and their possible biases were in a relationship. The rumors from all years are sometimes still brought up. 

SOONAH is often victim to sasaengs leaking information about her dating history and relationships with other idols. Majority of the time the leaks are harmless with little to no context or facts to back up the claim that she is dating certain idols. The first dating rumor was around mid 2016 with her and iKON’s BOBBY. Both companies denied any leak and rumor stating the two had never been introduced before so them being together was untrue. In the timeframe of 2018 - 2019, she was wrapped in the dating rumors with three other idols; MONSTA X’s I.M., PENTAGON’s YUTO, ONF’s WYATT respectively. All companies responded say the pairing were not intimately close and were just close friends who were working on a project together. The most recent leak/dating rumor was with THE BOYZ’ JACOB. Neither companies nor the two of them spoke on the matter and some fans still ask to this day. 

☒ HOTEL FREAK OUT

TIME FRAME: Late 2022

REACTION: Many carats were worried for her and the members she was rooming with. No one was hurt but some items were stolen. Charges or other legal actions were not filed against them. 

While she was staying in a hotel room, for the FACE THE SUN TOUR, that she shared with fellow members WONWOO, VERNON, and DINO. She had just gotten off her hiatus and was able to join the boys in their BE THE SUN TOUR. While the four of them were out eating with other members, a group of sasaengs that were waiting outside the hotel for them to leave were able to get up to their room and break in. A few items of her were taken along with a few items of the other members. 

☒ RUDE PERSONALITY

TIME FRAME: 2014 - 2016

REACTION: Trainees were proved to be sasaengs + accusations were debunked. Some antis still bring this rumor up to the day. 

It was leaked once that she was a former JYP trainee from 2014 - 2016. A few former trainees had come out and said that she was extremely rude and had a arrogant personality while the four of them were trainees. She didn’t speak on the topic for a while until it really got to her where she had to take a mental health hiatus.

☒ GIRL FIGHT

TIME FRAME: Late 2020 - Early 2021

REACTION: The public thought that the reasonings behind her actions were justified for the most part. She had publicly owned up to her actions when the information was leaked and says she does not regret what she had done. She does sometimes joke that anyone can get it as she’s never lost any of the fights.

The information of her being in fights was one that came out of the blue. It was kept under wraps for a few years after it happened. It is a well known fact that SOONAH and JINSUNG from SOUR CANDY are extremely close as they were classmates for a while. And while little is known about the two’s relationship plenty of people knew that her and YEWON disliked each other to an extreme level. No reasoning for the two’s dislike for each other is known. They had fought behind closed doors a few times before it was leaked in 2021 of their fights. 

[ MATCHUP EXCHANGE! @frostfall-matches ]

fandom(s): twisted wonderland, genshin.

basic info: raven, nonbinary but fem leaning, any pronouns ok.

personality: introverted (distant, disinterested in getting close to most, does not get lonely, takes a long time to open up or even interact w/ others), extremely independent (often refuses to rely on others, hates when people step in to help without me asking), confident (arrogant, a bit prideful), straightforward (blunt, sometimes tactless/insensitive), even-tempered (somewhat apathetic, rarely has strong emotional reactions, but is baseline content almost always), good sense of humor, playful, teasing, mischievous, realist that leans optimistic, curious (nosey, loves gossip), a troublemaker/rulebreaker, often unintentionally gets into trouble (then laughs about it), does not shy away from conflict (a bit combative with authority and irritating people), not sentimental, does not hold onto regrets, good at self-reflection, cold and a little mean when upset with someone.

hobbies: video games, watching anime, drawing (digital), painting (watercolor, acrylic), baking, cosplay, reading (fantasy, occasionally books on history), taking care of plants, thrill-seeking activities.

likes: cats, sweets, most fruits, good food, lattes, aromatic candles, cool weather, traveling, piercings, tattoos, puns, learning foreign languages, new experiences, people with a good sense of humor (quite subjective), when people banter back with me, people who let me tease them, people who develop their own opinions but are still willing to listen to other perspectives.

dislikes: bitter foods, strong scents, pessimism, hot weather, feeling restricted, possessiveness, conformity, having to be responsible for others, when people don’t stand up for themselves (i tend to look down on/clash with people who are overly insecure), overly anxious people, people-pleasers, when people act condescending towards me

misc.: intj-a ; 7w8 ; love languages: physical touch, quality time ; clumsy ; accidentally (+purposefully) misuses slang or common phrases ; enjoys skin care and hair care but rarely wears makeup ; able to pick up new skills relatively quickly ; studied french, korean, and latin in uni (also studied abroad in korea) ; majors in international cultures/languages + minors in psychology and medieval history ; prone to being a bit directionless in life ; prone to bad luck but tries to find the humor in most situations ; life approach: to live a life of varied experiences, to not take life too seriously, to not dwell too much on the past.

appearance: 5'1"/155cm ; pear-shaped ; very pale skin, burns easily ; round face, single dimple on right cheek, big green eyes, long eyelashes, button nose ; natural hair is light ash brown, wavy, almost always styled with straight bangs, it is currently mid-back length, layered, toned silver ; 5 piercings in one ear, 4+an industrial in the other, navel piercing.

clothing style: more masculine, rarely wears dresses, color scheme is black/gray/dark or muted green ; loves flannels, leather jackets, fishnets, combat boots ; enjoys sweatpants and hoodies when lounging at home.

(thank you for doing an exchange with me!)

hello! Thanks for doing this exchange with me; here our the characters I would match you up with in the fandoms you chose

for twisted wonderland, I match you up with Vil Schoenheit;

styles you and shows you off to his dorm mates (and people on set if you go with him any where)

is very jealous if you end up talking to other people

make up and skin care (either way(if you are fine)) but will get really picky if you don’t do his right

if you go to a different school, he will turn up at your school during sometime that you both down have class and will pick you up for a date but if you go to night ravens college, he will walk everywhere with you and will walking to to class

if you are in the same house(I’m not one to make judgment on houses) he will make sure you are comfortable always: not like he ain’t doing that if your in other houses.

some people are kinda confused that you two are dating because of how self centred he comes off, but if he really cares, you are his everthing(even if you(or others) don’t verbally know it)

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and for Genshin, I match you up with Keaya

Would give you a flower a day; so at the end of the week you would have a mini bundle, then at the end of the mouth a bouquet

this man 110% where’s perfume, so he makes sure it isn’t to strong when he gets to be around you

he is a knight so he will sometimes not always be around you, but he will make it up to you when he is around

bregs about you to Diluc(I would Imagine he likes you)

he will banter with you, with out a dout

hype man and no one can change my mind; you doing anything and he just has little pompoms, whether they are physical or mental in his mind is up to you, but he is supporting you all the way

feels like he can just let go around you and I think he needs it.

hand kisser 2

sorry this took so long but here it is, hopefully you like it

17, 25 and 28 for the Weird Questions for Writers ask thing 💖

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

so i just finished writing the third part of a story where Soma and Galahad are both (gender neutral) hitmen, and i'll try to force myself to return to a cyberpunk au with Diego and Khara because lbr, anyone who's ever seen Khara will agree that he was meant for a cyberpunk setting i don't rly have much info abt this story yet, it was born randomly out of a convo that sidetracked a bit, but i just know that the usual power/status imbalance will be there, as well as a lot of neon lights, cool weapons (that may or may not endanger someone's life 🤭) and the classic sexual tension (and the characters toootally won't catch feelings) Diego and Khara will obv be the main characters but Soma and Val's Frye will also make an appearance and i really regret that there's no way to incorporate more lore abt them into the plot bc they're always the most disastrous (in a funny way) duo it's supposed to be a short-ish work so i won't get to paint a detailed picture regarding the setting itself, which is both good and bad - good bc i suck when it comes to creating setting-specific tech and bad bc sometimes the skeleton of the story is more fun that the meat as for what also won't make it into the story but will definitely exist in my imagination is all the weird gadgets and body mods Khara could own

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

body modifications and injuries, i think! many of my ocs' piercings are never mentioned in the stories bc there's no way to incorporate that info into the stories in a way that wouldn't feel extremely redundant (like Galahad's dick piercing), and tattoos are rarely mentioned in detail besides a few instances (Khara's tattoos get the most attention bc it's just fun to describe the snakes coiling around his body) as for injuries, only the major stuff like Diego's terrible back or Khara's heart issues gets the spotlight, but there are multiple characters with minor injuries, like Fay who shares my damaged nerves in his middle finger or Cyrus with joint issues (what would also count as hyper-specific and incredibly personal is that i like to assign kinks to my ocs)

28. Who is the most delightful character you’ve ever written? Why?

i'm not sure if i'm the person who should be answering it and obv i don't have enough readers who could share their opinions, but i guess it depends on what we consider "delightful"? Phaedra is an absolute snake and my second worst character in terms of behavior, but i do think he's well-crafted, and he's v fun to write! Khara is on the opposite(-ish) end of that spectrum, he's gone through massive character development and he usually evolves within the stories, so i'd imagine it's also fun to witness it, and i think it's safe to say that over the years he became one of my absolute faves among my ocs

thank you so so much for sending these! 💖

I've been following you for a few days. I don't know if it's a good idea to talk to you by asking questions, but I did it anyway. I feel that most people on the Internet don't have a good opinion of Garrosh (it's true that he did a lot of bad things in the later plot), but these people have gradually evolved into attacking you 100% if you say something good about Garrosh. They even send some vulgar meme expressions to attack this poor guy 😢. So do these people really understand the shaping of Garrosh's character? Maybe they only know the later version of Garrosh's blackening to curse him as a complete villain, or maybe they just want to curse this character for the sake of cursing? I really can't accept this kind of thing. If they really haven't understood Garrosh enough and come to attack him, then I think they are completely lacking in connotation, either stupid or bad. I just started playing World of Warcraft recently and immediately fell in love with Garrosh. Now I'm trying to learn about Garrosh from the TBC version and through some veteran players' stories. I learned that this character was messed up by internal struggles among the screenwriters. He was essentially supposed to be a positive and heroic character, not the big villain who collapsed later. But there are always people who don't want to analyze the core of this character, but simply attack him from the worst version. I feel very uncomfortable 😭 and this kind of misunderstanding is particularly serious on Twitter. I'm very sad 😢 and sometimes I'm even influenced by this kind of misunderstanding and have self-doubt. I really can't stand it. They say Garrosh is a tumor, but I feel that they are the real tumors and even more toxic than tumors. Oh...I really feel sorry for Garrosh 😢 and hope to eliminate this misunderstanding 😭。

first i want to say that anyone is welcome to talk to me in my askbox, that's why i have it open and have anonymous on! i can be a bit caustic in my interactions with online strangers however, and that's my fault. i am sorry if i had ever made you feel like you couldn't talk to me; it is one of my major weaknesses. I am trying to get better at reining in my emotions, but i do have a hard time with it.

Second, I apologize because as a newer WoW player, this may all be a bit overwhelming to you.

The situation with Garrosh is complicated because yes, it is true that his story was changed partway through, but yes, it's also true that Garrosh's "worst version" is his canon, or "true in WoW" version of himself. He has zero regret or remorse for his actions, and his fictional villainy has inspired violence and hatred in real life (mass shooting trigger warning at this link).

Garrosh is characterized as a fascist—by both fans and by Blizzard themselves—and many people have drawn parallels to real world hateful, racist leaders like Trump and Hitler. Also, the Blizzard (ex-)employee most responsible for Garrosh from the very beginning is Alex Afrasiabi ("Garrosh was my guy"), who is one of the main perpetrators of the sexual harassment and discrimination mentioned in the recent Blizzard lawsuit. As a result, Garrosh as a fictional character and Garrosh as a representation of real-life hatred and violence across history and behind the scenes at Blizzard bleed together, which is why so many fans (appropriately) have such a strong negative response to him. Many fans also played through the years of Garrosh's character shift and felt betrayed for ever having believed in him, or they started playing later in his story and know him only as the incredibly evil character that he is. That impact may be lost on a newer player; although that culture shock is one of the reasons I became so fixated on Garrosh.

Therefore, many people are right to be wary of die-hard Garrosh fans (or "Garrosh apologists") who say things like "Garrosh did nothing wrong". The "[x] did nothing wrong" meme is originally "Hitler did nothing wrong", after all, and there are many people who believe Garrosh truly "did nothing wrong" despite the canon itself saying otherwise (again) (and again). It's also why I try to make it abundantly clear that I may like Garrosh as a character, but my love for him is only as a fictional character. It's fine to be a fan of the character and wish he turned out differently; the game itself acknowledges his wasted potential. But it's also important to know why people dislike him and may react strongly, although that does not give them any excuse or right to be cruel to you.

Oof. I really ought to make a video essay about all my complicated Garrosh feelings one day, lol. Anon, I am always happy to talk about Garrosh any time and at great length, so you are free to send as many asks as you like :)