Can we pretty please get a Grian and Xelqua meet-up?? I love how you draw Xelqua and Grian and I just need to see what they would do if they meet......for science of course

wait hold on.. goes crazy .. I don’t have a design for Xelqua, that was just Grian earlier, but…. I think it’d go well

I think Xelqua is his patron, so he’d be excited to meet him !

but I was also playing with the idea that Little Grian here is a reincarnated version of Xelqua, but still looks up to him, prays to him, would want to be picked up and hugged by him, the safety of it. (How can he be reincarnated and still have a form here ? Well the divine can be a bit finicky)

Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present

So I was reading the famous Merthur fic and

WHY DID THIS MAKE ME CRY?? I AM CRYING RIGHT NOW. IT’S JUST SO SWEET. AND I DEFINITELY SHOULD SLEEP

I’m catching up on Doc’s last video and the sequence of him being so smug about his pranks on Grian and Scar, and then “..what the heck is this?” about the glass structure in the perimeter into a hoard of chickens loading in beneath him is so funny lmao

Also until watching Ren’s new episode earlier and now this one, I didn’t realize that some of the perimeter is chunk loaded so the chickens would just keep being made even when no one was around and damn, the fact that there are so many that there’s a very clear edge to the entity render distance is crazy. Shoutout to his computer for not just crashing the game instantly. My pc could never

Oh this is hysterical

I might just be sleep deprived

yeah so I just spent the last 30 minutes looking for a bracelet that was around my wrist- how was the rest of y'alls nights?

btw in absolutely unsurprising news I fucked up the exam of that class I'm taking for the third time badly again.

in very surprising news, apparently Something happened, idk if the dean said something to the professor or I looked like a distressed broken down wet rat enough or he just doesn't want to see me in his class again or idk, maybe it's not good for him if someone fails his class three times, but he actually offered that I could do a written exam on friday instead? which. is extremely surprising. good, because it gives me another afternoon to study and I can draw and go back to questions on a written exam, even if I have to shuffle around the other exams and papers now, just. very surprising.

I can tell i am now experienceing actual real sleep deprivation and not just the omnipresent idiopathic hypersomnia fake sleepiness that my stupid lying body never shuts up about. I can tell because I am fallijng asleep in class regardless if I take my medication and I feel like everything is so, incredibly stupid and horrible, and everyone giving me homework or telling me to do anything is attacking me. And I can;t hold a conversation. And people are noticing my strange manner and pointing out that I seem wrong. And yet here we are AGAIN I have AGAIN stayed up late AND not gotten any work done. And on top of that I broke my fucking glasses tonight because I left them sitting on my fucking bed. And I'm freaking my parents out by crying over the phone and also I think I actually injured my shoulder last week its been hurting for four days now. and I'm so sad and mad at myself for not sleeping and not working but I can't work because I havent slept and I cant sleep because I havent worked. And every single time I get in a bad time like this my dad worries im going to die because i was suicidal for like a week in 2019 and then he gets mad at me for worrying him and I feel so so so guilty. Im so so sad.

I am JUST out of the premiere of A Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes and listen. Listen. I need to know if others have also seen the Vision™ that is the guy who played Snow and Hunter Schafer as the perfect Charles and Camilla casting. Im talking SPECIFICALLY to people who've seen the movie bc I just googled the Snow actor and he looks NOTHING like he does in the movie but LISTEN. IF YOU'VE SEEN THAT MOVIE AND READ TSH PLS TELL ME YOU SEE IT AND IM NOT COMPLETELY INSANE???

Unhinged thought before I go to bed which imma hide because it's me being thirsty for the possessive invisible yandere

Regulus: " No harm will come to you. Ever. From anyone. Even yourself. Even by accident."

Me:"...bitch what if I want that? Are you fucking kinkshaming me? In my own house? You know, I'm okay with the whole being immobilized thing but I think letting me have a more active role would be pretty fun. Like, doesn't it get boring otherwise?"

Regulus just staring at me like he can't believe I said that while he was on a possessive rant

Me: "what? You said you want me to feel pleasure, to feel good, right? I'm going to give you notes, babe"

damn I miss playing wolves in my friend's back yard .... rb to play wolves with your mutuals in their back yard<3

why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

slept literally all day lol ✌🏽

sometimes I wonder if my ADHD meds actually work or if they just take away the sleepiness bc they're stimulants (I think that's the word in english)

and I can't tell the effects apart bc I'm constantly sleepy

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

Tumblr please don't get rid of the boop before I learn how you do the evil and the super and all variants