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themeeplord · 5 months

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I just wanna,, I just,,

I want to hold,,,,

#some well needed self indulgence :')#I missed the cryptid boys..#absolute beloveds <3 #art #my art #cryptid sightings #cryptid!eclipse

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starflungwaddledee · 4 months

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some rather strong first impressions were made.

required reading for the magical "voice" headcanon and another for starstruck's signature in particular. asked by @trainerbob23 !

#did i need to do a 9 page comic for this... well who knows. i had this scene in mind for a long time and wanted to do it justice!#important moment for both of them. you can see starstruck just generating the bandee shaped mental illness in real time.#and bandee resolving to be her point of contact with waddle dees if the others can't handle it #he is after all; the strongest and the bravest and the best of them.#“what is this signature like” it's like meeting something that has a human face but you can tell it is Not Human. think: uncanny valley #it also took her quite some time to pick up her own voice. she could not speak (popstarian) on her own for a while #she does not mimic anymore though if she can help it because it tends to weird others out and she wants to avoid that!!#it's not like a fun or enjoyable impersonation; it's like a perfect recording on a device.#also i guess this is *finally* the reveal of the 'hospital' mentioned previously that folks noticed and also like... her name 😂#anyway.... thank you to everyone who voted for starstruck in that poll and has encouraged this insane self indulgence... wow.#never thought i'd get to draw stuff like this and have others look forward to it. i really hope you'll enjoy this!!!#my art #my comics #starstruck dee #bandana waddle dee

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sketchy-tour · 4 months

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I love getting new followers after posting stand alone WH art because I sit here wondering how long until they get jumpscared by my oc x canon :3c

#text post #just rambling #Which i need to draw more colored art of #i put it to the side to focus on more art that I felt the whole fandom could enjoy cause. idk. i wanted to!#sometimes i worry my self indulgent stuff bogs down my work #plus I mean. it doesnt do as well numbers wise most the time. which doesn't discourage me from drawing it!#but i do sit here like “oh maybe i could draw more stuff more people can enjoy!#idk idk. needless to say. i wanna draw more Dandy work lmao #oh so much to draw and so little time.#also wanna draw some Ivy Darling. my beloved baby boy.

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rotisseries · 4 months

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inspired by elli's poll lol cause this seems fun actually but if you guys have bad answers I'll kill myself on your doorstep or smth

#“rori all of these are your faves how can there be a bad answer” well I still have an internal ranking on some of these #and if all of you pick an option that I think pales in comparison to the others. well. hm #I know what's gonna sweep though because two of these are niche as hell and 4 maybe 5 of these are things you people don't follow me for #fun fact I actually had to scrape my brain to make sure I couldn't come up with any more #I am unintentionally very picky on what is a favorite apparentlyyyy #I also just don't watch/read enough stuff these days so there's that #AND I NEED LONG TERM EXPOSURE TO KNOW THEY'RE STICKING AROUND #so like. I have some options but I don't KNOWWW if they're sticking yet #but this feels like such a small poll lmao #also no sapphics on here this is actually cause I hate women-#NO. JOKING. zelink is here. I almost put gideon and harrow but I'm in a perpetual state of not having finished tlt #and I couldn't put nebetta and darya I was drawing the line at 2 tbos ships. well. actually. changed my mind #not editing these tags actually you guys can see my thought process #WAIT AND SAYMARI. FUCK. I LITERALLY MADE A PLAYLIST FOR THEM I LOVE THEMMM #ok. is 4 tbos ships too many. hmm #I said 2 of these are niche now four of these are niche it's really the “which tbos pairing is your fave” poll #THIS POLL IS SO FUNNY IT'S SO SELF INDULGENT I HAVE TO TAKE OUT AT LEAST ONE TBOS SHIP #I should add one more general one...#cause I do actually want genuine and varied answers I gotta give y'all options so they don't all pool at the first two #I also almost put ellie and abby on here.. that would've been so funny four popular 1 rarepair 3 super niche ships #ellie and abby are soooo interesting to me though so of course the thought of them having something horrible going on together compels me #and they are one of my 3 favorited ao3 tags... they deserve a place...#ok well while I debate on that I'm putting akutagawa and atsushi on here I admittedly have only had like two months of exposure to them #but it is enough I can tell they are so crazy to me #the way my tags are just me overthinking everything on what is supposed to be a fun and silly poll... no one does it like me I'm afraid

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nilesmoon · 2 months

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infinite wealth if sawashiro said "who gives a shit about ebina im going to hawaii with ichi" and then the rest of the game is a family vacation

#Ok so here's my dream scenario. It starts w kicking kiryu out of the narrative bc girl. I love the guy but he does not need to be here!!#kicking him out of the narrative also banishes the ebina stuff. I'm still keeping him around but #he'll be basically built up to be the main antagonist of 9. We're ONLY focusing on the cult stuff for 8 #the way 8 closes him off is already sequel bait so give him a proper focus game w 9 #Anyways now that that's out of the way. My worstie sawashiro does indeed become a party member.#His moveset is mostly blade damage w some blunt damage mixed in. YES I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT GAME MECHANICS #His singular elemental move is him flicking a cigarette at the enemy. Yes this is based off of that one scene w ichi in 7 #ANYWAYS I HAVE MANY IDEAS I CANT TYPE THEM ALL OUT RN BUT. FAMILY VACATION ARC. PLEASE #ITS INSANE TO ME HOW KASUGA 'I LOVE MY FAMILY' ICHIBAN WAS NOT ALLOWED TO PROPERLY INTERACT W HIS FAMILY???#AND THE MAJORITY OF SAWASHIROS CONFLICT INCLUDED CAST MEMBERS WHO DIDNT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT HIM????#I keep thinking back on that scene where ebina shows him passed out on that chair and THE INTENDED AUDIENCE FOR #THAT SCENE WAS AN OCEAN AWAY LIKE GIRL. WHAT WAS THE POINT???#well another perspective of that scene would be that sawashiro would be glad that ichi wasn't the one that came to rescue. which is. Misery #me when characters are defined by their guilt 💥💥💥💥😵💥💥💥😵‍💫💥💥💥😱💥💥💥💥😫💥💥💥#Well. If y'all read all these tags. thanks. If anyone is curious about this self indulgent au that I've created feel free to hit me up #(Please hit me up I'm desperate to talk abt the arakawa family misery and I deeply wish this game was even more miserable)#rgg #nile talks

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nartblartmallcop · 1 year

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"…I'm your best friend?" "Uh, yeah of course? We're like way close!" "I mean I know you. I know which one you are…" "Look Snipes I'm leaving you all my wicked stuff!" "Yeah but I don't want it."

#tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #sniperscout #fluffybird #doodles #ship crossover cause i swear the vibes match REALLY well #ngl this is mostly just so i can post some tf2 content here #ive been making a bunch already but i keep not posting it #cause its either too self indulgent and niche and would need So Much explaining #or cause its supossed to be a pic in like a series of multiples #anyways. fluffybird coded speeding bullet

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing?#i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood?#hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing?#idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh.#unrelated

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an-inky-fingered-lass · 7 months

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May, Coulson, and Daisy, and moments from a day or two in the building of a new life. A story for learning to trust that the good things in your life are going to stick around, and for the days when even those good things are still a little bit hard.

May breathed out a long, slow exhale and nudged into park, staring sightlessly out the window. Her phone pinged with a text. Simmons, probably. Checking in. She wouldn’t trade what they had now for this world or any other, but she missed it, sometimes, the bustling base. Always having something to do, defensible walls.

The text was headed hi May. May stared at it for a long moment, keeping her palms wrapped around the steering wheel. She didn’t feel much like May, right then. Melinda, maybe. For once. Just a woman sitting in her car with an aching thigh and a switchblade in her pocket, feeling every single one of her fifty-two years. Exhausted with not doing a damn thing. She hadn't felt this way in so long.

She felt like Agent May, like she would never, ever be able to be anything else.

May shut her eyes hard and then opened them again. She muted the radio and pulled back onto the road, driving steadily towards home.

Read the rest on Ao3

#it happened it happened i finished it #philindaisy #very very philindaisy #look i meant to write wonderful profound tags but that's where we're at #this fic means so much to me #and i am so nervous right now but also so excited to finally post it #some things still hurt and some things are still hard but that's okay #because there's time now; there aren't any lives at risk or any worlds on the line #and this is a story for those times in between #when you havent quite convinced yourself to believe that quite yet #but things are good. all is well. and there's time.#i wrote this because i needed it #and then it took a life of its own #(ahem as in 13k of scrapped drafts in my drive life of its own. oops.)#this DID NOT want to work until i just. let it happen. and then it did.#this was very self indulgent and it has just carved out its spot in my heart #philinda #melinda may #mama may #phil coulson #agents of shield #daisy johnson #aos fic #inkspinner fic #river's writing #fanfiction

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leofrith · 1 month

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i miss working on my longfic so fucking bad 😩

#the motivation to write has kind of been returning in small spurts but not enough for anything substantial #and honestly it feels like everyone has well and truly moved on from acv #so while this is definitely my own self indulgent little project it's still not gonna feel great if it gets no engagement ya know?#it just really sucks that this project that brought me a lot of joy for a whole year is just. sitting there collecting dust.#uuuugghghghgghggf #and this isn't even touching on the extremely impulsive 'one shot' from the holidays that i still haven't posted the last chapter of #i need to go back and make some edits to that cause my god some of it is. so bad ❤️#ky posts text

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curseofdelos · 2 months

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honestly though I think I need to be better at taking that "write self-indulgent shit" advice

#I mean everything I write IS self-indulgent to some degree #if I cared about growth then I would commit to a niche instead of writing whatever character or relationship I'm excited about at the time #with little consideration on how many people will actually read it or how well it would do numbers-wise #but sometimes I feel like I need to go back to where I was last summer when I was writing stuff exclusively for myself #I wasn't putting pressure on myself to finish things I was writing for the joy of it and out of passion for the idea #I think my priorities have shifted to writing things I want to post rather than simply writing things I enjoy and I need to fix that #I have a Bianca and Nico-centric AU I love a whole lot but I haven't made a real attempt at writing it bc I'm worried I won't finish/post i #and I think I need to allow myself to indulge in writing it even if I never finish it and I'm the only person who ever gets to experience i #(to be clear I'm still going to post fic it's just this one idea I think I need to let myself write even if I never post it)

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jokingmisfit · 2 years

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Two Pretty Lies (Part 1)

Damien Darhk x fem!reader, Eobard Thawne x reader

Summary-The reader was a hero called in by the Legends to help keep the Legion of Doom from making Doomworld. Well, they failed and Doomworld happened. The only problem is that both Damien Darhk and Eobard Thawne had developed “affections”/obsession for the girl. Rather than giving her a dreadful fate they put her the path she would have gone if she never got her powers. Turns out the ex-hero experiences nothing but pain in this new reality. Eobard and Damien didn’t approve of this life for the reader so they decided to take her in, to give her a better life, with them.

Warnings- Starts with the reader getting the crap knocked out of them, Gory(sorta), Depressed thoughts, Reader knowing they might die (they don’t obviously), Passing out from blood loss, Distortion of reality

All you knew to do was run, so, despite the pain, you ran. You ran for two blocks before getting to a very familiar cafe. They were off your trail and you needed help. Without thinking too hard about it you went quickly through the door.

You swayed a bit as you pushed through the door. It felt like all you could hear was a ringing and your own labored breathing. You barely even realized, Margret, the waitress you knew so well was panicking while leading you to a seat.

You couldn’t quite catch what she was saying as she ran around in a panic.

You couldn’t see clearly the other people who were there.

You barely registered the hand pressing a towel to the large gashes on your side. Gashes that were the main source for the blood pooling on the cafe's floor.

You did however understand that there wasn’t a lot of time till you faded either temporarily or permanently was up to what the small group did next.

“You might want to call an ambulance.” you said in a whisper. It was barely audible but with the close proximity of the person holding you up you knew someone got the message.

Someone was closely holding you. It seemed endearing. A touch you’ve forgotten, but you knew this person didn’t care about you; they just wanted to provide comfort for what could be your last minutes. At least that’s what you thought. Then again there were so many thoughts running through your head.

You couldn’t feel anything at this point. Everything seemed to be like an old memory you can’t remember. Time felt like it was going too fast and too slow, it felt meaningless.

You felt like all this was useless. You should have let the gang take the life that seems so pitiful and tiring. You wanted to let this go. All of it. It seemed closing your eyes was the best medication for these horrible thoughts, so you did.

Breathing became easier as you no longer felt so heavy. The lightness in your heart was alarming, but you welcomed it in anyways. Feelings disappeared and so did any thoughts as you let go even just for a little while.

You’ll be better soon and if you’re not you’ve grown enough to accept this fate.

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homosexualcitron · 5 months

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I love doing art trades sm i wish i had more time

#my comic takes a lot already #and i'm almost done with the chapter i'm working on #but i have some stuff to do during the break i'll be taking #like an art trade and a secret santa and i wanna start a big project #next time maybe idkk.. or maybe i'll take 1-2 i need to find moots who can be patient in case #Well i *have* time but this is the kind of stuff that take me a lot of energy and need to uuh #be self indulgent uurg im so easily overwhelmed sry

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abel-draws · 1 year

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Train doodles

#batsona #traditional art #pen sketch #bat #suit #i love them #anyway hello there #i miss drawing so much I need assistance #I'll have Scarce free time until june~july tho so i won't be posting as much as I'd like here #screaming #i wanns draw so many things #crawling up the walls #i may post some rougher sketches like this here for a while since that's all I'll get to do (if I have time for even that dhfjgjgkh)#so yeah #see u all hope you're doing well #i appreciate that some people follow an art blog as self indulgent as this honestly shfngng #makes me happy

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starpros-sunshine · 2 years

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Tried to finish the sketch from yesterday to get a bit more comfy with the program

#if I told you that this is what I consider full rendering #well maybe not a ''full'' rendering but yeah that's average to most of my drawings that I consider finished #I still need to figure out a way to draw Eichi #idk why but it never feels quite roght when I draw him #most characters that aren't Mayoi and Tori actually #this was a very self indulgent one I wanted to draw bunny and I drew bunny #haven't done one of those face centered things in so long #but yes bunny!!#might try drawinh Wataru next #or I'll draw Macchan again so I have something for when nyx comes back #also on a completely different note #the thinhs changing your headline thing on yout blog does to your mood #unparalleled feeling #I've had Gambling Addiction Incoming for so long and I've been debating on changing it for some time now #but I never found a good replacement until now #this feels like I'm really rounding up the Tempest theme it's like the finishing touch the cherry on top if you will #enstars #eichi tenshouin

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muffinrag · 11 months

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too embarrassed to write smut alone in my room

#killing my mormon parents with hammers for raising me to be like this #tbh part of it is also that i've never actually. had sex.#and that makes me nervous to write sex because what if it's not sexy!!!#what if some random can tell from the way i write that i've never actually fucked!#these fears are inherently silly because i'm almost certainly never going to publish this ever. it's just self-indulgent smut for me #which is somehow still too embarrassing to write!#need me some weed it's easier with weed #problem with weed is that i tend to give up on writing and just go lie in bed and. well yknow.#anyway am i procrastinating writing a sex scene by complaining on tumblr? yes #gonna try to stop doing that now #muffinrag blabs #text

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un-onnie-mousse · 11 months

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Preach But Not Practice

There are two people.

Ordinary people.

People like you and me with a face, body, eyes, ears, hands, legs, mouth and consciousness. They are talking to each other. Looking further closer, one can hear what they are talking about. One is weeping about their dilemma and the other is comforting.

The weeping one is going on and about their problem, which by the way, doesn't seem much of. It was a normal obstacle people face in daily life. A small problem that a person can solve just by pulling their act together and moving on. Nevertheless, it is fine to seem vulnerable just for a moment.

So what's the difference with this weeping person? Well, this one doesn't realise that the solution is right under their nose. They go on and on about themselves and how they're suffering. Without taking even a breath's pause.

The other one is patient nevertheless, they listen to the weeping one carefully and soothe their nerves by offering good advice in interjections.

The patient one listens very well but why? Why is it necessary to let go of one's pride and time just to hear about a selfish person's selfish desires? They can leave, can't they?

But they don't.

They chose to suffer by listening to them.

That is because even when a hundred arrows strike through them, they will still tend to others with one or two arrows struck through them.

They're going to suffer anyway, why not do it in silence while uplifting others?

They think, "Just maybe if I help them they might help back", but that will never happen.

For the healed and healing will forget about others and care for themselves only.

There are two people. Ordinary people. People like you and me with a face, body, eyes, ears, hands, legs, mouth and consciousness. They are talking to each other.

Looking further closer, one can hear what they are talking about.

One is weeping about their dilemma and the other is comforting.

It is not a simple problem that can be solved by pulling one's act together.

Maybe they're in a situation where they can't even pull their act.

They crave help and validation from others.

The other person gladly offers advice and occasional compliments to mend their hurt heart and broken brains.

It seems like a healthy conversation.

Looking closely one realises, there is a single arrow piercing both of them.

The listener is brave enough to pull the arrow from the other but is frightened to do with their own.

For they are not ready to suffer the pain they've grown numb to. They'd rather accept it and move on.

Who can comfort those, who live through the numbing of their pain, crumbling from inside?

Who'd notice their suffering?

#2amthoughtsinsteadofsleeping #a bit self indulgent but fuck it #brainrot #well all need some milk #I'm out of hashtags #I'll take a nap now mmkay #writing #words #poem #poetry #tumblr poems #poetsandwriters

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